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1. i’m really tired of our toilet breaking all the time. this is like the 3rd time at least. we’ve been here less than a month. most of the time it just keeps running, because the chain comes unhooked. but this time it wouldn’t flush at all. so i had to rehook the stupid chain. i don’t appreciate having to stick my hand in the toilet…arg.
2. why is it that everytime i come home from my tues/thurs class and want to take a nap, they’re pounding and doing more construction on my house?
3. GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!! DECEMBER 4TH DECEMBER 4TH NINE INCH NAILS FRAGILITY TOUR CD AND DVD! FINALLY!!!!!! how long have we been waiting for this?!?!?!? I NEED A DVD PLAYER! (and a vcr since mine is dead)….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

omgomg so excited about the NIN dvd…just watched the trailer! ahhh i can’t wait. it’s been too long since we got new nin stuff. and so what if i dont have a dvd player, i have the fight club dvd, still haven’t watched it LOL. i’ll go to joe’s house, he’s got play station 2. i’ll force him to lemme watch it. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh excited.

 

i’ve decided that i don’t really like band whores…i don’t mean like people who are really sleeping with the band…i could give a shit about what you do with band members…and i know you could say i’m a bit band whore myself, but i’m totally not. band whore, to me, is a person who’s live revolves around bands and shit, with the mistaken notion that they give a rats ass about you. i’m not deluded enough to believe that the econoline guys (for example) care about me in the slightest, no matter how many times i hang out with them…call me a realist :P.

i’m also not talking about anyone in particular here…just in general. i don’t even know what brought this on (ok i lie, i do know what brought this on, but i don’t feel like sharing to the world). there was this girl i met, i forget her name…she’s krista’s friend (krista is eric’s friend)…she was like 14, and every band we talked about she’s like, oh, i know them.. blah blah..no wait, she didn’t say she knew them, she said “i’m FRIENDS with them”…sorry hun but i hardly think any adult band member gives a shit about some little 14 year old that they might have met a few times….she’s not the reason i thought of this, but she’s a prime example. yeah. ima stop now.

 

i also think that i’m over my 1.5-2 year “must see every concert” phase…i mean, i love concerts still, and i still “need” to go to them… but it’s not like it used to be. example…family values tour is coming to buffalo. stone temple pilots are headlining. am i going? no. did i even think about going? no. i just don’t care about it. i don’t want to be on the floor, smooshed with a bunch of 15 year olds, and getting kicked in the head. i also don’t want seats in the back of the friggen arena. i’m so over sacrificing myself for concerts.

of course there are exceptions. i want to see U2 and Tool. still no word on a buffalo Tool date. both of those shows i will pay for, and i will sacrifice myself for U2 (not tool). and of course, there are the givens of NIN, Orgy, APC….and there are a few bands i want to see that I haven’t yet… but other than that, yeah, i’m over it.

 

from a very outdated u2 FAQ….some funny things

7.5.2 However, oddly enough . . . .

MJS

This section is devoted to weird rumors from the usenet and other sources that turn out to have a grain of truth to them.

Q: Is it true that Bono likes to have his chest shaved ?
MJS
Well, Bono has had his chest shaved once that I know of:

Bono has an irregular heartbeat. He had to have an exam for his insurance company. He had too much chest hair for the doctor to be able to hear his heartbeat so they shaved part of it off. I looked up irregular heartbeat – it is caused by stress, anger, smoking, too much caffeine in coffee or tea. It is not fatal and it’s ok to have one.
MJS

Whether or not Bono enjoyed having his chest shaved is unknown at this time.

Q: I heard that Bono stripped in the middle of a crowded restaurant.
MJS

This is true. From Newsday March 27, 1992: At a dinner earlier this week at London’s celebrity haunt, Nikita, Bono surprised his 18 dinner guests by removing all his clothes – including his black bikini briefs – for no apparent reason. During the Russian meal of mainly vodka and caviar, we’re told the Irish rocker sat naked and acted as if being nude in a plush, crowded restaurant was the most natural thing in the world. Which, in some quarters, we suppose it is. “Sometimes people drink vodka and do strange things,” Nikita owner Sylvain Borsi told us. But didn’t he find Bono’s behavior a bit eccentric, to say the least? “No, he was very nice and very civilized,” Borsi said. “I think he just felt more comfortable with nothing on.” But he had a really good reason! From Newsday March 30, 1992 : His spokesman says Bono was actually being interviewed by a journalist during dinner when the Irish rocker decided to undress, as we reported. “The writer was so unimaginative, so frozen, so unloose that Bono thought it would be a good idea to take his clothes off,” the spokesman said. “And there wasn’t much of a reaction.”

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happy october! best month of the year!

ok so my shit day is over…slept badly. woke up at 6:55 because of construction noise, and the fact i was paranoid about oversleeping. alarm was at 8:30…fell asleep a bit but kept hearing my housemates getting ready for class. but whatever. i had a dream that my test was postponed, i go to class and there is a big orange class cancellation notice on the door… for my professor!! for a moment i was overjoyed with happiness until i realized it wasn’t for our class. she cancelled her stat’s class, not neuropsych. so we still had our exam. had to answer questions 5 and 6… 5 was the big outline of mamalian brain divisions and structures inside them.. oh, and their functions…and 6 was about the thalamus and hypothalamus which i didn’t bother to study until this morning. the drawing was of a neuron, how easy is that, and the labels were only 9 of however many were there… so that i did fine on. and i looked over my outlines after and i remembered pretty much everything i had studied for my essays… still don’t know if that’s enough info for 35 pts, but i guess we’ll find out.

and i changed my cds today lol…put in u2 bsides which i’ve only ever listened to once, and put in duran duran medazzaland, cuz i got one of the songs in my head during psychopathology today… left in pop, cuz i’m not quite over my obsession with “do you feel loved?” yet… 🙂

hmm what else do i have to say? i’m tired as hell. was gonna skip psychopathology to go nap, but decided to go. i should have skipped cuz all we did was go over friday’s exam (got an 88)…we got our paper assignments too. big deal. i spaced out for the entire class period lol.

i don’t know if i ever mentioned this, but in batavia there were a couple of these big billboards and on them were pictures of jesus that said “behold i am coming” or something. well right after the attacks last month (jesus, it was last month already) i went home on a friday, the billboards were there, and then saturday when i came back, they were gone. they changed them to ads of the corn maze in Mt Morris, and there was a picture of the statue of liberty on the billboard. so i was like, wtf, jesus is gone, and now the statue of liberty is up…wtf does the statue have to do with the corn maze, or is that just some kind of patrotic statement after what happened. LOL wellll i found out today from danielle that the corn maze is in the shape of the statue this year LOL makes sense now. how appropriate 😛

 

i’m really really happy right now, and i feel stupid cuz i’m sitting here by myself laughing…no i’m not going psycho. there actually is a reason i’m so happy (it has nothing to do with u2 😛 so don’t even think it)….

i decided to go read the old IRC foo quotes…good times good times, back in the day. i miss it.. how sad is that? some of the funniest times in my life involved sitting in front of a computer talking to people across the world….well whatever. it was fun, we had some seriously good times on IRC…and meeting all the ppl i met in person etc…robin, sandy, em, mand, lau…various others. yeah we rocked.

 

even tho i’m revelling in sexy bono-ness at the moment…sometimes there are a reason B-sides are B-sides….

 

OMG carolyn has a survey that i filled out on…… JANUARY 28, 1998!!!!!!!!!! ROFLMAO this is too great! lets look at some highlights
(keep in mind, this is when i was a big dork… like i’m not a dork anymore)

SCREEN NAME: My AOLIM name is ImaMJfan98
NICKNAMES: My Awesome Friend Dan calls me Figgy
JOBS: Student, professional McDonalds worker (that hasn’t changed lol)
COOLEST EXPERIENCE: Going to England by myself
SCARIEST THING YOU’VE EVER DONE:Going to England by myself, because my plane had a 15 hr delay in Toronto and I was by myself and Ihad to go to a hotel all by myself and stuff
WHO I WANT TO MARRY: I really HOT brittish man, with a neat accent, and a cool name like Simon, or Alistare lol
FAV Performers/Music groups: Michael Jackson, INXS, The Rolling Stones, Metallica, Cranberries, STP, alternative stuff…I have weird tastes in music
FAV SUBJECT: IN SCHOOL? I HATE SCHOOL its so boring.. fav subject…righ tnow, English, and only because my teacher is SO HOT! AHH, I really hate english
FAV Quote:OH I have lots of fav quote http://www.geocities.com/soho/gallery/4265/ but if I hvae to pick one now, I made it up myself it would be ” I want to hate him so much, yet I wish to be with him” ( gee who would that one be about??) from the date of this survey, i’m going to guess i was talking about scott….

and looking at the recipients of the email, i sent it to my mom’s friend, and my cousin?!?! lol

i’m certainly alot more vague in my responses to surveys now…and alot funnier… even tho this survey was hysterical to read.

also i think i’ve decided that i kept refering to dan as “my awesome friend” because he was helping me out and giving me advice about scott….it’s gotta be that…why else would i call him that LOL he wasn’t that great…

 

i’ve hacked into carolyn’s email account, and i’m going through her “Sara” folder and looking at the emails i sent her that she kept…she has one from panther98@juno.com when i used to sign my emails “Sara 🙂 the self proclaimed Princess of Neverland” ROFL I TOTALLY FORGOT I USED TO DO THAT ROFLMAO!!!!!!

 

 

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trent reznor has really great lips…not like i know personally or anything. just commenting. trent’s lips, with jay’s tongue….*drool*

ok really, i’m ok 🙂

 

one more neuropsych question to answer, then straight studying until bedtime…great.

i got another awesome email…this subject line is up there with the “slurp slurp squish squish sex sex” one… “USE YOUR DICK TO PLAY BASEBALL! ” yah hoo!! i always wanted to do that!

 

i’m going to fail

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September 29, 2001

first dream in months that i remember the entire thing
me and danielle had tickets to a concert in hamilton ontario. it was for staind and some other band i can’t remember now, and it was at an amusement park near hamilton. so we got directions to go up there and were driving. well the directions didn’t take us to the park, we were driving, and we were supposed to take the 490 but the road we were on ended at another road, at a T shaped intersection, neither of which were 490, so we had no clue where to go. then we were in downtown hamilton, and we didn’t want to get lost so we figured we’d go ask someone how to get to the park, since everyone there must know where it is. so we parked the car, and went to talk to this kid who was working at a vendor thing, like a little hot dog booth. then it was inside a department store, like Kmart. so we go talk to this kid, he was really cute, and he had no shirt on. we asked him if he knew how to get to the amusement park because we had tickets to the concert that night. he said he did, and he’d write them down for us. but we ended up talking to him for a long time, and then his friend showed up to just hang out. i guess the friend would hang out with the kid at work all day long, and apparantly the store didn’t care. the first kid, he said that we could go to his house and wait for him and he could take us to the park, or he could give us directions. we said we just needed directions, and that we’d be fine. so he wrote out instructions on this tiny piece of paper. he gave them to me and i looked at them and they were instructions about how to bypass and beat certain parts of Donkey Kong Country for super nintendo. so i was like um, yeah i need directions to the park. and he was like oh, ok, and wrote me out directions. the directions were the same if we decided to drive from where we were downtown, or if we wanted to take the subway. so we figured we’d take the subway, leave the car down here, so then we wouldn’t have to fight as much after the concert to get out of the parkinglot. so me and danielle said goodbye to the guys and left to get to the subway station. we just had to walk straight ahead past some buildings to get to it. so we got to the subway station and we found the train, and got on. so we’re sitting there waiting for it to leave, but then we realize it’s the wrong train. but we couldn’t get off. so we had to take the train to the next stop and figure out what to do from there. by then we were really tired, and we didn’t even want to see the concert because we dont really like staind, or any of the other bands that were playing. so we decided we didn’t want to go to the concert afterall, but that we’d lie to our parents that we went, since we did spend 30$ on the tickets. so we got off the subway, and decided we’d go back to the store and hang out with those guys cuz they were really cool. we didn’t know where we were however, and so we were walking around the city trying to find where our car was, and where the store was, to talk to the guys again. there was all kinds of water around, like ponds and lakes…we were walking over a bridge and an airplane landed on the water next to us, i guess there was an airport there. but it wasn’t a hydrofoil plane, or whatever they’re called, it was a normal plane. the plane was decorated very strangely, i didn’t recognize the company of the plane. the whole time i have my backpack, and inside my backpack is pound puppy, my pillow, and school books. it was really heavy, so danielle and i were taking turns carrying it. so then we finally find the store again, and go inside to talk to the guys again. they were surprised to see us back, because we were supposed to be going to the concert, but we told them we said screw it, and were just gonna lose the money we spent cuz we never wanted to see the bands anyway. so we’re sitting around in the store hanging out, and this girl comes to talk to the first guy we met. she was really fat and had on a bathing suit. she had just come back from swimming at the public pool or something. i got kinda scared that the girl was the kids girlfriend, because i really liked the guy. but then i figured out it was just a friend of his, because he commented on her boyfriend, who was a midget. so the fat girl left and we were just hanging around there, and the guy was talking about midgets, and said that he was 3 feet tall.

possible explanation: i want to go see u2 in Hamilton ontario. my house might be going to cedar point in october one weekend. danielle and i were driving around yesterday, going to the mall, and had to follow directions that included taking the 490. i saw a really really REALLY short woman yesterday, she wasnt a midget, maybe a dwarf or something. Leah downloaded and printed a bunch of cheater codes, and info about donkey kong country.
possible interpretation: dunno….
posted by opal tranquility 11:18 AM

September 26, 2001

only remember 2 things from a night full of dreams… 1. bono 2. i was smoking a cigar
posted by opal tranquility 4:44 PM

September 25, 2001

i was at the mall and i went to a G&G type store. But it was Merry Go Round (even tho they’re out of business). Dr Shanahan was working there, it was the grand opening or something, and she was fat. So I went in and was talking to her. Then I saw my aunt Carol walk in, she wanted to check out the store since she used to work for the company when it went out of business. So I called her name, and she turned around. So I was talking to her, then her friend Rob showed up. Rob is her good friend who is gay. Rob was all like, omg i haven’t seen you in so long (talking to me) and I was like, yeah it’s been a long time, I’ve grown up. Rob had longer hair, almost shoulder length, black leather jacket, black pants. He looked very very hot. He said something about how he liked my outfit and wanted me to give it to him, so I told him i loved his outfit and wanted his. Then him and my aunt were going around the store picking out clothes for me, but Rob kept picking all these outfits that looked like something Britney Spears would wear, and I was like um hell no.
possible explanation: apparantly my aunt told my mom she was going to call me, never did. dunno where Rob came from, haven’t seen him since I had black hair…since i had my badly died black hair, so that was about 2.5 years ago probably. watched the britney spears making the video on mtv yesterday… yes i know i’m lame.
possible interpretation: not sure
posted by opal tranquility 11:22 AM

September 13, 2001

i had a dream last night about trains. it was on the train track on river road, lots of people were standing around. a train went by slowly, and then from down the street, a train with 2 cars went and got onto the tracks. there was no device to get on the tracks like you need for trains, it just went on, and got the wheels lined up and went. the other train came by a few times, one time going off the tracks.
possible explanation: i dont know but i woke up in the morning turned on cnn and saw that 2 trains had crashed and derailed in utah.
posted by opal tranquility 12:09 PM

September 9, 2001

my mom had died. but no one knew. well me and my dad knew, and she had been burried, but i didn’t tell any of my friends or anything that she was dead. someone was talking about how awesome my mom is and i’m thinking, she’s dead, don’t you know. But no one knew she was dead, but Bono did. He came over to comfort me or something. Maybe someone brought him over to comfort me. So anyway, he started off sitting across from me, but then slowly he ended up next to me, and he had his arm around me and was kissing my head. I don’t think he ever said anything, I don’t think i did either. Then we were getting married. It wasn’t a big wedding or anything, I think just like at a courthouse thing. I’m there and I’m thinking, he’s old enough to be my dad. But I didn’t really care, it’s Bono! hello!
possible explanation: had just watched the MTV awards, U2 performed and accepted an award…and bono is so cute and funny haha.
possibile interpretation: i’m really going to marry bono 😛 haha right
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“where the streets have no name” has got to be one of the most hypnotic songs i’ve ever heard.

yah, i just finished my hour break from studying…i spent an hour doing nothing, but once i get back to studying i think of all kinds of things to do…like discuss the hypnotic effects of “streets”….

i was thinking… it’s weird that eric likes orgy’s vapor transmission better than candyass. eric tends to like the loud, no talent droning guitar sound…which is more like candyass than VT. VT is more musical than candyass was, many more different kinds of sounds and melodies…some critics said VT was very drum and bassy (i disagree)…but candyass is just definitely more like everything else eric listens to, yet he doesn’t like it…hmm weird…

yes i am studying 😛 shut up

something else for my wishlist: i want an old phrenology head. find me one. i found one on ebay, buy it for me

and see i AM studying for neuropsych, i’m at the phrenology part. lol

just so everyone knows, no, i am not insane. bono does indeed have 4 kids. just like i thought he did, but no… every damn u2 site i looked at for his bio said he had 3 kids, and that the youngest was around 2….but no, i was right afterall, he DID just have a baby in may, another boy…

yes i’m studying for neuropsych 😛

i take it back…. i do like most of this cd…it’s u2’s Pop… i don’t care for Miami as i stated, i HATE playboy mansion.. its one of the worst songs i’ve ever heard….velvet dress is ok, i don’t realize it’s even playing….Please is ok…wake up dead man is blah…ok so lemme start over. I like the cd songs 1-7…I dont like 8-whatever#…but i like PARTS of songs 8-whatever with the exception of playboy mansion which i just HATE.

something is wrong with me. i want clothes. i want to buy lots of clothes. i want to by clothes that i’d never wear. my clothes wishlist:
1. satin dragon jacket
2. lace up pants
3. the little shirt with fringe and black mini skirt with a black leather trench coat with fishnets and black whore boots like the outfit i tried on at Wet Seal.
4. the red furry jacket at Deb
5. the leather jacket for 400$ at Guess.
6. black dickies

i need to win a makeover and shopping spree.

i liked my hair today. yeah.

ok yeah so me and danielle went to the mall for dinner tonight. We went to eastview mall, which turns out is an hour away. yeah we’ve been there before, and I swear last time we went a different way and got there a hella lot faster. but i used eric’s directions, which were the same as yahoo directions, and it took like an hour. But we at dinner at Jack Astors, shopped for a while. she got the tea party transmission cd for 5 bucks at FYE. then we went to try on clothes at the Britney Spears slut store (aka Wet Seal). They actually had some cute, non slut stuff… ok yeah it’s still sorta slutty, but it was really cute. EVEN I LIKED IT!! I tried on this skirt, it was cream colored, knee length, with black crocheted lace over it. Tried on a medium I think, yeah, it was awful. it looked so bad, it was WAY too small. so then i tried on this little red shirt…it was like um…a tank top, but showed total stomach. it was red, black lace over it, and fringe. I could barely get it on, it was really small. Once it was on tho it fit. And I tried on this little black mini skirt. It was a LARGE and it fit perfectly. I looked cute 😛 I just need the whore boots and long black coat, mentioned above. Then I tried the shirt on with black “leather” pants. they were really cute too, and only 19$… but they were too small. like, i really had to suck my gut in to button them. would have needed a bigger size. BUT I REALLY LOVE THE SHIRT AND IT’S SO NOT ME!! When would I ever wear it? orgy concert probably… or a club, if i’m forced to go again. ahah

and yeah i had my exam today. total wrong answer for the 5 pt essay. it was something about discuss 2 of the 4 protective factors established by Rutter… I was like, who the hell is Rutter?? So i totally bullshitted an answer… i talked about intelligence, and social supports… neither of which were discussed by Rutter (i looked it up in the book)… so that answer is totally wrong. there were 4 multiple choice questions i was unsure of, 1 i totally didnt know, so i guessed. And i bullshited alot of the other 2 essays. whatever. we’ll see how badly i do.

all day yesterday i was like “where is adrienne? why isn’t she online? her net must be broken”… but then i remembered last night, that today was “the big day”… i hope everything went ok….

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before i forget, it’s really funny that sometimes in my blogs i speak directly to carolyn (and she speaks directly to me in her blog) when we talk to each other every day for like 4 hours. like her blog has a message to me about how the “you rock my world” video is up in 1 file instead of two on kazaa, but it’s still avi format. like she couldn’t tell me directly LOL.

and now this is my message for carolyn: why were you and your mom discussing the hotness factor of u2 members? LOL does she know the origin of guggi?

well i went to the health center about my shoulder. i guess it’s tendonitis or something. he said there’s a tendon that connects my bicep to my shoulder and then to my neck. and that’s exactly where it hurts, and why my neck and face were numb last night as well as my arm. i don’t know if i believe him totally, because he’s the guy who said my sore throat was due to the fact i was sniffling too much when it turns out i had mono. he gave me naproxin to reduce the inflamation of my tendon. he said it might be due to the scoliosis i had when i was a kid, although it’s ok now, he said my back is still curved a bit, on my left side….and my posture, which i already knew. it gets better when i’m standing, unless i’m standing for a long time (like when i’m shopping)…i was washing lettuce half hour ago and my shoulder felt fine, but then i sat down to eat, and i’m sitting here now and it’s killing me and my face is going numb again.

i’m so tired. i have to study, psychopathology exam tomorrow. my social and personality development exam got changed.. it’s not monday, it might not even be next week… and if it’s not next week, it’s not going to be wednesday because it’s the day after break..so it would be friday… 2 weeks later LOL. so that’s cool. now i just gotta do the exam tomorrow which should be fine, and then fail neuropsych on monday…and write my journal for thursday. AND we’re SUPPOSED to be running subjects through our study next mon-thurs, but we don’t think it’s happening. our advisors haven’t given us the protocols for if people freak out or anything, and i’m sure they haven’t recruited participants yet. we haven’t piloted anything. so all signs are pointing to not running next week. i have to go meet with them to practice at 12:45…so i should probably go and read the script since i haven’t touched it since last friday LOL.

 

ok so i’ve definitely decided i’m anti-war. thought i’d mention that. yep. war – uh – what is it good for? absolutely nothing, say it again.

carolyn’s mom doesn’t know the origin of guggi. lol.

trying to study for my exam tomorrow in psychopathology, not working real well. i dunno if i’ve read any of my notes without simultaneously thinking of something completely different…whether it be singing a song stuck in my head while reading my notes, or day dreaming while reading my notes… they’re not going in my head at all.

yup, not running subjects next week. we’re piloting on tuesday. gotta con my housemates into being piloters…or whatever you call the people who are in the piloting run. dunno when we’re running subjects now, cuz 2 weeks is break so can’t do it then, then it’s cultural harmony week and LOL we can’t really do our study during cultural harmony week LOL it just wouldn’t be right (and i know u don’t understand why I’m LOLing to that, but i can’t tell you. if i told you i’d have to kill you). but then it’s also not gonna be good to do it right after cultural harmony week, so we probably won’t run subjects until november now, and that gives me lots more time to learn my script haha…

 

yeah so i told my mom about my shoulder, and now she thinks i’m having a heart attack and should have an EKG… yet if i had told her about the chest pains i’ve been having for the past 4 weeks, she’d call me a hypochondriac (like she originially did about my shoulder until i told her half my upper body and head was numb)

 

since i’m doing a poor job studying to begin with, thought i might say, our townhouses have the most piece of shit mini blinds i’ve ever seen. they are not right. half the time only one side will go up or down. and then it’ll get stuck up.. and no matter what u do, u cant get them to go down. but remember, only half of it is up…so it’s all tilted and stuck and ARG. and i dunno if it’s supposed to be this way, but the shingles on the roof outside my window are all messed up. they’re different sizes, and some overlap and others are under…and it’s not done symmetrically either, so like every 2 singles theres one on top of the others…it looks stupid.

 

“107” yep all time favourite orgy song

yep i’m studying

 

just realized that my desk lamp says on the inside “caution risk of fire, use 60 watt or smaller type A bulbs”…what kind of bulb do i have in it? 100 watt… yeeeah great.

yes i’m studying.

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played with brains today

i really don’t have time to do a site redesign..why do i only get inspired when i have other stuff to do… right, the self handicapping thing…

 

i’m really tired of feeling sick and in pain. i feel like i’m 80 years old. i don’t know if it’s chest pains radiating into my left shoulder, or pains in my left shoulder radiating to my chest…but all i know is that i’m in pain. i think it’s chest…i mean i have constant issues with my shoulder cuz i have bad posture and sit in desks all day long that are extremely uncomfortable…but it’s not usually this bad. my whole arm is numb

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maybe it’s just me but it seems that everyone else has such drama in their lives… and then there is me…no drama at all. besides me having no future…that’s not drama. i’m talking, “i have all these problems, my friends have all these problems, my parents have all these problems, problem this, problem that”….that kind of drama. the annoying kind like, “i have all these guys who want me and i don’t know what to do” (*cough* wreatha *cough*)….the interesting kind like…um…well i can’t think of an example. just drama. i won’t go into specifics, but at least 1 friend of mine has alot of drama in her life atm…i’ve never thought of myself as having any drama in my life, although maybe some people might think i have…but since i don’t think i have, i’m not sure if i want drama in my life…although from afar it looks like a good thing..and in movies it seems interesting and a good thing, but in reality…i dunno if it’d be all that good.

yeah ok start laughing now…. i watched half of the britney spears making the video for “ima slave for you”…..ok now i command you to stop laughing. hahaha….ok yeah, go on laughing. britney is such a whore. there is no way she’s not fucking justin timberlake. and is britney TRYING to look like christina agulera in that video? because she does. bill didn’t know if it was britney or christina.. but then we pointed out the terrible voice that sounds like a cat on drugs…or something like that. but yeah, it’s like hello i look like christina agulera because she’s so much better than i am, and i need to bite off her look. and yes i am really sitting here contemplating that…

my u2 obsession is under moderate control today. i think it’s because i had class and things to do besides sit here in front of my computer all day. and danielle put me in my place by saying “arg i totally dont see how you find bono attractive AT all” lol jk..i mean she did say that, but not like in a mean way to “put me in my place” – i just felt like saying that…..but my bono thing is just another one of my weirdo things where it’s not the total outward appearance that i find sexy, it’s a more outward appearance + inward beauty + personal philosophy = hot/sexy kinda thing….(see also “prophetic blasphemies”, for futher explanation of how all the people i find hot, no one else does)..hard to explain unless you have one of these kinds of people “in your life”…. and it’s not like i find bono sexy all the time, just the 5 seconds that he’s singing in the Marvin Gaye cover…lol. i mean there are other times as well (like as Mister Macphisto…..), but it’s the 5 seconds in the video that prompted me saying something out loud about it for the first time…which prompted danielle’s comment LOL. i’m really kinda hyper right now…

i’ve decided i need to start using more apostrophies in my informal writing, like on this blog and emails etc…i use them when i have to do a formal paper, i’m just too lazy when i do informal things…but still not gonna consistently use capital letters, so tough…

i also have had a new phrase the past few days, and i used it in this entry…. “bite off”….”biting off”… etc…i don’t know where the hell it came from. but it’s the first thing i’ve been thinking of when i see something that was “stolen” from something else… like britney is “biting off” christina’s look… and michael jackson in his new video is “biting off” all his old dance routines…i’m a retard. i swear.

i don’t want to do homework, so i’m sure i can think of something else to talk about, make this entry even longer than it already is….i’m having dream issues lately. i have dreams, don’t ever remember them… i remembered the one, because it was way too disturbing to forget, and it’s not going up on the page…lol. sorry.

car is finally getting fixed. only um….15 days late. did i write about what happened earlier? not sure…so going to again anyway. i used my extremely good analytical skills (so says the GRE exam) to figure out that it was my car cd player and not the cd cases eric bought me that were scratching all my cds. so i figure, my car is under warrantee (how do u spell that?) for a year, I’ll go get the cd player fixed before it ruins all my other cds. so i called chevy in geneseo on sept 4th. they didn’t have room for me until thursday the 6th, and i needed the car to go home friday to pack up my stuff for the house. so he said to bring it in the next monday the 10th, and they’ll replace the radio. ok so i do that. he said it would be done tuesday. tuesday NYC blew up, so i sat in front of the tv all day. i went to chevy on wednesday to get my car, and they tell me oh it’s not done. it wasn’t done because the guy ordered the wrong radio. he ordered the radio that came in the car. but apparantly the radio that came in my car, out of the factory, was a tape player….that means that paddock chevy put in the cd player at the dealer after it arrived there. so he had to reorder the correct radio with a cd player. it would be in thursday. so i leave the car there, and i tell him i need they car by friday because i had to go home to take the GRE. thursday, i call, it’s not done. so friday i went up, he gave me my car, but it was still not done. so went home for the weekend, came back, called monday “is my radio in yet” no. so i’m like screw it, they can call me. They called me friday, my radio is in. so i took my car up there today, will be done tomorrow. i could have waited for it today, but i didn’t feel like it, and i made leah go up with me to drive me back anyway so… yeah. car will be done tomorrow, and better not screw up my cds anymore.

i guess i need to find something to do now… where is carolyn when i need her to keep me from doing homework?

i remembered what i wanted to say yesterday…it’s really odd. lately most of the people i’ve talked to at school are having total identity crises. so many people have no idea what they want to do 8 months from now when we all graduate…no idea if they want to go to grad school, and if so, what for. so many people i’ve talked to are rethinking their major, thinking about going into a different field entirely. for example, leah is a speech pathology major…can get her masters from geneseo in another year, and go teach in a school whatever. she wants to be a hair dresser. or a photographer…or webdesign. so she’s trying to combine them into one business where people come, she does their hair, teaches them speech, then takes photographs of them for a webpage LOL. but she doesn’t know if she wants to go on in speech path, or not. other people that are psych majors don’t know if they want to go to grad school, or what for…so it’s really not just me that’s having issues. i wish i knew what i wanted to do.

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quote of the day: “You can’t fuck people with your head, or maybe you can…” – bono

MJ: What do you think of Prince’s brand of salacious Christianity, which says that brilliant sex lights the way to paradise?

BONO: I just believe that Prince believes the same thing I do: that God is sex as well as love.

MJ: So you feel, when you listen to a Prince album, that you guys are singing the same gospel?

BONO: I feel very close to Prince, closer than you might think.

MJ: Closer than I would think, in that he’s considered sex-crazed, while the critics regularly describe U2 as nearly sexless.

BONO: I’m deeply insulted to hear you say that, and shocked, and mesmerized. I don’t think they could have been to too many U2 shows. You’d have to ask our audience. This may be one of those clichés from the critical community who generally themselves are completely sexless. You can’t fuck people with your head, or maybe you can…

MJ: Now, come on. You honestly think that the kind of really erotic sounds that you hear in “Sexual Healing” or “Little Red Corvette”, that there are U2 songs that have that kind of carnal energy?

BONO: No. Yes, I think there is a sexuality to U2. I don’t think it’s dressed up in leather, or high-heel boots, or that type of thing. I don’t think it’s the sort of peek-a-boo type sexuality. So, some people, who have to have a neon sign that says SEX before they see sex, may not see it in our music. But sex is a much subtler thing than that. Today you’ll find the exact same girl in the Coca-Cola ads and the rock videos. That’s not rebellious anymore. It sells products. And it is a product. That kind of overt or camped-up sexuality is no longer rebellious in the way that it was in the ’50s and ’60s, when people weren’t owning up that they even had a sex life. People needed that shoved in their face and rock’n’roll was a great medium to do it. But that doesn’t apply now…See, most things that a lot of people find sexy, I find incredibly funny! I don’t find the things I see out on the Strip, say, latex trousers, turn me on. They just don’t.

MJ: What do you find really sexy?

BONO: I’m not telling you.

MJ: Why not?

BONO: Just not.

MJ: Why should that be something you’re not willing to share?

BONO: I don’t know many people that would want the world to know. I might tell you, but I’m not telling them.

mj is not michael jackson LOL…it’s whoever was interviewing bono….

BONO: To try and make sense of the madness, we’ve found sanity in a song. Everything else, hotel rooms, cars, buses, airplanes, record companies, motion picture companies…it’s incredible. Just incredible. Sometimes I meet young bands. I just tell them one thing. I just say, “You know one song can change everything for you. Everything.” They say, “I can’t afford the gear. We’ve no lights. We’ve no PA. I’m unemployed.” I just say, “Put it into the song. Don’t put it to me. Put it in a song and I’ll listen to it then.” One young punk came up to me and said, “We can’t even afford strings, man. You’ve got fucking airplanes.” I said, “We wrote ‘I Will Follow’ on two strings. If you can’t get two strings together, fuck off!”

 

 

preface: i love michael jackson. i am not the kind of mj fan that “tolerates” or agrees with everything he does. so i feel it’s ok for me to criticize him.

ok so i finally dled the mj video for “you rock my world”. overall it was very entertaining, very good, chris tucker is HILARIOUS!
disappointed in that lacks a big dance routine. and disappointed in that the dancing in it seems way too reminiscent of every thing else mj has done….moves ripped right out of the dangerous routine, smooth criminal….i know i’m sounding exactly like all of mj’s critics, but he really needs some new moves….he needs to work with some new choreographers… like hire his old little buddy Wade Robeson…i’m sure wade would love to teach mj a thing or two lol.

dont get me wrong, i liked the video… i think mj looks terrible though… the make up…the one shot of his face at the end he looks
like a clown…and the fact that he tries to smile at the beginning, and his face doesnt move bugs me… mj fans can flame me if they want, but u cant deny it…

 

oh yeah, and joe doesn’t think i’m obsessive…he doesnt see me as the kind of person to get obsessive. obviously he doesn’t know me at all LOL

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went to a club last night. hahh stop laffing now. please, stop it. it was boring. and thats not just because i hate clubs. there was no one there, so it was wack.

parents are coming to visit today. should be here within an hour. lovely. eric is coming down to visit, AGAIN! I’ve seen him more since we got back to school than i did all summer. hahah… but its all good. dunno wtf we’re gonna do, but we’ll figure out something. he’s bringing my nintendo games, unless he forgets.

i swear the fact that me and carolyn didnt get tix to u2 is haunting me. because how many times did i see u2/bono on tv yesterday and today… 9 or 10… haha…yeah, saw the “what’s going on” aids tribute, that became a WTC tribute i guess on mtv 4 times…making of that song once….u2 on the WTC telethon thing…clip of bono on mtv…”walk on” video twice on mtv…ooh, and during the hockey game, i swear every other song they played during breaks was u2… elevation, pride…elevation again LOL.

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