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well i have an “interview” at the sleep lab on friday. this guy called… Henry I guess. haha. I totally missed his name. But yeah, 3pm on friday. hopefully i won’t get horribly lost trying to get to strong memorial hospital since i can only leave at 2:30…he gave me directions, and they are girly directions using landmarks and some streetnames…as opposed to # roads and directions…lol. he said it’s informal..for me to meet the drs who run the lab and the other techs and to ask questions and for them to ask me questions. hopefully they don’t ask me something i can’t answer so i look dumb… *scared* haha. but anyway. that’s a step in the right direction to getting employed. so yay me. now i just need to figure out something to wear, since i don’t own any nice clothes.

i hope i know how to get home from the hospital too.

and a half hour til the NHL trade deadline… i’m compuslively checking yahoo lol. i had a dream that varada got traded..so i’m sorta paranoid. hahah

finished chapter. the end was about gifted children…and being a “gifted child” i started thinking about elementary school and stuff. the book said most gifted children are “located” through IQ tests…but i don’t ever remember taking an IQ test as a child. i know i was 1 of 2 people who could read in my kindergarten class. in 1st grade it was me, eric, joeyjoe and this girl angela (not my ex bestfriend) who were in the highest reading group. and in 1st grade i started getting pulled out of class to work with the gifted teacher. i think it was me, eric and joeyjoe again, who got to go to her office (which was a closet, shows you how much they cared about us gifted kids) and we played games. they weren’t normal 1st grade board games or anything like that. they were like, problem solving games. like brainstorming things to solve a problem. and we played this game, i think it was called gatekeeper. one person was the gatekeeper and they would choose a shape in their head, from the choices of shapes we were given. then the other 2 people had to ask questions about it, and whoever was able to guess the shape got to go through the gate (got to be it next)…

i’m not sure if meeting with the gifted teacher in 1st grade was special math or not…i know i was in special math at some point, and i know i purposely failed the special math exam in 3rd grade because i didn’t want to be in it anymore. i remember sitting in a room with the other smarter kids taking this test. one of the questions was about how many legs there were on this group of cows…which can easily be solved with algebra…or by drawing cows LOL…but i purposely put the wrong answers, and didn’t really do the other problems… i don’t know why i didn’t want to be in special math anymore…maybe i wanted to just be normal or something. i don’t remember any special treatment in 2nd grade except being in the high reading group again, and having to go to a 3rd grade class for reading.

then in 3rd grade they contacted all the kids who were chosen to go to MPP (Major progress program)…the day they pulled us out of the class to tell us was the day of the in-school recorder concert… i was crying hysterically because i had brought my recorder case but the recorder wasn’t inside. i had to go down to the office to call joanne because my mom wasn’t home, so she could bring it to me…and the whole process of learning the recorder is a funny one too. we had lessons once a week. for the entire year i didn’t play a single note. i didn’t know how to sight read the music, and somehow i managed to never get called on during the lesson to play. then one day i stopped being lazy (3rd grade i was horribly lazy, didn’t do anything haha, seriously… a note was sent home to my mom about how i didn’t do anything, so she took away my tv privaledges, since all i did was watch tv)…so i stopped being lazy and i actually read the notes, and wrote down what they were on my sheet music, and suddenly i could play. and i played so good that i was chosen to play in the concert (not everyone played in it). go me!

really, i was so lazy in 3rd grade. i mean, i think i was really bored throughout elementary school… and high school…but anyway, every year we had the invention convention. everyone had to create an invention and they were all shown in the gym. then the best ones were chosen to be shown in a regional thing. 1st grade mine was chosen to be in the regional show (which took place at a mall LOL)…it was like… a leash to attach to my pound puppy, which was then attached to the bedpost so he wouldn’t fall out of bed at night :). you had to make a little model of it…so my model was a shoe box upsidedown with popsicle stick bed posts, and one of my mini pound puppies attached with yarn to it. apparently it was really great for 1st grade. we went to see the show and never found my invention :(…when we asked where it was, the gifted teacher said she didn’t want to show it because she was afraid it would get stolen (since it had the pound puppy attached)…so i was sorta disappointed with that. BUT ANYWAY THE POINT OF MY STORY WAS…. in 3rd grade, we had lots of time to do this invention. well i didn’t do it. the day it was due i told my mom to find a cardboard box, and put 2 bowls in it… one for cat food and one for water…it was the food box, so that pets wouldn’t make a mess with the food all over the floor…(and i told her this on the way to school HAHA) …and why that was so lazy of me, was because i stole the idea from this girl carrie. it was THE exact same idea… LOL i don’t remember what happened with that… hahah. i didn’t get in trouble or anything.

i guess my procrastination skills go back father than i thought. because I thought i acquired them in MPP…when everyone would wait until the night before a project was due to do it… i remember staying up til 9:30 (which was late for a 9 year old) doing my simple machines project….same with my electricity project and every other project we had to do. but i distinctly remember my simple machines project…someone was at our house meeting with my parents about their wills they were writing…i was in the dining room. i spread everything out all over the dining room table, and then i spent an hour coloring in my eraser with a blue pen… then spent an hour trying to wash the pen off in the kitchen sink… and i spent forever on this chart we had to do as part of the project…. god i was such a procrastinator!! i know people who never turned in the final weather project in 5th grade….and i used to fake being sick to get out of exams, and take them later… hahahah. i distinctly remember faking sick to miss school and take the government exam late, and the native american unit exam late hahah…and actually i took the electricity exam late too because i remember sitting in our special library by myself drawing circuits (and let me just add the stuff we did in 4th grade science was harder than the stuff we did in 11th grade physics)…lol

omg i really shouldn’t get started on all these MPP memories, cuz i got tons… LOL.

last night i asked eric if he had seen the episode of Forever Wild that was the metal olympics…he hadn’t. one of the categories was longest metal scream…sebastian bach had himself in the category along with some others. i don’t remember who else was it it, and i don’t remember who won (not sebastian)…but the whole time i was thinking, hellooooo maynard!!!!! maynard’s metal screams are way longer than these people…. and since they’ve played APC on the show, i figured, they’d have maynard as one of the competitors..they didn’t.

so i had mentioned this to eric, and he was like yeah, there are some things on undertow that are real long…i had been thinking of the stuff on lateralus, the long notes in ticks and leeches, besides APC’s Judith…well just finished listening to Eulogy…maynard’s end scream, 13 seconds long. he should have won that category. cuz that was longer than the entrants on the show, and that might not be maynard’s longest scream…

 

everyone says Earshot sounds like Tool.. um.. yeah are we listening to the same thing? esp cuz ppl that i’ve heard saying this are basing it on the earshot queen of the damned song which sounds NOTHING like tool. sorry. earshot sounds like every other guitar alternative band on the radio, not tool. the guy doesn’t sound like maynard, the drums are no where near up to the level of tool…and it just DOESN’T SOUND LIKE TOOL!

 

the drama of the townhouses never fucking ends. never. i went outside to move my car from the faculty lot, when i open the door, glass all over the cement. so i look around, our front light was completely shattered. 2 panes of glass, and the inside dome around the light bulb were broken, glass everywhere. our neighbors light was ripped out of the brick and hanging by the wires. danielle and i got home at 3:30 and everything was fine. the neighbor kid i talked to said they noticed after 4am sometime.

so we called Uni Police and the guy came to take a report…again…3 days after the fire alarm report…and a few weeks after the missing #3 report. he asked us if we thought we were being targeted by anyone….yeah…mhmm. since a light down in the next building was ripped off last week, and now our light was broken and #24’s was ripped out, we figure we’re not being targeted. the police guy was all weird tho, he made a big deal about it. then when i went outside to move my car, he was getting into his and asked me again if i thought we were being targeted.

 

from yahoo: “Former Skid Row singer Sebastian Bach was taken into police custody for making terrorist threats and for drug possession on Wednesday.”

NOOO sebastian!!!! ur so cool!!!!!!! i dont see in the article where he was making terrorist threats…he was threatening to kill the bartender…is that considered to be terrorism? lol since when?

 

i made pancakes for everyone this morning. they were good. so yeah, i took the plunge and cooked again. making chili on tuesday too.

i should get dressed lol

 

back from kareoke….it was rad. it was way better than beer gardens. eric sang 3 times – pearl jam’s “jeremy”, fuel’s “bad day” and stp’s “plush”…he originally signed up to do OLP’s “superman’s dead” but switched to plush. then signed up to do the staple, house of pain’s “jump around” but ran out of time. there was this other kid there, the “metal kid” who did 2 guns n roses songs, and then the bob seger version of “turn the page” and stuff…yeah. and that kid was gonna do plush too but eric beat him to it. they had a bizzare list of songs. they had u2’s “the ground beneath her feet”…which is like a bonus track on UK versions of “all that you cant leave behind”…like, who knows that song besides u2 fans?!

someday…someday i’ll get drunk enough or get up the courage to do something. i think danielle and i should do “you spin me round”…but she said she’ll never do kareoke…they had orgy’s blue monday, and if i was drunk i’d do that LOL. and i’d probably do closer too hehehe….they had Korn’s ADIDAS and this kid did it… was HORRIBLE…had no idea what the rhythm of the words even were.. it’s like hello!?! if ur gonna sign up to do a song, at least sorta know how it goes, k? great.

word of the day: super. i’ve said super like 10thousand times today.

i feel icky again. head won’t go back to “normal” blah.

drove home to take bill and leah to the superflea today. stopped at my house, then flea market for nintendo games. i got marble madness and california games (2 games i used to own but gave to someone years ago)…and bill bought his own marble madness. i wanted bubble bobble but the guy was asking 15$ for it!! i was like no fucking way dude. only that guy had it too blah. we didn’t get any super nintendo games…i wanted to get aladdin or lion king, but they were 12$ and i was running out of money. i also brought the powerpad back so we played around with our new stuff when we got back. also went to the galleria…hot topic had my skirt but it was missing one of the pins blah…they have this really cute Dickie’s dress there that i’m gonna go back and try on when i go home for break in a week. it’s like 39$ or something. it’s so cute. hopefully it’s cute on hahah. i need something to wear in vegas and new orleans since it’ll be 4 thousand degrees in both places. and i hate shorts.

so i guess danielle and i are going to rit again tonight for kareoke…or something. not really sure LOL. but whatever. MUST REMEMBER TO TAKE ERIC’S BDAY GIFT WITH ME! i’m putting it in front of my door so i can’t forget. lol.

interesting day today. went to class, which we almost didn’t have. he said we could talk about anything instead of lecture but no one had anything to talk about haha. so we had lecture. then went to do research stuff with the proffs. went to lunch with beth…sat in the union talking to her for like 2 hours. then went to clinical. we sat there for 5 minutes, proff didn’t show up so we all left hahah. ur supposed to give them 10 min if they are dr (cuz that makes them so much more special) but we just left. he was at a luncheon for a new honor society geneseo is trying to get. so who knows how long that’d be, you know? whatever. so since it was warm and nice, came back home, and this girl who is in my class who i walk back with wanted to sit outside. so we sat outside and played scategories for a half hour LOL.

when i was in the union with beth, i was showing her my computer art stuff because she might want to take the class. well this lunch lady just stopped and wanted to buy my stuff LOL. shes like, do you sell it? and i’m like no but i can. so i sold her one of my pictures (the color niagara falls one with the statue coming out of the falls and the space shuttle) for 2 bucks (costs me 25 cents to print haha). then she came back and was like, can you print me another one? and i’m like sure. so next week i’ll go sell her another one hahaha. go me.

and omg, yesterday i was in the library cafe waiting for beth sara and amanda to show to discuss the research and i was looking at people mag about the grammys. beth showed up and there was a pic of bono in the mag, so i’m like oooh it’s bono!! and i’m like i love bono! she goes “who’s bono?” i’m like OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?! shes like yeah, who’s that? I’m like you don’t know who bono is? she’s like, no. i’m like from u2. she goes oh i like u2. i’m like and you don’t know who bono is?! LOL so now she’s like bono hahaha whenever i mention him. hahahah.

it’s a nice sunny day out today. still sorta chilly, but suede coat weather instead of down filled coat. yay. adolescent psych was kinda funny because we got to be mean and list all the cliques that exist in high school. everyone was being so politically correct at first, and naming like the jocks, and the populars, and the smart kids…but then this girl was like um..band people, not band GEEKS but like band people. lol so there were lots of “people” instead of geeks. and then it got less PC, when we named the Sluts LOL. and the ethnics LOL. but then we had to work in groups, so i ended up talking to this girl who has been in a few of my classes who has the same big silver bracelet that i do. she always seemed cool, and she was nice. so that was cool. she bleaches her hair, so i might ask her how she does it LOL. depends if i end up sitting near her again, since some girl always takes my seat and i have to find somewhere else open. she doesn’t follow the classroom norm of no assigned seating but everyone still sits in the same seats every class. blah on her.

anyway. spent an hour in the computer lab doing my comp art project. had no clue what i was supposed to do. he said make a form. so um..wtf is that? the examples he had to show us were like chore charts…so that’s what i did. a chore chart. it’s stupid but whatever it’s done. and i printed out my calendar which turned out to be in way brighter colors than i thought. but whatever.

gotta go meet with dr schneider at 4. i emailed her about what a curriculum vitae was, since i didn’t know. she volunteered to help me make one. i guess it’s like an academic resume. the job at UofR says i can send one, but it doesn’t matter if i have one or not because they will help me make one if i get the job. but i figure if it’s something i can do now, might as well start.

and now i’m also going to apply for a job in colorado (boulder). it’s another kind of research assistant job. it’s a research lab director position for 2 years, same pay, same benefits. it’s doing cognitive neuropsych tho…which is less interesting to me (although the same sort of thing as the UofR one probably). not too sure what the cost of living in Boulder is compared to Rochester, to know if i’d be able to support myself on that pay rate in Colorado. Pretty sure I could in Rochester. And i probably wouldn’t get the Boulder one because i don’t meet all the “requirements”….they want experience with children and cognitive developement. which i don’t have. but i have the research experience and the management experience they ask for. so i figure it can’t hurt to apply there too once i get my resume and this vitae thing done.

i’m applying for this job and i want it SO BADLY! like, i’m shocked at how bad i want this job. it’s doing research in the sleep lab at University of Rochester for the next 2 years (or something). it’s 20-25k per year, full benefits. it’s 4 nights a week, overnight shifts, full time. so yeah sucks that it’s overnight shifts, but nothing i can’t handle. apparently they’re looking at sleep and depression WHICH COULDN’T BE ANYMORE INTERESTING TO ME! and i fit all the requirements/things they’d like in someone. you can take courses at the Uni for FREE after working there a year. yeah, this is so great. of course, even tho i’m a perfect canditate, it’s only 2 positions which will probably go to people graduating from U of R….but i can try. getting this job would be super great, and would settle my post college unemployment fears and at least give me some plans for the next few years.

 

i
love
trent.

trent interview on muchmusic tonight. they had some exclusive online clips on the website. yeah they’re a whole 30 seconds long. practically worthless. except that i love his voice LOL…but he’s bearded which takes away from the lips, so that was a bad thing. but it’s still all good. 🙂 carolyn is taping it for me. so i have to repay her.

the sucky thing about the interview is it’s a whopping 10 minutes long. heather taped a muchmusic trent interview for me a year or two ago which was also like a whole 10 minutes. so now i’ll have 2 tapes that have 10 min segments on them and nothing else. lol.

 

i almost passed out in the shower today. it was way too hot in here last night, of course got woken up at 7ish, shower was too hot. so blah. sat on the bathroom floor for like 5 minutes til i felt ok again. was going to skip poli sci, but i went anyway. next is comp art, dunno what we’re doing. but i’m so tired. then i have to meet for research at 3. blah stupid longass day. no time to eat or just sit here (well except now haha).

i just saw the most amusing commercial, perhaps ever…it’s a black guy and a hispanic looking guy rapping in an aisle of a store. they’re advertising Big Ds Hair Supply store on West Main in Rochester. It’s one of those budget homemade type commercials. they’re rapping about Big Ds being the place to be, and naming the different products the store sells, as products scroll across the bottom of the screen – wigs, human hair, etc etc etc. then it ends with hispanic guy rapping “Big Ds is the place to be.” and the black guy goes “word” ROFLMAO omg so hilarious.

so yesterday danielle and i went up to eric’s to hang out there for a while before the arrival of the tonawanda gang to go to the lacross game at blue cross arena. hit a few stores because they needed to buy some stuff, back to mary’s. then everyone arrived – joe, janet, john, john’s girlfriend, white boy, and this other kid who i’ve met 3 times but don’t know his name. plus me danielle, eric, mary, dan, karl and kellee. got pizza and chilled there. went to the game. it was fun. had no clue what was going on, and buffalo lost, but i guess they always lose to rochester. so then back to mary’s to party. it was a good time. it was fun being in a big group of (mostly) people i know. and i hadn’t hung out with joe for a while so it was cool.

then we had to drive home. we left at like quarter to 1. it was like 60 mph winds, and light snow. almost got blown off the road a few times. almost turned around and went back to eric’s to sleep there because i was afraid i wouldnt make it back to geneseo. but the wind got better and i was able to make it back. i guess joe and them (who left before us back to buffalo) had to pull over at one point. but dont know what happened after that. john and his girlfriend left when we did, followed us to the thruway, hope they made it ok. so now it snowed a bunch, and it’s still super windy. so it really sucks. i parked in the faculty lot cuz i wasn’t about to park a mile away in our parkinglot and walk home in the weather. but it’s still so shitty i’m not about to do that today either. so my car is going to stay in the faculty lot til the weather calms down, or until tomorrow morning. or i can leave it there and get a ticket…which normally i’d ditch on, but given my current probationary status i don’t think that’d be too good of an idea. dunno.

was going to go to wegmans to buy hair bleach and dye, but i really don’t want to go outside.

oh and our house is falling apart. there was a new ceiling leak last night according to bill. then danielle and i heard this loud metal banging type noise. i thought she broke something, she thought i did something in here. we don’t know what it was, because we can’t find anything broken. but now the walls in the kitchen have suddenly sorta…bowed? i don’t know what word to use. there is this weird kind of crack – it’s not really a crack, but i don’t know how else to explain it – about an inch and a half from the corner of 2 different walls. the corner of the wall now extrudes from the rest of the wall by a few millimeters. it wasn’t like that yesterday. so we don’t know what to do about that, if we should tell someone. they’re not going to fix it, but at least let them know our house is breaking. blah.

how is it that i can be reading for class and get real tired, put the book down and close my eyes for a few minutes and fall asleep for a good 20 minutes. and with music on (marilyn manson this time lol). but i can’t fall asleep at night, even if i read school work before bed. as soon as i turn out the lights, no matter how tired i’ve made myself by reading, it still takes me an hour or more to fall asleep. arg.

i always forget how much i enjoy the antichrist superstar album.

my dad got a new job. at the power plant. so no Vienna (like he’d get it anyway)…and now he only has to drive 20 min to work instead of an hour and 20. so that’s good.

and the sabres game… vs detroit. SOOOOOOO GREAT!!!!!!!! we were up 3-0 at the end of the first, on HASEK!!!!!! and now its 4-1 near the end of the 2nd. happyhappy

sabres ended up winning 5-1. almost 3 shutouts in a row for martin biron. and hasek got pulled before the 3rd period ROFL. he didn’t even sit on the bench after that. chicken. it was a great game tho. proves that buffalo can be a good team if we want to. frustrating to think we could have played this way the entire season, instead of the last 20 games while trying desperately to make it into the playoffs. we’re gonna work so hard to try to get into the playoffs that if we do, we’ll be too tired to get past 1st round just like 2 years ago. didnt make the playoffs til the last day of the regular season, then lost horribly in the 1st round vs philadelphia. but of course, we made up for that in 1st round vs philly last year 🙂

need to finish polisci readings. it’s about nuclear war, which is at least interesting. especially given the US overhaul of our nuclear policy. bush campaigned for reducing nuclear arsenals, but now wants to put more research into development of new nuclear weapons that can deeply penetrate the earth. sure things have changed since the election and now…but it’s a very scary thought, because i don’t think bush is completely rational. and even tho the claims are to use nuclear weapons to destroy enemy bio and chem weapon stockpiles etc, nuclear weapons are hugely damaging to the world. and while i’m not exactly a scientist, it doesn’t seem to me to be a really bright idea to nuke a chemical or biological weapon storage facility thus exposing the atmosphere to not only nuclear fallout and damage, but bio and chem as well from inside the weapons. the heat and radiation from the nuclear weapon might kill the biological whatevers that are in the bio weapons, but i would think the chemical ones wouldn’t be affected that much…but like i said, what do i know. i know that the nuclear side effects of nuclear weapons are pretty damn bad and that they shouldn’t be used.
there is this group called the Bulletin of Atomic Scientists, and for years they’ve kept the “doomsday clock”. it debuted to the world at 7 minutes to midnight. the premise is that when the clock reaches midnight, there will be nuclear war. they move the hands of the clock various directions every now and then in response to world events, and stuff like that. the closest was 2 minutes to midnight, in the 1949. it was 3 minutes a few times over the years, and it had been at 9 but they just moved it in feburary to 7 again. kinda scary. http://www.bullatomsci.org/