mid life crisis

Seriously. I feel so unhappy with everything. I hate it. I’m gonna go to the dr to get meds again. I hate where I am in life, I hate that I haven’t traveled overseas in forever. I hate that I don’t do anything meaningful. I hate that I can’t enjoy anything that J likes, even if it’s something I like too. Just lots of hate.

I saw this quote from Hillary Clinton on Humans of NY, and it’s everything.

“I was taking a law school admissions test in a big classroom at Harvard. My friend and I were some of the only women in the room. I was feeling nervous. I was a senior in college. I wasn’t sure how well I’d do. And while we’re waiting for the exam to start, a group of men began to yell things like: ‘You don’t need to be here.’ And ‘There’s plenty else you can do.’ It turned into a real ‘pile on.’ One of them even said: ‘If you take my spot, I’ll get drafted, and I’ll go to Vietnam, and I’ll die.’ And they weren’t kidding around. It was intense. It got very personal. But I couldn’t respond. I couldn’t afford to get distracted because I didn’t want to mess up the test. So I just kept looking down, hoping that the proctor would walk in the room. I know that I can be perceived as aloof or cold or unemotional. But I had to learn as a young woman to control my emotions. And that’s a hard path to walk. Because you need to protect yourself, you need to keep steady, but at the same time you don’t want to seem ‘walled off.’ And sometimes I think I come across more in the ‘walled off’ arena. And if I create that perception, then I take responsibility. I don’t view myself as cold or unemotional. And neither do my friends. And neither does my family. But if that sometimes is the perception I create, then I can’t blame people for thinking that.”

Keith Richards quote

currently reading on my phone “Life” by Keith Richards. i had to stop because I needed to record this passage:

“Mick and I had a totally identical taste in music. We never needed to question or explain. It was all unsaid. We’d hear something, we’d both look at each other at once. Everything was to do with sound. We’d hear a record and go, That’s wrong. That’s faking. That’s real. It was either that’s the shit or that isn’t the shit, no matter what kind of music you were talking about. I really liked some pop music if it was the shit. But there was a definite line of what the shit was and what wasn’t the shit. Very strict.”

and that is how i feel about music.

currently reading in real book form, “Just Kids” by Patti Smith. I guess it’s a few weeks of music related autobios haha.


lol simpsons. lisa to marge about her learning how to use the internet “you’re like christopher columbus, you discovered something millions of people already knew about” hahahahahaha

bono quote

“God is interested in truth, and only in truth. And that’s why God is more interested in Rock & Roll music than Gospel… Many gospel musicians can’t write about what’s going on in their life, beacuse it’s not allowed ..If you can’t write about what’s really going on in the world and your life, because it’s all happy-clappy… Is God interested in that? I mean, ‘Please, don’t patronize Me! I want to go the Nine-Inch-Nails gig, they’re talking the truth!

single me

i have to repost this from because it perfectly states why i don’t date

“You just need to find someone who you’d rather be with than be alone.” MaryAnn’s response, “But I’d almost always rather be alone…”

Inauguration day!

“We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus – and non-believers.”

wow. obama acknowledged atheists. holy crap!

HAPPY INAUGURATION DAY!!! We somehow, barely, survived the Bush Administration. Congrats to all! ha

*edit* LOL cheney in a wheelchair

one more day!!!!

“There’s an old saying in Tennessee – I know it’s in Texas, probably in Tennessee – that says, fool me once, shame on – shame on you. Fool me – you can’t get fooled again.” -George W. Bush, Nashville, Tenn., Sept. 17, 2002

“People say, how can I help on this war against terror? How can I fight evil? You can do so by mentoring a child; by going into a shut-in’s house and say I love you.” -George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., Sept. 19, 2002

2 more days…

“I know how hard it is for you to put food on your family.” –George W. Bush, Greater Nashua, N.H., Chamber of Commerce, Jan. 27, 2000

“It’s amazing I won. I was running against peace, prosperity, and incumbency.” -George W. Bush, June 14, 2001, speaking to Swedish Prime Minister Goran Perrson, unaware that a live television camera was still rolling.

3 more days…

“I know the human being and fish can coexist peacefully.” –George W. Bush, Saginaw, Mich., Sept. 29, 2000

“Will the highways on the Internet become more few?” –George W. Bush, Concord, N.H., Jan. 29, 2000

4 more days…

“It’s important for us to explain to our nation that life is important. It’s not only life of babies, but it’s life of children living in, you know, the dark dungeons of the Internet.” –George W. Bush, Arlington Heights, Ill., Oct. 24, 2000

“Families is where our nation finds hope, where wings take dream.” –George W. Bush, LaCrosse, Wis., Oct. 18, 2000