I posted 18 times this day. Ha. Here you go.
i had some strange ass dreams last night. now i wanna listen to deftones but that cd is at school.
pam slapped me at work today. slapped my arm… really fucking hard. she left a mark. everyone was like, WHAT THE FUCK, including me. she’s like, something about this green sticker that was on her. and i’m like jesus christ that fucking hurt. cuz it did. i wanted to cry, it really really fucking hurt. wreatha said something to her about being so rude. so then pam looked at my arm and saw her fucking hand print, and was like i’m sorry and kissed my arm. i’m like whatever. it fucking hurt.
…early morning april 4, shot rings out in a memphis sky, free at last they took your life they could not take your pride…
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came home from work, sat around, took a shower…got off my lazy ass and left the house to get a money order for my ebay purchase. i go to the bank, atm machine cant give me any money…so that means i can’t get the money order cuz i don’t have enough cash. so i decided to go to record theatre to see if they had any nin promo posters/stickers/whatever for the dvd stuff coming out tomorrow. they have a rack in the front labled Imports. so i’m looking at it to see how much the tea party cd cost (18$)…then i look to the right, AND THERE IS THE FUCKING LIVE NIN DISC!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT DOESNT COME OUT TIL TOMORROW!!!!!!! AEOIURASLIFDJAWLERNA so i’m looking at it, and it’s just the single disc…so i’m like uh, i have a q. this is just the single one right? and then right in front of where i had turned around and was now standing was the double. i’m like WOO HOO CAN I BUY THIS?! and they’re like yeah. LOL then the guy is like, do you want the DVD too? and i’m like ARG NO I HAVE NO MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had to charge the cd… yeah cuz it was fucking 30$ fucking expensive indie record store LOL. BUT IT DOESNT COME OUT TIL TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i asked for promo stuff too but the guy said they had none (liar, there were the posters up on the windows :P)….so nooooowww i get to listen to lovely trent screaming his lovely songs out, woo hoo. this is so fucking great omg i’m dying.
so now i only have to get the dvd tomorrow, hopefully at barnes and nobels so i can use my gift certificates….and then the u2 cd at target….hopefully the bank machine will be able to give me money, cuz i’d rather not be charging all of this.
and yeah i bitched about how fucking ugly the live nin stuff packaging was. yeah it’s ugly. but the double disc it’s in one of those fold out things like the fragile, and then it’s inside a cloth box. so it’s cooler than the scans seemed. lol but it’s for lefties…the cd comes out the wrong side of the cloth box thing LOL
and omg…i’m not there yet, but…looking at the tracklisting for the “still” disc…. a “the fragile” reconstruction!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG….if it’s trent playing piano i’m going to die…and i’ll die a fucking happy death. aeryasd;lfkawe;rausidfoiawh;ero;aiyehfo;iasuj;sealn and there is a “something i can never have” reconstruction……ahhhhhhhhhh
omG i’m so fucking excited…. i must stop myself from going back to buy the dvd right now. ahhhh
soooo dying over this cd…..”the great below” and “the mark has been made” sound different than the Toronto show, and the other live mp3s i have…. omfg i so love “the mark has been made” live… ahhh….
lol as if my stereo wasnt loud enough as it is, and my mom can probably hear it downstairs, but she has to come upstairs to do something when “closer” comes on… and while she likes this song, she’s only heard it on the radio with the edit… hahahahahah
omg head like a hole rocks so hard…aah….trent needs to tour!!!!!!!
“starfuckers inc” is on and i’m remembering how great it was at the show, when the whole crowd is just screaming “don’t you don’t you don’t you” ahhhh it’s so energizing ahhhhhhhhhhh need to be there, trent needs to tour. i need that feeling again ahhhhhhhhhhh. i think there is something really different about nin fans, and the whole crowd participation thing… like, that was a feeling unlike any other concert feeling i’ve had….i mean u2 hamilton, it felt so different, singing along with that crowd, compared to the nin toronto crowd….both were just amazing feelings, but different. ahhhhhhhh need concert!!!!!
and omg sometimes i forget how fucking amazing “hurt” is….
omgomgomgomgomgomgomg something i can never have IS TRENT PLAYING PIANO!!!!!!!!!! holyfuckingshit i’m going to cry. this is the greatest thing i’ve ever heard. times 100
LOL OMG IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. something i can never have was on when my dad got home, now adrift and at peace is on, and he comes in my room…
dad: what is this?
me: nine inch nails
dad: *jumps surprised*
me: he is a classicaly trained pianist you know
dad: i just saw a picture of them in the paper, mouth wide open screaming mode
me: he was gonna be a concert pianist
dad: can’t hide your roots i guess
me: it’s good stuff
dad: yeah this stuff is nice
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOL MY DAD LIKES TRENT’S PIANO STUFF!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS SO FUNNY!!!!!
OMG IM SO GONNA CRY!!!!!!!!!! FRAGILE IS TRENT PLAYING PIANO TOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg the reconstructed “the becoming”…it’s so great. it’s so weird. like, there is this AWESOME, like so totally wicked piano beginning….and then this weird vocal effect where trent sounds like he’s in a tunnel. and then after the “the me that you know….” part, there’s a louder piano part over the drums and other instruments playing it….wow. this is so great. ok yeah, the “still” cd is so worth the inflated price i paid ALONE….
i wonder what this all sounds like on a stereo that doesn’t sound like shit. yeah i need to go drive around for a while.
omg i wonder if the dvd is gonna have hidden footage of recording “still”…. ahhh that’d be so great. i wonder if my next post i can start it with something other than “omg” LOL
pretty sure that “the day the world went away” version on still is that acoustic in chicago version that’s floated around on mp3…and i didnt start this post with OMG since i’ve heard this before hahahah.
i need a nin fan with me right now so we can go driving around and just be completely blown away by the absolute brilliance of the still disc.
“and all that could have been” – the theme for this design….the song is…strange. it is so amazing. but it’s so weird. and i almost cried. cuz the way he sings the chorus, the “the pieces and promises and left behinds”…omg. it’s got elements of “the fragile” album stuff, and some of “the downward spiral”… like the guitar part is reminiscent of “the becoming” off tds…but it’s sorta got that airy/far away sound of some of the fragile tracks…i dunno. i can’t explain it. it sounds so weird, like it’s a bunch of different parts of songs thrown together, and it works so good. the whole first verse, can’t understand a word he’s saying. like, i first thought he was singing in reverse… or something, it sounds so weird. gonna have to listen and read the words. but omg…yeah it’s so great.
trent needs a whole album of instrumentals. yes he does. and he needs to tour.
i’m so spent now.
so i drove around for a while. drove down to the falls, and then back to barnes and nobles and the other record theatre. i thought maybe barnes and nobles would have it out tonight, like how they sold Chucky P’s new book 3 days before it was supposed to come out. but no luck. the lady said they’re gonna have it tomorrow, so that’s good, i can use my gift certificates. and aunt darleen will be there, and can get me a discount. yay. i went to target too to see if they happened to put out the U2 disc tonight, but no luck there either. i’m getting greedy now hehe.
but yeah, so listened to “still” twice in the car. it is so amazing. fav parts: the end of “something i can never have”, all of “the becoming” but in particular the rad piano parts, all of “the fragile” and all of “and all that could have been”….that song… is so amazing. i can’t get over it. THIS is what so called alternative music is supposed to be about. it’s supposed to be about experimenting and taking chances and creating art. not this creed crap, and these “nu-metal” aka no talent bands like drowning pool and disturbed….no talent fuckers who happened to get lucky with a catchy song. if grunting like a monkey is talent, then someone give me a record deal cuz i can do that.
alternative music, it’s supposed to have substance, it’s supposed to be emotional, the whole beginning of “alternative” was to provide something with substance to fight all the cock rock bands of the 80s like poison and bon jovi…that old guitar alternative, or “grunge” from the seattle scene in the early 90s had substance… pearl jam, nirvana, soundgarden…they had things to say, they got so big because they were speaking to this generation of kids who had no future. it meant something. this shit that’s out now, it’s so meaningless, just as disposable as nsync and britney spears. everyone rags on the pop music superstars for their lack of substance, but it’s no different then papa roach, and limp bizkit…god these bands that are big now, they piss me off so bad….
you’re supposed to feel something with alternative music…it’s not supposed to be disposable. you’re supposed to listen to it and feel the emotions that went into writing and recording it. i’m in the car listening to “something i can never have” and trent starts singing at the climax and you can tell he’s singing with so much emotion, it hits you right in the heart… you can’t help but listen to it and be moved…he pours his soul out in his songs. that’s how it’s supposed to be….
sometimes i think i’m too emotionally involved in my music. all i know is that trent has reaffirmed his place as the top god in Sara’s polytheism…