some things i forgot about today. this old guy came up to me and jack and started talking to us about…i’m not sure what. just anything. he had been in the marines and was telling us about traveling. then he whips out his wallet and is like, i’m just going to show you this (me, not jack) and it’s 2 old pictures of him from the marines, one with his uniform on, one shirtless showing off his muscles (and he was built). he showed jack anyway. then he starts talking about vermont somehow with jack, who apparently skis. then the guy is like, you should come up and visit vermont, and you can bring her with you (me). jack is like ok?!? we exchange looks. and the guy asks me if i was married, as if it would be bad for me to go on a ski trip with jack if i was married. so i’m like no, i’m only 22. then he starts saying something to me about not getting any tattoos cuz tattoos are gross, and how he only has one from 1949 when his dad died, he didn’t even have a marines tattoo. me and jack keep looking at eachother like wtf is going on haha it was weird.

so yeah. my current phase in my evolution of emotion is the “eh” stage. i’m at the point where i really don’t care if anything happens between me and nick. there are a few reasons behind it…he’s leaving soon, he’s a big flirt so it’s hard to really tell if he’s interested, it’s just..hmm i dunno. he’s a really great guy, and i wouldn’t be adverse to anything happen. but i’m not going to really actively persue anything…i am at the point where i’d be cool with just being friends and hanging out, and if something happened, well whatever. i think there is potential for me to get down on things if we were to get together, and then have him leave for 2 years. and it’s not like he’d be close by and visitable…i’m pretty content with things at the moment. of course that could change in a snap but for now…i’m ok with this.

working 11:30-6 and leaving from work to toronto. bowie is monday, coming home tuesday. stopping to get heather on my way home tuesday, so she can follow me back to buffalo. she’s gotta pick ty up at the airport tuesday night, so we’re gonna hang out before then, pick him up, maybe get some dinner. then i managed to get next monday off (the 12th) so they can come down and we can do the tourist stuff – maid of the mist, cave of the winds (which i’ve never done)…maybe the balloon if ty wants to. we’ll see. probably go to hard rock – that discount is too good to pass up lol. knowing me i’ll probably blog from carolyn’s. but if not, i’ll be around tuesday night.

i think when i get back i’m going to implement a new feature…i think i’m going to have special password posts sometimes. when i do it, i’ll mention it so that if you are privledged i can set up passwords for people who want them. i’m just really paranoid about people from work finding my site and seeing alot of this lately. ok just one person i’m paranoid about lol.