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well the parents are back. came back last night. when i was gathering the mail while they were gone, i missed a letter that was addressed to me, from geneseo, marked urgent. they were never paid for my tuition for next semester, it was due aug 13th. so i currently owe them 4000 and some dollars. i don’t know what’s going to happen with that, because my loans and state financial aid should have been sent long ago. i could almost swear we got confirmation that my loans were received. anyway, my dad was going to call around today and stuff. i better still be registered for my classes, cuz apparently if i didn’t pay by that date, i might be deregistered or some shit. arg. i also figured out that i didn’t preorder my textbooks from sundance. might go down there monday if i have nothing else to do and get my books. i don’t want to wait in line next weekend. esp now that i don’t have them preordered. neither does danielle, which is very weird, because she’s usually very on top of things.

i finally remembered to sign up for my GRE.. yah i should have been preparing all summer, and even have taken it a few times, but no i’m lazy and now there’s a week left in the summer. spectacular. self handicapping only works when you don’t realize you’re doing it.

well yeah its friday now, adrienne’s store website is still not done, and pictures from my non party are still not uploaded. i was slightly distracted by a few things the past few days, like pictures of brad pitt in seven, and contemplating a delirious redesign. throwing around a few ideas in my head, if any turn out, bye bye bono. we’ll see.

today was my last day at work too…this girl lisa brought in cake and everyone signed a card to me, aww isn’t that nice of them.

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well its been a week since i posted. carolyn came down to visit for the janet concert, and stayed for a week. it was good, since i’m home alone, and scared to death. however all of our activities didn’t go as planned.

so we were going to do a fight club esque week…we were going to be tourists at support group meetings. well we were going to go to a sexaholics meeting on tuesday, but then things didn’t work out with me meeting with the psychologist i “work” for and the bus schedule, so we didn’t end up doing that. then wednesday we were going to go to the 6pm church service at an assembly of god church, but then started doing something and didn’t go. i forget what we were doing but whatever. friday was the janet concert. that was good. we had really good seats. while i don’t like pop music, and i don’t like janet, she’s a jackson, and it was entertaining. saturday was my non-party.

i was planning on having some people over to have some drinks, just hang out whatever. well it turned into a bbq. eric came down from rochester, joe brought rick and janet, and adrienne and danielle came of course. amanda and her boyfriend matt came so we could all pass judgement on him. joe grilled, we attempted to make hamburgers, but they didn’t turn out the best. but people ate them. you would think a cookbook that’s purpose is to show easy things to cook would tell you how to make hamburgers.. nope. they’d rather tell you how to make leg of lamb, cuz that’s SO easy…a total beginner could do that. 😛

anyway, yeah we even made corn on the cob. overall, for a non-party thrown by me, it was pretty sucessful. joe took janet and rick home and then came back, amanda and matt didnt say anything really, but it was cool.

sunday we went to the flea market, and then watched movies. joe and adrienne came over, we watched Seven and Fight Club. Seven rocked, and of course fight club is still brilliant. we got pizza, all that happy horse shit. carolyn and i were going to go to a different church service, at a pentecostal church, but once again, didn’t.

monday i didn’t want to work so i left after 2.5 hours, and called in for the next day. monday was supposed to be power animal day. we drove out to the place where the healing touch meeting was supposed to be held. it was at a nursing home. we go in, and found the room, no one was there yet cuz we were early. but we were both like um, i think we should go. so no power animals for us. we then tried to think of other fight club esque things we could do, that weren’t illegal and didn’t involve killing anyone. the only thing we could think of was to make soap, but we didn’t know where to find a liposuction clinic to steal the fat from. anyway….we also came up with the throwing postcards off of tall things, from Invisible Monsters, but then realized there are no tall things around here to throw postcards off of. so we just went home, adrienne came over and we watched Requiem For a Dream, finally. It was really good, really disturbing and depressing, but really good none the less.

tuesday i didn’t go to work, and just ended up sitting around most of the day. went to fridays for lunch, where i quite possibly could have gotten botulism…i had mildew-ey iced tea, which i was informed today could be tainted with botulism. apparantly iced tea is a good conductor for botulism if the container isn’t cleaned properly. so if i die, that is why. blame it on Fridays. then we went to the craft store, adrienne and carolyn spent some money.. actually i did too, i bought a strand of eye ball lights LOL. i need to get batteries for them….carolyn left tues night, adr and i took her to the bus station, and all that. it was a good week. but now i’m alone again and back to being scared to death to be in my house. lovely.

on a good note, i was informed by geneseo that i will be moving into my delayed townhouse on september 10th. so its only 2 weeks delayed, better than the last group of people that get to move in on october 10th.

i have so much to update on my site, so if your bored, i’ll probably be here all night updating the page, feel free to talk to me

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Janet Jackson in Buffalo

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janet jackson – buffalo, ny – aug 10, 2001

carolyn came to visit, and paid for half my ticket, to see janet jackson. i dont like pop music, but whatever. she’s a jackson.

i don’t like pop music, but i hate r&b even more. 112 opened. they sucked. 4 black boys singing r&b songs. yeah, did not enjoy that at all.

janet came on around 9. opened with “come on get up” from the new cd. we had really super good seats, right side of the stage, row 7, so we could see perfectly (i wish i had seats that good for people i really like). the show was entertaining. the stage was cool, the chorography and visuals were cool. for a pop show, it was good. not sure how much she lip synched. carolyn didn’t think she lip sycnhed anything, but i disagree. when singers wear the head set microphones many times it’s so they can lip synch. all pop stars do it. “you ain’t right” sounded way too produced to have been sang live, but who knows.

highlight for me was “rhythm nation”…lowlight was the fact that she cut out “if”. i’m figuring that everybody there would have loved to see “if”. she could have cut out any one of the new songs, in my opinion, to leave in “if”….or she could have cut out “come back to me” (if that’s the song she played, i can’t remember). of all the songs she played, i would think it was a no brainer to leave in “if” but nooooooooooo she had to go cut it out. blah on her. for “would you mind” janet brings a boy onstage, straps him to a crucifix type device, and mounts him…yeah this kid was so turned on, it was so funny. i mean what guy wouldn’t be when janet is all covered in black vinyl and mounting you…even gay guys would be turned on by that LOL.

setlist:

Come On Get Up
You Ain’t Right
All For You
Love Will Never Do (Without You)
Trust A Try
Come Back To Me / Let’s Wait Awhile / Again (medley)
Runaway / When I Think Of You / Miss You Much / Escapade (medley)
Son Of A Gun
Got ‘Til It’s Gone
That’s The Way Love Goes
What Have You Done For Me Lately / Control / Nasty (medley)
Alright
Would You Mind
***If & Black Cat -cut cuz of psuedo illness***
Rhythm Nation / The Knowledge (medley)
Doesn’t Really Matter
Someone To Call My Lover
Together Again

so overall, it was a good, fun pop show.

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yay finally got my email! geneseo sent an email saying they were doing server upgrades and that email would be down from friday until monday. Ok that’s spectacular except shouldn’t you send that BEFORE the server was taken down so that we don’t get pissed off when we can’t check our mail? they do this EVERY year. Last summer they decided not to upgrade the servers and internet until the weekend everyone moved in. So when we set up the computer we didn’t have internet access….smart.

so yeah i got my emails from the kitchener kid and hate mail guy. hate mail guy is like in his 30s! and he’s immature enough to send hate mail insulting me, my friends, my music… i got over insulting people’s musical tastes in 7th grade. but we’re now having nice conversations… ok not nice, but civil, and not talking about how much he hates my webpage.

and i’m so inlove with this new Live song “deep enough”. they played it at rolling rock. it’s cooler live than it is on the album, but it’s still cool. yeah it’s about sex hah….and Ed from Live WAS in Fight Club like David said. I looked it up on IMDB, he’s a waiter at a restaurant. It’s either in the middle sorta, after the Fight Clubs begin, and he’s all beat up (which would mean he’s in a fight scene too) or it’s the restaurant at the end where Jack and Marla are talking, and Jack makes sure they bring clean food. So now I have to watch it. Maybe tonight.

Watched Office Space last night, edited on comedy central…yeah Eric loves this movie, but you really must have to be a big computer dork like all the people at RIT to think it’s as hysterical as they do. It was amusing at parts, but not laff out loud peeing in pants funny. And I think i might even find it funnier than some other people because I took Industrial/Organizational psych where we discussed some of the stuff that went on in the movie, like the consultant stuff, and motivation…yeah.

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Rolling Rock blog

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back from rolling rock. the weekend was fun. camped at a KOA in a motorhome. i’ll comment a bit on the fest.

oleander – same as artvoice
tantric – whatever
staind – good, aaron is boring on stage tho. the 2 guitarists are nuts. aaron yelled at the ppl throwing mud, and they stopped. aaron had crowd sing most of “outside”.
incubus – i hate incubus, i still hate incubus
deftones – good. chino is funny.
live – awesome. very impressed. ed is really sexy on stage. new song “deep enough” was really cool…their new sound is sorta rap-rock…different
stp – awesome as always. scott got naked, which is always a bonus 🙂

general impressions: as a festival it seemed better done than k-rockathon. they planned for 5 min set changes. we were like no way…try at least 15 min. they were damn good though, because they had a 2 sided rotating stage. so while band was performing, other band was set up on other side of stage. THIS SHOULD BE DONE AT EVERY CONCERT. the Deftones and Live set changes were so fast no one realized the band was actually there. Live was so fast, they started playing, and no one was paying attention figuring it was the roadies checking stuff. Everything there seemed to go really well.

now my email is broken, fuck geneseo. i need to get it cuz i’m expecting some…like the kid from kitchener i met at EC and the guy who sent me hate mail…

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rolling rock fest – latrobe, pa – aug 4, 2001

danielle’s family headed down to Pa on friday afternoon. we camped in the motor home for the weekend at a koa. camping sucks, but it wasn’t that bad. i avoided taking a shower however. whatever.

saturday morning we woke up and it had rained. the sky was overcast, and before i had looked at the weather and it was supposed to be thunderstorms all day. that was good and bad. good because it would have been cooler since it had been mega hot the days before. i didn’t know what to expect there, and i didn’t want to roast. storms would be bad because we’d be stuck in the rain, and it would be muddy, etc. it didn’t rain.

so we drove to a mall, and took a shuttle to the fair grounds where the fest was. we got there around 11. i tried to sell 4 extra tickets that i had gotten from joe, but no luck. so we went inside, walked around the vendor area for a bit, then went and sat in the bleachers on the right side of the stage. the grounds were muddy, so everyone was a mess. we stayed on the bleachers the entire day. the sun eventually came out and it got hot, and somehow danielle got sunburned even tho we were sitting under a roof. but whatever. the people out in the field were muddy and hot and ick.

well when we sat down in the bleachers this really shitty band was on. we thought they were the winners of a battle of the bands contest, and we were wondering who the losers were… turns out they were Clyde, voted the best NYC indie band…right, they fucking sucked. Oleander was on after them. They were the same as at Artvoice in june. Tantric was next, they were whatever. I only know 1 song, it was good i guess. Didn’t overly impress me. Staind was on after Tantric. People started throwing mud, Aaron yelled at them, then someone threw a smoke bomb on stage. Staind was good, Aaron is boring on stage though. People broke out into a huge mud war after that behind the sound booth.

Incubus followed Staind, but they should have gone on before. I hate incubus, I still hate incubus. I guess, for them, they were good. Deftones were after that. They rocked. Chino is nuts. Yah they were good. Live was after Deftones. Holy shit, they were fantastic. I was super mega impressed. I expected a good show, and they delivered. The new songs they did sounded good, the old stuff sounded good, the songs i didn’t know sounded good. Ed was really great. It was just super good.

stp was the headliner, so they closed the show. awesome as always. They played for an hour and a half I think. Maybe not. I don’t know. setlist :

Coma
Vasoline
Meatplow
Big Empty
Piece Of Pie
Sour Girl (Acoustic)
Creep (Acoustic)
Days Of The Week (Acoustic)
Trippin’ On A Hole In A Paper Heart
Long Way Home
Hollywood Bitch
Interstate Love Song
Plush
Down
Dead & Bloated
Sex Type Thing

scott got naked during sex type thing. that’s always a good thing. the set sounded awesome. it was all good.

overall the show was really good. it seemed really organized, and happy. the mud people scared me because i thought they were going to start throwing mud into the bleachers. they also found big pieces of plywood, and i’m like shit, please not another wood stock. but things were ok. the mud people basically kept to themselves, only involving a few people on the outside of the mud circle. i was really impressed with the set changes. the time schedule said 5 minute set changes, and we were like, yeah right. but they did. they were head of schedule for most of the day. they had a 2 sided rotating stage, so while one band was performing, the other side of the stage was being set up for the next band. The Deftones and Live set changes were so fast, the band came out and no one was paying attention. Live started and everyone figured it was roadies checking guitars until everyone realized no, it really was the band. Every concert should have a 2 sided rotating stage lol. the fest’s main bands started at 12, and it was done by 7:30ish.

so after the show, took a bus back to the mall, went back to the campground, etc. left early sunday morning for home. it was cool. dunno if i’d go again, it would depend on who was playing. but it was good. best festival i’ve been to.

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Econoline Crush at Playdium

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econoline crush -playdium -missassaugua, ontario – august 2, 2001

thanks to dan and joe again.

Joe invited me as part of his guest list allowance to go to the show. so of course i wasn’t going to pass that up. we went up there with 2 of his friends, got a bit lost, found it eventually. the playdium is like a big fun center. there’s mini golf and gokarts and stuff.

So we found the bus and Dan was outside so we talked to him for a big, johnny came out to say hi, got a hug, talked a bit. they left to get ready for the show, we went inside during smoother. Smoother i guess is from Hamilton. They were really young. not bad, but not my thing.

now i was supposed to meet heather at the show, by the bathrooms, at 8:45 because Dan had initially said they were playing around 9. Well i didn’t find any bathrooms, and they went on around 8:15. Not good. So i tried to look for her during smoother, and during EC and after but never found her.

The show was good, except it was too hot, and this fucknut kid messed everything up. They were supposed to do 16 songs, they did 11. After Wicked they left the stage, and this kid came out onstage and did his thing about thanks to these ppl and the playdium and that EC would be signing autos at the booth in 5 min. THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO AN ENCORE U RETARD! So he totally fucked things up and ruined the end of the show, which was the best part of the set. I got Trevor’s setlist from the roadie. here it is

sparkle and shine surefire
sinking
you don’t know what it’s like
flamethrower
all that you are
trash
my salvation
make it right
tdm
wicked
encore that wasn’t played:
by the riverside
the devil you know
home
burnt
may i go

they never play burnt! grrrr so we were pissed about that. in the crowd we were standing with a couple of other people we know from buffalo, and some other ppl who are always on the guest list. We were all waiting for the encore, and were like wtf…

so after they did the autograph thing, and me and Joe waited around in there looking for heather, but then we got kicked out by security. So we went back to the bus and sat on the curb there. a few other kids showed up at the bus and we talked to them. EC came back changed, came out and did their thing with the fans. took a few pictures of this kid from kitchener and various band members, Joe and trevor and me and Dan only 6 pics tho so won’t be developed for a while. The band was pissed about the fucked up encore thing, and the kid who did it was there and apologized to them and felt really bad. BUT SO WHAT U RUINED THE REST OF THE SHOW! grrrr. but yeah, we hung around and talked to Johnny for a while more, more hugs, then they had to leave cuz they were flying to Regina.

Dan said they were going to Regina, i responded, where’s that. He thought i was insane that I didn’t know where it was, and i’m like HELLO IM NOT CANADIAN! and hes like oooh yah i forgot u guys are from america. hah.

So it was cool, sucks about the encore and not finding heather, but oh well. it was still good.

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i got hate mail LOL

Subject: I love Your Website
Date: Wed, 01 Aug 2001 15:45:12 -0400
From:”Robert Smith” robert_smith90@hotmail.com

Not really, Sara!!! Are you and your three retarded friends in Ritulin? If not, you should be. Better yet, try some sleeping pills mixed with alcohol!!

I can’t believe that you even bother to maintain a site. And your concert listing. Do you have a life? Does your stepmom know that you are using her computer at home? Better yet, do you really think anyone cares? I mean, you guys are four zitfaced/overweight/103.3 Edge listening/non-music picking
ability/ fist/finger fucking little punks. What’s your deal with that faggy Orgy band? I mean, get real.

Have you heard of real bands like Janes Addiction, The Smiths, REM, Joy Division, Bauhaus, Husker Du? Well, have you? That’s real fucking music!!

The only way I found your site is that I was looking for a review on the Buffalo U2 show. I was there, and appreciate you listing out the set. Now, your little 19 year old comments I could do without.

Anyway, here’s to you pigface!!!”

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha that made my day. i needed a good laff. so i wrote him back

to: robert smith

1. i really don’t care what you think of me or my website
2. if you didnt like my site why take the time to explore so much of it as to make comments on my “3 retarded friends” the fact that i occasionally listen to 103.3, but not enough to realize that i nor my
friends are overweight, my parents arent divorced, and we have 3 computers.
3. i really don’t care what kind of bands you like. i have heard of all of the bands you mentioned, and don’t like any of them.
4. i’m not 19.
5. maybe you should find your own personality instead of having an email called Robert Smith.

thanks for visiting, come back soon 🙂

oh and fyi, orgy adores the smiths, the cure, and bauhaus….doesnt that just piss u right off? a bunch of fags like such GREAT bands…

and there are plenty of other places to find the u2 set besides my site….

and i think i should ask you if YOU have a life, since you have the time to send me such a nice email 🙂

have a good day.”

i love it

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as someone who finds history somewhat interesting, if presented in a good way, i find it really fascinating that i think the recent past history before i was born was so much more interesting then the history and present i’ve experienced. I breifly put on some show on vh1 today, and it was one of their documentary type shows, and they were discussing and showing footage of the Kent State massacre during the Vietnam war. It was so interesting to see the footage of the guard kneeling to open fire on the students, and everything like that. It makes me want to be my parent’s age so i could have experienced the decades that I find most interesting. So much turmoil, and famous events. My decades have had nothing. It’s been so boring.

But then I think, we actually have had alot, and my generation’s children are going to look back at my decades and think they were so interesting, and so much happened, and they’re going to think that their decades were boring. The 60s and 70s had war, protests, civil rights, political leaders assassinated, space exploration…can you get anymore interesting? the 80s and 90s… what have we had? We’ve had no war, no major catastrophies, no major political cause…but if you think about it, we had Persian Gulf if you consider that a war, the end of the Cold war and fall of the Berlin Wall (which i find incredibly interesting), the Challenger explosion, Columbine….it’s too bad that most of the interesting stuff I don’t remember….challenger and berlin wall etc… I was too young to care what was going on. It’s in looking back that I find it fascinating. So I guess what I have left is Columbine. The next generation is going to look back and think that my decades were really interesting, that Challeneger, and the Cold war, and Columbine etc, were so interesting, and there was so much going on. Their decades are going to be boring….

And even while I complain about the lack of events in my decades, there is probably so much i could be paying attention to right now, that in 10 years i’m going to look back and think was really interesting.

Where am i going with this? does it even make sense?

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ok so how pissed am I at Case Logic… u know, the company that makes things to carry cds in. Yah ok so eric bought me 2 of the sun visor cd holder things for my car for my birthday. spectacular. excited. eric has had them for a while, they’re really handy, super. ok except that mine have scratched every cd i had in there (minus a few that never have seen the cd player yet). yah big straight line scratches about a centemeter away from the edge of the cd (i think they’d be called tangent lines in mathematical terms, cuz i’m a dork). some of the cds are short enough that the scratch misses the printed area of the cd and doesnt effect play. others, not so lucky. I went through and cleaned every one, trying to fix the scratches. Case Logic had “tips to protect your cds” one of them being, if u have a scratch, look at the cd in front of a light source, and if u can see light through the scratch it’s beyond repair, if not, u can buy stuff at the store to fix it. my cleaner has fixed scratches in the past, so hoping it fixed the minor ones. But at least 2 cds are completely ruined.
1. Tangents – the tea party – which is an import, so it’s expensive…”waiting for a sign” i think it’s called, skips.
2. Pretty Hate Machine – nin – yah i’ve already replaced this cd once at the wall, and when i went to replace Tangents, the wall doesn’t exist anymore. crap and a half. Only “ringfinger” skips, and it’s beyond skipping, it’s the cd laser stops at the scratch and wont move past it.

trying out Orgy Vapor Transmissions right now, cuz that one was a bit see through. Then I have to try the downward spiral….so fucking pissed. i cant afford to replace all these cds, and its not like they’re crap cds i dont listen to. they were in the cases for a reason, cuz they’re my favs and i want to listen to them in the car.

so now the cds are back in another Case Logic product, one of the book holders, which i was scared to use to begin with because i’m afraid the plastic sleeves might melt….which is worse, scratches or melted plastic on a cd?

ok and now since i have to replace tangents and phm i went to half.com to search for them, see if they’re cheap….the site must be fucked up because i got no hits for NIN, got hits for the tea party but when i clicked to see more music hits, it was like not found. so they must be broken right now. ebay had PHM for .01 it was the alternate version that the cd is blue and pink…but it was like 4$ shipping and i can find PHM for 5 bucks in a store…if someone wants to give me PHM or Tangents that’d be cool too 🙂

mtv sucks. ok thats not ground breaking news that no one has heard before. but it sucks even more now. ok i read this article in USA today, one of the shittiest most lame brain newspapers around, about mtv.com and the new site, and how theyre integrating it with mtv and mtv2. They had this statement. oh wait maybe i can find it… lemme see…usatoday.com does that work? yes it does! ah ha, found the article…
“A 360 approach to Destiny’s Child, for example, would feature the group
performing on MTV’s top-rated Total Request Live (TRL). The graphic
would show that MTV2 was showing several videos from the band at that
moment, and downloads and information about the trio were available on
MTV.com.

The 360 approach isn’t being used at all times on TV but is a constant
component of the revamped site. ”Our audience wants to interact with the
channel,” says Nicholas Butterworth, CEO of MTVi. ”

OK WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT?!?!?!?!?!?! If i don’t want to watch fucking Destiny’s child on TRL the i can put on MTV2 to find something differernt….WELL NOT ANYMORE. I DONT WANT TO FUCKING WATCH DESTINY’S CHILD. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TURN THE CHANNEL AND SEE SOMETHING DIFFERENT. WHAT THE HELL IS THE POINT OF HAVING 2 MTV CHANNELS IF THEYRE GOING TO PLAY THE SAME SHIT.

now i dont get mtv2 so i guess it doesnt matter, but once adelphia does get it, I want to see fucking VIDEOS of GOOD bands… and not the same fucking SHIT that is on MTV already…and YES i want to interact with the channel. I want to request a video and SEE IT! I WANT TO SEE A FUCKING VIDEO. CAN U IMAGINE MUSIC TELEVISION ACTUALLY PLAYING MUSIC VIDEOS?!?! FUCKING A!

ok done. next…

it was mentioned to me by someone that Eric says “fucking A” alot. While i’ve never noticed this, he must, because after spending 2 days with him this weekend, I’ve said it like 5 times today…and i never say it.

Yah so me and Adrienne went to visit Eric in Rochester on Saturday afternoon, hit the cd stores, got dinner at jack astors, went to 2 malls…yay fun wow. I played atari LOL. Sunday he came back home, went to another mall, and media play cuz i found a gift card i didn’t know i had. yay fun wow even more. yah we have no lives.

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