2 more deer just ran by my window. they’re doing it about every day now. where do deer sleep? you never go walking through the woods and stumble upon some sleeping deer. they’re always just there running around, running into cars, etc. i think it’s sort of weird…
oh god, kitty just dumped a box of styrofome nuggets…
mood update: so i’ve been off the zoloft for about a month now. i feel about the same. definitely no worse. more intolerant and impatient if that is possible. i don’t think i went through any withdrawal from it, at least that i noticed.
now is a different story though. it seems i’m going to be forced to stop the elavil as well. because i’m almost out of it, i have no more refills, the doctor will not refill it over the phone unless i make an appointment, and i can’t make an appointment because she has about 3 office hours a week, and when i call no one is ever there. so i’ve dropped down to 50mg to conserve what i have left, in the hope that i can get a hold of her (tho even if/when i do it’s typically over a month til i can get in there). i’ll have to drop to 25mg by the weekend probably. the last time i tried to go off of it, 3 years ago, it didn’t go so well. even tho i weened myself off as i was supposed to, i felt like physical shit all the time (tho oddly no increase in headaches, which is why i take the damn meds to begin with), and i completely stopped sleeping. maybe my mom can call and call and call and get through to get me an appointment…cuz once i run out, forget it, i’m not going to even bother going in to get refills. i hate going to that office anyway because her receptionist (who i think is her mother or in-law) is a complete rude bitch and i dread having to deal with her.
inspired by s photo posting, i think i’m gonna see if my dad can dig up some old polaroid stuff lying around the basement. i know he has at least 4 cams, but i don’t know if they’ll take any film that is available anymore. i know we looked at them a few years ago and he thought most wouldn’t be usable.
and thank you chris bryan mccabe 🙂