decided to watch the popmart vid tonight. started it then ppl started talking to me so i stopped. yeah..wow. that was one incredible stage. it’s absolutely massive. it’s in guiness world records for biggest TV screen ever…and yeah. it’s huge. since i didn’t finish it, i’m only on song 6, i don’t really know what my opinion on it is yet. except that i’d hate to have been there i think. the stage is SO huge, and the tv screen dwarfs them SO much…unless you were really close, you were just blinded by the tvs, and couldn’t see them or the rest of the stage – i’m sure. the video does alot of wide shots so they can get the whole stage, and stuff, and it’s like…is the band even there? cuz you totally cannot see them. and the place it’s at in mexico city, is HUGE…it’s not a normal stadium…and to be in the back, i mean it’s pointless. so i’m really glad i saw the elevation tour, much more “intimate” as everyone kept calling it…but i’d still like to have seen ZooTV…that stage was massive and complicated as well, but not as much as popmart. maybe all this will change when i finish the vid.

 

1 week til the nin dvd! yay

hmm…whatever happened to the tapeworm project?…it kinda just disappeared again…eric, u know?

 

wow getting my passport renewed is a whole lot of crap…i can’t do it an easy way because i got the passport when i was 15. so i can’t apply by mail, i have to do it in person. and i think i have to pay the regular “new passport” fee of 60$ instead of the “renewal” fee of 40$….but i don’t know, because the site MAKES NO SENSE AND DOESN’T ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS. but apparently i can do it at the NT DMV now and i don’t have to go to that postoffice in amherst like we did when we got them in 96. so i’m gonna go there after my dr appt and see if they can answer any of my questions. i’ll have to get an application to apply if i can’t do this easy renewal bit where i just need to send them my pic, my old passport and the money. how irritating. I WAS ALMOST 16 DOES THAT COUNT?! it’s so unfair. arg. maybe if they dont have any answers for me, which i’m sure they won’t the DMV is always stupid when dealing with me, i’ll go to a travel agent and ask them…there’s one on payne so…yeah. maybe i’ll have them look up flights to ireland for me too hehe.

my new passport photos…quite possibly THE worst picture i’ve ever taken. my last passport photo… i may have looked like a criminal in a mug shot, but at least it was decent…this one…is….HORRIBLE. it’s SOO bad. and my hair is sticking up… like why didn’t the lady taking the picture say something? it’s windy outside you know?!….BLAH but it was 14$ so i’m not about to go get it done again, wtf lol. But anyway….yeah went to the DMV…no passport thing there, like i figured. then went to the travel agency who really didn’t know anything, but she gave me 1 of each of the forms… mailin renewal and passport application. so then i drove to the postoffice on ridge lea cuz i know they deal with passport stuff, and went and asked them. they told me i have to apply all over again, and pay the more expensive fee as if i’m getting a passport for the first time. THAT’S SO RETARDED BECAUSE IN THE PAST 6 YEARS NOTHING ABOUT ME HAS CHANGED EXCEPT MY APPEARNANCE!!!!!!!….my parents were still born in Germany and Michigan, and I was still born in Kenmore, and all that crap. arg. so i gotta fill out this form now, and go take it tomorrow or wednesday. oh and i don’t have my check book, great….

 

i forgot to mention yesterday, that when me and heather are together, we attract strange people. when she came over and stayed overnight in summer 98 we went down to the river and we’re walking around. these 4 boys started talking to us and invited us to their party. so i was like talking to them, and told them we had another party to go to but maybe we’d stop by (cuz if that wasn’t a huge lie i dunno what was)…so we kept walking and heather was like, do you know them? and of course i didn’t LOL. and then yesterday at the outlet mall there was this guy working at the Polish Water Ice place and he asked us if we wanted free samples. so we took them, and we had pina colata, and he was like oooh trying to impress me with the grownup flavor…and we were like um yeah. we went back later to actually buy some cuz it was reeeealllly good. so we’re sitting at the table in front of the place, and he comes up to us and is like, oh the grownup girls are back. and we’re like uh yeah. he had like, big hair…it wasn’t in dreds, but it was long and curly, and sticking up, and he had his labret pierced but he wasn’t hot. so he’s like, do you girls like metal at all. and i’m like yeah sorta, and i told him i liked his shirt cuz it was a NIN fixed shirt. and he’s like there you go…well my band is playing next saturday at the elks (?) lodge for 5 bucks. and i’m like oh…and asked who they were playing with, cuz i know Stemm always plays there, and he said that they were playing with Stemm so i mentioned i knew them, and that yeah maybe we’d come to see his band play LOL.

 

 

so even tho blogger wont let me publish this, i’ll type it all anyway. i started reading “u2 at the end of the world” last night, IT’S SO FUNNY. so have to share some stuff…and i’ll continue to share til i finish the book…and it’s a big book

“So this morning Bono, full of emotion and alcohol, should be sleeping like Lenin but something has awakened him. He crawls out of bed hoping for a glass of water and, in his hungover state, wanders down into the basement. While standing there, naked from the waist down, dressed only in a dirty T-shirt, he thinks he hears low voices and the rattling of doorknobs. Someone is trying to get into the house. He creeps up the stairs and sees that the intruders are already inside! Bono is suddenly aware, like Adam in the Garden, that he has no pants on and his cock is hanging out. As the intruders enter the hallway where Bono is crouching he tries to cover his nuts with one hand while with the other waving and in his hoarse voice declaring, “this is my house! you do not belong here!”
Bono is unprepared for the response he gets from the ringleader, an elderly German man, who shouts back, “This is not your house! This is my house, You get out!” Bono, bent over with his balls in his hand, surveys the gang of home invaders, a middle-aged to elderly family of 6 filing in cautiously behind the firm father, who seems prepared to jump on Bono and wrestle him to the floor. Bono is disoriented. He feels like a kid caught trespassing by his elders, not a wealthy international figure whose accommodations have been intruded upon. “This is my house!” the old man repeats. And as Bono stumbles to try to find his German and sort out the confusion, it becomes apparent that the old walrus is not misdirected. This is their house. They were visiting the western side of town in 1961 when the Wall went up. Now they are home, and they want their house back.”

1990 “Edge has been swimming in experimental music, noise rock, electronics, and alternative guitar sounds. He comes in lecturing his bandmates about Insekt, Nitzer Ebb, Nine Inch Nails, KMFDM and Front 242 – stuff that sounds like walkie talkies in washing machines.”

lol edge likes nin!!!

 

i love vernors…it’s such a great carbonated beverage. it’s too bad it’s so expensive in WNY.

and no one in WNY sells u2’s popmart video. or they just haven’t restocked yet from xmas…annoying. how many stores have i been to looking for it?…2 media plays, bestbuy, borders, target and walmart (i knew they wouldn’t have it)…i think the expensive store in the mall has it but not sure, and not about to buy it there. and i’m positive the music 4 less (haha) store in the outlet mall has it…but dont really wanna pay their overpriced…price…hah for it. music 4 less also had the best of 80-90 video which no other store ever has either. blah

 

more from the u2 book
on naming Achtung Baby…”It is all part of erecting the mask Bono talked about, the false face that will keep U2 from the embarassment of standing around with their dicks hanging out. Which brings up a good idea! How about for this cover, a big photograph of Adam standing there naked. The band calls in photographer Anton Corbijn and Adam proudly hangs out his manhood for the camera. Adam thinks that if they use this as the sleeve they should call the record Man – the logical sequel to their first album, Boy. Edge thinks it might be funnier to go with the nude shot and call the album Adam, in tribute to both their bassist and the first mortal (who was also the first man to get kicked out of his home and into the cruel world).”

 

so yeah i’ve been listening to the phantom soundtrack all night…reminded me of when i got it in 7th grade. i wanted to be a professional singer, and i used to practice the song “phantom” all the time so one day i could be Christine in some version of the play. and this one time my mom took me and angela to the outlet mall but we waited in the car for like 2 hrs while my mom was shopping. we listened to the cassette over and over, and the part in the last song “do you spend your days with me or do you send him to his GRAVE!” we would scream, cuz of the way “grave” is super emphasized in the song, and we’d crack up. and i remember when i realized that “point of no return” was totally about sex…and the part in “primadonna” that is about sex…hah yeah, we were in 7th grade, so yeah we were immature

rolling stone is such a waste of a magazine. i was letting my subscription run out. got the new one today, which is all about 40 pages long. i’m like, this is such a waste of paper, cuz there is CRAP in it. my mom goes, then why do you keep resubscribing? and i’m like I’m NOT i’m waiting for it to expire…she’s like oh well i resubscribed for you for xmas LOL…i haven’t paid for it in years, she keeps resubscribing for me.

but anyway, there were 2 good parts to this magazine. the readers and critics poll where U2 wins just about everything….readers pics: artist of the year, best male performer (Bono…MJ came in 2nd??? lol), best band, best album, #2 and #3 best singles (beautiful day, walk on) #2 and #3 best video (elevation, beautiful day), best tour, best album cover, best rock artist, #2 best welcome comback (MJ was #1?!?!?), best online fan site…critics pics: #3 single (stuck in a moment), #2 artist of the year, best band, best male performer (bono), best tour….and there is this pic of the band i’ve never seen before but i can’t figure out when it’s from. cuz bono’s got short hair…so i originally thought it was a Pop era photo…but he’s got that rosary on that he got from the pope, and his hair isn’t AS short as Pop days…but i think it’s funny that either way, it’s an old photo.

then the other good part was the amazing 4 star review of the live NIN disc…. once again…as if i wasn’t excited enough for it. they gave the EP last year a bad review, so this is good! hehe.

and there was also a big ad for the NIN disc and U2’s rattle and hum on dvd LOL…it’s sad when some of the best parts of a mag are the ads…

 

as if i couldn’t wait enough for the nin dvd and live cd….then we get the lyrics of “and all that could have been”

trent you are a god

*breeze still carries the sound
maybe i’ll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won’t find me here

ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what i’ve done
I know you tried to rescue me
didn’t let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
I am
tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone fading everything
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far as you can see
I am
tainted
and happiness and peace of mind
were never meant for me
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me*

 

i got a whole 15 hrs at work this week. i stayed an extra 2 today cuz christa got sick. she didn’t go home however. she sat in the office off the clock for 4 hrs. was afraid to call her dad or something. whatever. so there is this kid gary at work, he’s like 17. he reminds me alot of psycho…i think it’s his eyes, and facial structure. well christa comes up to me in the morning and is like Gary thinks your hot. she said “hot” with THE worst buffalo accent i’ve ever heard LOL. i’m like, whatever. christa is the same girl who told me fat black lesbian sherry wanted me all summer, and that sherry wanted to rape me basically (since i would SO not be willing lol). lol. sherry doesn’t work at our store anymore, i wonder what happened to her. NOT LIKE I CARE! lol just curious.

so after i got home and cleaned up i went to the post office. and this guy held the door for me, whatever. so i’m in line behind him and he goes, nice weather we have today. and i’m like, yeah, it’s sunny. then silence. then he goes, I’m brian. LOL holds out his hand. so i’m like, sara. he’s like nice meeting you. i’m like yeah. so i’m standing there trying to look other directions in hopes he won’t talk to me anymore. he’s like, i noticed you walking up to the building. i’m like, oh. he’s like, yah with your shades on, they’re cool. LOL i’m like, yeah, they’re all scratched i need new ones. i thought i lost these but i found them. he’s like, yeah i wear regular glasses and i lose them all the time and they’re more expensive. and i’m like yeah, these were 10 bucks. so then silence again. and he’s like, nice talking to you. LOL. so he went to do his post office stuff, and went to leave. he held the door for some woman, and then came back in the post office while i was doing my thing. so i’m like wtf he better not be waiting for me or something LOL. so he was looking at something, and i booked out of there as fast as i could. scary.

then i went to budway’s to buy cake mix. i haven’t been in budways in YEARS. it’s so trashy LOL. and then i saw psycho’s mom there. LOL. she’s like *smile* hi sara… i’m like hi, how are you…i didn’t know what else to say to her, not like she liked me when i was with psycho….even if i was the best thing he could ever get. and i’m not being vain and egotistical there, not my fault it’s true.

maybe this is just me, but you know when you’re eating, and u put something in your mouth expecting it to taste one way, and it tastes entirely different…and you’re like EWWWW this is SO nasty, even tho it’s really not. it just seems really nasty cuz it wasn’t what you were expecting…. well yah that just happened to me. I was eating a candycane, and it crumbled all over my keyboard and pants, and made a mess so i got pissed off and threw it out. but then i realized i have another candycane on my desk, so i decided to eat it. i open it, put it in my mouth, and its NOT MINT! Its like…. CHERRY! i almost puked LOL. was TOTALLY not expecting that. oh and now i just dropped it and it crumbled all over my carpet. great.

 

i dont think that this would really come to a shock to anyone. but i’d really like to sit down and have a conversation with bono. and we’d have to be restricted to not talking about u2. i mean i’d do that primarily for my own benefit. because if i was having a conversation with him i’d be tempted to talk about the band, and the music, but i think he’d have far more interesting things to talk about. and i think i could learn alot from him in just 5 minutes talking about…whatever. where ever the conversation led us we’d go. yep.

and bono’s incessant moaning at the end of “hold me thrill me kiss me kill me” is really distracting. yeaah.

 

didnt mention this yesterday. but i had to listen to “do you feel loved” cuz apparently you can hear bono saying “i wont hurt you” a few times in the middle of it. well yeah i always noticed the whispering in the song just never tried to hear what it was, and it sorta sounds like he could be saying that. ok so then i was listening to the live version of the song that i burned onto the end of the NJ elevation show…yep it’s totally “i wont hurt you”…cuz he says it, in normal speaking, not whispering…lovely. hehehhe and now “if you wear that velvet dress” is on with the whole “i want to fuck/suck you” part…yep Pop was the sex cd. i was thinking that, and that made me think about how there are alot of subliminally sexual parts of achtung baby too… like…um…”did i disappoint you, or leave a bad taste in your mouth” lol… ok i’ll stop now. i could keep going, but for fear of embarssing myself by making public my dirty mind… i’ll just stop

 

im having a supersonic hearing day when everything is horrendously loud and irritating me. i think it’s in part due to the insessant rain last night which kept me awake, and then when i actually had fallen asleep, being woken up by everyone i live with 92347 times. i can’t even stand the sound of my typing, i want to rip my head off. i hate this.

i forgot that since my exams are over and i just have my presentation, that i can go sell my books back. i dont need my neuropsych book for my presentation so…danielle wants me to take her to the campus convenience store to spend the rest of her meal plan, so i’ll go on up to sundance and get some book money. except it’s raining…and my car is parked far away. oh well.

 

i wanna say that i loved my professors this semester….dr kirsh is too funny, he challenges me to a game of rock n sock robots LOL…and then dr lynch sends us an email, we had his exam today, and it’s like… “for old times sake, check out this link” awww…and he had a batman watch! dr ballard was too funny cuz she was always forgetting stuff. it used to annoy me, and it still does, but it’s funny. dr lofquist doesn’t count, cuz that class sucked. and then dr allen and dr schneider for research..they are cool, and they told me i wasn’t dumb when dr matlin told me i was too stupid to get into grad school. and dr allen looks like dana carvey LOL.

so far 3 people got my xmas card today. after everyone tells me how great it is , i’ll post it online for everyone else’s viewing pleasure. so far i’ve gotten.
1. it’s so cute even if it is predictable
2. omg it’s so hysterical, i was laughing so hard at the ______ and then the inside part ______ i almost fell off my chair, and my favourite part was the ______ thank you for making my day!! (from one of the only people who will FULLY appreciate my card)
3. carolyn: i got this adorable card in the mail today
carolyn: i think shes related to bono
carolyn: or married to him
carolyn: or something
sara: ooo?
carolyn: yeah cuz usually
carolyn: you only send out xmas cards with photos on em of family
carolyn: and hers is covered with bono
sara: hmm thats cool

hehehe

 

 

the most annoying thing in the world is waking up at 8 am to people hammering on your house. and then trying to sleep through it til 11. and then as soon as you get out of bed, they stop.

i’m going to shoot someone lol.

jan 22 jan 22 jan 22….all the new NIN stuff!! i sooooo cannot wait. i watched the dvd trailer again…aaaah cannot wait cannot wait!!! and then i watched the trailer for the bonus cd with new stuff on it, ahhh…..i think i’m the only nin fan who would die to hear a whole album of trent playing piano LOL

 

 

u2

june 2001 – I was penpals with Bono from U2. We had been writing letters back and forth to each other. He said he was going to write me once a month while on tour. He sent me this one letter and he was telling me about this dream he had where he was looking for something and he couldn’t find it. I told him I had dreams like that where I couldn’t find where I was looking for. I was typing the letter and I realized that his dream is like the U2 song “I still havent found what I’m looking for” and I laughed.

june 24, 2001 – Totally disturbing dream. It was very movie like. I was at school, it looked more like a high school than college. Bono was one of the professors. Danielle and I were in the dining hall getting food, it must have been the first day or something because we didn’t quite know what line to go in, etc. There were lots of people there looking around for what kind of food there was. Then Danielle was like, this place is retarded, you can only get like 1 food item in each line, so if you want a whole meal you have to go in all these different lines. I cut in line in front of a bunch of people to get in line with Danielle for some kind of noodles. Then cut to next scene. I was (or it was more like a camera) was looking at the building, and there was this giant tree outside, right up against the building, almost like ivy, but it definitely was a tree. At one point the tree had been some big monster. Well it came alive again and it had a face like the scary old tree character that used to be in McDonald’s play lands that talked, or those talking trees in Wizard of Oz. It had a face, and it started moving the branches. They were like big scary arms. Well the arms/branches moved in front of one of the windows it was next to (it was inbetween 2 sets of windows). Some kids saw it move and they got scared. Then it went back to playing dead. Cut to some other scene I don’t remember. Cut back to tree. The tree then moved its other arm/branches in front of the other window. Now lots of people were realizing that the monster tree was alive again. It was only moving a little bit and then back to its original position because it needed to gain strength. Then it had gotten some strength back, and it smacked its right arm/branch into the classroom window and shattered it all over the students inside. Now people were way scared of the tree again. So the people near the window on the other side of the classroom decided to push the glass out of the window so that the tree couldn’t smash that one too, but when they were pushing on it a bunch of kids fell out of the window with the glass and died. Cut to a city street. There was a woman walking across the street. She was lost, or some how out of place in the scene. She was black, and she was in a black neighborhood. Well she crossed the street and there were 2 younger black kids/men standing there. They sorta frightened her, and so she crossed back across the street again. She was looking for directions or something, and she felt threatened by the 2 kids so she didn’t want to ask them. Cut to the tree again causing mayhem. Cut back to the woman, shes crossing the street again, and there is an old man crossing. She holds out her hand to shake hands with him, so she could ask him directions, but he pulls out a gun and shoots her. So she staggers in the street, and she has 2 bullet holes in her shirt.

By now in the dream I’m kinda scared, it’s nightmare-ish, very disturbing, so I think “insert Trevor”. So I try to make Trevor Hurst get into the dream somehow to make it not scary anymore. But it doesn’t work and it cuts back to the woman in the street shot. No one is helping her, and she is bleeding. I keep thinking “insert Trevor” but it doesn’t work. Eventually my alarm went off.

June 26, 2001 – Well I lived somewhere on the coast, near the ocean. I was going to school there, and I was friends with Bono from U2 but he was same age as me, and in college too. Apparantly we had some kind of relationship. We weren’t dating, but I guess we always wanted each other when we were drunk. And I guess we had slept together before. Anyway, we were at the beach, it was either dusk, or really cloudy, because it was kind of dark out. We were with a few friends. I don’t know if they were going to leave, or what, but I wanted them to stay. We all had exams to study for the next day, but I didn’t want to leave. So we went on this row boat, which was tied to the land, so we weren’t going anywhere, just floating on the water. We were talking about how we should go because we had to study, but didn’t feel like leaving. So we stayed on the boat, drinking I guess, because then I guess I wanted to leave with Bono someplace. Our friends wouldn’t let us go, because I guess they knew what always happened when we were drunk together, and they thought we were going to ruin our friendship and they didn’t want us to go. So we stayed on the boat, then this huge ocean liner came speeding up and was going to hit us. Since we were tied to the land, we couldn’t move out of the way so we were all knocked out of the boat.

July 29, 2001 – I was at a U2 concert and it was in like, a big gym. There was the floor, and then bleacher seats. Me and my friends had tickets, and we were in the bleachers. There were 2 stages, one at each end of the gym floor. So we were sitting there, then I was like, dude I’m gonna go on the floor. So I left them and went onto the floor which looked really packed, but I got up to the front and there was lots of room at the barrier. So I was like, ok then I’m standing at the barrier for U2. So they played a few songs, and then took an intermission. So I left barrier, and went back to my friends and told them I had been up front. I was going to go get something to eat and hoped that my spot was still there after I got back. So I went back up front and got my space, but U2 came out on the other stage to do the rest of the show. So I was like, wtf, i’m in the back now. But the entire time I was walking around I knew that they were going to play on the other stage. So I started walking to the other stage, and it looked even more packed then it did before but when I got up there, there was 10 feet of room between the barrier and where everyone was standing. So I’m like ok then, screw you guys i’m standing at the barrier. So I went up there and stood in front of Bono. Then there was this white trash mullet guy with his wife/girlfriend there and they started talking to Bono. Bono, between singing, was talking to them. Then Bono was like, does anyone have a camera? And I was like, yeah I do, cuz I had a disposable one in my purse. So Bono took my camera and took a picture of white trash guy and the girl.

August 30, 2001 – I was at a U2 concert. I was sometimes in the way back, and sometimes up front, and there really weren’t alot of people there. Supposedly I knew it was at Slane in Ireland, but it was in an arena, and Pam Anderson was there with me, among other people I’d gone with. don’t remember much of the concert, but at one point I went up to the front, which was a candy store counter, with the stage behind it, and I was watching the show with Adrienne. No one else was around except for the guy selling candy. Then Adrienne disappeared, and I was there by myself and Bono was doing his thing. Then he threw me a set of keys, this was part of the show, and I was supposed to know what to do with them. There were alot of keys on the ring. So then he’s doing his thing, and then looks at me and I throw the keys back to him, I guess that’s what I was supposed to do. Then I was in the way back again, and Pam Anderson was up onstage. She was part of something that was going on onstage. But I was jealous that she got to do it and not me. Then the whole stage changed, and all the guys in U2 were playing hockey on stage, and I think The Edge was in goal. But then I went up front again, and was watching them play hockey. They weren’t seriously playing, just shooting balls and stuff around the stage at The Edge. Then I became part of the clean up crew so I went onstage and was cleaning up the broken stuff, and the goals and pucks from the stage so U2 could come back out. I guess I thought I was going to be kicked back into the crowd, but I was like HELL NO I’m staying up here on stage, back stage and I’m going to meet U2. I also put one of the balls in my pocket, since it was U2’s hockey ball that they used. The head stage crew guy didn’t care that was back there, but U2 was no where in sight, so I never met them. I purposely had been standing in a place where I knew they’d have to walk by but never did.

September 9, 2001 – my mom had died. but no one knew. well me and my dad knew, and she had been burried, but i didn’t tell any of my friends or anything that she was dead. someone was talking about how awesome my mom is and i’m thinking, she’s dead, don’t you know. But no one knew she was dead, but Bono did. He came over to comfort me or something. Maybe someone brought him over to comfort me. So anyway, he started off sitting across from me, but then slowly he ended up next to me, and he had his arm around me and was kissing my head. I don’t think he ever said anything, I don’t think i did either. Then we were getting married. It wasn’t a big wedding or anything, I think just like at a courthouse thing. I’m there and I’m thinking, he’s old enough to be my dad. But I didn’t really care, it’s Bono! hello!

October 30, 2001 – i was at an outdoor concert. i’m not sure where it was. but it was supposed to rain so they had moved the concert from its original location to a place that was outdoors, but where the stage was set up, the band wouldn’t get wet if it rained. it was an orgy concert. i decided that i wasn’t going to go up front for the concert, i was going to go on the balcony, which wasn’t a balcony but it was my front porch and it was only slightly elevated so that i could see over the crowd. so orgy was playing, and jay gordon saw me and smiled. then throughout the show he kept gesturing to me and making motions where it was obvious he knew me. so there was a point in the show inbetween songs and jay started talking, and said everyone should turn around and look at me, because i had provided the totally awesome picture of Kirk. so everyone looked at me and everyone started clapping so i kinda bowed. this entire time, the members of econoline crush are sitting on chairs on the side of the stage as if they were on a talk show. and so i kept looking over at them too, and they recognized me as well. i guess they were on after orgy. so orgy finished, and the concert workers said they were moving locations again since it wasn’t going to rain anymore. so EC was like, dude, just let us play here, why move again. and i was like yeah, last time they played here it was 100 degrees outside, let them perform on a stage that’s in the shade. So trevor looked over at me talking, and he’s like Hi there, Sara right? and i’m like yeah, woah you know my name. and so i was talking to trevor who was still sitting with the rest of the band discussing what they were going to do for their show. so I said, you can play an all acoustic set, that’d be alright with me. i smiled at them and trevor and johnny laughed. johnny had cut all his hair off, like it was a brush cut, and i was like nooo i loved your hair before!! it was like, i was a very important person that entire day at the concert, everyone knew me, and i felt like i had the ability to tell people what to do. so i told EC again, that it’d be ok with me if they just did a whole acoustic set. and so Trevor gets a guitar and he comes up on the front porch and sits on the bench. no one else is up there with me anymore. so he’s like, well what do you want us to play, and I said Razorblades and Bandaids, and he’s like hmm, ok. I’m like yeah if you remember how to play it, and then he took out a lyric sheet and was going to play it.

then i was still dreaming, but it was like i woke up, and danielle was telling me her dream. i was really annoyed because her talking to me was making me forget my dream. so i was like dude, i gotta type this up on my site cuz it was so great. so then i went to type it up on my site, and somehow it turned into a U2 concert also. So i was typing out how it was a U2 concert, and that the 4 of them were sitting on chairs like they were on a talk show too. Then i was at another concert, which i guess was the opener for this whole string of concerts. It was a band with 3 people, and the song was familiar but i didn’t know who it was. At first i thought it was offspring, then i thought it was eve 6, but then as the drummer distroyed his drum kit, the announcers said it was Gob (?). then it was supposed to be EC.

and now i forgot the whole 2nd part of the dream, crap. there was a big part with u2, and another part with EC…crap. crap crap.

October 28, 2001 – me and bono and someone else were in my bathroom at home. I was filling up the bathtub, i guess to take a bath. i was sitting on the floor next to the tub, and bono was leaning against the counter, facing me. i don’t know what the other person was doing, i just know there was someone else there. then the tub wouldn’t fill up beyond a certain point, and i didn’t know what was going on. i thought maybe i didn’t plug it, but i did, because it wasn’t draining, it just wouldn’t fill up anymore.

October 25, 2001 – dream #1: something to do with bono. woke up sweating to death. i hate night sweats

dream #2: i guess me, carolyn, adrienne and danielle had done something that allowed us to get inside the arena for u2’s sound check. i guess u2 was playing a show there. so we were inside the arena, and the stage was all set up. we were in the back of the floor wandering around cuz nothing was going on yet. no one was there. i don’t know what happened next, i don’t think we ever saw the sound check. but i wanted to go towards the front, so i walked to the heart and was going to go backstage since no one was around. but then we were in the parking ramp with eric. we wanted to follow u2 to wherever they were going, cuz i guess they were leaving the arena. so i told them all to look for blue towncars with tinted windows cuz those were the cars u2 traveled in. there was no one else around us ever, and no cars, nothing. so then there was a blue towncar sitting there, waiting to leave the ramp. so eric, adrienne and danielle i think all went and got in the car…i guess some u2 members were in the car because me and carolyn couldn’t fit. but then there was a second blue towncar so me and carolyn got in that one. i guess there were u2 members in there too. it was strange tho because we were still by ourselfs, like everyone else was invisible and we knew they were there even tho we couldn’t see anyone. then we were all walking down stairs (me, carolyn, adrienne, danielle) to the outside of the parking ramp, i don’t know what happened to the cars. i think that we were suddenly standing outside the cars, not sitting inside them, and the cars left. so i wanted to follow the cars by foot, and that’s how we ended up on the stairs. i was sorta disappointed and sad that we had missed meeting u2. so i started down the stairs, and started singing “stay (faraway, so close)” and then carolyn, adrienne and danielle all started singing it too. so the 4 of us went down the stairs singing….then i was woken up by the tornado outside.

October 24, 2001 – again, i dreamed i was playing asshole with bono and edge. this time i knew how to play and they weren’t changing the rules on me. well they didn’t until the end. we were playing, and it was going good, and i had a whole bunch of cards i could get rid of all at once… i had 4 8s to play at once for a social, followed by 4 jacks for a social. then i only had 2 cards left, and apparantly once someone had two cards left, the asshole had to deal the cards out again. i didn’t understand what was going on at this point. edge must have been the asshole that round, because he started dealing the cards to us (there were four of us, i don’t know who the 4th person was) but he was dealing them so that each pile was being formed into a cross…

October 23, 2001 – i was playing asshole (the drinking game) with edge, and i think bono. there must have been other people there but i never saw them. since i still don’t know how to play asshole really, i was really confused. they kept changing the rules on me too, so i was getting even more confused. edge had put down 2 sixes, and it was my turn next and i was going to put down my 2 sixes to make a social but when i looked down someone had thrown down a whole bunch of cards. so i was like, wtf i said i was going to put my 6s down. edge was like no you can’t do that. and i was like why. i looked at the pile of cards and someone had put down 2 jacks and an ace, which apparantly meant i couldn’t do the 6s even tho i had SAID i was going to play my 6s for a social. Edge was like no you can’t play those cards. so i was getting really pissed off and grinding my teeth.

october 19, 2001 – i was someplace, i think on the roof of a big building. it was a fully furnished apartment, but it was on the roof. there was supposed to be a bunch of people there, maybe for a party or something, but the only 2 people there so far were me and dr kirsh my psych professor. so we’re talking, and apparantly he had interviewed u2 for some tv show..mtv or something…and it was before they had to do a concert later that night. so he was telling me about interviewing them, and how they were going to perform on the show. well mtv had planned for them to play 10 songs on this show, but bono was like, no we never do more than a 6 song warm up before a show. so the band refused to do more than 6 of their songs, but they said they’d do something else. turns out that u2 performed 2 songs that dr kirsh had written. so i’m sitting there amazed, while dr kirsh is telling me all of this. i’m like, wow, u must be super excited to have u2 performing 2 of your songs. dr kirsh said that yeah he was really excited about it, that edge learned the songs really quickly, and that they sounded great. so i was in awe of dr kirsh just because he had written some songs that were now being performed by u2. well then other people showed up to wherever we had been, so i couldn’t ask dr kirsh anything else about u2. then at a later part of the night, i went over to where dr kirsh and someone else was talking, and dr kirsh said to me that he had really enjoyed the conversation we had had earlier, and i agreed. it was strange, because it was almost as if i liked him or something.

October 12, 2001 – bono in drag, like an old woman, at an art gallery opening

october 3, 2001 – i was supposed to go present at some conference with 3 other people for some neuropsych thing we were working on. there were 3 girls and 1 guy, and the guy was Bono…so i was at my house with 2 friends packing for the trip. and i guess it was common knowledge that me and Bono had a thing going on with us, because my friend Danyell from work was picking out lingerie for me to pack since everyone knew me and Bono would be sharing a room at the hotel. the lingerie were so ugly though. i don’t know where they came from because i don’t own lingerie, but one was a long nightgown and it was purple and it had short sleeves, and a bunch of lace. it was really ugly, so i was like ok no. then she had this other one, which was exactly the same except shorter and blue. i’m like no i don’t want to wear lingerie. i didn’t understand how everyone knew about me and Bono sleeping together or whatever. and it was strange because i was my age, and he was his age, and he was in school with us, and it wasn’t even college, it was high school. so i had to drive to the high school to go to class because we were leaving for the conference right after school, and it was winter, there was lots of snow. so i was slipping and sliding all over the place while i walked. while i was in school my mom was supposed to drop off my luggage at my car for the conference. so after school i went to the car with my ex bestfriend angela, and my mom had left all my luggage out in the slushy snow next to my rear tires. so i was mad about that, and angela kept talking about Bono and i still didn’t know how everyone knew about me and him.

i got home from being away, apparantly at the conference. i decided i was going to go see my boyfriend, who worked at toys r us. apparantly Bono wasn’t my boyfriend. i had on my black zip up sweatshirt, and i was really hot so i went to unzip it, but then i realized i had no other clothes on under it, so i couldn’t. so i was going to go to toys r us which was at the summit mall, but i had to take my dad’s car, the miata. well it’s still all slippery and snowy, so i was trying to be really careful with the car, not to crash it. so i get to toys r us and i’m still really hot, so i keep wanting to unzip the sweatshirt, but can’t cuz i have nothing on. so i go into the store, and even inside the store there is snow and it’s all slippery. so i slide into this chain link fence that was put up inside the store. certain parts of the store were blocked off, because the store wasn’t doing alot of buisness and they wanted to make it smaller. then i went to find my boyfriend, who turned out to be Justin Timberlake from Nsync. so he was there working, and he hadn’t seen me in a while cuz i had been away. so i went over to him and he was happy to see me, and i tried to hug him and give him a kiss but he said he couldn’t because he was at work and wasn’t allowed to. but kept trying to anyway, and he kept telling me no he’d get in trouble. so finally i was like, ok see how it feels now? because apparantly i worked at ames and he’d always come to my store and try to be all affectionate to me when i was at work. i was just doing the same to him. so then i left, and i was so hot, so i figured once i got in the car where no one would really see me i could unzip my sweat shirt. so i found the car, and someone had parked next to it, but so close they almost side swiped the car. there wasnt enough space to even get the key into the lock. so i was like, what the hell am i going to do now, i can’t get in the car. so i pushed on the car that was next to mine,and it started to move, so i kept pushing the car until it was out of the way of the door, so i could leave.

November 25, 2001 – i was in a toy store xmas shopping and i had my baby with me. i guess the baby was around the age that it would start talking. i think it was a boy. so i’m walking through the aisles and talking to my baby, trying to get it to talk. i kept asking it to say “momma” and “daddy”…well it started saying “daddy” so i got all happy and excited and i called for my husband to come. he was in another aisle looking for gifts. so i yelled for him to get over here because our son was talking and i didn’t want him to miss it. so he did, and my husband was bono. so he took the baby and the baby kept saying daddy to him over and over. it was really cute

november 7, 2001 – i went to a party with Bono. we weren’t dating, but i was his date for the party. we were just close friends or something. anyway, there was this guy there who was an old high school friend of Bono’s. i really wanted to meet this man because u2 had written their song “out of control” about this guy (not true). so Bono introduced me to him, and I was all like, “ooh so you’re the guy? how do you feel about u2 playing that song live now?” and the man is like “at first i was kind of put off by it, but i like it, it’s good.” and then Bono interrupted and was like “yeah you can totally tell we didn’t design the set ourselves, so and so designed it. and i like how we changed the song to do it live?” and i’m like ok…and the man is like “yeah, so and so, haven’t you ever heard of the taliban?” and i’m like “of course i’ve heard of the taliban”

December 16, 2001 – i had to take my neuropsych final and we all had to go to someplace off campus to take it. it turns out the place we had to take it was a skybox on the 200 level of a big stadium. and of course, that night u2 was playing a concert there. so we were sitting at big round tables in the skybox, and people were entering the stadium for the show. i was super excited because even tho the skybox was high we had a good view of the stage. i figured out that i had 2 hours to do the exam before the show started. so we were working on the exam, and it was 4 people per table, we were talking, and had our notes out, like that was the normal procedure for our exams. then this girl from my class katie realized we were at a u2 concert, and since she had seen them in buffalo she was excited we were going to get to see them again. then she told me she had heard that for the show there tomorrow night, they were going to open up promenade seats (which apparently meant seats on the sides of the floor) tomorrow afternoon, and wanted to know if i wanted to go. so i said of course i’d go. so we were working on the exam, and our proff came over and saw all our notes out. she was like, you’re cheating. and i was like no I’m not, but then i realized that we weren’t supposed to have our notes out. we weren’t even using them, but it did look like we were cheating. she’s like, well why are all your notes out then. and i’m like, they aren’t notes for this class, they are for english, see…and i pointed to a word that would have never been part of our neuropsych notes. but she didn’t believe me, and was going to take points off my exam. or she said she could take 30 points off my paper. well i asked her what i got on my paper and she said a 40, so that’d leave me with a 10. so i kept trying to tell her i wasn’t cheating. then i was someplace else, and it was the next day and i was trying to find katie to get the seats for the show that night. i ran into my professor and asked her for my test and paper, and i had gotten a 90 on the paper.

there was also some part where we were all on an airplane and i realized it was Air Elevation, U2’s plane…

december 14, 2001 – a high school, or elementary school, was going to be showing the U2 elevation tour dvd on a big screen as a 1 year anniversary celebration of when U2 played at the school. it was open to the public, and anyone could go to it for a dollar. so i went, and i went by myself. the gym of the school was HUGE and it was separated off in sections, like a regular concert with seating. but this was general admission, first come first serve. so i was a section back from the front, and i keep seeing all kinds of people i knew from high school. then i realized joe and rick were standing right behind me but they hadn’t said anything. then they saw me and so i was talking to them, and the show started. they were shocked that i wasn’t really paying attention, i kept looking at people in the crowd to see if i knew more people. i told them i didn’t really like the song that was on screen so it was ok that i wasn’t paying attention. then i was in the back of the gym and it was back to being more like a school gym, with mats on the walls. and i’m sitting on the floor with adrienne and danielle and eric, who had all appeared at the show. i was looking into the crowd and there was like no one there. there was all kinds of space, and then i saw the stage. it was the heart shaped stage from the elevation tour. so i thought that was weird, because i didn’t know each venue got to make and keep their own heart stage. it wasn’t right though, it was really small, and it was really rickety like if you ran on it or jumped around it would collapse. Then bono was at the tip of the heart doing his thing, and i started thinking wow it really looks like he’s right there, this an amazing dvd. but then it really was u2, and they really were there. then everything stopped and people started leaving. they hadn’t finished playing the dvd, they just stopped it after 5 songs. i was really confused, and we didn’t know if it was an intermission or if it was over. so we went outside and everyone was getting in their cars and leaving, so we assumed it was over. but i was still really confused why they didnt play the whole dvd, and i said i was pissed because the 2nd half is better than the first half.

December 12, 2001 – i was at a convenience store with bono and someone else. marilyn manson was there too. i don’t know what was going on, but i guess marilyn was trying to make me into a devil or something. he was trying to convert us or SOMETHING. but i was getting really irritated at him, and he was getting irritated at me. so marilyn left the store, and i got really pissed off. so i ripped one of the glass freezer doors off of the freezer in the store, and ran out of the store after marilyn. i screamed at him that i was going to break the glass over his head. marilyn turns around, and is like yeah right. so i try to swing the glass door over my head onto him, and he just pushes it away and grabs my shoulders. then there was this deafining horrendous piercing sound in my ears, i guess as he was changing me into a devil. then bono hit him with something, which made him let go of my shoulders so the “changing” stopped, and we got away.

January 11, 2002 – i was bono, and i was in berlin after the wall came down, and i wanted to go to this cemetery in east berlin to look at the graves, and write things on them (?!?) so i kneeled down by this one grave, and was reading it, and was about to carve something into it when people started walking by. so i stopped because i didn’t want to get caught. i went back later to the same grave, and started carving a sentence into it (which i now forget, but it was something to do with love) and before i could do the last word, people started coming by. so i was trying to hide the screwdriver i was using, until the people went away but they were having a picnic next to the headstone. so i got up to look at the other graves, and come back to that one later but too many people were around.

February 9, 2002 – i was part of the superbowl halftime show with u2. it wasn’t like the real performance, cuz the stage was a circle not a heart, and not hollow. me adrienne and 2 other of my friends were running around the circle stage, cuz apparently this was part of the show. then at the end, we were in line for a meet and greet with u2. there were these square glass shelves separating all the people in line from u2 and the body guards and workers etc. my mom’s godson paul was one of the people working behind the glass shelves. the shelves came up to my shoulders, and this was so no one could attack u2. paul was handing out tshirts to everyone in line, for u2 to sign. then danielle was there, and she went over to paul and hugged him and wouldn’t let go. so paul gave me a shirt, and i went to talk to larry. larry didn’t look like larry really, but it was larry. so i give him the shirt, and he signs it. then i realize i have a camera so i’m like, i dont know if i’m allowed to take a picture but i am anyway. so larry looks up and sees my camera and smiles. so i’m thinking, the u2 girls are gonna love this pic of larry smiling. so then i go onto the next one, and it turns out to be Johnny from econoline crush. but apparently he was supposed to be in u2, and everyone knew this. so i’m like hi, larry still has my shirt. so then larry gives the shirt to johnny, and he asks for my name. and i’m like sara. and so johnny goes, hey bono, we got another sara. and bono (who actually was bono and looked like bono) said oh, with an h or without (something like that). and so i’m staring at bono and i’m like no H. and he’s like, oh, sometimes i just wanna keep putting letters on that name forever. so i was like ??? but i was just like, it’s bono, omg, i’m going to talk to bono next. so then johnny signs my shirt and he’s just staring at me.

February 8, 2002 – U2 was playing in buffalo at the football stadium. i had been telling people about how i didn’t have tickets, so i was upset, but i wasn’t going to bother trying to find any cuz it was going to be on tv. so it was the day of the show, and somehow i was there. i was sitting in one of the middle levels, on adam’s side of the stage. so i’m sitting around and talking to a person that was next to me. then suddenly we were on the floor, a few rows from the front, and we had seats near he aisle. the opener came on and it was kid rock. but he wasn’t playing normal kid rock songs. the person behind me was saying that she really didn’t enjoy this kind of music, and i had figured as much for some reason. then lindsay was behind me i realized, and there were other school age kids around, and they had to do some project where they needed a copy of the openers set list. people had been handing the setlist out to everyone, but they were all different. and then the songs that were actually being played were not the same as the ones on the setlist. then brian may came onstage and played 2 queen songs, and one imported freddie mercury’s voice to play while brian was playing keyboards. so the opener finished, and then i was back home watching it on tv. my dad came home and wanted me to do something with my car, look under it or something. and i was like nope, my concert starts in 4 minutes. then i must have had the wrong channel on because i missed the very beginning, and turned to it in the middle of the song. bono had on regular dorky clear glass glasses on instead of his usual tinted ones, so that was weird. then i was at a water park, but it was a beach. and it had pure white sand, and everyone was in white bathing suits. so i went in the pool and was swimming, then i got out to walk around. i guess i was in this other pool and i saw people giving kids water to drink out of the pool. that confused me cuz usually pools have tons of chlorine in them. i was walking back to the first pool, and there was an announcment about how these pools have a new method where they dont use chlorine, but that meant that body fluids in the pool would stay in there, or something, so that people needed to be careful about cutting themselves etc. there was a kiddie pool next to the big pool and it had been evacuated cuz the water was all brown. then i was home again watching tv again, and it was a show about U2 at an amusement park. they were showing camera footage of u2 on rollercoasters. they were showing this one coaster, it was red, and larry and bono were on it. larry looked like joshua tree era but bono looked like recent times, and bono was screaming but larry wasn’t. then i realized i was on the rollercoaster. so i’m shouting MOM I’M ON TV! and she’s like what? and I’m like yeah I’m on TV! so she looks, and they’re showing the footage, and sure enough I had been on the roller coaster at the same time, with all the neighborhood girls. but we were kids, so the footage was really old. i looked like i was 5. and since a bunch of 3-5 year olds were on this coaster with u2 it must have been a baby ride. then they showed footage of u2 on this water ride. there were a bunch of rubber rafts connected to eachother, that then went through a log ride type set up. but when the ride was going down the first hill, bono’s raft malfunction and became unattached from the rest, so he went flying over the hills on his own (all the rafts were supposed to detach after the last hill to go speeding off to the end). so it was really scary because he could have gotten really hurt cuz it malfunctioned.

march 2, 2002 – i was watching a parade, and i was i front of the crowd watching it. a float came by and U2 was on it. bono was playing bag pipes. the others were standing there holding bag pipes but not playing them. then the parade stopped to wait for something, so the float was right in front of me. i was super close to it, i could lean on it. so i was like yeah u2 is right in front of me! so bono was sitting there writing in a notebook, and he kept looking up at me, but it was like he was really shy or embarassed. then adam was next to bono and he started talking to me. he kept talking and talking (i dunno about what), and bono would laugh, and look at me. then i started wondering why the parade wasn’t moving yet. but then bono asked me for my email address. so i got onto the float, which turned into something more like a tour bus. so he gave me the notebook so i could write in it, and he had Sara PhD on the notebook and then space for my email. I guess i had a phd in something he was interested in (not psych) and wanted to talk to me more. so i wrote down my email address, but it was really illegable. so i was like ok i gotta write it again because you’ll never be able to read it. so adam was laughing at me i guess because i had bad handwriting. so i wrote my email address down again, even tho i couldn’t remember what it was, and gave it back to bono. then bono called edge and larry over to talk to me.

“I’ve had sex. And sex with a woman, too. Also I started smoking – cigars first and then cigarettes – but I’ve had to stop because I couldn’t hit the notes any more. There are full-voice B flats and B naturals which can be real bastards.”
-Bono, on why his voice is deeper, 2001

 

*can’t breathe!*
“The penis-ring I felt was enough. It’s a lot of weight for one man to carry. No, I’m a virgin in that sense.” – Bono, when asked by Max magazine if he had a tattoo.
*dying* lol

“Bono just wanted to meet Sisqo because he thought he was one of the few singers in the world who is shorter than he is. He was wrong by an inch.” – Edge, GQ 2001

GQ: How about those skin-tight chequerboard trousers you used to wear?
Bono: “Unforgiveable. Forget The Unforgettable Fire, what about the Unforgivable Trousers?”

“My children will tell me to turn down my Bono-ness occasionally” – Bono, 2001

BP: IF YOU WERE AN ANIMAL WHAT ANIMAL WOULD YOU BE?
Bono: A wildebeest. You’d have to have a sense of humour with a name like that

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

obviously i’m reading the spin U2 article…
“we were freaks. somebody once said, comparing us with Van Morrison, that most people start off writing songs about girls and get to writing songs about God. We did it totally backwards!” – bono

“‘beautiful day’ takes on a whole different meaning, ’cause that was the thing on September 11th – it was a beautiful morning.” – larry……………………why that is so important to me that i quoted it, was because i think that all the time. no one around me mentioned what an absolutely gorgeous day that was…and now everytime we have a really nice day out, i think about how beautiful a day that sept 11th was….

“It was Larry who actually said to me at the end of Pop, in a very Larry kind of way, “Next year, why don’t we actually make a pop album, instead of just calling it Pop?”” – bono ROFLMAO…i dunno why i thought that was so funny…

in regards to the song “peace on earth” – “now that’s a bitter little song! I think people get the bitterness now, cause before i think they thought it was lovey-dovey, “wouldn’t it be nice.” as opposed to “fuck off, god!” which i hope is even stronger coming out of the mouth of a believer.” – bono

ok… bono is nuts. i have no idea what the hell this analogy is supposed to be about…i think he just started talking, and needed to end somewhere so he did. god i love him. ” i think the dalai lama said, “if you want to consider life, start with death” – the journey toward enlightenment starts with that. and that’s what happened to me when my mother died when i was a kid in school, and at my grandfather’s funeral. i was this really confident kid, aggro and smartarse, a freckled face – i looked like a baked bean when i was a kid, i really did. then a nose started to appear. it was a bit of a shock – out of this baked bean came this nose. i was a little alarmed, and then this chin came, until the two of them finally called it quits. i had the courage of somebody who didn’t know anything, who didn’t know fear yet, and then came the cold water of your home turning into a house and your relationship to women changing forever. i was 14. but now i see it was a great gift to me. hopefully most people can avoid that until they’re older, but some people have it young. i don’t know what age new york city is.”

WHAT THE HELL IS HE TALKING ABOUT?! ok i get the first part…and then his mother dies at his grandpas funeral…right. and then wtf is this part about a nose and chin?…puberty? and a home turning into a house?….and relationship to women changing.. is he talking about sex there? does he mean he was 14 when he lost his virginity? i’m pretty sure he was 14 when his mom died…and then the part about, it being a great gift… i’m thinking he’s back to talking about his mom dying, and him having to “grow up” at age 14…and does he mean now, that NYC got this “gift” and now has to grow up?!?!?!?! i love you bono. you make everything so interesting!

 

 

“i always believed that music is a transcendent thing, a healing thing. I just didn’t think that i would have to depend on it as much as i did this year” – bono

“It never was only sound; only words – it was so much more.” – Trent Reznor

 

Disney movies are so racist…i never paid attention, so maybe it’s only old disney movies that are racist – reflecting the time period or what not… and like “song of the south”…at least they admit that it’s completely racist, and points a pretty picture of the master-slave relationship…and that the movie just about ignores that slavery existed…hah. ahhh disney, you are wonderful!….in Peter Pan they talk about how Red Skins are cunning but not very intelligent….and there is a whole song about “why is the red man red? when did he first say ug? why does he say how?” hahah….blows my mind.

 

Adam Clayton’s (Tom) diary Feb 14, 1982

“February 14th Valentine’s Day
Today is St. Valentine’s Day and where is my Valentine? On the drive from Austin to San Antonio we stopped off at a snake farm/amateur zoo. It was very depressing. Lots of caged animals not looking very healthy. The high point was a mad monkey which had epileptic fits accompanied by blood-chilling shrieks. It was really quite a scream because Bono started singing. This infuriated the creature even further — its shrieks grew louder. Bono matched its volume until the deranged creature started to beat his head against the wall. Eventually a very brusque woman ran over and dismissed us, complaining how cruel it was to drink sodas in front of our friend as there was nothing it liked more than a glass of Coke.

On to the gig. During the show, Bono handed out flowers to girls. Wish I’d done that. He’s got friends for life. Afterwards we spent a long time with the punters. The Texans are a nice simple people, consequently conversation lasted long. 3.15 a.m. back to the hotel via The Alamo, which received the dubious accolade of consecration with Ozzy Osbourne’s urine.

Fort Apache, The Bronx was on the HBO cable. Great film and Paul Newman’s best performance in years.

Friday

Up too early with everyone looking wrecked. Arrive in Denver and Edge discovers a ski resort 50 miles up country. The four of us head off. It had to be hushed up as a broken leg at this stage of the tour would not be welcome. Stories were fabricated and changed so that no one had any idea where we were. It was a lovely drive through the Rockies to the resort. Once there, Edge organises the activities, as he is the experienced amateur. We get our skis on and Bono falls over immediately. We potter about on the nursery slopes under Edge’s instructions. I eventually feel confident enough to try my luck on the mountain. I wish I hadn’t. I’ve never been so frightened in all my life. To reach the top of the mountain we have to hang on chair lift, hundreds of feet above the ground with no safety bar. I was so hysterical I would have gladly thrown myself off had Edge not kept me talking.

At the top it soon becomes obvious that I had been over optimistic. I tell Edge to go off and enjoy himself, I’ll walk down. The mountain very nearly claimed me. Edge goes up and down twice in the time it takes me to walk. Then he did a black slope. As you might know black slopes are very serious. And then some, like black holes and black belts. We retire to the bar for the only bit of ski I like — apres ski and Gluewein. We make the mistake of ordering Irish Coffees, which are barely coffee and certainly not Irish. The cream comes from one of those aerosol jobs and there’s a nasty green mint liqueur to boot. Once back in the hotel we decide to go and see Reds. It’s a good film but I felt it lost its punch in places, but maybe that’s because I was so tired.”

ROFLMAO…omg how adorable is that!!! i can imagine bono trying to outscream the epilleptic monkey ROFL…and Adam and Edge skiing, Bono falling over… ROFL…omg…yes i’m working on my paper, thanks for asking.

 

 

my grandpa called. it’s really funny how there are certain things my family isn’t allowed to talk about with him. like we can’t tell him important things we’ve done in our lives, because he’ll flip out. the most recent one is we’re not allowed to tell him my aunt bought a bed and breakfast. she told him they bought a house, and it’s an old stone house…but they left out the bed and breakfast part, cuz he’ll freak out. my mom is 52 and he still doesn’t know she used to smoke as a teenager. he doesn’t know my dad bought a toyota mr2 5 years ago LOL. there are just so many things that are off limits. definitely not going to mention my cross country trip during the summer…so today, he’s telling me about how my aunt bought an old stone house in wisconsin, etc etc etc…and i’m sitting here thinking, yup i know, i knew about it a month ago…lol. i dunno, it’s just funny.

i think trent reznor should do a whole album of his instrumentals. they are really so good, and i can’t even imagine what else he could do with them. i realize it would be an album purely for nin fans…but really, does he ever make an album that is supposed to be for the masses? no. haha…i just think it would be really amazing to hear all his instrumentals. the ones that are on the fragile are just so incredible… i get blown away every time. especially “just like you imagined”….”the mark has been made”…”the frail”…yeah….”pilgramage” or as i like to call it “1984” hahah if you never read the book, you won’t get that…oh well. ur loss hehe…

yeaaah i’m working on my paper. i wrote another paragraph! basically it’s just the definition of attachment copied directly from my notes hehe

 

 

i love the merivale mall books. teenage girls need more quality books like these…
“As Don’s handsome face filled Danielle’s thoughts, she had to feel a little sorry that a real relationship between the two of them was, in fact, utterly impossible. After all, she was Danielle Sharp of Wood Hollow Hills, the wealthiest neighborhood in Marivale, and one of the exclusive Atwood Academy’s most popular juniors. She had to live up to the super-high status her family had achieved ever since her father had made a fortune designing and developing Merivale Mall. She had to wear the best clothes, go to the best schools…and date the best boys. And Don James? He lived on a run-down farm with a bunch of guys who wore grungy black leather jackets and drove around like maniacs on motorcycles. Don went to public school – Merivale High School – and studied auto mechanics of all things. In other words, Don was the very definition of low status!”

girls need role models like Danielle…she knows what’s going on!!

did i mention i could have written these books? no one’s ever read the first long story i’ve ever written, but let’s just say…it’s quite valley girl, miss popular cheerleader – esque… I WAS 12 WHEN I STARTED WRITING IT!!…but lets just say at 12, my story was far better than these books. lol

OMG i SWEAR i wrote this book!!!
Merivale Mall: “the fact was, when she’d transferred from Merivale High to Atwood, they had been the only popular girls who even talked to her. And thanks to them, Danielle had been able to work her way into the popular crowd too.”
My story: “It was the beggining of the school year, in a new school. I would be so embarassed if anyone saw me here and it would ruin my chance of becoming a cheerleader. I looked over at the door and saw the most popular girl in school, Lindsay Carteers, walk in the shuffelboard court. She walked right toward me.”

oh i’m too tired to find any more of my old story parts that are exactly like this book…but lets just say, THE ENTIRE THING i could have written hahaha

i feel loved
from email “Your dreams are the BEST! I hit your site by complete accident while looking up “tornado dreams”. I have psychotic dreams too, but yours are more interesting than mine are. I’ve told my sister, who also has cool dreams, to visit your site. Keep up the good work, this is the best read on the web.”

wasn’t that nice? and speaking of dreams… i remembered a flash of one i had last night. It’s my first WTC sept11th related dream…i mean first directly related one…I think i was actually at the WTC when it happened in the dream, and I was looking through an opening from underneath a car and i was watching the towers collapse and hit the ground. someone was with me, but i don’t know who it was.

so i went to the extra credit talk. it was this guy talking about violent media and the family…he mentioned Sept 11th news coverage towards the end, which prompted the flashback to my dream. but it was interesting. a much better look at violent tv and video games then other reports….totally didn’t point the finger and say TV = bad, get rid of TV…but he asserted the fact that it is a risk factor, and parents can totally mediate the effects by talking to their kids about what they watch etc…now i gotta write up the summaries for my 2 classes.

i also talked to dr ballard about my neuropsych paper. totally didn’t realize i had to do this 2nd part. it’s not hard, its just a table of all the articles i read…summarizing them more or less. so i’m gonna do that after i write my summaries….it’ll organize them in my mind so i can start writing the paper. ug. i hate papers.

i saw dr mounts today…he is so cute. i love him. i wish i could take more classes with him cuz he’s so funny. he doesn’t know who i am. oh and at the talk, there were no seats left except first row. whatever, so i went to sit in one of them, after i sat down i realized i was sitting next to dr lynch. great. i mean, nothing wrong with that, at least he KNOWS for definite sure that I was there, since i was right next to him LOL…but i was paranoid he was looking at what i was writing the whole time LOL. and he definitely has a batman watch LOL.

 

am i delusional to believe things that bono says?…i mean he says some of the most emotion laden things, that i really want to believe are from the heart. that he’s being sincere…. i think that if i found out he wasn’t being sincere about alot of what he says, i’d be really devastated LOL…i mean life would go on and everything. but i think part of what makes me love him so much is his sincerity. and i really do believe he means much of what he says…he works for alot of good causes, u2’s always been a political band…and why do all that if you didn’t mean it…

this was all spurred on by bono’s ramble at the end of “walk on” from NJ recently…he’s wearing the shirt of one of the fire fighters (or maybe police) who died on sept 11th, thanking him for wearing the uniform for us all his life, that he’s now singing with the angels…etc. and that would be SUCH a cliche thing to do at this point in time…from anyone else i would suspect it would be all about looking good in the media…but for him, i really think it’s something he really means, really cares about, etc….

if michael jackson did that, i’d be like “oh give it up already…”….i mean, bono cried into the US flag in Hamilton, I was touched beyond belief…michael jackson wraps himself up in the US flag during the DC concert for america thing, and I’m like “oh please, that’s so lame”…i don’t know…i’m so tired.

something is wrong with my eye. feels like it’s being stabbed LOL…i wrote the intro page to my paper. writing the rest tomorrow. so you know what that means right? lots of blogging all night long!

 

reading random blogs… found one with an entry that is so perfect!

stolen from http://echocracker.blogspot.com/

“Haven’t you read my blog?

That is what comes out of my mouth a lot lately. I am getting to the point that I don’t even talk to people anymore. If we do talk and one of us mentions something that happened in our lives and the person doesn’t know what we are talking about we say, “haven’t you read my blog?”

I worry if people don’t blog for a few days. I wonder if everything is okay. I was saying to someone today, “Is (fill in name) doing okay? They haven’t blogged in a week!” ”

LOL THATS SO GREAT!!!

i blog too much… i blog too much stupid shit, which forces the posts that are actually good, and the ones i think deserve comments, down farther….ug

i took a way too hot shower this morning. now i feel like crap. when i was a kid i used to take baths that were way too hot, and i’d get out and lay on the floor for hours because it made me so sick. i’d usually throw up after that. after they turned our hot water back on this last time, they turned it up and now its scalding hot all the time.

i said that stuff below about not knowing if bono is a pot head or not, cuz u2 hasn’t ever been known as a druggie band…but bono writes about heroin alot. and i read an interview where the guy asked bono if he used heroin and he wouldn’t say either way because if he said “yeah i’ve tried heroin” it would make alot of people who couldn’t afford the drug, or afford the consequence start using. i don’t know why he didn’t just say no, because that would lead almost everyone to believe that yeah he’s used heroin. i should go and read his answer again…ANYWAY even if you were to assume u2 used drugs it was Adam who was the addict with all the issues not Bono so…yeah. Bono just drinks alot lol. He’s irish

when are the people who make the new english dictionaries just going to add “alot” to it so that i can use it with good conscience.

i had a whole bunch of u2 dreams last night but i don’t remember much of them at all. i remember something with Adam and a car.

 

 

MJ: The ’60s generation celebrated both sex and drugs as liberating. Nowadays there has been a lot of bashing of both as evil. You present a fairly chaste image…

BONO: We don’t.

MJ: In the movie we never even see you take a drink. We never see you doing drugs…

BONO: The idea that we would hide the drink from the camera is idiotic beyond belief. It’s another cliché that redundant minds throw at U2. “You present a chaste image.” Oh god!

MJ: Do you like being intoxicated?

BONO: (Raises a finger) ‘Tis better to be drunk on the spirit; however, a bottle of Jack Daniel’s is sometimes handier.

MJ: Do you ever find intoxicants, including psychedelics, creatively useful?

BONO: I am already on drugs. I am the sort of person who needs to take drugs to make me normal. (laughs) I have experimented. No, I don’t think that it is something that everybody has to do, one, just to be alive, or two, to write great songs.

MJ: I don’t mean “have to.” But do you have a positive attitude towards drugs?

BONO: I’m not going to tell you that I have a positive attitude towards people who are hurting themselves. Drug abuse is a very negative thing.

MJ: Do you believe there is such a thing as drug use as opposed to abuse?

BONO: I do believe there could be.

MJ: In your own life, have you experienced…

BONO: I don’t want to talk about that. I’ll give you just one example of why it would be irresponsible for me to answer your question in a certain way: I’ve written so many songs using heroin as an image, it might be interesting for me to tell you that, say, “I’ve had experiences with the drug heroin.” It might be interesting for me to do it, and to own up to it. If it were misconstrued, somebody who, for whatever reason, respects me, that might lead them to get into it. OK. If I become addicted to heroin, I can afford the trappings. I can afford the Betty Ford clinic. I can afford to have my blood changed. I can afford the trappings of being an addict. But there is some guy who lives in a room in Dublin who can’t. And nobody gives a shit about his addiction! So it is highly irresponsible for rock ‘n’ roll people to perpetuate the myth of drug addiction. One of the things that I get a good feeling that U2 has done is to break open the mythology of rock ‘n’ roll. The mythology that wearing a safety pin in your nose means you’re a rebel. Shaving your head does not mean you’re a rebel.

MJ: You’re saying those trappings have nothing to do with the true rebellious soul of rock ‘n’ roll…

BONO: Yeah, the rebellious soul. The mythology of “live-fast-die-young” sickens me. I just want to throw up on these bastards! That’s because in our city, Dublin City, I’ve seen the place truly ravaged by drug addiction. People seriously fucked up, and people inspired by this idea of “living close to the edge.”

i just want to say that when i first read this article i freaked out because i finally found the origin of one of my most favourite quotes. it was originially printed in this rock n roll quote book i had, and i always liked it….. bono’s “the mythology of “live-fast-die-young” sickens me. I just want to throw up on these bastards!” hahahaha i was like YAY I FINALLY FOUND WHERE THAT CAME FROM! also, that whole “shaving your head does not mean your a rebel”… i always loved that quote too cuz it was in the book i had, but now it’s such a fight club thing “sticking feathers up your ass does not make you a chicken” lol