random qs

today i was informed by one of my supervisors that she burned her nipple on her curling iron…
from believeitup again

1- Elaborate on your default icon.
it’s freaking BRILLIANT..lyrics from the end of u2’s “walk on”

2- What’s your current relationship status?
Happily untaken.

3- Ever have a near-death experience?
well, there was that time leighanne almost killed us on the way to see u2 in toronto. her, james, kate and me. she attempted to sing loudly out the car window, in morning rush hour, as the qew changes into the 401(?) in burlington. she was quite good at sticking her head out the window to belt out songs in her old car, but didn’t quite realize it didn’t work too well in the new car. insert concrete barrier to the left, and tanker truck to the right. life flashed before our eyes…hahahahahahha

4- Name an obvious quality you have.
tall? skinny? i don’t know

5- What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your head right now?
unfortunately it’s “crumbs from your table” – u2. ug.

6- Any celeb you would marry?
it’s sort of funny that sara/believeitup had TR Knight, but all I saw was the TR and of course thought Trent Reznor, who of course, is my choice ha. i’d also marry bono from 1997

7- Who will cut and paste this first?
no one

8- Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
someone told me i looked like the band geek in american pie. i totally don’t see it, though i think i had orange hair at the time.

9- Do you wear a watch? What kind?
yes it’s a necessity at work. it’s from target. it stopped for a bit today. arg.

10- Do you have anything pierced?
Just my ears now

11- Do you have any tattoos?
2, back and side/hip…working on the 3rd, i think i’ve got it figured out

12- Do you like pain?
not particularly, but i’m not a wuss. i deal with it.

13- Do you like to shop?
omg nooooooooooooo especially when other people are around. that’s why i can’t wait for the 24 hr super walmart to be built in town. so i can go after work when no one is around, without having to drive 40 minutes to get there

14- What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Food tonight at Wendy’s. *ditto*

15- What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
gasoline at tops

16- Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
mary i think…or the girl from fisher price who spoke so entirely fast i think i only understood about 5 words the entire time she was talking. and somehow i got the jist of what she was saying out of it.

17- What is on your desktop background?
trent reznor ha. *dork*

18- What is the background on your cell phone?
art is resistance flag in black and red

19- Do you like redheads?
at first i thought that said rednecks…i love redheads. i am one right now

20- Do you know any twins?
yah i do but not real well

21- Do you have any weird relatives?
most of my relatives are weird in some way…one aunt goes to tiger monasteries haha…my uncle rights baseball haiku poems, and was invited to come read them at Chautauqua Institute on my birthday next year…i guess i know what i’ll be doing haha

22- What was the last movie you watched?
oh dear god i have no idea….was it poltergeist in october? it really might have been. i don’t see movies obviously

23- What was the last book you read?
last book finished was Confederacy of Dunces, currently still reading Uncle Tom’s Cabin

24- Is there such a thing as love at first sight, or it is more likely to be “lust at first sight”?
i’m a bit torn on this. i really don’t think so, you DO have to know someone first…but…

25- What’s your favorite book?
Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk

26- When was the last time you visited the street where you first lived?
Elmwood is a pretty busy street, so…alot…I guess when we went to lunch at Pano’s after sabres autographs a few weeks ago

27- When was the last time you googled your own name?
it’s been a long long time. it’s always terminal stuff, boring. 馃檪

28- What was is your favorite subject at school?
it’s been 5 years since i was in school, i don’t remember. but i hated english. and i’d like to take some more art classes at comm college, you know, if i wasn’t totally lazy

29 -What was is your least favorite subject at school?
ha english.

30- Do you like having your photograph taken?
only self portraits, cuz that way, if/when they suck no one else will see them

31- What time were you born?
6:45…no i dunno. sometime in the evening

32- Ever seriously questioned your sanity?
Yeah, actually, I have. Everyone else has questioned my sanity as well hahahah

33- How many phone numbers do you have remembered memorized and can say off the top of your head?
Memorized? mine, parents, carlo’s old #, joanne, casino…dat be it. if i lost my phone i’d be screwed

34- Can you Limbo?
i couldn’t do it very well when i was a kid, and was flexible, so i doubt i could do it now

35- Have you ever killed your own dinner?
Fuck no. but i saw a guy with a deer on top of his van today. gross.

36- How long have you been living at your current residence?
one year and 7 months. that reminds me, gotta pay rent

37- What phobias do you have?
spiders….spiders…standing on the edge of high things. other people standing on the edge of high things *ahem*adr2*ahem* and spiders. but not spiders standing on the edge of things, please feel free.

38- What’s your ideal breakfast?
someone else making it!!!!

39- Where are you right now?
at my computer, duh

40- Why do you blog?
for myself. because i don’t have the motivation to keep a private written journal, but if i think that someone is reading what i blog, makes me want to keep it up. that and it’s the main way anyone keeps in touch with me and what i’m doing

41- What would you call your autobiography?

42- What’s the longest time you’ve stayed out of the country/where?
3.5 weeks march 2007 in various parts of europe. i’m half hoping that after the chernobyl trip next year, however long it is, i set off radiation detectors in the airports. *random*

43- Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..?
AIM and that’s about it

44- Do you have nightmares frequently?
not frequently, they increased with the drug withdrawal but have dissipated. usually they’re about spiders, and i can wake myself up out of them. sometimes they’re about pirates. seriously.

45- If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
yes because i’m freaking awesome

46- Which TV character could you be friends with?
jon stewart…? is he a character? probably not, but colbert definitely is, and i’d be friends with him. i don’t watch any fictional shows i don’t think…

47- What’s on your mouse pad?
a works progress administration poster, with a mom and a little boy trying to read. behind them is an imitation “eye chart” that says JOHN IS NOT REALLY DULL HE MAY ONLY NEED HIS EYES EXAMINED ha

48- What is your ring tone?
default ringtone is Sabredance

49- What did you watch on TV last night?
i was at work last night…before work, i think forensic files or one of those true crime shows on court tv

50- Scary movies or happy endings?
scary movies. happy endings are lame.

this is not to sound egotistical at all…but i was telling someone about my parents, and my dad’s parents experience in germany, and i realized that to some people i have quite a fascinating history…

which brings me to this: Start off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose five people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!
1. my dad was born in germany, and his father was drafted into the nazi army. meanwhile my pregnant grandma was fleeing from someone – the nazis or the russians i don’t know – with my toddler aunt. she had to leave my aunt at a relatives house when she went into the hospital with complications. months later she got out of the hospital with my newborn aunt and found that the town had been half taken over by russians. the russians wouldn’t let her into the other part of the city to get my aunt for months. finally they let her, she went to the relatives house, and they had given my aunt to an orphanage because they couldn’t afford her. so my grandma had to get her from the orphanage and my aunt didn’t even remember who she was.
2. i enjoy the smell of crayons
3. as a very young child i drew gigantic eyelashes on everyone i drew
4. my favourite songs as a child were falco’s “rock me amadeus” and phil collins “easy lover”
5. i am disturbed by the way food looks so i try not to look at it while i eat or i’ll barf. especially when its an animal product.
6. like adr2, Can’t keep nail polish on for more than a few hours before i start picking it off. it makes me feel claustrophobic
7. i have 2 stumpy toes on one foot because i broke them in college, and apparently, they healed wrong
8. i tried to make myself fall asleep last night by singing 99 bottles of beer on the wall in my head
9. i absolutely cannot stand whistling or people who whistle. it is possibly the most irritating thing ever, it pierces my brain until i can’t function.
10. my last cat, ziggy stardust, hated whistling too. if you started whistling he’d run up and try to attack your face.



music meme. copy and fill out.

1. Top 5 Bands
– Nine Inch Nails
– u2
– a perfect circle
– david bowie
– the tea party

2. Top 5 Songs from Band1 – nin
– reptile
– and all that could have been
– burn
– only
– the becoming

3. Top 5 Songs from Band2 – u2
– love is blindness
– bullet the blue sky
– walk on
– acrobat
– until the end of the world

4. Top 5 Songs from Band3 – a perfect circle
– magdalena
– pet
– judith
– the outsider
– 3 libras

5. Top 5 Songs from Band4 – david bowie
– i’m afraid of americans
– the hearts filthy lesson
– hallo spaceboy
– life on mars?
– golden years

6. Top 5 Songs from Band5 – the tea party
– psychopomp
– correspondences
– cathartik
– temptation
– halcyon days

7. Top 5 favourite songs
– u2 – love is blindness
– the tea party – psychopomp
– econoline crush – razorblades and bandaids
– econoline crush – affliction
– duran duran – out of my mind

8. Top 5 most hated songs
– the police – roxanne (or any song by the police)
– 6 pense none the richer – kiss me
– god there are so many…
– coldplay – yellow
– …

9. 5 Desert Island Albums
– The Fragile – NIN
– Achtung Baby – U2
– Comalies – Lacuna Coil
– The Devil You Know – Econoline Crush
– Mer Des Noms – A Perfect Circle

10. Guilty Pleasures
– Christina Aguilera


People who get tagged need to post in their journal 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names

1. I have a chicken egg vending machine (which dan Didn’t try out while he was here, boo). you know, those little hut looking machines in the grocery and department stores, full of eggs with little prizes inside, and a chicken that would spin around and cluck when you put your quarter in. i had 2, but sold one when i moved into this place.

2. i collect floaty pens…the little pens that have pictures in them that move up and down when you tilt the pen. not many places have them anymore, so i don’t get as many as i used to

3. i can’t stand on the edge of subway platforms for 2 reasons. one, i’m afraid someone will push me in, two, i’m afraid i’ll jump in on my own

4. i’m not a germaphobe, i hate washing my hands, but i cannot take out library books because of the slimy plastic covers they put on them and the fact that 2394723 people have touched them, and i cannot pee on someone elses pee (like, if they didn’t flush, and it’s still there).

5. i am obsessive. ha.

6. my interests are too old for my actual earth age. not a whole lot of 26 year olds like the things that i do, and find interesting the things i find interesting….


off to find what kind of wide angle lens i need for my cam, cuz someone i know, knows someone who just came into a whole bunch of “hot” nikon stuff…

A survey, because I haven’t done one in a while.



What exactly are you wearing right now?
ugly mustard yellow uniform shirt, black pants

What are your current problems?
headache, tired, cold, gotta pee

What makes you most happy?
nin shows. 馃檪

If you could go back in time and change something would you?
yes. psycho, nate, james, tommy. mainly just guys. yep.

Name something obvious about you
i’m weird

What’s the name of the song that you’re listening to?
i’ve got “fame” by david bowie in my head. i really love bowie at the moment.

Any celebrity you would marry?
trent fucking reznor LOL and bono. so i could smack him upside the head and tell him to stop being a politian and start being a rock star again.

Name someone with the same birthday as you?
megan klein lol. and mario andretti. and mr afshani. and ugly bird girl i dont remember her name.

Do you have a crush on someone?
not in the slightest bit.

Ever sang in front of a large audience?
not since 8th grade

What do you usually order from Starbucks?

Has anyone ever told you that you look like a celebrity?
yes. souxie. the band geek from american pie.

Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?

Do you speak any other languages?
ou est la boeff?

Have you ever ridden in a limo?

Do you ever watch MTV?

What’s something that really annoys you?
baccarat players. it’s not annoy, it’s more like extreme hatred.

Chapter 1:

Middle name:


Current location:
good old nt

eye color:

Chapter 2:

Do you live with your parents?

Do you get along with your parents?
i suppose

Are your parents married/separated/divorced:

Do you have any siblings:

Chapter 3: Favorites

Ice cream flavor:
Dublin Mudslide – i 2nd that


aldi’s lol cheap!

Chapter 4: Do You…

Sing in the shower:

Call people back:
hah not usually, i hate the phone

Believe in love:

Sleep on a certain side of the bed:

Have any bad habits:
hahah no, none 馃槢

Chapter 5: Have You Ever

Broken a bone:

Gotten stitches:

Taken painkillers:
Yeah tons

Gone Scuba Diving:

Been stung by a bee:

Thrown up in a restaurant:
yes i ate burger king and had to stop at mcdonalds on the way home to barf

Been to overnight camp:
like, girl scout camp yes. and in a motor home once. i dont count that.

Sworn in front of your parents:
All the time

Had detention:

Been called a whore:
haha yes, and actually seriously a few times

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last

Person to call you?

Thing you ate:
peanut butter sandwich

Thing you drank:

Thing you said:
i think i sang some of “modern love” in the car.

high school was EIGHT YEARS AGO holy crap.

1) Where did you graduate from and what year?
North Tonawanda High School, 1998

2) Did you have school pride?
Not really. I just wasn’t involved with school. i painted the TNT window once. that window doesn’t even exist anymore and that makes me sad in a way.

3) Best Dance Ever?
I only went to 1 winter dance and 2 proms. i guess senior prom. i dunno. i don’t like dances. i just had mega cool hair and the best dress ever for senior prom.

4) Do you own all 4 Yearbooks?
yes i do. and they’ve been looked at so much (usually to make fun of people and update who has kids already) the binding is breaking.

5) What was the worst trouble you ever got into?
i didn’t get into any trouble. although i recently remembered that after i dropped french 4 someone reported to me that my french 4 teacher, and my previous french teacher were badmouthing me about it. so left both of them notes in their mailboxes saying that they should be more mature and shouldn’t talk about people etc. i was pissed lol.

6) What kind of people did you hang out with?
smart people LOL. i was in all advanced classes so i didn’t have much choice. that and the fact i have nothing in common with most people my age.

7) What was your number 1 choice of College in HS?
i only applied to state schools, i wanted to go to binghamton.

8) What radio station did you jam out to in highschool?
the edge, wblk for a period of 3 months in 10th grade. some canadian stations.

9) Were you involved in any organizations or clubs?
drama club for 1 semester until they stole all my props. foreign language honor society until i dropped french.

10) What were your favorite classes in High School?
AP US history, 12th grade english, calculus

11) Who was your big crush in High School?
scott rea. i can’t remember anyone else.

12) Would you say you’ve changed a lot since high school?
I still feel 15. i still look 15. haha

13) What do you miss the most about it?
angela. i don’t think i really liked high school. i was bored most of the time. i didn’t hate it, but i wouldn’t want to go back.

14) Your worst memory of HS?
psycho ex.

15) Did you have a car?
hah yeah right. luckily when i got my license 3 months before i turned 18, my mom had broken her ankle and so i got to use the car to drive to school every day.

16) What were your school colors?
Red and blue. Also, even though it’s not on here, our mascot was a lumberjacks.

17) Who were your favorite teachers?
afshani (us history), zayatz (12th grade english) hot!, um….guido was cool til he turned into a pervert. oo mr pearl. he rocked. 10th grade social studies.

18) Did you own a cell phone in highschool?
hahah no, no one did. ppl had pages towards the end of HS but that was it.

19) Did you leave campus for lunch?

20) If so, where was your fav. place to go eat?

21) Were you always late to class?

22) Did you ever have to stay for Saturday School?
remember, i said i didnt do anything bad

23) Did you ever ditch?
again, no. i was a good student. i didn’t even leave early on vacation eves.

24) When it comes time for the reunion will you be there?
um…depends where i am in life. if i can sucessfully lie about what i’m doing with my life, probably. if i have a really hot boy, probably. i may go just to make fun of everyone (most likely lol)

25) Do you wish you were still in high school?
not particularly. except that i didn’t need a job at the time to pay for my amazingly high rent. hahahah

First best friend: neighbor stacey
First job: mcdonalds
First screen name: sara989898
First self purchased album: i think aerosmith “get a grip”, on cd at least. don’t remember first cassette i bought myself.
First crush: joe gotowko
First funeral: someone i didn’t know, parent of a friend of the family, the priest kept getting the guys name completely wrong
First credit card: citibank mastercard.
First true love: not applicable
First “enemy”: probably andrea cuz angela and i made these code letters and said someone told us to give them to her, she decoded them, and thought (correctly) that we wrote them, and then we weren’t friends for like 8 months
First big trip: i dunno my parents took me all over
First play/musical/performance: dance recital when i was real young, 5 maybe…

Last cigarette? uh…when i had alcohol poisoning, thanksgiving eve…when was that, junior year? so 5 years ago.
Last car ride: 10 minutes ago
Last bus ride: well i think the only place i’ve ever rode a bus in was toronto, but not in the last few years. oh wait, i ride the short bus to work everyday from the parking lot, so 20 minutes ago.
Last good cry: it wasn’t a particularly good one, but friday.
Last library book: i have library-book-a-phobia
Last movie seen: i watched half of the wedding singer on tv yesterday
Last beverage drank: water.
Last food consumed: pizza
Last Crush: trent reznor
Last phone call: days ago, i dunno, tuesday maybe when tommy called 10 times in a row cuz i wouldn’t answer haha
Last tv show watched: sportscenter
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: black mary janes
Last annoyance: life
Last disappointment: life
Last good dream: i was engaged to trent and we were in his old house in new orleans and it was hideously decorated and i thought, when we get married, i’ll totally have to redecorate
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla soft serve with chocolate sauce at work
Last shirt worn: the one i have on now, my uniform. but before that, nin spiral shirt
Current: my ugly grey poupon colored dealer shirt that is the most unflattering thing ever
Last website visited: lj friends list
last Person talked to/chatted with: phill on the bus

height: 5’9
hair color: black.
eye color: brown
piercings: ears
tattoos: yes

right now
what color pants are you wearing?: black.
what song are you listening to?: “kinda i want to” – nin in my head
what taste is in your mouth?: green jawbreaker
what’s the weather like?:cold and i wont turn my heat on above 60. i’m gonna freeze all winter.
how are you?: depressed
get motion sickness?: depends who’s driving
have a bad habit?: i’m still breathing.
get along with your parents? mostly
like to drive?: love it, prefer to do it.

conditioner: infusium
book: invisible monsters – chuck palahniuk
non alcoholic drink: unsweetened iced tea
alcoholic drink: raspberry lemon drop martini from buca
thing to do on the weekend: urbex
band or group or singer or rapper: nine inch nails, u2, etc

have you
broken the law: i tresspass and speed on a regular basis
ran away from home: nope.
snuck out of the house: nope, never.
ever gone skinny dipping: no
made a prank phone call: yeah but i was always bad at it, and i’d start laughing. andrea was amazing at it, so she’d do it most of the time, and i’d just listen and hysterically laugh into a pillow. wow 2 mentions of andrea in 1 survey.
ever tipped over a porta potty: gross.
used your parents’ credit card before: no i dont think so. maybe on the internet before i had my own
skipped school before: yeah the one time that i skipped for no reason was to watch a snl rerun with dana carvey and a good musical guest, i forget who.
fell asleep in the shower/bath: never
been in a school play: clowns, 5th grade
let a friend cry on your shoulder: no one i know chooses to emote at me

boyfriend: at the moment
girlfriend: nope.
sexuality: i think i’m asexual.
children: nope.
current crush: trent reznor 馃槢
been in love: no
had a hard time getting over someone: yes
been hurt: always
your greatest regret: i dont regret anything

do you have a job: yes
your cd player has in it right now: car has nin catalog mp3 cd.
what’s the next cd you’re gonna get?: probably nothing

when/what was the last

you got a real letter?: my grandma is the only one who writes me real letters
you got e-mail: i checked it 15 min ago
thing you purchased: coffee, tea and the smallest donut ever
tv program you watched: didn’t we already answer this, sportscenter
movie you saw in the theater: Corpse Bride.

in the last 24 hours i did something to my back and it hurts soooooooo bad. my lower back too, which is unusual. usually it’s my shoulders that hurt like a bitch. blah. it’s fine during extended periods of sitting or standing…but changing positions…ouch. i need a massage *looks at ty *

work was work. no big thing. definitely gotta get my ass out of bed tomorrow on time, cuz i need to do laundry….this week’s schedule, flooring 8-4, dealing 7-3, off, ctrc, bacc 8-4, flooring 8-4 and flooring 8-4. sunday was SUPPOSED to be 6-2 but noo they went and changed it on me. jerks.

finally finished wizard and glass, took forever. not that it wasn’t good. it just took me so long when i only read before i go to bed. so now i get to start wolves of calla. i hate hard cover books, i just want to say. they’re too heavy lol.



so much for laundry. i couldn’t sleep last night. got up at 12:30, checked email, went back to bed. oh well. wednesday i guess…

best *I hate everybody*song: “dizzy” and “dissention” – orgy

best *damn all this love shit* song: “heart’s filthy lesson” – david bowie or “pure” – orgy

best *hey this song reminds me of* song: anything on candyass, mer des noms, or the devil you know

best *wow I hate this song* song: anything by creed, and most of the stuff on the radio

best “hmm..can everyone please stop FUCKING me over” song: “break stuff” – limp bizkit

best “I hope nobody finds out I like this song” song: “fighter” – xtina, but it’s out now right…

best *get the fuck out of my life* song: “leave me alone” – michael jackson

best *spontaneously start singing everyday* song: “life on mars?” – david bowie

best *I listen to when I am bawling my eyes out* song: “something i can never have” – nine inch nails

best *this song puts me in a grand mood* song: “walk on” – u2

best *I don’t give a fuck* song: “eraser” – nine inch nails

Reminds you of an ex-friend: “dissention” – orgy

Makes you laugh: “everybody was kung fu fighting” – by whoever sang that song

You never want to hear again: anything by creed or the police

You want to get married to: i should pick some cheesy 80s hair metal band song…like “heaven” by warrant or something lol

Sums up your teenage years: unfortunately i can’t use “elegantly wasted” here…”somewhere i belong” – linkin park

You like to wake up to: “closer” – nine inch nails

You like out of your parents record collection: The Doors

You wouldn’t know about if it wasn’t for a friend: 30 seconds to mars

Makes you think of someone who died: “eva” – orgy

You love the video more than the tune: “jeopardy” – greg hihn band

Reminds you of your now crush or love: “we are thrown together” – inxs

Makes you think of sex: “closer” – nine inch nails duh…or “sex type thing” – stone temple pilots

Makes you think of being alone: “and all that could have been” – nine inch nails

Are you embarrassed to admit you like: justin timberlake

Perks you up: “walk on” – u2

Do you love to sing: everything

Do you want to put on the list that didn’t fit elsewhere: “heart’s filthy lesson” – david bowie

Pick a band and answer only using that band’s lyrics: David Bowie…

1. Are you male or female?:

Hey man well she’s a total blam-blam
She said she had to squeeze it but she… and then she…
2. Describe yourself:

It’s a god-awful small affair
To the girl with the mousy hair
But her mummy is yelling “No”
And her daddy has told her to go
But her friend is nowhere to be seen
Now she walks through her sunken dream
To the seat with the clearest view
And she’s hooked to the silver screen
But the film is a saddening bore
For she’s lived it ten times or more

3. How do some people feel about you?:

You love bands when they’re play it hard
4. How do you feel about yourself?:

We’re nothing, and nothing will help us
Maybe we’re lying, then you better not stay
But we could be safer, just for one day
5. Describe your interest:

She began to wail jealousies scream
Waiting at the light know what I mean
6. Where would you rather be?:

This is Major Tom to Ground Control,
I’m stepping through the door
And I’m floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today.

7. Describe what you want to be:

The Man Who Sold The World
8. Describe how you live:

I felt a warm warm breeze
That melted metal and steel
I got a bad migraine
That lasted three long years
And the pills that I took
Made my fingers disappear
9. Describe how you love:

Though nothing will keep us together
We could steal time, just for one day
We can be Heroes, for ever and ever
What d’you say?

I, I wish you could swim
Like the dolphins, like dolphins can swim
Though nothing, nothing will keep us together
We can beat them, for ever and ever
Oh we can be Heroes, just for one day
10. Share a few words of wisdom:

I stumble into town just like a sacred cow
Visions of swastikas in my head
Plans for everyone
It’s in the white of my eyes

lol that was harder than expected.


it’s sad that people at work are all excited i’m going to play everquest with them. john got all excited, and at one point called every pit looking for me to talk to about the game lol. his character is going to buy mine leather clothes. *dorks*

i still have no voice. it’s better today than it was, but i haven’t talked much today yet. i’m finally starting to get a bit stuffy, and coughing more. it better not turn into bronchitis, cuz then i’d have to go to the dr. turns out my meds are MAOIs which means i pretty much can’t take any kind of over the counter medicine. mom was gonna give me cough meds, but then freaked and looked up all the drug interactions and what i can/can’t take blahblahblah. so if i get sicker, i’ll have to see the dr, and i hate the dr, and i hate paying for the dr. haha.

went out to olympia for mothers day linner (lunch/dinner :P). ate. yeah.

had a wacko dream about john, the first one where we weren’t playing video games. and a dream about going to my old middle school. weird thing is, i’ve dreamed about my middle school before and everytime i do it looks the same…not like how it really looks, but weird that it’s always the same in my dreams.

so fucking nervous and edgy, and hungry. ug. i’m awake way too fucking early for my own good.

脗路 First grade teacher’s name: Mrs D’Angelo. she was the best
脗路 Last word you said: “bye”
脗路 Last song you sang: “heresy” – nin
脗路 Last thing you laughed at: i don’t know
脗路 Last time you cried: yesterday.

脗路 What’s in your cd player: room right now, the downward spiral – nin, car – ultra – depeche mode
脗路 What colour socks you’re wearing: currently not wearing any socks.
脗路 What’s under your bed: cot, cardboard box, mj umbrella, posters, crap.
脗路 What time did you wake up today? 4:15, 4:45, 5:15, 5:45, 8:30, 8:45

脗路 Where do you want to go: away from here
脗路 What is your career going to be: i wish i knew. . .
脗路 Where are you going to live: hopefully near a city
脗路 How many kids do you want: 0
脗路 What kind of car will you have: a delorian 馃槢

脗路 Current hair: crappy inbetween length, need to dye it
脗路 Current clothes: black dickies, i love rockstars rhinestone shirt
脗路 Current annoyance: my head
脗路 Current smell: emporio armani
脗路 Current longing: hahahah
脗路 Current desktop picture: trent reznor
脗路 Current favorite artist: trent reznor
脗路 Current book: memnoch the devil – anne rice
脗路 Current worry: oh christ, do you READ my blog?
脗路 Current time-wasting wish: what?
脗路 Current hate: myself
脗路 Current favorite article of clothing: leather pants that i can never wear
脗路 Current favorite word: fuck
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脗路 One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: tim
脗路 One person you wish was here right now: hahahaha
脗路 A line from the last thing you wrote to someone: nite

ug. ug ug ug ug ug ug. i’ll be fine once i get to work. it cannot come fast enough.