gah daily show, so great.
press question: what did iraq have to do with the world trade center?
bush: nothing.


anyway….making this skirt to hope to wear as some sort of costume for halloween and WOW did i fuck it up. took a whole whole whole lot of improv-ing to fix, but i’ve made it semi wearable. aside from the fact that the material is such crap it’ll prob fall apart after i first wear it. i think i may improv a whole lot more tho. we’ll see. and LOTS of fabric left over again wtf. broke 2 needles and had to figure out how to replace them. things don’t sound too good haha

more randomness while watching tv and not packing

The chicken machine is on craigs list

i finally got around to hearing some of the newest 30 seconds to mars cd and wow it sounds exactly like the first one. not necessarily bad, but usually bands evolve…they just played in buffalo but i heard about it oh…3 days or so before the show.

i dreamed about manatees….weird. weirder that i watched the muhammed south park and there were manatees in it…

a bushism i hadn’t read before: “god loves you and i love you and you can count on both of us as a powerful message that people who wonder about their future can hear.” WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT SAY?! GAH! and… “see, in my line of work you got to keep repeating things over and over and over again for the truth to sink in, to kind of catapult the propaganda.” omg. just. omg.

from Mind of Mencia
regarding what bumper stickers really mean:
carlos: “and my favorite sticker – i support bush. what does that one mean?”
peter boyle: “i can’t get this fucking sticker off my car!”


the daily show is one of the best things on tv ever.

and wow, michael brown, ex FEMA head, was on the colbert report. that was the most brilliant thing i’ve seen in a long time. i don’t totally hate him now, cuz he can laugh at himself. pretty gutsy of him to do it. he handled colbert well too.

i love the air force commercial that insinuates that you can become an astronaut in the USAF. because there are SOOOO many astronaut positions to fill i’m sure YOU will be the one most qualified to fill it. gah.

so since i wasted the entire day, i packed a few quick boxes to make it seem like i did something to my mom. while unloading the bookcases i found tons of old photos. i found a picture of me and psycho at the prom. and i didn’t really feel anything. sorta sad. not sick. not angry. it was just a totally different time and i don’t know who that person was. i don’t even know the person i was last year. sometimes i don’t even know why we take pictures, when they just sit in albums on a shelf collecting dust, no one looking at them… so anyway…a few probably embarrassing in some way pictures from late high school…


god… high school ended 8 years ago…

things i MUST do tomorrow:
1. switch electric and gas for new apartment into my name. which of course will end up being a huge hassle like it was in july. do you think i need to have these things shut off at this place by may 1st? my WONDERFUL landlords haven’t told me a damn thing about what i need to do to move out. so i think i’ll just have the utilities turned off.
2. cancel cable, get cable at new place (so i’ll only be online by stealing my neighbors wireless on my laptop)
3. hire movers so my mom will get off my back
4. go see kitty. i miss him. he hates me. he wouldn’t come near me when i was at my parents on friday, cuz he thought i was going to make him go in the car again. 🙁
5. i’m sure there are more…

with such nice weather i so want to get out and explore. since yesterday didn’t work out i feel like going somewhere tomorrow, but nope. gotta do all this shit and i should start packing something.

i finished reading The Strawberry Statement, Notes of a College Revolutionary. i found it in my parent’s basement. it’s the true life journal of a 19 year old Columbia student when the campus “revolted” during the vietnam war. it was an interesting and amusing (and fast) read. it’s much like reading someone’s blog. told about real things, and then would veer off into randomness and back again. i liked it. it was made into a movie that i can only find for $50+ because it’s VHS and out of print. but i’d like to see it.

and now for some quotes…

from A People’s History of the US: “A common sight is the black soldier, with his left fist clenched in defiance of a war he has never considered his own.”

re: iran contra affair “In an ironic twist, an obscure citizen of the tiny town of Odon, Indiana, became a tangential actor in the Iran-contra controversy. This was a young man named Bill Breeden, a former minister who lived in a tepee in the woods with his wife and two children, teaching the children at home. Breeden’s home town of Odon was also the home town of Admiral John Poindexter, McFarlane’s successor as Reagan’s National Security Advisor, who was heavily involved in the illegal activities of the Iran-contra affair. One day Bill Breeden noticed that the town, to show its pride in its “home boy,” had renamed one of its streets “John Poindexter Street.” Breeden, a pacifist and critic of the US foreign policy, indignant at what he thought was a celebration of immoral behavior in government, stole the sign. He announced that he was holding it for “ransom” – $30 million, the amount of money that had been given to Iran for transfer to the contras. He was apprehended, put on trial, and spent a few days in jail. As it turned out, Bill Breeden was the only person to be imprisoned as a result of the Iran-contra affair.” !!

from The Strawberry Statement: “Free speech, okay, but you can’t yell fire in a crowded tobacco warehouse without giving cancer to everybody around.”

“So long as it is considered acceptable for the government to kill hundreds of thousands for no reason at all, individuals will consider it all right to kill just one person whom they hate for what they consider to be a very good reason.”

“I do not want to fight in Vietnam, of course. But I also don’t want to have to fight the draft, or fight the law, or fight anything. I’m a nineteen year old civilian, and I am tired of fighting. One of these days I may fight in earnest and altogether so that I won’t have to fight any more.”

“Sometimes I feel like such an incredible nothing”

from my page a day calendar



from the Philadelphia Inquirer


from yahoo: “The bodies of eight men were found inside four vehicles abandoned in a remote wooded area on a farmer’s property in rural southwestern Canada. Police were not disclosing many details about the deaths in rural Ontario, about 20 miles southwest of the city of London”

ok i know enough about canadian geography to know that London is not in southwestern Canada.

gotta post some more quotes from my history books, before giving them to my dad to read. gotta remember to do that. but must sleep for going shooting with chris tomorrow.

and woo go sabres! 6-2. maybe we’ve “solved” ottawa finally…we can just hope they choke in the playoffs like they always do and we won’t have to face them at some point… 🙂

book quotes

as i said before, i am currently reading A People’s History of the United States by Howard Zinn. I want to share a few quotes, mostly for myself, but maybe someone will appreciate them.

first one, because it can be so perfectly applied to today:

“How our hearts burned with indignation against the atrocious Spaniards!…But when the smoke was over, the dead buried, and the cost of the war came back to the people in an increase in the price of commodities and rent – that is, when we sobered up from our patriotic spree – it suddenly dawned on us that the cause of the Spanish-American war was the price of sugar…that the lives, blood, and money of the American people were used to protect the interests of the American capitalists.” – Emma Goldman

“There is not a nation of the earth guilty of practices more shocking and bloody than are the people of these United States at this very hour. Go where you may, search where you will, roam through all the monarchies and despotisms of the Old World, travel through South America, search out every abuse and when you have found the last, lay your facts by the side of the everyday practices of this nation,and you will say with me that, for revolting barbarity and shameless hypocrisy, America reigns without a rival…” – Frederick Douglas

“Let us go to war. The world has become stale and insipid, the ships ought to be all captured, and the cities battered down, and the world burned up, so that we can start again. There would be fun in that. Some interest, – something to talk about.” New York Journal of Commerce August 1845

Napoleon Dynamite: This is pretty much the worst video ever made.
Kip: Napoleon, like anyone can even know that.

i think you gotta see the movie to appreciate that….but believe me, so funny.

“we’re all lost and lonely in certain ways. we are never as we appear; a subtle gesture that comes out of compassion, interest, and humility can be a breath of fresh air.”

still not dead.

i have no more books to read in my house, so i’m reading “invisible monsters”…again…

there’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.

when you understand that what you’re telling is just a story. it isn’t happening anymore. when you realize the story you’re telling is just words, when you can just crumble it up and throw your past in the trashcan, then we’ll figure out who you’re going to be.