i am so frustrated right now. and when i’m frustrated i cry. and i hate crying.

did over time, AGAIN, tonight. got suited up although i was supposed to deal. turned into a nightmare in the last hour. can’t talk about it, but someone should be getting written up right now, but i’m being nice. i’m the boss. when i tell you to do something, you do it. you especially do it the 2nd time i ask you to do it. and the 3rd should really not even have to happen.

waiting for tony to get here so i can drink.

gah tony keeping me up til 7am when i have stuff to do all day. but that’s ok. it was good talking to him. discussed what i should have done in my work situation and what to do next time something like it happens. talked about other stuff. always good conversation. he’s a very smart very level headed boy. haha he told me “i don’t mean this as an insult, and i think you already know this, but you’re not a typical woman”. all cuz i said i hate shoes LOL.

anyway.

throughout my life, the only men who have liked me have been scummy/creepy old men. i’m really tired of it. i got asked at work by a scummy old man if the little ring i wear is an engagement ring. when i said no he went on about how he was wondering if a boy gave it to me and if i was in love. he finished with “you’re still fine anyway”. he said “fine” all ebonic like. LOL. he continued to talk and tell me he’s talked to me more today than he has the whole last year. and how he noticed i’m not very socialable. so i said “well most people here aren’t worth talking to” ROFL i thought that was rude, until i realized he didn’t get that i was talking about him HAH.

whatever.

so i did most of what i planned to today, despite having to sleep in a bit more. i didn’t do my laundry, i only washed my sheets. had to take them to the laundramat to dry cuz someone here was using the dryer. i also baked a cake and fucked up my hair. totally not the color it’s supposed to be. ug. prolly gonna redye it in a few days. it’s supposed to be brown. it’s not. it’s light red now. i’m wondering if i had the wrong color in the box i bought, cuz really. it was supposed to be a brown copper, and it definitely lightened my hair instead. and i really just want to do it black again, if only black wasn’t so hard to get out once you do it.