Category Archives: Dreams

Airplane Crashes: I started having airplane crash dreams in the last year, year and a half. Most of them, are I see a plane in the sky, and then it crashes, or explodes. The first one I remember, I was at my next door neighbors house, on their front porch, and I saw an airplane. In the distance I could see the skyline of Buffalo, and then the airplane started flying very low. It ended up crashing into one of the buildings and exploded. Another dream, I was driving down the street, and saw a plane. The plane exploded over my middle school. The only other one I remember details about, was I was going to the airport to travel somewhere and I was late. We were driving on the road to get to the airport parking lots, but my plane was taking off already. We saw it take off, and I said “that’s my plane!”, and then it flipped totally over, and exploded. I went around telling people that I was supposed to be on that plane, and thank god I wasn’t, or else I would have died. None of these dreams have occurred before traveling, before anyone I know was traveling, or around any media covered airplane crashes. I have no explanation or interpretation of these dreams. An unusual thing is, that when my mother was my age, she began having airplane crash dreams. They got to the point that she was scared to look at an airplane in the sky, because she thought it would explode (in her dreams, she’d look up at a plane, and then it would explode)…Kinda freaky, eh?

December 3 – Airplane crash dream. I was outside in my driveway at a picnic table with my mother. A new flight from someplace had been added, and it caused a plane to fly right over my house. Well this plane flew over, and I asked my mom if she knew where it was coming from, and she didn’t, but it looked like a Southwest Airline plane. Then I saw another plane flying really low, lower than it should have been, to the west of my street. I told my mom to look at the plane, cuz it was very weird. It was definitely a Japanese plane, it had Japanese symbols on it that we could see clearly. The plane was weirdly shaped, sort of like a submarine with wings, but the back of the plane was all messed up. Then the plane started to turn, then flipped over. I yelled “it’s going to crash.” and my mom and I both watched it crash into the ground and explode. I put my hands over my face and kept saying “This is a dream! This is a dream!” and I looked at my mom and we both tried to figure out if this was a dream, and I tried to wake myself up if it really was a dream. But we couldn’t, so we figured it wasn’t a dream, but I still thought that it HAD to be a dream. Then everything I saw, I saw in pixels, like a computer screen. And I was still freaking out trying to figure out if I was dreaming. My mom suggested I go to lay down, maybe I’ll wakeup if it’s a dream. Then my mom called up the stairs that it wasn’t a dream, the plane crashed, but no one was hurt (?). Missy from down the street came over as well and was talking about the plane crash.

January 5 – Airplane crash dream again. Adrienne had called me from Oregon only 2 days after she had left. I went outside on the front porch with the cordless phone and was talking when I saw an airplane. I was asking her about the trip and how she made it there so fast, and how it was dealing with her step sister for that long. But then I looked at the plane and it was flying funny, and I thought, it’s going to crash. Then it flipped over, and did a nose dive into the ground. I thought, this is a dream, it has to be a dream. And I kept saying to myself wake up wake up wake up. I went inside, and I told my mom I must be dreaming, and so I wanted to go upstairs and lay down on my bed so I could wake up. It took me a while to get upstairs because people kept talking to me. I kept saying that I needed to go to bed so I could wake up. So I finally got to my bedroom and put my stereo on. I noticed my stereo had a weird function that would show special effects on a little screen. I put a cd on, and the screen started showing the video for that song. The song was NIN’s “closer” and it was playing the video, but I couldn’t figure out why. I never knew it could do it before, and then I thought it must only work with new cds, so I got out an old Madonna cd (Ray of Light) and put that in, but it had new songs on it from her Music cd and it still played the video for the song.

I’ve noticed that in many of my airplane crash dreams, in the dream the airplane is really big. In the last one, with the Japanese airplane, it was a really large plane, like it was really close to me. It’s not like I see a small dot of a plane in the sky and it explodes. And there seems to be a theme of the plane flipping over before it crashes. Not sure why.

october 19, 2001 – i had to go to the store, and it was a really nice, really warm day out. so i took my dad’s miata, and the top was down. well i guess i was going to school as well, and i thought i looked really cool in the convertible. so i went to the store, it was walgreens or some drug store. i was driving there and there were all kinds of airplanes in the sky, because i was near an airport. 3 airplanes appeared to be on a collision course, all of them were supposed to fly to a certain spot, and they were going to have to cross paths. the one airplane was doing a nose dive, another was straight, and another was descending as if to land. well they didnt hit eachother, they managed to escape collision but the one in the nose dive i was still staring at because obviously it was going to crash into the ground. well right before the ground it righted it’s course and started ascending again. so i went in the store to get whatever it was i had to buy, and i came out and there were even more airplanes around, on collision courses with the ground. so i’m walking to my car and a hispanic woman with her kids is getting into the car parked next to mine. then we hear all kinds of explosions, and bombs going off. we can see dirt flying from where bombs were hitting the ground. so we’re both scared and don’t know what to do. then there is a bright flash, like the initial flash of a nuclear weapon. so i’m like, ok i’m getting in my car, and putting the top up, i’ll be ok. the hispanic woman got in her car too. well the nuclear weapon blast wasn’t one, because there was no mushroom cloud following it, but i put the top of the car up anyway figuring it would protect me from any kind of biological weapon that was about to rain down on us.

october 6, 2001 – i was at geneseo and i was a boy LOL. i owned an airplane. i full size regular airliner plane, and it was parked in one of the parking lots. we couldn’t move it though because the batteries were dead. so i found the keys to the plane and went over to it to change all the batteries in side. so i got to the plane, and it was huge, and there was no way for me to get up to the door to unlock it and go in. then suddenly either i was big enough to reach, or the plane shrunk, because then i was right at the door unlocking it. so i opened the door and went inside, and someone else came with me to help. we had to unlock all the fire alarms inside, so that we could change the batteries in them. well if you turned off the alarms above the doors, the alarms would go off, so we couldn’t change those. so we fixed the plane and wanted to fly it, so we were trying to think of a place we could take off from. there were alot of straight streets on campus, but none of them would work because the wings of the plane would hit trees and stuff on the sides of the road. then the plane was a big military cargo plane, not an airliner. so we’re still trying to think of someplace we can drive the plane from. but we can’t even move the plane to an airport because we’d still be hitting trees. so then i remember there is an airstrip in the valley, so we’re trying to think of ways we could move the plane down there. then we had the idea that helicopters from the airstrip can come and hook up wires and air lift it to the airstrip so we could fly it.

October 3, 2001 – i was at geneseo, and was leaving to go to class. i was looking out across the valley, and there were all kinds of airplanes flying around. then i saw one of them release a bunch of bombs. i was like, what the hell is going on? the planes are bombing things in the valley. then i realized that there was some kind of military training base in the valley, and the planes were doing target pratice, and parachute practice, because then i saw about 6 guys jump out of a plane. they were falling really slowly though, and they were all staying together, like a conga line. then there were more planes, and when they released their bombs they did weird things, like one plane went into a spin like on Top Gun and then released the bombs.

december 13, 2001 – i was at home, and danielle was sleeping over my house. there were all kinds of reports about this computer model that had been constructed to predict future terrorist attacks. it had formulated a whole bunch of different predictions, and one of them was that that night a large plane was going to invade US airspace. So the US had shut down it’s airspace for non military planes, and they had said that if any airplanes were found flying in our airspace they would be followed by a fighter jet and shot down if necessary. Danielle turned into my neighbor Tina, and we were geting a bit scared over the prediction of this computer model. Then i commented well maybe today is the day that aliens will really arrive on earth, and their big space ship is the large plane that the computer predicted. This didn’t comfort either of us at all, because we didn’t really want an alien invasion either. So i was standing in my kitchen looking out the window, and I saw an airplane being followed by a fighter jet. I yelled to Tina, oh my god there’s a plane, oh my god. So she comes over and we’re standing at the window watching the plane. Then it starts to fly weird, and it is flying lower and lower, and this is when we realize it’s going to crash, and it’s going to crash right near us. The fighter jet disappeared and it was only the normal airplane, and it was an American Airlines plane. It started to recover it’s flight path, but then faltered again, meaning that it was going to crash even closer to us than we had thought before. We’re both freaking out, and I keep asking her if this was real or a dream, and she keeps telling me it was real, and it felt real. The plane finally crashes and it crashes in my neighbors back yard. There was a big mushroom cloud of fire, and super loud noise. So i run to get my parents, who were in the house someplace, and tell them that the noise was a plane crashing. They were oblivious to the crash, and didn’t really care. So i’m back looking out the window and this russian pilot is sneaking in between the bushes and the fence that separate my yard from the neighbors. There is a carcas of a large animal on the ground by my swingset and the pilot goes over and hits it to see if it was dead, and it was. Then the pilot is walking across my yard, and my parents decide to go get him and bring him inside since he is responsible for the plane crash. So they go get him, and he starts talking in english, about why he did it, and the goals etc (which i don’t remember). my parents seemed to agree with what he was saying, and they offered him food and stuff.

Then i was inside a big mansion, and i had a room to myself. I guess i was sick because i was having visitors come to see me. One of them was Rob from work, and he was sitting in a chair next to my bed. We must have been talking about terrorism, because I brought up the fact that I had another plane crash dream, my first one since sept 11th. Apparantly this was a different dream, because i was referring to the dream above, about the plane crashing in my back yard, and i realized it was a dream. So i was telling rob about this plane crashing in my back yard dream, and how i was really scared. I was scared because apparently right before sept 11th, i had experienced a dream where planes crashed into towers and the towers collapsed, and then it happened. So now that i had this dream about the plane crashing in my backyard i was scared about it being another psychic dream.

march 5, 2002 – i was walking by some field and when i looked up to the sky there were 3 or 4 stealth bombers flying around. it was in america, so i thought they were just doing practice maneuvers or something. so i was watching them fly around thinking about how super scary looking they are, so futuristic, and how if i was in a country really under attack i’d be scared shitless to see them flying around. then they started dropping bombs. i figured i was just walking by a practice area, and they were testing bombs. i dont know if it was practice or not, but then the other side of the road where i was, there was a shopping plaza. there were all kinds of people around. there was also a power station (like electricity power station). well the bombs turned into nuclear bombs (i think) and there were all kinds of fires. then the power station started exploding and shorting out, and started on fire. well me and the people who were around realized it was on fire, and that it was going to cause a huge explosion. so we all started fleeing in the opposite direction looking for a place to hide and be safe. we kept running and running and because we were apparently on a military base there were all kinds of chain link fences we had to run through, it was like a maze. we tried to hide behind big structures that were around, but then realized we weren’t safe so we kept running. i found a hole in one of the fences so i went through and some people followed me. then we ran to this building that apparently was a church. so we hid in the foundation of this building, in the catacombs. it had a dirt floor, and looked like trenches had been dug into it. so we hid there, but then didn’t know if it was safe to leave again. dont remember much else, except people who lived up stairs of the catacombs came down and found us, and told us we were in catacombs (because we had no idea where we were), and i think there was a tv in one of the other rooms so we could find out what was going on up above.

Tornados: As I said, this is the first category of my reoccurring dreams. I can’t remember when they started, but they were infrequent for a great while. Freshman year in college, their frequency picked up until I was having 3-4 a week. I had so many tornado dreams that in my dreams, I’d ask myself if there really was a tornado, or if I was dreaming. Of course, I thought it was real that time, and then later I’d wake up and realize it was another dream. Once, the tornados were combined with volcanos. That only happened once. Mostly the dreams were of me seeing tornados on the horizon, or in a car and seeing them near by. Sometimes I’d be at home, and one would come down the street. One in particular that I remember, I was on my front porch with my father, and a tornado was coming down the street. It never really got closer than the intersection, but it kind of hovered there. I remember asking my father if it was real or not, because I have a lot of dreams about tornados. He said it was definitely real. Obviously, it wasn’t. It’s been a long time since I’ve had a tornado dream (now = 10-18-00). I’ve been offered a few explanations. They increased in frequency during Freshman year in college, and it was said that they did because of a tumultuous and stressful time…lots of life changes, moving from home, living with 6 other people, classes, exams etc…It’s plausible since they have died down since then. I’ve also been very interested in them, I watch a lot of those storm shows on Discovery network, and I’ve always, always, wanted to see one in real life. In many of my dreams, I was excited that I was seeing a tornado. I’ve never been scared of it in my dream, since they have never come very close to me.

March 2001 – some sort of tornado dream, there were lots of tornados all around. I was hitting myself in the dream to figure out if it was real or a dream, I slapped myself in the face, and it hurt, so I said, oh this is definitely real life.

April 21, 2001 – Tornado dream. I was walking onto campus along the walkway through the parking lot. On the right side of the walkway instead of cars parked there like usual it was a wall. There were alot of people out walking. The sky got really dark like it was going to storm, then we saw lightning. The sky got really light after that, and I was like um.. ok. Then I realized that the sky got light because all the darkness was sucked into a tornado that was heading our way. Then I questioned whether I was dreaming or not. I decided at first I wasn’t dreaming, I tried to hit myself and see if it hurt, and it did, so I concluded I was awake. Then the tornado was coming closer to us, and it started acting weird, and disintegrating, so I decided I was asleep and it was just a dream.

February 13, 2002 – i was at home…it was my townhouse but it was my real house. i was in my room in the townhouse, but it was really big, and i had lots of desk surface space. it was really almost completely empty, so i wanted to put a coffee maker on it. it must have been really windy or stormy or something, because i looked out the window and the view was of the view from my real house, not at school. and there was a huge tornado off in the distance. so i freaked out, and went to tell danielle there was a tornado and we should go in the basement. then i ran downstairs to tell my mom about the tornado, but she wasn’t home, it was my neighbor jenny. she was watching tv in my living room. so i was like, look outside and tell me if there is a tornado because maybe i’m dreaming. she looked outside and saw it, so i wasn’t dreaming, but she didn’t appear to care at all that there was a tornado coming and we should go in the basement. so i looked outside again and there were at least 5 other smaller ones touching down. so i was like, well screw you guys i’m going in the basement. so i went downstairs, and somehow i had unknowingly dragged my mattress down off my bed into the basement, i guess so i could go back to sleep. it was all deformed though. so then i was looking out the window, which apparently my basement had windows, and Ziggy was out in the back yard, and there was a tornado coming right towards my house. it was weakening, so much so that it was see through…as in it wasnt full of the dirt and dust which makes a tornado visible. there were some dead leaves swirling around in it, that’s how we could still see it. leaves and branches were getting sucked into it, etc, and then it went right where Ziggy was, and sucked Ziggy up into it. She had her front legs up, almost as if she was worshiping it, when it sucked her up. So i was like, no Ziggy no, get out of the tornado. And then Ziggy seemed scared, and was trying to grab on to the flying branches, and eventually grabbed onto one that was attached to the tree, so she didn’t get blown away. then a bat came flying towards my house, but when it got close enough to the house, it was a dog.

November 28, 2001

I guess i was at my house, I don’t remember anymore. I had hid some joints in my basement, so my parents wouldn’t find them. So I smoked one, and then i went online to talk to carolyn about it. I didn’t feel high, so I was really upset. then my mom was around and i really wanted to get high. so i was going to try to go back in the basement to get my other drugs without her knowing. so I went downstairs, and I shot up with some heroin. I went back upstairs to talk to carolyn. I still didn’t feel high though. then my dad came home, and i dont know why, but i felt like i needed to go retreive all my drugs because I was scared they’d find them. so i went back downstairs, and i took a bottle of aspirin with me. i took it so that when i went to find my other joint, and my E pills they would see that i was holding aspirin and think that’s what i had gone downstairs to get. so i was holding 4 tablets of E, the joint, and the aspirin and my mom started yelling at me about something. then my dad started yelling at me. i was yelling back at them, and my mom kept yelling at me. i really needed to do the rest of my drugs. i guess my dad told her to stop yelling at me and i managed to get upstairs. so i was back talking to carolyn, and i still didn’t feel high. so i did the 4 tabs of E. then i was going to smoke the joint but i got scared that i had taken way too many drugs.
i was at school, and i had a locker. i got out of a class and went to my locker and it was all decorated. except it wasn’t my birthday. my friends who had lockers around me decorated it to thank me for being so tall, because i always got stuff out of the top of their locker for them. then dr kirsh was there, and he was an art teacher. he gave me my paintings i had done, to take home. then this other girl was there, and she wanted to paint. so dr kirsh was telling her about how there was no more room in the painting class for the girl. then i dunno what was going on, but i started cutting her hair. it was some sort of deal dr kirsh and i made with her. i had to cut some of her hair off but i ended up cutting off way too much and she was mad.

possible explanation: another drug dream. there was actually a 2nd drug dream related to the first one because i wanted to remember the 1st one so badly to type up. i forgot most of it, there was so much more details and stuff to it that i don’t remember.
possible interpretation: drugs is the only way i’m going to be able to deal with my parents if i have to live with them when school ends lol
posted by sara @ 10:13 AM//

November 27, 2001

i was in new york city, buy the world trade center, when it was attacked. i must have been under a car or something because i was watching the towers collapse from an opening in whatever i was under. someone was with me but i don’t know who it was.
possible explanation: haven’t thought about it in a while…dunno
possible interpretation: ptsd
posted by sara @ 2:19 PM//

November 25, 2001

i was in a toy store xmas shopping and i had my baby with me. i guess the baby was around the age that it would start talking. i think it was a boy. so i’m walking through the aisles and talking to my baby, trying to get it to talk. i kept asking it to say “momma” and “daddy”…well it started saying “daddy” so i got all happy and excited and i called for my husband to come. he was in another aisle looking for gifts. so i yelled for him to get over here because our son was talking and i didn’t want him to miss it. so he did, and my husband was bono. so he took the baby and the baby kept saying daddy to him over and over. it was really cute
possible explanation: spent some time in toy sections of discount stores yesterday…bono…um do i even need to explain where that came from? lol
possible interpretation: i’d say another psychic dream except i don’t want kids…however bono’s kids…hmmm lol
posted by sara @ 2:26 PM//

November 20, 2001

my mom and i ran this day camp type program for troubled kids. they came to this building we owned and we had activities and different stuff for them to do to keep them out of trouble. well this business was just a front. we were italian, and we were in the mafia. and the day camp was a front for our drug dealing. we were the biggest dealers in the area. we specialized in cocaine. so we were working in the day came when one of our shipments arrived. this chinese man came by with two big boxes. so i took him in back to the walk in freezer. he put the boxes on the shelves with the other boxes of food. then a group of other mafia guys walked in and demanded to know what the day camp was a front for. well the chinese guy started going on and on about how if they guys would leave he would find the golden pussy. and he didn’t know much english, so he kept saying over and over to the men that he’d find the golden pussy. the guys were like, really? the golden pussy? and the chinese man was like, yes, the gooooooolden pussy. so apparantly everyone thought the day camp was a front for a whore house. so the mafia guys leave with the chinese man. all the kids from the day camp leave, and adrienne was there. i guess she worked in the camp for us. so once everyone was gone, we ran back into the freezer to get high, because we were both cocaine addicts. so we opened up the boxes and each box was filled with tons of little baggies of cocaine. so we did some cocaine, and then i went to my house. my grandparents lived with us. they were in the mafia too i guess. my grandpa had made spaghetti, and put the dirty dishes back into the cupboard without washing them, again. he did it every time he made spaghetti. there was sauce all over the cupboard, and it was disgusting. since i was high, i started yelling at him about how he can’t do that because then i have to clean the cupboard. he didn’t understand what the big deal was, so i yelled at him to get up and look in the cupboard, and then he saw that there was sauce all over the place. and he was like oooh, yeah i’m sorry, i won’t do it anymore. well i was highly irritated and i didn’t feel high anymore, so i was mad. i went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and my pupils were small, but not totally small. so i wanted to go back to the day camp to get some more drugs.
possible explanation: haha that’s so great. this was a great dream. maybe if i had some cocaine i could deal with my family better
possible interpretation: another drug addict dream….
posted by sara @ 7:59 AM//

November 19, 2001

1. it was trevor’s birthday, so a bunch of us girls went to see him. he lived near us, so we went to his house. but it was set up like a science class room – a lab table with sink in the front of the room near the boards, then desks facing the front. so trevor was behind the desk thing, and we were all sitting in the desks, or leaning on the lab table to talk (flirt) with him. he was surprised that we all remembered his birthday. then one of the girls had a big sign, as if we were going to a concert. it had this blonde woman on it who looked like farah faucett. trevor had left the room to get something, so i asked the girl wtf she had that sign. she said it was trevor’s girlfriend. and i was like, i thought he was dating that kelly person, and that kelly person didn’t look like that. she said no it was his new girlfriend. i still didn’t quite know why she had this sign with pictures of his girlfriend on it. so then trevor came back..with his girlfriend, who had brown hair, but apparantly it was the same person that was on the poster. his girlfriend was a singer too i guess, so we watched her music video, and i thought it sucked. but i befriended her, and was going to take her around town to show her the sites.
2. partly related to 1…..i had finally finished taking trevor’s girlfriend around and it was really late, but i went home. i lived in one giant room with 2 other girls and i had to share a bed with one of them. she was still awake because she was pissed i hadn’t come home yet. she thought i had been with trevor. but i said no i hadn’t been with him. so i got into bed, and the girl was the blond haired little girl that stuffed her bra from the movie Then and Now…she covered my eyes with her hand, because i guess there was stuff going on in the room that i wasn’t supposed to see. there were all these people coming in, and they were robbing us..no they weren’t robbing us, but they had robbed something and were putting the things in suitcases to make a break for it. then trevor’s girlfriend was one of them, and so i was like WTF trevor is going to be so mad when he finds out his girlfriend is a criminal.
3. partly related to 2……the room i lived in turned into a school classroom, but it looked the same. i just knew it was a school room. Dr Dehart’s room to be more specific. the people who had stolen stuff and then put it in suitcases so they could make a break away really pissed me off. then it was like, they had something to do with some political group. one of the guys was a protestor and had taken these sponge stamp letters and black and red paint and had stamped letters on people, and on the walls. so i decided to join the movement, and i totally destroyed the room. i was writing on stuff, and painting on desks and tables. i was trying to paint but the paint wasn’t showing up and i didn’t understand why. but every time i wrote the letter K it was backwards. then Dr Dehart gave me 5 dollars, i guess in support of the cause. i didn’t really know what to do with it, because i didn’t know where donations went.
4. was talking to my husband john stamos about how carolyn dreams about tony danza.
possible explanation: i’ve never had Dr Dehart for a class…Trevor…i dunno why i dreamed about EC again…i don’t know when his birthday is either.
possible interpretation: dunno
posted by sara @ 11:12 AM//

November 18, 2001

i was dating john stamos. we lived in a big highrise building in a city. it was all upperclass looking and gorgeous. i was running around trying to find carly from gh because she was hurting her chances of getting custody of michael. she had gone and taken him from whoever had custody of him. don’t remember much after that. then me and john had to go stay at my grandparents house i don’t know why. so it was time to go to sleep and we were in a room with 2 double beds. i couldn’t sleep in the same bed as john because i guess someone else, a friend of ours, had come with us, and we didn’t feel right letting her sleep with my grandma in the same bed. so our friend slept with john and i was going to sleep in the other bed with my grandma. but before we went to sleep i was in bed with john and we were talking about all kinds of stuff i don’t remember. then i was in the other bed, and we were going to sleep. my grandma hadn’t came to bed yet because she doesn’t go to bed til like 4 in the morning. so we’re sleeping and then i feel someone sit on the bed i was in, and it sunk a real lot. then someone kissed my neck, and then the other side of my neck, and got up and left. well i opened my eyes to see who it was, because i didn’t think it was john since he’s not big enough to make the bed sink that much and it was the cook, or something like that, that works for my grandparents. he was kinda fat, dorky, very gross. so i started freaking out and john sat up in bed and was like “what is it”. so i was crying and said that the cook (whatever his name was) just came in here and kissed my neck. I guess there was a history of the cook being in love with me. so john got really pissed off and he was going to go and beat the cook up. but i was like “no please don’t do it” but john was getting out of bed to go beat the guy up. so i got up and grabbed john and i was so upset i just collapsed on the floor and pulled him down with me. i just held onto john so he wouldn’t leave, and he was like “ok, i wont go” and hugged me as i cried.
i was at a music store with my friend cyndi and we were leaving when a car went by playing music really loudly. it sounded like orgy, so i was like “dude that is so orgy” but i never heard the song before. so i deduced that it was the new orgy song. but i hadn’t heard about orgy releasing a new song. so i’m like, “i’m going to ask those people what that is” because they had pulled into a parking lot. so we walked over, and it was a van. there were a bunch of kids in the back, and the woman driving was older. but they were still playing orgy real loud. so i went up to the window and was like, is that orgy? and she’s like yeah it’s from their 3rd release. and i was like, well where the hell did you get it? and she said she got it last night at this other record store. i asked when the release date was and she said she didn’t know but if i went to the record store at midnight or 4 am i could probably get a copy. i had no idea where the store was, and neither did cyndi and the woman wouldn’t tell me where it was.

possible explanation: john stamos?!?! sure he’s hot and all but… wtf did that come from?!?!
possible interpretation: haha
posted by sara @ 11:19 AM//

November 17, 2001

only remember parts
was walking with someone in a mall parking lot. we were trying to avoid walking by some people that were standing around, so we took a detour through a fenced off area near the building. it was the wild life preserve that the mall had (?!?). the mall had different exhibits with animals inside, and this fenced off area was where the zookeepers dealt with the animals when they weren’t inside. so we were walking in it, and saw the animals but they didn’t seem to care we were there. we got to the end of the fenced area and realized there wasn’t an exit, so we had to turn around and go out. then there was someone in a lab coat doing things with the animals, a vet or something. there were a bunch of aligators in the area. one started running after whoever it was that i was with (dunno who it was, it was a boy tho). so i was like, look out! then the vet said something, and the aligator stopped. i guess they had been trained really well. then all the animals realized we weren’t supposed to be walking in the area. so we were leaving, and then all the aligators started coming after us, and biting us in the legs. the vet couldn’t stop them. so i had to keep grabbing the aligators mouths and prying them off of me. so we got out of the fenced area, and then it was my school campus. i was walking around in pain from having all these aligator bites. then some woman came up to me to tell me they were making the whole campus into the wild life reserve. so i started going off about how that was such a bad idea because i had gotten bit etc…then i was walking in some other area of campus where they were still building the town houses. but the area had more room then the townhouses i live in now, so it looked like an actual neighborhood with a street, and front lawns, and then houses. and each house was different, like a real neighborhood. so i thought those looked better than the one i lived in.

my mom had dropped me off in a parkinglot where there had been a tool concert. i needed a ride back to school and i knew eric was there and that he’d drive me home. so i found him and he was talking to maynard. so i was like hi, to maynard. there was really no one else around. then maynard was sitting on the bumper of a car next to eric’s just chillin. i didnt want to bother him so i didn’t talk to him. so me and eric were getting ready to leave, but i couldn’t lift my leg up to get it in the car, cuz it was in pain from being bitten. then maynard said something to me so i replied, and then we left.

i was someplace and i had to go to the bathroom and there were 6 stalls. 3 had toilets, 3 were the bathrooms that were just holes in the ground like in france and greece…where you squat over the hole and pee. i walk in and only the holes were left. then i hear my aunt carol say “hi sara”…she was in one of the other stalls. didn’t understand how she knew it was me. so i was going to attempt to pee in the hole. the person in the stall next to me was doing a really bad job, not getting the hole, and so her pee was splashing all over the place, even into my stall from underneath the wall. so i got to pee and i did fine, and i was fixing my pants when my mom started leaning over the door to talk to me, and the person next to me was leaning over the side wall to light a cigarette. i’m like ok why must everyone suddenly lean into my stall!? they were like, oh sorry, and left.

possible explanation: ha i have no clue
possible interpretation: dunno
posted by sara @ 10:44 AM//

November 15, 2001

i was in prison. more specifically i was in attica. i had just gotten sentenced and i was going to be in attica for the rest of my life. so the warden person came and brought me to my cell in chains. my hands were chained together to my waist, and my feet were chained. my bed was in a big room with a bunch of other beds. each bed was in front of a barred window that was open to the outside. we all got chained to our beds, so we couldn’t walk around or anything. the warden was telling me the rules, and how he makes random visits to make sure we’re all following the rules. he was telling me how people go insane in attica etc. because there’s nothing to do and you’re not allowed to do anything. so i sat there, and he left, and i thought it’s not SO bad, because i can look out the window etc. i was going to have a good attitude and make the rest of my life be as good as it could be inside attica. so then a bunch of new prisoners were brought in. none of them were chained though. they had beds near mine. one of them was cheryl from work. she had the bed next to mine. so we were talking and things were ok. these 2 other girls were brought in, non chained, and so we were talking to them. then i realized i could lift up the one leg of my bed and un-chain myself. so i did that so i could walk around, even if i couldn’t lift my arms up high because they were still chained to my waist. well we were all talking and causing a ruckous so the warden came back to yell at us all. then my friend joe from elementary school was there. he was sitting on cheryl’s bed and we were talking. then i wanted to call some people from high school and tell them cheryl was in prison. so she gave me her ATM card, which if you talked into the magnetic strip, acted like a phone. so we called this kid matt laroach, who i guess i called because cheryl always had a crush on him. so i’m laughing and telling him cheryl is in prison, and that joe was there too….well i guess it turns out, we were allowed to do our own thing and walk around in the room and socialize. there were actually little grills there we could heat up our food on. so a bunch of us were cooking food, and talking. i was really shocked to see so many girls there since i thought attica was a men’s prison. then i was looking inside the grill, which was like those toasters that they have in restaurants, that have the bread travel through the toaster and come out the bottom, and there were flames coming out of it. so i yelled fire, and everyone looked and saw the toaster in flames. then the other toaster/grill started on fire. so i’m yelling fire and we’re all panicing because, they don’t really tell us the fire escape routes since it is prison and everything. so then one of the prison guards comes running in with this little fire extinguisher. it was gideon yago from mtv. so he puts out the fire. so then i’m walking around and dr shanahan was there. so i was like omg what are you doing here? she was visiting, not a prisoner. but then i was really ashamed and embarassed about why i was there, but she huggged me and asked me what i had done. i had killed my ex husbands new girlfriend. so she left, and i went to sit with the other girls eating, and i was like, i don’t think i could possibly feel any worse about myself after seeing her and telling her what i had done to spend the rest of my life in prison
possible explanation: im reading a book about the death penalty and death row etc…
possible interpretation: another psychic dream lol
posted by sara @ 7:46 AM//

November 9, 2001

there was a concert in my neighbors driveway. in order to watch it you had to park your car in the street and sit in your car. so danielle and i were sitting in my car and watching the concert. it was the rolling stones. it was really weird though, because the drummer stopped drumming and was walking around. mick jagger was doing his thing but there was only half of the music sine there was no drummer. then roadies were running around trying to settle stuff down. no one knew what was going on. then the concert was inside a department store or something, because there were all kinds of shopping carts around, and behind the stage were aisles of products to buy. but it was still outside because we were still in the car. then i wanted to go backstage because apparantly i knew mick. so me and danielle got out of the car and went back stage. then it was like intermission and the band came back stage. so mick was talking to people, and we were just standing there. next thing i knew i was holding a drum stick. it was covered in silver glitter, so i’m like wow this is a rad drum stick. so then danielle wanted one. we found this huge pile of drum sticks, and so danielle took one. she wanted more so she started taking more and putting them into a shopping cart. i was like um, don’t do that mick is gonna be mad at us for taking all of this stuff, since i thought mick would be mad i just had the 1 drum stick. so then i wanted to talk to mick so i was hoping he’d see me. i didn’t know if he’d remember me because it had been a long time since i had seen him last. so then he saw me, he had a red shirt on. so he came over to say hello and he remembered me and everything. but he was sorta busy so he had to go talk to some other people. he must have seen the danielle had put stuff in the cart, cuz Mick was like, oh yeah take whatever you want, no problem. so while he was off talking to whoever, we went and started piling things into the cart from the shelves. so then i went back over to talk to Mick and he hugged me, and i was like you remember my name, and he was like of course i do. i was taller than him. i think i am in real life too. so he was hugging me and i was like, it’s been a long time, and he was like yeah. then i noticed my car headlights were on, because the key was in the igniton. so i was like shit i need to go get my keys before my battery burns out, so i went to the car and danielle stayed backstage. in the car were my parents because they had been watching the concert too. so i was like, um, i need my keys so my lights will go off.
possible explanation: only that i’m going to an EC concert tonight.. they SHOULD remember who i am even tho its been a while since i saw them last
possible interpretation: i really am friends with mick jagger. and since he sang a song with bono on new album, he’s gonna introduce me…
posted by sara @ 10:25 AM//

November 7, 2001

lol i just remembered part of another dream. i was in some kind of class, and the teacher was the guy who played Michael Bolton in the movie “office space”. but he wasn’t an actor. it was a real person, who was hired to be in the movie because the movie was based on his real life or something. everyone in the class had seen “office space” so people were constantly saying “michael bolton” to see what our teacher would do (his real name wasn’t michael bolton). he didn’t think any of us had seen the movie and knew that he was in it. but when we started saying things to him from the movie, he caught on and was kinda embarassed.
posted by sara @ 10:53 AM//

#1 i was at some kind of amusement park and i was standing near a rollercoaster watching people go on it. it was the biggest coaster in the entier world, it had the biggest drop, and it was the longest ride. so i’m watching people go on it, and i notice that whoever is in the first car had to go down head first. they get strapped in on their stomach and do the whole thing head first. everyone else is normal. so i guess i was in line, and i get in my seat and strapped in. but i don’t have one of those head restraint things. so i’m like, um, i’m gonna fall out when we go upsidedown. so then we’re sitting there forever because i guess there was some kind of technical problem they had to fix. so finally we start going up the first hill and i still don’t have a head restraint. i’m like, uh they usually check these things before they let you start. So i just reached up and found mine, and pulled it down. but then i wasn’t on the ride anymore and i was just watching it again. after watching all these people go on it and look totally scared i chickened out and didn’t want to go anymore.
#2 me and my parents were going on a trip someplace. last minute my grandpa showed up at our house. i guess it wasn’t really last minute at all, he was planning on coming the whole time, but my parents knew if they told me he was coming i wouldn’t go with them. but i still didn’t know he was going on the entire trip with us, i thought he was just going to a certain point and then we were leaving him wherever that was. so we start driving, and i’m miserable because i can’t stand to be around him. so we’re going to all these places that are out of the way of our final destination and i’m like wtf where are we going. and my dad is like, we’re going to this cemetery. and we go to drive by this cemetery and all these people from some certain war are burried there. then i notice my grandpa has a list of cemeteries, and apparantly he wants to go see every cemetery in the country where people from this war are burried, and that this is what the enitre trip was supposed to be – us taking him to all these cemeteries.

#3 i went to a party with Bono. we weren’t dating, but i was his date for the party. we were just close friends or something. anyway, there was this guy there who was an old high school friend of Bono’s. i really wanted to meet this man because u2 had written their song “out of control” about this guy (not true). so Bono introduced me to him, and I was all like, “ooh so you’re the guy? how do you feel about u2 playing that song live now?” and the man is like “at first i was kind of put off by it, but i like it, it’s good.” and then Bono interrupted and was like “yeah you can totally tell we didn’t design the set ourselves, so and so designed it. and i like how we changed the song to do it live?” and i’m like ok…and the man is like “yeah, so and so, haven’t you ever heard of the taliban?” and i’m like “of course i’ve heard of the taliban”

possible explanation: um…i dunno, i’m too hungry to think
possible interpretation: dunno.
posted by sara @ 10:46 AM//

November 3, 2001

i was at school, but our house was a huge mansion. inside the house there were various apartments. so it was like there were apartments constructed into this house. DO YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT?! ok, so anyway. there were 3 doors that you went in to get to your apartment depending on where in the house it was located, and each door had a big front porch (it was a really huge mansion). we had to park our cars in fields in front of the house. so i had parked my car in a pretty decent space. then it was like, everyone was out tailgating at their cars, as if we were at a football game, or preconcert or something. well where my car was parked, it was kinda hilly and uneven, so i wanted to adjust the way i parked my car so it was flat. so i pulled ahead so i could back up and straighten it out, but someone came and took my spot. so i was like, where the hell am i gonna park my car now? i liked my space, and the guys in the car next to mine were really cute. the car and parking space were like where everyone lived, so everyone had their junk spread out in their space. i had a shopping cart full of crap, and now i didn’t know what to do with it all since someone had taken my space. it kinda resembled a camp ground where people park their trailers and then set up their “homes” there.
some dream involving michael jackson but no clue what it was about.

possible explanation: dunno
possible interpretation: no clue
posted by sara @ 3:16 PM//

November 1, 2001

i was driving in some strange big city. i’d never been there before, but i knew where i was, and how to get back to where i was going. then i was at my apartment, which was sorta like in a corridor style dorm. but i think it was a hotel. and some friends were visiting but i don’t know who they were. but then i had to go to this dance recital thing with danielle. she had promised kristy that we’d go watch her perform. it wasn’t just a recital though, it was a contest and it was being filmed for tv. it was all people in some dance school. so we went to this recital thing and had gotten there late. so she got a chair in the first row on the floor, cuz there was an empty one, and i stood to the side by the floor. i think one of the judges was someone from metallica. maybe not, i just remember the 1 judge was someone really weird – not weird, but an odd choice to be judging a dance competition. there was only 2 judges. i assumed that everyone was going to have to do the same song, and same costume for 1 dance, and then do 1 dance on their own. each person performed by themselves. so this girl came out in this gross purple costume. it had a leotard thing, and then a skirt piece that was all purple gauze, with purple sequins as a belt. she had purple tights on. so she came out, and the skirt was attached around her neck like a cape. so i was like, um, that’s weird. the entire time her tights were really falling down, all baggy all over like she had gotten a size 2 times too big and couldn’t keep them up. so she’s doing this dance, and was terrible. i was wondering how she even got through first auditions to get that far in the contest. well she totally sucked, and she messed up, and i could dance better than she could. well from the audience reaction she knew she did bad and was upset. so she was walking off stage, and pulling up her tights, and she saw someone with the same costume on with the skirt actually as a skirt and not a cape. so she got really pissed off and started yelling at her dance coach, who could have possibly been Bono. she was screaming at him that why did he tell her to wear it like that, it was supposed to be a skirt, and she was blaming him for the bad routine and the fact she sucked. well then someone moved from the chairs, so i went to sit down next to danielle and wait for kristy’s performance. well i guess the crappy girl was the last of the amateurs, and next was people who actually were really good dancers. i guess there were 2 parts of the competiton, the part for all the crappy dancers, and the part for people who were actually talented. so i was sorta excited to see the good dancers. so this guy came out to do his routine and it was super great, and i wondered how crappy girl could ever think she would have won against people like that guy. then there was something else about Bono, he was there and people saw him and started yelling, but i was like yeah bono is here, because i guess i already knew him. he was one of my good friends or something and he had come to see the show with us.
possible explanation: no clue where all this dancing stuff came from lol
possible interpretation: i dont care lol

October 30, 2001

i was at an outdoor concert. i’m not sure where it was. but it was supposed to rain so they had moved the concert from its original location to a place that was outdoors, but where the stage was set up, the band wouldn’t get wet if it rained. it was an orgy concert. i decided that i wasn’t going to go up front for the concert, i was going to go on the balcony, which wasn’t a balcony but it was my front porch and it was only slightly elevated so that i could see over the crowd. so orgy was playing, and jay gordon saw me and smiled. then throughout the show he kept gesturing to me and making motions where it was obvious he knew me. so there was a point in the show inbetween songs and jay started talking, and said everyone should turn around and look at me, because i had provided the totally awesome picture of Kirk. so everyone looked at me and everyone started clapping so i kinda bowed. this entire time, the members of econoline crush are sitting on chairs on the side of the stage as if they were on a talk show. and so i kept looking over at them too, and they recognized me as well. i guess they were on after orgy. so orgy finished, and the concert workers said they were moving locations again since it wasn’t going to rain anymore. so EC was like, dude, just let us play here, why move again. and i was like yeah, last time they played here it was 100 degrees outside, let them perform on a stage that’s in the shade. So trevor looked over at me talking, and he’s like Hi there, Sara right? and i’m like yeah, woah you know my name. and so i was talking to trevor who was still sitting with the rest of the band discussing what they were going to do for their show. so I said, you can play an all acoustic set, that’d be alright with me. i smiled at them and trevor and johnny laughed. johnny had cut all his hair off, like it was a brush cut, and i was like nooo i loved your hair before!! it was like, i was a very important person that entire day at the concert, everyone knew me, and i felt like i had the ability to tell people what to do. so i told EC again, that it’d be ok with me if they just did a whole acoustic set. and so Trevor gets a guitar and he comes up on the front porch and sits on the bench. no one else is up there with me anymore. so he’s like, well what do you want us to play, and I said Razorblades and Bandaids, and he’s like hmm, ok. I’m like yeah if you remember how to play it, and then he took out a lyric sheet and was going to play it.

then i was still dreaming, but it was like i woke up, and danielle was telling me her dream. i was really annoyed because her talking to me was making me forget my dream. so i was like dude, i gotta type this up on my site cuz it was so great. so then i went to type it up on my site, and somehow it turned into a U2 concert also. So i was typing out how it was a U2 concert, and that the 4 of them were sitting on chairs like they were on a talk show too. Then i was at another concert, which i guess was the opener for this whole string of concerts. It was a band with 3 people, and the song was familiar but i didn’t know who it was. At first i thought it was offspring, then i thought it was eve 6, but then as the drummer distroyed his drum kit, the announcers said it was Gob (?). then it was supposed to be EC.

and now i forgot the whole 2nd part of the dream, crap. there was a big part with u2, and another part with EC…crap. crap crap.

possible explanation: watched u2 on letterman. going to see ec next friday HOPEFULLY. while they should remember me by appearance, they don’t know my name. i dont think we were ever properly introduced. i’ve had a few orgy moments the past few days.
possible interpretation: classic psychic dream, EC will play razorblades and bandaids next friday.
posted by opal tranquility 8:08 AM//

October 28, 2001

me and bono and someone else were in my bathroom at home. I was filling up the bathtub, i guess to take a bath. i was sitting on the floor next to the tub, and bono was leaning against the counter, facing me. i don’t know what the other person was doing, i just know there was someone else there. then the tub wouldn’t fill up beyond a certain point, and i didn’t know what was going on. i thought maybe i didn’t plug it, but i did, because it wasn’t draining, it just wouldn’t fill up anymore.
possible explanation: totally based on real life 😛
possible interpretation: the bathtub knew what point to stop filling to, because it knew that when me and bono both got into the bathtub that the water would overflow..what a smart bathtub 🙂
posted by opal tranquility 4:20 PM//

October 27, 2001

friday’s dream: i was in a big gigantic toy store. it was a bit like toys r us but i think it was more than just toys.. so maybe like a Target type store, but with a huge toy section. i wanted to buy crayons, so i was looking around the aisles with my mom for crayons. and so we found the crayola aisle and she went off to look at some other stuff while i got a box of crayons. so i grabbed a 48 count box of crayons and went to find my mom. when i found her she said i should look in the box to make sure they were all there. right, good idea. so i opened the box, and there were a bunch of crayons missing, some were broken, and others were already used. so i was like shit, gotta go get another box. i look in the box before i leave the aisle that time, and again, they’re broken/used/missing. but then my mom found another whole aisle of crayons. so i went over there and we were looking in the boxes. turns out that aisle was the reject crayons aisle, where crayons go to die. it had entire boxes of already used crayons, broken ones, etc… and it was collections of crayons that could be used to replace crayons that were bad in other boxes. so i was like no, i want brand new crayons. so i went back to the other aisle and was looking through all the boxes of crayons but they were all crap. then a manager came over and asked me what i was looking for and i told him that all the crayons were messed up. he said there were more boxes down further in the aisle, but they were crappy brand crayons not crayolas, and i only wanted crayolas
today’s dream: i went pumpkin shopping with danielle and my parents. then danielle disappeared. so we were looking at pumpkins, and i picked out one. my mom asked who was doing the carving and i said i was cutting the pumpkin and danielle was in charge of the guts. so i picked out this pumpkin and it was 5 dollars, and my dad was going to buy it for me. it was almost rectangular shaped, really narrow, with rounded edges. so i wondered if it was going to be good to carve, cuz it was tall and i didnt know if we’d be able to get all the guts out. so i just started carving it at the pumpkin place, and it was fine. so i started scooping the guts out with a big spoon, but then the edges of the pumpkin, the pumpkin body, turned out to be made of styrofome, so i was like what the hell. this was 5 dollars and its not even pumpkin, its styrofome. so my dad was going to go back to the person who ran the place to get money back cuz of the styrofome pumpkin.

possible explanations: we were coloring last week with crayons…going pumpkin hunting today. at some point this week i had a dream about martin gore from depeche mode, don’t remember it tho.
possible interpretation: dont feel like thinking about it right now
posted by opal tranquility 1:28 PM//

October 25, 2001

dream #1: something to do with bono. woke up sweating to death. i hate night sweats
dream #2: i guess me, carolyn, adrienne and danielle had done something that allowed us to get inside the arena for u2’s sound check. i guess u2 was playing a show there. so we were inside the arena, and the stage was all set up. we were in the back of the floor wandering around cuz nothing was going on yet. no one was there. i don’t know what happened next, i don’t think we ever saw the sound check. but i wanted to go towards the front, so i walked to the heart and was going to go backstage since no one was around. but then we were in the parking ramp with eric. we wanted to follow u2 to wherever they were going, cuz i guess they were leaving the arena. so i told them all to look for blue towncars with tinted windows cuz those were the cars u2 traveled in. there was no one else around us ever, and no cars, nothing. so then there was a blue towncar sitting there, waiting to leave the ramp. so eric, adrienne and danielle i think all went and got in the car…i guess some u2 members were in the car because me and carolyn couldn’t fit. but then there was a second blue towncar so me and carolyn got in that one. i guess there were u2 members in there too. it was strange tho because we were still by ourselfs, like everyone else was invisible and we knew they were there even tho we couldn’t see anyone. then we were all walking down stairs (me, carolyn, adrienne, danielle) to the outside of the parking ramp, i don’t know what happened to the cars. i think that we were suddenly standing outside the cars, not sitting inside them, and the cars left. so i wanted to follow the cars by foot, and that’s how we ended up on the stairs. i was sorta disappointed and sad that we had missed meeting u2. so i started down the stairs, and started singing “stay (faraway, so close)” and then carolyn, adrienne and danielle all started singing it too. so the 4 of us went down the stairs singing….then i was woken up by the tornado outside.

dream #3: i was at school and carolyn was coming to visit. her dad was driving her all the way here or something. but then i decided to go home, and i told carolyn to have her dad take her to my house instead. but i knew that signals got crossed and carolyn was still going to end up in geneseo and she was gonna be mad when i wasn’t there. but i went home anyway, and danielle lived with me and we shared the same room like when we were in the dorms. there was a yellow/white bat inside our room that kept flying around. and i was afraid it was going to land on me while i slept. then i was driving downtown to some restaurant. i guess i was going to meet bono or something. then danielle and carolyn were supposed to meet me there. so i went to wherever the restaurant was, and went inside. it looked like pearl street bar and grill downtown but it had a different name. then i realized that i was in the wrong restaurant so i went back outside. so then danielle showed up and i wanted her to drive me to my car where i parked it in the lot. the lot was supposed to be a free lot, and that’s why i parked there, cuz i had no money. then it was like a sabres game or something, because there were cars parked all over. so we’re driving through the lot, and i’m pointing out my car but she drives right by it, so i’m like wtf, my car was right there. so she had to go around again so she could drop me off at my car. i didn’t know what i was going to do since i had no money, i just hoped that the sign was wrong that said it was 6$ to park there.

possible explanation: u2 stuff duh…i’ve been dreaming the number 6 alot..
possible interpretation: um…i dunno. why do i even bother LOL
posted by opal tranquility 10:23 AM//

October 24, 2001

again, i dreamed i was playing asshole with bono and edge. this time i knew how to play and they weren’t changing the rules on me. well they didn’t until the end. we were playing, and it was going good, and i had a whole bunch of cards i could get rid of all at once… i had 4 8s to play at once for a social, followed by 4 jacks for a social. then i only had 2 cards left, and apparantly once someone had two cards left, the asshole had to deal the cards out again. i didn’t understand what was going on at this point. edge must have been the asshole that round, because he started dealing the cards to us (there were four of us, i don’t know who the 4th person was) but he was dealing them so that each pile was being formed into a cross…
possible explanation: hah same as last dream about playing asshole with u2
possible interpretation: same as last time…
posted by opal tranquility 6:34 PM//

October 23, 2001

i was playing asshole (the drinking game) with edge, and i think bono. there must have been other people there but i never saw them. since i still don’t know how to play asshole really, i was really confused. they kept changing the rules on me too, so i was getting even more confused. edge had put down 2 sixes, and it was my turn next and i was going to put down my 2 sixes to make a social but when i looked down someone had thrown down a whole bunch of cards. so i was like, wtf i said i was going to put my 6s down. edge was like no you can’t do that. and i was like why. i looked at the pile of cards and someone had put down 2 jacks and an ace, which apparantly meant i couldn’t do the 6s even tho i had SAID i was going to play my 6s for a social. Edge was like no you can’t play those cards. so i was getting really pissed off and grinding my teeth.
possible explanation: lol attempted to play asshole on saturday… i really don’t understand how to play even tho i’ve played before.. continuing u2 obsession..wuts with the tons of edge dreams tho?!?
possible interpretation: playing asshole with u2…..haha how awesome would that be.
posted by opal tranquility 7:39 PM//

October 21, 2001

i wasn’t really dreaming because i wasn’t really asleep. it was more like a hallucination from my descending alcohol buzz…my thoughts were constantly switching from bono to the edge and back to bono, back to the edge…and then my stomach started to hurt, but i thought it was because edge was sitting on me.
possible explanation: had just watched zoo tv video…coming off my buzz, trying to go to sleep… all i could think about was bono and edge
possible interpretation: none
posted by opal tranquility 6:46 PM//

October 19, 2001

*semi apocalyptic*
not sure if the first part is connected to the second part or not
i was someplace, i think on the roof of a big building. it was a fully furnished apartment, but it was on the roof. there was supposed to be a bunch of people there, maybe for a party or something, but the only 2 people there so far were me and dr kirsh my psych professor. so we’re talking, and apparantly he had interviewed u2 for some tv show..mtv or something…and it was before they had to do a concert later that night. so he was telling me about interviewing them, and how they were going to perform on the show. well mtv had planned for them to play 10 songs on this show, but bono was like, no we never do more than a 6 song warm up before a show. so the band refused to do more than 6 of their songs, but they said they’d do something else. turns out that u2 performed 2 songs that dr kirsh had written. so i’m sitting there amazed, while dr kirsh is telling me all of this. i’m like, wow, u must be super excited to have u2 performing 2 of your songs. dr kirsh said that yeah he was really excited about it, that edge learned the songs really quickly, and that they sounded great. so i was in awe of dr kirsh just because he had written some songs that were now being performed by u2. well then other people showed up to wherever we had been, so i couldn’t ask dr kirsh anything else about u2. then at a later part of the night, i went over to where dr kirsh and someone else was talking, and dr kirsh said to me that he had really enjoyed the conversation we had had earlier, and i agreed. it was strange, because it was almost as if i liked him or something.

pretty sure this had nothing to do with previous dream.
i had to go to the store, and it was a really nice, really warm day out. so i took my dad’s miata, and the top was down. well i guess i was going to school as well, and i thought i looked really cool in the convertible. so i went to the store, it was walgreens or some drug store. i was driving there and there were all kinds of airplanes in the sky, because i was near an airport. 3 airplanes appeared to be on a collision course, all of them were supposed to fly to a certain spot, and they were going to have to cross paths. the one airplane was doing a nose dive, another was straight, and another was descending as if to land. well they didnt hit eachother, they managed to escape collision but the one in the nose dive i was still staring at because obviously it was going to crash into the ground. well right before the ground it righted it’s course and started ascending again. so i went in the store to get whatever it was i had to buy, and i came out and there were even more airplanes around, on collision courses with the ground. so i’m walking to my car and a hispanic woman with her kids is getting into the car parked next to mine. then we hear all kinds of explosions, and bombs going off. we can see dirt flying from where bombs were hitting the ground. so we’re both scared and don’t know what to do. then there is a bright flash, like the initial flash of a nuclear weapon. so i’m like, ok i’m getting in my car, and putting the top up, i’ll be ok. the hispanic woman got in her car too. well the nuclear weapon blast wasn’t one, because there was no mushroom cloud following it, but i put the top of the car up anyway figuring it would protect me from any kind of biological weapon that was about to rain down on us.

possible explanation: u2 reference is obvious…dr kirsh??…not sure. why do i keep dreaming about my professors now? all the airplanes and bombs is obvious as well… lingering stress about the state of the world…
possible interpretation: i think this one is pretty much explained by my fears regarding attacks, and airplanes, and anthrax…
posted by opal tranquility 2:11 PM//

October 17, 2001

david bowie was either my neighbor, or lived in my basement. i think he lived in my basement. he sat at a table all day long, and i’d go to him for advice…as if he was some kind of psychic or oracle…or something. he was like, the all knowing david bowie. although i knew he was david bowie, i never quite REALIZED he was who he was. So one day after going to him for advice, i suddenly realized who he was, and I freaked out that i knew david bowie. So i was going to go and post it on my blog, that david bowie was the coolest guy on earth, and all that. so i went to my computer and posted it, and went on with my day.
i had recently been hired at my old high school to teach art. i was really upset that i was given this job because 1. i wasnt a teacher 2. i wasn’t an art major. so i didn’t know how i was going to do it when i had no training in either area. i also didn’t know how they could have possibly given me this job when i had no experience. so i went to the school for my first day, and i was crying through the whole dream cuz i just didn’t understand how it could have happened. so i’m going down a flight of stairs and mr martin is there, who is a real life art teacher at the school. he was really surprised i had been given the job too but looked forward to working with me. then i went someplace else in the school and the principle was there. he saw i was wearing the ring i always wear, that is 3 interconnected loops. he told me i wasnt allowed to wear it because those rings had been banned in the school. so i was like, fine then i won’t wear it. so i’m really upset now, and i’m walking out, but then stop and turn to him and tell him that if i wanted to i could really file a discrimination law suit against him because he banned rings like that – apparantly the rings were often worn by gay people to signify their sexuality…even tho i wasn’t gay, it upset me that they would have banned the rings for that reason. so i went to leave again, but then decided no. so i yelled at him, you know what, you can take this ring and shove it up your ass. and i threw the ring at him and stomped off. apparantly that was the symbol that i had quit the job. so i’m crying and walking down the hallway, and dr lynch, who is one of my professors right now, found me all upset. apparantly he was appointed my mentor, who i’d go to for advice about teaching and stuff. he was really nice to me and he asked me if i had quit, and i said yes. and he said he knew i was going to because i had been so upset. don’t really remember anything else, except i think i talked to dr lynch for a while about me quitting and stuff. and i just remember he was really nice to me.

i was with danielle someplace and we were driving somewhere. we were on some road that was inside a church…and there was snow all over so it was slippery. so i’m driving and we are about to cross a bridge and i hit a patch of ice and lose control of the car. so i’m scared thinking we’re either going to hit the side of the bridge (like where the bridge attaches to the road) or we’re going to get onto the bridge but then go over the side (meanwhile this is still all inside a church). but we slide sideways over the bridge back onto the road, but the car was over on its side the whole time. then we’re back normally inside the car. then we’re walking, and we leave the church and find joe and some other friend of ours. we’re walking through the church parkinglot and one of the nuns comes to the window of her apartment, or whatever it’s called where all the nuns live (not a convent, but like part of the church the nuns live in)…and she was the old principle of St Amelia’s school back home. she was calling to us to come inside so she could bless us, and we’re like um no. and she said she saw what had happened driving on the bridge and god was protecting us or something. but i was like no go away, and we left.

possible explanation: saw mr martin at the high school 2 weeks ago. i see dr lynch 3 times a week…saw david bowie on VH1…had answered a survey question regarding word association with nun, where i replied “feeling uncomfortable in the presence of godliness”…
possible interpretation:…stress about my future, my job…uneasiness about my lack of religion? i doubt that, because i’m very happy with my religious status…not having one…i think it’s weird that i seem to have alot of dreams about my high school that are very stressful, and where i’m crying…my favourite trent reznor dream i was going around my high school crying… i had the scary high school filled with killer munchkins dream…this one…there’ve been others…i’m not sure what that all means tho.
posted by opal tranquility 4:11 PM//

October 12, 2001

bono in drag, like an old woman, at an art gallery opening
posted by opal tranquility 10:29 AM//

October 10, 2001

first non scary – non airplane related – non military related – non nysnc dream in a long time
me and leah went to buy pumpkins. we were supposed to go with the rest of our house but for some reason we didn’t. the pumpkin farm had tons of pumpkins they were all 3$, and they were all perfectly round.

there was a concert in a book or cd store in geneseo. there were all kinds of bands playing, but no one was really there to see the show. econoline crush was playing, and no one knew who they were except me and my friends. sometimes i was the only one there that knew them, and sometimes my friends were there. so econoline was playing, and they were only playing songs off affliction, but they played 3 songs i didn’t know. so i asked them what the songs were, because they weren’t on my copy of affliction. dan said they were on affliction and i must have a different version. so i asked to see the copy of the cd he was holding. it was black and white artwork, but the pages were all photo copied as if it was a bootleg. so then dan took it and put it back on the shelf. so they finished playing, and took their equiptment away, and i went to talk to them. i saw johnny, so i went to talk to him, asked him how things had been going since i last saw them etc. it was like catching up with an old friend. then i went to talk to dan. he gave me a hug and kissed me on the head…he was taller than me, which isn’t true in real life. so i was talking to him, i asked him why they cancelled the other show i was supposed to go to but neither one of us could remember what the date of it was, so he didn’t remember why it was cancelled. i realized i was wearing my pajama shirt, it had this ugly floursecent colored sun on it, and i had it on inside out…so i was embarrased about that. so then i guess i decided to show them around the town. so me, dan, johnny, mark, danielle and adrienne all smooshed into my little car. i didn’t know where to take them, so i was feeling kinda embarassed that the town is so boring. i guess i decided to take them to main street. then we were in a farmer’s market, and it was really crowded. they enjoyed it though, and dan bought a bushel of tomatos. johnny was looking around, and me and mark decided to wait outside since there were so many people around. since i never really talk to mark in real life, in the dream i didn’t know what to talk to him about. so i just asked him how everything was going with him etc. then they were all finished, so we left. i guess i wanted to go back to my room to change, so we went to the dorm. danielle and i lived in a corridor style room like in Blake Hall, but it had 3 beds, and was a big room. i dont know where dan, johnny, and mark went, but they didn’t come to the room. then trevor showed up, peeked his head in the open door. so i was like hey trevor, how the hell did you find us here? because he hadn’t originially come with us. he said he had been following us. so i invited trevor in, and he looked really amazingly gorgeous, he had eyeliner on, and stuff.

possible explanation: listening to EC before i went to bed?….i miss them.
possible interpretation: it’d be rad if this was a psychic dream and EC did come to play here…
posted by opal tranquility 2:18 PM//

October 9, 2001

*apocalyptic dream alert* i was at home and my old neighbors the Carlo’s still lived next door. it was Lindsay’s birthday party, and so all us neighborhood girls were invited. they were young, but i was the age i am now. before the birthday party i had some other picnic type thing to go to with a bunch of other people. it was at some kind of state park type thing. so i went with danielle, and there were lots of old high school peopl there. danielle sometimes was herself, and sometimes she was someone else who i can’t remember. i guess the weather looked bad so we all went to sit under this cliff overhang type thing. erik my old friend from high school was there with his girlfriend. i was confused why he had a girlfriend since he is gay, and wondered if the girl was oblivious to the fact he was gay. we were eating candy or something. the sky was really dark, and it looked like rain or something. i guess the place we were at was haunted because erik said something about ghosts of these people he knew walking around there. then we were looking at the clouds and erik said there were faces in the clouds. so we were looking, and sure enough there were perfect images of faces, and i guess they were the faces of the people who had died. well this one face, the eyes were moving, and looked really scary, so we were like omg that’s so scary. and the face wasnt moving with the clouds like the others, it kept moving back to look at all of us. i didn’t feel like staying there with that scary cloud face so i left to go home, so i could go to the birthday party. so i get home, and the sky is all very strange looking, green and red color…scary. so i’m walking around between my house and the Carlo’s before the party was supposed to start. then there was this loud noise, and my mom told me to get in the garage…or anywhere just as long as i was sheltered. then this wall of water just poured down across all of our houses. it got everything wet and stopped. it wasn’t rain it was just this wall of water. so after that, we were all back outside again. then i guess there was some kind of explosion because there was a huge fire. we couldn’t really see it from our houses, but we could see the smoke. so i was on the Carlo’s front porch with the dad and we looked at the smoke, and there were these clumps of extremely black thick smoke coming towards all of our houses. they were maybe 3 feet by 3 feet. they weren’t smoke though. we called them the tar clouds. we actually didn’t know what the clouds were, we didn’t know if it was safe to be outside when they passed through and all that. the clouds had all kinds of bubbles coming off it (ok, it is really hard to explain what these clouds looked like, because they weren’t clouds, they sort of looked like black shiny bushes, but they weren’t bushes)…it’s not really bubbles. ok. the clouds were black and ominous and opaque. so anyway, we were scared and so i went inside the Carlo’s front door, my mom went inside, my dad went in the car. the other people around came inside too. Mr carlo stayed outside, because he wanted to see what would happen if he stood in the path of the black cloud. So the black cloud passed through him, and his legs got all black. Well apparantly this wasn’t the first time he had gotten tar on his legs before, because when we went back outside i was talking to him about the other times. then Jenny another neighbor said she had gotten tar on her legs before too, but i told her she was wrong, that it wasn’t tar it was something else. So i’m still on their porch, and we can see more of these tar clouds in the distance, but they weren’t too close yet. Then i thought i saw another fire (besides the one from the explosion or whatever) in my other neighbors back yard, so i was yelling fire to try to bring attention to it, but everyone said it wasn’t a fire.
possible explanation: all the old neighbor stuff is because i watched old home movies the other day. erik…dunno. all this stuff about fires, smoke, explosion, poison clouds…i’m sure it’s a stress reaction to the whole WTC – bombing afghanistan shit.
possible interpretation: like i said, WTC/bombing etc…carolyn brought up a point the other day that all these dreams i’m having about non-crashing airplanes, bombing, geneseo being a city, is all related to underlying stress about what happened last month. i think it’s very possible. the things in this dream seemed to be like act’s of god…like, the wall of water, like the whole red sea business….i dunno. it was scary though.
posted by opal tranquility 11:42 AM//

October 6, 2001

now i only remember 1 of my weird dreams i had. oh no wait, i remember both LOL
dream #1… i was at geneseo and i was a boy LOL. i owned an airplane. i full size regular airliner plane, and it was parked in one of the parking lots. we couldn’t move it though because the batteries were dead. so i found the keys to the plane and went over to it to change all the batteries in side. so i got to the plane, and it was huge, and there was no way for me to get up to the door to unlock it and go in. then suddenly either i was big enough to reach, or the plane shrunk, because then i was right at the door unlocking it. so i opened the door and went inside, and someone else came with me to help. we had to unlock all the fire alarms inside, so that we could change the batteries in them. well if you turned off the alarms above the doors, the alarms would go off, so we couldn’t change those. so we fixed the plane and wanted to fly it, so we were trying to think of a place we could take off from. there were alot of straight streets on campus, but none of them would work because the wings of the plane would hit trees and stuff on the sides of the road. then the plane was a big military cargo plane, not an airliner. so we’re still trying to think of someplace we can drive the plane from. but we can’t even move the plane to an airport because we’d still be hitting trees. so then i remember there is an airstrip in the valley, so we’re trying to think of ways we could move the plane down there. then we had the idea that helicopters from the airstrip can come and hook up wires and air lift it to the airstrip so we could fly it.

dream #2…dont remember much of this.. i went rock climbing with a bunch of people. at first it was with the people i live with, then bill turned into this kid andy from high school. the slope of the rocks were pure gravel, really fine gravel, and we kept sliding back down to the bottom. then i realized that we were inside some kind of rock climbing gym, and that if you reach through all the gravel there are hand grips, so we got up the slope that way. Then there were all kinds of rooms/caves at the top, and my bedroom was up there, and some kid was there. i guess i had previously dated him, and he wanted me back, or something. and so we got back together, but i wanted him to change the way he dressed, and he said ok. then i was at school, and i was friends with JC and Justin from Nsync…they were gay, but i was in love with them both. and we were all sitting on my bed wrestling and i was really upset that they were gay and i couldn’t have them.

possible explanation:…i dont get why i keep dreaming about nsync. and airplanes that aren’t crashing…weird. but anyway…bed wrestling was probably from the “pile ons” last night and ppl wrestling in his room.
possible interpretation: nsync are gay?! lol
posted by opal tranquility 1:02 PM//

October 5, 2001

dream #1: i was at my house, and eric was over. we were having some kind of party on my front porch. we were cleaning up the paper plates and things left outside (everyone went inside i guess) and i was on the porch, and my neighbors, who are really old, got home. they had their granddaughter in the car, and she was a freak. i mean, a deformed circus freak, not like…what people call freaks now. she was about 6 years old and she got out of the car and was walking around. her feet were deformed, half her face had facial hair. like a half man half woman kind of circus freak. she walked over to my garbage cans at the end of the driveway, and then she saw me. so she was like “hey you girl over there” and i’m like what. she’s like, come here. so i go over to the end of the driveway, and she asks me if i can tie her shoe for her. so i said sure, and she had on these big workboots that construction workers wear. so i try to tie her boot, and i had to do it twice because the first time i got a knot in it. she was a really nice girl, and there was no reason to be scared of her because she was a freak. so then i asked her if she wanted me to tie her other boot, and she said sure. that foot was more deformed than the first one, almost hoof like. so i tie that boot, and eric comes out of my house. the girl goes, oh that’s gotta be eric that i hear so much about, he’s so handsome. and i look at eric and he’s looking at us from the front porch, and i said yeah that’s eric. and the girl says something about how she heard eric had 5 kids. and i’m like um, no eric doesn’t have any kids. the girl is like, yes he does, and i’m like um no he doesnt, i think i’d know if he had any kids. then the girl ended up being the granddaughter of my other neighbors, who have 3 sons. and so me and eric took the girl back to Mercer’s house, and mrs mercer was like, oh thank you for bringing her back. by then i couldn’t figure out who’s daughter it was, because her son jon is a year younger than me and he wouldn’t have had a 6 year old daughter. and so mrs mercer explained how it’s her granddaughter, something about how jon’s girlfriend said it was someone else’s when it was really jon’s. i still didn’t understand.
dream #2: i had some friend who was a drug addict, and we were in geneseo and i always went with her to this house near wegmans to buy drugs. it was a REALLY cheap place. so i started using drugs with her when we went to the house, because you paid for them and then were supposed to do them there. so we smoked pot and crack alot. then i started going to get drugs by myself, and the first time i went i was really nervous, because the time before, the cops had shown up. we didn’t get in trouble, i don’t know why, but now i was really scared. so i went in the house, and there were tons of people there and there usually wasnt. so i got one of the menus and was looking for what kind of drugs i wanted to get. i only had $5 so i decided i’d get one joint, and 3 crack. that was 5$. so the woman, who was really fat, came over to me and i very nervously told her what i wanted. she said something about if i knew the police thought i was a sweet girl. and i was like yah i know they do. and the woman was like, that’s a good thing because if they show up they won’t arrest you. so then i was really even more paranoid about getting in trouble. so she took my $5 and was giving me change, for some reason, and gave me 25$ back. I guess she was all high herself because she didn’t realize i didn’t need change. but i took the money anyway. so then she kept going on about how she likes to get people in and out of the house in a hurry so the police don’t get suspicious, but this whole time she’s going on an on about it instead of going to get me my drugs. so i was getting irritated and was like HURRY UP! I guess she knew i was going to take the drugs to go, because she finally went and got them, and brought them back to me. she gave me a baggie of white powder, which i guess was the crack, even tho i thought crack came in rock form…i guess she gave me cocaine or something, and then she gave me an ice cream cone, and inside the bottom of the cone was the pot. that was a disguise so that no one would be suspicious of me when i leave. so i took the drugs, and she gave me more change! so i left and went to my car. well i had parked in a spot near the burger king cardboard dumpster and had left my window open. so when i got to my car i had all kinds of carboard sandwich wrappers, and fry boxes in my car. so i was really pissed, i just wanted to go to my room and get high, but no i had to get all this cardboard out of my car. meanwhile i’m trying to keep the ice cream from melting. so i finally got all the cardboard out, and went home. i lived in a department store. i lived in the dressing rooms. apparantly this was a common practice though, because i had lots of friends living in different dressing rooms of the store. so i’m walking around, and i see these 2 undercover police busting one of my friends for drugs in her dressing room. so i’m freaking out now, and i’m trying to eat the rest of the ice cream so i can get the drugs out and hide them, meanwhile i’m wandering through the store to try and hide from the police and to warn my friends that police were there looking for drugs. so i got to my dressing rooms and was looking for someplace to hide my ice cream cone, but couldn’t find one. so then i just stuck my hands in the ice cream to get out my drugs, and i put them in my mouth. then these 2 men came up to me, and they were apparantly my history teachers, and the whole thing was a hoax. they had realized i was a drug addict, and wanted to help by scaring me. the police hadn’t been real, and hadn’t been busting others for drugs.

possible explanation: the circus freak granddaughter that i didnt know how they had was probably from carolyn telling me about the new Friends episode…dunno about the drug stuff.
possible interpretation: dunno. i seem to be having alot of dreams with the number 6 involved…
posted by opal tranquility 11:14 AM//

October 3, 2001

i totally forgot about the other dream i had, until just now.
i was at geneseo, and was leaving to go to class. i was looking out across the valley, and there were all kinds of airplanes flying around. then i saw one of them release a bunch of bombs. i was like, what the hell is going on? the planes are bombing things in the valley. then i realized that there was some kind of military training base in the valley, and the planes were doing target pratice, and parachute practice, because then i saw about 6 guys jump out of a plane. they were falling really slowly though, and they were all staying together, like a conga line. then there were more planes, and when they released their bombs they did weird things, like one plane went into a spin like on Top Gun and then released the bombs.
posted by opal tranquility 4:46 PM//

3 dreams that kinda were interrelated…the first 2 i don’t know which one came first.
i was at my house, but i was still going to school at geneseo. i set my alarm really late, so i was going to be late to class. but i really didn’t care. it was neuropsych, but i had dr schneider and not dr ballard for it, which was weird. so i’m leisurely going around getting ready, took a shower, and looked at the clock, i was 10 minutes late for class already. then dr schneider shows up at my house on her way to class. and i’m thinking, i’m already late, and she’s not there yet, so she’s late too. so i was like, that’s cool, i can’t get in trouble for being late if i’m with the proff. so then she’s like, well i’ll wait for you to finish getting ready, and we’ll go to class. so we leave my house to go to class, which is in the garage of my neighbors house 4 doors down. no one is there tho, because we were late. they must have used the 5 minute rule.

i was supposed to go present at some conference with 3 other people for some neuropsych thing we were working on. there were 3 girls and 1 guy, and the guy was Bono…so i was at my house with 2 friends packing for the trip. and i guess it was common knowledge that me and Bono had a thing going on with us, because my friend Danyell from work was picking out lingerie for me to pack since everyone knew me and Bono would be sharing a room at the hotel. the lingerie were so ugly though. i don’t know where they came from because i don’t own lingerie, but one was a long nightgown and it was purple and it had short sleeves, and a bunch of lace. it was really ugly, so i was like ok no. then she had this other one, which was exactly the same except shorter and blue. i’m like no i don’t want to wear lingerie. i didn’t understand how everyone knew about me and Bono sleeping together or whatever. and it was strange because i was my age, and he was his age, and he was in school with us, and it wasn’t even college, it was high school. so i had to drive to the high school to go to class because we were leaving for the conference right after school, and it was winter, there was lots of snow. so i was slipping and sliding all over the place while i walked. while i was in school my mom was supposed to drop off my luggage at my car for the conference. so after school i went to the car with my ex bestfriend angela, and my mom had left all my luggage out in the slushy snow next to my rear tires. so i was mad about that, and angela kept talking about Bono and i still didn’t know how everyone knew about me and him.

i got home from being away, apparantly at the conference. i decided i was going to go see my boyfriend, who worked at toys r us. apparantly Bono wasn’t my boyfriend. i had on my black zip up sweatshirt, and i was really hot so i went to unzip it, but then i realized i had no other clothes on under it, so i couldn’t. so i was going to go to toys r us which was at the summit mall, but i had to take my dad’s car, the miata. well it’s still all slippery and snowy, so i was trying to be really careful with the car, not to crash it. so i get to toys r us and i’m still really hot, so i keep wanting to unzip the sweatshirt, but can’t cuz i have nothing on. so i go into the store, and even inside the store there is snow and it’s all slippery. so i slide into this chain link fence that was put up inside the store. certain parts of the store were blocked off, because the store wasn’t doing alot of buisness and they wanted to make it smaller. then i went to find my boyfriend, who turned out to be Justin Timberlake from Nsync. so he was there working, and he hadn’t seen me in a while cuz i had been away. so i went over to him and he was happy to see me, and i tried to hug him and give him a kiss but he said he couldn’t because he was at work and wasn’t allowed to. but kept trying to anyway, and he kept telling me no he’d get in trouble. so finally i was like, ok see how it feels now? because apparantly i worked at ames and he’d always come to my store and try to be all affectionate to me when i was at work. i was just doing the same to him. so then i left, and i was so hot, so i figured once i got in the car where no one would really see me i could unzip my sweat shirt. so i found the car, and someone had parked next to it, but so close they almost side swiped the car. there wasnt enough space to even get the key into the lock. so i was like, what the hell am i going to do now, i can’t get in the car. so i pushed on the car that was next to mine,and it started to move, so i kept pushing the car until it was out of the way of the door, so i could leave.

possible explanation: bono is obvious, i’m obsessed…hah..justin? dunno…neuropsych, it’s been on my mind alot…the rest, not sure
possible interpretation: in real life i am cheating on justin timberlake with bono.. yup, uh huh.
posted by opal tranquility 2:17 PM//

October 2, 2001

my parents were visiting and we were leaving my house to walk across campus for something. campus wasn’t college buildings though, it was houses, like a regular neighborhood with streets etc. so we’re walking, and then we hear all these helicopters, so we look up and 10-15 helicopters had just taken off and were flying overhead. we thought it was weird to see so many, and they were all flying so close together. so i told them that a convict probably escaped and that they were looking for him. and my parents didn’t understand what i was talking about, so i was like, yeah cuz the county jail is right there. then the sirens in the jail went off, which meant a prisoner did escape. they were kind of scared about whether we should go back to my house or not, but i told them it was probably ok because most of the people in the jail are there for drug offenses and are harmless. so we kept walking to wherever we were going, and we got to an intersection and there was a car, a big car like a cadillac, with 2 black people in it. then another car pulls up facing them, another big car, and it is my grandparents. so my grandpa is in the car yelling at the black people because he thought they were the escaped prisoners, and my grandpa is waving a gun around at them. i’m there thinking, “omg when did he get a gun”, and “him having a gun is enough to make me fight for gun control”. so me and my parents are standing there watching the scene, and i really thought my grandpa was going to shoot someone, which was bad because me and my parents were basically in the line of fire. but then my grandpa drove off, and we were left standing there with the 2 black guys in the other car. something else happened i don’t remember, but then my grandpa came back from the other direction so that they were behind the black guys in the car. once again he’s yelling at them about going back to jail, and not coming around here anymore, waving the gun. this time the black guy pulls his gun out and is showing it to my grandpa, that he isn’t scared of some old man with a gun. by this time me and my parents decide yeah this isn’t exactly safe, so we leave to go back to my house. now campus turned into a bunch of back alley’s and dark corners, so my parents were scared and paranoid about the real escaped prisoner hiding in one of the dark corners so the helicopters wouldn’t find him. but i was like, no, it’s fine don’t worry about it. so we’re walking through the alleys back to my house, and we pass 2 of my old middle school friends, and both of them are carrying guns. so i was like what the hell, why does everyone have a gun! we got back to my house, and it was like the first time my parents were inside, looking around at the set up and everything. we had a really big kitchen, with a wooden table that had leafs so that we could make it bigger. we had wooden floors, and i had some kind of weird three shelf hanging wall unit, and it was covered in nicknacks and candle sticks. my mom wanted me to pick out ones that she could take home so i would have less to pack. i guess i was moving or something. but by then i was just getting really annoyed with them, so i wanted them to leave.
possible explanation: not too sure. the whole living next to a prison, and escaping convicts with helicopters searching for them is real. it just hasn’t happened since freshman year. some convict escaped, so there was a helicopter out looking for him for a few days. we were told to be careful at night, cuz the convict might be hiding on campus someplace. great place to have a prison eh? next to a college campus where it’s more than easy to blend in. the whole grandparents and black people with guns etc, no clue where that came from.
possible interpretation: i’m sure someone would say all the guns were phallic lol
posted by opal tranquility 10:18 AM//

October 1, 2001

i had a neuropsych test, and was really nervous about it. but then i went to class and discovered that it had been postponed, so i was really excited.
i had a test, and was really nervous about it. i was going to a study group party. it was a party, but we were supposed to be studying, and then we would take the exam. it was at the professors house. and it was my old humanities professors house, but she didn’t look like herself. so i got there, and she gave out the exam right away, and i hadn’t studied.

possible explanation: i had a test in neuropsych today. that’s basically the whole explanation
possible interpretation: test anxiety. i got to class in the morning, and there was a big class cancellation notice on the door… for my professor. then i realized it wasn’t for our class… 🙁
posted by opal tranquility 4:05 PM//

September 29, 2001

first dream in months that i remember the entire thing
me and danielle had tickets to a concert in hamilton ontario. it was for staind and some other band i can’t remember now, and it was at an amusement park near hamilton. so we got directions to go up there and were driving. well the directions didn’t take us to the park, we were driving, and we were supposed to take the 490 but the road we were on ended at another road, at a T shaped intersection, neither of which were 490, so we had no clue where to go. then we were in downtown hamilton, and we didn’t want to get lost so we figured we’d go ask someone how to get to the park, since everyone there must know where it is. so we parked the car, and went to talk to this kid who was working at a vendor thing, like a little hot dog booth. then it was inside a department store, like Kmart. so we go talk to this kid, he was really cute, and he had no shirt on. we asked him if he knew how to get to the amusement park because we had tickets to the concert that night. he said he did, and he’d write them down for us. but we ended up talking to him for a long time, and then his friend showed up to just hang out. i guess the friend would hang out with the kid at work all day long, and apparantly the store didn’t care. the first kid, he said that we could go to his house and wait for him and he could take us to the park, or he could give us directions. we said we just needed directions, and that we’d be fine. so he wrote out instructions on this tiny piece of paper. he gave them to me and i looked at them and they were instructions about how to bypass and beat certain parts of Donkey Kong Country for super nintendo. so i was like um, yeah i need directions to the park. and he was like oh, ok, and wrote me out directions. the directions were the same if we decided to drive from where we were downtown, or if we wanted to take the subway. so we figured we’d take the subway, leave the car down here, so then we wouldn’t have to fight as much after the concert to get out of the parkinglot. so me and danielle said goodbye to the guys and left to get to the subway station. we just had to walk straight ahead past some buildings to get to it. so we got to the subway station and we found the train, and got on. so we’re sitting there waiting for it to leave, but then we realize it’s the wrong train. but we couldn’t get off. so we had to take the train to the next stop and figure out what to do from there. by then we were really tired, and we didn’t even want to see the concert because we dont really like staind, or any of the other bands that were playing. so we decided we didn’t want to go to the concert afterall, but that we’d lie to our parents that we went, since we did spend 30$ on the tickets. so we got off the subway, and decided we’d go back to the store and hang out with those guys cuz they were really cool. we didn’t know where we were however, and so we were walking around the city trying to find where our car was, and where the store was, to talk to the guys again. there was all kinds of water around, like ponds and lakes…we were walking over a bridge and an airplane landed on the water next to us, i guess there was an airport there. but it wasn’t a hydrofoil plane, or whatever they’re called, it was a normal plane. the plane was decorated very strangely, i didn’t recognize the company of the plane. the whole time i have my backpack, and inside my backpack is pound puppy, my pillow, and school books. it was really heavy, so danielle and i were taking turns carrying it. so then we finally find the store again, and go inside to talk to the guys again. they were surprised to see us back, because we were supposed to be going to the concert, but we told them we said screw it, and were just gonna lose the money we spent cuz we never wanted to see the bands anyway. so we’re sitting around in the store hanging out, and this girl comes to talk to the first guy we met. she was really fat and had on a bathing suit. she had just come back from swimming at the public pool or something. i got kinda scared that the girl was the kids girlfriend, because i really liked the guy. but then i figured out it was just a friend of his, because he commented on her boyfriend, who was a midget. so the fat girl left and we were just hanging around there, and the guy was talking about midgets, and said that he was 3 feet tall.

possible explanation: i want to go see u2 in Hamilton ontario. my house might be going to cedar point in october one weekend. danielle and i were driving around yesterday, going to the mall, and had to follow directions that included taking the 490. i saw a really really REALLY short woman yesterday, she wasnt a midget, maybe a dwarf or something. Leah downloaded and printed a bunch of cheater codes, and info about donkey kong country.
possible interpretation: dunno….
posted by opal tranquility 11:18 AM

September 26, 2001

only remember 2 things from a night full of dreams… 1. bono 2. i was smoking a cigar
posted by opal tranquility 4:44 PM

September 25, 2001

i was at the mall and i went to a G&G type store. But it was Merry Go Round (even tho they’re out of business). Dr Shanahan was working there, it was the grand opening or something, and she was fat. So I went in and was talking to her. Then I saw my aunt Carol walk in, she wanted to check out the store since she used to work for the company when it went out of business. So I called her name, and she turned around. So I was talking to her, then her friend Rob showed up. Rob is her good friend who is gay. Rob was all like, omg i haven’t seen you in so long (talking to me) and I was like, yeah it’s been a long time, I’ve grown up. Rob had longer hair, almost shoulder length, black leather jacket, black pants. He looked very very hot. He said something about how he liked my outfit and wanted me to give it to him, so I told him i loved his outfit and wanted his. Then him and my aunt were going around the store picking out clothes for me, but Rob kept picking all these outfits that looked like something Britney Spears would wear, and I was like um hell no.
possible explanation: apparantly my aunt told my mom she was going to call me, never did. dunno where Rob came from, haven’t seen him since I had black hair…since i had my badly died black hair, so that was about 2.5 years ago probably. watched the britney spears making the video on mtv yesterday… yes i know i’m lame.
possible interpretation: not sure
posted by opal tranquility 11:22 AM

September 13, 2001

i had a dream last night about trains. it was on the train track on river road, lots of people were standing around. a train went by slowly, and then from down the street, a train with 2 cars went and got onto the tracks. there was no device to get on the tracks like you need for trains, it just went on, and got the wheels lined up and went. the other train came by a few times, one time going off the tracks.
possible explanation: i dont know but i woke up in the morning turned on cnn and saw that 2 trains had crashed and derailed in utah.
posted by opal tranquility 12:09 PM

September 9, 2001

my mom had died. but no one knew. well me and my dad knew, and she had been burried, but i didn’t tell any of my friends or anything that she was dead. someone was talking about how awesome my mom is and i’m thinking, she’s dead, don’t you know. But no one knew she was dead, but Bono did. He came over to comfort me or something. Maybe someone brought him over to comfort me. So anyway, he started off sitting across from me, but then slowly he ended up next to me, and he had his arm around me and was kissing my head. I don’t think he ever said anything, I don’t think i did either. Then we were getting married. It wasn’t a big wedding or anything, I think just like at a courthouse thing. I’m there and I’m thinking, he’s old enough to be my dad. But I didn’t really care, it’s Bono! hello!
possible explanation: had just watched the MTV awards, U2 performed and accepted an award…and bono is so cute and funny haha.
possibile interpretation: i’m really going to marry bono 😛 haha right
posted by opal tranquility 3:55 PM

 

August 30, 2001
I was at a U2 concert. I was sometimes in the way back, and sometimes up front, and there really weren’t alot of people there. Supposedly I knew it was at Slane in Ireland, but it was in an arena, and Pam Anderson was there with me, among other people I’d gone with. don’t remember much of the concert, but at one point I went up to the front, which was a candy store counter, with the stage behind it, and I was watching the show with Adrienne. No one else was around except for the guy selling candy. Then Adrienne disappeared, and I was there by myself and Bono was doing his thing. Then he threw me a set of keys, this was part of the show, and I was supposed to know what to do with them. There were alot of keys on the ring. So then he’s doing his thing, and then looks at me and I throw the keys back to him, I guess that’s what I was supposed to do. Then I was in the way back again, and Pam Anderson was up onstage. She was part of something that was going on onstage. But I was jealous that she got to do it and not me. Then the whole stage changed, and all the guys in U2 were playing hockey on stage, and I think The Edge was in goal. But then I went up front again, and was watching them play hockey. They weren’t seriously playing, just shooting balls and stuff around the stage at The Edge. Then I became part of the clean up crew so I went onstage and was cleaning up the broken stuff, and the goals and pucks from the stage so U2 could come back out. I guess I thought I was going to be kicked back into the crowd, but I was like HELL NO I’m staying up here on stage, back stage and I’m going to meet U2. I also put one of the balls in my pocket, since it was U2’s hockey ball that they used. The head stage crew guy didn’t care that was back there, but U2 was no where in sight, so I never met them. I purposely had been standing in a place where I knew they’d have to walk by but never did.
possible explanation: was listening to U2 before bed, have been talking about Motley Crue alot, hockey season coming up, i’ve been a total candy junkie lately, i have to carry keys to my building and room around with me all the time…

possibile interpretation: not all that sure, most of the dream can be explained through recent experiences with me, so…
posted by opal tranquility 12:34 PM
August 22, 2001
ok gonna try to maintain this site with blogger entries, because it’ll make me more likely to actually keep it updated.
i didn’t dream much in august, but there are a few that are pretty good. so here goes.

i was at a concert in a mall. the backstreet boys were opening for orgy, and the concert was happening on the floor. the floor was a bit elevated though, there were big steps leading up to the highest part. so we were sitting on the steps watching the backstreet boys. no one was really there. but then nick grabbed me and brought me up on stage. he was in love with me or something. so i’m on stage with them and hes hugging me and stuff. it was weird. then the dream morphed and it was something to do with monkeys. i don’t know what i was doing, but i found a group of monkeys in the jungle. then i was at my house, which was near where the monkeys were. apparantly a lot of people had been searching for the monkeys, and i found them first so all kinds of people were in the area to observe the monkeys. then i was laying in bed, and tommy lee was in bed with me, laying the opposite direction so his feet were near my hed. and then tiffany amber thiessen came in the room, and she was mad i was in bed with tommy, cuz i guess tommy was her boyfriend. but i told her she can’t be mad at me cuz nothing is going on, and i was good enough to let them stay at my house to watch the monkeys.

i dreamed that i was sleeping, but heard orgy’s opticon playing and it woke me up (in the dream). I realized that the sound was coming from my mom watching tv, and that orgy was on some morning show. so i turned my tv on to find it, so i could watch. they were doing a different song then, something unreleased, but i knew what it was, and it wasn’t sonic. so i’m watching, and they look totally different. jay has really long hair, down to his butt, and its in braids. and he’s even taller than he is in real life. paige had long hair too, only shoulder length though, and half of it was pulled up onto the top of his head, like in the 80s. ryan looked the same, and i didn’t notice the others. i only notcied ryan because they did a huge close up of his head.

i was at a depeche mode concert, with eric adrienne and danielle, and we were all up front. martin gore was singing a song, and dave gahan was dancing around on stage, and then left. so martin finished his song and then threw his guitar pick into the audience and it landed right in my hand. so then it was before the encore and we’re waiting, and dave and martin come out and walk in front of the barrier where we were. they were discussing who they should give whatever to and dave was like, yeah your supposed to give it to people like these girls here. and dave shoved into my hand a bunch of guitar picks, and they left. well they were really big, not normal sized, and there were like 12 of them. so i’m holding on to them and wondering what i was going to do with them because i already had one. so i gave them to the people i was with, and i was going to give one to amanda, who wasn’t up front with us. she was in the way back. and we were like, what the hell is wrong with amanda lately, she’s been so weird, and now she wanted to stay in the back. then i was looking at the picks and some of them had big circles of cork on them, like coasters.
posted by opal tranquility 5:30 PM

July 10, 2001 – Dave Navarro was living at my house. Not sure why, he wasn’t a relative or anything. We were going to have visitors, friends of my parents, one night, and they were making Dave give up his bed for them. So since he was giving up his bed, he was going to have to share mine with me. Well I was going out that night with Danielle. So I left, and we went someplace, and I kept telling everyone that when I got home I’d be sleeping with Dave Navarro. Then Danielle and I remembered that we had tickets to an Orgy concert. We totally forgot that it was that night. So then we were rushing around to get ready for the show. But we had to go to McDonalds, because I had to work, or pick something up. So I was half dressed for the concert, in my vinyl pants, no shoes, and my hair wasn’t done. I was eating, and I was taking a long time, so Danielle and her brother showed up to get me (even tho I went to McDs with Danielle). They had her mom’s car, but it was red not black, and I had to drive. Then I realized I had no shoes, so I had to go back to my house. Now it’s 7 pm and doors were at 7 so I realized we were going to be late and we weren’t going to be up front. I also kept saying I wasn’t ready yet, that I needed to do my hair and makeup for the show.

possible explanation: was scanning Dave Navarro pics before bed, was talking alot about him, and today I got my street team stuff FINALLY (complete with snap bracelets, the ultimate promo item). orgy, not sure. orgy is always present in my life, but no active thinking about them lately. and danielle and I would NEVER forget about an orgy show.

Possible interpretation: that i’m going to be sleeping with Dave Navarro sometime soon, haha yeah right.

July 25, 2001 – Me, Adrienne, Danielle and my friend on the net Patrick had gotten a book that told us how to see spirits. I guess we had all read it and wanted to try it out to see if we could find any spirits in my house. So we went in the basement and I guess did a seance to conjure up spirits. The book said that the spirits would appear as shadows dancing around the top of the walls. So we’re in the basement in a circle holding hands, doing this seance thing, looking for spirits but we didn’t see any. There were no shadows appearing around the room, so we were disappointed. So we figured there were no spirits in my basement, or we were unable to conjure them up. They wanted to try it again but in my bedroom. I was a little iffy about it because if we did it, I didn’t want to be stuck with spirits haunting my room. But we did it anyway. We were sitting in my room and we did the seance, and were looking for the signs of spirits that it said in the book. Well one must have been there, because suddenly something invisible started pulling my hair. The three of them got scared and were staring at me, and I was scared to death, because some invisible force had my hair in its grasp and it was pulling it and pulling my head to the side. Well then I guess it was decided that I was possessed by an evil spirit, or the spirit that was pulling my hair went in me or something. Either way we knew that what was happening was a sign of evil spirits from the book. So then they were super frightened of me, and I was totally evil cuz of the spirit in me. Well I could jump really high, and I was jumping up and down in my room, but kind of slowly like the picture of astronauts jumping on the moon. I’d jump up to the ceiling and then the floor. Well Adrienne started asking me/evil spirit questions, and trying to figure out if I was really evil or not. Apparently I was, because I had done something to a bird, hit it with the car or something, and Adrienne was like, we’ll that explains the bird thing. Then there were more things I had done that they decided were explained by the fact that I was evil.

Possible explanation: I have no clue. I did almost hit a bird with the car on Sunday.

Possible interpretation: dunno. but at work today I got an order that came to $6.66…it was the 3rd one this week (not all my orders, 2 were Pam’s orders)

July 29, 2001 – I was at a U2 concert and it was in like, a big gym. There was the floor, and then bleacher seats. Me and my friends had tickets, and we were in the bleachers. There were 2 stages, one at each end of the gym floor. So we were sitting there, then I was like, dude I’m gonna go on the floor. So I left them and went onto the floor which looked really packed, but I got up to the front and there was lots of room at the barrier. So I was like, ok then I’m standing at the barrier for U2. So they played a few songs, and then took an intermission. So I left barrier, and went back to my friends and told them I had been up front. I was going to go get something to eat and hoped that my spot was still there after I got back. So I went back up front and got my space, but U2 came out on the other stage to do the rest of the show. So I was like, wtf, i’m in the back now. But the entire time I was walking around I knew that they were going to play on the other stage. So I started walking to the other stage, and it looked even more packed then it did before but when I got up there, there was 10 feet of room between the barrier and where everyone was standing. So I’m like ok then, screw you guys i’m standing at the barrier. So I went up there and stood in front of Bono. Then there was this white trash mullet guy with his wife/girlfriend there and they started talking to Bono. Bono, between singing, was talking to them. Then Bono was like, does anyone have a camera? And I was like, yeah I do, cuz I had a disposable one in my purse. So Bono took my camera and took a picture of white trash guy and the girl.

possible explanation: I had “Gone” by U2 in my head all night.

possible interpretation: i love bono

July something, 2001 – I was at a concert and I guess it was supposed to be Depeche Mode. Well they couldn’t go on or something, so my manager Mark from work was going to fill in for them, like he was an understudy. So a bunch of us from work were there in the bleachers, it was in a gym again, and Mark was doing a good job. He sounded good, and we were happy about that. But he couldn’t dance at all. He was trying to dance and he just looked stupid trying to white boy ghetto dance. So we were sorta laffing at him about that. Then he started “You Don’t Know What It’s Like” by Econoline Crush and everyone knew that song, so people started crowd surfing. But we were on bleachers so you couldn’t really crowd surf to that. But this one girl was being hoisted up by her waist and passed to the person behind them, then picked up again and passed back.

possible explanation: had been downloading Depeche Mode in ottawa…dunno about Mark.

possible interpretation: dunno

July 30, 2001 – me and my friend Adrienne were seat fillers at the Grammy’s. We were sitting in our limo after the show, and we were talking about how alot of people share limos, so we decided we were going to try to get someone to share our limo with us. So we had the door open and were looking for people to ask, and we saw Seal. So we’re like Hey Seal why don’t you come share our limo and he was like ok. He was holding the grammy he had one a few years ago (dunno why he was carrying it around) for “kiss from a rose”. I remember that when he won it he beat out Michael Jackson’s “You Are Not Alone”. So i was like, hey u beat MJ for that grammy. He was like yeah but it was a mistake, because see it says YANA on it, not Kiss from a Rose. I was like, hm thats weird. So anyway, we decide to go visit Snad, who had bought Neverland. So we get there (there was no traveling involved, we just appeared there) and we were walking through a forest to get to the house, like in Blair Witch Project. We were lost, and then Adrienne tripped and fell. She hit her shin on a branch, and was paralyzed. She
couldnt move her legs so she couldnt walk. So Seal was going to stay with her, and I was going to get to the house to call 911. So I get to the house and Snad answers the door, and i’m like my friend fell and is paralized so u need to call 911, and shes like I know she told me I already called. So apparantly Adrienne wasn’t paralized cuz she had
already been there to call 911. So I go inside, and Snad has a sister who looks just like her. And then her mom comes in the room and looks just like Snad too. They were remodling the house, and it was all torn apart. It looked like it had just been built. I was like, why is Snad remolding MJ’s house, I figured she’d leave it EXACTLY the way it was. So Snad took me around the house and we went in the kitchen. It was really really tiny, and everything was stainless steel and shiny. I was like, I can’t believe MJ had this small of a kitchen. And then I remembered that
it was Paul McCartney’s house, and I was like, weird that Paul had such a small kitchen too. Because it was like, closet sized. So then somehow I was holding Seal’s grammy that said YANA and i was like, dude Snad’s gonna want this, cuz it’s really MJ’s grammy even tho Seal won it accidentally. But Snad never saw it, or I hid it or something. But then it like shrank, and was really tiny, and was just like a souvenier from the grammys. So then the maintenence man from my McDs was there and was helping to remodel the house, so I asked him if I could see MJ’s bowling alley in his basement. So he took me in the basement, and it was really small too, and it was just 1 lane, but it had all kinds of crap all over it, because it was being used as storage for Snad’s family until the redid the rest of the house.

possible explanation: um…no idea where Seal came from.

possible interpretation: dunno

June 10, 2001 – My family was good friends with Johnny Knoxville’s (from Jackass) family. We lived on the same street as they did and Johnny came to visit from California for a day. He was my age, and we had been good friends as kids. So he came over to my house to see me while he was home. When I saw it was him I freaked out because it had been so long since I had seen him. So we were all hugging and stuff, and we started talking about Jackass. He was leaving the next day because he had to go back to Cali to film more episodes. I joked with him about how he doesn’t get hurt anymore because now all his friends do the stunts. He laughed at that. He kept hugging me and telling me that he missed me so much while he was away. So then he decided he didn’t want to go back to Cali because he didn’t want to be away from me. So then I guess we were a couple, and we were in high school. All the kids at school made fun of him because he was the “new kid” and they didn’t realize he was from Jackass. After school we were at my house, and I must have done something to piss him off because he was really mad at me. He wouldn’t talk to me, and was trying to get away from me, but I kept grabbing onto him and hugging him because I was trying to make him forgive me for whatever I did. Someone was there with us, and was telling me that he wouldn’t forgive me and to just give up but I didn’t believe them and I kept trying to get him to talk to me and forgive me. So then I guess we did break up, but since our parents were such good friends we saw each other all the time. I was miserable and depressed because we had broken up and he wouldn’t speak to me. Our parents were having a big party for a bunch of people, and we had to go to it. So I was there and I was miserable because Johnny was there and he wouldn’t talk to me. Our parents kept trying to sit us together so we’d talk and get back together, but Johnny wouldn’t talk to me and I just sat there miserable. So then after dinner, I was just standing around and Johnny came over to me and started talking to me. He told me I looked nice (I had on an ugly yellow dress). I was so happy because he was talking to me again, and so then we were back together. So then we went to school and after school we went to this store because he had to buy a suit. It was like 1970 or something because all the suits were really ugly polyester tweed couch material suits. So he picked out this suit, it was brown couch material, but then it was turquoise. I tried the pants on and they were like 2 feet longer than my legs. I could pull them up to my armpits and they were still super long. So I told Johnny he couldn’t get this suit because it was way too long.

possible explanation: well the fight and not forgiving me is a lot like what is happening on GH with Sonny and Carly. I saw Johnny Knoxville on the MTV awards looking hot as usual.

possible interpretation: there was some kind of thing about snakes in the dream too….that symbolizes temptation and evil according to my dream book….adam and eve, snake, etc…it also means health and well being…and a phallic symbol that appears often when a women conceives a child… well that certainly is not happening to me so….it means i want to have johnny knoxvilles love child 🙂

Dunno the dates

I was penpals with Bono from U2. We had been writing letters back and forth to each other. He said he was going to write me once a month while on tour. He sent me this one letter and he was telling me about this dream he had where he was looking for something and he couldn’t find it. I told him I had dreams like that where I couldn’t find where I was looking for. I was typing the letter and I realized that his dream is like the U2 song “I still havent found what I’m looking for” and I laughed.

I was someplace, and for some reason I had a gun in my pocket. I didn’t know I had the gun until Snoop Doggy Dogg and some other black rapper came up to me and asked me for my gun. At first I was like wtf no you can’t have my gun. Then I realized that Snoop was collecting guns for a public service thing to get illegal guns off the streets. My gun was fake, it was just a toy, but he wanted it anyway so I gave it to him and he broke it in half.

Helena from GH was sabotaging things at McDonalds. I can’t remember now what she was doing.

I was in a play ground place, with the plastic tube tunnels. They were like the tube waterslides but without water. So I was going in one because I think I was looking for something. Danielle was there and I told her I was going to get stuck, but she made me go in anyway. So then I was sliding down the tube, and I came out the other end, and I was in munchkin land. There were munchkins all over, and I guess they were trying to kill me. Then Danielle showed up. But I told the munchkin that there was no way they could kill me because they were only 2 feet tall and I was bigger than them. I guess that was very politically incorrect, so I was part of this big controversy. Then Danielle and I were transported to Howard Sterns show because he was going to plead our case to the public, but of course since it was Stern we had no shirts on. Then I think I was the only one there at the studio, and I was waiting for Howard to start talking about me and the munchkins but he never did.

June 17, 2001

My old friend Dan was being brainwashed by Helena from GH like Lucky is on the show. Except instead of the Ice Princess being the trigger, it was baby strollers. Every time he saw a baby stroller he went into a trance and did bad things. Then she was going to try to brainwash Gia, and she started doing it right in front of Nikolas. She was freaking out, and Nikolas wasn’t doing anything about it even tho he was really upset. Finally he got her away from Helena, but everyone was scared they were going to be the next to be brain washed. Then there were baby strollers all around and everyone was scared that they were brainwashed and didn’t know it.

there was something about New Kids On The Block too

possible explanation: sorta following the storyline from GH. Watched NKOTB E true hollywood story last night.

Possible interpretation: think its definitely just a GH reference

June 24, 2001

Totally disturbing dream. It was very movie like. I was at school, it looked more like a high school than college. Bono was one of the professors. Danielle and I were in the dining hall getting food, it must have been the first day or something because we didn’t quite know what line to go in, etc. There were lots of people there looking around for what kind of food there was. Then Danielle was like, this place is retarded, you can only get like 1 food item in each line, so if you want a whole meal you have to go in all these different lines. I cut in line in front of a bunch of people to get in line with Danielle for some kind of noodles. Then cut to next scene. I was (or it was more like a camera) was looking at the building, and there was this giant tree outside, right up against the building, almost like ivy, but it definitely was a tree. At one point the tree had been some big monster. Well it came alive again and it had a face like the scary old tree character that used to be in McDonald’s play lands that talked, or those talking trees in Wizard of Oz. It had a face, and it started moving the branches. They were like big scary arms. Well the arms/branches moved in front of one of the windows it was next to (it was inbetween 2 sets of windows). Some kids saw it move and they got scared. Then it went back to playing dead. Cut to some other scene I don’t remember. Cut back to tree. The tree then moved its other arm/branches in front of the other window. Now lots of people were realizing that the monster tree was alive again. It was only moving a little bit and then back to its original position because it needed to gain strength. Then it had gotten some strength back, and it smacked its right arm/branch into the classroom window and shattered it all over the students inside. Now people were way scared of the tree again. So the people near the window on the other side of the classroom decided to push the glass out of the window so that the tree couldn’t smash that one too, but when they were pushing on it a bunch of kids fell out of the window with the glass and died. Cut to a city street. There was a woman walking across the street. She was lost, or some how out of place in the scene. She was black, and she was in a black neighborhood. Well she crossed the street and there were 2 younger black kids/men standing there. They sorta frightened her, and so she crossed back across the street again. She was looking for directions or something, and she felt threatened by the 2 kids so she didn’t want to ask them. Cut to the tree again causing mayhem. Cut back to the woman, shes crossing the street again, and there is an old man crossing. She holds out her hand to shake hands with him, so she could ask him directions, but he pulls out a gun and shoots her. So she staggers in the street, and she has 2 bullet holes in her shirt.

By now in the dream I’m kinda scared, it’s nightmare-ish, very disturbing, so I think “insert Trevor”. So I try to make Trevor Hurst get into the dream somehow to make it not scary anymore. But it doesn’t work and it cuts back to the woman in the street shot. No one is helping her, and she is bleeding. I keep thinking “insert Trevor” but it doesn’t work. Eventually my alarm went off.

possible explanation: none that i can think of. Inserting Trevor is a result of seeing Econoline Crush sunday afternoon. I guess that would have made the dream more happy, unless he went on some killing rampage or something.

possible interpretation: let’s consult the book…tree: familial lines, free will and ability to choose, life, knowledge and wisdom, tree of self, personal branching out…. ok nothing seems to make sense regarding a killer tree. window: do windows in dream appear open, closed, shuttered…the opening indicates how open-minded you are as an individual… so does that mean i’m completely open minded? have my beliefs whatever been shattered? i dunno about that. ok gun is not in this book. that seems to me like it would be a pretty significant symbol…oh wait, its under weapon :P…guns are violent but impersonal…reveal a source of anger or anxiety that you would prefer to keep at arms length… omg this sorta makes sense. at work this black woman who is a lesbian apparantly thinks i’m attractive. since then i’ve been kinda bitchy to her. i dont want her dead or anything, but the whole window/open mindedness stuff and the black woman getting shot…kinda makes sense. however even if i was going to experiment with bisexuality/homosexuality it wouldn’t be with her LOL. so that part doesn’t make sense. the trevor part, well… he’s hot. lol. yeah i’d sleep with him (ok so not really, cuz that would never happen for many reasons haha) he’d make me happy…self explanatory. wow i think this is the most analyzation ever… is that a word?

June 26, 2001

Well I lived somewhere on the coast, near the ocean. I was going to school there, and I was friends with Bono from U2 but he was same age as me, and in college too. Apparantly we had some kind of relationship. We weren’t dating, but I guess we always wanted each other when we were drunk. And I guess we had slept together before. Anyway, we were at the beach, it was either dusk, or really cloudy, because it was kind of dark out. We were with a few friends. I don’t know if they were going to leave, or what, but I wanted them to stay. We all had exams to study for the next day, but I didn’t want to leave. So we went on this row boat, which was tied to the land, so we weren’t going anywhere, just floating on the water. We were talking about how we should go because we had to study, but didn’t feel like leaving. So we stayed on the boat, drinking I guess, because then I guess I wanted to leave with Bono someplace. Our friends wouldn’t let us go, because I guess they knew what always happened when we were drunk together, and they thought we were going to ruin our friendship and they didn’t want us to go. So we stayed on the boat, then this huge ocean liner came speeding up and was going to hit us. Since we were tied to the land, we couldn’t move out of the way so we were all knocked out of the boat.

possible explanation: i dunno

possible interpretation: stagnant or anchored boat: worried that life isnt moving in the way you feel it should be. taking a journey by boat may be literal or figurative death…well it wasnt a journey cuz we werent moving anywhere.

June 28, 2001 – my birthday

I was dating Trent Reznor. he lived in my town (hah right) and i was still in high school. he was significantly older than me, maybe 10 years, in the dream (hes 15 years older in real life). Apparantly my parents didn’t care that i spent my nights at his house, which was a few streets away on Remington. So at night I’d go over to his place and spend the night there. He was always really nice to me and stuff. Then for some reason we decided we wanted to be cocaine addicts. So we caleld up some guy who was a dealer to come bring us some cocaine. Well the guy showed up and we were in the street and i had cup full of liquid cocaine, and I asked the guy if he wanted to try some. Then Trent was like, what the hell are you doing, we’re in the middle of the street. So I was like oops, and we all went inside. So the guy gave us the cocaine and left. So then me and Trent were coke addicts, and whenever he got high he was a real big asshole to me. I didn’t want us to be coke addicts anymore because I didn’t like when Trent was a jerk.

possible explanation: just a lovely birthday dream about dating trent 🙂

possible interpretation: same as above 🙂

sorry about the lack of updates…. i’m just lazy. so here are the few dreams i remember

I was out with a bunch of friends and we were in Niagara Falls. We went into the parking ramp, because we wanted to find these machines that were in there. They looked like the luggage xray machines that are at airports, but they were wood choppers. The part where your luggage goes through instead had blades in it, that whatever you put through there got shredded. Well we wanted to find the machines and go through them ourselves. So there were 3 of us and we found 4 of the machines. Each one was a bit different, one had a slide type thing on the other side of the shredder part…Well my one friend went through the machine and got all chopped up. The next friend was going to go but then i decided i didnt want her to go, and i was trying to stop her. I guess i didn’t want her to die. This one, the top part covering the blades you could take off, or maybe it wasn’t there, it was just the blades. But i kept trying to get her not to do it. Then this kid showed up who was completely insane. He was telling us not to go through the shredders either, but then he kept jumping through them and not getting hurt by the blades.

a bunch of people were visiting me and they wanted to know where they could get pizza hut, so i told them it was over on this one street with the mcdonalds, and taco bell, and that there was a dunkin donuts. Then someone asked about other donuts, so I told them that krispy kreme was down this other street, and we had dickies donuts on another street.

sorry may was so shitty… i really did have a hard time remembering my dreams for most of the month, the ones i remembered i was too lazy to actually type out, oh well.

May 29, 2001 – I was at work and my mom came to pick me up. For some reason I was going to drive home. My store was on a beach, and it had a really big parking lot. My mom had turned on the dehumidifier in the car, and that made the car not run right. So I’m trying to make the car go, and it won’t. Then it started to go in reverse so I could get out of the space, but then I couldn’t get it out of reverse, and I couldn’t get it to stop. So we were going backwards through the parking lot and I was about to hit my manager’s truck. Somehow I missed it, but we kept going backwards and trying to avoid cars, and i realized I was steering the car around the cars backwards and that’s why we weren’t hitting them. Then we were going forwards but still couldn’t stop. Then we were approaching the cliff, and we were going to go over it. So we drive over the cliff and are falling to the water below. I was thinking this has to be a dream because we don’t live near the ocean. So I’m waiting for the car to hit the water and die, still thinking i should wake up at any second. We hit the water and I woke up.

possible explanation: i dunno i was just taking a nap, I was barely asleep.

possible interpretation: my death instinct is active…or something

April 7, 2001 – My dad joined a cult in Canada. We didn’t know it was a cult at first. He took me and my mom to a meeting of this group, and it seemed like a self help kind of group. A lot of the people in the group had obsessive compulsive disorders. One lady would compulsively walk up and down the stairs without stopping, but since she had joined the group, she didn’t do that anymore. Another lady had some other weird OCD thing. So we were at the meeting, and it seemed normal. But then my dad showed us the head stone the leader carved for him for when he dies. It was a part of some big statue, that when you put together all the headstones of all the group members it made up some big statue thing. That’s when I decided that was really weird. I said something like, “they carved you a headstone? I thought you were going to be buried with us.” blah blah, stuff like that. I decided it was a cult. I was trying to remember the warning signs that someone is in a cult, but the only one I could remember was “does participation in the group interfere with your regular life” (I don’t really know warning signs about cults). Since my dad still was home with us, and didn’t spend all his time with the group, I wasn’t sure if it was a cult or not. Eventually I decided that it was indeed a cult. The cult people wanted us to move there, and were building us a house. I was really pissed off because I didn’t want to go move and be with these cult people. So I was really mad, and I was telling people off and causing trouble with the cult people. They started getting mad at me, and when they got mad, they went back to their obsessive compulsive stuff. Then I was trying to find the cult leader so I could tell him off, and try to get them to stop making my dad move us up there. Someone told me that it was no use, because the cult leader couldn’t understand anyone, he was deaf or something. I found him, he was this little old bald Buddhist looking man. Kinda wrinkly, really old. So I started yelling at him, and then I spit on him. Then I went in the basement of the house we were in with the cult members to go online and try to talk to someone. The one lady kept walking up and down the stairs. So I went online but it wouldn’t work. Then Amanda and some girl show up because they were worried about me because they hadn’t talked to me in a long time. I told them about how I was being forced to move because of the cult. Then I guess I accepted that we were going to move, but I didn’t want the cult people to build our house, so I was trying to get them to just pick up our house we have now and move it up to Canada.

Then in a somewhat unrelated dream, I was going to my neighbors wedding shower, and it was supposed to be at her house so I drove there, but it wasn’t really her house. Meanwhile I was still upset about having to move to Canada cuz of the cult. So I walk in, and it’s this elevator or something. There were a few of us there, and I asked if it was an elevator, because I could feel it moving, and I could hear it running. This guy said it wasn’t, but I could tell we were spinning. So we get off whatever that was, and into the building, and its these winding halls, and the floor moves. Some people can stay standing throughout this trip on the moving, winding floor, and stuff, and others get too dizzy to stay standing and fall. Well I was one that got dizzy and fell. I kept trying to get up but I was just too dizzy and unbalanced. Well my mom was pissed that we were being forced to go this way because I couldn’t even stay standing. I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t stay standing because I had been there before when I was little and had been fine. So we get to the end of that part, and it’s like we’re in a big Space Needle type building near the falls (like the Skylon tower I guess). You could look out and see Niagara Falls. The top thing kept spinning, and I was still dizzy from the trip up, so I had to grab onto the railing to look out. You could also look out the floor and see below like the CN tower. Then we were escorted out, it was just a ride or something. We had to walk back down instead of the moving dizzy walkway. I wanted to go to the gift shop but no one would let me.

possible explanation: none. no clue.

Possible interpretation: no clue. surprise. I’m just glad I was able to remember a large chunk of dreams again.

April 9, 2001 – I was friend/significant other to Johnny Knoxville from Jackass. He came over my house looking for supplies for their next escapade. He was going to run over Genesee Hall with a bulldozer. He also needed steroids. So we were looking through my kitchen cabinets for supplies, and I told him that we probably didn’t have any steroids. But we went upstairs to look in the medicine cabinet anyway. We didn’t have any, so we went back down stairs. Then my parents and I were going on vacation, so I had to meet them in the Tops parking lot, so I did. Then we started walking down the street, all holding hands. I was wondering where we were walking to, so I asked, and they said, we’re not walking to where we’re going on vacation, we’re just exercising right now. So I was mad they made me leave Johnny, so I went back home until they were ready to leave for vacation. So then Johnny said he needed planks of wood, so we were looking in the garage. I had 2 guitars, so he picked one up and started playing it. Then my parents came home and he was still playing guitar, but they didn’t seem to care he was there. I guess they knew him, even though I didn’t think they did.

Somewhat unrelated dream, I was outside my house with some people, and suddenly this big flying thing came over us. I thought it was a UFO but when I looked at it more, it was a carnival ride. At first it was that paratrooper ride, where you sit in these little parachute looking fiberglass bucket things, and they are on a circle and you just go up and down on a slanty kind of Ferris wheel. Then it landed on a radio broadcast antenna in my neighbors back yard, and turned into the swings ride. There were people on the ride still, so since they were stuck on the antenna they couldn’t get off the ride. Then it started moving, like the ride had been turned on. So we’re watching these people on the ride, and wondering where the hell it came from. I guess it had come from some Jackass stunt gone wrong. It had flown off the base, and landed on the antenna in the neighbors back yard. So then police and fire trucks came to get the people off the ride, but since the ride was here, the carnival people decided to bring the rest of the carnival there too. So there were now booths setup and little rides in my neighbors back yard.

Possible explanation: watched Jackass last night. Dunno about the rest of it though.

Possible interpretation: Freud would say something about the phallic nature of the antenna, whatever.

April 11, 2001 – Sabres beat the Flyers in the first game of their play off series. Sabres scored 6 powerplay goals, including one from Rhett Warrener…

Something about an amusement park. I went to one with some people from high school, it was raining. The one girl was worried we were going to get injured on rides in the rain. Then I was a black slave, and I wasn’t allowed to watch the Sabres games because my master wouldn’t let me.

Possible explanation: First Sabres/Flyers game tonight. Finished Fredrick Douglas’s autobio last week for humanities class

possible interpretation: I’m psychic and Sabres will win tonight. Yeah, and get 6 power play goals.. right, like that’ll happen.

April 13, 2001 – Fred Durst was my friend. I liked him, or I wanted him to like me or something. We were in my room getting ready to go to a party at a house 2 streets over from mine. I was trying really hard to look nice for him. I leaned over the chair he was sitting in to show him something, and he was really rude to me. He told me I really didn’t look good. So I was pissed and offended but didn’t say anything, I just changed and tried to look better.

I was in Toronto because Carolyn wanted me to go to school with her. So I signed up for the same classes as her, even though I’m not an english major. So I went to English class and she wouldn’t sit by me. I was like, what the hell, you make me go to class with you and don’t even sit by me. So since I hate English classes, I sat there bored out of my mind and sorta causing trouble. Then there were these ticket dispensers, like at arcades, that the teacher would dispense tickets through to students who were being good or paying attention. Well of course, he wasn’t giving me any. I was mad, and kept trying to see if the tickets were mine, because they had names on them, but none of them were for me. Then we were in a food court getting lunch, and Carolyn went off and left me there again. She left her purse on the edge of this table, and this weird transvestite was standing against this column looking at the table. I could tell he/she was going to steal Carolyn’s purse. The transvestite started walking towards the table, and I grabbed the purse, and he/she walked away pretending that he/she wasn’t trying to steal the purse. Then I had to go to the bathroom so I had to go upstairs in the food court, into Joanne Fabrics to use the bathroom. None of the stalls had doors on them, but I went anyway. Then some relative of mine, someone I had only met once or twice when I was a little kid was there, and recognized me and was going on about how good I looked now blah blah blah.

Possible explanation: no idea really.

Possible interpretation: none 🙂

April 18, 2001 – My ex boyfriend had broken up with his girlfriend, and we had gotten back together. We lived in some town in the south I think, because it was hot. And it was by a river. So we had gone someplace else out of town, and we got back in town and our friend Bobby from Orgy had been arrested. We saw the arrest sheet(?) that had been made up for him, and the main offense he was arrested for was, I forget what it actually said, but it was like, for talking back to someone. But then he resisted arrest, and then was violent to the police officers, and then there was some driving law he broke, and all these other laws, but he was only arrested because he talked back to someone. So we were upset and trying to think of how to get him out of jail. Then we had to go somewhere in a school bus. So we got on the bus, and it was really full, and it was all little kids. So we took one of the last empty seats, and these two little girls in front of us turned around to talk to us. Then there was some part where people were talking about how he pronounced his name. And they said that he pronounced it a certain way, not the way I did, which meant all this time I’d been saying it wrong. But I was like, no I’m not wrong, I asked him how he said his name the first time we met. But apparantly he did say his name the other way, so I felt like a retard for saying his name wrong all this time.

possible explanation: not sure. I just read The Color Purple, and Sophia got arrested for sassing the Mayors Wife…sorta similar I guess. Then they tried to think of a way to get her out. Nothing about busses though.

possible interpretation: i dunno. haha

April 21, 2001 – Tornado dream. I was walking onto campus along the walkway through the parking lot. On the right side of the walkway instead of cars parked there like usual it was a wall. There were alot of people out walking. The sky got really dark like it was going to storm, then we saw lightning. The sky got really light after that, and I was like um.. ok. Then I realized that the sky got light because all the darkness was sucked into a tornado that was heading our way. Then I questioned whether I was dreaming or not. I decided at first I wasn’t dreaming, I tried to hit myself and see if it hurt, and it did, so I concluded I was awake. Then the tornado was coming closer to us, and it started acting weird, and disintegrating, so I decided I was asleep and it was just a dream.

possible explanation: stress?…that’s what alot of things say.

possible interpretation: i’m too stressed. However I’m not really. whatever.

April 23, 2001 – I’ve had requests for a Sabres winning the Stanley Cup dream…since I dreamed before about winning the series, which happened. Sorry not this time, I’ll keep trying. But sorta related Sabres dream.

TKE frat had a party and a bunch of people were murdered at it. I think I was there but I’m not sure. The next day the news papers had the story about it, and there was a picture of a dead girl in the bathtub. The picture turned into a TV though and was showing scenes from the party. Maynard from Tool/APC was there. 2 other celebrities I can’t remember now were there too. Then JP Dumont from the Sabres was there, and he was in the shower. He had tattoos. None of the famous people were killed, just regular college kids.

Then I was in my garage and I was looking through boxes of old toys and stuff. I got to a box filled with barbie toys, one of them was the barbie corvette. The corvette had buttons to make the horn beep, or the gears change etc. Then I found an old box full of Garbage Pail Kids cards.

Then I was in a house and I think I was Laura Spencer from General Hospital. Stephan was there, and I was moving into the house with Nikolas. I had a big television entertainment center that I wanted to put in the house but there was no room for it so I wanted to move furniture around. Stephan suggested I could move the couch to a different spot so when I sat there I could look out the window and see if Helena was coming.

possible explanations: well i guess JP Dumont because of the whole people begging me to have psychic dreams about Stanley Cup stuff. haha maybe JP does have tattoos, I doubt I’ll ever know. I recently did find a box of Garbage Pail Kids cards in my bedroom (And NKOTB cards, 2 full sets haha).

possible interpretations: i don’t know why I even bother to have this section since I never know. Maybe the toys is like, a nostalgia thing.. I want to be a kid again…dunno.

April 29, 2001 – Some kind of wedding. My aunt was in a white dress, and there was something about cake. Then she had to get in a carriage to take her wherever, and it was made of wrought iron and kind of dirty, so she was worried her dress would get dirty. Then I was with my ex boyfriend (again) and some guy who liked me but I was just not interested. We were walking someplace, and we had to walk through this path in the woods. We weren’t in a forrest or anything, just some trees and a worn path. At the end of the path we had to squeeze through a broken part of a fence. On the other side of the fence was Tops Market. So we walked through the parking lot to Tops, and my cell phone rang. It was snowing. I answered my phone and it was my dad’s friend Don. He wanted to know of Zander (from General Hospital) needed any more Big Macs. I guess he could go free if he had a certain number of Big Macs. I told him I had no idea that my store wasn’t doing anything with Big Macs. Don kept not responding so I didn’t know if he was still on the line or not. Then three kids from high school showed up and wanted to talk to me because they hadn’t seen me in a long time, it was “free Willy”, and 2 of his friends. I kept ignoring them because on the phone. I was waiting for Don to say something and he wouldn’t so I hung up, and my cell phone said the call cost me 9 dollars, so I was pissed. So I ignored the high school boys again, and went into the store with my ex and now his girlfriend was there. Even though his girlfriend was there was all hugging me, and walking around the store holding hands. It was like they had broken up just then, or she just didn’t care. She was blonde…model type. So anyway, I guess we were back together, and we were walking around the store and I wanted to find some magazines, but the magazine section was moved, and when we found it they only had stupid kinds of magazines that I don’t read.

some other non related part of the dream, my dad bought me a car.. it was a sort of sports car, camaro like, but the front was all rusted. I was like why the hell did you get me a piece of shit car, this has to last me!

possible explanation: um….hmm…not much of anything

possible interpretation: it would seem as tho I have secret longings for my ex boyfriend, and that I want us to get back together. I don’t think so…I’m under the impression he is happy with his girlfriend now, and I’m happy in my non relationship….i dont want to get together with him or anyone at the moment…i’m sure Freud would think differently.

April 30, 2001 – I had to take my mom to work or something. Then I was at an antique store, that had actual artifacts from ancient civilizations and they were really expensive. I guess my mom worked there, because the owner knew me. Then me and my dad were in the car driving someplace on the highway, but we kept passing cars going the wrong way. There were at least 6 cars that had gotten onto the highway the wrong way. I was thinking maybe we got on the wrong way, but there were lots of people going the same way we were. And I knew that my dad wouldn’t ever get on the highway in the wrong direction, but I thought if I had been driving I’d really wonder if I had gotten on the wrong way. Then I was by myself driving someplace, and the roads were all weird, and you had to turn a different direction then the way you were going to get where you wanted to be. Then I was in Williamsville, and I wanted to get ice cream at Jenny’s but it was 10:46 and they were closed.

possible explanation: none

possibile interpretation: um…none