only me…*UPDATED AND FINISHED WITH NO(fewer) TYPOS SO READ AGAIN*

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this has been the 2 weeks of “only me”.

i’m in LA… i shouldn’t be. i should be in the air on my way to san luis obispo, but no i’m in LA.

i managed to get 3 hrs of sleep before going to the airport for my flight to dallas. no problem. i didn’t even really have to wait to board cuz i was sorta running late. but then there was a head wind and we were late getting into dallas. so i almost miss my flight from dallas to LA cuz i have a whole 20 minutes to get to another terminal. and of course there are no signs, and the ones for the sky tram aren’t clear. then ass holes are slow and i miss the sky tram. but i get to the gate and board the plane….but it’s snowing, a whole 5 snowflakes (i counted) and they have to spend an hour and a half de-icing the plane. SUPER! my layover in LA was an hour and 15 minutes. no way am i making the flight. we get to LA earlier than they said but it took so long to get to the gate i’m late again. but then the gate i need is only a few away from where we got off the plane. COOL! people let me deboard and run only to find out that i have to take a shuttle to gates that are only a few numbers away. with 5 minutes to get there, so not happening. fuck. they try to get me on a united flight at 1:15 but don’t because for some reason i wouldn’t be able to get to the gate in the next 45 minutes before it leaves. ?????? so i am now booked on a flight at 3:40 out of LA to san luis obispo.

but of course i’m on a wild goose chase now cuz i gotta get to the united terminal. so i have to take a american airlines bus from point A to point B. then i have to take the continental bus to point C. then walk down an alley. wtf. so i find united finally and my ticket makes it seem like i’m paying another 235$ to get from LA to SLO. NO FUCKING WAY I’M NOT PAYING THAT. so i go to customer service to ask if i’m being charged and then they can’t find my reservation in their computer for the united flight. wtf. they finally find it cuz they had my name wrong and are trying to call someone about something. they can’t get through to them so they tell me to go down to the gate. but i don’t know why so when i get there i’m all…i don’t know why i’m talking to you they told me to come down here. they don’t know why i’m there either and tell me i can leave to get food or whatever but then they call me to come back cuz i need to go to TSA to get searched. wow i’ve never been so thouroughly frisked before. i was violated haha not really. but wow. was surpising. ok now keep in mind this is alot of walking and i haven’t really slept in 24 hrs and i’m freaking starving cuz i couldn’t get food or go pee in dallas since i was late for that flight too, and have a massive headache. soooo tired. and the duty free shop is closed wtf! BUT…while waiting at the gate, a man got arrested for being drunk. haha.

meanwhile…now that that’s out of the way…so the flight from dallas to LA i got to sit next to the most typical dallas old lady…er at least, she was my stereotypical dallas old lady. bright pink and orange leopard print shirt, big diamonds, poofy blonde cotton candy hair, fake eye lashes, fake nails. yeah. twas fabulous. of course she violated the i-have-my-book-out-and-am-“reading”-so-don’t-talk-to-me rule. blahblahblah talk talk talk yuck.

FINALLY get to san luis obispo which has the smallest airport i’ve ever seen. basically one room, with a baggage belt. i definitely won’t be able to come back there and sleep til my flight. crap. ok. i call a cab which takes forever, and i see the greatest woman ever. it’s a grandma picking up her family. she’s got blond hair all big in ringlets. she’s wearing a white knitted sweater, a homemade skirt with snowmen on it, blue leggings, and white cowboy boots. so wonderfully horrible. i took a pic on my phone but it’s crap of course. had the coolest cab driver, he knew that adr2’s ringtone when she called was animotion. and he’s the first american cab driver i’ve ever had.

so i get to the venue and find adr2 and bliss and get let in. waited forever for autolux to come on, and i must say they were very welcome compared to having to see dfa or queens again. these supremely annoying people ended up behind us, but they told me that i had cool clothes and looked exactly like what a nin fan should look like…?!? ok. satin pants from guess and the pirate jacket from hot topic. nothing fancy. ok. anyway….the show. josh freese has replaced alex who had replaced jerome dillon. i like josh. so that was cool. same basic setlist with the addition of starfuckers, which i did not miss from the other shows haha. got a bit killed. not the front of my rib cage this time, cuz i had a girl in front of me for padding, but 2 guys on the sides of me beat me up with their elbows and arms in my rib cage. was a bit rough though i have no visible bruises. club shows are amazing. er rather…college gym shows LOL. trent commented that it was the strangest place he has ever played, and that he was going to fire his booking agent except that it turned out to be pretty cool. he talked alot. it was cool. great great show. as always.

after the show, since i couldn’t hang at the airport, i had adr2 take me to a hotel, so i did manage to sleep for 6 hrs. back to the one room airport to leave for home. slept through most of the flight to dallas. ah dallas. did i mention how i fucking hate dallas? because yeah, guess what, we were delayed in dallas AGAIN. at least this time i didn’t have to make a connection, i just had to go find my car to get home. i wander all over to find the gate, then sit there and sit there and sit there and why aren’t we boarding? and why has the time when we were to have taken off come and gone and we haven’t boarded still? oh because one of the flight attendants decided not to show up. WTF. so it took over an hour for this girl, who we were told was IN THE FRIGGEN BUILDING to show up. the excuse was that dallas had a hard day yesterday what with the 32 degree temperature and all the delays because of the 5 snowflakes, they were all still recovering. YOU STILL HAVE A FUCKING JOB AND RESPONSIBILITY TO SHOW UP. she should be fired. how irresponsible. an entire fucking plane of people stuck because you can’t get out of bed or whatever? fuck that. so pissed. anyway, so we take off an hour late, but beat the snow storm home. uneventful flight.

home now. tired. desperately need to brush my teeth. after all the trip was still totally worth it, the show was awesome, and yeah. i’d do it again. and i liked the area in california. it turns out it was near where michael jackson lived haha. my total travel time was 25 hours. lol i’m insane i know. and i got tix to the toledo and cinci shows for us too.

this was more entertaining in my head before i actually got home and a chance to type it out. boo.

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dream

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every day i’ve been dreaming something about nin and nin concerts. this time nin was playing an outdoor concert at a local college. i had a friend, carrie, from boston coming to stay with me for the night for something completely unrelated. for some reason adr2 and i didn’t know about the show, so we didn’t have tickets. we found out because we went by the site of the concert and saw everything being set up. so we hung around and it was around 9 in the morning and only a few people were there, but they had been let into the show, and a few had gotten their place at the barrier already. but we were surprised that hardly anyone was there and there was still tons of room up front. so we debated whether or not to get tickets for it, cuz apparently you still could get them. we saw sweeny but he was busy so we didn’t bother him, just kept walking around the field which was the GA floor. i didn’t know if we should get tickets because i didn’t know if carrie would be interested in going with us. we walked up to the barrier where security guards were giving out wristbands to the people who were already there. we asked if we could have them as well. there were 2 different colors, blue and orange. blue were given to those who were students at the college, but we weren’t, so he gave us orange ones. even though we didn’t have tickets. so we were like SCORE we got in for free. i remembered carrie again, and tried to get in touch with her to see if she wanted to come to the show too. i remembered that i had the same color wrist band saved from another show, so she could just put that one on and get in for free too. then i remembered that ANOTHER person who we had apparently met in line at a different nin show was coming to stay with me that night too. but i had no where for them to sleep except the floor. and i forgot their name and how to get a hold of them. so once the line for the show formed (cuz apparently they made us get into line way later even tho we were already “inside”) i wandered around looking for them. found the person, who’s name was apparently erin, and she was holding her dufflebag and pillow and stuff that she brought to stay the night. i had forgotten she was coming right to the house to drop her stuff off, and obviously i wasn’t there when she got there. we got let in again, and suddenly this was all indoors. we went up to the front and there were chairs sitting around, but just the first row was chairs, and we were like wtf. we were totally gonna throw them out of the way once the show started.

the end.

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“without sounding like a pretentious art dickhead”…

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“The nearLY thing was…as soon as I got off the road from The Fragile tour, I went home and I was really kind of depressed. Not kind of depressed, I was really depressed. …… But I still got off the road and was so depressed and I think part of it, to be honest with you, was that I was really, really concerned about Trent. He’s been very honest and forthcoming about his alcohol abuse in interviews and he’s not bullshitting. I thought that he was doing irreparable damage to himself and that it was going to end in tears…… I wasn’t ready to be in a situation where I’m working with this guy that I really respect and care about and watching him try to destroy himself day after day.” – Jerome Dillon

how fucking adorable is that? i miss jerome. i wish he could have stayed.

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from trent reznor:

I just woke up and I’m tired and…

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I’d just like to say thanks to you guys. I see a lot of you at a LOT of shows and it doesn’t go unnoticed. Touring can get a bit overwhelming with all the moving around and lack of time to yourself, etc. but looking out in the crowd and seeing familiar faces is a really cool feeling. Some of you have put an insane amount of effort into following us around – I hope it’s worth it!
Thank you.

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thank you

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the 14th show – toronto – up there with philly as the best arena show of this tour.

(and wow hey. I’m going to see them at calpoly in san luis obispo california. it’s a club show again. i figured the spiral presale tickets that went onsale yesterday would be gone by now, but nope. just got a ticket. ha i guess i have to go now. 300$ flight here I come. and the following day is u2 in buffalo.)

headed up to toronto around 8. was supposed to be 7, but somehow i didn’t get up until 7…oops. didn’t much matter, we were the 3rd group of ppl in line, there were about 7 of us total when we got there. amira met us later, and we were joined by vanessa and siobahn (sp?) the girls from france. luckily for us, we got to spend most of the day inside at the box office, before they gave us our tickets and shipped us out side for 45 min in the freezing cold. got in for soundcheck, which this time was “with teeth”!!!!, “the frail/the wretched”, “deep”, and “wish”. very cool that they’re working on getting “with teeth” back into the set. and again, really really friggen cool to see the sound check. unfortunately there was no meet and greet. kinda disappointed. oh well. sat around after, and when it was time to go on the floor got barrier between trent and aaron. not bad at all.

dfa1979 is from toronto so all their family was there for the show. same as always. i didn’t fall asleep which is good, since that’d be rude. and queens i tried to pay attention but i still hate them. the crowd was nuts. between queens and nin these 2 skin heads pushed up front, and no one besides me and adr2 apparently know how to hold our own up front. they pushed up and got to barrier as well. they were assholes, and adr2 got in a fight with one of them. finally he was like, you are one tough bitch, and asked for a truce hahahah. the show was great! approximately the same set list as it has been. the crowd was nuts. i’m only slightly injured though – thanks to the last crowd surfer during queens who got me in the head, and the way the guy behind me was holding onto the rail around me and crushing my ribs. not anywhere near as injured as the club shows. i swear that trent changed the beginning lyrics of “only” to “i’m becoming more divine as days go by” which was really hot. hahaha.

not much to review, pretty standard show, but it was fucking great. everything went well and trent didn’t get pissed off at anyone this time haha.

2545.8 miles later, the trip is done. totally fucking depressed now. i’m going to go back to bed i think. although i need a rest, i don’t want to return to my shit ass life. i should have gone to montreal for the show today. i’m not sure if adr2 decided to go or not. it would have been tough getting back for work tomorrow and not dying. i do have this cali club show now so i have that to look forward to. and after 15 shows I BETTER FUCKING GET A MEET AND GREET! or SOME special treatment. haha 🙂

getting a “halo 14” tattoo, but i don’t know what kind of font i want yet. gotta look into it.

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camera pics

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ha. so these are pics of two girls at the shows this week, taken on my phone so they’re craptastic

Crying Girl at the Philly Show

Crying Girl at the Philly Show

this was the girl fighting with her boyfriend and crying after soundcheck in philly. ran into the people that were behind us that night, at the WB show, and they remembered that we were making fun of her together hahaha.

Devil Girl!

Devil Girl!

this was the girl who wears the same thing at every show, vinyl red corset, and black vinyl skirt that shows her ass so she wears bloomers underneath, and devil horns. she seriously showed her ass to everyone all the time. had to take a picture.

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it’s a travel day for trent, so it’s a travel day for us

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10 points to whoever can figure out the movie reference in the subject line. adr2 – you’re not allowed to compete haha.

so today was the big drive home from boston to buffalo. left around 9, made decent time. at times it felt so long but in the end it didn’t really. drove through absolute shit weather. started raining around utica, then got worse and worse and stormy, and wind, and yuck. drove right through the weather front. i can’t really complain though because we had really good luck with weather. with the exception of the insane wind in wilkes-barre, it was sunny, and beautiful, and in philly it was actually HOT. we had nice days on the exploring days, and except for the 2 long drives down to dc and home, it was rain free. dreading the weather tomorrow though. it’s going to be in the 40s with rain/snow/wind in toronto. according to the spiral email about tomorrow’s show, if i understand it right, the spiral line might actually be inside where you go between ACC and union station. which would be totally amazing. oh yeah, forgot to mention. we (well adr2 did) talked to sweeney, trent’s…body guard/security guy/runs the show man…about getting trent to do a meet and greet tomorrow. he said he had some influence and he’d try to see what he could do. amira who we met in philly and WB is coming down from michigan to use my extra ticket. she had good luck when she traveled without her boyfriend to madison, got into the aftershow party, so here’s hoping. it was our last chance, until brandi from the spiral said they’d be back january 17th for more shows, and now they’re doing 3 more club shows out in reno and northern cali again. unfortunately the same week as u2 in buffalo but i might try to get out there anyway hehe. not like i have the money or the time off work. and oh yeah…the red tour bus thing. it’s totally trent’s bus. the busses were driving up the ex-fleet center ramp, and the red bus was the only one sweeney escorted. we yelled to ask who was on the bus, and he said he didn’t know, some guy haha. sweeney is really really cool. most body guard/security people are dicks. but he is totally approchable, talks to all us crazy fans, is a really nice accomodating guy. nice to see really. and the ex-fleetcenter is really the best run venue i’ve ever been to. the guy who runs the shows there, jeff, does a fantastic job letting fans know what is going on, and how he organized the wristband thing for u2 was just fantastic. i told him that too haha.

regardless of them coming back and maybe going out west, i still almost cried on the way home today. piggy from the live cd was on, and i was just like I DONT WANT TO GO HOME and totally almost started to cry. the song choice might not make sense, but it does for me. only one more show tomorrow. only one more time suffering through dfa1979 and the queens, which is fantastic, but only one more time for seeing boy tummy, and trent bounce, and breaking shit. ok and i’ve been really good, but i gotta say it now. Trent is so fucking hot. this dj on the radio today in boston referred to him as “one hot piece of ass”. lol

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bahston

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So. Bliss decided not to go to the Boston show, so I posted an ad on craigslist and ended up being offered side stage tickets for face value. score! so adr2 and i headed to boston around 9, in front of the line, and waited til the guy came to buy the tickets off him. ended up being joined by 2 girls from france/germany who were doing all the east coast and canada shows. we had met them at the philly and wb shows, the one girl got an entire guitar from aaron at the wb show. cool girls. it was sorta cold but not windy or rainy so that was good. got in for soundcheck again. reptile, the frail/the wretched, deep and wish again. we were walking by the speakers during reptile and holy crap it was the best thing ever. we were right up front for soundcheck this time, since there was no struggling to still get a good place in the waiting area so we could get a good place for the show. trent commented that deep “wasn’t a bad song” and that he didn’t know why we all complain about it. and he commented on the seats. the boston show was no GA, all seats even on the floor, which pissed trent the hell off. before march of the pigs he said it was an historic fucking event, because it was the last time he’d ever play a show with seats on the floor. that it was his fault for not reading the contract before he signed it, but it would be the last time he’d ever play that shit hole. during march of the pigs, as it started he told everyone to “shhh” and “calm down”, and during the “doesn’t it make you feel better” he said “i don’t feel better at all.” he broke his guitar, threw stuff. typical pissed trent haha. it was awesome. the show was cool cuz of the anger at the seats element. at one point he asked if we were having a good time, because he kept forgetting there were seats, and he thought everyone looked pissed off. he reminded us the seats were for our own safety. haha and it was funny, cuz both adr2 and i realized we must look choreographed, rocking out the same way hahah. by the end of the show we had a security guard at the end of our row, and adr2 overheard him say he was there to watch us cuz they thought we’d try to jump the rails to get back stage. hahaha.

after soundcheck we unfortunately sat in front of these really annoying girls who engaged in non stop bitching about how disappointed they were that they only got soundcheck. how if there was no meet and greet they could have done more songs at soundcheck. how they felt like they were in high school being penned up in a section of seats in the arena and not allowed to go outside. blahblahblah bitchbitchbitch ungratefulungratefulungrateful. they started a singalong which was funny for about 2 minutes. then it got old real fast. and seriously, they did not stop bitching about how disappointed they were. adr2 got so pissed that she left, and i eventually was like, hey, 13th show here and no meet and greet so shut your fucking mouth.

and oh yeah, it’s november, and it’s not even thanksgiving. do we REALLY need commercials featuring christmas music, and entire radio stations playing nothing but christmas music already?!?!?!?!

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