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ha carolyn, click here LOL i didn’t make it either. but it made me laugh. i think that page is still up somewhere. i recall looking at it somewhat recently.

my meeting went well. very interesting few hours. not sure how it will pan out though. anyone have 20,000$?

i actually just told kitty “no soup for you”….bad kitty trying to get my soup can out of the garbage.

so tonight, i got to slum it for 6 hours on the fucking MONEY WHEEL. it was bad. seriously, the stupidest people play that “game”. listen, i don’t want to hear you bitch about how the number 1 always comes up, when there are 35 number 1s on the wheel. ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED!?!?! i guess that’s why they call it redneck roulette. there was one guy who played for 7 hours. THE MONEYWHEEL!?!? FOR SEVEN HOURS?!?!?! wtf.

there was all kind of drama at work the last few days. a while ago, probably late nov, early dec, around the same time i was being stalked, a dealer called S got fired for using the N word in front of a black supervisor and some black players. i never really knew the whole story about it, but i guess she said it because the supervisor, A, had been sexually harassing her and grabbing her all day. i had heard that it actually was the players that turned her in for the racial slur, not A. but she was fired for it.

then shortly after that another dealer, R, went to a female pit boss and asked them what to do if you were getting sexually harassed. R ended up filing a report about being sexually harassed by A.

now i’ve known about this since december. one of the people R asked for advice told me about it when i was complaining about my stalker. R was really upset because nothing had been done to A about it. she expected him to be suspended and fired just like S was. but then it gets complicated. R was good friends with S, and it seemed like she might have been setting A up because A is the one who got S fired.

it is not a stretch at all to think that A was sexually harassing anyone, because he was always a big flirt, asking everyone out, etc. it’s seriously not a surprise at all. but it does seem kind of odd with the whole S fired thing, etc. especially because of that A was supposed to have said: “let’s fuck on the table, the cameras won’t see”. that just wasn’t a thing he’d say. even when his exwife who hates his guts was asked if that was something he’d say, she said no.

so anyway. now it’s a few months later, and R is upset because still nothing has been done to A about the harassment. she was advised to go to HR about it. when she did, she found out that her complaint was never filed with HR. which is typical of our managers, given the fact that they told me it was my fault that stalker was stalking me. i highly doubt that any of my complaints against the player were filed either. once at HR, they took over, and A was suspended and fired on Monday night. he said he wasn’t going to fight it cuz R was native and she’d win anyway.

so none of us who know the whole story know what to really think. all i know for sure is that our management needs some serious sensitivity training, and need to be a hell of a lot more unsexist. it’s just not right. maybe this incident will get everyone to realize there are things that can’t be said, there are things to be done when behavior crosses the line, and people will be more careful.

tonight was one of those nights that i wish i was a character in chuck palahniuk’s “lullaby”. i wish there really was a poem i could resite in my head that would kill people at will. because i would kill every single fucker who plays any form of baccarat. as soon as they walked in, they’d drop dead. they’d fall down dead in packs. and everyone would think, weird, i wonder why all these people are just dropping dead. and no one would ever know. until maybe people realized we had no bacc players anymore. that might set off flags. maybe i’d have to go to their restaurants and nail shops to do it. i’d only have to kill the ones that i don’t know where they work at the casino. and i’m not talking asians here. i’m talking asian, white, black, purple, australian, EVERYONE. kill all those fucking pieces of shit.

or i wish i was a witch and had spells where i could do horrible things to all of them. and make sure they were in a living hell. with no money to gamble with. i dunno, herpes or something. flesh eating bacteria.

someone once asked me if i rip my cuticles apart because i want to hurt myself. you know, instead of cutting, or punching myself in the face. and i don’t. i seriously honestly don’t. i can remember exactly when the habit started. but there is a certain amount of satisfaction when i can rip a chunk of skin off that’s been really bothering me. and sometimes it’s enough of a satisfaction that i stop doing it for a while. and i know i do it when i’m upset which explains why 3 of my fingers are bleeding right now.

i need a drink. or 12. oh wait, i can’t drink more than 3 drinks without ending up in the ER.

gah jeff martin played buffalo tonight solo acoustic. tonawanda joe emailed me that he did psychopomp with a hurt insert. GAH!!!!!!!!!!!! must. be. bootlegged!

kate told me this wicked rumor about work, and our raise, and back pay. and holy crap if it was true, it’d be friggen amazing. however. i highly doubt it’s true, since soooooooo many casinos pay the same as mine. *vague*

and i am so tired of midi baccarat if i’m on it tomorrow i’m gonna go postal.

holy crap the most awesome job in the area just opened up at the power authority where my dad works. its a photography job, sounds way cool, pays great. of course, it’s an internal posting only right now, and i don’t know how to do everything it mentions in the description. but it’s high school grad and up, and i can do that! haha and i can learn. i can’t imagine it’s a full time position. whatever.

also, entertainment director opened up at work. of course they want 10 years experience in entertainment booking in a multi venue situation. but i could so totally do it. book for 3 places in the casino, take care of the celebrities, and pay them. EASY! god i’d do wonders for that place in that job. haha.

christmas weekend consisted of my incorrect 10-6 shift on friday, got out at 4, but i had to sit there for 3 hours before my shift actually started. got to watch the sabres game so i had that at least. saturday i was going to go explore in canada but it was gloomy and that means bad pictures, so i didn’t, i just slept then went to dinner with adrienne. chilled here watching tv and we made a pie. today was going for a christmas dinner at adr’s with her family for a few hours. then work at 10 again. had to stay til 6 this time. had a strange almost heart to heart with a grave shift manager about how women in this business are treated. that led to my story with stalker and how i was told that it was my fault. she just about had a cow. she said i should really go to HR about it, just to have something on record incase something ever happens again (either with the stalker, or with male supervisors telling me it’s my fault i’m getting sexually harassed). but i dunno. i don’t like to do that sort of thing and get people in trouble. we’ll see.

tomorrow – SABRES GAME! woo!!

i know i say this annually, and multiple times a season, but i hate christmas music. it is my personal hell. and right now, i have mariah carey’s big xmas song stuck in my head. i seriously want to shoot myself.

i have a serious problem with my shoulder. it has been awful painfull all day long. i switched to get onto caribbean stud tonight, so i wouldn’t have to deal out of a shoe with so many repetitive motions. managed to stay there for 5 hours, and while it still wasn’t pleasant it was better. but of course, got sent to bacc in high limit at 1 anyway. was dead for a while but of course that didn’t last very long. gah. after 4 painkillers its not as bad as it was this afternoon but we’ll see how tomorrow is. there’s really nothing i can do except drugs.

anyway. went on the hotel tour. and i’ll take back some of what i said about how it looks. the hotel is actually pretty nice. the casino floor still is hideous, but the lobby is looking nicer as they keep adding more stuff that wasn’t finished for the opening…the neon columns aren’t so neon now that they put these texture things over them. they’ve added plants, and signage. there are also 2 water walls that are not quite running yet but we’re being tested while i was there this afternoon. got to see 2 types of the guest rooms…a corner suite, which was pretty nice, and a standard room. floor to ceiling windows, 42″ plasma tvs, nice cushy beds, huge walk in showers, jacuzzies along the windows of the suites. pretty high class if you ask me. definitely the best thing you can get in the falls that’s for sure. the hallways of the floors are really nice, alot of really pretty wood work. there is a whole hallway that will have some stores, and meeting rooms etc. and there is a decoration pattern they are using in this hallway, that i swear to god is on the outside of the terminal. i gotta look through my pictures. so yeah. it’ll definitely be a nice resort once everything is finished.

tony and i went to dinner at this really nice place in canada which was expensive even in canadian but he got half off, and paid for it, so that was nice. dropped into the old casino cuz he wanted to see what the caribbean jackpot was up to (365,000). didn’t play tho. i gave him my only 5$ canadian to play pai gow with, and we split the 30$ profit hahaha.

tomorrow is groceries and whatever else. need to go by cingular and bitch about my bill, possibly change carriers (tho no one else is any better), and go to my dentist for them to explain why i owe 80 some dollars when my insurance thing said it was covered and that i owed 3.

stalker update!!! he was escorted out by security tonight. about fucking time. lindsay had finished telling me that he was being creepy about getting a hotel room, and that chuck stood up for us and told him dealers can’t date players (chuck was the first person i told about the whole thing). then i find out later he was escorted out for being creepy and perverted to a cocktail waitress. they don’t put up with anything (cuz they get it ALL the time). so hooray for SOMEONE finally making something happen.

going on a tour of the hotel afterall, tho from what i hear it’s pretty useless considering nothing of any interest is finished yet. but i found out tony is going at the same time, so we’re gonna get dinner before work and stuff. that’ll be good.