Category Archives: Personal

stalker update: i was dealing on the main floor, let it ride specifically. yikes. it’s been over a year since i dealt that crap game. i didn’t think stalker would find me, cuz he wouldn’t look for me there. but he did. “oh they let you out today”. then my floor who knows the guy is like, hi, and he comes back to talk to my floor. i’m like CJ you’re such an ass!! stalker left, but then came back and when i had 3 players, and in front of them asks me when i’m going to call him!! so i said “i can’t do that sir” and he said ok and left. i hope to god he leaves me alone now. i wrote up all the incidents from the last week and gave it to management. i was also able to talk to lindsay about how he’s treated her, and hes been creepy and weird with her too. but no one will do anything about it. gah.

then i go into the bathroom and there is a lady sitting on the toilet with the door open. wtf! only me.

stalker report: he accosted me at the snack bar today, the one time i didn’t have jack walk with me as my bodyguard. he was sitting at a slot machine, and caught me as i walked by. took me by surprise. i wanted to throw up. he tried to get me to come over cuz he wanted to talk to me. i just said sorry i can’t talk to you and sped off. i had my back to the door of high limit today, so i don’t know if kin was joking when he said that stalker was behind the fish tank again. i had jack and jason continue to walk with me to and from break the rest of the night. no further run ins.

and jason found my myspace…that’s sorta scary. he tried to add me as a friend and i denied him cuz i didn’t know who it was. so he whined that the only reason he signed up was cuz he found my page haha. oh and the person who contacted me through there, who knew me from the casino – turns out i went to high school with him, and his mom is the lady who cuts my hair. haha phew.

stalker report: showed up, and came into high limit to stand at my table and stare at me. i ignored him until he said hi and i had to respond. ARRRRG. tom1 offered to go with me to talk to him but he had left. tom2 walked me back to the room from break incase he was waiting. phill offered to follow me home if i think things are weird, since the door knocking last night. i got a small army.

was an interesting night in the beginning. strange conversation between me, another dealer, and a player about the 3 of us starting a cult. that turned into the 3 of us opening a funeral home, which required me going back to school to become a mortician. and this guy was serious. to the point of offering to front all the money and construct the building. as long as i was getting the needed license. he apparently has been trying to find a mortician for years to do this. they all just go into business by themselves. and then i thought…maybe i should go do this. not necessarily with this random guy and another dealer, but there’s ALOT of money in dying. everyone’s gonna do it. i don’t really have a problem with death, and i fake having a problem with dead people just so my mom wouldn’t make me touch my grandpa at his funeral lol. i really have no idea if i’d have a problem being a mortician as i don’t have any experience with the process of embalming someone. not that i have the money to go back to school.

i can’t believe i just watched an entire episode of full house on nick at nite. seriously, the worst show ever on tv.

oh my fucking god today’s horrorscope. “Work will be quite interesting for a while — and not because of an exciting new project, either. Unless, of course, you’re single and you consider that delicious new coworker to be a project! ” ROFLMAO

stalker was back today. watching me through the fish tank again. shift manager was in the room at the time, and said if he says anything he’s out. still hasn’t approached me since friday. it’s kind of funny, cuz once any of the bosses see him, they call and warn the boss of wherever i am to be on the look out. the more people i tell about it, the more stories about him i hear. i’m going to see if i can get my badge changed tomorrow. i don’t want my real name on it anymore, so i’m going to go with my middle name. people change their names all the time, to nick names, or the asians to some other asian name. plus i’m not a dual rate anymore so my badge is technically invalid haha. i know i’m being paranoid. he’s freaking 70 years old at LEAST. but what if he’s crazy enough to hire someone to kidnap me or something. if i turn up missing, and it doesn’t involve NIN shows in california, he did it. you can find out who it is by asking any of my friends at the casino.

and yeah i’m going to california in 7 days. now i’m getting worried that i should get a hotel. what if the tiny (i’m assuming) san luis obispo airport isn’t open to go sit in at midnight for my flight at 8:30? it’s not like it’s LAX where i’m sure you can go in and wait at any time. what am i gonna do if i can’t go back to the airport? of course, if i get into the after party i’ll be able to kill some time, but i’m trying to be realistic haha.

did i mention i want to take sewing classes? i want to learn how to sew and read a pattern and stuff so i can (try) to make myself some cool clothes. i have these grand dreams of learning to sew, being able to come up with some pretty cool stuff, and start selling it on ebay. from there, someone notices how much of my stuff i sell and i turn it into a little company that just gets huge until it’s full of real fashion designers making things under my name…you know, like calvin klein, and every other brand name designer out there ahhahhahah RIIIIIIIIGHT. i just want to be able to alter and change things myself. a place that gives lessons is out near my dr so i’m gonna stop by tomorrow and see when classes are.