i had a dream i volunteered to scrub the floor of the terminal. ROFLMAO in the dream i used my mcds “hi-lo” skills to scrub the hell out of one corner of the floor, just to prove that it would make the floor look nicer.
and i dreamed about doing homework. some kind of math homework that involved adding/subtracting exponents. i don’t remember how to do that.
i gotta go pay my insurance fee for my dark room, and then i have nothing to do til work at 9. maybe today i’ll do webwork.
August 23, 2003
i was at my house and it started storming. there was all kinds of lightning. i was outside eating dinner on the sidewalk in front of my house, with my parents and brendan. the lightning was further off to the south of us (so across the street from my house). it was constant…as in the lightning just stayed “on” in one place. then we realized that it was 5 funnel cloud/tornados, with the lightning goign on inside them. it started to get really windy, so brendan and i ran inside. my parents were still outside, and we were yelling at them to get inside. so they came inside, and we managed to shut and lock the screen door, but left the main door open. the wind stopped, and my dad and i were looking around outside, then we saw a funnel cloud go right over us. not touching down, but just directly over the house.
there was some other part where we were all at some type of boardwalk resort, and tornados/bad weather, and i was really scared and trying to find brendan.
then something about being back in high school. but it looked like my middle school building. my locker was on the first floor, near the far end door. i was going down to lunch, and trying to remember where my locker was to get my lunch bag. i was supposed to be meeting brendan in the caffeteria to eat, but i got distracted. i was frustrated cuz it seemed i never locked my lock properly each time i left my locker, so it would always be open when i went back. so i was trying to fix it. then i was distracted on my way down the hall, by a student setting up “smoking joes r us”, selling candy, because of some kind of ban on cigarettes. finally got to the cafeteria and was looking for brendan, but he ended up finding me first.
ah the return of the tornado dreams…
August 06, 2003
so i went to the tour at central terminal, and was planning to ask russell about all the cleaning and new additions to the terminal. so i’m in the building with the tour group waiting for russell to finish his speech, and two of my friends from work show up. so i’m like cool, i can show them around. so russell finishes up and we start to wander off. i asked them where they wanted to go and they were just going to wander around. i wanted to take them down into the basements first, before going around the main concourse, but they didn’t want to climb through windows and what not. so i was following them around the kitchen area. there was a room (that doesnt exist in real life) that had french doors on it, and you could see inside. it was some sort of office with a desk and lots of paper work, but the room was totally fixed up. i was a bit confused, but assumed russell had made himself an office inside the building. walking around more, i’m still trying to get them into the basement. so we go into the kitchen, and the kitchen is totally redone into a working functional kitchen. counters, and cabinets, appliances, running water…i was like wtf is going on. then the basement stairs were there, with working lights, and the stairs were all fixed up. so i was like..um…ok. i went down the stairs and the basement was totally redone as well. russell was down there doing something, but there were lots of shelves everywhere, with stuff on them..artifacts, and other things, and he was sawing some wood or something. i wasnt sure if i should go down and bother him or not, but i did. i started asking him about all the renovations and stuff. i cant remember what he was saying to me. i went back upstairs and kept finding more and more rooms that were redone and functional. there was a bedroom. then the tour group had a catered lunch in the building. i was freaking out and wanted to cry because everything was getting redone, and in an ugly modern
way. i wanted to call brian, cuz he didn’t come to the tour, and tell him all the stuff that had changed since our illegal trip in. i was just really upset at it all, because i liked it in ruins so much.
July 29, 2003
i was supposed to be in a u2 video, and some part of the plot of the video included 3 of us jumping off a sky scraper. we were going to be sort of bungee-ing off the building, but using sewing thread. i was supposed to be the last to jump. the alcholic from Just Shoot Me was the first one to jump off, she sort of just let herself fall off the building, then we pulled her back up. then bono was supposed to jump but something went wrong. we didn’t have string or anything. i had to run down all these flights of stairs while i was wearing this protective cage thing, to find more thread. went back up with the thread, but something else was going wrong, and we wouldn’t be jumping anymore. i was kinda mad, cuz that meant i wouldn’t be in the video. i watched while they were editing the footage and they only showed clips of bono jumping…even tho he didn’t jump, the woman jumped.
past few weeks: dreams about playing videogames with john.
last night: i was giving someone a sort of tour of my town, and we ended up at my old middle school. so we went in and walked around, and it was huge, and really nice, with this lobby of sorts in the very middle of the school where the main entrance was.my mom had done something that really pissed me off, really offended me, so i was mad as hell. i was going to run away. i had no where to go, so i ended up finding john, and telling him i needed to stay with him for a while. he was all concerned cuz i was upset. i said that my mom had pissed me off and so i ran away. whatever she had done was really bad. it was as if she was threatening me so i needed to hide. so john was going to let me stay with him. he was teaching some kind of class, and i was hiding out there. my mom came around looking for me. i guess she knew i’d end up going to john, so she was asking him where i was, and stuff. he was doing a good job not blowing my cover, but she still thought i was there with him. i guess she left, so i came out of hiding, and was discussing the situation with john, and he said he’d take care of me.
something about watching old german silent films in some kind of class.
dream was about something, then suddenly it turned into a broadcasted speech by george bush. it sounded so realistic, as if big speakers were interrupting every tv program, and radio, and broadcasting through neighborhood loud speakers. it was a speech about how we were at war, and it sounded so sooooo realistic to me it was scary. then i could hear the airplanes, and bombs dropping and exploding on the ground. i could feel the ground shaking from the explosions. totally friggen scary.
posted by sara @ 3:29 PM
i got a letter from nate, that was a greeting card he had written in. he didn’t write much at all. just that he’s been so busy with peace corps stuff. i got mad because he couldn’t bother to write me a real letter.
i was driving down river road, apparently home from work. i was going to turn on to felton but a train started coming but the gates were broken and didn’t go down. i saw the train so i was ok, but other people didn’t see it, and turned and almost got hit by the train. so the train went by, and then the gates went down because another train was coming. so i waited for the 2nd train to come. then this other train started coming from down felton, where there are no tracks. the train decided it was going to take the street cuz the tracks were so congested around where we were. so the train is driving down the street right toward me, but i managed to back up my car and avoid getting hit. i figured there’d be no more trains, but now there was another one coming. at this point another train started coming from the other direction and they were going to collide. jeff was there, along with other faceless people from work, and we all realize what is going to happen so we start running the opposite way so when the chemical tanker cars explode we will be safe. the trains collide, and jeff threw me down against a chainlink fence, and protected me with his body cuz he’s like 4 times my size. the trains explode. then suddenly me and adr and eric were on an airplane, fleeing from the train accident, and the plane had to keep landing and taking off at different airports. we landed in carson city, and then ended up in some canadian airport where we finally got off the plane. then we realized our plane had crashed at the airport, that we didn’t land. so we escaped from the plane, as it slowly sank into the lake we landed in. so we were all saved and went into the airport and watched the drama unfold on tv. then pieces of the airplane started floating towards where we were sitting on the bank of the lake, which was lined in cement like a pool, inside the airport. so i grabbed a piece of the plane as a souvenir of surviving the crash. it said american airlines on it. i took it home and showed my dad. it was made out of styrofome. i was severly traumatized by the train and plane crashes, so i was a bit of a basket case.
posted by sara @ 11:53 AM
a dream within a dream. sometimes the point of view was from me as an omnicient narrator, other times it was through the “main character” some guy. i was watching from above, groups of people on tours of the grand canyon. it might not have been THE grand canyon, but it was some kind of canyon out there in the south west, where they have those weird rock formations. it was more like the groups were exploring, instead of tours, because they had to build things to get across gaps and stuff. it was like watching a SIMS game. one of the groups met with another group and they decided to join into one group. i guess that was surprising because these were supposed to be competeing, or enemy groups. then i was in the action, seeing through the point of view of a man. his wife fell and broke her leg and wouldn’t be able to continue. something about this exploration was really important, because she said to leave her there to die instead of hindering the rest of the group. so they did, and the guy married this other woman from the group. they met up with another group, who this time was more of an enemy. there was sort of a clash, and everyone disappeared except for the man and his new wife. then his new wife morphed into a sort of spider with only 2 legs. she was coming closer and closer to him to push him off the edge of the cliff. she pushes him off the edge, and then remorphs into a person as he’s falling. he lands in bushes and trees in the bottom of the cliff. she appears down there in human form. then some indian cheif shows up. the man does something to the woman, and she dislocates her knee so she can’t go after the man. since the man survived the fall, the indian cheif asks if that means the curse is over, since apparently the man did what he had to do to lift the curse that was on him. so apparently, the curse was over. then the woman turned into a man, and was still trying to get the main character man. but the knee was dislocated entirely from the body, and he/she was trying to put it back in place. then his skin started melting off his bones, so now he was a skeleton with like, melted flesh hanging off his bones, still going after the man. the main character man and indian cheif go running off and escape the melting skeleton. they end up passing the spot where his first wife stopped to die. she’s still alive but in alot of pain cuz of her broken leg. when she sees her husband she asks if this means the curse is over. apparently she didn’t think she’d see him again unless the curse was over. so he says yes it’s over, and tries to start moving her to get her back to camp or wherever, and medical help. by then the melting skeleton has caught up with them, and is coming towards them.
then i “woke up” and thought that’d be a great idea for a novel, so i start writing the novel, and i’m working so hard in some sort of public place that everyone keeps stopping by and asking me what i’m writing about.then i woke up for real. i really can’t remember alot of the dream, there was more to it, and it was way scarier. the melting skin on the skeleton was hella scary.
posted by sara @ 11:48 AM
my teeth were infected, and my gums were swollen so bad they swelled around my teeth. they were really painful and then started gushing blood. then my bottom teeth got the same disease. so i was in pain and i had to catch this witch or something, who was casting spells on people. but i wanted to find medicine for my teeth, so i went to the grocery store and they didn’t have what i needed. turned out tony had the medicine i needed, so i went to find him and get it. he didn’t want to give it to me but i stole it from him. they were big round pink discs that looked like chewable pepto bismol tablets. there were 4 of them. the first one i had to chew and swallow, the 2nd one 4 hours later i had to swallow whole. but they were so big i didn’t know how i was going to be able to swallow it. the meds helped my teeth problem but they were still painful and bleeding.
posted by sara @ 12:09 PM
i bought a david bowie poster and hung it on my wall in my bedroom. after that, i was somewhere, and i met david bowie. somehow he ended up at my house, which was really big but sorta run down. he was staying with me, and had gone out for the day, when i realized he had autographed my poster of him without me even having to ask. so i was all excited to see that. then i realized he had gotten the eurythmics to sign it as well, because they had toured with him when that poster was released. i was so excited and showing everyone the autograph. then bowie was my boyfriend, and we lived in this big giant house, that could turn into a disco with all kinds of lights and loud music and stuff. so we were having a party, and i was still overexcited about the autographed poster, even tho bowie was now my boyfriend. i guess it was the next day, and the house was back to normal but david and i were getting sick. then all these canadians showed up, with mullets. so we were half making fun of the mullets when they started to switch all the lights on themselves to start a party. they didn’t care that me and david were sick. i was super pissed off, and trying to find david because he’d comfort me, and try to get all these people kicked out. i was having a hard time finding him because the lights were making me woosy, and i kept falling/almost passing out. so i fell and someone caught me and put me under a table to rest. somehow i ended up finding david, and he was wearing this flourescent green and orange jump suit, which it turns out, i was wearing too. so he was helping me walk, and trying to get to where we could turn the lights out and kick everyone out. we wondered where all the security was, but we couldn’t find any. we went to one of the bars where this big scary black guy worked as a bartender for us, to ask him to start kicking everyone out. he through someone into the side of our indoor above ground swimming pool. the side of the pool had like a doggy door, that was a trap, so he through the guy through there, and into the pool, then we flushed the pool as if it was a toilet to get rid of people.
few days ago: i was going to heather’s house to give her a christmas present. she couldn’t open it while i was there, but wanted me to see her open it, so we left it in the garage, and i was going to go back a week later to watch her open it. so i went back a week later, and we went into the garage to get the gift. we were talking about hamsters, and i was like, omg did i get you a hamster? i think i did. but i had forgotten i had gotten her one. so we had left the present on it’s side in the cold garage for a week with a hamster inside. we figured it would be dead from freezing or starving. she unwrapped it and it was still alive.
few days ago: i dreamed my teeth were loose. one was about to fall out, and it was bleeding so i was freaking out. i told my mom it was going to fall out and to call the dentist so he could push it back in like he did when i was 3 and was pushed face first into a door wall and knocked my tooth out. she didn’t believe me that my tooth was falling out. then i realized more of my teeth were loose and i was freaking out. then one of my molars fell out, so i spit it out and some of the roots were broken off and still in my gums. so i wanted to go to the dentist so he could get them out. then i was magically at work, and i put my tooth on my desk next to my keyboard and i saw that it was cracked in half, which is why it fell out. it was so brittle and weak that every time you slightly touched it it would break again.last night: dreamed about the cast of Growing Pains ??!?!?!?!?
posted by sara @ 3:10 PM
i’m getting slightly disturbed by the theme of my dreams the past month. 4 dreams about people being dead (nate, nate’s dad, my dad, maurice bernard?!?!), 2 about free falling elevators, 2 about body injury.
the other night: i dreamed i was living in a college dorm situation with my middle school friends. it was the end of the year i guess, because we were all moving out. we were trying to pack. there was a bit of animosity and i wanted to move out as soon as possible. i thought i had packed all my stuff, and figured i’d come back when they were done to see if there was anything left that was mine. then andrea was there, and nicki, and andrea went to give nicki the finger – but in a way like she’s reaching into a pocket to pull something out, and then gives the finger. but she did it with her sleeve, she reached up her other sleeve, and when she pulled her hand back out, she was holding her hand in the other. (confusing, i know). she had cut her hand off at the wrist with a plastic knife, and was holding her severed hand out to nicki. i suddenly remembered that she had been trying to slit her wrists with a plastic knife at dinner the day before, and she finally succeeded in cutting her hand off. we tried to smoosh her hand back to her arm, as if it would fuse together and be fine.last night: 2 people were playing black jack with eachother, and whoever won got to cut off the fingers of the other person. each hand you lost, you got a finger cut off. they were using big midieval axes to chop fingers off.
posted by sara @ 5:49 PM
2nd dream in the past few weeks about free falling elevators.
i was with my aunt carol in vegas, and we got into the elevator and were going to the 4th floor. i think we had been being chased by some people after us, because we were a bit leery of what we’d find once we got out of the elevator. the elevator doors closed, and there were mirrors in the elevator. i saw me and my aunt reflected in them, but i saw the reflection of a little boy who was not in the elevator. then i realized it was my ghost companion. he pulled me back against the back wall of the elevator, trying to protect me. so i yelled to my aunt, who couldn’t see my ghost companion, to get back against the wall with me, because the ghost knew something was going to happen and was trying to protect me. we both assumed there would be someone waiting for us when the doors opened. we got up near the 4th floor, and the elevator cables broke and we started free falling in the elevator. gravity felt super strong as we fell, and my aunt fell down and sat on the floor. i remained pushed against the back wall, waiting for the impact of hitting the ground. but we were just falling still so i figured the building must have a bunch of basements we were still falling through.notes: the ghost part is directly from anne rice’s “blackwood farm” that i’m reading. don’t know about the rest.
posted by sara @ 3:02 PM
last week: somehow olive had gotten a hold of the zoo tv stage, from ebay or something, and had it all set up inside some arena. so me fishy olive and nate were hanging out at this arena so we could see the stage. we were walking around on the walkway part that went into the crowd. i think we didn’t realize it was the zoo tv stage til we were walking around on it, then we were like HOLY SHIT this is THE zootv stage. how the hell did olive managed to get the zoo tv stage. then i went back into the arena hallways and everyone else stayed on the stage. i was talking to someone when i saw nate walking towards me dressed as macphisto, singing, and holding flashing red horns for me. so i was like, ecstatic, and went running to him and hugged him and stuff. then he was spinning me around on stage. i was just like beyond happy. then we all realized we were actually at a u2 concert, but nate was being bono. and olive still owned the stage. and it was ok that we were all walking around on the stage during the show.
then it changed to being backstage after the show, and it had been in some castle. i went down to the dressing room and nate was there, sitting at a table with some other people and everyone looked sad. turns out nate’s dad had a stroke that day, so he was upset. i was trying to comfort him.i went to the high school to visit my old english teacher. i found him in one of the rooms, but he was attending the class not teaching it. some older lady was teaching it. there was lots of glitter everywhere. so i went in and sat down with him in a big red chair. he was a vampire, but we were in love. then he made me a vampire. we had to go live at sears cuz that’s where all the vampires lived. so we went to sears, and i was going to cook dinner while he prepared stuff for school. i went over to where all the display stoves were so i could cook, i was going to cook hard boiled eggs. i had to cook them in the oven tho, and someone else was already cooking hamburgers and fries in the oven.
last night: i was on some kind of u2 video shoot. we had to ride on a little train type thing, and the train would go by members of u2. bono was achtung baby/the fly bono, and looked really hot. at one point during the drive by he reached out and touched me. so then i was all super excited.
2 dreams about going to see phantom of the opera with my ex bestfriend and my current supervisor jen. we went to one show, and it was totally weird and not phantom at all. jen was pissed cuz she wanted to see phantom so badly. then she didn’t feel good so we just walked out, then realized everyone was leaving too because it was so bad. then we got tickets to see the real phantom. so we went to that one, and we wanted to get pop out of the machines before going in. that made us late, so we walked in during the beginning scene, which i told jen was really important to understanding the entire show. but then that degenerated into something that wasn’t phantom either, it was a different version, but still better than that first show we saw, so we stayed. there were a group of really drunk guys in the back who were being really loud and obnoxious tho.
posted by sara @ 1:48 PM
i was at Kelly’s, the only restaurant on General Hospital, apparently with trent reznor’s father, and his nurse. Papa Reznor was old and feeble and needed help getting around. The restaurant was packed, and i couldn’t sit with the 2 of them so i was sitting somewhere else. the restaurant started on fire, but no one was noticing. finally someone saw all the big giant flames and noticed the smoke so we evacuated the building. Papa Reznor didn’t know how we’d get home, so i told him I had called trent to pick us up. the fire was put out and we all went back inside the restaurant. trent was still on his way over to get us, but then everything changed, and i was no longer with Papa Reznor. I was just waiting for trent. so trent showed up driving an old green cadillac like my grandfather used to have. so we were driving somewhere, no clue where. we were talking, and then my seat disappeared. so i sat in the backseat behind him and gave him a massage as we drove. then we ended up at my house with 2 other couples who we had been on vacation with !?!? everyone had been waiting to get back to the house and to their private bedrooms so they could have sex. then trent turned into nate. we were going to watch a movie, so the 6 of us were all in my room, and then my mom was there. so everyone was pissed off she was there cuz that meant no one could have sex.
i was in my upstairs bathroom and saw 2 stick looking creatures/bugs on the wall. upon closer inspection they were 2 monarch butterflies.
had another butterfly dream a different night but don’t remember it.from swoon.com: butterflies: Social success, romantic success, and/or domestic happiness is forecast by a dream of these gaily colored creatures.
posted by sara @ 3:13 PM
i was at the casino, which was in my basement. eminem was there playing craps, and i was dealing the craps table so i got to talk to him. the next day he came back, and i talked to him some more. the 3rd day he came back again during “off hours” since he was famous and wanted to play alone. so he showed up at my house in a limo which he left parked in front of my house, and came downstairs to play craps. played for a while and then he decided he was going to leave so we went upstairs. then there was someone at the door, this young black woman. so i opened the door and was like can i help you? she barged in and was like eminem is here. so i said yeah, and she said she was his sister. so eminem came to the door and talked to her, and we were all in my living room. the girl started to play with my piano so me and eminem were just talking. i guess the whole 3 days we had been flirting and liked eachother. so we’re in the family room and he was hugging me from behind and kissed my neck. then we started making out. he decided it was time to go, so him and the black girl left. then i woke up.
my aunt and uncle had given my family a dog. it was a sorta young dog but not quite a puppy. i don’t know the mix of the dog, but it was sorta scary. and since i hate dogs, i was a bit scared of it. well it disappeared and i asked my parents what happened to it. i thought they had given it to the spca cuz we didn’t want it. mom said they hadn’t yet but dad was going to unless the dog got behaved or lived outside in the backyard. so i found the dog and took it out side to try to get it to stay in the back yard. i didn’t want to have to touch or play with the dog though. then it kept making puppy dog faces at me to feel bad for it. i guess we had one of those invisible fences so the dog couldn’t leave the yard. when i went to go back in front, it stopped where it had to stop and layed on the ground all sad looking. so i brought it back in side and it was rambuntious and scary all over again. then the dog disappeared and tom cruise appeared. he was laying on the floor next to where i had been sitting with the dog. so i was talking to him, and tom mentioned he was filming a new movie with eminem. so i told him eminem should be over soon (since we were dating) and tom was like, that’s cool. then me and tom started making out. i was like, um…i’m dating eminem. he’ll be hurt if he comes over and finds me making out with tom cruise. but then i thought, it’s eminem he’ll get over it. i realized we were in the family room with my parents and danielle so we moved into the living room.it was near halloween time, and i went to toys r us to buy gifts (!?) with my boyfriend trent reznor. a bunch of us ended up being at the store, i guess it was the local hang out. so i’m going through the store with trent, who throughout the dream morphs between trent and nate. turns out everytime we go hang out at the store there ends up being a fight of some kind between my friends and my neighbors. so this time, i found a NIN helium balloon and trent was going to buy it for me. we went wandering around the store and i found the keyboard section so i thought it would be a good idea to have trent play something for me. so i found him and got him to come over to the keyboards. he was checking them out, and then started saying something and he looked like a old man, balding, grey hair with a gut. i was like, wow he’s really looking old lately. we started getting harassed by the rival “gang” and we were in some other part of the store, near where they sell mattresses (?!?) when the other gang came to attack. they popped my NIN balloon which i had tied around my head. so i was all upset. then trent, who was now nate, got really pissed off, while at the same time just wanting to put an end to all of the stupidness. he got a bunch of balloons and just let them fly away, i guess because he knew the other gang had a peace offering for us. so then my neighbor said we all had to go up front to where pat benetar was setting up the stage. so we started all going up there, and we saw eric go ahead of us to talk to rit friends. then mary was there and said eric was probably telling all of them to blame all the troubles on mary. so i was like, i think both of you assume so much spitefullness and you’re wrong. so we all sat on the floor waiting for pat benetar, but i couldn’t find nate. i wanted him to sit with me, but he was lost in the crowd someplace.
posted by sara @ 1:07 PM
i was on american gladiators which was hosted by dick clark in someone’s really large family room. there were 2 boys and 4 girls competing so not all the girls got to do each event. especially if it took a really long time to complete. the first event was like the eliminator, so it was weird that it was first because everyone got deathly tired by the time they finished the one event. i didn’t have to do that event. the next event was this odd bicycle kind of thing…it was like a stair climber but you sat down and pushed the pedals which made you move around this track. you had to go to the end of the track, turn around and make it back before the gladiator. this was a girls only event so i’d get to do this one. so the one girl went first and totally smoked the gladiator. i was going last, so i was waiting then dick clark said i had to wear sneakers, i only had sandals on. well i didn’t have sneakers so i had to go into the rest of the house and try to find someone elses sneakers to wear. i found some but they didn’t have shoe laces, so i quickly made shoelaces out of friendship bracelets. well this was taking me a really long time and dick clark was getting pissed off at me. i got back to the arena and saw the gladiator i was up against. she was skinny and shorter than me. i figured with my long legs i’d be able to go farther on my machine thing.
symbols from swoon.com
– The more successful was the dreamed competition the rockier will be your road ahead and vice versa.
– A dream of skinny legs is a warning of embarrassment due to an ill-advised romance
posted by sara @ 1:35 PM
something about tires…i was holding one of my car tires and accidentally popped it with my car keys. so i had to call someone to come put my spare tire on. then my car disappeared. i was at a garage or someplace, and a big truck drove up but i couldn’t figure out how it was driving properly when it was missing a wheel. the wheel came along by itself after the truck.
at a mall which was my high school. saw my 11th grade history teacher, so i went to talk to him since i hadn’t seen him in a few years. i asked if he added more members to his family, and he said no, but him and his wife were getting divorced. that didn’t surprise me since i didn’t think he wanted to marry her in the first place. he basically then said the same thing, how it’s no big deal because it was coming from even before they were married.i was getting on a school bus, i think i was a young kid. i went to the back of the bus and there were 3 boys in back who said i wasn’t allowed to sit there. only cool kids who order off the cool menu can sit in the back of the bus. so i said, awesome that menu has all the stuff i like, and sat down. so then they were saying i wasn’t allowed to sit back there, so i was like, why because i’m a girl? i’m bigger than you anyway. then i let them touch me, on my hands and arms, because they had never touched a girl before. so then they were all like wow she’s so soft.
i won a contest to spend a day with the osbournes, so i appeared at their house. i guess the show was done being filmed because there were no camera men actively hanging around. the missing osbourne kid aimee was there too, and was like, you might remember me from 20/20 and i was like yeah i know who you are. then i was in a room with kelly and she was being bitchy and saying how i had all these rules. i wasn’t allowed to try to date mark romanek, who was directing her new video so he’d be hanging around with cameras…and there were other things i wasn’t allowed to do but i forget what they were now. then i went someplace with jack, and was coming back to the house with him driving the car. ozzy called jack’s cell while we were driving.
that turned into being in some classroom, college or high school i don’t know. nate was there, we were sitting in the last seats in 2 rows. we were having some kind of review, or test…i think review for a test. so we were taking notes, but i was trying to tell him about the osbournes and how kelly made all these rules for me as if i was one of their beverly hills rich bitch friends just trying to use them. i guess it was a test, because we weren’t supposed to be talking. but i didn’t care because it was nate’s last day before leaving for africa and i wanted to talk to him and say goodbye and all that.
symbols according to swoon.com:
– exciting adventure is forecast in a a dream of losing a wheel
– the wheels of a car symbolize a quick trip
– A dream of changing a tire is a warning to conserve your resources against an unexpected demand; buying a new tire predicts a sudden release from worry; a blowout portends problems caused by hidden jealousy–try being tactful for a while; to dream of losing a tire suggests that you would benefit from a season of stricter self-control
– Traveling by bus indicates progress toward your heart’s desire
– if you passed the exam easily or it presented no major problem to you, it predicts comfortable achievement of all your hopes
posted by sara @ 11:53 AM
i went to my middle school for some reason. i brought my grandma (who is dead in real life) with me. i was pushing her around in a motorized wheel chair/lark buggy type thing. except that it wasn’t…it was a chair on top of a wooden platform with wheels (i can’t think of what they’re called, but you put boxes on them if u want to move stuff and don’t want to carry it all). we had problems going into and out of the elevator to get to the 2nd floor. then she fell out of the chair. so she got back on the chair but we had forgotten to put the chair back on to the wooden thing so she had to get up again and get back on the wooden thing. so we get to a class room which had my 6th grade english teacher inside. i guess that’s where we were supposed to be, so we went inside. she didn’t remember who i was at first, but then started to recognize me and remembered i had the highest grades in the school that year. i introduced her to my grandma, and she asked if the 2 of us were close. i said we don’t see eachother often, i had to bring her cuz she was visiting us. apparently i was supposed to bring important people in my life to whatever this thing was. then other kids started showing up, so i guess it was a 6th grade reunion. my parents showed up. my high school french teacher showed up and she kept hugging me and giving me kisses on both cheeks cuz she was so happy to see me. i told my english teacher about how i found my journal from class and it talked about my aunt having a D&C when i didn’t even know what that was.
i’ve had some other dream recently about my dead grandma. i wonder what that means.something about designing webpages
posted by sara @ 1:46 PM
something about david bowie..going downtown to see an outdoor concert. i might have been friends with him. something about an ugly yellow bowie tshirt.
i was driving to some cemetery with someone following me, because they didn’t know how to get there. it might have been nate, although we had called the cemetery before we left to find out where the person’s grave was, and their last name was McMahon. so we’re driving and the people following me got off on the wrong exit. so i got to the cemetery which had big sky scraper masoleums. they looked like the WTC towers. then i realized it had everyone who died in the WTC attacks names etched into them, like the Vietnam memorial in washington. then i realized i should tell someone this dream because that would make a really nice memorial for WTC.i was back in college and had 4 papers due in one week. i realized that i wasn’t really in college, i wasn’t enrolled, just attending classes so that i really didn’t have to do the papers since i wouldn’t fail out or anything. i decided i’d do the 2 short papers and skip the 2 longer ones. then eddie the bartender from hard rock was there, and decided to help me with one of the papers. so he told me what i should write and all this stuff. i had forgotten my backpack in the classroom, but then it turns out he noticed and had taken it with him. i didn’t know why he was being so nice to me. so the paper was due the next day, so i went to the library with him to work on the paper. the library was also a thrift store so i had to go look through the tshirts first. i tried on some weird dress that was too small for me. then i sat down at a table to get some work done, and started drinking a beer….because the library was also a bar. some little girl asked me if beer tasted good, and i said no it didn’t. then she asked me if there’s such a thing as beer ice cream, and i told her something about one time having a beer slushy.
posted by sara @ 1:40 PM
nate had come home, i dunno if to visit or for good, i went to meet him someplace. there were lots of people around, i think all his family, maybe my family…but lots of people. and he was sitting in a chair unwrapping a gift possibly. so i ran over to him cuz i was so happy to see him, and basically sat in the chair with him. so he hugged me and it was all happy. then we went off together someplace to be alone, and everything was like it was when we were together. like we went right back to being a couple again. i think he was just visiting though, because i started to question what it all meant.
stuff i dont remember….then…i was at my house and remembered that i owned fish, they were in the basement, and hadn’t been fed in over a month. i figured they were dead, but i went downstairs to look in the tank and see. at least then i could throw them out, etc. they were still alive. happily alive, and had actually grown. there were also 2 frogs in there, and a butterfly. it was a really pretty rainbow irridescent butterfly like i had seen at the butterfly conservatory. the butterfly flew out of the tank, and landed on the wall. then i was at work, and the butterfly was on one of the registers in the service bar. marlow, one of the bussers, touched one of its wings. i started yelling at him because once you touch their wings they can’t fly anymore. so then someone else touched the other wing, since it was already not going to be able to fly. i went over and took the butterfly and was holding it in my hand, and it sank its teeth into my palm. so i’m standing there with the butterfly in my hand, biting it, and i’m wondering if this is a problem…if this was some poisonous butterfly and now i was going to die from it’s venom. then i wondered, and asked my mom, who was there too, if butterflies even bite. i pulled it off my hand, and i dunno what happened after that.
lots of dreams about getting hired at the casino. one, was that they offered a car to transport you to and from the training sessions daily. they treated the employees very well.
posted by sara @ 3:46 PM
i was driving through the plaza parking lot. behind me was a red camero, and inside was larry from u2. he had a sign that said “pull over, or else”. so he was tailgating me, and i was trying to pull over so he could go around me, but he kept following me instead. so i turned down an aisle to park, and he followed me too. so i kept going around in circles trying to get out of his way. justin from nsync was standing outside of block buster and i waved to him, because i guess we were friends. i turned back onto the main drive of the parking lot, and i hit chris kirkpatrick from nsync who was riding a bike, with my car. he wasn’t hurt, and he looked at me and said hi to me. i managed to lose larry, and i guess park the car, because then i was going over to justin to find out where JC was, because i was dating JC. joey fatone walked by and said hi to me too. then JC started walking over because he had been in a different store. then everyone disappeared, so i was trying to find them again, and i went into fashion bug to see if they were shopping inside. the store was all torn apart and set up differently so that nsync could have privacy while shopping. i couldn’t find them in there so i left with my mom. we got in the car and were going to go home when michelle from work came up to the car and asked if we could drop her off at the doctors office that was across the street from the high school. we said sure, but instead of getting in the car she was going to hang onto the door. then i had a flashback, or premonition of what was going to happen to me in the future. in the future, justin was going to profess his love for me and steal me away from JC. i saw myself lying on a bed crying, and Justin leaving me. he was being really harsh, and unfeeling, and apologizing that he was leaving, but you could tell he didn’t care. he said that he couldn’t be with me anymore, but he’d send Darren from savage garden over for me next. darren came over and i expected him to rape me or something, but instead we just talked, and he acted like a shrink and helped me. then i was back to reality of driving michelle to the offices. my moms cell phone rang so i answered it because it was for me (i just knew it was for me). i thought it was Justin because he was the only one who knew my mom’s cell phone number. but it turns out it was trent, and he was my boyfriend and he was calling to see how i was. he had gotten out of work early and was making himself a drink. i could barely hear him so i never knew if he was still on the line or not. then we passed the doctors offices without letting michelle off, so we had to stop and let her get off the car. then we went home and i was still on the phone with trent, who i guess was actually nate. he was making a new answering machine message, and was just going to use some korn song as the message. i was irritated because i couldn’t hear on the phone, and i didn’t know if he was still on the other end or not so i was just like, i’m hanging up now, bye.
there was some other wackass dream i had but don’t remember what it was now.
gah. my bed/mattress makes me hurt so bad. pain. ug. i didn’t want to get out of bed tho – despite the headache, neck ache, shoulder ache…i feel like going back to bed now. just cuz i have nothing else to do. lol. i was reading the godfather last night cuz i had nothing to do, and kept falling asleep. it was like 8:30 (it was the wine’s fault). even tho i knew i shouldn’t give in and let myself fall asleep i did. and i didn’t want to wake up again. i made it to 10 which i thought was an acceptible time to go to bed. read some more, of course didn’t fall asleep anymore. didn’t fall asleep til after 12 sometime. but i’d been in bed for about 13 hours, which is why i hurt. but i’m going to go back to bed anyway lol.
all i have to do today before work is call the health insurance thing and find out why i don’t have prescription coverage. i should just do it now and get it over with, but i don’t feel like it. woah i had weird dreams last night that my dad became a drug dealer. we had all kinds of drugs in my house – esctacy, cocaine, heroin…and he wanted me to test them to make sure they were pure. we had these chemical things that you drop into the drugs and if they turn a certain color they’re good. nate was here, and i had to keep hiding it all from him so that he didn’t know we were into drugs. my mom and i kept going upstairs with the drugs to test them, but then he’d appear so we’d quick hide it all or make an excuse as to what we were doing, then go somewhere else where he’s show up again. i was scared he wouldn’t like me anymore if he knew we sold drugs. haha.
k so, straightened out the insurance thing. they added prescription coverage onto my account again, but it’s mail order drugs again, which is annoying as hell.
i feel like crap. like physically, not emotionally this time. i didn’t go back to bed, i ended up talking to fishy, carolyn and cyndi all morning. cyndi cracks me up hardcore. so i was able to keep myself occupied and not fall into my newly normal monday depression. but i feel like crap. my head hurts, and i felt really sick after my shower. yeah, head hurts. ug.
omg my mom scared the SHIT out of me when i got home from work 15 min ago. i had to ring the doorbell, before she’s even there she’s like “you gotta call nate, he’s called a few times. he’s leaving.” i’m like “WHAT!?!?!?!?” thinking she means his peace corps date got moved or something. i’m like “WHY DIDNT YOU HAVE HIM CALL ME AT WORK!” she’s like “i told him you were at work” then she says he’s leaving on a business trip, which made me panic only slightly less. still panicking (how do u spell that?), since my parents leave thursday, and yeah…that whole thing. only have been looking forward to this forever…i’m like omg if he is going to be gone all week i’m gonna shoot someone. lol. he’s going to be in elmira, down near pennsylvania until thursday afternoon. then i work thursday night, so won’t see/talk to him til friday. we’ll see how this goes…lol. he hates his job. he’s not looking forward to going down there tomorrow, is hoping for his own hotel room (which i burst his bubble telling him there’s not much of a chance he’s going to get one), doesn’t like the people, doesn’t like what he has to do, doesn’t like the hours, doesn’t like being tired…he’s going to give it a week or two, and if he hates it, try to find his 4th job of the summer. they wanted him to go to north dakota next week but he said no.
anyway…my night at work. it was weird. i sorta bonded through girl talk with the wacko insane server chick. she was all giddy and happy, so of course i had to ask why. cuz she’s falling in love with this guy, whatever. so she went on and on to me about it, about him, and how she doesnt want to get hurt blah blah blah, how sex is so meaningful to her, and she wants to have sex with him, but doesn’t want to get hurt again blah blah blah etc etc etc. then she was asking me about nate, cuz she didn’t know for sure if me and nate were dating, so she asked about that and what i’m going to do when he leaves. blah made me sad. then she inquired about the size of nate’s penis LOL. but anyway. talked with her for a while, and she was like “i feel so much better having told you blah blah blah” i’m like yeah, ok. then mgr tried bonding with me…same way psycho server did, by asking me what i’m going to do when nate leaves. i’m like thanks. i’m like, everyone asks me, and i tell them the same thing “not thinking about it.” so she appologized for asking me, and i’m like no it’s ok haha. molly asked me right in front of nate at the bar the other night, when adr and eric came with us after work.
besides that, there is this new server at work. he worked there in retail before, went to europe for the summer, and just came back but wanted to be a server. so he just started again this week. i dunno how to take him. first off, i’m not sure if he’s straight. does that sound familiar? cuz i’ve thought that about almost everyone who works there lol. but yeah, he’s sorta fem. he’s super nice, and friendly, so it makes it easier for me to be friendly back. but he is WAY too touchy feely. saturday night when nate and i were working, he came over and was talking to us. then he went to walk away and totally rubbed up against me, for no reason. there was no one standing around so that he had to squeeze between me and whoever. he just rubbed against me. so i’m like well then, he just rubbed against me for no reason. lol. then today, he came over and was leaning against me, then later i was talking to the retail girl and he came to talk to us, and was standing way too close to me, so that our arms were touching. for no reason. i’m like ok, what is the deal here. then he kept profusly thanking me for cleaning his tables off when we were busy. he did it at least 5 times. i’m like really, it’s no problem. he thanked me AGAIN before i left, and said if he was getting tips that night (he’s not cuz he’s still training) he’d give me money, thanks for doing it blah blah blah. i’m like yeah. I SAID NO PROBLEM! lol. so it’s weird. nate thinks he’s overcompensating for being gay by trying to get in the pants of every female he meets….sounds familiar, i told him the same thing about his friend we hung out with the other night. nate didn’t believe me about his friend, but he thinks this kid is doing it. lol. whatever.
i guess that’s it. no idea what i’m going to do with myself tomorrow. i have to redesign cyndi’s website, so probably tackle that…maybe work on the flash some more.