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trent “came back into my life” at the most opportune time possible….think that’s a sign?

 

i said when i woke up i wasnt going to cry today. that lasted all of 5 minutes. half of me is crying because of obvious reasons, the other half is crying because of how great and supportive my friends have been.

and then i took a shower, and got elton john’s “rocket man” in my head….yeah, i don’t know.

 

want to know where all the boys are in geneseo? political science!…i’ve never seen so many boys in one place before in 4 years of being here.

so i paid my phone bill and asked them not to turn my pin back on. so no more phone bills for me. gotta get a phone card or use my cell if i need to call anyone. it was 14$…

so next is computer art…cant imagine we’d be staying there very long. and then clinical psych. i was thinking last night i should count the days til graduation, but then i decided that would just depress me too much. i dreamed last night that i slept through all my classes today and woke up at like 4. funny, since i barely slept at all last night. it was way too fucking hot. ah well.

 

got my books. 185$…3 books. still too much, but whatever. 2 are used pieces of shit, 1 was brand new and came with a cdrom, like i’ll ever use it.

so computer art…will be fun, will be cool to learn how to use photoshop, will be easy. but it’s on a mac, and i couldn’t even figure out how to turn the thing on. then i fucked 2 of them up. one wouldn’t access the file server and then froze when i asked what was wrong with it. 2nd time was talking on AIM and opened netscape and froze it…wouldn’t restart, had to unplug it haha. but i could have taught today’s lecture. it wasn’t by our proff, he had to leave to go to the dentist…so it was by his friend from RIT…from the graphic design part or something. yeah he didnt know what he was doing half of the time, where to click, and what not. but whatever.

then clinical is gonna be super easy too. the proff is the head of the dept so he can do whatever he wants with the class LOL. 4 non cumulative exams, 5-7 page paper about one of the chapters in the book. one of the options is forensic psych, so i’m gonna do that one. but yeah, that’ll be no problem. tomorrow is adolescent development…cuz i havent taken 3 other developmental classes and each class doesn’t repeat everything every time…so whatever.

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wow i hate geneseo. haven’t been back even 2 hours yet…

info on the mysterious letter that needs to be given to me personally… “Please stop by within any of those times and I will give you your letter. This letter is from the Dean of Students office, so it is important that you get it as soon as possible.”

STILL HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IT COULD BE!!!!!!!!!….and in other news. yeah i guess they finally turned my phone pin number off for not paying my phone bill :)…tried to call my house, yeah, didn’t work – used my cell instead. so i guess i’ll go pay it tomorrow. i think its a 10$ fee to get it turned back on. so forget that, i don’t need it. i’ll just use my cell. i’m forced to keep buying minutes for it, might as well use them, right? yeah that’s what i’m saying. maybe the letter from the dean is “you will not graduate cuz you haven’t paid your phone bill” lol

so i’m all unpacked now. everything is set up. need to go put my name on all my food tho………yeah. danielle and i went to denny’s…. yeah lovely geneseo dennys and their tiny miniscule servings.. blah. BUT they have a menu that I don’t have yet!….it’s so pretty! and it’s not the latest one that David took for me either. MUST OWN!

well rachel baldwin just called again. the dean contacted her about getting the letter to me so she’s bringing it over now… great. expect another frantic post soon…

 

have i mentioned how much i fucking HATE geneseo, and how much i fucking HATE everyone here, and EVERYONE that i’ve EVER talked to on campus.

 

i want to say i love my friends…all 6 of them. and the rest of you, i hate.

to my friends. i love you all so much. i hope you know that.

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there is a little piece written by Chuck Palahniuk about when he met Brad Pitt. Chuck was jealous of Brad’s yummy pouty lips, so he bought this lip expanding thing – it was like the Sweedish Penis Enlarger pump in Austin Powers – a vacuum tube thing that swells your lips up. Chuck used it to pump up his lips and it just gave him like a big hickey around his mouth LOL. I bet Chuck was jealous of Trent’s lips when they met too…

ok, i’m so bored, so i’m looking at my site stats, and my page referals… or WHATEVER. anyway. i’m on the google part, and looking at the search quereies that made people visit my site

1. jc justin sex gay pregnancy – WTF IS THAT?!?!?! it gave them my blog archive ending on november 17th…that archive contained a survey, my bono screen caps from “What’s going on”…an article about pregnant japanese barbie (one of the search words)…ROFL and the gay sex part was about me describing the censored Frankie Goes To Hollywood video for Relax. ROFL. the justin reference was some something i said about justin pumping up britney’s fake boobs. and JC was in my talking about the mj tribute show… LOL
2. danielle dunno – gave them a page from prophetic blasphemies. the page with the conversations with bono LOL
3. bono photos – ROFLMAO IT GAVE THEM ONE OF THE CONVERSATION WITH BONO PAGES ROFLMAO SO HARD!!!!!!!
4. best thighs – gave them carolyn’s blog… so why is that on my referal page?
5. u2 larry quote joshua tree grim look – blog archive where i put my xmas list…
6. my eyes are bad – ROFL
7. spacey would – another carolyn’s blog one… wtf i so don’t get this…
8. didn t go to the bathroom – LOL
9. stp scott weiland sex pictures – gave them my dream site, where i dreamed stp was performing inside Tops and scott got naked.
10. trent reznor do drugs – gave them my dream blog about my trent dream(s)
11. grandpa’s cock – WTF!?!?!?! gave them my site cuz of pieces of an interview with bono where he said something about his grandpas farm, and then the interviewer asked him if ppl ever grab his cock LOL.
12. miss truth trent reznor nude – *mind wanders*…
13. hemerroid pictures
14. guy thumb ring – LOL gave them fab four page LOL
15. my daddy fuck my aunt – ROFLMAO omg gave them prophetic blasphemies page about the pirates ROFL
16. walmart pictures – LOL my site is the first one to come up if you search for that, ROFLMAO
17. sleeping eric – ROFL
18. pictures of slipknot killing fred durst – HAHHAHAHAHAHAH
19. slash saul hudson shower
20. bondage, scared, bitch – wow… my site comes up in some REALLY interesting searches… LOL
21. “Chris Gratton”girlfriend – HAHAHAHAH
22. toilet slave video clip
23. painless suicide – ok that’s just kinda sad LOL
24. trent reznor and children – ??????
25. michael jackson’s nose – ROFLMAO
26. i am trent reznor
27. concert boob flashes archive – LOL
28. (nude OR butt OR panty OR gymnast) girl “video clip” -member -gay -porn -xxx

ok i’m tired of this… “family orgy” and “velour buffalo” came up alot… and the hemerroids one did too LOL. and princess diana crime scene pics, and nicole brown simpson murder scene pics… LOL i should just start putting weird words into my blogs, so that they come up in weird searches… like next time someone searches for “i am trent reznor” my site is gonna come up… and they’re gonna think i’m trent…. riiiiiiiiiiight.

some people at blackplanet.com are linking MJ pics from my site…. arg, suck my bandwidth why don’t you….
LOL someone did a google image search for Ronald Regan and got my Space Project pictures ROFL. and someone did an image search for “tight shirt” and got a picture of Eric’s car from the fab four site ROFL HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?! An image search for “3 some” got the pic of me danielle and eric after the 3dd show hahaha.
OMG THERE WAS A TONY DANZA NAKED SEARCH!!!!!!!!! I BET THAT WAS CAROLYN!!!!!!!!! ROFLMAO

uh someone got to my site from nin.com….6 times….in january….*freaks out*…how is that possible?\

 

not quite sure how i manage to do this but i found, yet another, u2 based blog…all i did was search yahoo for “blog addicts” LOL and i find Irish Eyes v 4.0 bonnie blue bono….and a nice lovely bono-ized layout. lol.
and now i’m watching hedwig again – reminds me of the blog i found yesterday that the ppl on it were COMPLETELY and UTTERLY obsessed with hedwig and john cameron mitchell. hah

 

i’m depressing myself…. i figured if i really wanna persue a webdesign career, i need to find a school with a program. well i can’t really find anything, at least in buffalo. it appears that UB and buff state don’t have web programs.. i found one that did, forget which now…but i already have a bachelors degree (er i will), i dont want to have to take fucking english, and humanities, and all these other stupid required core type classes AGAIN. i already took them once. i just want to find a school with a 2 year program or something, that i would only have to take classes in computer stuff…whatever is required for the additional degree. whatever school it was that had an info tech degree with web development concentration required like…intro to sociology, and intro to psych, and like 6 humanities classes… SIX!!!!!!!! i’ve already taken this shit….this makes me want to just go to grad school and get a masters or something. but i don’t want to do psych!!!….i guess my dad saw an ad or something for a school psych job…50,000 starting salary, only needed a masters. not bad…but I DONT WANT TO DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arg….why can’t a really cool job that i like just fall in my lap?! lol i wish i had some kind of special talent that i could harness into some job that people needed….
i could go to itt tech or whatever, but then eric and the rit friends would laff at me cuz i was going to such a wussass school… i sorta like their program tho, cuz i dont have to take all that gay ass shit. its just like straight computer classes, and then 6 gen-ed courses, like composition, and economics, college math (yeah that’s a laff), group dynamics (rofl i’m a PSYCH MAJOR for gods sake lol), and contemporary art LOL…and then at least i’d have another piece of paper telling people i am worthy of employment, but still not get hired anywhere. i dunno…arg.

 

 

i poked myself in the face, like towards the back of my jaw, and now it’s all outta wack and hurts when i open it.
danny lohner is so sexy….and the sexy trent starfuckers part…rowr men with guitars

 

if i was danny lohner and was constantly headbanging while playing keyboard, i’d be smacking my head on it all the time…i think i heard something that he has done it, but i’d be doing it every time…or he smacked his head on his guitar..or that could have been robin actually, all i know for sure is that trent threw a mic stand and knocked jerome dillon unconscious one time… LOL.. and one time i smacked my head on the sink like that, when my mom was dying my hair. hurt SO bad i thought i was gonna die… and trent is so buff now…gee, guess what i’m watching, again.
 

so ty just sent me all these mj pics from the new issue of Vibe… he doesn’t look like a COMPLETE freak…i mean, his face is beyond normal now…but the pics are kinda normalish…BAD hair tho.

and on a happy note, rumors that U2 is gonna be playing dates in the US in february!!! which is like a week away…but playing college arenas between the superbowl (feb 3) and the grammy’s (feb 23 or something)…arlsdfkejwa;oriausdfliasndflaksjf!!!!!!!!!

 

i love cities. even buffalo makes me so happy. i went to the flea market, saw joe’s dad…he surprised me, cuz he’s like SARA! and i’m like, uh who’s talking to me. LOL he said joe was around someplace but i never found him. then i walked by his stand again and he kinda like hit me, and was like “alone still” and i’m like yeah i haven’t found joe…it was sorta weird. so then i went downtown, figured i’d go to new world records, see if they had any of the nin promo posters and what not…they didn’t, even tho they had the window cling on the door… i was gonna steal it, but i missed my chance. but they changed so much. they sell other stuff now…like lil toy things, and tin lunch boxes and stuff…and it’s all rearranged…but anyway. over priced, so didn’t buy anything, not like they had anything i wanted. i also went into this store called something Trash…or Trash something.. i dunno. but it’s across and down the street a bit. i never noticed it before. it’s clothes…and it’s cool clothes. sorta goth, but really…u could find gothy stuff there, but it’s just got cool clothes. small, so didn’t have much, but it was a cool place, and if it’s still there next time i come home i’ll have to stop in again. i need a concert shirt… but anyway. i was walking back to my car and there was this black guy walking down the middle of the street that bisects elmwood in that area…he had a big boom box, blasting Lenny Kravitz “dig in” and he was carrying a baton…lol he was so flamboyantly gay as well. then i heard this little girl say, “he’s a crazy man, why would you want to carry a radio” LOL…. but it made me so happy, just seeing such a colorful person…you definitely don’t get that in the suburbs. but i also hate citites…i was gonna go to home of the hits too, but no parking…never any parking. went around the block, no parking on the side street eric always parks on…arg. so skipped them and went to frizbees. frizbees rocks… i always find some piece of junk cd i need to own. this time it was U2 “even better than the real thing” remixes for 3 bucks. so i bought that. and they had the nin promo window cling too. i asked the guy a few weeks ago if he had anything else he’d give me and he said no, but i asked again anyway LOL. the girl who cashed me out said they only had these nin stickers… so she gave me like 6. it’s the NIN logo sticker like is on my car. but now i have 6 more LOL. so then i came home, cleaned my car…vaccumed, cleaned the windows, tried to maybe erase the scratches on the car with windex (didn’t work LOL)….
so leaving for school tomorrow around 4:30…maybe earlier depending on how the baby shower goes, and how long it takes me to pack my car. i dunno how we’re gonna fit all our shit inside…cuz i got my computer and laundry basket that i brought home for break…then i got the vcr, dvd and tv….groceries…clothes i got for xmas…yeah. and then there’s danielle’s shit which is gonna be just as much as me…grocerys, lanudry basket, etc…arg. it’s so not all gonna fit…

when i was driving home i was listening to the nin live cd, and i’m surprised i didn’t burn out my speakers LOL..it wasn’t THAT loud really, but i had the windows open (cuz my car smelled like food) so i had to turn it up louder whenever i was going fast. LOL…but anyway, “wish” was on and that reminded me of how when we went to toronto for new years, danielle mentioned that she had seen some NIN video for a “w” song on mtv 2 and that she kinda liked it. so of course i was like OMG WHAT SONG!! and i’m trying to think of W songs by NIN…well it was Wish, so i had to put in Broken for the rest of the ride to carolyn’s house. LOL and when discussing cds to listen to in the car in toronto, eric said that we should make danielle listen to Broken, and it turns out we did LOL. and broken is the cd i would think a casual NIN fan (or someone who DESPISES them like danielle does :P) would like the least. but anyway…yeah it just struck me in the car to be very amusing. dunno. danielle is SO being forced to listen to “still” tomorrow…it’s only a 45 min cd, she’ll survive

so anyway, now i’m kinda cold cuz i cleaned my car without a coat on. it’s a super beautiful day out, and i could go totally coatless if it wasn’t for the wind. which reminds me, this big piece of aluminum siding is falling off the house 3 away from mine…it was super windy last night, so i all i heard was the banging of this piece of siding against their house…SUPER ANNOYING. but i think the wind finally ripped it off cuz i don’t hear it anymore.

i think my mom is taking a nap in her room, which means i can’t put any music on BLAH….

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the meathead perspective is this kinda… nin parody…making fun of them… humor…uh…thing. yeah. anyway, there is a new one that is reviewing the dvd,cd and still….and it’s super funny, so i have to type it out for everyone’s enjoyment, because i know any of you really give a shit
“Honestly, it’s hard to make fun of this cd, because the fact of the matter is, it’s really fucking good. I don’t mean good as in “this is a good cheesburger” either. More like, “this is the best goddamn cheeseburger I’ve ever fucking eaten in my entire motherfucking life, and whoever made this cheeseburger should get a motherfucking Nobel Prize.” Except this CD is better than a cheeseburger……..*blahblahblah*……At the risk of sounding like a kiss-ass, I’d just like to say OMG TRENT IS A GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! NIN R0X0R5!!!!!!!!!!!! This is one of the first CDs that I’ve listened to in quite a while that has no skippable tracks. Every song on this album is worth listening to repeatedly for a ridiculous length of time. Buy this fucking CD, jerk!”

ROFLMAO

 

i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry, i can’t help it. i love trent.

 

i must admit, i’ve been feeling very vindicitive lately…in particular to just one person. i’m just really tired of this person’s bullshit. i haven’t even had to experience any of it in a while, but…yeah. i dunno. but i realized…i made a comment this summer i think, about how i can tell what someone is like, or what state of mind they’re in by their AIM profile/away messages….and i just realized that this person’s profile is the most accurate profile i’ve ever seen of anyone i know…it makes me laugh how true it is…

 

this is a paraphrase of something carolyn told me, which she paraphrased from someone who told her….

if you don’t like my obsessions then dont read my blog

 

 

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i’m tired. can’t shower cuz my mom is doing laundry, so i’m just gonna have to be scummy. i’m starving to death. work was boring. i got to tell Pam that her accident was karma for hitting me…yeah so it was good. and as much as i want to, i’m not going to talk about trent.

 

fyi…i want “leaving hope” played at my funeral…

 

it’s ok that i’m posting this. cuz I’m not talking about trent… he’s talking about himself…

“Some of it is the band playing live in rehearsals,” Reznor said. “Some of it is alternate ways to present some songs. Some of it is stripped-down versions we did for radio shows. And some of it is instrumental bits that I thought tied everything together to make a nice soundtrack for a rainy Sunday afternoon. That’s what I was going for. And the point of including it with the live CD was to kind of show the dichotomy of what we can be. There’s a live, kind of smashing performance and then there’s another side of us that’s a bit more gentle, a little reflective.”

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one of trent’s fav internet sites is hotornot.com ROFLMAO…which reminds me, eric, how u doing on there??

so i had a very weird day. someone called us at 6 am or so.. woke me up, of course. then my parents got up, and my dad didn’t go to work cuz he had an interview today. so this was around 7:30 or 8 that i hear them talking. then my mom is walking around upstairs and her sneakers are SQUEAKING so loud it woke me up… so i’m sorta half sleeping, just wanting to go back to sleep before i had to get up. then someone calls, and my mom comes in my room with her squeaky shoes. my manager at work got into a car accident and they wanted me to come in early. so i asked who it was, and my mom said Carol (there is no Carol)…so i’m like whatever. So I go in, and turns out, it was Pam who got into the accident. She smashed directly into a light pole in the plaza parkinglot at 5 this morning (the lot is empty)….she is ok, went to the hospital cuz she was sore and everything…whiplash. she must have hit it REALLY hard, cuz her van is completely smashed.

so…weird thing about that is.. Pam slapped me on monday. So i was telling this girl i know about it, who sent out bad vibes to Pam…and then she gets in an accident. talk about karma.

and then, i was completely not myself today. i felt so weird. and then i was having flashes that i was other people…LOL i know, i’m insane… it’s called a dissociative disorder LOL. but it was the strangest thing. i’d move a certain way, and i’d totally think i was someone else. yeah, not gonna talk about it anymore, or who it involved…so now i’m off to the psych ward haha

 

i was going to try real hard today not to go on and on about trent reznor and how amazed i still continue to be by the new stuff….but i can’t help it, ok, so deal with it…
from chicago tribune interview with trent:
“You get off track of your priorities. You can say it won’t happen to you, but it has happened to me. To the point where I have had to stop the train and say why am I doing this? The last album doing not as well has given me the courage and humbleness to make better music in the future, to put less attention on catering to an audience that is preventing me from making the truest art I can. You have to do it for yourself, yourself only. I have to keep that in mind. I am keeping that in mind.”

I hope to god that he doesn’t really feel that way…and that he doesn’t think The Fragile was not good music. because is one of the best albums i’ve ever heard.

 

am i weird that i could fall asleep to NIN?…. i’ve fallen to sleep to Prodigy and Metallica among others…

 

1. best moment from the dvd, like most artistic, or whatever (not my fav teenie bopper moments or anything like that lol)….during closer, the middle part of the song, the tv screen is black til the orange screens flash, and after the first flash of orange and then black, the screens flash on and it’s trent’s shadow on the orange. super great
2. i really don’t know the words to “suck”
3. the hidden “reptile” performance has got to be the best live version of the song i’ve heard…after the beginning part Charlie just wanders away, walks around, comes back…and it must have been done pretty early on into the show, cuz trent still has black lipstick smeared on half his face. god i love this song.
4. at some point eric and i had this discussion about what instrument danny lohner plays. and i dont even remember what differing sides of this point we were on, but i THINK i was saying he played bass, and guitar, and eric said he played guitar. well i’m so right, cuz i knew the tour guide said he played bass, guitar, keyboards vocals…so eric immed me yesterday saying that danny plays guitar during the wretched on the dvd…yeah, cuz i SAID he played guitar. but i also SAID he played bass. so now that i’m watching the dvd again i paid more attention….you can distinctly tell when danny is playing bass, versus guitar. cuz he stands and acts differently. and i realized that trent plays bass on at least 2 of the instrumentals…i think the mark has been made and complication. for sure complication cuz it was just on. hah. and i know trent played bass when manson came out in NYC to do beautiful people…so there. i’m still right.

 

this cd makes me so inspired (geee guess which cd)…makes me want to play piano again (if i had any sheet music and if i could remember how to read bass clef…i could figure it out real quick if i really wanted to)…makes me want to write again…i’ve been writing a bit, i’ve been doing some stuff for the MPS, but i have so little control of what’s going on, it’s not enough for me…and this cd makes me wanna go back to a storyline i had been writing before – before it went all haywire. maybe i should go back and read it.

 

it’s always been kind of interesting to look for the melodic patterns in NIN albums…like, the downward spiral has that one piano melody that goes through the entire album…and the fragile has the into the void melody in various songs…well the instrumental part of “the fragile” (song) before the end climax is the same melody as “the frail” i’ve just noticed.

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I posted 26 times the day the DVD came out. Here you go.

 

woo hoo dvd!!!!! went out at like 10:30 to get all my stuff. well barnes and nobles didn’t have the dvd…they said they didn’t get the shipment of all their new releases and they’d probably get it tonight, but if i wanted it to go to best buy LOL so i did. but that means i had to spend my own cash on it, and i STILL HAVE THOSE STUPID GIFT CERTIFICATES!!!!!! since i bought the cd yesterday at record theatre…ARG. but i got it at best buy, ended up getting the dts version… like it matters. i just grabbed one LOL. and i got my u2 cd at target. yeah the songs sound so different not on mp3s on my shitty comp speakers. haha. the one song “always” is like, a different version of beautiful day. the guitar and base part of the chorus is the same as beautiful day. it’s rad. anyway…. going to watch dvd now. i promise i wont blog til i watch at least all of the concert….all that hidden stuff is gonna piss me off LOL

 

ok i lie, i opened the dvd up, and there is this plastic bookmark thing in a pocket of the box (which is left handed also) it explains what the dvd was supposed to achieve and stuff….hehe

 

dts doesnt work on my tv apparently….cuz there was no sound playing lol. switched to dolby or whatever and yeah now i’m going deaf…i need a new tv…everytime there is like a big guitar or drum sound, my tv goes staticy LOL….ok yeah its really annoying. its funny to watch this and see the insanity of it all, and then think about what an amazing crowd we had for the show in toronto.

wow…the wretched…definite highlight of the dvd so far….my tv stopped being so staticy…maybe it wasnt my tv, maybe it was the dvd….arg. “the mark has been made” ….why am i such a sucker for the instrumentals? i mean this song is so brilliant. and its so fucking great live…lovelovelovelove it. theres some nice shots during that song…robin fink is such a freak. how is he gonna fit in with guns n roses?? and love danny lohner…he’s so great. and trent is so great when he plays guitar…hah. hes so short, and its just so cute. hahah…it’s kinda funny cuz they recorded all the shows and combined them, to watch robin fink’s hair grow….from shaved, to short mohawk, to bald to bigger mohawk etc….hahah. and it’s funny how robin fink can go fall down and knock charlie clouser down, and everything still sounds good… like it was supposed to be that way LOL. wtf…hah…after “complication” u have to switch to disc 2 hhahahah….i guess this is a good time for a lunch break since i’m starving to death.

 

ive never been a huge fan of “suck” but this performance rocks… i’m biased. i want to hear “last” off broken instead of suck…but yeah, this rocks. i get to have my teenie bopper moment now…. omg trent is so hot during “closer” hahahahah….omg i totally take back what i said to adr last night about my ultimate trent fantasy LOL. the lighting and stuff during “closer” was so rad. i remember being so impressed by it at the show, and yeah, it rocks on here. LOL trent rubbing robin fink’s forehead….lol robin on the ground now. 3 keyboards and 1 guitar during this song…yay smashed keyboard!! trent is gonna get danny electrocuted if he keeps dumping water on him like that. hahh….wow they really did combine a bunch of performances. in the past 30 seconds of “head like a hole” trent has been playing 3 different guitars, and robin’s hair grew…no wonder it took so long to edit this freaking thing…what the hell is that little box thing that charlie plays..he like smacks it around and it makes sounds LOL…he uses it during some song on the first disc, and he’s using it now in “just like you imagined”…another great instrumental lol. OMG IM SORRY another teenie bopper moment…starfuckers, holy shit…hahah.

THEY DIDNT ROLL THE CREDITS DURING HURT!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYY

hurt is so amazing…they keep showing the audience in the front row, and everyone is like singing, eyes closed…this one kid is crying..you can see the power of that song in all the people there…wow.

i wanna work for nothing records. i wanna be rob sheridan…lucky bastard. runs a nin fan site and then gets hired to run nin.com and go on tour with them to record the tour and then make the dvd….and he’s cute too.

trent thanks daisy may….that’s his dog. all together now – awwwwwwww

wow that was so great. i need a new tv now, and surround sound so i can watch it again the way it was intended to be…

i get pissed at trent cuz he takes so goddamn long to do anything, but then it’s always worth the wait in the end. he doesn’t put out shit. and like i said before when i noticed the 3 diff guitars… if him and rob sheridan went through every taped performance to splice together elements from all different ones…wow yeah that’s mighty time consuming and i’d probably have a fit and trash it halfway through lol…and it looks so good too. except for the changes in hair, clothes and guitars u can’t tell that it wasn’t 1 show. and if you don’t pay attention u’d never know lol. so off to find the hidden shit now….

 

well i found something…. LOL…
disc 2, supplimental content…go left from main menu, then hit enter. then down to main menu, left again, up, enter…it’s one of the trailers for “the fragile” featuring la mer and into the void…let’s see if i can do this again…hah i rock.

the still photo gallery is HUGE… aww trent’s dog…aelkrsldf hot trent in the limo with manson in starfuckers…

 

hehe my fav moment of the whole dvd is “i’ll be there for you as long as it works for me” in starfuckers…*dies*

 

omgomg managed to find a performance of “reptile” my fav nin song… er one of them. HOLY SHIT this is so great…i so wish they had played this in our show… omg this song is so great live. awerayhsdflknasrlawe….to remind myself disc 2. title 5, chapter 3.

hfs this is so great. ahhhhhh…ooommmmmmg trent whipsering “please dont hurt me” hahaha

 

yay for the cheater way to find stuff….title 5 chapter 4….trailer for things falling apart….
chapter 2 and 5 are just blank black screens…nothing is playing…
chapter 6 the manson starfuckers NYC thing…and beautiful people…god it would have been INSANE to be there for this. its cool to see trent just jammin and not singing and stuff…this is so great.
chapter 7 is blank
chapter 8…red…the day the world went away….and like a feather falling over this red/orange background…pictures of nature…half of trents face…nature…trent…covering his face with his hand…orange again. nature again…a snake….trents eyes and top of his head…live shots of the song…back to orange room and feather…
chapter 9 is the fragile trailer i found without doing the cheating thing….
chapter 10 a different fragile trailer featuring “the way out is through” and then trent singing part of it…super short, but rad.ok back to disc 1
can’t get it to be non dts, but title 3 is the alternate angle views for gave up, la mer, the great below, and the mark has been made…which u can get to through the menu…so i guess there isn’t any hidden stuff on disc 1…

back to disc 2 to watch reptile again 🙂

 

it’s weird that the cd and dvd are both halo 17…i thought the dvd would be halo 18…cuz closure had a different halo number than the downward spiral…

 

mmm yeah so the dvd is fantastic. it would have been amazing to see it on the IMAX in toronto last week. you can always depend on trent for putting out a quality product does anyone have a suround sound setup in their house, with a dvd player, that will let me come over?!

 

right so i’ve been asking myself this question the whole time…the dvd was available in dts and dolby…and i bought the dts one, which wont play cuz i dont have dts…and i would think that it would still PLAY but just not sound all spiffified or whatever it’s supposed to be…well ok whatever. the dts version has the dolby option on it tho…. so why have 2 different dvds for sale if both options are on the dts version?….and now i’m reading this article with trent about making the dvd, and he’s like “So we had to make the decision to put just Dolby on one version of the DVD and just DTS on another version.”…..but dolby and dts are on the dts version?!?! and i’m so confused…hah

 

“A few months ago I started working on new music for Nine Inch Nails and a lot of it was coming out real fast, to the point where it worried me that it must not be that good. So I took a couple of months off. Now I’m going back and looking at things, and it’s exciting. I feel the weight has been lifted from me. So I’m hoping to get the next record out in the next 15 years.” – trent

 

new rolling stone magazine…
1. it’s amazing how much i DONT look at ads…i’m reading an article blurb in “random notes” and the page next to it is a big full page ad for the U2 cd at target lol.
2. and i thought this quote was super rad….”we don’t have patriotism in England like you do in America. That went out with the First World War – when it was proved to be a load of bollocks” – mick jagger
3. and this is just perfect…”When asked recently why she (britney spears) covered Joan Jett’s “i love rock and roll” on her new album, Britney replied, “because i love pat benetar!”” ROFLMAO

 

i need a looped mpeg of “i’ll be there for you as long as it works for me” part of the dvd…god…lol.

 

i could listen to the “still” disc on repeat for the rest of my life

 

just wanna say… i am so happy. my parents were in the bathroom, i guess my dad was shaving or something cuz he has an interview tomorrow. and so i walk out in the hall and my mom is yelling at him that he has to wear nice shoes, cuz that’s the first thing men look at in an interview. and it was just sorta funny. so i’m just standing there smiling. and my dad is like, why are you smiling. and i’m like… wow, i don’t really know, i just am. so my mom is still saying something about shoes, and again my dad is like, why are you smiling, and i’m like it’s just funny. so then went downstairs to have some nachos, and i put Frasier on. and niles is just sitting on screen, roz is talking to him, and i’m just smiling and niles said something and i laffed, and i’m like I LOVE HIM. my dad is like, just don’t try to be like him. LOL…and i kept laffing at the show cuz it was funny. and i’m like, yes i am so happy right now. my parents arent used to seeing me happy.

 

i read this review of and all that could have been from rolling stone when i got the issue a few weeks ago. just reread it cuz it appeared on yahoo… yeah, it’s a brilliant review. it totally captures some of the things that i thought about it, and why i love it so much.

“While for most musicians live albums are little more than concert souvenirs or holiday-season cash-ins, that’s not true of Nine Inch Nails. Trent Reznor has always seen his music as an endless work in progress. Releasing songs, EPs and albums in various versions, he has managed to turn his obsessive refusal to stop tinkering into a compelling aesthetic. What drives him is his inability after the “completion” of any project to see it in any terms other than how far it fell short of his expectations. So, And All That Could Have Been, NIN’s first live album, announces itself in its very title as a disappointment.

Of course, it’s not. Its sixteen songs offer a gripping document of NIN’s mind-blowing 2000 tour in support of The Fragile — a tour that this magazine rightly declared the best of that year………..

Needless to say, Reznor could hardly let it go at that. A limited-edition version of And All That Could Have Been, titled Still, includes an additional disc of songs (“The Fragile,” “The Day the World Went Away”) recorded “live in a deconstructed fashion,” including four new pieces. That disc is well worth seeking out. All the songs are quiet, lyrical and deeply unsettling — persuasive proof, if any is even needed at this point, of the musicality that underlies Reznor’s most ear-shattering work, and of his ability to disturb even at his moments of greatest beauty.”

and as if my day couldn’t get any better (well i could physically feel better but…) U2 is performing at the Grammys!!! yaaaay…when is the show? oh feb 27th…when’s the superbowl?

 

“still” totally makes me want to start playing piano again…

 

have i mentioned that headphones are the greatest invention EVER!?!?!?!?!

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I posted 18 times this day. Ha. Here you go.

 

i had some strange ass dreams last night. now i wanna listen to deftones but that cd is at school.

pam slapped me at work today. slapped my arm… really fucking hard. she left a mark. everyone was like, WHAT THE FUCK, including me. she’s like, something about this green sticker that was on her. and i’m like jesus christ that fucking hurt. cuz it did. i wanted to cry, it really really fucking hurt. wreatha said something to her about being so rude. so then pam looked at my arm and saw her fucking hand print, and was like i’m sorry and kissed my arm. i’m like whatever. it fucking hurt.

…early morning april 4, shot rings out in a memphis sky, free at last they took your life they could not take your pride…

 

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came home from work, sat around, took a shower…got off my lazy ass and left the house to get a money order for my ebay purchase. i go to the bank, atm machine cant give me any money…so that means i can’t get the money order cuz i don’t have enough cash. so i decided to go to record theatre to see if they had any nin promo posters/stickers/whatever for the dvd stuff coming out tomorrow. they have a rack in the front labled Imports. so i’m looking at it to see how much the tea party cd cost (18$)…then i look to the right, AND THERE IS THE FUCKING LIVE NIN DISC!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT DOESNT COME OUT TIL TOMORROW!!!!!!! AEOIURASLIFDJAWLERNA so i’m looking at it, and it’s just the single disc…so i’m like uh, i have a q. this is just the single one right? and then right in front of where i had turned around and was now standing was the double. i’m like WOO HOO CAN I BUY THIS?! and they’re like yeah. LOL then the guy is like, do you want the DVD too? and i’m like ARG NO I HAVE NO MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had to charge the cd… yeah cuz it was fucking 30$ fucking expensive indie record store LOL. BUT IT DOESNT COME OUT TIL TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i asked for promo stuff too but the guy said they had none (liar, there were the posters up on the windows :P)….so nooooowww i get to listen to lovely trent screaming his lovely songs out, woo hoo. this is so fucking great omg i’m dying.

so now i only have to get the dvd tomorrow, hopefully at barnes and nobels so i can use my gift certificates….and then the u2 cd at target….hopefully the bank machine will be able to give me money, cuz i’d rather not be charging all of this.

and yeah i bitched about how fucking ugly the live nin stuff packaging was. yeah it’s ugly. but the double disc it’s in one of those fold out things like the fragile, and then it’s inside a cloth box. so it’s cooler than the scans seemed. lol but it’s for lefties…the cd comes out the wrong side of the cloth box thing LOL

and omg…i’m not there yet, but…looking at the tracklisting for the “still” disc…. a “the fragile” reconstruction!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG….if it’s trent playing piano i’m going to die…and i’ll die a fucking happy death. aeryasd;lfkawe;rausidfoiawh;ero;aiyehfo;iasuj;sealn and there is a “something i can never have” reconstruction……ahhhhhhhhhh

omG i’m so fucking excited…. i must stop myself from going back to buy the dvd right now. ahhhh

 

soooo dying over this cd…..”the great below” and “the mark has been made” sound different than the Toronto show, and the other live mp3s i have…. omfg i so love “the mark has been made” live… ahhh….

 

lol as if my stereo wasnt loud enough as it is, and my mom can probably hear it downstairs, but she has to come upstairs to do something when “closer” comes on… and while she likes this song, she’s only heard it on the radio with the edit… hahahahahah

 

omg head like a hole rocks so hard…aah….trent needs to tour!!!!!!!

 

“starfuckers inc” is on and i’m remembering how great it was at the show, when the whole crowd is just screaming “don’t you don’t you don’t you” ahhhh it’s so energizing ahhhhhhhhhhh need to be there, trent needs to tour. i need that feeling again ahhhhhhhhhhh. i think there is something really different about nin fans, and the whole crowd participation thing… like, that was a feeling unlike any other concert feeling i’ve had….i mean u2 hamilton, it felt so different, singing along with that crowd, compared to the nin toronto crowd….both were just amazing feelings, but different. ahhhhhhhh need concert!!!!!

and omg sometimes i forget how fucking amazing “hurt” is….

 

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg something i can never have IS TRENT PLAYING PIANO!!!!!!!!!! holyfuckingshit i’m going to cry. this is the greatest thing i’ve ever heard.  times 100

 

LOL OMG IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. something i can never have was on when my dad got home, now adrift and at peace is on, and he comes in my room…
dad: what is this?
me: nine inch nails
dad: *jumps surprised*
me: he is a classicaly trained pianist you know
dad: i just saw a picture of them in the paper, mouth wide open screaming mode
me: he was gonna be a concert pianist
dad: can’t hide your roots i guess
me: it’s good stuff
dad: yeah this stuff is nice

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOL MY DAD LIKES TRENT’S PIANO STUFF!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS SO FUNNY!!!!!

 

OMG IM SO GONNA CRY!!!!!!!!!! FRAGILE IS TRENT PLAYING PIANO TOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

omg the reconstructed “the becoming”…it’s so great. it’s so weird. like, there is this AWESOME, like so totally wicked piano beginning….and then this weird vocal effect where trent sounds like he’s in a tunnel. and then after the “the me that you know….” part, there’s a louder piano part over the drums and other instruments playing it….wow. this is so great. ok yeah, the “still” cd is so worth the inflated price i paid ALONE….

i wonder what this all sounds like on a stereo that doesn’t sound like shit. yeah i need to go drive around for a while.

omg i wonder if the dvd is gonna have hidden footage of recording “still”…. ahhh that’d be so great. i wonder if my next post i can start it with something other than “omg” LOL

 

pretty sure that “the day the world went away” version on still is that acoustic in chicago version that’s floated around on mp3…and i didnt start this post with OMG since i’ve heard this before hahahah.

 

i need a nin fan with me right now so we can go driving around and just be completely blown away by the absolute brilliance of the still disc.

 

“and all that could have been” – the theme for this design….the song is…strange. it is so amazing. but it’s so weird. and i almost cried. cuz the way he sings the chorus, the “the pieces and promises and left behinds”…omg. it’s got elements of “the fragile” album stuff, and some of “the downward spiral”… like the guitar part is reminiscent of “the becoming” off tds…but it’s sorta got that airy/far away sound of some of the fragile tracks…i dunno. i can’t explain it. it sounds so weird, like it’s a bunch of different parts of songs thrown together, and it works so good. the whole first verse, can’t understand a word he’s saying. like, i first thought he was singing in reverse… or something, it sounds so weird. gonna have to listen and read the words. but omg…yeah it’s so great.

 

trent needs a whole album of instrumentals. yes he does. and he needs to tour.

i’m so spent now.

 

so i drove around for a while. drove down to the falls, and then back to barnes and nobles and the other record theatre. i thought maybe barnes and nobles would have it out tonight, like how they sold Chucky P’s new book 3 days before it was supposed to come out. but no luck. the lady said they’re gonna have it tomorrow, so that’s good, i can use my gift certificates. and aunt darleen will be there, and can get me a discount. yay. i went to target too to see if they happened to put out the U2 disc tonight, but no luck there either. i’m getting greedy now hehe.

but yeah, so listened to “still” twice in the car. it is so amazing. fav parts: the end of “something i can never have”, all of “the becoming” but in particular the rad piano parts, all of “the fragile” and all of “and all that could have been”….that song… is so amazing. i can’t get over it. THIS is what so called alternative music is supposed to be about. it’s supposed to be about experimenting and taking chances and creating art. not this creed crap, and these “nu-metal” aka no talent bands like drowning pool and disturbed….no talent fuckers who happened to get lucky with a catchy song. if grunting like a monkey is talent, then someone give me a record deal cuz i can do that.

alternative music, it’s supposed to have substance, it’s supposed to be emotional, the whole beginning of “alternative” was to provide something with substance to fight all the cock rock bands of the 80s like poison and bon jovi…that old guitar alternative, or “grunge” from the seattle scene in the early 90s had substance… pearl jam, nirvana, soundgarden…they had things to say, they got so big because they were speaking to this generation of kids who had no future. it meant something. this shit that’s out now, it’s so meaningless, just as disposable as nsync and britney spears. everyone rags on the pop music superstars for their lack of substance, but it’s no different then papa roach, and limp bizkit…god these bands that are big now, they piss me off so bad….

you’re supposed to feel something with alternative music…it’s not supposed to be disposable. you’re supposed to listen to it and feel the emotions that went into writing and recording it. i’m in the car listening to “something i can never have” and trent starts singing at the climax and you can tell he’s singing with so much emotion, it hits you right in the heart… you can’t help but listen to it and be moved…he pours his soul out in his songs. that’s how it’s supposed to be….

sometimes i think i’m too emotionally involved in my music. all i know is that trent has reaffirmed his place as the top god in Sara’s polytheism…

 

 

 

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i’m getting to the end of this mj tape, and i guess this is some ABC special about the brit awards 96…but its like 4 david bowie performances LOL. i love bowie. he rocks. he’s singing “under pressure”… which now always makes me think of the NIN closure video…when nin is sitting around with bowie, and david is talking about how they did under pressure and people were like “he’s covering vanilla ice” HAHAH

 

i just remembered. while watching popmart i realized i don’t know any of the words to discotheque LOL. and i was reminded of this just now by watching MJ’s 88 grammy performance of the way you make me feel, and i remembered that i recently realized he says “paint the town” not “hit the town” lol

yeah 88 grammys is mjs worst lipsynching job ever… its SOOOO bad. but 88 grammys is one of his best tv performances ever (besides motown 25) and probably one of the best grammy performances of anyone ever…it’s the end of the performance when he starts singing (and they forget to turn the mic on), that is just like, mind blowing…mj needs to be mind blowing again…. “and no massage couldda been any clearer” hahah

whatever happened to billy crystal??

you’re a whole new generation and pepsi’s coming through, schmon i’m bad, i’m bad, and pepsi’s cool you know it you know. and the whole world has to answer right now just to tell you the pepsi way, it’s cool.

mjs bad tour outfits were so rad.. i want his buckle pants.

 

so i’m continuing on with my video tape watching now that i’m not dying. finished watching MJ around the world (finally, i think i’ve attempted to watch it 3 or 4 times now)…it’s so great. mj was so great in the bad era. i wanna go to a Bad tour concert!!! he had a good face, and he sang, and he had energy and was happy!…and now he’s singing on the Sammy Davis Jr tribute thing from years ago, 88 or something. It was so great. MJ neck hehe….Nothing like that Liz Taylor tribute CRAP. lol. he was soooo good back in the day. i think i have the sammy davis thing on another tape too cuz i had seen it before, and i know i’ve never watched this tape before. i lost the paper that went with it telling me what the hell all these clips were, but…that is long gone somewhere. now it’s a really old episode of entertainment tonight about the Victory tour…84 then..

 

well i guess today wasn’t a total loss. worst headache i’ve had in a while….felt like puking all day long. i haven’t had a migrane like that since i was a kid. slept for 2 hrs in the afternoon cuz it got too bad…got up, didn’t completely go away, but had gross pizza, went on comp. came back again. went back to bed….

but then it went away for a bit – of course not completely, but enough that i could function – and i accomplished another web feat. i now run a forum off my own host, instead of a free one with banner ads. it works..not completely, but it works. can’t figure out how to post images, even tho i’m doing what it says….arg. just gives me a gay ass stupid text code thing instead of a pic showing up like it’s supposed to. so…i guess i have to wait til someone responds on the discus support forum. which i hope is soon.

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today is gonna be mj video day. lol.

i think mtv should bring back 12 angry viewers and let me be on it… and ooooh this is the super great Manson as President of the USA closing performance!!! this was great. god manson is so funny. i love how the audience is just …..staring. hahahah…. they’re all like, what…the fuck…is this. lol.

so janet jackson is presenting mark romanek with the video vanguard award for like best director….they’re doing a lil montage of his vids…every great vid, he’s done. LOL…he is really so good. and he made trent lick a microphone LOL.

what do you know… i have the NIN perfect drug video on tape too LOL….how lovely. trennnnnnt!!!
yeah now i’m on mtv awards 97…this must be a preshow thing. this video rocks, trent is so evil looking…ok more so than normal haha.and this song rocks too. hahah 3 days til nin dvd!!! is absynth (sp?) really bright green? haha my watching trent play piano fantasy still remains hehe.

oh this show is “and the nominees are…” hosted by hanson LOL. i think this 97 mtv awards was the one hosted by chris rock…and i think u2 might have been on it…maybe they were on 98…i have a mp3 of their performance tho. hah. lol a commercial to buy u2’s pop album at bestbuy – oh and they said “Buy mtv award performer u2’s pop”….yay.

and now is the preshow…tabitha soren, i hate her. she’s a bitch. premier of janet’s “got til it’s gone” video…ew interview with mariah after her divorce….when she turned into mega slut. lol spice girls. they’re so funny. even tho i hate kurt loder, sometimes his deadpan comments are just hysterical. like, scary spice said their movie is out on boxing day and he’s like “yeah boxing day is a big holday here too” HAHAHA talking to janet….shes fat in this interview…her arms are like huge.

ok on to the show….yup chris rock. spoofing the “beautiful people” haha WOO HOO this is the u2 one…hah. ok why did i tape this and save it? cuz no one i liked then or like now besides u2 is on it… hah. chris rock is so funny. hes got THE most weirdest deformed hands lol. ooooh this is the whole tribute to biggie “i’ll be missin you” award show…fast forward. whatever happened to prodigy? they rocked. jewel, blah, fast forward. prodigy is performing. i remember my mom was watching it and was like, what the hell he has snot coming out of his nose all over LOL. lol the white prodigy guy just struck a jay gordon pose…of course, before jay gordon was in orgy, but whatever lol. all raver music should be as cool as prodigy. woah i think black prodigy guy has nipple rings…woo hoo. wallflowers, boring….girls rapping, a big fast forward….fiona apple, best new artist, is this her big rambling speech? haha yeah the maya angelou speech hahaha. the “this world is bullshit” speech hahahahaha she’s such a nutcase. WOO HOO u2 finally….then i can stop watching this crap….oh shit this isn’t the mp3 i have. this is the really shitty performance of please that ali reminded bono about after sept 11th HAHAHAH. how great. ok well that wasn’t shitty…bono sounded good, the band sounded good. aside from being kinda uneventful…and then chris rock said bono looked like the unabomber in his black hoodie hahaha. too funny….

haha talking about dangerous tour, the actual tour and how big it was, and the guy is like, this is the biggest outdoor show ever…haha soon to be surpassed by zootv and then popmart haha. i can’t imagine building the dangerous stage, or zootv stage….any big stage, even the elevation tour. they have the behind the scenes thing on the u2 dvd, and it’s like wow..that stage was NOTHING and it was so huge. hahah all that work for 3 hrs of use…

i soooo don’t remember this….behind the scenes stuff for “give into me”….my fav mj song. lol. slash should tour with mj, he’s not doing anything anymore lol. forget jennifer batan, big haired guitar player….go for the other big haired guitar player named slash hehe. slash rocks.

now i’m watching this tape that contains the 2 versions of “they dont care about us”, 86 and 88 grammies, and 2 mtv rockumentaries about MJ…. so i’m on rockumentary #1 which is about dangerous so like 93 or so. and the commercials are on, and i am so amused!! lol there was one for the premier of Sea Quest on NBC, the movie the Real McCoy….one to buy Janet. at Kmart LOL….MTV commercial advertising new videos “this fall” from janet jackson, mj, u2, whitney houston, nirvana, pearl jam, guns and roses… LOL. mj should do a making the video episode…that’d rock. cuz this rockumentary has all kinds of behind the scenes stuff from remember the time vid shoot – stuff that isnt on “dangerous short films” video tape…there is this one dancer in the RTT video who looks like a man. i hate her. hah.
i need some retro mj clothing…i used to have a belt. long time ago, like when i was 4. i want a vintage mj shirt.

blah the commercials were cut out of this episode of rockumentary…boooring. lol.

i think music is really amazing. this show is showing billie jean from the opening night of the dangerous tour. they show the audience and every person is clapping along to the beat…i think that is amazing. not just mj, but any artist or band. to have the ability to control a crowd like that. to have the power to have people just…i dunno. follow like that. actors can’t do that, artists in the classical sense can’t do that….only musicians, cult leaders and religious figures can…hmm.

haha i forgot, this world music awards thing is when mj started laffing about pirates. LOL he gets another award, and he’s standing on stage with hootie and the blowfish, and this old man. and the old man starts talking about how his success and the success of all the other artists on the show is a result of their music not being stolen by pirates. and mj starts laffing LOL and then the guy keeps going about music piracy and stuff and mj is trying not to laff. LOL but the way the old guy said it, it deserved a laff, cuz he’s like, your music is getting stolen by pirates LOL

so on with my video tape watching….world music awards 1996. this was an mj thing LOL. it was an earth song performance, and i believe it was post controversial messiah complex brit awards performance. yep i’m sure of it, because this is the same performance and i remember waiting to see it to make my own conclusions about the whole messiah bit at the end. mj looks so beautiful, very feminine, but…like…beautiful. bad hair tho, half mullet. or not, but like…bad. layered, woman like. LOL. but his face moved, and he looked happy.
and i realized something while watching the earth song performance. something i really don’t like about invincible is it’s lack of emotion. HIStory might have gotten slammed in the media for being self-indulgent or what not, and criticized because it was all angry and stuff. well i admire the high level of emotion on HIStory…he was truely angry, and it came out in his music. and i realized that listening to invincible – it doesn’t move me. he’s singing totally devoid of any emotion. he’s going through the words, and stuff but i don’t think he really has any emotional involvement in any of these songs – with maybe the exception of speechless but i HATE that song and never listen to it. i dunno. but that’s why i don’t like invincible. i like emotional music, personal, not personal, just emotional…there was no emotion in his tribute concert performances, not like this earth song performance had…i dunno.

jordan knight and jon b have recorded a remake of the Hall and Oats song “Sara Smile”….do you know how much i HATE that song?
thinking about it, i haven’t had anyone sing at me in a while…ha

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