i am trying to resign my position at work and return to full time dealing. planning on doing it tomorrow when our shift manager returns from his days off. i’ve just had enough. i know it’s not something i can speak about without getting very upset, so i wrote it all down in a formal letter to give to management.

mike is resigning from the ctrc, and i am not far behind. i had actually been planning on doing so this week, without any knowledge of mike’s decision. i am going to try to hold off, but we’ll see how things go. i can’t handle the way things have been there this year.

i go to the doctor tomorrow for my depression. hopefully that, plus these other steps, will begin to make things better for me.

u2 in toronto this week. board meeting thursday *dreading*. everything is falling apart.