got the job. orientation tomorrow at 5. there isn’t going to be any parking. haha.

hanging out with chris yesterday for a few hours reminded me how much adolescence sucks. i don’t understand people who say they’d love to go back to high school. high school sucks. being a teenager sucks. who wants to relive all that stupid shit again? definitely not me, thanks. and i didn’t even have a bad time with it all. it still sucked though.

i think it’s funny, that all year in school i’d get up for class, turn my comp on, go take a shower etc. i’d come back in my room and everyone and their brother would IM me. and i’d be like helllooo i need to get ready for classssss can’t talk to youuuuu. and now that i’m home, and i have no job, i get up and sit at my computer for hrs before i do anything, and no one ever talks to me. lol. and it always seems like people only talk to me right when i was about to leave the house or something. lol. funny how that works.

i have the greatest urge to start singing alanis morrisette’s “hands clean” even tho i don’t know the words, or melody, and i’ve only heard it once. it just seems sort of appropriate to the way i’m feeling right now. i’m officially taking the stance of “not my problem” in almost everything right now. it’s self-centered and i don’t care. until someone comes to me and needs my help, it’s “not my problem”. i will always be here for any of my friends who need my help. even if i don’t like them. LOL. just know that. but for now, i’m done *wipes hands*.

so instead of alanis, i’ll just listen to the Broken EP. Staind’s “mudshovel” is a really good song when you’re pissed off. i got it in my head today cuz eric’s random lyric generator had a line from it. then i was like wow, this is so great if you’re pissed off (which i wasn’t at the time). i don’t own staind tho, so Broken will do. Eric and I decided to go in together on the Broken movie sometime this summer – so we can be completely disgusted, disturbed and thrilled by trent’s genius :). the bootleg guy at the flea market said he has it. i wonder about the quality tho. 10 bucks, so whatever. it’s better than the undistinguishable real video file i had.

i hope i don’t have to work friday night. since it’s my birthday and everything. i figured since i’ll have just finished training if i get scheduled wed and thurs, they wouldn’t want a new person working on such a busy night yet…hahah. but we’ll see. not like i have anything planned. carolyn and kurt were going to take me to dinner, but now it might not happen since carolyn got a job too. dunno. i don’t even care really. birthdays….whatever…no big deal.