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christmas weekend consisted of my incorrect 10-6 shift on friday, got out at 4, but i had to sit there for 3 hours before my shift actually started. got to watch the sabres game so i had that at least. saturday i was going to go explore in canada but it was gloomy and that means bad pictures, so i didn’t, i just slept then went to dinner with adrienne. chilled here watching tv and we made a pie. today was going for a christmas dinner at adr’s with her family for a few hours. then work at 10 again. had to stay til 6 this time. had a strange almost heart to heart with a grave shift manager about how women in this business are treated. that led to my story with stalker and how i was told that it was my fault. she just about had a cow. she said i should really go to HR about it, just to have something on record incase something ever happens again (either with the stalker, or with male supervisors telling me it’s my fault i’m getting sexually harassed). but i dunno. i don’t like to do that sort of thing and get people in trouble. we’ll see.

tomorrow – SABRES GAME! woo!!

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yesterday was christmas with my parents, as they went to detroit today. had dinner, brought kitty along, gifted, got adr to come over and watch the sabres lose (Grrrrrrrrr). chased the cat around the house when it was time to leave, as adr sat in the car waiting haha. it was funny.

i got a laptop. yay! i have another aim screenname for when i’m on the laptop, ask me for it. got other random little things as well, but that was the big gift. ordered a case for it today. and since there are at least 5 wireless networks i can leech from in my building, i haven’t gone to get a new wireless router yet haha.

in total pain. both shoulders now, tho the left is still worse. my right armpit hurts the way it did when i had mono. blah. nothing i can do either except dope myself up. hopefully i don’t have to do alot of work tonight. i have tomorrow night off, so i can rest more.

so merry christmas and all that.

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ok, incase someone doesn’t know the site yet (can’t remember if i mentioned it), but microsoft 1 upped google satelite maps with their local.live.com. incredible close up “bird’s eye” satelite images of most of the country. i mean, really really fantastic arial photos. you can look up my parents house and see my car in the driveway. you can look up the terminal, and each different directional view was taken at a different time period – kinda neat. same with the richardson complex – it even shows them ACTUALLY doing work on the place. very cool. so i’ve been playing with it, and tried to look up the nevada test site. and oh my god you can see it. you can see mercury the base camp. and everything else, but not everything is labled so the site where they actually did the tests i can’t find. (and regarding the test site, i’m torn between going for the april 24th tour, or going to vegas at the same time coworkers are). though i’m not patriotic in the slightest, and bush already knows i wish him dead since he’s been spying on us all, it is a bit…disconcerting to see that you can view close up detailed images of military bases…you can see the air base across the street from me in total clarity…planes on the run way, buildings, etc. google had blurred that stuff out. but anyway. i’m sure that’ll change at some point. terrorists find your targets while you still can 😛

seriously the site is hours of fun

the fact that there is a highway in the vegas area that runs through the nevada test site called the extraterrestrial highway makes my day.

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i know i say this annually, and multiple times a season, but i hate christmas music. it is my personal hell. and right now, i have mariah carey’s big xmas song stuck in my head. i seriously want to shoot myself.

i have a serious problem with my shoulder. it has been awful painfull all day long. i switched to get onto caribbean stud tonight, so i wouldn’t have to deal out of a shoe with so many repetitive motions. managed to stay there for 5 hours, and while it still wasn’t pleasant it was better. but of course, got sent to bacc in high limit at 1 anyway. was dead for a while but of course that didn’t last very long. gah. after 4 painkillers its not as bad as it was this afternoon but we’ll see how tomorrow is. there’s really nothing i can do except drugs.

anyway. went on the hotel tour. and i’ll take back some of what i said about how it looks. the hotel is actually pretty nice. the casino floor still is hideous, but the lobby is looking nicer as they keep adding more stuff that wasn’t finished for the opening…the neon columns aren’t so neon now that they put these texture things over them. they’ve added plants, and signage. there are also 2 water walls that are not quite running yet but we’re being tested while i was there this afternoon. got to see 2 types of the guest rooms…a corner suite, which was pretty nice, and a standard room. floor to ceiling windows, 42″ plasma tvs, nice cushy beds, huge walk in showers, jacuzzies along the windows of the suites. pretty high class if you ask me. definitely the best thing you can get in the falls that’s for sure. the hallways of the floors are really nice, alot of really pretty wood work. there is a whole hallway that will have some stores, and meeting rooms etc. and there is a decoration pattern they are using in this hallway, that i swear to god is on the outside of the terminal. i gotta look through my pictures. so yeah. it’ll definitely be a nice resort once everything is finished.

tony and i went to dinner at this really nice place in canada which was expensive even in canadian but he got half off, and paid for it, so that was nice. dropped into the old casino cuz he wanted to see what the caribbean jackpot was up to (365,000). didn’t play tho. i gave him my only 5$ canadian to play pai gow with, and we split the 30$ profit hahaha.

tomorrow is groceries and whatever else. need to go by cingular and bitch about my bill, possibly change carriers (tho no one else is any better), and go to my dentist for them to explain why i owe 80 some dollars when my insurance thing said it was covered and that i owed 3.

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stalker update!!! he was escorted out by security tonight. about fucking time. lindsay had finished telling me that he was being creepy about getting a hotel room, and that chuck stood up for us and told him dealers can’t date players (chuck was the first person i told about the whole thing). then i find out later he was escorted out for being creepy and perverted to a cocktail waitress. they don’t put up with anything (cuz they get it ALL the time). so hooray for SOMEONE finally making something happen.

going on a tour of the hotel afterall, tho from what i hear it’s pretty useless considering nothing of any interest is finished yet. but i found out tony is going at the same time, so we’re gonna get dinner before work and stuff. that’ll be good.

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so i should post something.

the hotel opened thursday. er well…i think its more like the expanded gaming floor of the hotel is open, i don’t think they’re giving people rooms yet. one of the 4 new eateries is open, as well as another retail store. and the nightclub. but yeah…new gaming floor. so hideous. i am so disappointed. other people are like oh its so beautiful blahblahblah. and i realize that i have a different idea of what is beautiful than most people, but really. it’s so…not elegant and high class. it totally does not match the main gaming floor AT all. part has a mirrored ceiling which reminded me of the god awful casino that adr2 and i went into in reno the one day. the other part doesn’t have a ceiling at all, it’s just exposed ducts etc, and it looks like a warehouse. given where this section is, right above the 2 new table game pits, i don’t think it’s just “not done”…i think that’s how it’s supposed to be. then it has the awning things over the tables like the main casino, and Paris in las vegas….but they’re all decorative, and i think they’re supposed to be stylized feathers – we’re in an indian casino afterall – but to me it looks like a skeleton…like a bunch of ribs of a great big skeleton. i understand the desire to have an indian type decor, but it could have been done sooo much better. it all just looks mismatched and cheesey. the new high limit pit, my new home, is so plain, and brown, and i think awful. it’s not classy or elegant in the slightest bit. it’s WAY more functional than the old room, and much bigger so i like that, but decor-wise i don’t like it. they also added a high limit lounge with a bar and food, and it is seriously the most plain thing ever. i just expected so so much more. they’re giving employee tours of the entire complex next week but you have to come on your day off and i’m not sure i want to do that.

while on my trip to cali i began, and finished, the book City of Light which takes place in Buffalo during the PanAmerican Exposition. it’s historical fiction, integrating fictional characters with real life old Buffalo citizens, Grover Cleveland (who was mayor of Buffalo before he was president), McKinley etc…I liked it. It was a bit predictable in parts, but then at the same time something else would take you by surprise. And it really makes you proud of Buffalo. I think everyone who lives here should be forced to read it. It gives you a nice warm feeling that we really were the center of the country at the time, a booming city, with huge industry moving in, and so much hope and high expectations. But at the same time it is sort of depressing to think of what we were, and what we let ourselves become…

which leads me to the latest preservationist debate in the city. My employers purchased the HO Oats grain elevator behind HSBC arena down town, and are going to tear it down for their Buffalo Creek casino. So preservationists like my good buddies are fighting the demolition because it’s a historic building and all that. Ok guys, there are about 10 other historic grain elevators in Buffalo, just sitting there like HO Oats, collecting grafitti, what’s it going to matter if we lose this one. And there comes a point where you have to sacrifice something old to usher in a new era. These elevators, as much as I love them, are never ever going to be used again. In my opinion, the city is better off demolishing them and freeing up all this water front, and Buffalo river front space, to actually DO something with, and make Buffalo a jewel of the Great Lakes again. Years and years people keep talking about waterfront development, and nothing ever happens. So let the Seneca’s come in, demolish some old grain elevators, building their casino, and GET people and other businesses down town. It’s really time to move forward here. Somethings are worth preserving, some aren’t. You have to pick and choose your battles, and I don’t think this is a good one. Great Northern, yes, HO oats, no. We have to build and grow and MOVE ON.

ok with that little rant done…i went on to read Ayn Rand’s “Anthem” a novella she wrote before Fountainhead and Atlas Shrugged. It was very 1984/Harrison Bergeron like…took place in the future when everyone was made equal, and worked for the “brotherhood” except for the main character who breaks out of it and runs away into the Uncharted Forest. It was ok. Sort of a starter into Ayn Rand philosophy, and not as brutal and boring at times as Atlas Shrugged gets. Not bad. 104 pages or something, easy read.

and then i ran out of books. so i am trying to read Fellowship of the Ring. I started it about 10 years ago and got to page 22 of the prologue. I’m not doing much better now. I find it very difficult to read, it seems like the verb tense is off at times, and it’s just very hard. And I’m not stupid. It’s also boring. The review of Hobbit history and all that. And it seems to be very inconsistent, because one page says the Hobbits aren’t into their past and geneology, but then 10 pages later talk about the huge family trees with innumberable branches on them that the Hobbits make up…so which is it, they’re into geneology or they’re not?? Just hard to get interested in it and want to read more. But it was the same thing with the Hobbit and i ended up getting totally into it and really enjoying it. so we’ll see. i’m expecting santa to bring me a bunch of books if anyone like my parents got the hint that i don’t want more clothes that i’m not gonna wear, and knicknacks i have no place for etc. my amazon wish list is full of books this time around.

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bill clinton was in buffalo at the sabres game tonight. omg how cool is that. i love him. and the sabres won. again. woohoo.

and i want to say…i’m really glad that i decided not to resign from the ctrc. we had problems this year from alot of different directions, internal and external, but in the end the board members and volunteers are some of the nicest, coolest people. it really has this family vibe going sometimes, and it’s a very great thing to be a part of. i hope 2006 is better for us all around.

i realized that i’ll be in cincinnati in a few months, and the other fellheimer and wager big terminal is there. going to have to check it out.

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i distinctly remember going to the bathroom at like 6am and using the last of the toilet paper and not changing it. yet, when i got up this morning my phone was turned off. my door was shut, and the toilet paper had been changed.

so either someone who was there to rape, murder, and rob me decided to be nice and let me sleep and change my toilet paper.

kitty grew opposable thumbs and learned to change the toilet paper.

or

i’ve begun to sleep walk.

there is no way anyone who might have been in my house was able to leave, because of the way my door locks are – you can’t lock them from the outside. so if someone was in my house, they have still not robbed me, have made no noise or anything, but are still inside. mom couldn’t have stopped by and found me sleeping and cleaned or something without waking me up, for the same reason – the door locks. she wouldn’t have been able to get in. and kitty doesn’t suddenly have thumbs.

but how do i find out if i’ve begun sleep walking?

in other news, our new fancy schmancy night club opened tonight. nice of anyone to tell us. we go into work and woo big party. people said it was nice, but none of us have had a chance to see inside of it. still haven’t seen inside the hotel either, and it opens in 2 days.

i have to go to one doctor tomorrow, then i’m supposed to see my shrink wed but i’m going to cancel. then i have traffic court, and the ctrc xmas party. gotta find where the place is tho. i’ve been there i just don’t remember what street it’s on.

OH and i found out my stalker, who was bugging me today about calling him (I ALREADY TOLD YOU KNOW YOU SENILE PERVERT), is actually 83. that makes him older than my grandma. !!!!! and also was told today that he has been bothering 2 other girls, asking them for phone numbers etc. i told them to write up a report so maybe eventually someone will make him stop sexually harassing all of us.

how fucking sad that i have a stalker and hes fucking 83.

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aahchoo

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i’m getting sick again. i can feel it. every time i go on a trip. all that time in enclosed airplane spaces didn’t help.

so saturday adr and i went to canada for lunch, and stopped by duty free shops and went to louis tussauds wax museum. i sat in a delorian!! haha. it was a fun day. tho the wax museum was not up to the quality of madame tussauds in vegas and london. had the night off but did nothing.

made cookies today. cut outs from the grocery store, but i rolled it out and cut them out and decorated them. so it counts as making cookies. they’re good. of course, since i didn’t make the dough haha.

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i realized how stupid i am to be going on this trip. it’s going to be a rough 48 hours. cuz i realized that i have to leave my house at 5:30 in the morning. which means come home from work, shower, and go right to the airport. no point in going to bed, since i haven’t been going to bed til 6/6:30 every day anyway. then to not have a hotel and just be up waiting at the airport to fly home…more no sleepy for me. thankfully i don’t have to wait in buffalo for adr to get home from vegas so i’ll have time to come home and sleep more. and since we’re not planning to sit out in buffalo for u2 all day i’ll have time to sleep. but wow. yeah i’m gonna die. i supposed its not as bad as the trip to boston where i didn’t sleep at all and had to drive. at least i’ll pass out on the airplanes. maybe i’ll get that hotel afterall.

i had crazy nightmares last night. the only one i remember now involved me driving somewhere on the highway. i took an exit and when i was exiting i went off the road a bit, as i was going right to turn right onto the main road. but i went slightly off the road. i couldn’t steer back onto that part of the road because suddenly there was like a foot drop in the pavement between my left and right tires. so i had to back up to where the drop wasn’t so much, to steer back onto the road. but then the drop became even worse so i tried to jump a small area of road, so i could get back on the pavement and i didn’t make it so i plunged down a cliff. cuz suddenly there was a cliff. somehow i managed to not be in the car, and it crashed at the bottom of this cliff. then suddenly i was in toronto, but this canyon was still there, because i’m looking down at my crashed car and suddenly someone else had been driving it and is still in the car. so i’m standing on the street and trying to get someone’s attention to call an ambulance. a guy finally sees what happened and starts to go down into this canyon to try to get her out of the car but he’s all wimpy and trying to find a good way down the cliff. meanwhile someone else sees, and this guy just bounds across the rocks and gets down to get the girl out. and someone calls an ambulance. so now we’ve gotten the girl out of the car and we’re back up on the road, which is now in toronto if you recall, and we’re waiting for an ambulance but it’s taking forever. i try to find out why it’s taking so long, and apparently the ambulance got into an accident and is tied up. so these other people and the girl from the car decide to walk to another street to get a cab, and of course as soon as they leave the ambulance shows up.

the other dream was scary too. i think they were due to having gotten a massive headache while i was sleeping. so painful.

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