i think i used my snooze bar for the first time in my life today. woke up “another one bites the dust” was playing…listened to it but didn’t get up. then “black or white” came on and i hit snooze LOL. i’m going to pass out i’m so tired, and i don’t know why because i think i’ve pretty much caught up on sleep from missing it on saturday, and i’ve been sleeping good too.
but then i almost puked on my desk from this disgusting yogurt. it’s strawberry, fat free, aspartame… whoever says you can’t taste aspartame is full of shit. it’s revolting. and then of course there are fruit chunks in it, and they make me gag every time. that’s why i don’t eat fruit yogurt. so i gagged bigtime. i ate most of it, but i’m already hungry. and about to drop dead from tiredness.
oh yeah… goddamnit vancouver, what the hell is wrong with you?! win damnit!
ok i really think i have mono again. because there is no reason for me to be this tired all the time. i wonder if you get it a 2nd time, if you skip the other symptoms… like the sore throat and stuff. maybe i should go to the health center, since i don’t have health insurance. right, so i knew i wouldn’t have health insurance anymore when i graduate….but westinghouse (dad’s old job) screwed up and canceled our health insurance, and the new job’s insurance doesn’t start for 2 months. so now none of us have it, and even when they get it, i won’t. so i can’t go to the doctor anymore. i guess i should take advantage of the health center since it’s paid for with student fees.
i’ve realized i’m really quite Freudian in my psychological interpretations of things. not so much dealing with the whole psycho-sexual, oedipus complex stuff…but in the role of the unconscious, and latent/manifest dream content stuff etc…cuz i always say that people’s internet profiles say alot about them. there is this one that had been bugging me for a while cuz i couldn’t really get it, but finally i did. and i think i’m brilliant *ego moment* hehe. i just figure that there is a reason people are attracted to certain lyrics/quotes/whatever, even if they don’t know why. and i figure out why 🙂 i’m not quite sure of why i pick the things i do sometimes. i mean, sometimes i know, and sometimes it’s intentional, but other times it’s just that things strike a chord with me for some reason…
as if i didn’t already know i was going to get cancer… then i read this headline “Study finds cancer risk increased by substance found in bread, french fries”….yeah i’m screwed. oh yeah so screwed. article says breads, biscuits, french fries and potato chips…THAT’S MY ENTIRE DIET! lol. it says when carb-rich foods are heated, they form some chemical that is a carcinogen. great. well…i think of it as, everything on earth is a carcinogen…because practically everything is. and i’m already going to get skin cancer, so might as well keep eating the only foods i like. *eats another potato chip*
1. i destroyed all my fingernails today
2. i think everyone on earth – EVERYONE – would benefit from therapy
3. current favourite song “gave up” – nin…which is odd cuz i was never a huge fan of the song. it was the song from broken that i thought should be replaced by “last” during the show. but now it’s like “yes let’s listen to it on repeat”….i just currently adore all the songs from broken. maybe i should put that cd in…yah. sounds like a good idea. i wish my broken case wasn’t all…broken. haha sorry.
4. everyone in my clinical class is in agreement that there is no way we can avoid plagerizing the textbook in our papers that are due friday.
5. my email is broken. i should start switching everything to my new address.
yeah something is definitely wrong with me. i’m about to pass out from exhaustion. and i don’t even do anything!! yeah this week has been pretty busy, trying to run research, write up results for it, and do my paper as well as my other school work… it’s probably the busiest week of the whole semseter. but i don’t ever pull all nighters, or anything like that, so i don’t understand why i am THIS tired. but i can barely hold myself in a sitting position at the moment.
meanwhile my paper is going ok. i was on a role and wrote like 2.5 pages but then started slacking off. it sucks tho. it seems so elementary. and i’m trying not to plagerize from the textbook, so i’m putting citations after practically every sentence. lol. it sounds like i’m talking to a 2 year old in my paper tho. i talked to research girl sara who took this class last semester, and said she didn’t even think he read them. which wouldn’t surprise me. he has to make us do a paper cuz he’s head of the department…but you can already tell he doesn’t care, because he’s having us write about a chapter in the book as opposed to doing a lit review, which every other 300 level psych class makes you do. haha. basic consensus is that you could write him a story and he’d give you an A. so i’m not worried about it. that reminds me of this teacher we had in high school. actually there was more than one. i think they were all social studies teachers…but anyway. they were older, and near retirement and i guess they just didn’t care, because we all thought that they didn’t actually read our exam essays…just gave us full credit. so someone decided to try it out, and in the middle of his essay wrote out the pledge of alegance, then finished his essay….not a single comment, full credit. LOL.
paper is done. it’s crap. oh well. will read it over again tomorrow and print it out. i should probably do other homework now. but i have all day tomorrow 🙂 mom and missy are coming for lunch and now i don’t need to rush them out, since i don’t have to spend the day on the paper.