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rolling stone is such a waste of a magazine. i was letting my subscription run out. got the new one today, which is all about 40 pages long. i’m like, this is such a waste of paper, cuz there is CRAP in it. my mom goes, then why do you keep resubscribing? and i’m like I’m NOT i’m waiting for it to expire…she’s like oh well i resubscribed for you for xmas LOL…i haven’t paid for it in years, she keeps resubscribing for me.

but anyway, there were 2 good parts to this magazine. the readers and critics poll where U2 wins just about everything….readers pics: artist of the year, best male performer (Bono…MJ came in 2nd??? lol), best band, best album, #2 and #3 best singles (beautiful day, walk on) #2 and #3 best video (elevation, beautiful day), best tour, best album cover, best rock artist, #2 best welcome comback (MJ was #1?!?!?), best online fan site…critics pics: #3 single (stuck in a moment), #2 artist of the year, best band, best male performer (bono), best tour….and there is this pic of the band i’ve never seen before but i can’t figure out when it’s from. cuz bono’s got short hair…so i originally thought it was a Pop era photo…but he’s got that rosary on that he got from the pope, and his hair isn’t AS short as Pop days…but i think it’s funny that either way, it’s an old photo.

then the other good part was the amazing 4 star review of the live NIN disc…. once again…as if i wasn’t excited enough for it. they gave the EP last year a bad review, so this is good! hehe.

and there was also a big ad for the NIN disc and U2’s rattle and hum on dvd LOL…it’s sad when some of the best parts of a mag are the ads…

 

as if i couldn’t wait enough for the nin dvd and live cd….then we get the lyrics of “and all that could have been”

trent you are a god

*breeze still carries the sound
maybe i’ll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won’t find me here

ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what i’ve done
I know you tried to rescue me
didn’t let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
I am
tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone fading everything
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far as you can see
I am
tainted
and happiness and peace of mind
were never meant for me
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me*

 

i got a whole 15 hrs at work this week. i stayed an extra 2 today cuz christa got sick. she didn’t go home however. she sat in the office off the clock for 4 hrs. was afraid to call her dad or something. whatever. so there is this kid gary at work, he’s like 17. he reminds me alot of psycho…i think it’s his eyes, and facial structure. well christa comes up to me in the morning and is like Gary thinks your hot. she said “hot” with THE worst buffalo accent i’ve ever heard LOL. i’m like, whatever. christa is the same girl who told me fat black lesbian sherry wanted me all summer, and that sherry wanted to rape me basically (since i would SO not be willing lol). lol. sherry doesn’t work at our store anymore, i wonder what happened to her. NOT LIKE I CARE! lol just curious.

so after i got home and cleaned up i went to the post office. and this guy held the door for me, whatever. so i’m in line behind him and he goes, nice weather we have today. and i’m like, yeah, it’s sunny. then silence. then he goes, I’m brian. LOL holds out his hand. so i’m like, sara. he’s like nice meeting you. i’m like yeah. so i’m standing there trying to look other directions in hopes he won’t talk to me anymore. he’s like, i noticed you walking up to the building. i’m like, oh. he’s like, yah with your shades on, they’re cool. LOL i’m like, yeah, they’re all scratched i need new ones. i thought i lost these but i found them. he’s like, yeah i wear regular glasses and i lose them all the time and they’re more expensive. and i’m like yeah, these were 10 bucks. so then silence again. and he’s like, nice talking to you. LOL. so he went to do his post office stuff, and went to leave. he held the door for some woman, and then came back in the post office while i was doing my thing. so i’m like wtf he better not be waiting for me or something LOL. so he was looking at something, and i booked out of there as fast as i could. scary.

then i went to budway’s to buy cake mix. i haven’t been in budways in YEARS. it’s so trashy LOL. and then i saw psycho’s mom there. LOL. she’s like *smile* hi sara… i’m like hi, how are you…i didn’t know what else to say to her, not like she liked me when i was with psycho….even if i was the best thing he could ever get. and i’m not being vain and egotistical there, not my fault it’s true.

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i think the best way to describe midnight bowling last night is in the words of paige haley….”smack an ass”….and i guess i’ll just leave it at that. i didn’t bowl cuz i screwed up my right arm at work friday by carrying a huge jug of vegetable juice with one arm (cuz the other had 3 boxes of vinyl gloves). it hurts. i told joe i was still gonna go but not bowl, and he said that was ok, but then he was like WHAT UR NOT BOWLING….so him and rick um.. tackled me into a huge hug. yeah. it’s funny that they think it still bothers me that they touch me HAHA.

so going to try to use my burner again today. my dad is like… well u have those 80 minute cds that might not work in our burner. and i’m like wtf does that have to do with anything..they work in every other burner ive used. and he’s like, well our burner is old, before they had those cds. DOESNT MATTER OUR BURNER USED TO WORK WITH MY CDS JUST FINE! i burned at lest 3 last summer (or the summer before) on my 80 minute cds, and then it suddenly stopped….for audio cds it goes through the burning process, and at the end it ejects a blank cd….so dont tell me its the fucking cds. but whatever. i’m using his cd now, to see what happens. so then he can be like “well i dunno whats wrong, it works for me”….

 

I HATE MY DAD’S COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i’m trying to burn cds again. yes i’m using one of my dad’s cds so SUPPOSEDLY it should work….it was about 35% done with that first caching part or WHATEVER it has to do for an hour and a half…and then the computer crashes. so i’m starting over again, and unclicked the cache button, and determine speed button and one other, so it SHOULD just be WRITING right now. but it’s so totally not. it’s still doing whatever that first step is that takes an hour and a half. AND IT’S STILL NOT GOING TO WORK SO IM GOING TO HAVE TO MURDER IT. how much do burners cost now a days? maybe i’ll go buy myself one. and then my dad can yell at me for wasting my money. well sorry that your computer and burner are pieces of crap.

Bobby Hewitt’s MTV cribs episode was on, so i did some frame caps (that were long overdue) for my Visual Illusions site….and then the comp crashed before i saved them all… so i only got like 20…and the best ones were at the end. BLAH.

but since it was a cribs marathon, i saw the John Travolta one about his…. 707 AIRPLANE!!!!!!!!!! HE OWNS AN AIRLINER!!!!!!!! it is so beautiful. i want a plane.

 

it worked. it took 3+ hours BUT IT FUCKING WORKED FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ziggy’s gone and done it again. it’s winter and she doesn’t like to get her feet wet, so she doesn’t go outside. yet today my mom let her outside for a while. my parents leave to go out to dinner with friends, and i guess ziggy came inside. i keep hearing these weird noises, and i’m like wtf i thought my parents left. and then i heard a noise that sounded like my mom throwing stuff down the laundry chute, so i figure oh she must have forgotten something and my dad just went outside. then i hear these scraping noises, and i’m like alright, what the hell is going on. who is in my house? i look in the dining room and there is ziggy playing with something. i figure she must have gotten some ribbon again, but then why would it be on the chair? so i yell at her to get over here, and she goes into the living room. then i hear another loud jump thud scrap noise, and i’m like that’s it. so i go into the dining room to find ziggy and she’s in the other room jumping against the wall and washstand near the front door. and there is a bird. great. i’m alone in my house and ziggy brought a bird in again, now what the hell am i gonna do to get it out. so i got one of my dad’s big gloves on, and now the bird had fallen inbetween the washstand and the wall, and then fell to the floor. so i tried to grab it on the floor…but of course that didn’t work so the bird took off and ended up flying into the kitchen and smack into the windows. so well at least now the bird is sitting on the ledge where the top and bottom window lock. so i grab the bird and pin it against the window, while with my other hand i’m trying to unlock the window and pull it down – which was especially hard since it was half frozen, and i’m an invalid in both arms now…got the window open all the way so i could throw the bird out. no more bird. but then ziggy is still scratching and jumping against the wall the windows are in, thinking the bird is still there. and now ziggy is laying in the middle of my bedroom floor looking evil and satanic. i think she’s going insane. seriously.

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woo hoo! i’m in toronto… yay. it snowed in oakville badly, for like all of 5 minutes LOL. but then we got lost, cuz the yahoo directions were retarded, and we were in missasauga. so we called carolyn and we just ended up turning around and going in reverse… i mean, just retracing our steps.

so we got here, sat around, went downtown to poster stores….yeah i bought 3 u2 posters that i really don’t have anywhere to put…but i NEEDED them…one is the zootv one, i HAD to buy cuz ITS THE FLY!!!!!!!! and then one from popmart tour….and one from recently, with the 4 of them….yeaah. didn’t find the bathroom bono one but…i suppose i’ll survive… for now 🙂

so then we ate dinner at pickel barrel, and then came back to carolyn’s house, did nothing for a while, then headed back downtown to go to the drag show. well there was a line, and it was cold, so we went to the same bar that we went to after depeche mode but then left cuz there was no food. so we spent a few hours there, got drunk… LOL. drunk now. if u couldn’t tell from the way i’m typing.. no the typos, but…the way i’m talking. hell maybe i’m not sounding all drunk.

but so we left the bar when it closed and got the street car or something and sang elevation while walking down the street, and then on the streetcar, and then the bus we took, and then we talked about Larry drumming in the cab back to carolyn’s house. yep, so we’re here now….yeah. i’m tired. and drunk hehe.. not too drunk., but…buzzed yeah. ok

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December 16, 2001

i had to take my neuropsych final and we all had to go to someplace off campus to take it. it turns out the place we had to take it was a skybox on the 200 level of a big stadium. and of course, that night u2 was playing a concert there. so we were sitting at big round tables in the skybox, and people were entering the stadium for the show. i was super excited because even tho the skybox was high we had a good view of the stage. i figured out that i had 2 hours to do the exam before the show started. so we were working on the exam, and it was 4 people per table, we were talking, and had our notes out, like that was the normal procedure for our exams. then this girl from my class katie realized we were at a u2 concert, and since she had seen them in buffalo she was excited we were going to get to see them again. then she told me she had heard that for the show there tomorrow night, they were going to open up promenade seats (which apparently meant seats on the sides of the floor) tomorrow afternoon, and wanted to know if i wanted to go. so i said of course i’d go. so we were working on the exam, and our proff came over and saw all our notes out. she was like, you’re cheating. and i was like no I’m not, but then i realized that we weren’t supposed to have our notes out. we weren’t even using them, but it did look like we were cheating. she’s like, well why are all your notes out then. and i’m like, they aren’t notes for this class, they are for english, see…and i pointed to a word that would have never been part of our neuropsych notes. but she didn’t believe me, and was going to take points off my exam. or she said she could take 30 points off my paper. well i asked her what i got on my paper and she said a 40, so that’d leave me with a 10. so i kept trying to tell her i wasn’t cheating. then i was someplace else, and it was the next day and i was trying to find katie to get the seats for the show that night. i ran into my professor and asked her for my test and paper, and i had gotten a 90 on the paper.
there was also some part where we were all on an airplane and i realized it was Air Elevation, U2’s plane…

possible explanation: ?
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 12:47 PM//

December 15, 2001

i lived in a really big, beautiful house with danielle. it had great big windows with a really great view of…something. there had been a concert, that was a festival type with lots of bands. marilyn manson had played it, and so had destiny’s child. eric had gone and was telling me about manson’s show, and how good it was. which i thought was weird cuz eric doesnt like manson. then he also said how great destiny’s child was, which confused me even more. then i was on the computer and i was reading Ian’s live journal, and he had gone to the concert too. he was talking about how great destiny’s child was, and how he was a fan now. and that was REALLY even more confusing cuz he likes death metal music. well manson was playing another show in the area, and i was talking to steph who said she was going. me and danielle had nothing to do and it wasn’t sold out so we decided we were going to go too, spur of the moment. so then i went downstairs and danielle was waiting by the window for someone to arrive. so i asked her what she was doing. she said she was waiting for manson to get there cuz they were going out someplace. so that confused me because danielle never liked manson before. she kept going on about how she was waiting for him and they were going to go someplace, and i kept being confused.
so then i left to go to the concert, and it was my house. and the concert was in my nextdoor neighbors driveway. and manson is there and only like 20 people went to the show. and i thought that was expected since we lived in the middle of no where, and no one even knew who manson was. so i was sitting on my porch watching manson, and he wasn’t even performing because he was so disappointed there was no one there. so he was just standing with the people who were there telling them stories. then he saw me and he came over and got me and we went to the tour bus. it was all red inside. apparently i was drunk because i could barely get up the 3 steps onto the bus. and apparently we knew eachother and perhaps were dating, because he asked me if i was going to go with them to the next tour stop and i said yes. so i walked to the back of the bus, and the bus was HUGE. there was a computer in the back, and so i went on it to do something, and didn’t realize i was online. so carolyn immed me, and she was pissed because she knew i was on mansons bus, and she hates him. and i guess the fact that i was on the bus did mean that we were dating, so she was even more pissed. i guess that we hadn’t been dating before, but had gone out a few times, but now that i was on the bus it was like, an official thing.
then i was at my middle school, sitting on the back lawn with the rest of the school – but it was high school kids. it was some kind of assembly. and i was sitting by this girl i hate named eileen, and this kid who is bald. eileen had a tool shirt on, and the bald kid apparently was manson in disguise. no one was supposed to know manson was in high school, so he disguised himself as this fat bald football player kid. and no one was allowed to know i was dating manson. so he kept touching my shoulder and that was like, the secret symbol of our affection. then there was this guy swinging in the sky. he was swinging back and forth, really high in the sky, like a pendulum. but you couldnt see anything attached to him, or what he was swinging from. he was swinging by a huge pine tree and he grabbed the top and cut the tip of the tree off as a christmas tree for his son. so he kept swinging back and forth holding onto a christmas tree. then he fell, and he landed on the tree and bounced so he was ok. then he gave the tree to his son who was in the assembly. then we all realized he had been swinging on all the high tension electric wires that were strung across our sports fields. i wondered how he got onto the wire, and figured he must have climbed all the way up the tower things.
possible explanation: no clue LOL
possible interpretation: ditto
posted by sara @ 2:22 PM//

yesterday’s dream.
a high school, or elementary school, was going to be showing the U2 elevation tour dvd on a big screen as a 1 year anniversary celebration of when U2 played at the school. it was open to the public, and anyone could go to it for a dollar. so i went, and i went by myself. the gym of the school was HUGE and it was separated off in sections, like a regular concert with seating. but this was general admission, first come first serve. so i was a section back from the front, and i keep seeing all kinds of people i knew from high school. then i realized joe and rick were standing right behind me but they hadn’t said anything. then they saw me and so i was talking to them, and the show started. they were shocked that i wasn’t really paying attention, i kept looking at people in the crowd to see if i knew more people. i told them i didn’t really like the song that was on screen so it was ok that i wasn’t paying attention. then i was in the back of the gym and it was back to being more like a school gym, with mats on the walls. and i’m sitting on the floor with adrienne and danielle and eric, who had all appeared at the show. i was looking into the crowd and there was like no one there. there was all kinds of space, and then i saw the stage. it was the heart shaped stage from the elevation tour. so i thought that was weird, because i didn’t know each venue got to make and keep their own heart stage. it wasn’t right though, it was really small, and it was really rickety like if you ran on it or jumped around it would collapse. Then bono was at the tip of the heart doing his thing, and i started thinking wow it really looks like he’s right there, this an amazing dvd. but then it really was u2, and they really were there. then everything stopped and people started leaving. they hadn’t finished playing the dvd, they just stopped it after 5 songs. i was really confused, and we didn’t know if it was an intermission or if it was over. so we went outside and everyone was getting in their cars and leaving, so we assumed it was over. but i was still really confused why they didnt play the whole dvd, and i said i was pissed because the 2nd half is better than the first half.

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December 13, 2001

i remembered another dream. i think this followed telling Rob about my psychic dreams, because I was still in bed in the mansion. David and a friend of his appeared in the room, and they were listening to some cd. It sounded pretty good. David got up and left to get something, and i asked his friend what they were listening to. He said it was a cd of their band. I guess the 2 of them were in a band together. I started laughing, and he’s like what? So I tell him, this isn’t meant to be an insult, so please don’t take it this way, but this sounds just like Billy Idol. And he looked at me funny. And i was like, I like Billy Idol, he’s cool. This song sounds just like _____ on charmed life (don’t know what song i said it was, or if its even on charmed life). So David came back in, and his friend told him I thought it sounded like Billy Idol. Then there was some part about David’s girlfriend being there, and sitting on the floor with them. She looked like an anime character. She was really tiny, and had a big head, with big eyes and blonde hair. I was thinking, why does David like her? she looks like a cartoon.
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i was at home, and danielle was sleeping over my house. there were all kinds of reports about this computer model that had been constructed to predict future terrorist attacks. it had formulated a whole bunch of different predictions, and one of them was that that night a large plane was going to invade US airspace. So the US had shut down it’s airspace for non military planes, and they had said that if any airplanes were found flying in our airspace they would be followed by a fighter jet and shot down if necessary. Danielle turned into my neighbor Tina, and we were geting a bit scared over the prediction of this computer model. Then i commented well maybe today is the day that aliens will really arrive on earth, and their big space ship is the large plane that the computer predicted. This didn’t comfort either of us at all, because we didn’t really want an alien invasion either. So i was standing in my kitchen looking out the window, and I saw an airplane being followed by a fighter jet. I yelled to Tina, oh my god there’s a plane, oh my god. So she comes over and we’re standing at the window watching the plane. Then it starts to fly weird, and it is flying lower and lower, and this is when we realize it’s going to crash, and it’s going to crash right near us. The fighter jet disappeared and it was only the normal airplane, and it was an American Airlines plane. It started to recover it’s flight path, but then faltered again, meaning that it was going to crash even closer to us than we had thought before. We’re both freaking out, and I keep asking her if this was real or a dream, and she keeps telling me it was real, and it felt real. The plane finally crashes and it crashes in my neighbors back yard. There was a big mushroom cloud of fire, and super loud noise. So i run to get my parents, who were in the house someplace, and tell them that the noise was a plane crashing. They were oblivious to the crash, and didn’t really care. So i’m back looking out the window and this russian pilot is sneaking in between the bushes and the fence that separate my yard from the neighbors. There is a carcas of a large animal on the ground by my swingset and the pilot goes over and hits it to see if it was dead, and it was. Then the pilot is walking across my yard, and my parents decide to go get him and bring him inside since he is responsible for the plane crash. So they go get him, and he starts talking in english, about why he did it, and the goals etc (which i don’t remember). my parents seemed to agree with what he was saying, and they offered him food and stuff.
then the dream was interrupted by some other dream i dont remember, and then picked up again later.

I had gone out someplace, and came back home. There were all kinds of US Marines in my backyard, jumping over the fence and whatnot, doing their jobs. I asked my parents where the pilot had gone and they said he left. I was like, WHAT? what do you mean he left? my mom was like, yeah he just left. So I was really pissed, and was like, well didnt you call the police? and they were like, no, why would we do that? so i was furious because if you turned on the TV his picture was plastered all over the screen as being responsible for the crash, and he had survived and been in my house and my parents hadn’t called the police. So now he was a fugitive on the run. Then the dead animal that had been outside wasn’t really dead at all, and it got up and walked to my deck where my parents and i now were. it was an anteater. It had a big long snout, and it was super friendly. I was like, where the hell did an anteater come from, not like they are a normal part of our environment. So my mom said it must have escaped from the zoo and she was going to go call the zoo. I was thinking, you’re going to call the zoo about an escaped anteater, but not about a FUGITIVE?!?!?! so the anteater kept coming over to me and i didn’t know what to do because i had no experience with them before. My mom looked on the internet for info about them and the info said they are really friendly and harmless, and like to show affection. then the anteater knocked me down and laid on me.

Then i was inside a big mansion, and i had a room to myself. I guess i was sick because i was having visitors come to see me. One of them was Rob from work, and he was sitting in a chair next to my bed. We must have been talking about terrorism, because I brought up the fact that I had another plane crash dream, my first one since sept 11th. Apparantly this was a different dream, because i was referring to the dream above, about the plane crashing in my back yard, and i realized it was a dream. So i was telling rob about this plane crashing in my back yard dream, and how i was really scared. I was scared because apparently right before sept 11th, i had experienced a dream where planes crashed into towers and the towers collapsed, and then it happened. So now that i had this dream about the plane crashing in my backyard i was scared about it being another psychic dream.

possible explanation: i dunno, but kinda funny how i dream about terrorism and the US releases the Bin Laden tape…this really is my first airplane crash dream since sept 11th. I had airplane dreams, but they were NOT crashing for once, after sept 11th.
possible interpretation: lets hope its not a psychic dream.
posted by sara @ 12:15 PM//

December 12, 2001

i was at a convenience store with bono and someone else. marilyn manson was there too. i don’t know what was going on, but i guess marilyn was trying to make me into a devil or something. he was trying to convert us or SOMETHING. but i was getting really irritated at him, and he was getting irritated at me. so marilyn left the store, and i got really pissed off. so i ripped one of the glass freezer doors off of the freezer in the store, and ran out of the store after marilyn. i screamed at him that i was going to break the glass over his head. marilyn turns around, and is like yeah right. so i try to swing the glass door over my head onto him, and he just pushes it away and grabs my shoulders. then there was this deafining horrendous piercing sound in my ears, i guess as he was changing me into a devil. then bono hit him with something, which made him let go of my shoulders so the “changing” stopped, and we got away.
possible explanation: it’s a very macphisto society related dream. and the manson part probably comes from the blurb i read about him in AP magazine yesterday.
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 12:43 PM//

December 10, 2001

i was at home, and i had to go to a reunion at Ohio School (my elementary school for 2 years). i didn’t know why there was this reunion, i guess for MPP or something. so i had just washed my car, and went inside to change. i was going to walk to the school because it wasn’t far, but then i was like, no. i have a car, i’m driving. so i went to my car, and all the paint was peeling off and there were these big rust spots. so i freaked out, since my car is new and everything. so i went back inside to leave a note for my dad about my car peeling, because it would still be under warrantee. i go back outside and a short bus (the small school busses) pulled into my driveway, and the lady tells me she can take me to the bus station so i can go to the reunion. i look at her, and i’m like no thats ok i have a car. and i was thinking why would i take the bus to the school bus station which was even farther away from the school than i was now. so the bus left, and i left to go get adrienne. i dont know why i had to get her since she didn’t go to ohio school. i guess i was driving, but i wasn’t in a car, and adr still lived at her old house. so i’m going down wurlitzer, and the end of wurlitzer is all torn up, the houses were torn down, and it’s a whole big construction zone. houses are being built, that look like my townhouse. Then adrienne is there, she was coming down the street to meet me. well because of the construction i was confused, and i didn’t know where to go to get to the school. i ask adrienne when all this construction happened and stuff, and she’s like duh it’s been going on for awhile. i’m like uh, since when, i’ve been down here recently. the houses are already half constructed, some are done. there’s gravel all around, and workers and stuff. adrienne said the school (this time, meadow school my other elementary school) was building houses for all the teachers to live in. I was like, wtf why?? they have their own houses. So then we decided to go right through the construction zone, so we did. and i was near the curb of nash road, and there is a guy in a suit laying on the gravel. i bent down to do something, and i got a better look at him and it was this guy who was one of the people in charge of building my townhouse. he recognizes me, because apparantly we were friends. he says hi, and i’m like hi there darling. and he asked me if i liked his suit, and i was like, yeah you look fantastic. so he gets up, and i’m like so you’re working on this project now. and he’s like yeah. and i say, you’re probably happy to finally be done with the townhouses, and he laughs. then i remember adrienne is there. so the 3 of us start walking through aldi’s parkinglot. and i’m like, adr, this guy is one of the people who built our townhouses. she’s like oh. so i’m like yeah, he’s the guy we went to when everything was going wrong. so he rolled his eyes and laughed. then we were in pizza hut. we sat down at a table, and the waitress came over and sat down next to adrienne with the menus. and she wouldn’t give me one. and then this song was playing, but it might have just been in my head. i’m not sure if they could hear it. adr apparently knew the waitress, and they finally gave me a menu. the song that was playing was “mysterious ways” but it was live, not album version. i think it was from the zootv wembley bootleg, all i could hear were bono’s ad libs “comeon love, comeon love, touch me baby” towards the end.
possible explanation: even tho i haven’t listened to that version of mysterious ways, it’s still obvious. the rest…no clue.
possible interpretation: dunno. i saw that construction worker guy today though. lol
posted by sara @ 4:35 PM//

December 5, 2001

I was watching Cocktail 2. But i was also in the movie. Tom Cruise was behind the bar, and was doing the bar tender thing, but without all the fancy moves that were in Cocktail. It made me think that maybe it was a Prequil to Cocktail because he hadn’t learned how to do them yet. So I was sitting at the bar, and it was really dark in there. There was a table full of scary men, but no one was paying attention to them. So Tom was inbetween filling drink orders so he was going to count the money the bar had brought in that night. So he brought out one of those fire lock boxes where they kept all the money, and he was putting the money onto the bar. So he was counting the money and making it into piles on the bar. He finished that, and i started to help him stack up the money again to put it into the box. That’s when the scary looking men attacked. Apparently they had been waiting the whole night for Tom to count the money so they could steal it all. So they attacked, and started shooting things, and beating Tom up. I was standing there, and I didn’t know what to do. Tom told me to get out of the bar, so I started leaving with all the other customers. So then I was in my neighborhood and was walking to my house. I saw Mrs Mercer, my neighbor, and I went over to talk to her. I guess I wanted to talk to her because I knew she’d know what happened to Tom. So I asked her how he was, and she said he was in the hospital. The guys had beat him up really badly, and he had alot of injuries. She said she was sorry to me, because apparently he was my boyfriend. So then i was really worried about him, and if he was going to survive.
I wanted to remember my Cocktail dream so bad i kept dreaming that i was blogging it, and that i was telling it to danielle. and now i can’t remember the actual other dreams i had. One i was telling my parents about it, and they were confused as to why i’d dream about it when i had seen the movie. then i told them i had never really seen the movie, because when it came out i was under age and it was rated R.

Adrienne was at my house, but it wasn’t my house. I didn’t really live there, but I was visiting or something. My mom had gone out, and gotten me a baby sitter. I didn’t want to deal with the baby sitter, so i stayed in my room. But then Adrienne came over, so the babysitter was going to know I was awake. So we were in my room, and i was playing around with my lap top. The cords were all messed up so adrienne unplugged everything and rearranged the cords and put them all back in. Then it was a car, and it was my moms station wagon. Then the babysitter came home, because I guess she had left, and found me and adrienne sitting in the car we had just put back together. I was really irritated at the fact i’m 21 and my mom got me a babysitter, so I started the car and drove off. It was like a british car because everything was on the other side, so i was driving from the right side of the car. The car was still really broken because I couldn’t keep it started while driving down the street. Then my mom came home, so we turned around and went back to the house. I guess she had been at the doctor or something, but she didn’t have a key so we had to open the door for her.

possible explanation: i’ve never seen Cocktail, and why the HELL would i be dreaming about it?
possible interpretation:……i dont know
posted by sara @ 10:14 AM//

December 2, 2001

some kind of dream, and Pearl Jam’s “ten” album was in my stereo. danielle came in my room to talk to me and it came on, and i was like, how the hell did that cd get in my stereo, when i don’t even have it at school with me.
posted by sara @ 9:08 PM//

December 1, 2001

1. macphisto…something with macphisto and hell based on the macphisto society. dont remember much anymore
2. i had to take these two girls to someplace else for school. the one girl was the lesbian twin, and i don’t know who the other girl was. so we got in my car and i told them i’d try not to make them sick with my driving, but since it was standard shift i realize it happens. lesbian twin was sitting in the backseat, so i told her if she started to feel sick to let me know and we could pull over so she could puke. then i wasnt paying attention to where i was going because i was talking to them, and i started going off the road. so i thought i was steering to get back on the road but apparantly i wasn’t because we drove off a small cliff, and crashed into a barn which was on a pumpkin farm. it was in some small town. apparantly this wasn’t the first time i had crashed into a barn in that town. there was another barn across the street which also sold pumpkins, and one time when i was trying to get out of a parking space, i couldn’t stop rolling backwards and i rolled into the barn. this time however, since the car went off a cliff and crashed into the barn, it totally crashed into the barn. the car was inside, part of the barn was destroyed. so we got out of the car and the girls i was with turned into danielle and adrienne. they didn’t know about the first incident with the other barn, and they heard someone say something like “oh it’s her again”…and so i had to explain how this wasn’t the first time it had happened.
3. something with bono and clouds and cannon balls. like we were on a cloud or something, and a cannon ball shot through it.

possible explanation: not sure. the cannon ball one is a direct reference to Peter Pan. watched the movie last night so i can write my paper.
possible interpretation: ….
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i got elevated tonight! woo hoo. dad set up the dvd player, got it all working. proceeded to get elevated. i’m so confused by all my remotes and buttons now. when i put the dvd in, it automatically started playing the show instead of giving me a menu thing. so i was all confused. eric came over later and got elevated with me – i realize that sounds REALLY bad…hah. but yeah. and then we spent like 2 hrs watching the bonus stuff, and trying to find the 2 hidden “bono-cam” performances. the 1st one was easy, we got that one quickly. but the 2nd one on the 2nd disc took FOREVER to find…like, we had the instructions on how to find it from the u2 msgbd, but i kept doing it and it wasn’t working. of course as soon as eric tries, he gets it… cuz he was doing the thing from the menu screen where i wasnt…and it worked! yay. so then we looked to see if there was bonus stuff on rattle and hum, but nope. and then we quickly looked at the fight club hidden stuff.

so my parents kicked us out of my room at 11 cuz they were going to bed. so we headed out to dennys cuz i was hungry, and then to walmart. well on the way there we got into this really great conversation about politics, which moved to religion, and other stuff. it was super great. well at walmart, it appeared that the 24 hr walmart was closed, and there were some shady looking ppl hanging out so we didn’t bother to stop. so driving back, we were so engrossed in our conversation that we decided to keep going to see if the other walmart was open (just so we could drive somewhere)…it wasn’t either, so we drove around more without a destination so we could keep the conversation going LOL. rock on.

 

everyone’s gotta be famous for something. buffalo is famous for snow

 

i went to bed at 2:30. it wasn’t snowing. i woke up to pee at 6:30 and had to use the bathroom downstairs. that gave me the opportunity to see outside. in the 4 hours i was asleep we got at least a foot of snow. we were only predicted to get 2-5 inches. the walkway by my front door, which was snowblowed to the pavement before i went to bed, was filled up to the level of the snow on the lawn. yep. the snow is starting to intervere with my view out my bedroom window. and it’s severely interfereing with my new years plans now.

 

we’ve gotten 6 feet of snow since monday

 

arg. my hair looks semi cute today, and my makeup is good… and it’s too snowy so i can’t leave my house. ARG!!!!

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i got to do something today that most people never have the chance to do…shovel their car. my car had a good 2 feet of snow on it. yep. no lie. i used a shovel to get the snow off. hopefully i didn’t do too much damage to the paint, i tried not to. it took me a half hour to get all the snow off. i told my mom and she yelled at me for using the shovel. “dont ever do that again! use the brush” i’m sorry but it’s not practical to use a tiny snow brush, to clean TWO FUCKING FEET OF SNOW off my car.

mom said theres another few feet predicted over the next few days…so who knows what’s gonna happen with the whole Toronto trip. if it doesn’t happen, hopefully the weather will clear up so i can go visit on a normal weekend during break sometime. yay for buffalo winters.

well i took a bunch of pics of the shoveling of the car, and will post them once i get them off the camera after dinner.

oh and yeah, eric did the whole VCD thing for me today, and we watched them to make sure they worked. allllll good! a few are screwed up, like..there was something wrong with the format, and so maybe 2 inches of the left side of the picture shows up on the right side. and one of the EC vids the sound doesnt follow the picture…but other than that, the rest is fine and dandy. and they look really good too. we were watching the orgy in montreal vids, and yeah i miss them so much. they need to get on the road pronto!

 

more cool email: “YOUR GIRL CALLED AND SAID U HAVE A SMALL DICK… ”

 

if i die today, blame the red cross. cuz SOMETHING is wrong with my arm. when i move my hand/wrist, it feels like all the tendons, veins, arteries etc in my crelbow where they take blood from are moving and tearing apart. it REALLY hurts. this is so not normal.

 

did the gift thing with eric, adr and danielle today. eric came over around 3:30 cuz we were gonna go out. then it started snowing alot, so we didn’t. but we decided to go out to eat, got adrienne and went to fridays (so i could stock up on mints, since i was low lol..i got 3 handfuls yay). we walked around the mall and headed back home in the snow to watch the sabres game (we actually won!). danielle got home from wherever she was and came over at like 9:30. i must say i’ve gotten tons of stuff on my xmas list this year YAY!…eric got me rattle and hum on dvd, adr got me my phrenology head, and danielle got me something i have to take back. my mom got me the same thing, and i might actually be getting a 3rd one LOL. so after the gift thing we went to dennys, duh, and Tops to buy food for the concert tomorrow. i keep forgetting that we’re going to the Goo goo dolls charity show. it was 15 bucks and a bag of food. so we bought ramen and saltines LOL.

last week i downloaded U2’s remix/cover of “pop muzik” by M. just listened to it today. yeah, it’s scandalous. it could cause a car accident if i was driving while it was on. lol. let’s just say…. fake orgasming in the recording studio.  yeaaaaah

so it’s decided we’re going to toronto on saturday afternoon, until tuesday afternoon. unless it’s blizzarding. and yes that is a verb. it’s a verb if you live in buffalo.

realized today when reading my dvd player manual that it plays mp3s and VCDs…which means all the mpegs i’ve dled i can play on my tv. HOW SPECTACULAR IS THAT?!?!?!? LOL so excited. so tomorrow going to erics with my mpegs to burn them the right way so that i can watch them on tv. hehe yay! i’m so lame.

 

 

well eric just informed me the googoo dolls show tonight is probably cancelled. southtowns and buffalo got hit with tons of snow last night, and it’s moving up north here later today.

so now dunno what’s going on. there’s a driving ban i guess, the thruway is closed in areas, and if it’s gonna come up here that means more snow on my car. maybe i should do an experiment and not brush my car off yet…see how much more snow accumulates on it tonight. eh but i need to use my car so…i guess it’s getting brushed off. maybe i’ll start doing a digi cam snow update in my blog. hah  it snowed about 3 more inches between the time eric got to my house around 3:30 and when we left my house around 4:45. probably got 5 inches total yesterday afternoon.

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alright, time for the good stuff i suppose.

i realized that i live to blog. the entire 3 days i was away i kept thinking, i need to blog this, i need to blog that. how sad. eric didn’t bring his laptop or i would have. ah well, i’m home now. time for the great christmas in michigan story. sadly, being the first xmas i can blog, it was a rather uneventful one as far as michigan goes…but we’ll see what stuff i can dig up to talk about.

so we left for michigan around 11 on sunday morning. takes about 5 hours to get to warren, so i guess we got there around 3, whatever. we anticipated problems at the borders due to all that’s happened, but there was no problems at all. going back into the states in port huron they asked for birth certificates and/or passport and license. well my dad has no birth certificate (yeah cuz he was never born), so i had to dig in the back to find his passport, which i never did. and my passport is expired but they didn’t seem to care and let us go.

when we got to my grandparents house aunt carol and eric were there. as soon as i walked in the door i left with them to the drug store. lol. so my grandpa had an absess tooth. he’d had it for over a week and didn’t go to the doctor or anything, his entire half a face was swollen and he was in pain. and his heart is basically completely dead, so he could have died if the infection went to his heart. but whatever, my mom found out before we left to detroit and freaked out, and made her brother call people to get him antibiotics. i guess they finally contacted some doctor cousin who wrote him a prescription. but you might think that an absess tooth and swollen half a face would stop him from talking? wrong. he talked more than ever, if that is even possible.

well that night, carol and eric left at like 8, leaving me to suffer for the rest of the night. and i’m not a lil kid anymore, i can’t go to bed at 9. i have to wait til at least 11. lol. well i ended up having a really big headache that felt like someone was throwing a javelin through my brain, so i kinda got off with not being forced to converse as much as usual. well i went to bed, and again, like last year, i slept in my coat. my room was FRIGID. i swear, it was like 40 degrees in there. i didn’t want to put my coat on cuz it’s wool and the neck is pinchy. so i “slept” most of the night in my pjs and the shitty blanket on the bed. well i got up to use the bathroom at 7, and as soon as i opened my door it was like a 40 degree temp difference. so i grabbed my pillows and went to sleep on the couch. well my grandma was awake, and wouldn’t let me sleep on the couch?!?! she made me go back in my room and gave me another afghan…yeah that helped :P. that’s when i put the coat on, and actually got to sleep for 5 hours or so.

so xmas eve….most of the day i escaped to the other room and read. carol and eric came by in the afternoon, and we had dinner. uncle ed showed up later. we did the gift thing. since eric is one of the VP’s of Lands End we all got stuff from them. they got me this really nice coat. but anyway. they all left later and i went to bed. my dad opened the heating duct this time for me (you have to do it in the basement, it’s not normal) so i slept. yay. it wasn’t completely warm, but it was warm enough i didn’t need my coat that night LOL.
christmas day, packed up and went to aunt mariannes for brunch. we had to leave early (4:30) to drive back home, so we didn’t do the normal dinner, stay all night thing there. did the gift thing with them. my cousins, who came around 3 like normal for dinner, didn’t get me anything for xmas this year. not like i really care, but they usually do. and they are usually my source of media play gift certificates, or cds that i actually asked for. no luck this year, whatever. so we left there around 4:30 to head back, since we heard about all the snow back home, and didn’t want to get stuck driving for 12 hours in blizzards (which we’ve had to do before)…
but anyway, like i said, there was nothing highly exciting this weekend. but i wrote down a few gems.

1. the box pictures. so as i said, eric is a VP of lands end…so he shipped all the gifts to my grandparents house in lands end boxes…well my grandpa…he’s obsessive compulsive about taking pictures. and he’s all crippled now so he can’t really do it that great himself anymore. so he makes my dad do it. so my grandpa is sitting in his chair in the kitchen/family room shouting orders to my dad in the living room about what kind of picture to take. he wanted a picture of carol and eric each holding a land’s end box. so i’m sitting on the couch in the living room, and the 3 of them (dad, carol, eric) are laughing at the situation. well 1 of the boxes had already been broken down, and eric is trying to tell my grandpa that. so grandpa starts yelling to fold it into box shape, and eric is folding it wrong so then grandpa is yelling at eric to fold it into a goddamn box shape. well eric just ignored him, and used the box that was still intact. so my aunt and eric are holding the box inbetween them, and grandpa is yelling from the other room to my dad to make sure there’s a nice background, etc. lol. i’m sitting on the couch laughing still. so my dad takes the picture of them holding the box LOL. but then, that’s not all. grandpa starts yelling his orders for carol to sit on the box, and cross her legs and look sexy. LOL. so we’re all laughing, and carol is like “i can’t sit on the box, it’ll collapse” (since it’s empty) and he’s shouting “sit on the goddamn box, and cross your legs”. so she sits on the box and falls in and my dad takes the picture. it’ll be great!

2. some of these don’t seem so odd/funny unless you know my grandpa. but he never shuts up, he’s really ignorant and rude. anyway. so we’re sitting around the table after dinner or something, and in the middle of someone else’s conversation he starts yelling (cuz he can’t just talk) at carol about how he can still see her riding up and down the street on her banana seat bike, wearing her halter top… and he said “you didn’t have any titties but you had your halter on” LOL (yes i wrote down the quote). that was really mild compared to what he was talking about last christmas. he got on this big kick about talking about sex, and tits and stuff….it was revolting.

3. normally i hear the same stories everytime we visit…but it’s always the same stories from my grandma, and the same stories from my grandpa…but they are different stories from each other. but not this year. this year, i was in the living room with my mom and grandma and she started in on her same 2 stories. my mom was little, and was playing outside. she started knocking on the door to be let inside, and my grandma says *singing* “who’s that knocking on my door?”…and my mom replies “i’m is.” followed by cackling laughter from my grandma. i’m sorry but the 200th time hearing that story it isn’t really funny anymore, if it ever was. and then she followed that story up with the one about my mom playing in the sandbox outside, and running inside and the flys were following her – cuz she shit her pants. well an hour later we’re in the kitchen/family room and my grandpa starts telling a story, and it’s the freaking “i’m is” story…but he explained it… “she was combining the i am into a contraction, and then saying is”…yeah, i know. and then, oddly enough, he followed it up with the mom shitting her pants in the sandbox story. i was shocked, cuz usually, they don’t repeat each other’s stories. of course my grandpa continued on with his own shitting his pants story, when he was little and playing in the alley. he felt it coming on, and ran to his house but was too late, and went in his pants before he got inside, and then since he had shorts on he shook it out of his pants onto the porch and went back to the alley to play. and he followed that one up with the time my grandma shit in HER pants in 2nd grade and the nuns made her go home. yes, this is information i guess i needed to know.

4. we were eating christmas dinner, and eating doesn’t even stop my grandpa from talking, although he will insist he never talks when eating. well carol is sitting next to him and he’s spraying food out of his mouth onto her LOL. so carol says “don’t talk while you’re eating, i just saw the whole meal in your mouth.” LOL. grandpa replies “i never eat with my mouth open” (while food is falling out)

5. well we had perogies (sp?) at dinner, and i guess they were good. i dunno, i don’t eat them. someone asked my grandma where she got them.
grandma: the italian market
grandpa: that’s not where you got them.
grandma: yes it is….
grandpa: goddamn it you didn’t get these at the italian market, emily gave them to us. tell the goddamn story right.
grandma: i WAS…half of them we got from the italian market…
grandpa: tell them the real story, emily brought them over to us.
grandma: half of them are from emily and half are from the italian market.
grandpa: she never tells a goddamn story right. tell the goddamn story the right way….
grandma: i am telling it right, it happened to ME not you
grandpa: that’s not how it happened goddamn it….*tells the story*

yeah….so basically that’s all i can remember about the weekend. oh yeah, then today before we were leaving he made my dad take the garbage out, and my mom was asking him what to do with the newspapers, to put them to the curb or not and he basically had a fit about no you’re not supposed to put the goddamn newspapers out to the curb, leave them in the garage and bring me the bag, and my mom yelled at him that she was just asking, he didnt need to have a fit, and he continued to have his fit….

well anyway…i guess i’m done. my hands are cold, it’s freezing in here too. we did get a bunch of snow but it was highly exaggerated. weather channel said we got 18 inches in NT…we probably have 8. it’s mostly plowed, my car has alot of snow on it actually, no one brushed it off. but whatever.

oh yeah, a weird thing…ok well I think it’s odd….we were crossing the border back into the US in Lewiston, and “bullet the blue sky” had just come on…lol that was the first odd thing…and then the customs guy shines a flashlight in my face…LOL weird thing #2… and only a u2 fan would really understand why that was odd. but yeah. you thought this post was going to be devoid of u2. and we have to pass through hamilton to and from michigan, and i was thinking…god, the best night of my life occured here…in HAMILTON of all places…and in honor of passing through hamilton, i listened to all that you can’t leave behind

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gave blood today. it sucked. they fucked up my arm. didn’t find the vein the first time, so shes moving it around trying to find it. calls another lady over to do it, she gets it, all fine and good. and then right near the end it stopped, clotted in the needle. so the 1st woman is moving it around again, trying to get it to go. calls the other woman back, she’s trying to do stuff. then i’m getting a humongus dark purple bruise. so she just stops it, and takes it out. yeaaah great. so now my arm is all messed up and i have to put ice on it all day or something. blah. adrienne went with me, and hers was fine.

so last night, adrienne came over to watch the sabres game. eric came by during the game. got danielle after, and did the obligatory denny’s/walmart excursion. fun times. walmart actually had a Tom license plate, but it was all banged up and icky. so no buy. danielle and i played football in an aisle…all good.

i’ve had “cherry lips” by garbage in my head for 3 days now. i love that song lol.

 

my arm hurts. i dunno if i should take the bandage off cuz i think it keeps bleeding.

well i went to dinner with muhammed, cuz my parents went to dinner and a play. we went to IHOP…my first IHOP experience. it was alright. lots of food for the money, but my fries were icky, and yeah…i dunno. not really impressed, denny’s is better, if you can imagine that LOL. muhammed and i were going to go to the mall so he could by vinyl pants, but hes so broke, and his credit cards are maxed out he decided he couldn’t go…can’t go to the mall and not buy something LOL. so we sat around his apartment, ended up watching the first period of the sabres game.

then i came home, and did the gift thing with the parents. i tell people that just cuz i’m an only child doesn’t mean i’m spoiled. and then they go and buy me a new VCR since mine broke, AND a dvd player… LOL. neither are top of the line expensive stuff or anything (esp the dvd player), and VCRs are so cheap it was probably like 40 bucks. but yeah…got some clothes, and some kitchen stuff…salad spinner, frying pan, cook books…LOL i was excited too, i’m such an adult. and mommy got me this rad U2 book called “into the heart” that goes through every song they’ve recorded. it’s neat. and she got me the screwtape letters like i asked, and this book that’s something about Ireland… I forget the title, but it’s a true story about this guy who made a drunken bet that he couldn’t walk around the perimeter of Ireland carrying a fridge in 1 month. my mom figured since i want to go to Dublin, it would be cool. she heard about it on NPR and it’s supposed to be really funny. So now i have stuff to read! I can continue to put off reading The fellowship of the Ring lol.

so now i dunno what i’m doing, i’m starving tho since me and Muhammed ate at like 4:30 LOL. we had to be back at his apt to let his friend in at 6 so we ate early…and i was starving anyway, of course.

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went xmas shopping today. crappy crap xmas shopping. there weren’t all that many people in the mall even tho there were no parking spaces. and i wasn’t highly annoyed, which is very unusual. i saw jackie farkas and kim cudzilo from high school, talked to them for a few minutes. i saw mike root, from high school….he’s still so cute, and he still looks 15 heheh. i saw hot play boy from geneseo..he graduated last year. the mall is crap. i walked around like 3 times, and couldn’t find anything. then i went to borders and spent 20 minutes looking at the u2 books hahahah. went to the blvd mall, that mall is crap, same stores as the 1st mall i went to. still nothing to buy for anyone. i went to premier liquor. if my family had any kind of xmas traditions, this might be one of them. me and my dad when i was a kid used to go shopping the day after thanksgiving for my mom. we used to go downtown to Clayton toys (then it moved to Williamsville so we had to go out there) to look around, and to Premier Liquor to look at the ugly food. It was so busy there, that they have people directing traffic and parking in the parking lot. well the guy forced me into a non-parking space…that was right in front of the door LOL. i’m like pointing “there????” he’s like yes, and is waving me in. i mean, my car was pointed at the door LOL. so i stepped out of my car and into the store. I’m like hey thanks! hes like best spot here. lol. then inside i was so confused cuz it’s been years since i’ve been in that place. they’ve changed it like 3 times since i was a kid, and this latest design i was like woah…wtf do i go? but i managed. so now i’m home again. i gotta go back out and was going to go to scummit mall after dinner, cuz i gotta go to a store there but i forgot ppl are coming over to do a xmas exchange….they dont usually stay long, but we’ll see…dunno.

so i ended up getting eric’s gift and part of danielle’s. i got her something crappy, so i need something else LOL. but NO CLUE WHAT TO GET HER! (HINT HINT AGAIN!)….blah. i hate xmas shopping. everyone needs to provide me with a list so i can just get something i know the person wants.

 

right, i went back to mcds to talk to wreatha about working over break. i swear, my store must be the most gossipy store of them all. cuz i walk in, and they’re like, why do you want to get transfered? dont you love me anymore that you dont want to work here? so and so said you don’t want to work here anymore…i’m like OMG! i mentioned it to stacy and mark that i might go work at south, cuz melinda asked me to, and suddenly everyone thinks i’ve left, am getting transfered, hate meadow etc…whatever. so i talked to wreatha and she said i can work, so…i told her i want to work mon-fri 8-2…we’ll see how that goes. apparently she’s all stressed out cuz they just kinda plopped the store in her lap… well no kidding she’s stressed, she can’t handle the responsibility of running a store herself. no way. so we’ll see how long it takes for her to demote herself, or get demoted…

 

 

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