mtv annoys me. stayed up til 2 last night watching the most controversial videos countdown. i could argue some of their picks – like britney spears “hit me baby one more time”….just cuz she pranced around in a school uniform doesn’t make it controversial. she had more clothes on there than in her other videos. and of course they included the staple controversial videos “black or white” (still don’t get it), “justify my love”, and “closer”. #1 (to ruin the surprise lol) was prodigy’s “smack my bitch up”. after seeing it in what i think was it’s entirety on the show, i think it was brilliant. i can understand the controversy, and the shockingness of it..but it really was absolutely brilliant. and madonna has some of the most beautiful videos ever made. but i digress.

mtv annoys me because they hire complete retards. the show was hosted by suchin pak and iann robinson (i think that’s his last name). i kinda have to automatically like iann because he’s the only mtv employee who likes rock music. but i don’t really like him. and suchin. i used to not have a problem with her. she did her little mtv news breifs, and all that, and was fine. but no, she is as dumb as shit. i hate her. assuming that the actual video commentary during the show was their own, and not as scripted as the intros/outros of the show, she is a retard. they were talking about pearl jam’s “jeremy” video, and the controversy around that. she starts talking about how it was controversial because it was based on events that happened right before school violence exploded into a nationwide epidemic. OMG YOU COULDN’T BE MORE WRONG! school violence rates have been going down over the years, even including columbine et al. the only reason it became a big deal, an epidemic, is because it started happening in white schools instead of just inner city black schools. the nature of the “attacks” might have changed, but actual school violence is going down. and it just irritates me. i know that i have a college education, and personally know about a lot of things that others may not because they’re not interested in it. but the least you could do if you’re doing a show on mtv is do a tiny bit of research. (which i know at least some people at mtv do since i was contacted to validate some facts for one of their shows). i dunno. it just really bugged me. her commentary was retarded throughout the entire show (iann’s wasn’t much better). mtv really needs to hire me. i don’t even want to be on tv. i’ll be a researcher who writes up the teleprompter scripts for the tv people. at least i can make them appear to be smart. because watching mtv insults my intelligence.

iann had good commentary during marilyn manson’s “coma white” video. i think suchin was saying something stupid about manson always being shocking, and iann made the valid point that he’s the class clown doing it all on purpose. purposely thinking “what can i do next to piss people off, oh i’ll be jfk and then be crucified!” which is exactly what manson does. i think that if i was a famous recording artist i’d do the same thing. purposely see how many buttons i could push, see how far i could push the envelope, and see how pissed off i could make people. that’d be fun.

i also really wish i got mtv2 at school because while the program was on mtv, they were showing the videos in their entirety on mtv2. then i could have seen the countdown without having to listen to their retarded commentary. but somehow i doubt they showed completely unedited versions of the videos…especially “closer”. they showed a clip of “happiness in slavery” and i just laughed, because no way would they ever show that on any mtv channel. *still needs to see the broken movie*

 

it’s raining. so i put off doing laundry til tomorrow. better not be raining tomorrow. i had to go to the store, because i had to buy new deoderant. i hate the kind i took from home. it’s shit. and i just couldn’t wait 5 more days til i go home to get new stuff. it stopped raining for a while, but i was talking to someone so i didn’t go to the store. so i finally decided to go to the store, looked outside, it wasn’t raining. well i was wrong. it was still pouring. don’t know why i thought it wasn’t raining. but i went anyway. walked the 5 miles to my car, was soaked. i had sandals on too so my feet are wet. got the stuff i needed from wegmans. walked the 5 miles back from the parking lot to the house. yeah i’m wet. pants are wet, feet are wet, hair is wet. it’s actually sorta nice out. like it’s warm, so it’s almost a good day for walking through puddles and getting all wet. but something about it made me not want to do that. so i just feel all gross now.

 

this weeks fear episode… better than last one i think. well night 1 was kinda lame. 2 of the girls wimped out for no reason. they just stepped out of the door and freaked out and aborted (well the one girl claimed she saw a face with no body). it’s like god ur such losers, u haven’t even done anything yet!! the guy on night 1 had to hoist himself up on a meat hook thing. no big deal. then the 2 girls wimped out and they ran out of time. so then night 2 the new zealand girl had to go 1/4th mile below ground in this rickety old elevator to the irrigation tunnels. the elevator stopped and she was stuck between doors. so she was stuck in the elevator for a half hour before it started moving again and took her to the bottom. then she had to swim in the tunnels until notified. ick. then the funny black kid had to go sit in the sugar cane grinder where a guy fell in and got grinded. he was hearing noises so he was like BRING IT, and then immediately his light went off. yeah that was freaky lol. then the conveyor belt he was on started moving. then he had to press the on button for the grinder, to complete his dare. of course it didn’t turn on…not like mtv is really gonna harm these people. so that part was kinda scary…and the girl stuck in the elevator and then having to swim i thought was just wrong. cuz she could have accidentally drowned or something and no one would have been there to help. but whatever. nothing will ever beat the first 2 episodes of this season…especially the first…with the power outtage, the camera malfunctions and then everyone quitting. yeah…freaking scary. next weeks looks pretty good too. oh there was a part in this weeks where this kid was sitting in a storage room and everything started shaking. dunno what that was about, but i’d have freaked out. if i was in the show i’d probably end up quitting, but at least i know i’d get to start my dare before wimping out. i wouldn’t just walk outside the safe house and quit. i’d quit after sitting alone in a room in silence for a period of time lol. i’d sing to myself. lol

listening to pretty hate machine for the first time in months. sounds sooooo weird. after getting so used to the live tracks and the still reconstructions…yeah. so not used to it.

 

queen of the damned dvd early august. “The Vampire Lestat music videos will be featured full length. The videos on the DVD are separate – and the concert scene is separate and extended to get the full length of ‘Slept so Long’ and most of ‘Not Meant for Me’.” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg that’s gonna be so great!!!!