rolling stone is such a waste of a magazine. i was letting my subscription run out. got the new one today, which is all about 40 pages long. i’m like, this is such a waste of paper, cuz there is CRAP in it. my mom goes, then why do you keep resubscribing? and i’m like I’m NOT i’m waiting for it to expire…she’s like oh well i resubscribed for you for xmas LOL…i haven’t paid for it in years, she keeps resubscribing for me.

but anyway, there were 2 good parts to this magazine. the readers and critics poll where U2 wins just about everything….readers pics: artist of the year, best male performer (Bono…MJ came in 2nd??? lol), best band, best album, #2 and #3 best singles (beautiful day, walk on) #2 and #3 best video (elevation, beautiful day), best tour, best album cover, best rock artist, #2 best welcome comback (MJ was #1?!?!?), best online fan site…critics pics: #3 single (stuck in a moment), #2 artist of the year, best band, best male performer (bono), best tour….and there is this pic of the band i’ve never seen before but i can’t figure out when it’s from. cuz bono’s got short hair…so i originally thought it was a Pop era photo…but he’s got that rosary on that he got from the pope, and his hair isn’t AS short as Pop days…but i think it’s funny that either way, it’s an old photo.

then the other good part was the amazing 4 star review of the live NIN disc…. once again…as if i wasn’t excited enough for it. they gave the EP last year a bad review, so this is good! hehe.

and there was also a big ad for the NIN disc and U2’s rattle and hum on dvd LOL…it’s sad when some of the best parts of a mag are the ads…

 

as if i couldn’t wait enough for the nin dvd and live cd….then we get the lyrics of “and all that could have been”

trent you are a god

*breeze still carries the sound
maybe i’ll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won’t find me here

ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what i’ve done
I know you tried to rescue me
didn’t let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
I am
tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone fading everything
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far as you can see
I am
tainted
and happiness and peace of mind
were never meant for me
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me*

 

i got a whole 15 hrs at work this week. i stayed an extra 2 today cuz christa got sick. she didn’t go home however. she sat in the office off the clock for 4 hrs. was afraid to call her dad or something. whatever. so there is this kid gary at work, he’s like 17. he reminds me alot of psycho…i think it’s his eyes, and facial structure. well christa comes up to me in the morning and is like Gary thinks your hot. she said “hot” with THE worst buffalo accent i’ve ever heard LOL. i’m like, whatever. christa is the same girl who told me fat black lesbian sherry wanted me all summer, and that sherry wanted to rape me basically (since i would SO not be willing lol). lol. sherry doesn’t work at our store anymore, i wonder what happened to her. NOT LIKE I CARE! lol just curious.

so after i got home and cleaned up i went to the post office. and this guy held the door for me, whatever. so i’m in line behind him and he goes, nice weather we have today. and i’m like, yeah, it’s sunny. then silence. then he goes, I’m brian. LOL holds out his hand. so i’m like, sara. he’s like nice meeting you. i’m like yeah. so i’m standing there trying to look other directions in hopes he won’t talk to me anymore. he’s like, i noticed you walking up to the building. i’m like, oh. he’s like, yah with your shades on, they’re cool. LOL i’m like, yeah, they’re all scratched i need new ones. i thought i lost these but i found them. he’s like, yeah i wear regular glasses and i lose them all the time and they’re more expensive. and i’m like yeah, these were 10 bucks. so then silence again. and he’s like, nice talking to you. LOL. so he went to do his post office stuff, and went to leave. he held the door for some woman, and then came back in the post office while i was doing my thing. so i’m like wtf he better not be waiting for me or something LOL. so he was looking at something, and i booked out of there as fast as i could. scary.

then i went to budway’s to buy cake mix. i haven’t been in budways in YEARS. it’s so trashy LOL. and then i saw psycho’s mom there. LOL. she’s like *smile* hi sara… i’m like hi, how are you…i didn’t know what else to say to her, not like she liked me when i was with psycho….even if i was the best thing he could ever get. and i’m not being vain and egotistical there, not my fault it’s true.