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fishy: ok have I ever talked to you about ghetto names?
me: um… possibly but dont remember
fishy: well it kills me what horrible names people in the gheto come up with for their poor children…
me: hahahah
fishy: like I did an afterschool program and NO JOKE we had a girl named Shithead…but it was pronounced shi – thead
me: OMG
fishy: yeah
fishy: AND
me: ROFLMAO OMG
fishy: We had twins whose names were Orangejello, and lemonjello, but they were pronounced Or-anj-ello and Leh-monj-ello
me: OMGGGGGGG
me: that is the greatest thing i’ve ever heard

 

comp art annoys me. it’s 4 billion degrees in there. and just annoys me. not getting into it now. it’s the same old shit i always complain about. so i left at quarter after 12 lol. but we have a new project – a news letter. 4 pages, 4 pictures etc…so since i needed some reason to incorporate the greatest trent picture on earth into my news letter i’ve decided i’m going to do a (very biased) review news letter…gonna review “and all that could have been”, queen of the damned so i can use pictures of lestat 🙂 and um… probably u2…and dunno who else. we’ll see.

just watched the new korn video for “here to stay”…it’s interesting. it’s someone watching tv…there’s clips of car chases, and animals attacking, and weird shit. and classic footage of the challenger explosion and those tapes made during the 50s of effects of nuclear explosions on forrests and houses etc. and at the end it’s a kid watching tv. anyone know if it’s jon’s son? could be, i figure. anyway. it’s intersting. not super…but interesting. probably better on tv and not an mpeg.

so now i have time to study for clinical. did a really crappy job. and since it’s only on 3 chapters we have like NO notes…and they don’t make sense. so i should have studied more from the book… well i DID read the chapters twice…should be enough but dunno. we’ll see in an hour.

 

test took half hour, as usual. got 2 wrong on the multiple choice. one was an question i thought i knew, the other was a question marked question, where the answer was my gut reaction but i picked something different. identifies were rough, but i think i managed to bullshit enough to get full credit. 1 i knew really well (the barnum effect), 2 i new fairly well, the last 3 i heard of the term and could make stuff up for. lol. i’ll get an A again.

saw a kid in some kind of military uniform just now. didn’t even see his face and it was like “wow you’re hot”…and hot as in sweating probably too, since he was in full dressup type uniform. wtb is it about uniforms….it reminds me of this kid i was sorta friends with in high school. His name was Tex (ok his name was Jeremy, i think, but everyone called him Tex for some reason… or Texas). he graduated high school in december and joined the marines. now he seemed to be THE WORST candidate for the marines – he was insubordinate, he talked back, was a behavior problem etc…. doesn’t really jive with the marines. but he did it, got through basic and all that. he came back in may to go to the senior prom, in his full dress up marines uniform. omg he was so hot. and he was not exactly a hot boy normally lol. he reminds me of Ryan from orgy. somewhat in appearance (mainly their manical smile), but more in personality…or what i imagine ryan’s personality to be like from what i’ve heard.

so now it’s way too hot outside. like carolyn said, if it’s this hot now what’s it gonna be like in july and august?! i was going to go do work outside except for a few things: 1. no radio, need music. if only to annoy ppl walking by 🙂 2. too hot, don’t own shorts, wearing black, attracks heat 3. way too fucking windy. everything would blow away. 4. need to use my comp if i’m gonna type up my reviews for my news letter.

this dislike of heat really hinders my desire to move out of the northeast…like to new orleans. won’t be able to take it. wow i really need some summer clothes, but not shorts. lol. joe said him and the guys are opening his pool this summer. which means i’m expected to go swimming. i haven’t been swimming since 10th grade. i bought a bathingsuit freshman year for when we went to the beach in long island, but i wore clothes the entire time (cuz it was kinda cloudy and not that warm, and i still got sun burned badly), but that was more or less the last time i wore it. blah.

 

the new snapple commercials are some of the greatest commercials ever.

my aol is completely dead.

MTV Icon aerosmith – well….Steven does sing “dream on”…they showed some old school clips of him singing it. then train performed it, did a very nice job. and i hate train. that’s the extent of my commentary because i don’t feel like continuing to update this everytime i think of something. maybe when the show is over i’ll make some more comments.

had to go fill out this survey for the school about “quality of life”…we were leaving and the RD of saratoga asked us if our AC was working. and we were like yeah thank god. she was like, oh because some of the units over there don’t have AC. well OF COURSE NOW OUR AC ISNT WORKING!!!!!!! it went up 10 degrees in here since this afternoon (it’s now 80). we flipped the circuit breakers off and back on, so we’ll see if anything happens. it’s been 15 min, no luck yet.

 

i know i said i wasn’t gonna do the commentary thing on icon…but. i’m sorry, i have to. (this post will continue to be updated until the show is over)
– papa roach KILLED…absolutely MURDERED “sweet emotions”….i feel bad for them. cuz it was horrendous.
– woah lars ulrich bleached his hair. looks horrible. it might be to hide grey hair…and james hetfield shaved his head into a small lil mohawk thing. he looks like chester from linkin park, except bigger. and i think kirk hammett was crying… steven found his cell phone. lars wrote like, a speech….about some friend with aids who’s idol was steven. so lars asked steven to call his friend and he did. oh it appears james hetfields hair isn’t shaved into a mohawk… it’s slicked back and has a blond streak that makes it look like a mohawk. but he’s got glasses on and still looks like chester.

a guy just came over to look at our AC…he said out of all the units, 1 AC is working…there are like 45 units.

– rofl @ fred durst hitting on shakira… he was like “ooooooo shakira” all smooth and she was like “hi” and seemed like she had NO IDEA who he was rofl
– sooooo didn’t know eminem sampled “Dream on” how barfy!!!!!!

apparently AC not getting fixed tonight. THANKS!!!!!!! FRIGGEN HOT IN HERE!!!!!!! it’s supposed to thunderstorm tonight, which means can’t even open the windows.

– ja rule, nelly, sum 41 walk this way video remake….intersting.
– shakira – dude looks like a lady – did an awesome awesome job…went over and made steven sing with her. they all want her lol.
– pink…janies got a gun…it was ok. i kinda like her. not as a singer, dont really like her music, but i think she’s cool.
– jennifer aniston is hideous
– and of course aerosmith rocks 🙂

and now the osbournes are on again….today is a total tv day

ok yeah now it’s too hot outside. yesterday was nice, today – too hot. good thing we have AC. it’s nice and cool in here. i sorta wish we had a back yard, or a porch or something. because i’d like to go outside and study, but no way can i study with people walking by constantly. too many distractions. but if we had a back yard that wasn’t a parkinglot then i could. oh well.

but anyway. yeah. test in clinical tomorrow…3 chapters. shouldn’t be too bad. not like the others have been bad, but with only 3 chapters dunno what the short answers will be. not worried about it though because he seems to like me and give me full credit even if i’m not saying enough. bullshitting is one of my strengths.

so in adolescent today we all had to take the Bem sex role inventory to see if we were more masculine, feminine or androgynous. it was kinda funny because i ended up being androgynous (no surprise there) and there were items on both sides where i had 1’s (never true about me)…like on the masculine side was like aggressive, and stuff like that, that i said 1 to cuz yeah i’m not aggressive. ppl can easily beat me up lol. but then on the feminine side was “never uses harsh language” ROFLMAO yeah right, and “loves children” haha yeah that’s a 1.

 

andy wants to marry me cuz i have a nice website. hehe.

dude martin gore is so great. my fav depeche mode songs turn out to be ones that he sings…then i’m listening to the cd i just got, and i’m like yeah this song is cool…”one caress” and i’m pretty damn sure he’s singing it. lol figures.

 

something is wrong with my computer. just froze for about the 9th time since friday. 3 times were trying to open eric’s comments, once opening an mpeg, the rest of the times were just random. and 3 times i’ve restarted/started up just to have explorer crash before windows is loaded, prompting me to have to restart/turn off-back on. and the most annoying thing about the freezing is that scandisk runs on startup and takes forever. goes real fast til 20% then takes 3 minutes to do 20-40%, then jumps to 80%, takes another 2 minutes to get to 90% then finishes and scans drive D in a blink of an eye. and Khruschev was doing so good too. he hadn’t given me problems in months. damn Khruschev. and he’s getting louder and louder by the day. why am i the only person i know who’s had continuous fan problems. i’ve replaced the fan in my box 3 times now. and this box i have now is a new one that i got after last years upgrade. other people leave their comps on longer than i do and no one else but me has to replace the fan. arg.

in regards to studying…not going well AT all. been studying since 1:30, got through 1 chapter. osbournes are on tonight so i’d like to have a handle on my shit by 10:30. not gonna happen. oh well.

 

mmm yeah putting in the live nin disc instead of pretty hate machine bad idea…cannot concentrate. at all. really really bad idea.

when i don’t know the words to a song, i make them up. i think that’s quite normal. well since i didn’t (and still really don’t for sure) know the lyrics to “down in it” i made them up. and i always thought it was weird that trent would be staring at a duck. “just then a tiny little duck caught my eye it was just about too small to see, but i watched it way too long, it was pulling me down”…so when i actually looked at the lyrics and saw that it was DOT and not DUCK it made alot more sense (tho not total sense). haha.

so did the class thing. spent most of computer art doing nothing, like usual. we had to do our cd cover, and then a back. but he didn’t say if we needed to put anything specific on the back. apparently we can continue to put whatever we want on there. so i’m doing lestat. lol. and i’m on the front. my font didn’t print out the right color, but don’t care. i meant to do that…yeah, that’s it.

after clinical did laundry. hate our laundry facility. the washer are too small but the dryers are humongous. and they don’t have normal controls. so i put my clothes in the dryer and put it on delicate for 60 minutes. 60 minutes later it had 20 minutes left, and it was very hot inside the dryer…they should just have “hot” “medium” “cold”…cuz then I’d know what setting to put the damn thing on so that i don’t ruin all my clothes. arg. then i sat outside for a while trying to read poli sci, but ended up doing more talking with danielle and people watching than anything else. we had an…interesting conversation. which is an odd coincidence considering the song i had in my head this morning when i woke up….so that leads us to the very appropriate lyric of the day:
“i’m drunk and right now i’m so in love with you” from the only time by nine inch nails.

 

geneseo is retarded. they have a whole section of the website for commencement, but no where on it anywhere does it say what time. it says may 25th…it has day and time of the rehearsal, and the champagne whatever, etc. but no time for actual graduation ceremony. smart. and “This year’s Commencement speaker will be Mr. Mark Gearan, President of Hobart and William Smith Colleges and former director of the Peace Corps.” mmm yeah exciting. why can’t we get someone good… like bono. harvard had bono.

got my depeche mode cd today (songs of faith and devotion)…yippe. but omg the songs that are on that and on singles are COMPLETELY DIFFERENT! like totally different. especially “in your room”…seriously. they had to have been totally re-recorded for singles or something. very strange, but very cool. cuz then that means i don’t have the same songs on both cds. “condemnation” is still less than tolerable.

mtv annoys me. stayed up til 2 last night watching the most controversial videos countdown. i could argue some of their picks – like britney spears “hit me baby one more time”….just cuz she pranced around in a school uniform doesn’t make it controversial. she had more clothes on there than in her other videos. and of course they included the staple controversial videos “black or white” (still don’t get it), “justify my love”, and “closer”. #1 (to ruin the surprise lol) was prodigy’s “smack my bitch up”. after seeing it in what i think was it’s entirety on the show, i think it was brilliant. i can understand the controversy, and the shockingness of it..but it really was absolutely brilliant. and madonna has some of the most beautiful videos ever made. but i digress.

mtv annoys me because they hire complete retards. the show was hosted by suchin pak and iann robinson (i think that’s his last name). i kinda have to automatically like iann because he’s the only mtv employee who likes rock music. but i don’t really like him. and suchin. i used to not have a problem with her. she did her little mtv news breifs, and all that, and was fine. but no, she is as dumb as shit. i hate her. assuming that the actual video commentary during the show was their own, and not as scripted as the intros/outros of the show, she is a retard. they were talking about pearl jam’s “jeremy” video, and the controversy around that. she starts talking about how it was controversial because it was based on events that happened right before school violence exploded into a nationwide epidemic. OMG YOU COULDN’T BE MORE WRONG! school violence rates have been going down over the years, even including columbine et al. the only reason it became a big deal, an epidemic, is because it started happening in white schools instead of just inner city black schools. the nature of the “attacks” might have changed, but actual school violence is going down. and it just irritates me. i know that i have a college education, and personally know about a lot of things that others may not because they’re not interested in it. but the least you could do if you’re doing a show on mtv is do a tiny bit of research. (which i know at least some people at mtv do since i was contacted to validate some facts for one of their shows). i dunno. it just really bugged me. her commentary was retarded throughout the entire show (iann’s wasn’t much better). mtv really needs to hire me. i don’t even want to be on tv. i’ll be a researcher who writes up the teleprompter scripts for the tv people. at least i can make them appear to be smart. because watching mtv insults my intelligence.

iann had good commentary during marilyn manson’s “coma white” video. i think suchin was saying something stupid about manson always being shocking, and iann made the valid point that he’s the class clown doing it all on purpose. purposely thinking “what can i do next to piss people off, oh i’ll be jfk and then be crucified!” which is exactly what manson does. i think that if i was a famous recording artist i’d do the same thing. purposely see how many buttons i could push, see how far i could push the envelope, and see how pissed off i could make people. that’d be fun.

i also really wish i got mtv2 at school because while the program was on mtv, they were showing the videos in their entirety on mtv2. then i could have seen the countdown without having to listen to their retarded commentary. but somehow i doubt they showed completely unedited versions of the videos…especially “closer”. they showed a clip of “happiness in slavery” and i just laughed, because no way would they ever show that on any mtv channel. *still needs to see the broken movie*

 

it’s raining. so i put off doing laundry til tomorrow. better not be raining tomorrow. i had to go to the store, because i had to buy new deoderant. i hate the kind i took from home. it’s shit. and i just couldn’t wait 5 more days til i go home to get new stuff. it stopped raining for a while, but i was talking to someone so i didn’t go to the store. so i finally decided to go to the store, looked outside, it wasn’t raining. well i was wrong. it was still pouring. don’t know why i thought it wasn’t raining. but i went anyway. walked the 5 miles to my car, was soaked. i had sandals on too so my feet are wet. got the stuff i needed from wegmans. walked the 5 miles back from the parking lot to the house. yeah i’m wet. pants are wet, feet are wet, hair is wet. it’s actually sorta nice out. like it’s warm, so it’s almost a good day for walking through puddles and getting all wet. but something about it made me not want to do that. so i just feel all gross now.

 

this weeks fear episode… better than last one i think. well night 1 was kinda lame. 2 of the girls wimped out for no reason. they just stepped out of the door and freaked out and aborted (well the one girl claimed she saw a face with no body). it’s like god ur such losers, u haven’t even done anything yet!! the guy on night 1 had to hoist himself up on a meat hook thing. no big deal. then the 2 girls wimped out and they ran out of time. so then night 2 the new zealand girl had to go 1/4th mile below ground in this rickety old elevator to the irrigation tunnels. the elevator stopped and she was stuck between doors. so she was stuck in the elevator for a half hour before it started moving again and took her to the bottom. then she had to swim in the tunnels until notified. ick. then the funny black kid had to go sit in the sugar cane grinder where a guy fell in and got grinded. he was hearing noises so he was like BRING IT, and then immediately his light went off. yeah that was freaky lol. then the conveyor belt he was on started moving. then he had to press the on button for the grinder, to complete his dare. of course it didn’t turn on…not like mtv is really gonna harm these people. so that part was kinda scary…and the girl stuck in the elevator and then having to swim i thought was just wrong. cuz she could have accidentally drowned or something and no one would have been there to help. but whatever. nothing will ever beat the first 2 episodes of this season…especially the first…with the power outtage, the camera malfunctions and then everyone quitting. yeah…freaking scary. next weeks looks pretty good too. oh there was a part in this weeks where this kid was sitting in a storage room and everything started shaking. dunno what that was about, but i’d have freaked out. if i was in the show i’d probably end up quitting, but at least i know i’d get to start my dare before wimping out. i wouldn’t just walk outside the safe house and quit. i’d quit after sitting alone in a room in silence for a period of time lol. i’d sing to myself. lol

listening to pretty hate machine for the first time in months. sounds sooooo weird. after getting so used to the live tracks and the still reconstructions…yeah. so not used to it.

 

queen of the damned dvd early august. “The Vampire Lestat music videos will be featured full length. The videos on the DVD are separate – and the concert scene is separate and extended to get the full length of ‘Slept so Long’ and most of ‘Not Meant for Me’.” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg that’s gonna be so great!!!!

 

so i officially notified the sleep lab that i don’t want the job, so that they don’t bother scheduling a 2nd interview with me etc. was looking at some link that the career center sent out. it lists various companies and how many jobs they hire people for every year. i didn’t realize the tennesee valley authority was still in existance. i thought that was like a depression era, post ww2 thing, and was not really happening anymore. don’t know why i thought this but…whatever. they hire ppl. haha. just odd. nm forget it lol

since i dreamed about econoline last night i put in devil you know. i really hope the rumors that they broke up aren’t true, cuz…and i know i’m being selfish…but in 8 times seeing them, they only did razorblades and bandaids once…which is just not cool. i think they were supposed to do it at the missasauga show that got fucked up cuz of the stupid kid saying the show was over after they finished wicked. blah. but yeah…that song is too good to not ever been seen again live. or maybe if they did break up, trevor will do some solo shit and include ec songs in his set…i just hope they didn’t completely break up.

finally watched trent interview from much music. must say the long closeup on his lips was very nice. and totally didn’t mind the beard, so if he wants to grow it back that’s fine with me. 🙂 he’s so funny. and his eyes were blue. i totally don’t get it. his eyes are never the same color. photos, vids, whatever… they’re always different. and it can’t possibly be contacts. so now i’m just assuming they’re for real blue….and pictures or whatever just distort the real color. cuz they were so blue in the interview. nothing studios is so nice. it wasn’t what i was expecting it to look like. dunno why. but it’s super nice in there. nice place to work *HINT*.

sabres won the last game of the season 3-0 against montreal…lol suckers.

carolyn and i occupied ourselves tonight by taking US and Canadian citizenship quizzes. the US one i got 10/10 which said congratulations i am a US citizen. carolyn failed it the first time, but got her citizenship the 2nd time. the canadian one…my first try i got 11/20…and she got 14/20 LOL. 2nd time i got 15/20 and she got 17/20. and I’M NOT CANADIAN! i think the only time i learned about canada was 5th grade, and we had to know what the provinces were. lol.

 

back from the rochester cd/thrift store run. did i buy any cds? of course not :P. no one had anything i wanted for cheap. i almost bought depeche mode 101 but it’s sort of a greatest hits thing, so most of the songs i already had. but did make out pretty good at the thrift stores. bought 2 anne rice books: the vampire armand and the witching hour (not vampire chronicals book). and i bought a margaret atwood book – the handmaid’s tale, cuz it would make carolyn happy if i did. cost me a total of 2.50$ for the 3 books lol. and i got U2’s boy on vinyl for 50 cents. eric bought a few books (vampire lestat for mary, since i just bought it on half.com didn’t need to buy it there) and all the president’s men. and he bought some shirt, and cds at one store. danielle bought a new kids on the block book for 25 cents lol. so it was pretty sucessful. oh and found out that the tea party is playing at water street the day after buffalo, so got a ticket for that. half the price as the buffalo show too :P. after that i’ll have seen them 5 times. that’s just really bizarre to me. i’m not sure why. cuz it was perfectly normal to have seen econoline 8 times between march and november, but to see the tea 5 times in a year…just seems weird to me. maybe it’s cuz i don’t even know that much about them. here’s hoping shea’s and water street will be better experiences than the past 3 times, or i’m never going to see them again. lol.

now if the rain would only stop. i need to do laundry. if it’s still raining tomorrow not doing it. i have underwear til monday…tuesday if i want to wear the pink diva ones. yes they actually say diva on them lol.

bowie is headlining moby’s summer tour thing. it came to the docks last year (at least i’m pretty sure it was the docks) so hopefully it’ll come around this year… cuz it’s bowie! don’t care that i counted today and only know/like 7 of his songs (should i name them? let’s….space oddity, fame, let’s dance, china girl, modern love, ashes to ashes, under pressure, i’m afraid of americans…oh that’s 8. haha)

right, and bowie is my new swear word. so don’t be surprised 🙂

 

psychology day.

– mingled with the proffs. spent quality time with dr kallio and um…kelly beach (she’s not a dr)…talked to her about the insanely hard test on tuesday. she’s dropping 2 qs, so i’m like i don’t think that’s going to help me. and i told her that it’s my 4th developmental course, and it’s all review, but i didn’t know anything etc. she’s like i feel really bad cuz everyone’s telling me it’s so hard etc. so talked to her for a while about her baby, and class, and going to the new orleans conference. dr kallio is going too, presenting research he had his research methods class conduct. haha good way to go!

– i told myself that i wouldn’t talk to the UofR kid James (cuz he was there) cuz i didn’t want to know if i was still in the running for the sleep lab job, or if it was filled. i just would rather not know. well of course, i talked to him. blah. i’m one of the 3 “finalists” in consideration for the 2 positions. he said everyone was really impressed with my research experience and my ability to talk about it. he said the thing that was working against me is that the other 2 candidates had experience working nights and/or were very confident about their abilities to handle working nights. he asked me if i was still interested in the job, and so i lied and said yes but that i was looking at some other offers, and that my parents might be moving so if they do, that i don’t really want to stick around here. he told me to be persistent if i really want it, etc. blah. i don’t really want to know this. because i don’t want to be offered the job and then turn it down, since i don’t want it. i just would feel bad. i told dr kallio this cuz he’s like “oh so i saw you talking to james” (i had talked to dr kallio earlier about the job, since he wrote me a letter of recommendation). dr kallio told me not to feel bad about turning it down, that’s how the job market is. and he told me some of the stuff that james talked about regarding the job at the info sessions (which i didn’t go to cuz i feel like i’m dying), but i already knew most of it (like being able to take classes, getting publication credits, etc). so i dunno. blah. i mean, half of me feels good that they realized i’m capable of doing the job (well a monkey could actually do this job), etc. but i really don’t want it. dr kallio agreed that it’s not the greatest thing in the world, especially for the pay. so maybe i’ll talk to my other proffs and see what they have to say about it. blah

 

every time i hear APC’s version of “vacant” i get super excited about what the song might sound like if the Tapeworm Project would ever get done. and now with the new picture on nin.com of maynard, danny lohner, trent and that other guy…looks like some work is being done on it. let’s hope.

and on a completely different note. why the hell is billy idol playing in south dakota, but not buffalo/rochester/toronto?!?

i really need to invest in more depeche mode. maybe this weekend i’ll do some cd shopping. (or i could go buy songs of faith and devotion from half.com for 3.50 hehe)

over the years i’ve gotten into the habit of naming appliances. my car’s named Tom. danielle’s TV that we had in our room the last 3 years is named Bob. freshman year when my computer was being a bitch and needed all of its guts replaced i tried to name it. i intially named it trent (this is pre-nin fan era) but then didn’t like yelling at trent. so i unnamed it and never thought of one…. until monday when i was trying to study. i’ve named my computer Khruschev. 🙂

 

i need something to inject into my head to make it feel better. or a new brain. whichever. and i think i’ve overdosed on sweettarts, because they’re actually becoming slightly repulsive. i got chicks, ducks and bunnies from the easter bunny, and of course the green ones are apple now. so that means there is only 1 kind in the bag that i like. the red ones, which are edible in small doses (like the hearts) are really disgusting as big chicks, ducks or bunnies. and the whole bag is practically red. very disappointed.

 

 

old snl with wayne gretzky lol. wait did i spell that right?…i don’t think i did. anyway. wasn’t a spectacular episode really, but Wayne’s World was pretty funny. Fine Young Cannibals played. i have a bone to pick with the people who edit these old SNL’s to fill an hour on comedy central. when it’s good musical guests they only show 1 performance, when it’s good Dennis Miller hosted Weekend Updates they never show it. take today’s…FYC played twice, no weekend update. DENNIS MILLER IS HILARIOUS! SHOW THE DAMNED WEEKEND UPDATES! and the episode that was before this, Geena Davis and John Mellencamp. 2 performances, no weekend update. arg. irritates me.

anyway. i forgot to mention earlier that i almost died this morning. choked while trying to swallow my medicine. so it got all stuck in my throat, made me choke more. then it didn’t swallow it just got stuck. finally i was able to swallow it. but then my throat was all wacky for like an hour.

wow so tired, maybe i’ll take a nap.

 

well that sucked. really bad. hardest exam taken in 4 years at geneseo. AND IT’S IN FREAKING ADOLESCENT DEVELOPMENT!!!! whatever. probably got close to 15 wrong. 1 point each. i should get in the lower 80s then. there goes my 4.0. the entire test was taken from the book. none of the note specific things like stereotype threat, and the pygmalion effect were on the test. not even as essays. basically i would have had to memorize the text to do good on the test. whatever.

i wore sandals today!!!!!! but of course it started to pour when i was walking home. no coat, no umbrella, sandals.. yeah of course. but today feels like one of those days in the summer, when it had been really hot for a while, but finally a cold front came in so that the temperature dropped from the 80s to the 60s, and it’s kinda cloudy and drizzly. of course, today is the other way around..it’s been cold, and now it’s warm. but dunno why, it just felt like mid summer cold front to me today when i left the house. i like days like today. today would be probably my highest temperature possible if i was controlling the weather. but sunny might be good.

so now i don’t really have to do anything the rest of the week. my clinical paper is due in 2 weeks, and i could read the chapter i have to write on, but don’t really feel like it. now i don’t know if i’m going to do the chapter on forensic psych, because if i’m really serious about doing something in schools so that i get the summers off, i should probably do the chapter on school psych – since i really don’t know anything about school psych except that u do alot of testing (IQ, personality etc). but whatever.

i hope the rain isn’t coming in my window.

 

 

totally did not want to go to class today. was going to skip but didn’t, of course. and computer art is such a joke. i mean, nothing EVER works. ever. it’s funny to the point of absurdity. last wed he was going to show us how to burn a cd. but the computer didn’t have the right program, when he installed it, it didn’t work, etc etc etc. this time, we’re doing more text stuff in illustrator (which is the only thing the program is good for) and he doesn’t know what he’s doing in regards to linking text boxes. so we sat there for like 10 min while he tried to figure it out. then we were supposed to steal these files from him, but as students we didn’t have access to the folder so he leaves to call CIT for them to fix it, for like 10 minutes. never got it fixed. then we are going to burn a cd, but the computer can’t access the server to get anyones files to burn…ended up burning the same cd he burned earlier in the morning. that was the only stuff on the comp to use. and then i think my proff is completely mental, because he starts talking about how next time we’re going to start using a new program. so i’m sitting there thinking, that’s odd, i thought we already were shown the 3 programs we use in this class. he’s like, we’re going to use quark xpress to make your cd covers and i wont get into the program now but you can do this and this and this in it. um…we did 3 projects on quark xpress before spring break!! we know how to use it already….so totally dunno what he’s talking about. whatever.

didn’t want to go to clinical either but went. pointless. again. got our tests back tho. as expected 30/30 on the short answers.

test tomorrow in adolescent. it’s onlike 5 chapters or something. it’s gonna suck. oh well. i realize i waited so long for my trent tape from carolyn to arrive, and was freaking out that it took like 2 weeks, but now that i have it i still haven’t watched it. lol can’t watch it today, it’ll be too much of a distraction. must study now.

 

i am amused by the stupidest things. kurt asked me if i was familiar with Chris Vrenna. of course i am. then i thought he was going to say Tweaker was playing at fredonia or something. and then i’d have to go, even tho i hate Chris Vrenna, and don’t know Tweaker…just cuz he knows Trent. and yeah, that whole degrees of separation thing. And then i could have met Chris, and made out with him, and technically i could say i made out with Trent… since they say you are kissing every person your partner ever kissed before. LOL

yeah studying….not going very well AT ALL. and i’m all thrown off since its 7 and still light out. it’s like i have another 8 hrs to study, when i really only have 5. this blows.

 

studying – so not good. 2.5 chapters left, 2 hrs til i’d like to go to bed. not happening. and i’ve done such a bad job with the rest. what sucks about developmental courses is that they seem to make perfect sense. so it’s like, i don’t need to study this, it’s common sense. but then you get to the test and it’s like um…yeah don’t know this. HOW CAN I GET AN A IN NEUROPSYCH YET DO “BAD” IN DEVELOPMENTAL COURSES!?!?!?!…ok i did good in developmental psychopathology (A), and social and personality development (A-)….i did “bad” in child development (B)…I’ll probably get b+/a- in adolescent. AND ADOLESCENT IS JUST ALL THE SHIT WE TALKED ABOUT LAST SEMESTER IN SOCIAL AND PERSONALITY DEVELOPMENT BUT IN LESS DETAIL!!!! SO HOW CAN I BE DOING “BAD” IN THERE?! blah.

 

 

my jaw is going to fall off. with some of my teeth. something is severely wrong. hurts so bad. i thought maybe my filling fell out, but nope. my teeth just hurt, and now add my jaw to it. it’s like, dislocated or something. blah.

went to rit last night for 2 hrs. got pizza, watched tv, no big whoop. tired. stupid lost hour.

wow something must be wrong with my email, cuz i haven’t gotten any in like, an entire day. and i get at least stupid mailing list stuff every morning.

this was a complete waste of a post….there’s a tv dilemma tonight. sabres game starts at 6, but fear is on at 8. considering sabres aren’t going to make the playoffs, i guess i don’t need to watch the whole game…and cannot miss fear! oh lookit that, i got email hahaha.

 

carolyn would grow a mullet if i see american beauty or girl interrupted without her hehehe….*inside joke*

i think i have a sinus infection. that’s what’s making my face hurt. well according to webmd.com it makes sense. if i went to the health center they’d probably say i’m pregnant *inside geneseo joke*. the “good news” is…the doctor i always saw at the health center died. yeah i realize that’s not good news. but this is the guy who told me my throat hurt because i was sniffling too much, when i really had mono. he never believed me when i said things were wrong. like when my arms were going numb, and by the evening it felt like i was having a heart attack and dying last year. he was like, well nothing is wrong with you. turned out to be a side effect from medicine i was put on. would have been nice of him to know that kind of information. so at least now if this gets worse and i go to see them, i’ll get some other doctor. i hope i get the nice lady who i had once. i saw her after the NIN show when i thought i broke my spleen (cuz i had mono at the time)…she actually told me where my spleen was (which i sorta knew) and how i’d know if things were wrong etc. the bitchy lady who told me i had mono was just like, you have mono, don’t get hit in the stomach. and she told me to come in every week for a checkup on my spleen. when i went in the next week, she was like why are you here?! i’m like DUH CUZ YOU TOLD ME TO COME IN AND CHECK MY SPLEEN.

blah teeth/jaw/face really hurt. i should go do some work now before hockey/fear