Category Archives: Dreams

August 2, 2002

i had gotten a dog. it was a big bull dog. it was really cute, and i actually liked it. then i got a 2nd dog. i was taking them for a walk. i think the 2nd dog was a beagle. for some reason i had to stop, and my dogs were already well trained and listened to me. then we walked passed other people walking a dog, and it was a giant mastiff dog. so i was sorta scared cuz the dog was so gigantic. then my dogs were licking my face.
from dreaming@swoon.com: As a general rule dogs in a dream are a good omen and symbolize friends. Of course the interpretation varies according to the action and other details but is fairly straight-forward. If the dog was friendly and affectionate, it signifies pleasure and happy times with friends; If the dog in your dream was an exceptionally large one, it signifies protection through a powerful friend.

July 18, 2002

i was one of those big talking M&Ms on the commercials. don’t remember much except i was trying to teleport myself to an amusement park made of legos. i guess i managed to teleport myself someplace, and i was living in a cardboard box. i think i was in hiding from something. and i think the amusement park was a circus, cuz one of the circus performers found me in my box. she was in love with me. i was a boy m&m.
posted by sara @ 12:25 PM//

July 3, 2002

it was valentines day, and my boyfriend was coming over to take me out. it was trent. i guess it was prom too, and we were teenagers. so we went to prom, which was outdoors someplace. he wanted to go walk in the woods, but i didn’t want to. so instead we went over to this higher part to look down upon the forest. the forest was all creepy because it was covered in fog. because it was all creepy we decided to go walk in the forest anyway. then it turned into me being at a mall with carolyn and other friends, and we went to the lower level. then i realized that the mall had been built over where the forest was. so i was really sad, because i had gone there to reminise about the good old days and it had been paved over, and a mall was built. there was a casino in the mall too, which had been built on some other important thing of my past.
i was in rochester with eric. the highway we were on was built over a body of water, and it was so low to the water level you felt like you were on the water. then i realized the road actually was covered in water too. then we got to geneseo, which was all on water too, and there was a big building there, with colored water falling down the walls. so i was like wtf is that, and we went to check it out. to get to the building you had to walk on water covered walkways, so i was like no way. but eric went, and he said it was a casino, and that we had been there before. i was like no we haven’t. he said we had, but before it was finished being built. then we went inside, because the whole reason i wanted to see it was because it had a margarita bar inside. so we went inside, and there was a display case with dolls in it. they were electronic barbies, that would move and talk. there were 3 of them, but i only remember 1. it was pop mart tour bono.
posted by sara @ 12:08 PM//

July 1, 2002

something about snakes. i was super scared of them. i was at some sort of camp thing, taking a sculpture class with the woman i had in 10th grade, but dropped her class (drawing and painting) because i hated it. she had gotten married and had a different name. kristin o. my friend in high school was in it, so was angela. i remembered that last semester i had signed up for a watercolors class but could never find the room so i forgot to go to it. but i didnt get a failing grade, or anything. then the part about snakes.

June 30, 2002

thurs night: i was friends with the people in friends. monica died, so we were trying to console chandler, who wasn’t very upset at all. i took it upon myself to make sure he didn’t kill himself from greif. i think i was in love with him, so that was my excuse to touch him alot. the funeral was someplace on top of a mountain, so we had to go up these tiny mountain paths, and i wanted to make sure he didn’t jump off.
last night: danielle’s cat attacked me and beat me up so badly i had to go to the hospital. then everytime i saw it, it kept trying to attack me. i wanted them to kill it (put it to sleep) cuz it was such a bastard. they were like no, he’s only like that because we wrestle with him. and i’m like that’s bullshit, it’s cuz he has no claws to defend himself with, so you turned him into an evil cat. cuz ziggy has claws and never bites or scratches anyone and my dad wrestles with her every night. i was pissed.
posted by sara @ 10:57 AM//

June 26, 2002

yay for trent dreams. i kept waking up and going back to sleep to continue them
i had gotten the new nin record, which was sort of a covers album/tapeworm preview. it had a bunch of covers that i didn’t know, and 2 tapeworm songs. so eric came over and i was playing the tapeworm tracks for him. then we watched an interview on tv with trent and danny lohner, i guess about tapeworm. danny was doing all the talking, and trent seemed wasted out of his mind on something. trent had blue eyeshadow and red/purple eyeliner on, and blue eyeshadow over his top lip. he started rambling about something but danny made him shut up.
then i was in the yard of this really old rundown house in what seemed to be an area like the garden district of new orleans. there was a tour going by, but it was totally weird. the guide was an old woman, who went inside the house and told one of the men in the tour – a fat business man – to climb up the ladder and go through the window to find her. so he did, and when he got to the top of the ladder the entire thing broke and he fell to the ground. then i realized i was on the set of the new nin video. the theme was a haunted house of sorts. the entire house was falling apart, which was part of the video. i was in the video. i had to go upstairs to where the band was, trying not to make the house fall apart. the story was about a little girl who died and posessed the house. what i had to do was lay on this folding table, as the girl all grown up, but still dead. then people in nin were coming up to me and putting things on me, almost like a funeral. trent came and put a bible against my arm. danny lohner put something else on me. john landis was directing the video. there was something with this rocking chair with candles on it, and simulated lightning to make everything all spooky. well i guess the shoot finished, cuz i could get up from the table. a grand piano appeared, and i freaked out. i was like trent please you have to play something for me, you have to. and i was being all hyper and semi-annoying. he refused to play anything. he said something that i forget now, but it was like, he wasn’t sure how legitmate i was (it so wasnt legitimate that he said, totally can’t remember tho). i replied that i thought i was pretty legitimate. so i went over to where he was, he was cleaning and rotating the wine and alcohol that was being stored in a wine rack against the wall. he was wearing black pants and a purple dress shirt. he was like, take that scalpal over there and throw it, how it lands maybe i’ll play. i said i wouldn’t do it, because the last time i threw a scalpal it landed in my foot. so he was like, is it better now? and i said yeah, it had been 7th grade, it had all healed. then i remember that the same time i did that, i had sliced my hand open too. he asked if that was better too, but i didn’t hear him, so he said it again. so i said yeah, it was all better to, no scars even. then he handed me a big glass of alcohol as he walked away from me. it was cognac. so i was like, what is this, is it going to taste bad, cuz i’ve never had it before. he was going towards the piano. i was really being hyper and not myself, but he seemed not to be annoyed with it anymore but sort of charmed.
*woke up*
carolyn was staying with me because my parents had gone away. trent came over too. he still didn’t really know how to take me and how i acted with him, but he was warming to me. carolyn and i were talking about different kinds of hair products to use and how if i could try them all for free, i’d buy something if it ended up working. (i think there was more here that i don’t remember now) then carolyn was actually danielle, and one morning when we had got up, and i went downstairs to see where they were. they were sitting on the deck together holding hands. but when danielle saw me, she stopped and hoped i hadn’t seen. but i had, and i was pissed as hell, because obviously she knew how much i liked trent and everyone always liked her. so i was like, i’m going to fucking kill her. we all got up to go wherever it was we were going to go to. trent started talking to me about how he couldn’t wait to go back to new orleans in the winter. i guess he had a summer home up north, and stayed down there during the winter. i had a gun, and i was going to shoot danielle in the back. we got into trent’s car, which was a rusted turquoise cavalier. i was like um, where’s the porche? i figured he left that in new orleans. we left, and were driving someplace. i never killed danielle. we were talking about getting special access to concerts, backstage and stuff, if you were a member of some group. trent was a member, so he could do all that. so i was like, well then now you can get me in. i was going to say “since we’re friends now” but i still wasn’t sure how we stood, so i didn’t. he was sorta wishy washy about it, and was like well i’m not sure i can. but i can recommend you join the group. i guess it was invite only. so he was going to do that for me.
*woke up*
carolyn was visiting, because my parents had gone away. we were in my room, which was a mess. full of pieces of crap i had bought because trent had seemed to show an interest in them. we were waiting for trent to finish getting ready. he was in the bathroom curling his hair with a curling iron. then my cat came in, but she had turned into a hamster and was freaking out. so we were trying to catch her, and put her in a cage til she stopped freaking out. but she’d escape from the cage, and freak out more. then she turned back into a cat. trent was finally done in the bathroom.
*woke up*
i was going to see trent someplace. i had to go through canada to get to wherever he was. it was snowing, but it was a wet slushy snow. traffic was slow going, because you had to clear your own way with a shovel. so people were mostly just walking, not driving. trent called me on my cellphone to see how i was doing, and i told him the situation. that it was ok, just slow, but if it got any colder the snow would turn to ice and then it’d be dangerous to keep going. it was warm though, because i had a no sleeve shirt on as i was shoveling. i told him that the snow was disgusting because it was green. then this tv reporter showed up to do a story on the weather, and was helping shovel…..then danielle and i had gone to visit trent in new orleans. he picked us up from the street car stop, and we were walking back to his house. i was walking in front of the two of them, slightly annoyed remembering the past when i had caught them holding hands. then danielle started singing nelly furtado’s “Fly like a bird” and i was like omg stop! but then trent came up and walked with me, and took my hand. i guess we were a couple. he said “i love you honey” and i was a bit shocked, but told him that i loved him.

got up, blogged that, back to sleep more dreams

i was watching a movie based on anne rice book with a canadian couple. i guess anne rice decided to do what steven king always did, and have a minor roll in all her movies. so she came on, and i was like hey that’s anne rice. then she materialized on the couch next to the canadians. so she was like hi, and showing them one of her dolls. she was like, sara already knows about the dolls cuz she’s been to my store. and i was like yeah, i went awhile ago. so then the canadians got excited about going to the store and buying something. anne told them that the store was really expensive and they’d only be able to afford a pen. but the canadians were like no, it’s not that bad. anne said all the dolls were around 2000$ and i was like, yeah and that’s 4500$ canadian!

me adrienne and danielle were going to midcity plaza to go swimming, because one of the stores turned into an indoor swimming place. so we parked, and i remembered that jeff martin worked there during the weekdays. then joe and some friend pulled in the space next to us, and completely ignored us. but we went in, and were milling around in the lobby before finding the pool. joe was going around all hyper trying to find someone who would let him meet jeff. then he disappeared, and jeff arrived. no one bothered him he just went to his office. danielle went to swim but me and adrienne just stood around cuz we ended up seing people from high school and talking to them. then i went outside, cuz i wanted to go home, and there were tons of teenie boppers outside waiting for
jeff to leave. so i get through them, and then mary was there. so i was like yo, and we were talking. and mary wanted to meet jeff, since he was going to be coming out soon. so i was like, you should come when he arrives in the morning because no one was there. it was alot easier than waiting after shows, or with the teenie boppers. so then jeff came out and was mobbed by all the teenie boppers, and we just watched. then suddenly they all went away, and mary just walked right up to him and talked to him and stuff.
posted by sara @ 8:43 AM//

June 22, 2002

i had gone back to geneseo to see what was going on around the campus, with my parents and carolyn. for some reason i wanted to talk to someone who worked for CAS about my meal plan, so we went to the campus store – which was in newton. but it was all borded up because it was summer. so we left, and driving down court street we saw they were building a new residence hall. it was already half done even though it had just been started. so i was irritated about the whole townhouse delay of last year. then we passed where they were building the new dining hall, down the hill more. and it was really nice, almost done again. then at the intersection with route 63 they were building an archway over the road as the welcome entranceway to geneseo. so then we were driving down 63 back home, mom was driving, i was in back behind her. carolyn was in the front passenger seat, and my dad behind her. suddenly in front of us i saw an ICBM take off…apparently there were silo-ed ICBMs in new york. that didn’t make sense to me, because NY would be one of the first places of attack, thus limiting second strike capability. but it took off. so i was like omg that’s not cool, cuz that means someone is attacking us. so i looked out my window at the right moment to see a nuclear bomb go off. i’m like OMG DUCK, MOM STOP THE CAR. so me and carolyn both duck our heads down below the car window level. my mom kept driving, and i was like STOP!!!!!! but she kept going. so after a while, we figured it was safe to sit up again. we were far enough away that the EMP didn’t kill the car. and the windows were up, so the fallout would land on the car. so we kept driving home, which was in the direction of the blast, which i didn’t think was a good idea.
posted by sara @ 11:36 AM//

June 17, 2002

all morning, dreams about going to paris. i’d wake up, fall back asleep, more dreams about paris. so this isn’t 1 dream but a combination of all of them.
i arrived in paris, and my flight wasn’t very long so i must have been on the concorde. i got a cab to take me to the hotel i was staying at, and when i got to the hotel i got out of the cab and the driver took off. i went inside the hotel to check in, and that’s when i realized the cab had taken off with my luggage. so now i had nothing, no purse, no backpack no luggage. so i was starting to freak out a bit, because i was all alone in Paris and didn’t know French, and had no ID or money or anything. i went outside of the hotel to see if i could see the cabbie, and catch up to him, but i couldn’t. there was another black cab there, so i stopped him to ask him for a business card in hopes i could call them and they’d have my luggage. just then another black cab pulled up behind him, and even tho i didn’t recognize the driver as being my driver i asked him about my luggage anyway, and he did have it. so i got my luggage and went inside to check in. i got my room and it was on the 3rd floor. i left the room to look around, and ran into ex-suitemate dani, and went into her room. she had a computer with 3 monitors hooked up to it – 1 for normal stuff, 1 for playing games, and 1 for watching movies. i was like ok, you’re a dork. then i went back to my room and across the hall this american woman was talking about how some rooms had fridges, and she knew because she had gone into some other rooms. so i got paranoid i didn’t lock my door and she had been snooping in my room. but she hadn’t been. i went to use the bathroom and it was all messed up. it was so tiny that you couldn’t fit in between the toilet and the sink. you were going to have to stand on the toilet to use the sink to wash up and stuff. just then a bunch of people came into the room. it was all the people who i went to the new orleans conference with, so i guess the trip to Paris was a conference too. because i got confused from the time change i didn’t expect them to be there that day, i thought they were arriving the next day. so i was sorta disappointed that i didn’t have an entire day in the city to myself. but i explained to them my luggage hassel and how i didn’t know what i was going to do if i hadn’t found them, and how i was lucky the 2 cabbies spoke english since my french isn’t very good. we decided to leave and go get dinner, cuz that had been my plan before they had arrived. then sara walked in with a burrito she bought out of a vending machine. we left to go get dinner, and ended up on some ferry boat. i don’t remember much about the boat except it was going super fast, and when i thought it was supposed to land it kept going, until it was driving on a road up a big ramp onto an expressway. and it was so high we could see the whole city, so i was taking pictures. then to get off the boat you had to go down a ladder, but i was holding my camera, my purse, and balloons the boat company had given us. we got off the boat and were in a gift shop.
posted by sara @ 11:59 AM//

June 16, 2002

i was in a mall with the people i went to new orleans with. our hotel room was in the mall. i had taken a shower, and so i was wet and had no makeup on, but i was hungry so i went with some old man to get a bagel from one of the food court stores. we walked to the bagel place and there was a big line. so we were standing in line, and people were making a big fuss up front because trent reznor was there. so i was like OMG i finally see trent in new orleans and i look like shit. so i was just staring at him, and the person i was with was telling me to talk to him. but i was like, no i can’t, i look terrible. so i just watched trent walk by with some old man he was with. and trent looked so cute, his hair was kinda short, and he looked really young. and he had eyeliner on, so his eyes were really dark. so then i was like, i’m not leaving new orleans til i get to talk to him, if i have to hang out in front of his house all day long, he has to leave to get dinner sometime. (figuring that he’d have to go back to the food court for more food).
the trent dream is making me feel all weird. cant explain it.

some dream about going to geneseo to watch sturges building get blown up by a nuclear weapon. we were standing in the quad waiting, but then we were told we had to move farther away so we were bussed to a building farther up the valley, where we could watch from inside where we wouldn’t get radiation. but we couldn’t even see the campus, let alone find where sturges was. but i moved towards one of the other windows just as the bomb went off so i got to see the mushroom cloud and stuff anyway.
posted by sara @ 11:08 AM//

June 15, 2002

A bunch of people were at my house and we were eating little bags of snack foods. a few houses down people were filming a moving staring kiefer sutherland. suddenly he came to my house and jumped onto the roof in front of my window, and came in my room through the window. he was pissed off cuz he was accusing us of stealing the food from the movie catering. so he was yelling at one of my friends for stealing a bag of chips, and he was looking at each bag to see if they were the same kind from the movie. so i was like, calm down, we’re not stealing anything. and then he was like ok, but just warning you don’t do it. so then he was nice, and was leaving and i was like, you can leave through the front door if you want, i can show you the way out. and he was like ok. i only did it so i could spend some time with him. so i walked him to the front door. then i was like omg i have to tell Fishy that Kiefer was in my house.
it was halloween and i was going to dressup like Pink. But I had on an outfit like Britney Spears in the Baby one more time video. And my hair was in pigtails. There was a group of us waiting by a wall, and we were all supposed to be dressed up like Pink. I was debating whether or not to go to the store to buy pink hair dye, because without pink hair i just looked like britney. the real Pink was there, and she was spraying graffiti on the wall, and the police showed up and caught her. then i left to buy the spray on pink hair stuff that all the stores sell around halloween.

another dream about kiefer. it was a macphisto society related dream. fishy and i were going to go to dinner with some people, but i had to find kiefer and talk to him about when he had been at my house. apparently if i could get him to say he remembered meeting me before, or write it down, i could turn it into school and get extra credit on my final grade. so i was wandering around some mall looking for kiefer. then i was with my friends who were going to go to dinner, and i told them i had to find kiefer first. so fishy came with me, and the others stayed at the end of the street we were on. it was a combination of halloween and mardi gras, and anne rice vampires. we were dressed up for something, but i don’t know what we were dressed up as. so we find this shack or trailer where kiefer was staying during the festival, whatever it was. so i was like, hey can i talk to you for a minute. he said sure, and i asked him if he remembered coming into my window. and he said that he did. then i asked him if he remembered talking to me the other night, which he didn’t. but then i was trying to explain to him why i needed him to remember meeting me before, and he started being weird. he started making his eyes shine bright red like a vampires, and i was like woah how do you do that. meanwhile fishy was going into the trailer to look around. so kiefer and i were talking about how he made his eyes go like that. then i realized he was a vampire too. suddenly he shut the wall of the trailer (because the whole wall came down as a door), and there was a little window i could see him through, and he was feeding on 2 boys that had been in the corner of the trailer. so he finished and opened the wall/door for me again. i was like, you made a bit of a mess with them that time. so apparently i knew he was a vampire before. he was like yeah, but i’ll clean it up no problem, i won’t get charged. then i remembered fishy and i was scared he was going to feed on her. i knew she didn’t like him, so i didn’t want her to realize what he was and be even more hateful towards him. so i freaked out and was like, where’s Fishy, wheres Fishy? Kiefer was like, don’t worry, she’s just sleeping. so i pulled open the curtains of kiefer’s bed, it was like a bed on a tourbus, and fishy was sleeping. so i woke her up and i was like wtf, and she said she was trying to tuck kiefer into bed, and he put her to sleep instead. so she got up and left, and then kiefer came over to me and was hugging me and telling me how we were going to be perfect together, and he was all normal again and not scary. and i was in total awe, he couldn’t do anything wrong in my eyes. and i was still amazed that he could make his eyes go red like that. since i was my character in MPS, i was thinking “Why couldn’t i have met you before i met bono?”
posted by sara @ 11:52 AM//

June 12, 2002

A dream from New Orleans
I was somewhere with Apolo Anton Ohno, and he was going to go off to do something with his olympian friends. But all his friends were heroin addicts, so he decided to not go, and to stay with me. and he enveloped me in a gigantic hug.
Cleaning my room I found an old dream diary I had started in January 1994 – so I was 13
1-4-94
I had a dream that I was at my grandma’s. The house was different (insert drawing here). I went in my room to go to bed and I saw another me all huddled up. I picked me up and pushed me out. Then I went into the bathroom. In there, there were more mes. There was one in the toilet, and one was in the bathtub. 2 were on the sink and counter. I went to the one in the toilet and took the seat and kept closing it on me – the other me.
1-5-94
i had a dream that we were in school in math class. all of my friends were in it. the class was like Las Vegas. there were lights all around. Andrea was a can can dancer and she had her outfit on and was dancing.
1-9-94
I had a dream I was in school and we were going to go on a field trip but i missed my bus. I was stuck with Mrs Muelbauher and some other kids. I asked them if they missed their bus but they were going later. So I left school and went to Hills and played Super Nintendo there. I saw Mr Eberwein there and tried to hide. He left and I played more. The game was you are a snake and you have to drill holes by spinning and jumping. They look like this (insert drawing here).
1-10-94
I had a dream that we were driving and there were cars on the other side of the road. All of a sudden this hole was in the road. These people tried to swerve but there tire caught the edge and they flew off the road.
Then I had a dream I was at school and it was night. I went up to a snow pile and started patting it. All of a sudden it started moving. Rosanne Lockard was burried in the snow. I asked her who did it and she said my parents.
I had a dream that we were in poll and Mrs Hartmann was our teacher. Everyone else went to change but I wasn’t allowed to. When I left no one was there. Dede was playing super nintendo in a hair dryer (insert drawing here).
1-13-94
I was at the Galleria Mall and all my friends and I went upstairs and there was a pool and Rich Stadium. We went in the lockerroom and kept putting gum in our mouths. Then we went to Kristen Ondesko’s house but she lived near the mall. Her neighborhood looked like this. (insert drawing here). They were like islands. She had a skating rink in her back yard. We were at her house and I saw a duckbill platypus climbing onto the rock. I asked them if they bit. Mrs Ondesko said the mayor doesn’t like them here. Then this humongous frog jumped on it and started eating it.
I had a dream that I was a mighty morphine power ranger and 2 of the rangers didn’t want to be in it anymore because they liked Josh Clough. There were some bad guys in school and they wouldn’t help the other 3 rangers. so i called Josh over to my art class and everyone thought his name was Brian.
1-14-94
I had a dream that for halloween i was going to be Cliff Clavin from Cheers, the psycho mailman.
1-26-94
I had a dream that I was babysitting and the little girl wanted to play hide and go seek with plastic chips. you had to put certain amounts of money on each place you could hide and if the hider picks that spot you get money and a prize. we were playing and then i decided it was too easy. I called it memory for some reason. so i went next door to see if they had anything harder to play. the girl was only 2.

May 21, 2002

1. i went to visit cory at the high school, and he shared his room with ms derme. i was talking to her, and she said she had a job for me. she got me hired at the high school working with the school psychologist.
2. it was graduation and my parents had come up and i’d taken them to their seats even tho i never picked up the tickets. i had jeans on under my graduation gown, because they had never given us a dress code. so i was running around taking care of stuff, and i realized they had forgotten carolyn. so i was like where the hell is carolyn? they said they had gone to the bus station to get her and waited 2 hrs and she never arrived. so i went back to my dorm, which was on north side, carolyn was speeding up to the building in a green car and almost hit the building. she had missed a bus connection cuz the first bus was late, which was why she never showed up at the bus station. so we were waiting around in this big gym, that was turning into a rave. and joe and rick and everyone were there. and then goth joe and his friends showed up, plus some of my other friends. and we were all sitting on this stage thing, and lights were flying around. then someone got down and was balet dancing on the floor. soon everyone else joined them. then MJ’s “privacy” was on, and i was singing, and goth joe was staring at me cuz he was surprised i knew all the words. he didn’t think i was an MJ fan, and apparently everyone else there was. so they were all impressed with me.
posted by sara @ 1:43 PM//

May 14, 2002

1. i was driving somewhere. either i was dr kirsh…or dr kirsh was with me…or i was going to find dr kirsh. i had to keep pulling over because of emergency vehicles behind me. then i was scared that something really bad happened, like a earthquake or nuclear bomb or something.
2. one of those dreams that are so nice because you can actually feel what’s going on in it. something about tim, and we were at a dinner table, and he was leaning towards me with his arm around my shoulders. we weren’t dating, i guess he was trying to date me though.

3. something to do with alot of hatred for my parents. i was at mcds taking their order even tho i didn’t work there anymore, and they were being really annoying with all kinds of changes to their orders. and roseanne (barr/arnold) was my manager and was yelling at them, and i was yelling at them. then it progressed into something different, but i was still full of hatred for them, and was constantly screaming at them and hating them.
posted by sara @ 10:42 AM//

May 12, 2002

1. danielle and I were at a pre-show screening of the Jay Leno show. We were walking around wherever it was being held, and I saw jon bonjovi walk out of his dressing room. So I was like, “look, it’s bonjovi.” Danielle was like “cool, get him over here.” So I’m thinking, “why should I get him over here, I don’t even like him.” But I did anyway, I was like “jon, do you have a few minutes?” he was like sure, so he came over to talk to us. I guess we knew bonjovi was going to be playing on the show because danielle had brought something for him to sign. So he signed her thing, and I just stood there with them. So danielle thanked him and we turn to leave and he’s like “where you going? I’m not done with you girls yet.” So we go back towards him and he gives us both hugs. Then he pulls 2 passes out of his back pocket, and gave them to us. They were all access passes to the actual taping of the Leno show that night. They were the cloth passes that you stick to your clothing. So danielle is like “Thanks but I don’t know if I can, I have to study for exams.” And I was like, “sure, I’ll be there!” so we leave and I went home and told my parents that jon bonjovi had given us passes for the taping that night, so I was going to be going again. It was 11:40pm and I realized I was late for the taping, so I was getting all my stuff together, and my coat to leave. I was going to wear my leather coat cuz I thought that would impress jon. Then I realized I couldn’t go to the taping because they tape the show in burbank california, and I was in NYC. So I was like wtf, why would he give us passes if the show is in california…and why was jon even in NYC if he had to be in cali for the taping. There was no way I’d be able to get to california before the taping was over. So I was kinda pissed off about that.
2. sorta related…because we had been given these passes for the Leno show we had access to a hotel room for the night. So we figured, might as well use it. So I went to the room with eric and his girlfriend. His girlfriend wasn’t mary, it was this girl lauren who has been in a bunch of my psych classes. We were there waiting for other people to show up. So the two of them keep making out, because they want to have sex, and I’m sitting on the other bed trying to ignore them and be invisible. They keep talking to me every now and then and I just keep trying to ignore them. Then I fell asleep on the other bed (they had gone onto the bed I had been on before), and other people had arrived at the hotel room. There was this girl who was piss ass drunk, sitting on the bed I was on. She started tickling my feet, and woke me up. So I was like wtf, why’d you do that, I finally fell asleep and you had to go and wake me up. In the other bed eric and adrienne were all snuggling under the covers, and lauren was standing at the side of the bed yelling at them. And adrienne was like “you knew from when I got here we were making out.” And lauren was all pissed off and yelling at them, or at eric for cheating on her or something, and eric just was there silent the whole time. Then adrienne said something about “look at me compared to him” meaning something about how much shorter she was compared to eric, but I don’t know what that was supposed to mean. Then the drunk girl was all talking to me and making no sense, while I was watching the scene unfold between eric, adrienne and lauren.

3. sorta related again…a bunch of us were in class and it took place inside this old mansion, upstairs in one of the big rooms. There was a chalk board, and a lecturn and desks. So the professor was teaching, and then I guess the lesson was over or we had a break so we all left and went outside. We were in NYC again, and me and danielle were sitting on a park bench on this busy street. Then adrienne showed up, and sat with us. I took out the passes jon bonjovi had given us and showed her, because I was still pissed I hadn’t been able to go cuz it was in california. So she freaked out because there was a picture of britney spears on them. She thought we had gotten all access passes to a britney show. So I was like no, it’s for leno. She was like oh. Then there were tons of people lining both sides of the street, almost like waiting for a parade. So we got up and started to head back to school, and a motorcade came down the street. Everyone started cheering and we realized it was chelsea clinton’s wedding party. There were limos and then people walking, as if it was a parade. So we were trying to peek through all the spectators to see chelsea’s dress, figuring it would be really nice. So finally we saw all the bridesmaids and they were in pink dresses, and then chelsea was there with her new husband who was really tall, and had icky hair – it was like my dad’s hair when he got married – long, and sorta curly, and frizzy. So I was like ew ugly husband. And chelsea’s dress was like just a piece of cloth. Then I wanted to see bill clinton and talk to him so I could tell everyone I got hit on by bill clinton. But then there was another limo so we figured the clinton’s were inside the limo. We got back to the school/mansion and the mansion was really kind of scary. It was old and falling apart, and there were 2 really scary dangerous stairways you could take upstairs, or you could take the elevator. The elevator wasn’t in an elevator shaft though, it was just a box on pulleys that would lift you to the next floor. But it was really beautiful and ornate. So we took the elevator back to the classroom and sat down. The teacher started teaching again, but every time he’d teach he’d talk about things that weren’t the same as he had told us before, so everyone would always be super confused. So I raised my hand to ask about this person’s name, but he couldn’t remember my name and he refused to go on until he remembered it. So I was like, it’s the most common name in the entire world. But he still couldn’t remember it. Then our teacher was courtney love, and she was writing on the chalk board in such small writing no one could read it. Then this other girl from my psych classes, sarah, came in and asked me if I had an extra pen, which I didn’t. Then courtney was playing a video for us, and korn’s “here to stay” was playing (or at least that’s what it was supposed to be in the dream), but it was this remix, or super long extended version. There was a bowl of juju candies next to me, and so I started taking them all out of the bowl to put in these little candy envelops. So I filled 2 envelopes, which was almost the entire bowl, even tho I wasn’t supposed to, because they were for the entire class. Then I turned back to trying to write down what courtney had put on the board, but no one could read it. Then she showed us this other video about townhouses that were built in swamps in florida, and how the companies were getting sued because of all the problems. Like at night, the swamps would rise up like at high tide, and fill the houses with water. If you were sleeping, the water would fill your entire house and you’d be sleeping underwater (but you wouldn’t drown, you’d just live off the oxygen in the water)…but if you didn’t realize you were underwater you had the risk of these water worms going into your nose. So people were suing the company for that too.
posted by sara @ 11:06 AM//

May 11, 2002

i’m not sure the order of these, they were sorta one dream, but it flipped back and forth a few times.
i was in class, in a big room like in newton. it was some sort of history class i guess, and we were watching a video on russia. they were showing footage from a fire that occured in some russian tourist area. a fire had started inside the place, and some people had caught on fire as well. so they had footage of the people on fire, and inserterd were interviews with the people who had been there either on fire, or just present, about what happened. well it turns out my 3rd grade class had been there on a field trip, and 2 of the people who had caught on fire were danielle and pete zinni. danielle had a beard and it was all on fire, and they were asking her on the footage if the fire had burned her ears. she didn’t even remember the event, she had repressed it. and they were talking to pete about how everyone had to evacuate, and asked him how the people who had been on fire had put themselves out. then there was a shot in the footage of me. i wasn’t on fire though. i was just there with the rest of my class, watching the mayhem. but since all of us had forgotten we had been there, were like OMG THATS ME!!! so then class was over, and i left and found eric. we were walking down the hall to our next class, and i saw a sign for a perfect circle playing on campus that night. i remembered seeing other signs, and i was like “eric, apc tonight!!! don’t let me forget, because i know i’m going to” so he was like yeah don’t worry about it. the show was at 7, and it was going to be in alice austin theatre, but it also looked like one of the big lecture halls. so then i left eric and was thinking about what i was going to wear to the show since my shiny pants were at home. so i was looking for my class but i didn’t even know what class i should have been going to. so i was like wtf, i only have 4 classes, what other class do i have today? then i realized i was supposed to be in comp art, but decided not to go because i finished all my projects. so i went back through all the maze like hallways to find eric. i found him sitting outside where the APC show was going to be, because the sign on the door said 7pm or just chill. lol there were tons of people around, but i managed to smoosh in between people and sit next to him. the other people around weren’t there for the show though, they were there for food because it was also the cafeteria.

some dream about looking at coats, and me thinking about my jacket fetish.
posted by sara @ 1:29 PM//

May 2, 2002

1. i was reading my adolescent psych textbook which is famous for typos and errors. so i was reading it, and it started talking about Fight Club and the filming of fight club. then there was a paragraph about how hot ed norton is. so then everyone who came into my room, i read them that paragraph because it was so weird that it was in my textbook. there were 2 other thinks i kept reading them too but i forget what they were.
2. i was at an orgy show with danielle, who was also my old best friend angela. the backstage was like a labrynth, so it was really weird. there were lots of hallways, and stuff. and the stage was someone’s back porch so we didn’t understand why the whole backstage part was so crazy. so we were hanging out in this big area right before the stage entrance, and we were talking to this woman who is the one who got us backstage. she worked for orgy, tour manager or something. i guess we knew her, that’s how she got us in. so we were waiting for orgy to come from their dressing rooms so we could talk to them. so i think paige came out and walked by and waved, then ryan came over. he put his arm around me, and was talking to me, and i put mine around his. he wasn’t any taller than me, so we were at eye level with eachother. i guess we actually knew the band too, because it wasn’t weird or anything. so i was talking to ryan, then they had to go on stage. so we walked onto this porch through the sliding glass door (the band went on from a side entrance). there were all kinds of people there to see the band. so there were a bunch of ppl hanging around this back area of the stage, because they all had passes, and we didn’t. but we figured, whatever, we know the tour manager, we know the band, we’re staying here. so there were 2 like 14 year old girls sitting there in plastic lawn chairs glaring at us, because we were going to stay there. they commented something like “oh 24 year old girls think they can do anything”. so we were like whatever. so the band came out, and jay saw us and waved. he was real light on the make up. so then he was motioning to us to come on stage, and we were like what?!?! then i saw that everyone had backed up and made this space at the barrier for us. so i ran and jumped off the stage, and into the hole in the crowd. for some reason, i guess she was scared, danielle/angela didn’t, and so she stayed on stage. but she was in front of the stage, not in back anymore. and i don’t know where orgy went. but there was some asshole in the crowd who kept walking back and forth, and making the entire crowd move back and forth over and over again. well his friends tried to make him stop, but he wouldn’t, so he got kicked out. and the whole thing pissed off Orgy who decided they weren’t going to play. but there was this big screen that came down and was playing orgy videos. so no one realized they weren’t actually playing anymore. then everyone started to disappear, so i was like what’s going on? to danielle/angela. and we figured out that they weren’t playing anymore and stuff. so we went back stage again to walk around and find the band. we found the tour manager and she was crying, cuz she was pissed off about the whole thing and told us that the band was pissed off at the kid who kept making the crowd move. so then we were walking around trying to find the band, but since it was all a bunch of hallways we got lost. i don’t know what happened to danielle, but i was walking down a staircase, and i heard someone say something about snakes. so i looked above me and there were snakes everywhere. but they were actually lizards. and where i was, was some part of a fear factor type game, to walk up the stairs with all these snakes/lizards on both sides of you. so there was this guy at the top of the stairs, who i guess was trying to help me. so he killed one of the snake/lizards which was a signal to all the other snake/lizards to go attack that guy… that would draw all the snake/lizards to him, so i could sucessfully go up the stairs. but they were all moving so slow, i was still scared to use the stairs. so i went back down, and out an emergency exit, and ended up in this ghetto ass shady looking street. there was someone there i was scared was going to attack me, so i went into a record store.

3. me, eric, danielle and adrienne were in a car with psycho ex boyfriend. danielle was in front with him, and the other 3 of us were in back. i was behind danielle. psycho had a big bottle of wine he was trying to open. the dream was weird because it kept changing perspectives from backseat, to outside the car looking in – like a tv show. so he was trying to get the cork out of the bottle, and his son (assuming his kid is a boy) was in the car with us too. and his son could talk, and was telling him he shouldn’t be drinking in the car. so we were driving down nash, i guess psycho was taking us to his house, or his parents house (if he doesn’t live there anymore, i dunno). and i guess we realized he was completely drunk. and he almost crashed into a house on the side of the road.

4. i guess this kinda morphed into stopping somewhere, and managed to get rid of psycho. then we were driving in eric’s car…eric driving, danielle in front seat, me behind her. eric wanted a blizzard icecream from this place called Freeze. so we went through the drive thru and danielle had to order because it was on that side of the car. but she didn’t know how for some reason. so i was trying to tell her what to do to order. it was only 2$ for the blizzard. so then we drive around to the other side of the building to get it, but you have to get out of your car to pick it up. then we had to go to a parking ramp because that’s where our car was. and that’s where we had to meet all our other friends (joe, rick, janet etc). there was some kind of gang dance off inside the parking ramp, so we were all sitting on this metal walkway/stair way watching the break dancers. the stairway was at a total slant tho, so i was sliding off, and about to fall off the stairs to the pavement below (Because the stairs was really like a fire escape ladder). but everyone else couldn’t let go of the bars they were holding on to, or they would fall, so no one could help me. i told someone that rick was the only one strong enough to be able to pick me up off the walkway thing and not fall himself, but he had gone down the ladder to watch close up so he wasn’t around. i couldn’t go down the ladder either, because i would have had to go down head first. eventually people managed to get me up so i wasn’t going to die.

4. something about having a part in a movie. where i played some girl having surgery, some miracle cure thing. so i did my filming, which was all of 5 minutes. and i guess my mom was in it too. or no, she wasn’t supposed to be, but she was at the filming, acting like a shocked witness or something, and they ended up using her. so we saw a commercial for it, realized she was in the movie too, then in the preview they showed some thinkg of me, which i had never done. so i was like um? gonna have to see the movie now, because i totally don’t understand.

April 29, 2002

i was in a parking lot by my car. i guess it was by a restaurant, but there was also a sporting goods store. my 12th grade science teacher mr swisher was there, and he was talking to some others in the middle of the parking lot. i haven’t seen him in 3 years or so, so i was suprised to run into him. he still had his semi mullet. he and one of the men he was with were holding umbrellas even tho it was sunny. so i concluded that his skin cancer must still be a threat and he’s covering himself from the sun. then he saw me and came over to talk to me. he said he had seen me online, and at the time was hoping i didn’t IM him or he would have told me he wished i would shut up because he had been having a bad day. well i was confused because i’ve changed my screenname twice since the last time he knew it, and didn’t know how he had my new one. then i realized he saw my old one online, and so then i didn’t know who had gotten access to it and used it. so i was looking for a piece of paper to write my new name on for him. and i was waiting for him to ask me about my head, since he was always really concerned about my headaches because his wife had almost died of an aneyurism.
*alarm* *snooze button*
i had to deliver replacement carpets to one of the townhouses. the worker gave me squares of carpet, just throw rugs, to take to the house and he pointed to it. but when i was actually on my way to the house i forgot which one it is. so i was standing there hugging the carpets to myself, and someone answered the door and i asked them if they were the people who needed the new carpets. they let me in, but they had carpet. but it was white burber, not the green/brown/multi colored carpet in the rest of the townhouses. but it was that house that needed the carpet, because it was all bulged up and wavy, because it hadn’t been layed right the first time. but the person was confused why i was there, since it was almost the end of the year and they figured they wouldn’t get replacement carpet until they were moved out and all the furniture was gone. i told them i had no idea, but i was there with carpet so i left it there for them
*alarm again*
and something about marilyn manson’s “coma white” song… i was hearing it in my dream, and visualizing the video. but it wasn’t the real video, and i realized it and was like… no this isn’t right, the video for “coma white” is the one where marilyn and rose mcgowan re-enact the Zapruder film…
posted by sara @ 2:44 PM//

April 28, 2002

more about driving my car in heavy traffic trying to get to buffalo for a sabres game. or to go downtown to see if we could get tickets for the sabres game, which was the last game of the season that night. lots of traffic. no crashes this time though.
posted by sara @ 2:46 PM//

April 27, 2002

oh yeah, remembered a dream from the other day. i went to see queen of the damned at an old theatre with danielle and adrienne. we had to park in a muddy parking lot, and it was near the erie canal but we weren’t going to the riviera. the theatre didn’t look like a normal movie theatre either. there were like tables and chairs, and beds, and we were watching the movie and there kept being problems with it. then someone came in to sell everyone popcorn, but it was on fire, and we all had to evacuate. so we left the theatre, cuz the movie was over, and me and danielle were like, did they show us the whole movie? and i was like, i don’t think so, but we couldn’t remember. then as we were walking back to the parking lot thing i realized there was no way they showed us the whole movie because they didn’t show the concert where Lestat sings ‘slept so long’. so we find my car and someone had parked so close next to it that i couldn’t get in. so i got in on the passenger side and crawled over, and was going to pull out so danielle and adrienne could get in. so i start pulling out and i scrape the entire length of my car against the one next to me. i realized i was doing it, but kept going anyway. so i got out of the space, and got out of the car to see how badly my car was messed up. and it was pretty bad, so i didn’t know what i was going to tell my parents.
then last night, had another dream about my car. something about being at the summit mall, and when i left the mall i was wearing the new black dress my mom bought for me, and i was so tired i could barely stand so i kept falling, and trying to crawl to the car so i could get home. this guy was there and was trying to help me, but i think it had snowed and was slippery. so we got to my car and he got in with me even tho i didn’t know who he was. we had to go to buffalo, so we leave and almost gett hit by a train because it was dark so you couldn’t see the train crossing the road, and the barrier things were broken and didn’t go down. so we were waiting for the train to go by and it seemed to have ended, but it was really just more cars at the end that didn’t have boxes on them, so they were flat bed cars, and we could barely see them in the dark. so i guess we finally saw that the train had finished, and we’re going to buffalo and there is all this construction, and the road narrows to the point that no car can fit in it, and the road turns into 2 steel bars, like a roller coaster track, but it’s not…it’s a road, with these steel bars on the side, and not enough room for the car unless u drive your car sideways on it. it’s hard to explain.
posted by sara @ 12:59 PM//

April 26, 2002

something about a song from phantom of the opera playing, and not realizing what it was until danielle said “oh it’s from phantom”….then a whole bunch about trent reznor, including a new tv interview with him and he was smoking. so i thought, hmm that’s weird i’ve never heard anything about him being a smoker before, but whatever, i can deal with it.
then woke up from the power going off, and the generator turning on.
posted by sara @ 12:38 PM//

April 17, 2002

i was at my house. some guy showed up and my mom let him in because he was traveling and needed a place to stay. i guess we ran a boarding house, but it was our normal house. so he went into the guest room where he was staying. he came in and talked to me, but neither one of us had anything to say. he was sorta hot. so then it was night time and everyone went to sleep. for some reason i got up, and went downstairs. there was a man and 2 children running around in my back yard with 2 pug dogs. then they came in the house. and then the chinese-indian mother came in. so i start screaming “get the fuck out of my house” over and over at them, trying to get them out. they were all like, super confused, and trying to make me let them stay. they were homeless or something, so they’d go in people’s houses at night. but i was like “no, get the fuck out of my house”. i was screaming, and didn’t know why no one else was waking up. so i finally got them out of the house. i went back upstairs and there was a table and chairs set up at the top of the stairs and my mom was sitting at the table. so i went over and told her about the people in the house, and how that explained how when we wake up in the morning things are displaced etc. but she didn’t seem to care. then the boarding guy came out of his room to use the bathroom, and was stumbling around. looked into my parents room, then opened the closet door. then i pointed at the bathroom and he was like thanks. so he went in, and i was still talking to my mom about the people in the house. then he came out and went into my parents room, stood on the bed and started taking his clothes off. he was talking to us, so we looked into the room and saw him taking his pants off. we were like ?!?!?! but talked back to him. so we carryed on a conversation with him, as he took his clothes off, and me and my mom were trying not to look over at him and see him naked. then i guess i was watching tv and the chinese-indian mother was on tv talking to the reporter about how they were kicked out of my house that night, and this sob story about something. not sure what she was saying anymore.
posted by sara @ 6:57 PM//

April 13, 2002

1. don’t know what i was doing but i was in my car. it died. so i got out of my car and went through some people’s yards to get to the next street over where i guess i was supposed to be going. but i wasn’t supposed to be at this person’s house because i was sneaking around so they wouldn’t see me. it was brooke’s house. i grabbed a couch cushion and a pillow and made my way out of their house. then i don’t know where i was but i fell into a fountain. so then i was all wet and carrying the pillow. then i realized i was on the set of the west wing. so i was trying to sneak around the set trying not to be in the shot and ruin what they were doing. then i ran back, through the set again, towards the fountain. then dr mounts was there and he fell into the fountain, so now he was all wet. so he got out, and i pushed him in again. then he got out and someone else pushed him in.
2. i was at some big fancy rich lady’s house. she was evil or something, because i was tapping on statues to see if they’d come alive because apparently she had some power to turn people into statues. and i was playing the sims but i was also IN the sims game. then was back at the rick lady’s house because there was a huge party. i was trying to find the gift my mom wrapped up for her in the big pile of gifts. my mom had mentioned something to me about it. so i found it and started to unwrap it so i could wrap it back up after i saw what it was. it was a gold chain with gold rings on it. apparently they were rings from dead fireman. and it was appropriate because the woman’s husband, or deceased husband had been a fireman. then my dad started walking towards where i was to see if i wanted to go pick up other family members, so i was trying to stuff the necklace and the cotton padding back into this little box and wrap it up before anyone saw what i was doing. i told him i didn’t want to go, which was weird, because at every other family function i’d gladly leave the house to pick up people or run to the store.

3. i was at an econoline crush concert. it was in like, a basement of someone’s house. they did the beginning of the set, which was supposedly only stuff from Purge. i was hanging around the back of the room, by a table. there was a notebook where i had drawn the word Peaches, and doodled around it. apparently it was a name of some band i liked. this girl asked me if peaches was one of the last bands i like. i was like no way i like, like 50 bands, just 3 that i like a real lot. then EC went on intermission, and i went outside to near where the bus was. they had taken out all their towels and pillows and folded them on the ground. so i was going through them, don’t know why, and i grabbed some pillows to take back inside so i could be comfortable laying on the ground watching the concert. so i went back inside, and trevor was walking around. ziggy was on stage playing drums, and another guy who was a new guy in the band was playing guitar. they were actually playing a song, and someone was singing but it wasn’t trevor. or he was a ventriliquist. then people started coming back in so i moved to the front. adr showed up and i was like, they got a new guy to replace dan. but then we realized the only 2 original memebers there were trevor and ziggy. but we couldn’t remember who was missing. finally we realized that johnny wasn’t there, and that’s why ziggy was playing drums. he had all kinds of weird gadgets on the drums to make them sound different, and he didn’t actually have real drums. it was just this electronic platform thing that looked like a keyboard that he’d hit with drumsticks.

note: i remembered more of the dr mounts fountain dream before. i went through it at least 2 other times in my dreams while i was sleeping. and what’s with multiple dreams involving pillows?
posted by sara @ 10:02 AM//

April 11, 2002

very strange. the story of the dream was as if i was writing it. i was an author and this was the story i was writing. it was like i was narrating it, omnicient narrator, so i knew what they were all thinking.
there was a girl who worked as a waitress in a diner. it wasn’t like hooters or anything, but her waitress outfit was a really short skirt, and little middriff shirt. she was a really pretty girl, and all the men who came to the diner would grab her, and made rude comments etc. so she hated men, because all they did was treat her like a sex object and take advantage of her. so there was a guy there who observed the way she was treated, and wanted to get to know her but knew she would be suspicious of his actions etc. so i guess he asked her to go someplace with him. she went even tho she was wary, and she figured that he would end up taking advantage of her. because of this, the guy tried to act completely un-sexual towards her. he didn’t touch her, he didn’t make any comments about her. he just wanted to be really nice to her and show her all men weren’t like that, in hopes that they could have some kind of relationship. so they were at the beach. it wasn’t a real beach, but just a small patch of land where a lake or some body of water came ashore. they stood there and talked and the waves came on over the sand. then he left. she felt really good about the whole thing, that he wasn’t like every other guy etc. (*here is the weird part*) there was a house besides the water. it was a shoe. a big boot. and people lived in it. but it wasn’t attached to the ground. it floated and moved according to the waves. the waves had to turn the boot house a certain way for the door to be exposed and the people could get out to go shopping or whatever. so the girl stood there watching the boot house get tossed around in the water. then she was at her house. i think she was kinda poor. not poor, but lower class. she lived with an extended family. don’t know what happened at this part, but she was very happy at how well it had gone with the guy. how he hadn’t hugged her or tried to take advantage of her. then he went to her house. she was sitting in the bathroom on the tub. i guess it was the only place other family members weren’t. she had frosting on her hands. he came in to talk to her, and sat on the floor in front of her. she put frosting onto his thumb. he decided he was going to make a motion towards her to let her know that he really liked her, without making her feel like she was being taken advantage of. so instead of licking the frosting off his thumb, or wiping it off, he moved his hand towards her for her to kiss the frosting off. nothing super sexual, just really cute (it wasn’t alot of frosting to be wiped off). and they were really happy.

notes: directly based on conversations about the objectification of women, and the media portraying women as sex objects. no clue about the boot house.
posted by sara @ 4:41 PM//

April 6, 2002

danielle and i finally went to the continental (goth bar in buffalo). i had called melinda and we made plans to go. so i got all ready and was waiting for the time to go pick melinda up. then she called and wanted me to go to some other place to get her. i didn’t know where it was but then i realized it was by danielles house, on styx road (lol). then she wanted me to take her to some other place i had no clue where it was. so i was like fine whatever. so i kept waiting and was getting irritated cuz we weren’t going to have a long time to spend at the bar. then i realized melinda wanted me to take her to her drug dealers house. then we ended up at the continental. it was me, melinda, danielle, adrienne and some boy. and the continental was huge. it was like a restaurant almost, and just gigantic. so we sat at this round table that still had 2 plates of food on it from the last people who were there. well danielle and adrienne started eating the frenchfries off of them. then someone came and took our drink orders. danielle got a “perrier and fuck you”…which apparently was perrier and some citrius liquer that’s named “fuck you”. and i got my normal cran vodka. well i was sitting in a seat with my back to the door, so i was like no i’m going to sit over there across the table, next to the boy, so i can see hot goth boys as they walk in. then later emily showed up. she had really short hair and had gained weight. so i talked to her but she was really rude to me, like she didn’t have time to talk to me cuz she had all her goth friends there. so i went and sat back down at our table, and then joe was there.
that dream sorta morphed into this one. something about my proff dr allen. but it wasnt dr allen, it actually was dana carvey. my parents were taking me back to school and i was in the backseat thinking about how much dr allen reminds me of dana carvey, and how by the time i leave i’m going to make him say something from SNL or Wayne’s World. so i started laughing, and my mom was like what?! so i told her i’m going to make him say something for me before i leave school. then i realized he really was dana carvey.

i was having a party at my house. i don’t think it started out as a party, but it turned into one. and since it wasn’t supposed to be a party, we didn’t go buy alcohol. we just were drinking my parents. and my parents were still there. so i was sorta paranoid about them seeing us drink. then this girl from high school, michelle, who actually moved in 10th grade showed up. she’s like “social”? and i’m like “what?”…she goes “social?” and points to the alcohol in the alcohol rack. and i’m like ooooh, social! she wanted to do a shot. so i found the 2 shot glasses we had and washed them, then spent 20 minutes trying to find other shot glasses so we could all do a shot. but then there was no alcohol that she liked.

notes: i’m sure adrienne would never go to the continental again lol.
posted by sara @ 11:46 AM//

April 5, 2002

lots of wack dreams, of course, dont remember most of them now
1. i was sitting in the townhouse living room. looked nothing like our actual house. we had all just returned from break. then door opened, and it was katie. she had come back to live in the townhouse. well since she hates me, i just sat there and ignored her. she was with a bunch of people from her family and they were making lots of noise. then she came up to me, right in front of me and was like HI! all excited. so i looked at her and was like hi. so the people left, and she was there, and she was standing by me. i was really confused about the whole thing – why she was there, why she was talking to me etc… so i was like, um ok are we cool now? she’s like, yeah we’re cool. i was like good. so she went to move her stuff back in, and later when i went upstairs (looked nothing like our actual upstairs) she had moved all her stuff into my room. so i was like um.. she was like “oh i liked your room better, so i’m living in there now” and she had moved all my stuff into the next room over….my bed, my posters were all rehung etc. i’m like um ok. so then leah came home, and dunno where katie had gone to. but i was like, guess what, katie is moving back in. leah was like what?! and i’m like, yeah she moved into my room and now all my stuff is in there. leah was really confused too. now i was just pissed off, and i was like… i don’t care what is going on, and i can pretend to be her friend, but i definitely do not like her and i never will again after what happened.

2. don’t remember much of this one at all anymore. i had this boyfriend. he was a cross between Ian and Nick Clark. there was something about taking film to get 1 hour developed, before he had to leave for someplace. then we were driving in an SUV, and there were all kinds of power lines around… the towers, and the actual wires. it was weird driving around them because they kept making optical illusions so u didn’t know where you were or if you were going to hit any of them. then there was something about this road under construction, it was all dirt, and there were all kinds of uneven levels that made it almost like a mountain. and people were bike riding on it, and the one person kept falling off one of the levels to the lower one but didn’t know why…that’s about all i remember.

3. i was in an ambulance…i was driving it. i don’t know where we were going, or why, but we were somewhere. there was this white trash guy who was drunk, and he had feathered hair/mullet. john goodman was the doctor of the ambulance, and there was some other guy who worked on the ambulance. so we got to the guy, and i don’t really know what happened next, but he was on the stretcher, and he was all tied down. actually, i don’t know why i worked on the ambulance, i think they might have just grabbed me and told me to drive it cuz no one else who was around could, and they had to deal with the guy. because i totally didn’t know what i was doing. so they tie the guy to the stretcher, i think he had a pink shirt on. then his wrists started bleeding, the guy had sliced them open (dunno when, some point he did)…and i think he had cut his neck too. so i put my seat belt on, but i didn’t know how it connected so it wasn’t on right, and i drove to the hospital while john goodman tried to take care of the guy. the whole time this guy was passed out. so we get to the hospital and john tells me to take the guy into the ER. so i start to take the stretcher thing into ER and they’re like no not that way, u gotta go in this other door and to the 3rd floor. i was like ?!?!? cuz it made no sense. and john and the other guy weren’t helping me at all, it was like they were on a break and were just standing there talking. so i was all confused, and i get to the 3rd floor and it’s the psych ward of the hospital. i was still confused as to why they didn’t just take the guy to the ER first, and THEN the psych ward for being suicidal. but there was a nurse there who started talking to him, because now he was concious.

March 30, 2002

i was at the grocery store, shopping or whatever. i left the grocery store and there were lazers shining all over the place. it was part of the new homeland security system. there were blue lazers making square patterns on the ground, almost outlining every parking space. then there were other red lazers pointing to various other locations. it was the first test of the homeland security system, so no one had experienced it before and it was quite a shock to leave the store and have hundreds of lazers shining at you. at first i didn’t know what it was so i asked someone and they said it was like a surveilance system. the government could monitor where every single person was and what they were doing when the system was turned on. it wasn’t on all the time, just when the country was on high alert for terrorist attacks. the lazers just monitored where you were when you crossed them. i was really amazed that this system had been present and working the entire time i was alive but no one knew about it until now. then it turns out that it wasn’t just a surveilance system. if you were doing anything wrong a lazer could be pointed at you and you could be zapped and killed by it. i was really pretty outraged at this, because even if it was just a surveilance system it was a violation of our constitutional rights as US citizens.
i went to my dad’s new job at the power plant with him, my mom and my aunt. i guess we were going for a tour. we got there, and it was near the ocean. we got into an elevator which went up a few floors. then it had rockets that shot it out of the building and over the ocean to an offshore building. it just flew over there, and then would land and burst through a pair of doors, and then travel on a railroad type track. then it was like an amusement park ride, and the driver of the elevator was making it go upside down over and over again. so we were all trying to hold on to something, so we wouldn’t fall around. then maynard from tool was there, and he was getting sick from going upside down. so eric, who now was there, took him and made him lay down on a few of the seats in the elevator (which now had seats) until he felt better.

i was walking around explaining to someone how the CN tower isn’t really the tallest building, that there’s all kinds of different ways to measure structures and stuff.

i had all of the orgy boy’s screen names. we were at a party and I was IMming Jay and talking to him. I think i was supposed to be amir. then jay started getting all self pitying, about how he was lonely, and no one liked him. so i was like, cut the crap i’m really sick of you talking about how much you suck all the time.
posted by sara @ 10:41 AM//

March 28, 2002

yesterday: i was driving around in my car and there was a hole in my tire. so i guess i stopped driving around, and looked at the tire. i could feel the air wooshing out of the tire. so then it went totally flat and i had to change the tire. i didn’t know if i should call AAA or my Chevy roadside assistance. i figured since i paid for AAA i should use them. so i got a phone book to look up their number but i couldn’t find it. i couldn’t find it no matter what i looked under. so i decided to call Chevy. So i was trying to remember that number, but couldn’t (even tho it’s on the car).
today: i won a grammy. half the time i was at the grammys, which were in a big gym with folding chairs, and half the time i was in my room in blake watching it on tv. and while i was watching tv i was switching between the grammys and a sabres game. so they were giving away the first award, and i won it. so i went up and i was like “wow i didn’t even know i was nominated. i didn’t even know i had an album”. so then i was really excited that i could tell everyone that i won a grammy. it didn’t look like a grammy. it looked like a weird oscar. it had little wings, sorta looked like something egyptian. so i was showing people my grammy and i wouldn’t let go of it. then i was looking at it and realized it was someone elses name on it, and they had somehow given it to me instead. and the sabres won.
posted by sara @ 12:16 PM//

March 19, 2002

from trent to justin…
i was with a bunch of people and i don’t know what we were doing but we ended up in a fashion bug in a plaza. we went into the wrong door, and the section of the store we were in was the maternity section. but we didn’t realize it. they had THE ugliest clothes, and all maternity, i was like who the hell wears this?! then i realized we were in the wrong part of the store and went over to the good part. they had racks and racks of clothes up to the ceiling. you had to use stairs to look at the top shelves. so i was looking at a top rack of jackets, but i was like no, no more jackets. so i got down. then someone said hi to a girl who had walked in, and it was britney spears. so i was all glaring at her. then she left. then nsync was there, i guess they had come with me and the other ppl i was with. so i got down off the stairs and justin was sitting on this bench/shelf thing, really bored. and i thought he was used to shopping and all that. then i don’t know why, but i went over to him and we just hugged eachother for a really long time as everyone else shopped.

i also dreamed the sabres traded varada.

and something about politicians…specifically bob dole and al gore. it was some kind of debate, or presentation where a bunch of politicans were making speeches about a certain topic. someone had insulted al gore, and he replied something that was completely insulting to bob dole, but also so entirely hilarious that everyone was cracking up laughing. but i can’t remember what was said.

notes: don’t want to be hugging justin. let’s get trent back in there.
posted by sara @ 10:39 AM//

March 18, 2002

i was with some friends in some room. it was me, eric, danielle, mary, a few others, and trent reznor. we were all sitting in an informal circle, and throwing a ball around to eachother. i guess we were playing a game, you had to catch the ball, but ppl were dropping it all the time. then there was a rule you could drop it 14 times, and then you were out. the whole time i kept trying to do stuff that would make trent pay attention to me, or get closer to him. he wasn’t ignoring me, but wasn’t really paying attention either. it was really hot in there, so i went and layed on the floor by the open back door. it was right near the chair he was sitting in. then danielle was showing everyone some bio project she did. trent was flipping through the pages, so i went over to him and looked at it with him. it was about some bacterial parasite kind of thing. and then he was touching me, and i was like what’s going on. and he had this smirk on his face. i guess he was pretending he was putting the bacteria on me. so then we sorta started fake fighting, but it was all flirty. then we were in the mall and he was chasing me. we weren’t running, but i was ahead of him and kept looking back at him, and he was all smiling. i kept thinking it was like the video with david bowie, when trent was chasing him. so then he caught up to me, and said something about how he was really into me, even tho it didn’t seem like it, and that we should get married.
somewhere else in this dream we were all talking about poetry, and some people were reading theirs. i wanted trent to read some of his but he didnt. and then he said something about how his poetry isn’t like everyone elses.

notes: woo hoo!! marrying trent!!
posted by sara @ 8:29 AM//

March 5, 2002

1. i was at patrick swazye’s house, and it was like MTV cribs, but not on tv. and it wasn’t being filmed. but he was taking me danielle and adrienne (i think) around his house. the whole back yard was filled with this massive water system of pools, lagoons, waterfalls etc. he was telling us about some game people play in one of the pools, called night diving. we were going to play but it was too cold. he kept talking about how disappointed he was that we couldn’t play night diving. i never heard why he said we couldn’t so i asked, and he said cuz it was too cold. then we went to this other pool that had archways held up by greek columns at the end of it. there were steps into the pool, so we all sat there and put our feet in, and it was very very cold. then he left to do something, and when he came back he was dave navarro not patrick swayze. dave jumped in the pool despite the coldness, and we all followed. then eric and mary were there, but they were totally in disguise, looked nothing like themselves. then we were in a basement, listening to music and just hanging out. i think dave kissed mary on the cheek, or hugged her or something, and she was freaking out cuz she loves him etc. then he put in a country song, and me and eric were like wtf is this shit?! and apparently it was supposed to be that super popular patriotic country song that i’ve never actually heard, and apparently the cd dave put in was mine. i was like, no way do i own this crap.
2. i was walking by some field and when i looked up to the sky there were 3 or 4 stealth bombers flying around. it was in america, so i thought they were just doing practice maneuvers or something. so i was watching them fly around thinking about how super scary looking they are, so futuristic, and how if i was in a country really under attack i’d be scared shitless to see them flying around. then they started dropping bombs. i figured i was just walking by a practice area, and they were testing bombs. i dont know if it was practice or not, but then the other side of the road where i was, there was a shopping plaza. there were all kinds of people around. there was also a power station (like electricity power station). well the bombs turned into nuclear bombs (i think) and there were all kinds of fires. then the power station started exploding and shorting out, and started on fire. well me and the people who were around realized it was on fire, and that it was going to cause a huge explosion. so we all started fleeing in the opposite direction looking for a place to hide and be safe. we kept running and running and because we were apparently on a military base there were all kinds of chain link fences we had to run through, it was like a maze. we tried to hide behind big structures that were around, but then realized we weren’t safe so we kept running. i found a hole in one of the fences so i went through and some people followed me. then we ran to this building that apparently was a church. so we hid in the foundation of this building, in the catacombs. it had a dirt floor, and looked like trenches had been dug into it. so we hid there, but then didn’t know if it was safe to leave again. dont remember much else, except people who lived up stairs of the catacombs came down and found us, and told us we were in catacombs (because we had no idea where we were), and i think there was a tv in one of the other rooms so we could find out what was going on up above.

notes: another dream about airplanes where they didn’t crash. the whole dream was terrifying. not a night mare but i was super scared throughout the entire dream.
posted by sara @ 9:42 PM//

March 4, 2002

a few dreams:
1. i was going to graduation. apparently it was high school graduation, and it was at the high school. it was only all high school people there, but it was a voluntary ceremony. and this was just a practice run through. we passed jordan and he wasn’t dressed up so we figured he must not be going. so my parents are driving down nash road and my dad asked me where we were supposed to go to do this. i said i had no clue, just look for where all the cars are. so we get to the school and go inside. there is a reception room that we go into, and it’s a book sale. while we’re waiting for the ceremony to start and for us to go out on the back lawn we were looking at books. some lady wanted me to help her find a book, but she didn’t know what it was called or what it was about. the books there were all childrens books. then she saw it on a shelf, it was a series of 3 dr seuss books. so she thanked me for helping her, and i was like, ok but i didn’t do anything.
2. my alarm went off and i got up and turned the tv on. i started changing out of my pajamas when i realized my window shade was wide open. i figured that it was too early in the morning, because it was pitch black out, for anyone to be outside watching me change. then trl was on the tv, and the guest on the show was Apolo. he cut his hair off. so he comes out on the show and carson starts talking to him. then there was a commercial. well i was freaking out because i wanted to watch Apolo on tv, but i had to wash up and get dressed for school. so i ran to the bathroom to wash my face quickly so i wouldn’t miss apolo. well something was wrong with the water, like it was congealing before i could raise my hands to my face, and it was so heavy. it was taking me forever. then i looked in the mirror and i was ed norton. i went back in my room and trl was back on, and carson asked apolo if it was true he’s never had a girlfriend. so apolo was laughing and sort of embarassed, and all the girls in the audience were all screaming for him.
notes: no idea. i remember some flashes from other dreams too…like seeing the sister of an old friend in a store, but i ignored her.
posted by sara @ 8:57 AM//

March 2, 2002

this one was from february. i was hiking in watkins glen with my mom. i had gotten into a fight with my boyfriend – brad pitt. so we were hiking in the glen, and something happened… an earthquake or something because the glen was falling apart. we were trying to get out before the whole thing collapsed. we were going down the stairs, but they turned into just like a mountain slope. it was a pile of rocks we had to almost rock climb down. i was thinking, this isn’t normal, ive been to the glen a thousand times, and it was never like this before. so me and my mom got out of the glen, and we looked back in and some of the caves were collapsing, and there was a group of people stuck on this bridge that was cracking and going to fall apart. so then brad showed up because he was scared i was still trapped inside, and he was sorry about the fight and didn’t want me to die. so he found me, and we went back in the glen to save all the people who were still in there. then this water started rushing down the glen, so we’re running with all the people trying to get out. we get out just as the water floods the whole glen and everything collapses. then we were on tv being interviewed about saving everyone.
from last night
i was watching a parade, and i was i front of the crowd watching it. a float came by and U2 was on it. bono was playing bag pipes. the others were standing there holding bag pipes but not playing them. then the parade stopped to wait for something, so the float was right in front of me. i was super close to it, i could lean on it. so i was like yeah u2 is right in front of me! so bono was sitting there writing in a notebook, and he kept looking up at me, but it was like he was really shy or embarassed. then adam was next to bono and he started talking to me. he kept talking and talking (i dunno about what), and bono would laugh, and look at me. then i started wondering why the parade wasn’t moving yet. but then bono asked me for my email address. so i got onto the float, which turned into something more like a tour bus. so he gave me the notebook so i could write in it, and he had Sara PhD on the notebook and then space for my email. I guess i had a phd in something he was interested in (not psych) and wanted to talk to me more. so i wrote down my email address, but it was really illegable. so i was like ok i gotta write it again because you’ll never be able to read it. so adam was laughing at me i guess because i had bad handwriting. so i wrote my email address down again, even tho i couldn’t remember what it was, and gave it back to bono. then bono called edge and larry over to talk to me.

notes: i had another brad pitt dream that he was my boyfriend the day before the one i remembered. and both were nights before exams, so here’s hoping that’s not a trend or i’ll wanna have exams more often lol.

February 13, 2002

i was at home…it was my townhouse but it was my real house. i was in my room in the townhouse, but it was really big, and i had lots of desk surface space. it was really almost completely empty, so i wanted to put a coffee maker on it. it must have been really windy or stormy or something, because i looked out the window and the view was of the view from my real house, not at school. and there was a huge tornado off in the distance. so i freaked out, and went to tell danielle there was a tornado and we should go in the basement. then i ran downstairs to tell my mom about the tornado, but she wasn’t home, it was my neighbor jenny. she was watching tv in my living room. so i was like, look outside and tell me if there is a tornado because maybe i’m dreaming. she looked outside and saw it, so i wasn’t dreaming, but she didn’t appear to care at all that there was a tornado coming and we should go in the basement. so i looked outside again and there were at least 5 other smaller ones touching down. so i was like, well screw you guys i’m going in the basement. so i went downstairs, and somehow i had unknowingly dragged my mattress down off my bed into the basement, i guess so i could go back to sleep. it was all deformed though. so then i was looking out the window, which apparently my basement had windows, and Ziggy was out in the back yard, and there was a tornado coming right towards my house. it was weakening, so much so that it was see through…as in it wasnt full of the dirt and dust which makes a tornado visible. there were some dead leaves swirling around in it, that’s how we could still see it. leaves and branches were getting sucked into it, etc, and then it went right where Ziggy was, and sucked Ziggy up into it. She had her front legs up, almost as if she was worshiping it, when it sucked her up. So i was like, no Ziggy no, get out of the tornado. And then Ziggy seemed scared, and was trying to grab on to the flying branches, and eventually grabbed onto one that was attached to the tree, so she didn’t get blown away. then a bat came flying towards my house, but when it got close enough to the house, it was a dog.
possible explanation: god, i dunno LOL…but i should have known it was a dream once i saw that jenny was in my house, since i haven’t talked to her in years. breifly at the APC concert last spring, but before that, like 4 years.
possible interpretation: well i’ve heard tornados are supposed to signify stress or life changes…but that makes no sense, because i just went through a period of crisis…so…if anything, this life turmoil should have been represented in dreams as tornados 2 weeks ago, not now, once everything has settled.
posted by sara @ 3:59 PM//

February 12, 2002

i was at kmart with danielle, adrienne and eric. we had tickets to go see janet jackson, and the entrance to the arena was in kmart. so we were walking around kmart trying to find the door to the arena. it took so long to find that we were late to the show and missed the beginning. dunno what happened to eric, so then it was just me danielle and adrienne watching the show from the second last highest row…but it wasn’t that high. there was no one else in the section. i dont remember there being a show, but supposedly there was. then these people came and sat behind us, and there were 2 little kids. the one kept kicking my seat, then he had his feet against my shoulders and was pushing me. so i got up and moved seats. then the kid’s white trash mother said he wouldn’t do it anymore, so i went back to my seat. then the woman touched me, and i freaked out, she was laughing at me and was like, wow you’re touchy. so then someone else was on stage singing. the people had set up the stage for “escapade” but then someone else came out and sang because janet was taking a break. then they took the set away without doing escapade. then aretha franklin came out and sang, and i was so confused. then we were back in kmart and we were in a checkout line. i was really confused about these other people coming out to perform instead of janet, and someone asked me if i wanted to see kelly illig sing next. and i was like HELL NO. so the cashier made an annoucement over the loud speaker that there was a bad weather warning, so people should consider leaving, to avoid the snow. so we all went out and got in eric’s car and were driving through the parking lot. so then i was like, dude, you guys can do whatever you want, but i’m going back to the concert. i wanted to see “if” and even tho janet didn’t do it at the show i was at in real life, i thought it’d be my luck to leave this show and have her do it. so i went back in kmart, and again, ran around trying to find the door to the arena. i found it, and then in the arena i had no idea where to go to find my seat. so i got out my ticket and was trying to find the right aisle to enter. so i finally did, but it wasn’t right, so i had to run down some stairs, and finally got to my section. it was super far away, and janet was doing “if” so i started walking towards the stage by the railings and got up pretty close, so i could see. the arena didn’t look like a real arena, it was really weird. and there was hardly anyone there.
possible explanation: not all that sure
possible interpretation: why do i bother even doing this part anymore lol
posted by sara @ 8:29 PM//

February 9, 2002

i was part of the superbowl halftime show with u2. it wasn’t like the real performance, cuz the stage was a circle not a heart, and not hollow. me adrienne and 2 other of my friends were running around the circle stage, cuz apparently this was part of the show. then at the end, we were in line for a meet and greet with u2. there were these square glass shelves separating all the people in line from u2 and the body guards and workers etc. my mom’s godson paul was one of the people working behind the glass shelves. the shelves came up to my shoulders, and this was so no one could attack u2. paul was handing out tshirts to everyone in line, for u2 to sign. then danielle was there, and she went over to paul and hugged him and wouldn’t let go. so paul gave me a shirt, and i went to talk to larry. larry didn’t look like larry really, but it was larry. so i give him the shirt, and he signs it. then i realize i have a camera so i’m like, i dont know if i’m allowed to take a picture but i am anyway. so larry looks up and sees my camera and smiles. so i’m thinking, the u2 girls are gonna love this pic of larry smiling. so then i go onto the next one, and it turns out to be Johnny from econoline crush. but apparently he was supposed to be in u2, and everyone knew this. so i’m like hi, larry still has my shirt. so then larry gives the shirt to johnny, and he asks for my name. and i’m like sara. and so johnny goes, hey bono, we got another sara. and bono (who actually was bono and looked like bono) said oh, with an h or without (something like that). and so i’m staring at bono and i’m like no H. and he’s like, oh, sometimes i just wanna keep putting letters on that name forever. so i was like ??? but i was just like, it’s bono, omg, i’m going to talk to bono next. so then johnny signs my shirt and he’s just staring at me.
i was in a gang in the ghetto. i was a new member, but then i was the leader. we were walking around looking to cause trouble, but no one was challenging us. so we were all pissed off. so we were sitting in a parkinglot against a building and we had bought two toy golf sets. apparently it was illegal to possess these toy golf sets. so we wanted to attract the cops to have a confrontation, so we left the sets by the street so they’d see them and stop. well they did. the cops come over and are talking to us, and we’re just like whatever. then they’re like you realize no one is allowed to have these. we’re like yeah. so. so then one of the cops, a woman, opens the golf set and takes one of the clubs out. she walks over to us, and starts whipping one of the male gang members across the back with the club. so now i’m getting pissed cuz i was actually witnessing LAPD police brutality. so i take the club, and i go up to the cop, and i’m like listen here you mother fucker (with a nice ghetto accent) if you come around here anymore, bitching about our golf sets, you know what i’m gonna do? i’m gonna take this golf club and shove it up your fucking ass. my favorite thing to do with golf clubs is shove them up fucking cop’s asses. so that scared all the cops off, and the rest of my gang was cheering for me.

possible explanation: not really sure
possible interpretation: haha
posted by sara @ 11:39 AM//

February 8, 2002

U2 was playing in buffalo at the football stadium. i had been telling people about how i didn’t have tickets, so i was upset, but i wasn’t going to bother trying to find any cuz it was going to be on tv. so it was the day of the show, and somehow i was there. i was sitting in one of the middle levels, on adam’s side of the stage. so i’m sitting around and talking to a person that was next to me. then suddenly we were on the floor, a few rows from the front, and we had seats near he aisle. the opener came on and it was kid rock. but he wasn’t playing normal kid rock songs. the person behind me was saying that she really didn’t enjoy this kind of music, and i had figured as much for some reason. then lindsay was behind me i realized, and there were other school age kids around, and they had to do some project where they needed a copy of the openers set list. people had been handing the setlist out to everyone, but they were all different. and then the songs that were actually being played were not the same as the ones on the setlist. then brian may came onstage and played 2 queen songs, and one imported freddie mercury’s voice to play while brian was playing keyboards. so the opener finished, and then i was back home watching it on tv. my dad came home and wanted me to do something with my car, look under it or something. and i was like nope, my concert starts in 4 minutes. then i must have had the wrong channel on because i missed the very beginning, and turned to it in the middle of the song. bono had on regular dorky clear glass glasses on instead of his usual tinted ones, so that was weird. then i was at a water park, but it was a beach. and it had pure white sand, and everyone was in white bathing suits. so i went in the pool and was swimming, then i got out to walk around. i guess i was in this other pool and i saw people giving kids water to drink out of the pool. that confused me cuz usually pools have tons of chlorine in them. i was walking back to the first pool, and there was an announcment about how these pools have a new method where they dont use chlorine, but that meant that body fluids in the pool would stay in there, or something, so that people needed to be careful about cutting themselves etc. there was a kiddie pool next to the big pool and it had been evacuated cuz the water was all brown. then i was home again watching tv again, and it was a show about U2 at an amusement park. they were showing camera footage of u2 on rollercoasters. they were showing this one coaster, it was red, and larry and bono were on it. larry looked like joshua tree era but bono looked like recent times, and bono was screaming but larry wasn’t. then i realized i was on the rollercoaster. so i’m shouting MOM I’M ON TV! and she’s like what? and I’m like yeah I’m on TV! so she looks, and they’re showing the footage, and sure enough I had been on the roller coaster at the same time, with all the neighborhood girls. but we were kids, so the footage was really old. i looked like i was 5. and since a bunch of 3-5 year olds were on this coaster with u2 it must have been a baby ride. then they showed footage of u2 on this water ride. there were a bunch of rubber rafts connected to eachother, that then went through a log ride type set up. but when the ride was going down the first hill, bono’s raft malfunction and became unattached from the rest, so he went flying over the hills on his own (all the rafts were supposed to detach after the last hill to go speeding off to the end). so it was really scary because he could have gotten really hurt cuz it malfunctioned.
then this other dream about being in a bar after the superbowl, but it was decorated for christmas, and it might have been partly a church because someone asked me if i’d go up the tower and ring the bells so i did. and to do that i had to hit a heating duct every time i wanted the bells to ring.

possible explanation: was reading u2 book, discussed amusement parks and rollercoasters with housemates during dinner
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 8:35 AM//

February 3, 2002

i found our missing ice cream in the fridge. i went into the fridge to get something, closed it, and then was like WAIT… I opened it again and 2 pints of peanut butter cup ben and jerry’s ice cream were in there, all melted. so i took them out, and told danielle i had found them, and put them into the freezer to refreeze. if they were ok refrozen we would keep them. then i looked in the fridge again and found leah’s half gallon of strawberry, all melted. i told her, and when i went to pick it up the melted ice cream oozed all over the fridge.
possible explanation: we were discussing the stolen ice cream last night
possible interpretation: i think it’s really self explanatory

January 31, 2002

i think it started that i was watching this on tv. there was some serial murderer guy, and he killed this person on this show or whatever. then he went to another person and cut their head off. but not at the neck. he carved all the way around the skull, forehead level, so that the brain showed at the top. so that guy was dead. then the murderer went into another room where there was this girl with all kinds of IVs in her, giving her blood i think. at this point i was there in the room watching. the murderer ripped the IVs out of her and started whipping her with them. someone else was there watching this with me. we were like woah, this is brutal. so he’s whipping her with the IVs and blood is going everywhere, from the IVs and from the girl. he kills her, and leaves. we were covered in blood, and i thought, there’s no way that NIN’s “Broken” movie is more brutal than this.
some other dream about a farm or something. really complicated but don’t remember enough of it to discuss.

possible explanation: was looking at imdb reviews of the Broken movie last night, and how brutal and horrific it is supposed to be.
possible interpretation: hmmmm
posted by sara @ 2:06 PM//

January 27, 2002

i was watching mtv or something, and they were doing a show on new videos. well there was a new MJ video, but it wasn’t really his song. it was like, he contributed vocals for the chorus of the song, so he was going to be in the video, with whoever it was that really did the song. i think it was a rap or r&b type group. and the song was from a movie soundtrack. so i was watching it, and it came on. MJ’s part came on and the first shot was him laying on a bed, and the bed had black and red satin sheets on it. the mattress had the black sheet on it, and the top sheet was the red one. so he was laying on the bed sleeping, and he was wearing black pajamas with white piping on them. so he wakes up to sing his chorus, and he sits up against the headboard and is singing. so they do a closeup and he’s black again – his skin is black. so i was thinking they must have digitally edited it, or put pounds of black makeup on him to make him black again. but then the skin color faded away until it was MJ without any makeup on. you could see all the white blotches in his black skin that the vitiligo caused. so i was blown away by his part in the video, because it was so brave to finally let people see what happened to his skin, without all the makeup. i wanted to tell people if they had seen the video, so i went to my comp to IM ty and ask him if he’d seen it bu the wasn’t online.
the rest of the night i kept dreaming about telling people about the video.

possible explanation: not sure, havent listened to mj since my video a thon
possible interpretation:……
posted by sara @ 10:23 AM//

January 25, 2002

i was driving in New Jersey with someone, don’t remember who. I was telling them how much i hated New Jersey cuz it was such a shit hole. I was telling them about going to Wildwood with my parents in 95, and how it was actually sorta cool because it has all these motels from the 1950s, in their sea foam green and pink paint and stuff, and how some are all decorated with palm trees and stuff. Then we were on this street, outside a restaurant, and i was thinking it looked really familiar. the signs of the gas station across and down the street, and the other stores around where we were looked really familiar. i determined that i had been at the same restaurant with my parents. then we got back in the car, and were going someplace else. then i was with this guy who i was completely in love with, and he was in love with me. his brother was there, and then this woman showed up. it was their mother, and their mother started telling me that she was my mom too. which meant i was related to this guy, i was his sister. but we had different fathers. but then this man came over and was talking to us, and the guy i was in love with said that this guy was our father – so i guess we did have the same father – and the guy was telling our father off about how he was never there for us. and then the father looked at me, and i had a uniform on and a nametag, and he looked at my name tag to see my name. i got mad at him because he didn’t even know my name, his own daughter, or how old i was. so then i left with the guy i was in love with, and the brother, and we were trying to figure out if we could still date even if we were related. then the mother got into the car with us, she had followed us or something. the guy said it was ok for her to come inside the car, because she was trying to make ammends for abandoning me or something. but i got mad, and i kicked all of them out of the car. then there were tons of people trying to get in the car, as if i was a famous person and they were all my fans. i was freaking out inside the car, and then someone knocked on the door and opened it. i was about to scream at them but then i realized it was my friend melinda, and she had a case of beer with her. so i let her in, and we had a beer. then the guy came back in the car, and we gave him a beer too.
possible explanation: um dunno….the whole being famous, and fans trying to get in the car was probably a result of the conversation i had with carolyn about telling famous people stuff…
possible interpretation: whatever….
posted by sara @ 4:02 PM//

January 21, 2002

I was at school and i had just bought my books for the semester. i guess i was taking a US history course, because i had some other books about it. well there was this one book, written by this woman named “Satansatan Manwoman”. so i was telling danielle about this book by satansatan manwoman, and it was about sturges building on campus, and it had this part talking about all these hidden things in the building, passage ways and stuff. and it was really scary. i think the book was about supernatural stuff in the US or something. so i was looking at the pictures and trying to figure out where in Sturges all these things were. the way she wrote, she didn’t use capital letters, so i was like HEY if she got a book published without using correct punctuation and stuff, I can too. so i decided i wasn’t going to capitalize anything anymore. Then i was in a cafeteria with Eric and Paul Guidania and we were in line with our trays waiting to cash out. some deftones song from “white pony” was on, so we were like yeah cool. so i got to the cash register, and all i had was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and it rang up as 5$. so i was like, there’s no way that my sandwich is 5 dollars. so the lady was like, you’re right, lemme call whoever about it. so she picked up a phone that was there, and was going to call the manager or something. well no one was answering the phone, so we’re waiting and she’s trying to ring up my food a different way so that it wasnt 5$…so the whole line is being held up, but i was like, no my meal plan is for only 100$ and i can’t afford to be paying 5 dollars for a pb&j sandwich. but then i was just so irritated i was like, whatever, so she charged me the 5$ for it. so me and eric and paul went and sat down at the condiment table. I was like um… aren’t we going to go sit in the cafeteria at the tables? and they were like, no we always sit here. so we sat there, and it was annoying because ppl kept coming up to get condiments. but then we were at another table in the same area but without the condiments. then “back to school” by deftones came on, and i was like um didn’t we just hear this? and eric was like no that was another song. i was like ok. then paul spilled ketchup all over the table. then i had to use ketchup, i dunno what for, but i got some on the table too. so i was like, we should clean that up. but paul said no, they charged me 5$ for my sandwich, they can clean up all the ketchup. then we were in the reszel school cafeteria, and eric got up to talk to someone, and was coming back and he had on black dickies. and i was like, yeah chino pants.
possible explanation: haha no idea
possible interpretation: i’m insane.
posted by sara @ 8:34 AM//

January 16, 2002

lots of dreams that i don’t really remember anymore. they kinda were all connected.
i lived in a house with danielle, and apparently, nsync. i guess we had a third floor, and leah lived there. so me and danielle and leah were drinking upstairs. i went downstairs to get more alcohol and justin and jc were on the couch. they looked at me and they were like, we’re concerned you guys are alcoholics. and i’m like, what are you talking about? we haven’t drank at all in the 6 days we’ve been back. i guess we were all in college and had gotten back from break. i told them that they could join all of us if they wanted to. and they asked who was there, because they didnt know we were having a party. and i was like, it’s just me danielle and leah. then they were like, who’s leah? and i’m like uh..she lives upstairs. they were like oh. so i went back upstairs and i got this great idea i had to tell danielle. so i was like, danielle i have the best idea. and i thought it was so funny i was cracking up laughing. she’s like what? and so i told her i wanted to write a fan fiction about nsync to put on fanfiction.net, because it would be really funny since they all have disclaimers that say stuff like “i don’t know nsync etc” but mine could say “i live with nsync.”….and apparently jennifer lopez lived with us at one point when she was dating justin, but she left when they broke up. so then i guess we were having a party, or something, because someone showed up at our house. justin and jc had joined us, and i let this guy in who didn’t believe we lived with nsync. so i was like, totally, we are the ones who got justin and britney together. so then our party was transformed to be at a bar or something…more like a diner with a lunch counter. but it was dark inside and we were having a party. so i went up to the counter to get a drink, and there was a woman sitting on one of the stools. so i was standing next to her, and my parents were on the other side of her, waiting to get drinks. well the woman looked at me and she was like “oh you’re so pretty pretty pretty pretty.” and i got freaked out. my mom i think, was like, that woman likes you. so i moved away from her to the other side of my parents.

i was a police woman, or at least an investigator, and i was doing forensics. my partner was that woman from the bar that thought i was pretty. we had to do all these crime scene investigations together, because i guess we were on a case about a serial killer.

i was playing a 2 on 2 basketball game with michael jordan who had been at my party with nsync. it was me and jordan against kobe bryant and someone else. jordan and i were losing really badly. i was getting pissed, because yeah i suck at basketball but jordan certainly doesn’t. everytime he threw the ball he was way off, and i was no better. so kobe won.

then i was doing something with marilyn manson. he had been at the party, and he liked me. i guess i was doing a video for him or something. but then he gave me this present, but i didn’t want to open it while everyone was there. so then me, marilyn, eric, and some other people were sitting around this tiny room with a bed, cuz we were having a sleepover or something. so we were all smooshed on this bed, and we decided to play this game. i don’t know the name of it, but it involved everyone doing whatever they wanted to me. not sexually or anything, but it was like, i went to the first person and they posed me or whatever, then the 2nd person, than the 3rd etc. and i guess this was supposed to be superfun. then in the morning, i had gotten sorta irritated at the whole thing, and decided to go home. so i went back to the house i shared with nsync, and went to my room. well there was a door in my room that connected to the house next door, so we must have lived in town houses. well the door was open, and i was mad because we had made an agreement that we wouldn’t use the door. in the room the door opened to, dani lived there. and her dad was there packing up her stuff because i guess she didn’t want to live there anymore. so i shut the door so i could go to sleep because i was really tired. but i went to the bathroom and looked at my face, and i had broken out in a rash or i had chicken pox or something. so then i got really pissed at marilyn because i had gotten this disease or whatever from his house. then adrienne came over, with a whole bunch of gifts from marilyn that i had forgotten at his house. so we started opening them and he had bought me all kinds of stuff, and a bunch of cheezy gold jewelry. i guess marilyn was really in love with me, because then he went to the plaza and was standing around the parkinglot waiting for me, because he knew i always walked home from school that way. apparently i was in high school, and so me and a few friends where walking through the parking lot and i saw marilyn. i guess i hadn’t seen him since the sleepover or whatever, and he knew i had been pissed at him so he was trying to appologize. so i said something like, just because of the way me and my friends are you expect me to forgive you. then my friends got pissed at me, because i was stereotyping them as “freaks” just like everyone else did by the comment i made. so i was like no that’s not what i meant. i had a tool shirt on.

my mom was watching this short history of ireland video or something, but it had all these previews on it, and one was for a movie with sean connery and jerry springer. and i was like, jerry springer has another movie? and why on earth is sean connery in it? and then it went into the history of ireland or something, but it was so short, and i didn’t know anything it was saying, but then they got to U2, and were showing this video they made back in the early days of them on a farm singing a song i had never heard before. but then i heard all these other u2 songs and i realized i left my stereo on up stairs. well my mom was whistling along to the songs which made me very happy because that meant she liked them too.

possible explanation: i watched the forensic detectives show on discovery…was watching u2 video,…not sure about nsync and mansion and definitely no clue about basketball.
possible interpretation: i’m insane.
posted by sara @ 9:50 AM//

January 14, 2002

there was some kind of big accident, or tragedy…something big, along the lines of the WTC stuff, and me and my friends were wandering around this park where it occured. someone was hurt and needed blood. a medical person was there and asked carolyn, i think it was her, what kind of blood she had but carolyn didn’t have the right kind. but she told the medical person that i did, so they stuck a needle in me to get blood to give to the other person.
possible explanation: ?
possible interpretation: ?
posted by sara @ 9:51 PM//

January 11, 2002

i was bono, and i was in berlin after the wall came down, and i wanted to go to this cemetery in east berlin to look at the graves, and write things on them (?!?) so i kneeled down by this one grave, and was reading it, and was about to carve something into it when people started walking by. so i stopped because i didn’t want to get caught. i went back later to the same grave, and started carving a sentence into it (which i now forget, but it was something to do with love) and before i could do the last word, people started coming by. so i was trying to hide the screwdriver i was using, until the people went away but they were having a picnic next to the headstone. so i got up to look at the other graves, and come back to that one later but too many people were around.
possible explanation: i started reading “u2 at the end of the world” which start out with a chapter about the band in berlin.
possible interpretation: me and bono are…one, but we’re not the same, we get to carry eachother carry eachother onnneeee… haha
posted by sara @ 10:26 AM//

January 8, 2002

i lived in an apartment that was like a dorm with my friend Carrie. she had gone out and left me alone there, so i was bored and annoyed that she kept leaving me and not including me in what she was doing. i went to the bathroom and it was like a corridor style dorm bathroom, with a bunch of stalls. so i was in a stall and then this group of people including boys came into the bathroom. so i got scared they were going to harass me, so i had one hand on the door and i was trying to be quiet so they wouldn’t know i was in there. then one of the boys went into the stall next to me, and there was a girl in front of my stall door. well i guess they started talking to me so i was talking to them, and the boy was reaching over the top of the stall wall and doing something with the toilet paper. i was trying not to pay attention to him, but i could see him out of the corner of my eye. well then i realized he had stolen the toilet paper and replaced it with an empty roll. so i was like ARG that’s so not funny. so i asked the girl in front of my door, who was this girl jennifer from high school who i hated, if she’d get me some toilet paper. she said yes, and came back with an almost empty roll, that had maybe 4 squares of paper on it. so i was like ARG thanks for nothing. so i had to use those 4 measly squares, and by this time i was super pissed off. i flushed the toilet, and there was two flushers. there was a normal foot one like public bathrooms, and there was a normal hand one like house toilets, but it was slightly underwater. well i used that one so that my hand would be wet. so i opened the door and grabbed the wrist of the guy who’d stolen my toilet paper with my wet hand so he’d think it was pee. so i’m grabbing him and wiping my hand on him, and he’s like eww it smells. so i walk away and go to wash my hands, and he comes up to me and is shoving his arm in my face for me to smell it. and so i grab him and i’m slapping him, and bashing his head into the wall cuz i was really pissed. so i leave and run back to my room which was #23. i was quite scared of those people even tho i had just beat the guy up. i didn’t shut my door tho, i just put the chain lock on it. so they come to the door and are knocking on it. so i’m pretending not to be there, but the guy says he just saw me run into there. so he pushes the door open and the chain is long enough that people could come in. so i was like, wtf is the point of the chain then? so i’m like, why can’t you just leave me alone? and they’re like oh, ok, and left.
i had 2 other dreams that were u2 related. one was with larry, and one with bono but i don’t remember either of them anymore.

then i only remember the end part of this one. me and my dad were someplace that looked like geneseo’s campus but it wasn’t supposed to be. these 5 guys came up to us, they had walked there from western canada. and for some reason me and my dad were going to walk to where they came from…western canada….from eastern US. so we started walking and it was all ice and snow. then we crossed the highway that intersects geneseo, even tho where we were, wasn’t supposed to be geneseo. we went into this convenience store because my dad wanted to buy rock salt. they had this u2 display inside so i asked if i could have it and they said yeah, but the 2 worker girls wanted to sign it. so they were signing it. then i bought a half gallon of ice cream for myself. then i realized that i should buy another half gallon for my 2 sons that were going to be mad i was leaving to walk to western canada for a long time.

possible explanation: haha i dunno
possible interpretation: hmmmm dunno.
posted by sara @ 12:18 PM//

January 6, 2002

had this dream at my grandmas on christmas. have been to lazy to type it: i was outside my house with my mom and her friend sue. we heard all these sirens and we looked in the direction of the big blue water tower and we could see 3 distinct clouds of smoke, like things were on fire. so we were all looking at the smoke clouds, and the one in the middle started spraying water. we could see the water coming from the middle fire, so we figured fire trucks must be spraying it. but then it startes spraying out more, out of the house not like hoses spraying onto the house (we couldn’t see the house, just the smoke clouds and water spraying)…so it was more like a burst pipe was spraying water. well the water started spraying so hard that it was reaching my house. then it wasn’t water but raw sewage. it was this brown slime stuff, and it was spraying all over and landing around my lawn and stuff. well some of it got on my mom, and i was like EWWWW you’re covered in raw sewage slime, but she was all calm like she didn’t even care. then i was so grossed out about it that i started to throw up. so i ran in the house covering my mouth as i threw up so i could make it to the bathroom. but when i got in the bathroom raw sewage was bubbling up out of the toilet and sink so i didn’t know where to throw up.
last night’s dream: i was at a party, or wedding or something and George Costanza was there from Seinfeld. he was having some sort of crisis where he needed to get married because of some legal thing, and he didn’t have anyone to marry. so i told him i would marry him, so he could get out of whatever trouble he was in. it was a marriage of convenience. well he magically had 2 rings, and there was a justice of the peace there already marrying someone else. so he was going to marry us too. the ceremony was just casually putting on the rings and doing a shot of alcohol. so after we were married, we didn’t tell anyone cuz it wasn’t really important. but i felt bad that he had to marry me even tho we had no relationship, just to get out of trouble or whatever. so i was being really nice to him, to try to make him feel better. then i was leaving the party and i was in my car trying to get out of the parking lot. i got rear ended by a limo, but he was trying to blame it on me that i was drunk. but i wasn’t because i only did the 1 shot when i got married. so i got out of the car to see what was going on, and i didn’t feel like crying but i thought i should to make people feel bad for me. well my trunk was really crashed up and looked terrible, it wasn’t just a little bump. and i thought i had whiplash. i don’t remember the rest.

possible explanation: NO CLUE!!!
possible interpretation: i’m gonna end up marrying some fat balding neurotic man hahah

December 16, 2001

i had to take my neuropsych final and we all had to go to someplace off campus to take it. it turns out the place we had to take it was a skybox on the 200 level of a big stadium. and of course, that night u2 was playing a concert there. so we were sitting at big round tables in the skybox, and people were entering the stadium for the show. i was super excited because even tho the skybox was high we had a good view of the stage. i figured out that i had 2 hours to do the exam before the show started. so we were working on the exam, and it was 4 people per table, we were talking, and had our notes out, like that was the normal procedure for our exams. then this girl from my class katie realized we were at a u2 concert, and since she had seen them in buffalo she was excited we were going to get to see them again. then she told me she had heard that for the show there tomorrow night, they were going to open up promenade seats (which apparently meant seats on the sides of the floor) tomorrow afternoon, and wanted to know if i wanted to go. so i said of course i’d go. so we were working on the exam, and our proff came over and saw all our notes out. she was like, you’re cheating. and i was like no I’m not, but then i realized that we weren’t supposed to have our notes out. we weren’t even using them, but it did look like we were cheating. she’s like, well why are all your notes out then. and i’m like, they aren’t notes for this class, they are for english, see…and i pointed to a word that would have never been part of our neuropsych notes. but she didn’t believe me, and was going to take points off my exam. or she said she could take 30 points off my paper. well i asked her what i got on my paper and she said a 40, so that’d leave me with a 10. so i kept trying to tell her i wasn’t cheating. then i was someplace else, and it was the next day and i was trying to find katie to get the seats for the show that night. i ran into my professor and asked her for my test and paper, and i had gotten a 90 on the paper.
there was also some part where we were all on an airplane and i realized it was Air Elevation, U2’s plane…

possible explanation: ?
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 12:47 PM//

December 15, 2001

i lived in a really big, beautiful house with danielle. it had great big windows with a really great view of…something. there had been a concert, that was a festival type with lots of bands. marilyn manson had played it, and so had destiny’s child. eric had gone and was telling me about manson’s show, and how good it was. which i thought was weird cuz eric doesnt like manson. then he also said how great destiny’s child was, which confused me even more. then i was on the computer and i was reading Ian’s live journal, and he had gone to the concert too. he was talking about how great destiny’s child was, and how he was a fan now. and that was REALLY even more confusing cuz he likes death metal music. well manson was playing another show in the area, and i was talking to steph who said she was going. me and danielle had nothing to do and it wasn’t sold out so we decided we were going to go too, spur of the moment. so then i went downstairs and danielle was waiting by the window for someone to arrive. so i asked her what she was doing. she said she was waiting for manson to get there cuz they were going out someplace. so that confused me because danielle never liked manson before. she kept going on about how she was waiting for him and they were going to go someplace, and i kept being confused.
so then i left to go to the concert, and it was my house. and the concert was in my nextdoor neighbors driveway. and manson is there and only like 20 people went to the show. and i thought that was expected since we lived in the middle of no where, and no one even knew who manson was. so i was sitting on my porch watching manson, and he wasn’t even performing because he was so disappointed there was no one there. so he was just standing with the people who were there telling them stories. then he saw me and he came over and got me and we went to the tour bus. it was all red inside. apparently i was drunk because i could barely get up the 3 steps onto the bus. and apparently we knew eachother and perhaps were dating, because he asked me if i was going to go with them to the next tour stop and i said yes. so i walked to the back of the bus, and the bus was HUGE. there was a computer in the back, and so i went on it to do something, and didn’t realize i was online. so carolyn immed me, and she was pissed because she knew i was on mansons bus, and she hates him. and i guess the fact that i was on the bus did mean that we were dating, so she was even more pissed. i guess that we hadn’t been dating before, but had gone out a few times, but now that i was on the bus it was like, an official thing.
then i was at my middle school, sitting on the back lawn with the rest of the school – but it was high school kids. it was some kind of assembly. and i was sitting by this girl i hate named eileen, and this kid who is bald. eileen had a tool shirt on, and the bald kid apparently was manson in disguise. no one was supposed to know manson was in high school, so he disguised himself as this fat bald football player kid. and no one was allowed to know i was dating manson. so he kept touching my shoulder and that was like, the secret symbol of our affection. then there was this guy swinging in the sky. he was swinging back and forth, really high in the sky, like a pendulum. but you couldnt see anything attached to him, or what he was swinging from. he was swinging by a huge pine tree and he grabbed the top and cut the tip of the tree off as a christmas tree for his son. so he kept swinging back and forth holding onto a christmas tree. then he fell, and he landed on the tree and bounced so he was ok. then he gave the tree to his son who was in the assembly. then we all realized he had been swinging on all the high tension electric wires that were strung across our sports fields. i wondered how he got onto the wire, and figured he must have climbed all the way up the tower things.
possible explanation: no clue LOL
possible interpretation: ditto
posted by sara @ 2:22 PM//

yesterday’s dream.
a high school, or elementary school, was going to be showing the U2 elevation tour dvd on a big screen as a 1 year anniversary celebration of when U2 played at the school. it was open to the public, and anyone could go to it for a dollar. so i went, and i went by myself. the gym of the school was HUGE and it was separated off in sections, like a regular concert with seating. but this was general admission, first come first serve. so i was a section back from the front, and i keep seeing all kinds of people i knew from high school. then i realized joe and rick were standing right behind me but they hadn’t said anything. then they saw me and so i was talking to them, and the show started. they were shocked that i wasn’t really paying attention, i kept looking at people in the crowd to see if i knew more people. i told them i didn’t really like the song that was on screen so it was ok that i wasn’t paying attention. then i was in the back of the gym and it was back to being more like a school gym, with mats on the walls. and i’m sitting on the floor with adrienne and danielle and eric, who had all appeared at the show. i was looking into the crowd and there was like no one there. there was all kinds of space, and then i saw the stage. it was the heart shaped stage from the elevation tour. so i thought that was weird, because i didn’t know each venue got to make and keep their own heart stage. it wasn’t right though, it was really small, and it was really rickety like if you ran on it or jumped around it would collapse. Then bono was at the tip of the heart doing his thing, and i started thinking wow it really looks like he’s right there, this an amazing dvd. but then it really was u2, and they really were there. then everything stopped and people started leaving. they hadn’t finished playing the dvd, they just stopped it after 5 songs. i was really confused, and we didn’t know if it was an intermission or if it was over. so we went outside and everyone was getting in their cars and leaving, so we assumed it was over. but i was still really confused why they didnt play the whole dvd, and i said i was pissed because the 2nd half is better than the first half.

posted by sara @ 2:03 PM//

December 13, 2001

i remembered another dream. i think this followed telling Rob about my psychic dreams, because I was still in bed in the mansion. David and a friend of his appeared in the room, and they were listening to some cd. It sounded pretty good. David got up and left to get something, and i asked his friend what they were listening to. He said it was a cd of their band. I guess the 2 of them were in a band together. I started laughing, and he’s like what? So I tell him, this isn’t meant to be an insult, so please don’t take it this way, but this sounds just like Billy Idol. And he looked at me funny. And i was like, I like Billy Idol, he’s cool. This song sounds just like _____ on charmed life (don’t know what song i said it was, or if its even on charmed life). So David came back in, and his friend told him I thought it sounded like Billy Idol. Then there was some part about David’s girlfriend being there, and sitting on the floor with them. She looked like an anime character. She was really tiny, and had a big head, with big eyes and blonde hair. I was thinking, why does David like her? she looks like a cartoon.
posted by sara @ 1:33 PM//

i was at home, and danielle was sleeping over my house. there were all kinds of reports about this computer model that had been constructed to predict future terrorist attacks. it had formulated a whole bunch of different predictions, and one of them was that that night a large plane was going to invade US airspace. So the US had shut down it’s airspace for non military planes, and they had said that if any airplanes were found flying in our airspace they would be followed by a fighter jet and shot down if necessary. Danielle turned into my neighbor Tina, and we were geting a bit scared over the prediction of this computer model. Then i commented well maybe today is the day that aliens will really arrive on earth, and their big space ship is the large plane that the computer predicted. This didn’t comfort either of us at all, because we didn’t really want an alien invasion either. So i was standing in my kitchen looking out the window, and I saw an airplane being followed by a fighter jet. I yelled to Tina, oh my god there’s a plane, oh my god. So she comes over and we’re standing at the window watching the plane. Then it starts to fly weird, and it is flying lower and lower, and this is when we realize it’s going to crash, and it’s going to crash right near us. The fighter jet disappeared and it was only the normal airplane, and it was an American Airlines plane. It started to recover it’s flight path, but then faltered again, meaning that it was going to crash even closer to us than we had thought before. We’re both freaking out, and I keep asking her if this was real or a dream, and she keeps telling me it was real, and it felt real. The plane finally crashes and it crashes in my neighbors back yard. There was a big mushroom cloud of fire, and super loud noise. So i run to get my parents, who were in the house someplace, and tell them that the noise was a plane crashing. They were oblivious to the crash, and didn’t really care. So i’m back looking out the window and this russian pilot is sneaking in between the bushes and the fence that separate my yard from the neighbors. There is a carcas of a large animal on the ground by my swingset and the pilot goes over and hits it to see if it was dead, and it was. Then the pilot is walking across my yard, and my parents decide to go get him and bring him inside since he is responsible for the plane crash. So they go get him, and he starts talking in english, about why he did it, and the goals etc (which i don’t remember). my parents seemed to agree with what he was saying, and they offered him food and stuff.
then the dream was interrupted by some other dream i dont remember, and then picked up again later.

I had gone out someplace, and came back home. There were all kinds of US Marines in my backyard, jumping over the fence and whatnot, doing their jobs. I asked my parents where the pilot had gone and they said he left. I was like, WHAT? what do you mean he left? my mom was like, yeah he just left. So I was really pissed, and was like, well didnt you call the police? and they were like, no, why would we do that? so i was furious because if you turned on the TV his picture was plastered all over the screen as being responsible for the crash, and he had survived and been in my house and my parents hadn’t called the police. So now he was a fugitive on the run. Then the dead animal that had been outside wasn’t really dead at all, and it got up and walked to my deck where my parents and i now were. it was an anteater. It had a big long snout, and it was super friendly. I was like, where the hell did an anteater come from, not like they are a normal part of our environment. So my mom said it must have escaped from the zoo and she was going to go call the zoo. I was thinking, you’re going to call the zoo about an escaped anteater, but not about a FUGITIVE?!?!?! so the anteater kept coming over to me and i didn’t know what to do because i had no experience with them before. My mom looked on the internet for info about them and the info said they are really friendly and harmless, and like to show affection. then the anteater knocked me down and laid on me.

Then i was inside a big mansion, and i had a room to myself. I guess i was sick because i was having visitors come to see me. One of them was Rob from work, and he was sitting in a chair next to my bed. We must have been talking about terrorism, because I brought up the fact that I had another plane crash dream, my first one since sept 11th. Apparantly this was a different dream, because i was referring to the dream above, about the plane crashing in my back yard, and i realized it was a dream. So i was telling rob about this plane crashing in my back yard dream, and how i was really scared. I was scared because apparently right before sept 11th, i had experienced a dream where planes crashed into towers and the towers collapsed, and then it happened. So now that i had this dream about the plane crashing in my backyard i was scared about it being another psychic dream.

possible explanation: i dunno, but kinda funny how i dream about terrorism and the US releases the Bin Laden tape…this really is my first airplane crash dream since sept 11th. I had airplane dreams, but they were NOT crashing for once, after sept 11th.
possible interpretation: lets hope its not a psychic dream.
posted by sara @ 12:15 PM//

December 12, 2001

i was at a convenience store with bono and someone else. marilyn manson was there too. i don’t know what was going on, but i guess marilyn was trying to make me into a devil or something. he was trying to convert us or SOMETHING. but i was getting really irritated at him, and he was getting irritated at me. so marilyn left the store, and i got really pissed off. so i ripped one of the glass freezer doors off of the freezer in the store, and ran out of the store after marilyn. i screamed at him that i was going to break the glass over his head. marilyn turns around, and is like yeah right. so i try to swing the glass door over my head onto him, and he just pushes it away and grabs my shoulders. then there was this deafining horrendous piercing sound in my ears, i guess as he was changing me into a devil. then bono hit him with something, which made him let go of my shoulders so the “changing” stopped, and we got away.
possible explanation: it’s a very macphisto society related dream. and the manson part probably comes from the blurb i read about him in AP magazine yesterday.
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 12:43 PM//

December 10, 2001

i was at home, and i had to go to a reunion at Ohio School (my elementary school for 2 years). i didn’t know why there was this reunion, i guess for MPP or something. so i had just washed my car, and went inside to change. i was going to walk to the school because it wasn’t far, but then i was like, no. i have a car, i’m driving. so i went to my car, and all the paint was peeling off and there were these big rust spots. so i freaked out, since my car is new and everything. so i went back inside to leave a note for my dad about my car peeling, because it would still be under warrantee. i go back outside and a short bus (the small school busses) pulled into my driveway, and the lady tells me she can take me to the bus station so i can go to the reunion. i look at her, and i’m like no thats ok i have a car. and i was thinking why would i take the bus to the school bus station which was even farther away from the school than i was now. so the bus left, and i left to go get adrienne. i dont know why i had to get her since she didn’t go to ohio school. i guess i was driving, but i wasn’t in a car, and adr still lived at her old house. so i’m going down wurlitzer, and the end of wurlitzer is all torn up, the houses were torn down, and it’s a whole big construction zone. houses are being built, that look like my townhouse. Then adrienne is there, she was coming down the street to meet me. well because of the construction i was confused, and i didn’t know where to go to get to the school. i ask adrienne when all this construction happened and stuff, and she’s like duh it’s been going on for awhile. i’m like uh, since when, i’ve been down here recently. the houses are already half constructed, some are done. there’s gravel all around, and workers and stuff. adrienne said the school (this time, meadow school my other elementary school) was building houses for all the teachers to live in. I was like, wtf why?? they have their own houses. So then we decided to go right through the construction zone, so we did. and i was near the curb of nash road, and there is a guy in a suit laying on the gravel. i bent down to do something, and i got a better look at him and it was this guy who was one of the people in charge of building my townhouse. he recognizes me, because apparantly we were friends. he says hi, and i’m like hi there darling. and he asked me if i liked his suit, and i was like, yeah you look fantastic. so he gets up, and i’m like so you’re working on this project now. and he’s like yeah. and i say, you’re probably happy to finally be done with the townhouses, and he laughs. then i remember adrienne is there. so the 3 of us start walking through aldi’s parkinglot. and i’m like, adr, this guy is one of the people who built our townhouses. she’s like oh. so i’m like yeah, he’s the guy we went to when everything was going wrong. so he rolled his eyes and laughed. then we were in pizza hut. we sat down at a table, and the waitress came over and sat down next to adrienne with the menus. and she wouldn’t give me one. and then this song was playing, but it might have just been in my head. i’m not sure if they could hear it. adr apparently knew the waitress, and they finally gave me a menu. the song that was playing was “mysterious ways” but it was live, not album version. i think it was from the zootv wembley bootleg, all i could hear were bono’s ad libs “comeon love, comeon love, touch me baby” towards the end.
possible explanation: even tho i haven’t listened to that version of mysterious ways, it’s still obvious. the rest…no clue.
possible interpretation: dunno. i saw that construction worker guy today though. lol
posted by sara @ 4:35 PM//

December 5, 2001

I was watching Cocktail 2. But i was also in the movie. Tom Cruise was behind the bar, and was doing the bar tender thing, but without all the fancy moves that were in Cocktail. It made me think that maybe it was a Prequil to Cocktail because he hadn’t learned how to do them yet. So I was sitting at the bar, and it was really dark in there. There was a table full of scary men, but no one was paying attention to them. So Tom was inbetween filling drink orders so he was going to count the money the bar had brought in that night. So he brought out one of those fire lock boxes where they kept all the money, and he was putting the money onto the bar. So he was counting the money and making it into piles on the bar. He finished that, and i started to help him stack up the money again to put it into the box. That’s when the scary looking men attacked. Apparently they had been waiting the whole night for Tom to count the money so they could steal it all. So they attacked, and started shooting things, and beating Tom up. I was standing there, and I didn’t know what to do. Tom told me to get out of the bar, so I started leaving with all the other customers. So then I was in my neighborhood and was walking to my house. I saw Mrs Mercer, my neighbor, and I went over to talk to her. I guess I wanted to talk to her because I knew she’d know what happened to Tom. So I asked her how he was, and she said he was in the hospital. The guys had beat him up really badly, and he had alot of injuries. She said she was sorry to me, because apparently he was my boyfriend. So then i was really worried about him, and if he was going to survive.
I wanted to remember my Cocktail dream so bad i kept dreaming that i was blogging it, and that i was telling it to danielle. and now i can’t remember the actual other dreams i had. One i was telling my parents about it, and they were confused as to why i’d dream about it when i had seen the movie. then i told them i had never really seen the movie, because when it came out i was under age and it was rated R.

Adrienne was at my house, but it wasn’t my house. I didn’t really live there, but I was visiting or something. My mom had gone out, and gotten me a baby sitter. I didn’t want to deal with the baby sitter, so i stayed in my room. But then Adrienne came over, so the babysitter was going to know I was awake. So we were in my room, and i was playing around with my lap top. The cords were all messed up so adrienne unplugged everything and rearranged the cords and put them all back in. Then it was a car, and it was my moms station wagon. Then the babysitter came home, because I guess she had left, and found me and adrienne sitting in the car we had just put back together. I was really irritated at the fact i’m 21 and my mom got me a babysitter, so I started the car and drove off. It was like a british car because everything was on the other side, so i was driving from the right side of the car. The car was still really broken because I couldn’t keep it started while driving down the street. Then my mom came home, so we turned around and went back to the house. I guess she had been at the doctor or something, but she didn’t have a key so we had to open the door for her.

possible explanation: i’ve never seen Cocktail, and why the HELL would i be dreaming about it?
possible interpretation:……i dont know
posted by sara @ 10:14 AM//

December 2, 2001

some kind of dream, and Pearl Jam’s “ten” album was in my stereo. danielle came in my room to talk to me and it came on, and i was like, how the hell did that cd get in my stereo, when i don’t even have it at school with me.
posted by sara @ 9:08 PM//

December 1, 2001

1. macphisto…something with macphisto and hell based on the macphisto society. dont remember much anymore
2. i had to take these two girls to someplace else for school. the one girl was the lesbian twin, and i don’t know who the other girl was. so we got in my car and i told them i’d try not to make them sick with my driving, but since it was standard shift i realize it happens. lesbian twin was sitting in the backseat, so i told her if she started to feel sick to let me know and we could pull over so she could puke. then i wasnt paying attention to where i was going because i was talking to them, and i started going off the road. so i thought i was steering to get back on the road but apparantly i wasn’t because we drove off a small cliff, and crashed into a barn which was on a pumpkin farm. it was in some small town. apparantly this wasn’t the first time i had crashed into a barn in that town. there was another barn across the street which also sold pumpkins, and one time when i was trying to get out of a parking space, i couldn’t stop rolling backwards and i rolled into the barn. this time however, since the car went off a cliff and crashed into the barn, it totally crashed into the barn. the car was inside, part of the barn was destroyed. so we got out of the car and the girls i was with turned into danielle and adrienne. they didn’t know about the first incident with the other barn, and they heard someone say something like “oh it’s her again”…and so i had to explain how this wasn’t the first time it had happened.
3. something with bono and clouds and cannon balls. like we were on a cloud or something, and a cannon ball shot through it.

possible explanation: not sure. the cannon ball one is a direct reference to Peter Pan. watched the movie last night so i can write my paper.
possible interpretation: ….
posted by sara @ 11:56 AM//

 

this section is dedicated to my most memorable or favourite dreams of the past

Trent Reznor: I enjoy my Trent Reznor dreams. The reason I became a Nine Inch Nails fan, as stupid as it may sound, is through a dream (of course, I wouldn’t become a fan purely because of that, it just inspired me to dig out “The Downward Spiral” which made me realize how much of a genius he is).

My first Trent dream: A little background is needed, because there is a small reason for having this dream. I have a friend who is very into drugs. She is a heroin addict, was recovered at the time (in her opinion anyway). I had gone home from college for the weekend, and gone to her house because we were going to do something, or go out somewhere. We were deciding what to do, and another friend called, inviting her to go do ecstasy with her. I was invited as well, but I don’t do drugs, and I didn’t wanna sit there with them while they waited for the dealer, like I had done a different time. She said she hoped I wasn’t mad that she was ditching me…no I wasn’t mad at all (sarcasm). I was quite upset about it, since I was only at home for 4 days, and she could do drugs anytime. This is the event that prompted the dream.

In the dream, my neighbors on the curve of my street were having a block party get together thing. It was in a warehouse, so I went there with my shopping cart full of food. Lisa (druggy friend, not her real name) and other people from our work were there, it had turned into a work picnic/party. I sat down with people, and we were talking. It was going to be my birthday soon, and I was going to have a party. I didn’t want to say whether or not there was going to be alcohol there or not, because I knew if there wasn’t, Lisa wouldn’t come. She kept asking me, and I said I didn’t want to say. She came right out and said, “well if you don’t tell me, I’m not going to come.” I got really pissed off, but to make it worse she was sitting with Bruce Willis, and they started talking shit about me. I was getting more and more pissed, and ended up storming out of the warehouse, and into my high school. I was wandering around my high school, wanting to cry, but not in front of anyone. So I kept going into the bathrooms so I could cry, but they were either being worked on by maintenance plumber people, or had tons of people in them. Then someone I supposedly knew came up to me and said, “We have to find Trent, he’s the only one who can help you. He’s the only one who can understand how you feel.” I fought him, I didn’t want to find Trent. He kept telling me over and over as we walked around the school looking for Trent, “He’s the only one who can help, he’s the only one who understands.” That line was continuous through the end of the dream, which is why I think it made such an impression on me in the morning. So we continued throughout the school, I continued to fight him, and he continued to repeat that line to me. Eventually we found Trent. He was sitting in a restaurant in the basement of my high school, in a corner booth, reading the newspaper and eating fruit. I didn’t want to talk to him, but this friend dragged me inside, continuing to repeat that line as I fought him. Trent noticed we were there right when we stepped in front of his table. He looked up at me and folded his newspaper. He was very shy, like he didn’t know what to do because I didn’t want to talk to him. That was it. It ended.

Orgy Dreams: I’ve had a bunch of Orgy dreams. I recently found a file where I had typed them up for someone’s website. I don’t really remember them anymore, but…here they are

I was at a show, that was like, in a basement or something, and they did the show. Then it was over, and I was hanging out and there were these big round tables, like at a wedding. Jay was standing near one, and talking to people. Paige was in the background doing whatever, talking or something. I went to Jay, who was being extremely nice to everyone (and he frequently changed sizes as well) and I hugged him, and then I kissed him. he shoved his tongue down my throat. I think that was it.

I was chillin on their tour bus, and then me and Jay were at my house in my bedroom just chillin on my bed. Well he had to go someplace for something so I was alone and some chick appeared there and I was being all bitchy waiting for Jay to come back. So finally Jay comes back and chick disappears, but Jay came back with some guy and some other chick. Well they all sat on my bed (a twin bed) and Jay sat on my pillows which is where I always sit. So I was like dude where am I gonna go. So I laid on my bed on this tiny strip of space left with my head in Jay’s lap. Then this other dude like, tickled me or something and then Jay like attacked me, and was tickling me. He was wearing that pink/red kiss the future shirt. I was like, grabbing onto him and trying to get him back and we ended up on the floor

By my house , where my Mcdonalds is, there are like 4 other fast food restaurants and a shopping plaza. So I was there in the parking lot of the plaza, with my mom, and we were walking towards the street. So yada yada, there’s Jay and Ryan…Jay walked right past me, and I was like woah, that’s Jay. But he had like really bright red streaks in the front of his hair, and had them spiked up. So then I saw Ryan near Taco Bell. So me and my mom went over to him and asked him if he could take a picture of me and my mom(?) so he said yeah sure, and I’m like WHAT THE FUCK , why is he taking a pic of us. So then I was like, can I take a pic of you, so I took a few pics of him and my mom. He was being typical crazy Ry, and was posing and shit for the camera. So then I dunno where Jay went, I didn’t really care. So then I dunno, but I appeared at an orgy concert. It started outside, and I guess it was kinda like a campus invasion thing, but they were on this small stage on a kinda hill thing, and it was grassy. Me and Melinda were there and we were far back in the crowd. Then suddenly a big opening up front appeared and I jumped right in. Well there was this huge chain link fence separating us from the stage. So then Amir, Ry and Paige were on stage and they were playing their guitars and they were like acoustic or something, and were all singing dowop to some chick standing on stage. It was super gay shitty and I was like WTF, then Jay came onstage and they started playing Blur’s Song2. I was like OOOH they are just the openers covering Blur. So then they turned into Orgy I guess, but then suddenly Mir and Paige put down their guitars and ran off the stage to the grass in front of where I was. Now the fence was only like, waist high. So Paige came over to me and was talking to me about how he’s got a son named Angel, and his wife picked the name out and how he had a problem calling his son by a girl’s name or something, but he got used to it. I was like wtf and I’m like well Paige is a girls name too. It was weird, and I was thinking, boy, Paige is drunk. So I dunno where Amir went, but I didn’t care. I guess then they were playing more…and then Paige came off the stage to talk to me again and was just chillin at the fence talking to me … so the show ended and we were inside again and like I dunno, I guess we were like, just hanging around and Paige came out again and was talking to me, or no wait, he was talking to someone else, and I went over to him to see if I could take a pic of us, and he was like, yeah only if you kiss me. so I was like hell yeah sure LOL so I kissed Paige, and he was all hugging me and shit and we got our pic taken, and I guess that was it

9-23-99 There was an Orgy show, at a big stadium, and I wanted to go to it. It was the night of the show, and I didn’t have tickets because it was sold out. So my history professor called me up on the phone and said that her family had a bunch of tickets they weren’t going to use. The problem was that the show was starting in 15 minutes so she didn’t think we would want them. But I was so excited, and I’d only be missing the openers. So me and my roommate took the tickets and headed to the stadium. Well it turned out it was on the water. It was like sea world, where there are seats and they end where the water is. So there were boats on the water and stuff, and Jay was walking on the boats near the edge of the water. We took front row seats, although our tickets were for someplace else. Then we were going to take pictures, and I had one of my dad’s big cameras with a self focus lens, and I didn’t know how to use it. We were behind big things of glass, and then we were inside a car at the side of the road. Jay was on the grass near the road, and he was singing Christmas songs. We kept trying to take pictures of him through the car window. And then I had the bright idea of actually getting out of the car, to sit on the curb and watch, but we couldn’t get the car door open. Then it was over.

more favourite dreams added when remembered