Category Archives: Personal

next time nin tours, and they come to buffalo, they need to do an edge session. and some how i need to get in. too bad joe lost his connection at the station. (like this would happen anyway :P)

 

ended up going to eastview mall last night, had dinner at jack astors, and then went to rit to a going away party for one of mary’s roommates, who we don’t really know LOL. it was cool. i was exhausted, so we left like losers at like 11:30. tried not to passout on the drive home. didn’t get anything at the mall, and didn’t get to try slut clothing on because the slut store has all that trendy ruffly shit now, instead of whore outfits. blah. i hate that ruffly stuff. it reminds me of the Pirate shirt from Seinfeld. we went into Guess, god they have great stuff. they had beautiful real leather pants for 125$…which i thought was pretty damn good price for 1. Guess and 2. Real leather. it was the softest leather ever. some day….

so i want to go back to bed. woke up around 9:30 and had a headache from sleeping too long (even tho i didn’t sleep any longer than i do on school days). got up took drugs, went back to bed. was hungry, so got up 5 minutes later, had yogurt so that the drugs wouldn’t eat through my stomach lining, went back to bed. got up 2 minutes later and said screw it, i’ll just nap later or something. i guess i should catch up on my reading this weekend, but i really want to redesign 🙂 maybe i’ll redesign the domain page. but i really like that one….hrmpf

blaaaaaaaah. woke up at quarter after 4 because of some loud slamming noise like a door. for some reason was compelled to open my eyes and saw that the power had gone off, so the clocks were flashing. then it seemed like the heater wasn’t turning off, and i was sweating to death. so i got all paranoid that something was wrong in the house, and it was gonna start on fire etc. still don’t know what the slamming noise was. eventually got back to sleep. then was paranoid that no one in the house was going to wake up, and everyone was gonna miss classes cuz of their clocks having gone off, except for me – but i’m the last one that wakes up. so i was going to try to make sure i could hear everyone up and awake, or i would go wake them up. but they all got up so that was ok. but blah, tired.

lisa “left eye” lopes died. in a car crash. too many people dying lately.

 

well apparently the entire campus lost power last night. and the banging noise was the generator turning on. everyone is talking about waking up to their clocks blinking and almost being late for class. and i’m pretty sure generators are still powering south hall, cuz something was running that doesn’t usually run, and it was so loud when i was walking by. dunno. i’m sure we’ll get email about it or something.

oh, apparently power went off in the entire town. because research sara lives off campus, and woke up 5 min before our meeting because her alarm didn’t go off. weird.

 

school shooting in germany. kids really need to be taught other ways of dealing with anger and frustration than to go in and kill people.

 

clinical was weird today. i was freezing. then it’s getting towards the end of class and proff is talking, and suddenly started talking about how he must be talking in a foreign tongue because it’s getting harder and harder to teach when he has to look at our faces and see such disinterest, and if we don’t want to be there, wish we were someplace else, to just talk to him and we won’t meet anymore cuz he has other stuff he could be doing. i was like WOAH where’d that come from. i guess since i didn’t know where it came from i must not have been paying attention, but i was freezing and just trying not to go into hypothermia. then there was a signup sheet for extra credit research going around by the time it got to me (which it never really did, had to look at it after class) all the spots i could have gone were filled. good thing i don’t need extra credit in that class 😛

lol i got email from MJNI a few days ago saying that MJ was going to be performing at a Democratic Party fund raiser in Harlem. I laughed. I guess it was last night, because this picture showed up on yahoo.

THAT’S DAVE NAVARRO PLAYING WITH HIM!!!!! Screw slash, he’s got navarro now!
and apparently MJNI’s site is being tampered with ever since they launched this “Support Invinicible” campaign thing…lol

there’s a whole bunch more pictures from the night. one says “Pop singer Michael Jackson sings “Feed the World” as actors portraying a Jew (R) and a Palestinian shake hands in backround at “A Night At The Apollo”… WHAT THE HELL IS “FEED THE WORLD”!?!?!?! it’s HEAL the world. LOL…and they keep naming Navarro as “unidentified guitarist” HELLO WHY DONT YOU ASK SOMEONE WHO IT IS! HE DOES HAVE A NAME!… rofl, feed the world.

 

mom and missy came, took me to lunch. mom got me 2 black skirts and a black dress for vegas/new orleans. made me try them on, and then everyone is like “ooh u should wear skirts/dresses more often, i dunno why you refuse, you have such a good body” blah. shut up. thanks.

took a nap in the afternoon. set my alarm, incase i fell asleep which i wasn’t really anticipating. well good thing lol. it went off at 4:30 so i could get up to do research and i was so competely disoriented it was unreal. did the research thing again. ppl are so stupid. no one ever listens. and 2 ppl we had to make stop because they hadn’t finished and it was time for the next session. one girl was asian, one of the international students who didn’t know english really well, so of course, she was slow. she asked me what some words meant 3 times. no problem, totally understand. oh, and she also came 20 minutes late. then this other girl, she came about 15 minutes late. and she was no farther than the girl who didn’t even know english, and came after her?!?! what the hell is that about?! and so then in the 2nd session, this super white trash girl came with her white trash boyfriend. her boyfriend was just there waiting for her, and when beth and i left, he was laying spralled out dead on the top step of the room, snoring. we were like omg! lol

finally got around to updating webpages…the 2 cliques, the beauty shop page so that eventually she can approve, and i can get paid, cyndi’s site…and i want to redesign delirious again *hides* i’m sorry lol. i do really like this layout. but those brad pictures are calling to me hehehe. we’ll see. and i joined a bunch of cliques too.. er 3 more. actually 4, but waiting for the code to that one.

danielle wants to go to the mall this weekend. and i hate marketplace so i need to find directions to eastview again (or eric can read this and give them to me hehe). since i did my paper last night, i don’t really have anything to do now until exam week (starts the 13th).

the entire roof of my mouth hurts. feels like i burned it, but i don’t remember my lunch being all that hot. and my mom thinks i have mono again too. so if i don’t feel better and if i’m not dying of exhaustion by monday, going to health center.

and now i think i’ll move my entire address book to my new email address. everyone needs to stop asking me for it, cuz i don’t know if i’m going to use it. i want a pop email account, i don’t want to use hotmail, but i don’t want to keep changing it every 2 months if i move, or whatever and get a new internet provider. i created an adelphia.net account, have never told anyone about it and already get tons of spam, so i’m trying to avoid using them. apparently my host claims i have pop email ability, but i can’t figure out how to use it so…the plan i have claims 50 pop accounts…but i think they lie. they don’t give any info about how to set them up, i have only been able to set up email addys with redirects. and if i dont do a redirect i don’t know how to check it. so like yeah…help. they’re FAQ sucks, gives no info AT all.

 

hate vancouver. i’m starving, but do i really want easy mac for a snack for the 3rd night in a row?

i think i used my snooze bar for the first time in my life today. woke up “another one bites the dust” was playing…listened to it but didn’t get up. then “black or white” came on and i hit snooze LOL. i’m going to pass out i’m so tired, and i don’t know why because i think i’ve pretty much caught up on sleep from missing it on saturday, and i’ve been sleeping good too.

but then i almost puked on my desk from this disgusting yogurt. it’s strawberry, fat free, aspartame… whoever says you can’t taste aspartame is full of shit. it’s revolting. and then of course there are fruit chunks in it, and they make me gag every time. that’s why i don’t eat fruit yogurt. so i gagged bigtime. i ate most of it, but i’m already hungry. and about to drop dead from tiredness.

 

oh yeah… goddamnit vancouver, what the hell is wrong with you?! win damnit!

ok i really think i have mono again. because there is no reason for me to be this tired all the time. i wonder if you get it a 2nd time, if you skip the other symptoms… like the sore throat and stuff. maybe i should go to the health center, since i don’t have health insurance. right, so i knew i wouldn’t have health insurance anymore when i graduate….but westinghouse (dad’s old job) screwed up and canceled our health insurance, and the new job’s insurance doesn’t start for 2 months. so now none of us have it, and even when they get it, i won’t. so i can’t go to the doctor anymore. i guess i should take advantage of the health center since it’s paid for with student fees.

i’ve realized i’m really quite Freudian in my psychological interpretations of things. not so much dealing with the whole psycho-sexual, oedipus complex stuff…but in the role of the unconscious, and latent/manifest dream content stuff etc…cuz i always say that people’s internet profiles say alot about them. there is this one that had been bugging me for a while cuz i couldn’t really get it, but finally i did. and i think i’m brilliant *ego moment* hehe. i just figure that there is a reason people are attracted to certain lyrics/quotes/whatever, even if they don’t know why. and i figure out why 🙂 i’m not quite sure of why i pick the things i do sometimes. i mean, sometimes i know, and sometimes it’s intentional, but other times it’s just that things strike a chord with me for some reason…

 

as if i didn’t already know i was going to get cancer… then i read this headline “Study finds cancer risk increased by substance found in bread, french fries”….yeah i’m screwed. oh yeah so screwed. article says breads, biscuits, french fries and potato chips…THAT’S MY ENTIRE DIET! lol. it says when carb-rich foods are heated, they form some chemical that is a carcinogen. great. well…i think of it as, everything on earth is a carcinogen…because practically everything is. and i’m already going to get skin cancer, so might as well keep eating the only foods i like. *eats another potato chip*

 

1. i destroyed all my fingernails today
2. i think everyone on earth – EVERYONE – would benefit from therapy
3. current favourite song “gave up” – nin…which is odd cuz i was never a huge fan of the song. it was the song from broken that i thought should be replaced by “last” during the show. but now it’s like “yes let’s listen to it on repeat”….i just currently adore all the songs from broken. maybe i should put that cd in…yah. sounds like a good idea. i wish my broken case wasn’t all…broken. haha sorry.
4. everyone in my clinical class is in agreement that there is no way we can avoid plagerizing the textbook in our papers that are due friday.
5. my email is broken. i should start switching everything to my new address.

 

yeah something is definitely wrong with me. i’m about to pass out from exhaustion. and i don’t even do anything!! yeah this week has been pretty busy, trying to run research, write up results for it, and do my paper as well as my other school work… it’s probably the busiest week of the whole semseter. but i don’t ever pull all nighters, or anything like that, so i don’t understand why i am THIS tired. but i can barely hold myself in a sitting position at the moment.

meanwhile my paper is going ok. i was on a role and wrote like 2.5 pages but then started slacking off. it sucks tho. it seems so elementary. and i’m trying not to plagerize from the textbook, so i’m putting citations after practically every sentence. lol. it sounds like i’m talking to a 2 year old in my paper tho. i talked to research girl sara who took this class last semester, and said she didn’t even think he read them. which wouldn’t surprise me. he has to make us do a paper cuz he’s head of the department…but you can already tell he doesn’t care, because he’s having us write about a chapter in the book as opposed to doing a lit review, which every other 300 level psych class makes you do. haha. basic consensus is that you could write him a story and he’d give you an A. so i’m not worried about it. that reminds me of this teacher we had in high school. actually there was more than one. i think they were all social studies teachers…but anyway. they were older, and near retirement and i guess they just didn’t care, because we all thought that they didn’t actually read our exam essays…just gave us full credit. so someone decided to try it out, and in the middle of his essay wrote out the pledge of alegance, then finished his essay….not a single comment, full credit. LOL.

 

paper is done. it’s crap. oh well. will read it over again tomorrow and print it out. i should probably do other homework now. but i have all day tomorrow 🙂 mom and missy are coming for lunch and now i don’t need to rush them out, since i don’t have to spend the day on the paper.

 

 

k well….hmm. i feel slightly better primarily due to the passage of time. i’m trying to ignore everything, but it’s still nagging in the back of my mind and every now and then comes back up and bugs me. but really trying not to think of it. apparently my blog posts had some people concerned, so they talked to me. thanks for caring. i’ll be ok. but i think it’s safe to say i’m totally not trusting of anyone at the moment (ok i lie, 2 ppl that know what’s going on i can still trust). but anyway…

never got around to doing the outline for my paper last night. spent time talking to some people online, and then talking to danielle about shit, and went to be at 11 again. i was still so exhausted from not sleeping saturday night/sunday morning. i think i’m back to my normal tiredness now. but last night i was really bad, felt like passing out, eyes wouldn’t focus on anything, was pissed off at everyone. and i slept pretty damn good. was barely woken up by everyone in my house, was able to go back to sleep even when i was.

so tonight i have to go give out the survey thing for like 3 hours. dr allen said that i could take it for the extra credit in adolescence, since he hadn’t told us what it was about yet. so i’m going to take it one of the sessions tonight, instead of having to outline the review sheet for the final (which who knows, I might end up doing anyway so i can possibly maybe get 100 on it).

i guess now i’ll do the outline. and maybe read poli sci at the research session tonight, and try my hardest to get most of the paper written tomorrow afternoon/night. it’s not a hard paper, or a long one. it’s just getting motivated to do it that’s the problem. anyone wanna find me websites about forensic psychology!?!?

and oh yeah. new osbournes on tonight at 10:30, and Vanilla Ice is playing in Ithica on the 2nd. which if i went would be another 3 day concert binge, since 2 tea party shows are after it. but i’m not going to go because that’d be alot of driving for bands i’m not huge about. bad enough i gotta drive home and back in one day, and then rochester and back. can’t afford the gas. supposedly as far as i know, after tea in rochester we were gonna head back to RIT to drink in honor of danielle’s birthday even tho she won’t be there. at least that’s what joe and jon were planning on doing, who knows what the RIT ppl actually think LOL. either way, all i know is i’m so not drinking. i think it might get me into trouble, so i’ll stay sober, and not have to stay overnight and all that happy horse shit.

 

did the research thing. i hate that people don’t follow instructions. blah. but whatever. had a chance to go to the campus store and spent 14$…on doritos, salt n vinegar chips, pringles, and easy mac. the easy mac was 6 friggen dollars!! good thing i have my meal plan to pay with, since i need to waste that money away. but can you say price mark up?!?

so i guess for the rest of the night i can finish my outline of my paper, so i can hopefully write it tomorrow. have to spend a chunk of time tomorrow writing up the results for last semesters research though. blah. hopefully maybe we’ll also come to a plan about new orleans and what we’re doing for hotel and stuff.

i really need to stop feeling so fucked up. arg.

froze to death last night, slept with my hoodie sweatshirt on. turned the heat up before i went to bed, then watched some nin dvd to make me feel better, and was too hot, so went and turned it down again, froze. and the heat smells like burning again really badly. we thought something was on fire while watching fear cuz the smell was so strong.

 

Sony music officially ended the promotion of MJ’s Invincible after only 6 months. So now 3 fan clubs are starting a promotion thing, to try to get Sony to change their mind. if you want to know more, visit MJNI.com.

that is super screwed up. sony promoted HIStory for 2 friggen years. and while the promotion for that was royally screwed up as well, they at least sorta tried. apparently MJ is leaving sony. he’s got 1 more album with them, and the email from MJNI said there’s a greatest hits cd with a few new songs on it to be released end of 2002 or early 2003, that’ll be his last sony album. don’t really get that, since HIStory had the greatest hits cd in it, AND they just released only disc 1 of HIStory as a single greatest hits cd. so why release ANOTHER greatest hits? besides just to get MJ out of sony. i guess he’ll be joining Mariah as being label-less…he should go sign with bowie. lol. the music business sucks.

meanwhile i feel like i’m dying. i hurt all over, besides being all messedup with what i should do about shit. my arms, shoulders, legs, everything hurts. i just wanna crawl back in bed. and the weather is shitty.

 

left all 3 classes early today. 2 were dismissed 10 min early, comp art i just left. we had work time for our newsletters but i felt like shit and didn’t want to be there anymore. so yeah, left. now i have to go to a meeting in a half hour, and spent the last 45 min talking to danielle about shit. so i sorta feel better about all the stuff i was dealing with, and the part that is still all messed up i can do a pretty decent job ignoring. i mean, that’s really all i can do unless i wanna blow everyone out of their normal comfortable life. ok i’m being dramatic lol. but it would start shit, so i’ll just stay quiet.

physically i still feel like shit. i don’t know why but i hurt all over. i took some pain killers but didn’t really work. the only part of me that doesn’t hurt, oddly enough, is my head. i’m starving. don’t know what to make for dinner since i still feel all gaggy. but i feel better, cuz most of that was psychosomatic lol.

so my agenda for tonight is go to my meeting, dinner, outline my paper so i can write most of it tomorrow. what are the odds of that happening?

 

wow i feel horrible again. won’t be able to get any work done til shit gets straightened out. perfect.

please no more drama!!!!! i can’t handle it!!!!

 

blah. i think a lot of people under estimate me and under estimate what i’m capable of doing. probably because i’m sorta quiet, and don’t really talk about things that i’m thinking/feeling. and i dumb myself down in front of people who don’t know as much, or in classes when we’re doing group work as to not offend someone by telling them they’re wrong. that’s the main thing. i don’t want to offend anyone. i try so hard not to (and end up doing it anyway). and hardly anyone tries to really find out what i’m thinking/feeling about a certain thing. or if they want to know, they go about it in such an indirect way that it pisses me off to the point that i refuse to mention it. i guess it’s my own fault that i appear to be so unapproachable. but whatever. if you want to know something, just ask me.

a few random lines from things popped into my head.
– don’t fuck with us
– nothing can stop me now
– put my faith in god and trust in you, now there’s nothing more fucked up i could do
– smash up my sanity

thanks.

 

me and danielle were playing a game, top 5 song lyrics at the moment.

1. I know you tried to rescue me, Didn’t let anyone get in, Left with a trace of all that was, And all that could have been – nin “and all that could have been”
2. You would know. Wouldn’t you? You extend your hand to those who suffer, To those who know what it really feels like, To those who have had a taste, Like that means something – nin “i do not want this”
3. Well, okay, enough, You’ve had your fun But come on there has got to be someone That hasn’t yet become So numb And succumb And God damn I am so tired of pretending Of wishing I was ending When all I’m really doing is trying to hide And keep it inside And fill it with lies Open my eyes? Maybe I wish I could try – nin “where is everybody?”
4. you’re such an inspiration for ways that i will never ever choose to be – a perfect circle “judith”
5. you’re slipping in and out of time who are you to decide which one of us winds up broken, for a lifetime. and still you’ll never be satisfied until one of us falls apart, i had enough of this – orgy “faces”
6. wake up why can’t you face me. come on and rise up, show me. some day i’ll see you’re vacant and maybe you’re better off that way. go ahead and play dead, i know you can hear me, why can’t you turn and face me, you fucking disappoint me – apc/tapeworm “vacant”

hm…got to sleep at 6am, awake at 8am, slept sorta til 10. great.

don’t have anything i want to say. did the bowling thing etc….yeah. that’s it.

want to go back to school now, need to talk to danielle and joe, tell them i’m not staying here to watch fear. cuz that was the plan, but i’ve changed them. cuz i’m driving, and i can.

 

ok dude vh1 too hot for tv contdown…#14 nin videos… there was SO totally something they showed that i’ve never seen before. oh maybe it’s the burn video…haha happiness in slavery video. um… they said starfuckers video was 2 years after HIS…um…i might not be up on when Closure was released, if that’s what they’re counting but i’m pretty damn sure it was more than 2 years. yeah positive. get ur damn info right already. lol great trent interview clips…

i think it’s funny how mtv and vh1 do like the exact same shows but change it a bit. cuz now they’re showing the edited and unedited parts of the closer video side by side.. just like they did on mtvs controversial video show last week . reminds me, i was watching vh1 classic last night before i left the house, and they were doing a censorship marathon playing videos that supposedly caused controversy or something. some i understood, like they always think madonna’s “like a prayer” was so bad…but then bruce springsteen’s “born in the usa”?? didn’t get that…ok now vh1 said trent produced manson’s first 2 albums… um i could be VERY wrong about this but i thought only produced antichrist…hmmm.

 

it’s been concluded that i know too much information about too many people and it’s screwing with me, cuz i dunno how to handle it and i’m bad at confronting people etc etc etc. don’t know how to approach people, and just…shit. i think everyone should come clean about everything to everyone and be honest, and don’t fuck around with people’s heads and all that happy horse shit. so then i don’t have to deal with it *selfish and don’t care, i’m tired of it*

it’s not that i don’t want to know things about my friends, and their lives and shit….cuz i want to be involved, i don’t want people to stop telling me stuff cuz of this… it’s when it gets fucked up and super complicated and dramatic, that’s when i get tired of it, and wish ppl would just come clean. cuz i don’t like having to be stuck in the middle of shit that doesn’t involve me, because of the things i know. don’t like knowing stuff when i can’t bring it up and mention it cuz it’ll ruin everyones lives…or at least cause trouble. arg

 

*sigh* back at school.

“Metal Hammer magazine has reported that the long-awaited Tapeworm project has finally entered the studio to begin recording thier debut album.” YAY!!!! exciting. finally we can maybe hear “vacant” the way it’s intended to be sometime in the near future. however this means probably no new nin stuff for a while.

see the time down there…7am. why am i up at 7 when i went out last night and went to bed around 1? BECAUSE THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE AND IT WOKE ME UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO NOT KIDDING! about 6:55 i got woken up my bed was shaking, my closet doors were hitting eachother, and these stars that are hanging from my bookcase and ceiling were swinging!! so i jumped out of bed and found my parents. dad’s in the shower, mom’s downstairs neither felt it. LOL so my mom is like maybe you were just moving, or having a dream. i’m like NO MY CLOSET DOORS WERE MOVING AND HITTING EACHOTHER! she’s like maybe you were poultergeisting in your sleep, and i’m like… ok well that’d still be pretty damn cool. But then the radio announced they were getting flooded with calls about ppl feeling an earthquake SO I DIDNT MAKE IT UP!! hahaha. HOW COOL!!! i’ve wanted to be in an earthquake for the longest time!!! YAAAY!!!!!!!

but now i need a nap lol

so last night went to see murder by numbers with joe and danielle. it was really good. but i like that homicide forensics mystery stuff. michael pitt (tommy gnosis) is great at playing strange characters. sometimes he’s really hot. it’s weird. if i met him i’d just want to give him a giant hug or something lol. but yeah. it was pretty good i thought. then we went to chilis to watch the end of the vancouver/detroit game, and let me just say GO VANCOUVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! 5-2 win, they lead the series 2-0 now ROFLMAO that’s so great. so hung out there for a while with jon, his girlfriend laura and then his cousin eric and his girlfriend. dunno what’s going on today, eventually going to joe’s and then bowling. but need a nap, since i’m awake and it’s 7am. hahah

 

so i went back to bed, slept til 11:30. dad informed me the quake was centered in Platsburg, which is up north east ny by lake champlain (aka far away from us) and that it registered a 5….carolyn found some articles, don’t feel like re-linking them from here so just go to her blog if you wanna read them. apparently ppl discovered a bit fault line through lake ontario…there’s been a known fault line (or lines, i dunno) through Buffalo, WNY region. this is about our 4th lil earthquake here since i’ve been alive. of course never felt any of the others. 2 i was in school for, one i was sitting in the family room with my parents. my mom started yelling at me to stop shaking the chair, so of course i yell back I WASN’T!!!!! then we see some of the nicknacks moving. but i barely felt anything. this time was much better hehe. one of the ones that happened when i was in school was epicentered in an intersection on delaware HAHA i just find that kinda funny.

and so everyone know’s it’s all Fishy’s fault. she dreamed there was an earthquake last night, and that a buffalo was running around the whole time. hehe

 

digital cable is great. and it’s a tommy gnosis weekend. michael pitt is in joey ramone’s video. lol. i’m like OMG IT’S TOMMY GNOSIS! so i had to watch it, ended up missing half of U2’s “pride” video on vh1 classic, but that’s ok…cuz it was tommy gnosis. that panther tattoo on his hip is real, and not just a hedwig thing. and i forgot to mention this before, but i think he had a major growth spurt between Hedwig and Murder by Numbers cuz he was WAY tall in it. but yeah. vh1 classic rocks. was watching part of the 80s show, and after pride they played duran duran’s “planet earth”..yay boys in makeup!! it was so cheesy. and omg i saw THE cheesiest video ever, except perhaps for the “safety dance” video….ABC’s “look of love” omg it was so great hahaha.

but anyway, lots of shit’s happened. the dean sent out an email to everyone that this kid at school died this morning after an “altercation” outside of Erie Hall…he was taken to the hospital and stuff, and died…cause of death unknown. but he was from Tonawanda too, so it’s kinda weird. i didn’t know him but joe and them might, since they live in Tonawanda. (they’ve never mentioned knowing anyone else at geneseo though). i wonder what happened…what the altercation was. i’m sure we’ll find out soon, or at least the rumors will be in full force when we get back.

now there is nothing on tv and mtv2 and vh1 classic were annoying me with the crap they kept playing. so i guess i’ll go try to read my chapter that i have to write my paper on, since it wasn’t going well with the tv on haha

wow the world is a sad place when jerry springer is the most entertaining thing on television. i turned it on while i was eating lunch, and omg i haven’t laughed that hard in a while. it was so hilarious. i caught 2 stories. the first was these 2 fat chicks who claimed they had found the messiah, his name was seth. hahah. so that’s funny to begin with. so the 2 girls are all holding hands and groping each other, and jerry is asking him how one becomes a messiah. so they said he treats women the way they should be, and they’re totally devoted to him etc. so of course jerry asks how they are treated and they reply, they’re his sex slaves. ROFLMAO. so then they bring out seth, who is this long haired greasy looking guy with a goatie that is grown out into 2 braids. and he’s fat too. so cuz he controls them, he made them start making out with eachother, and do something (dunno what cuz it got censored), and then made the one girl go rub her breasts on Steve (one of the security guys). of course then, he tells them they’re worthless and he has something better and doesn’t need them anymore…and of course it’s a man ROFL. then the 2nd story was this beefy chick, chubby, skimpy outfit, of course. so she’s on the show because her fantasy is to have her boyfriend wear her bra and underwear, and if he doesn’t she’s going to break up with him. so he comes out and he’s this skinny little dweeb, and he’s like HELL NO. so she strips on stage, takes her dress off, gets completely naked. so she’s standing on stage all censored and gives her bra and underwear to him to go put on. ROFLMAO he does come back with it on and she like tackles him and its all censored. hahahaha. it was so great. how sad.

i really wanna see the episode my aunt was on. my aunt was IN THE AUDIENCE not a friggen guest LOL. but she was one of those super interactive audience members, and at the end went on stage and kissed one of the guests ROFL. but she didn’t tell me when it was on tv, and i dont even think she has a tape of it. blah.

so now i gotta pack up some more stuff that i can take home. like kitchen stuff. cuz we don’t need 3 pasta strainers, really we don’t. but that is one thing everyone brought lol.

well technically, however unlikely, i could still get a 4.0 this semester. there is an extra credit opportunity in adolescent worth 5 points. so getting that, and if i got 100% on the final, i’d get an A and a 4.0. BUT…i can’t do the extra credit BECAUSE I’M THE ONE RUNNING THE STUDY!!!!!!!!!! so i talked to the proff, and she said if i outline the review sheet for the final and turn it in i can get the 5 points. but i’m sure i won’t get 100 on the final, so i still won’t be getting a 4.0. blah.

well the AC issue. swealtered last night with the windows open. which meant waking up at every sound outside…at 3:30 am when a sorority pledge class had to jog by…and at 8:15ish when the first set of kids went off to class….and 9:15 ish when the next set went by etc. great. so a guy came to look at the AC around 11. 10 min before he came, it turned back on and started to work. however, i don’t exactly find it to be cool in here, it’s still about 75 according to my thermometer in my room. anyway, the AC guy was telling us about how retarded the engineers were when they built the heating system etc (already knew that, who doesn’t know heat rises so furnace can’t be on the 3rd floor). apparently in order for the heat to kick on, it must be lower than 58 degrees outside. for the AC to turn on it must be warmer than 72 degrees outside. so between 58-72 you just get the blower recirculating the house’s air. well that’s fucking retarded. i understand that at a state school they’re trying to conserve energy and stuff. but there is no way it was cold enough for the AC to turn off. it was 80 in here!!! that warrents the need for AC!! it should have nothing to do with outside temp. if we’re hot, we should be able to press ON and have the AC go on. if we get cold, because maybe it cooled down outside, we can turn it OFF! a switch! that’s all i want. arg. it’s frustrating. thankfully we only have a month left here.

anyway. going to do my writeups for my newsletter today i think. maybe some other work since i did nothing yesterday. started reading adolescent, but had to go fill out the survey, then danielle came in to watch tv which led to the all night tv watching that went on yesterday. i’m tired.

and oh yeah. this is way too early for me to really be saying this but…. HAHA REDWINGS!!!!!! go vancouver!!!!

and one last thing. i really hate the smell of humans in hot weather. not necessarily BO cuz in the morning most ppl have showered and smell fine. but there is a distinct smell that is different in the summer than in the winter…like everyone’s perfume and cologne is alot stronger, cuz the sweat resets it off…this is a revolting topic so i’m gonna stop.

 

Kurt: I was talking about this with others. One difference with our generation is that years from now, we’ll be able to show our grandkids scars we got in like, mosh pits and stuff. All our grandparents can do is show us scars THEY got from like, war
me: LOLOL

 

AC broken again. called maintence. it was about 74 when i got home from class at 12:30, it’s now 80 again. no cold air coming out of the vents at all. they told me the guy who came this morning left already, so dunno when someone is gonna come by. great.

ok so they just called (15 min later ish) to talk to me and ask me the temp inside. it’s 78/80 in my bedroom. she says, well the AC won’t go on until it’s over 78. i’m like no that’s NOT what he told us this morning. he told us the AC would go on if it was over 72 OUTSIDE. she’s like well he just told me 78 inside. i’m like no, because the AC worked fine the whole rest of the week until yesterday, and it was about 70/72 in here until last night when it stopped working. so she was like, hold on. and then came back on and said they were going to send someone over.

ok i’m not RETARDED. you can’t fucking tell me that the AC doesn’t go on until it’s an oven inside your house. if i had the money i’d hire my own goddamn repair man. someone who actually knows how to work heating and cooling systems. assholes. all of them.

ok maintence called back again. i think it was the guy who came this morning. this is the story. because the downstairs thermostat reads 74/75 the AC isn’t going on because it’s set to keep it 74 in the house. the school determines the temperature setting and gives us 2 degrees of latitude to change it. so i asked him why the hell was the AC fine the whole rest of the week, it was cool in here, and we had no problems. he said we were all supposed to be notified of this, but apparently we weren’t, that the school changed the temperature setting to 76 instead of 72 because everyone had doors and windows open, which was making the ACs run constantly. so our 2 degree latitude is lowest possible temp of 74. which i guess would be fine except THE HEATING SYSTEM DOESN’T WORK RIGHT AND UPSTAIRS IT’S SWEALTERING. so i asked him if they were going to change it back because it was unbareable. he said he complained to his supervisor about it, and took my name to file a complaint on my behalf. because really. i am dying here. i’m on the verge of tears i’m so hot. ok not that much, but i’m sweating to death. yeah and we have AC.

everything would be solved if they gave us an on off switch. people who wanted to open windows could turn it off, ppl who wanted AC could turn it on. or it would be nice of the school to tell us how these things work so we wouldn’t have to be constantly calling emergency maintence to fix shit. and maybe everyone with their windows open would close their windows so that the AC would go on, since the AC is never going to go on if they don’t.

i’m going to go take a hair dryer to the thermostat.

ROFLOMG maintence just called me back and was like “do you have a hair dryer on your thermostat” ROFLMAO OMG!!!!!! so i go, yeah i had to do something it’s so hot. he’s like i can see that. (i guess they have a central reading thing for the temps). so now he tells me they’ve decided to switch it back. so that the set temp is 72, and we can change it to 68 or 78. so i said thanks, and that it might be a good idea if we were notified of how this stuff works, since everyone in our building has their windows open thinking the AC is just flat out broken. if they knew how it worked, they’d shut the windows and all would be good. he’s like, well i have nothing to do with that. i have to contact the supervisor who is supposed to contact reslife with the info they’re supposed to pass on to you. so yeah we won’t get notified. but nice to know they’ve decided to change it back.

i’m tired of talking to maintence so let’s hope they don’t need to call back. haha the call about the hairdryer really threw me for a loop ROFL

 

it’s a quote day. from an old irc log about “foo fest”
Andy: when you smile you have to cock your head sideways 90 degrees 🙂

 

i wish i spent as much time on my real school work as i’ve spent on my reviews for my comp art news letter. i’ve only done one review so far (NIN live disc/dvd) and it’s over a page long single spaced. and i’ve edited it like 5 times. lol. i wanted to do all 3 or 4 of the reviews today, but got distracted by amanda, and helping her come up with themed food for an 80s restaurant. haha.

going to see the musical theatre club performance thing tonight. it starts at 8, but we’re going at 7 because it’s always super popular. tonight is the first night, so there is actually a possibility we won’t get in…parents, family etc get first dibs on seats before doors open to the public. since it’s free, and it’s always so good, lots of people show up. tonight is the only night we can go tho, since we’re going home tomorrow so….hoping we get in. if we don’t get in though, i need to do some reading and maybe the rest of my reviews. you know, most people are going to just copy shit from the web for their news letter (since we are allowed to)….i’m probably the only one who’s going to do it all on my own. lol

 

going to see the musical theatre club always makes me wish i had talent. it was really good, once again. they did some fun songs, and they did “ease on down the road” from the wiz lol. and i must say i really love “Aquarius/let the sunshine” from Hair. it was a good time. hotter than hell tho, so it’s nice to be back in the AC 🙂

i have a massive headache and i’m starving. and i feel all gross… that whole hating how humans smell thing was in full effect at the show…extremely warm enclosed space. i dunno why i’m noticing it so much lately lol.

 

HFS!! just got a phone call from Kevin, in the UK, who i haven’t talked to in years (cuz he never answers email)…i was like how the hell did you get my number?…yeah duh, the geneseo site lists them lol. it was super great to talk to him again, caught up on shit, talked about the old friends, and the good old days hehe.