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gah work sucked last night. they put me in the 2 slowest most boring pits in the place. which is why i had 2. but it was so not cool, cuz i was in 1 the entire shift on tuesday as well. i usually pick one of the 2 and stay there most of the time, only checking on the other one occasionally. but i was torn as to which one i was going to sit in. one had my 2 most unfavorite people to work with, the other one is freezing and had drunk guy…i’m really tired of people making coments to me, or other people, about the fact i get paid to sit there and do nothing. i get it all the time, and it’s really not funny or original. so in the freezing pit, on one side of me i had this drunk guy. he comes in alot. he’s obviously an alcoholic cuz he had a flask in his pocket, and was drinking the free drinks. so he starts talking to me about my job, and why don’t i switch jobs. he tells me i could be a cocktail waitress, i’m pretty enough for it. i’m like thanks. then he said some other stuff, and asked me if i had a boyfriend. i should have just said yes, but no i was stupid and said i didn’t have one. so he’s like, gimme your number i’ll give you a call. i’m like, i’m not allowed to give you anything. haha. he’s like, i’ll take you out to syracuse to the other casino, we’ll have a good time. i’m like haha. so then he asks me if i’m from niagara falls, so i say no and lied and said i was from buffalo. he’s like, i could tell. you’re too beautiful to be from niagara falls. the people around here are hideous LOL. so i’m trying to ignore him, so i sorta turn my back on him and look the other way. and on that side i got this old man who says i have the most boring job in the whole casino. ARG so i said yeah i know. he asked me if i have computer eyes, and i said no. then he asked if i have carpal tunnel, and i said no because i don’t do enough work to get carpal tunnel hahaha. later i went back to sit in that pit, drunk guy was gone, but old man was still there and AGAIN said i have the most boring job in the whole place…YES I KNOW THAT! arg.

eddie money is playing at the casino tonight, so hopefully it’ll be busy. hah eddie money.

O.K!!! Finally..everything SHOULD be working.
1. everyone’s blogs i host should be set up and working. if it’s not, it’s because blogger is still being a bitch. it is not a problem on my end. blogger will fix itself eventually.
2. i figured out the pop email, and webmail changes, and if you use icenine.org email, i should have told you what the changes were by now.
3. over the weekend icenine.org will be the primary domain, with pc.com being the secondary parked domain. i’m leaving them on separate servers for a few days to make sure people using my pc.com email get the hang of the change, and get all their messages.

so from now on my email has the ending icenine.org, and all links should be to icenine.org pages. the url of this page is now http://delirious.icenine.org ….but http://www.icenine.org/delirious/ works as well. it’s just cooler to have subdomains now 🙂 pc.com links, once the switch is made this weekend, will work until august when the domain expires. if you are going to pc.com now, you aren’t reading this, since that page is not being updated anymore. all new material is on icenine.org.

k…work was super long and boring but partially screwed up last night due to people not showing up then showing up but leaving early. everything dies around 2 am, and then there’s REALLY nothing to do. all the computers should be working in the next 2 weeks, so i’ll no longer really have a job. i mean, i do. but i’ll be doing zero work. seriously. zero. i will get paid 8 bux an hour to sit there incase a gambling addict comes in and wants to draw money from his bank account. that’s all i will be doing for 8 hours a day. and do you know how many people come in and do that? on a busy night, i’ll get maybe 5 of those requests…and only one pit ever gets them. so in reality they need one person working. god i hope dealer school starts soon.

also trying to plan the cleveland trip with fishy. gotta go see u2 exhibit!!

so my site isn’t quite working yet. and blogger is being a gigantic bitch so i don’t know where the problem lays….with my site not yet having propigated fully, or with blogger…favor…go to this link test and tell me if you see the word “Test” or if you see bono. fishy sees test, which means the domain is working and is partially propigated. but it’s still not out here. so…i’m guessing blogger won’t publish to icenine because it hasn’t propigated fully yet. of course it would have been nice to have blogger publish at all yesterday, even to pc.com.

eventually this post will show up someplace lol.

i think it’s funny how used to the cold weather we get around here. last night i got out of work and it had just started raining. but we go stand outside and wait for the bus, and we’re all like “oh it’s warm out”. if it hadn’t been raining i definitely would have gone coatless…it was 33 degrees. hahah.

so a few things have been annoying me. here we go:
1. george w bush. i’m not sure if we could have elected a more complete retard into office. oh wait, that’s right, we DIDNT elect him…electoral college elected him. i don’t think he realizes the consequence if he violates the UN and attacks Iraq. it will destroy the entire concept of the UN. despite his statements that iraq harbors terrorists blahblahblah, we are the initiators in this battle. the entire thing will show the rest of the world that our word is not to be believed. all this talk of trying to get iraq to disarm, and now that they are, we’re still going to attack them anyway?!?! that gives no incentive to any other country who we percieve as enemies to do what we say. because they’ll go do it and we’ll attack them anyway. all this war talk is just bush’s private vendetta against saddam. now i know saddam is a complete looney, and yeah maybe he needs to step down from office – but it’s not our right to be able to go and force him out. especially since he hasn’t done anything this time… he didn’t go invade another country like back when Papa Bush was in office…i swear to god Dubya just has these dreams and thinks they’re reality. and the thing that irritates me the most – north korea…big giant looney in office, switching on nuclear reactors, possibly having nuclear weapons and CNN reported last night that Bush still has hopes for a diplomatic solution to the north korea problem…just proves that our middle east/iraq agenda is purely for control and access to oil. this is a giant mistake. we’re all going to get killed. the entire world is going to pay for his actions. as my mom put it “i didn’t know one man could cause so much damage”

and that’s all i’m going to say regarding politics and war.

2. michael jackson. a new article in vanity fair exposes michael jackson’s participation in voodoo rituals, skin bleaching, and prostetic noses…i’m not sure if anything could be more preposturous. if you think about almost any of mj’s scandals even dating back to the thriller days, they’re so completely retarded. but let’s just focus on these 3 latest ones. voodoo rituals involving mj taking a blood bath and the sacrifice of 42 cows…all done so that steven spielberg, david geffen and everyone else on mj’s enemy list will die…last i checked mj was quite good friends with spielberg and geffen. oh right, they’re jews, and we all know mj is an anti-semite (see also: they don’t care about us scandal)…come on now. voodoo ritual?? the man isn’t retarded, just a bit misguided. i’m not really sure where this story came from. someone must have a really overactive imagination. skin bleaching…a bit of common sense here would lead to the conclusion that it’s not possible to bleach your skin so albnio white, and have it be so consistent over your whole body. your skin grows back as the dead cells fall off – you’d have to be constantly emersing your entire body in a vat of skin bleach to keep that color up. and think about all the nooks and crannies on your body that you’d have to remember to bleach…inside your ears, belly button, between your toes, under your nails, around your eyes and nose…please. it just doesn’t happen. yeah i think he probably bleaches some parts of his skin, so that the black skin which is now the minority color on his body, can blend in more easily with the white skin…but you can clearly see in photographs patches of black skin. the whole idea of it is dumb. prostetic nose….well i think this is the most obvious lie, because if you could wear a prostetic nose why would you wear one that was so hideous? get a normal looking prostetic nose for christs sake. obviously he’s not wearing a prostetic nose.

*fin*

the boy who reminds me of carolyn wants to take me to casino niagara so he can teach me how to play pai gow. we have the same day off (usually) so i guess we’re gonna go next tuesday. i work this tues cuz i had off saturday. i dunno about this. first off, this means i’m gonna have to gamble. i mentioned we need a low roller game, and he’s like yeah 10 dollar pai gow hands. i’m thinking “holy shit 10 bucks a hand!!!” lol. at least you have a 60% chance of tieing the dealer in that game. secondly…because i’m 1. neurotic 2. scared of boys 3. in love with a certain person in africa…i’m already thinking of how to make this an obvious non-date. he’s nice and everything, super friendly etc…it’s just. yeah. so can’t date anyone right now. and he’s shorter than me.

so we were talking about the weather, and how damn cold it is. i mentioned that my exboyfriend was in africa and it’s 100 there blahblahblah he’s in the peace corps blahblahblah. he’s like “you didn’t break up because he went into the peace corps did you?” i’m like “yup.”

the casino had it’s first big winner last night i guess. some guy won 400k+ and a harley, and only spent 8 bucks. why can’t that be me?

i should go to bed now.

hah i told my mom about that kid wanting to take me out, and she’s like *weird face* i dunno about that. i know she’s thinking “cuz he’s not nate.”…which is exactly what i’m thinking as well, but i just thought it was funny.

so i went to the post office to mail nate’s letter, got some food from tops so i can send away for danielle’s gift, and came home and made soap. burned my hand with lye too…hah just kidding. but i did make soap. my fish soap in a bag kit. they’re cute. smaller than i was imagining, but still cute. i don’t know what i’m going to do with 7 fish in a bag soaps, but i’ll figure it out. give them away. send one to nate so he can be clean haha. of course you kinda need water as well.

i guess eric and tiff are in town, so probably do something later. damn it, i knew i should have taken a shower lol. i’ll have to get dressed now too lol.

i had things to say, but for the life of me i can’t remember them…

i had a blast from the past last night at work. i saw this kid who i’m pretty sure is my neighbors ex boyfriend, who she lost her virginity to at 14. thinking about people having sex at 14 kinda fucks with my head. that is SOOOOOOOO fucking young. that’s 9th grade!!! aweurlsdifjal;erlasknfd it just really fucks with me. at eric’s party i was talking to my neighbor jon and this subject came up. he was like “i don’t know about you, but when i was 14 i just wanted to get the guys and go play hockey.” lol. yeah when i was 14 i just wanted to hang out with my friends and go to the mall…to look at boys, but not actually want to touch them LOL. i might have wanted a boyfriend, but that is high school. high school relationships differ from college hook ups differ from real adult relationships. i just wanted someone to hold hands with in the hall and be seen with. it was a social status determinent more than anything else. but apparently some people have sex at that age. i can’t really fathom that. and to think the rumor was that one of my ex friends from elementary school was having sex at 10. gah.

and i think it’s kinda weird that when she told us (the neighborhood girls) she had sex with this kid, we were all like ok…it was no big deal. it didn’t occur to me how young it was. and now i think about it and freak out lol. i definitely think she’s the only person i know that had sex that young. now she’s fat. i’m not sure what that has to do with anything, but i thought i needed to say it hahaha.

at eric’s party i called her a whore and jon laughed. he said everyone else kinda dances around it, and doesn’t actually use that term, but me – i just go ahead and say it. lol. welllllllll it’s true. lol. her family was the first one we expected to get divorced (but we were wrong), and she’s the first person we expect to get knocked up.

anyway. leather limited is going out of business and they’re having a big ass sale with leather jackets as low as 28$ and leather pants and skirts real cheap too. so guess where i’m going tonight. damn jacket fetish. i figure maybe they’ll have some back stock to put out, and they’ll have my red leather jacket in the style i want. maybe i’ll get some real leather pants. doubt it, cuz when would i actually wear real leather pants? gah if nate was here i’d make him go try some on for me heheh.

so what are Ottawa Senators official colors? i can’t really tell. is it white black red and gold? i figure since varada got traded i should sorta update my site lol. if it’s white red and black hooray cuz then i don’t have to do anything hahaha. apparently gollisano is pissed sabres traded him. there was something i heard on the news about how darcy regier was supposed to talk to gollisano’s people before making any trades. oops.

i need to stop taking fridays off. i’m home, i’m alone, and i’m very upset. and i’m tired of being so upset. i was fine til i got back from the mall and started reading my book. it made me all sad and now i’m here crying, and i need to stop because my parents will be home soon. i need to finish my letter to nate, but i can’t do it now cuz i’m afraid i’ll start rambling all this stuff i’d later regret. i don’t want him to know that 3 months later i’m still getting so upset over everything. that i have these silly hopes of some big great reunion. and how i believe that given the circumstances of how we met and everything that there has to be something more to our relationship than what we had when he was here. these are things he doesn’t need to know, but i know i’d start going on and on about if i tried to finish my letter to him right now.

i thought i was ok, because last night after work i wrote this super huge email to my new internet friend, blabbing about all this, and i thought i had gotten it out, cried myself out so that i’d be ok today, and good to go for another month. but here i am, miserable yet again. my mom gets on my case about how i should write to nate every week, so he doesn’t forget about me, and to ask lots of questions that he’ll have to answer so he’ll have to write me back…

ok i’m in a better mood now because i just watched the funniest movie ever made. Baywatch Hawaiian Wedding. this has got to be the most retardedly great thing ever shown on tv. i am amused to no end. i can’t even think of how to describe it. it has to be seen to be believed.

i was almost late for work yesterday. they cut down on the number of busses they have running between the casino and the lot starting yesterday. now there are only 3, and then 2 during the middle of the night (even tho that’s the biggest shift, and so we all get out at 4am and are sitting there waiting forever for a bus). well there were only 2 running when i got there at 8 because the 3rd driver showed up completely smashed off his ass drunk. great.

i really like my supervisors. they are rad. me and jenn had break at the same time yesterday and we ended up re-living our glory days by watching donnie wahlberg on craig kilborn show hehe. now i gotta burn her all my nkotb cds lol. and i showed her what to do on the computer to find out what people do and how much money they make lol. she made me look up buffalo bills players hahah.

i got yet another medical bill from the hospital that i need to go take care of. 200 and some dollars to pay the people who sat there and scored my echocardiogram. spectacular.

i had the most giant unexpected nate song flashback yesterday, to the doors “riders on the storm”. i had totally forgotten there was anything related between nate and that song. it was like a punch in the face. i mean, it’s a good memory not a bad one. but it just hit me and made me laugh. other songs i have nate memories to, like eminem “lose yourself” i sorta have to think about, i remember we both really liked the song and it was on alot before he left. but this one…haha just suddenly appeared. not telling what the memory was 🙂

i’m reading the new anne rice book “blackwood farm”. i started it a few weeks ago after i finished “blood and gold” (which i liked a whole lot). it started off real fast and sorta interesting, but then it slowed down…alot…like 10 chapters of slow boringness. the story is being told to Lestat by this vampire Quinn. Quinn sought out lestat to get his help to rid him of his spirit companion he’s had since he was a child. so he has to tell lestat the entire story of his family, and then his life story…which is really boring. only now, around chapter 12 did it get interesting. i read 4 chapters last night/today when it took me a week just to get through chapter 9 lol. there is some strange things in it…like…Quinn lost his virginity to a ghost named Rebecca…had sex with Rebecca Ghost again…then his spirit companion Goblin gave him a handjob in the shower. and in the last chapter i read he actually had sex with a real person lol.

and now for something completely different. i had my mri today. got up bright and early at 8 to go to the mri place. my appt was at 930, i got there at 9, sat there for over an hour before getting called. sat in this other chair for 15 more minutes, to actually be in the machine for 20. i hate that. i tried to steal a look at my brain on the computer when i left, but i could only see my medula oblongata 🙂 it was very white. can’t remember if it’s supposed to be white or not. but i don’t have a tumor there, cuz my balance and motor cooordiation is just fine. i have a follow up appt with the dr in may, unless i have a tumor, and then i’d assume she’d call for an appt after she gets the mri report. i hope i can get her to let me look at the film when i go. i came home and went back to sleep til 4. it was half sleep so now i got a bad headache. i took my barbituate drugs and they’re not working. damn my body for drugs not working on it.

i work at 8 tonight. last night was beyond boring. i’m glad i have shitty mon and tues off usually, cuz they are so dead.

oh…varada got traded to ottawa. ha that’s super. as one article put it, he went from a bankrupt team at the bottom of the league to a bankrupt team at the top haha. he’ll actually get to play in the playoffs this year, and have a chance at winning the cup (of course ottawa seems to choke in the playoffs every year…). yay for him. of course, that leaves virtually no chance of him appearing in the casino…lol.

dear whoever is subscribing to magazines for me:
if you wish to continue doing this, may i suggest a few: rolling stone, spin, AP, Revolver…or that maxim music one..what is it? blender. yeah that’s it. not that i don’t appreciate you trying to help me financially by sending me Financial Times every day all summer, or whatever that money magazine was that you sent me last week…and not that I don’t enjoy glancing at the covers of Hollywood Reporter and Entertainment Weekly…or Time…and even tho i have no interest in archaeology, the latest one you’ve subscribed to, Archeology Odessey, seems kinda neat. did you subscribe to Hudson Valley for me too? because i’ve been getting that one for a while, possibly the first one you started sending me, and i didn’t realize it til today. i thought my parents had (for some reason) signed up for me. so anyway…yeah. stop with the osbscure weird mags, and start with the music mags. thanks.
– sara