i found The Ex on facebook. new pictures of him proving he still lives in the area. with a girlfriend. pictures, not living with. tho who knows. he is not on my “network” so i cant see his profile only his girlfriends. i am not a stalker. i don’t even know why i looked for him, i make myself avoid it usually, but i did and there he is. and now i don’t know what to do. half of me wants to send a message just to see how he is. the other half of me fears he’ll think i’m stalking him. i’m freaking out. i shouldn’t have looked for him.

*edit* sent a message. shouldn’t have. he probably wont respond anyway. still shouldn’t have. time to f-lock a previous entry or 2