i have a horrible schedule. i work nights, i never get to see anyone. i get 2 days off a week where i can see my friends and spend time with people. so it really irritates me when people tell me they’re going to hang out with me, or that we’ll do something, and then it doesn’t happen. it irritiates me even more when people don’t even have the courtesy to let me know that said plans aren’t going to happen. plans change, things come up, cancellations are made, fine. no problem, just fucking let me know.

theres really nothing i hate more

once again, danielle never showed up. this is the 3rd time now. once again, not a word from her as to why. i thought it might be different today because she was coming over with a purpose – to clip the dogs nails. but nope. guess not. i can’t say i even know her anymore. and james didn’t come over either. let me know he lost his keys around 9, but then said he’d try to come over. its after 12 now and i’m tired.

if you don’t want to hang out with me fine. if something comes up and you can’t, or you decide you don’t want to hang out with me, fine. just tell me. and don’t give me some stupid bullshit excuse either. just say it. nate would always do that, with the “i’m tired” excuse. bullshit. you’re not going to bed right now, you’re going to end up doing something – and i don’t care. you want to hang out with your family, fine, just don’t lie to me.

i don’t think i ask too much from my friends. i don’t think it’s too much to expect people to follow through on things. i don’t think it’s too much to expect some courtesy either.

so back to work tomorrow. see everyone (maybe) on my next 2 days off.

watching “while you were out” because i have nothing better to do, and this episode takes place at a house with a woman who is obsessed with legos. to the point where she furnished the house with lego furniture. and she is completely stressed out and having ocd reactions to the fact that they are taking all the lego creations out of the room they are redoing. to cope with the change she started making new lego things. the tv ppl accidentally broke one of the lego creations and she looked like she was going to cry. i think she needs an intervention. besides that, she’s doing it for her husband who hates the lego furniture. they’ve been married for 20 years, and she doesn’t know what he does for a living, and she doesn’t like participating in the things he likes to do, like soccer (for example). seems like she’s got some issues. i loved playing with legos and everything but…come on now. she hates everything they’re doing to the house. she hates the prize she won. she hates it all. WHY’D YOU EVEN WANT TO BE ON THE SHOW?! haha i don’t get it. i think they realized it was a strange episode because they keep doing commentary from both the tv ppl and the woman after the fact, and are going to do a “what the room looks like now” segment haha

and i’m sorry that i’m a jerk.