almost got pulled over by a cop again last night. i say almost because i was in my driveway before he could pull me over. so instead he just stopped in front of my driveway and talked to me through the window. he said he knew it was late, but i had some questionable stops and i need to try to stop better. which would be fine and good if i had gone through stop signs. BUT I DIDN’T. there is no way i can stop any better than i had stopped last night. he wasn’t following me until fairmont so he saw at most 2 stops. and i saw him behind me, so i made sure to stop completely. but apparently the stops were questionable. i guess i have to stop and sit there for 15 seconds before going again. fucking nt cops i hate you.

work was boring. although i accidentally pressed a button on my computer and got to a page that shows you what certain people do for a living and how much money they make. so i entertained myself by looking up random people and seeing how much they’re worth lol. and my monitor at work melted. lol. someone using the desk lamp left it touching the monitor and it melted all over the light bulb. surprised it didn’t start a fire. i don’t know what we should do if something starts on fire…i should probably ask if there are fire extinguishers near by or something.

i did have a to do list for today but i don’t remember it. i know i have to call for my mri again…and oh yeah, figure out why i have to pay 114$ for my blood work.

chipping out my car at 4am was just as exciting as i was hoping it would be. there was at least 1/4th an inch of ice covering everything. this kid parked next to me didn’t have an ice scraper. how do you live in buffalo without an ice scraper?? mom bought me this deice spray stuff that you’re supposed to spray onto the iced windows, wait 15 seconds and then use your wipers to wipe the ice off. yeah. that didn’t work even a slight bit. so i took to hacking away at the ice slowly. probably 15 minutes later my hands were so frozen i couldn’t feel the car door handle to get back inside. it sucked. got home at quarter to 5.

i ended up not being a breaker last night even tho my copy of the schedule said so. so i was in a pit all night, and a boring one at that. but the way things worked out with this weeks schedule and next weeks, i have friday AND saturday off this week. that means i should really find something to do with myself. adr will be free saturday.

so i work at 6 tonight so i should get off my ass and eat and shower etc. and reset the clocks cuz sometime between quarter after 1 when i looked at the clock, and 2 when i got out of bed, the power went off.

and oh yeah. i HATE HEALTH INSURANCE!!!!!!! got ANOTHER bill…114$ for my lab work that i had done. they claim the blood work was done after my health insurance had expired. I HAVE HEALTH INSURANCE! IT’S NOT EXPIRED. i went from the drs office right to the lab to have my blood taken. so in the 10 minutes it took to get there my insurance expired? right. ok. so i guess i have to go talk to people and get this straightened out again. and it was really nice of the people at buffalo MRI to call me back as they said they would, to make an appt. so i gotta call them again on monday. ug. HATE THIS.

new design. should look decent enough in 800/600 and that other one…1024 or whatever. i thought it was about time. it seemed like 19 was up longer than it actually was. it was only up for approx 2 months, which is my normal layout change time. definitely seemed longer though. so yeah. a few people should get the reference. one should for sure and if she doesn’t…she deserves to….have all her privaledges removed lol. i can’t spell privaledges.

went out to the store with mom and adr to try to find stuff for the craft i want to make. couldn’t find it, so ordered it online (which i didn’t want to do. but it would have been more expensive at the store anyway, if they had what i needed). i’m freezing. gotta get ready to go to eric’s soon.

i have a new friend online. and it’s strange because i was thinking the other day how i don’t meet new friends online anymore. i’m not a part of any web communities any longer, so i don’t get the chance to interact with many people. mjifc closed, but i hadn’t been a part of that in years. i don’t go to the u2 msg board anymore cuz it got sucky. once mps moved out, i stopped going….so i’m not a part of anything anymore.

actually i have 2 new friends. both found me by finding my photography site. which i find weird too haha. one is from around here, obsessed with the terminal. the other is out in the midwest who was looking for cemetery pictures. i might be doing a website for him to showcase his art work. so that’ll be cool. we’ve been emailing the past few days and he seems way rad. yay for new friends.

something is wrong with my comp/browser. i had to reload every page i went to in order to see any new data. i thought i had fallen into a time warp where yahoo hadn’t reported any news, and the sabres hadn’t played a game last night and won, and my friends had stopped blogging. but arg, that’s really annoying. fix it.

work was good last night. “the reason” was in AGAIN last night. can we say gambler-aholoic. it’s gotten even better now. i gotta talk to adr 🙂 *edit* ROFL i just read something about “the reason” and that could explain why he’s always at the casino now. and why he was there til 5am sunday. hahah. doesn’t explain why he’s not on crutches…hmm.

also spent over an hour talking to my one sup…about ozzy…mj…sandy knowing mj…nkotb…concerts…ozzfest…more concerts…meeting bands…etc. it was fun. managed to switch days again so i have next friday off too. thank god. so now i gotta work tuesday. which is good too, because i didn’t want to work monday and have that big long stretch of days in a row again like this week. that was awful.

rawk the fuck on. ozzfest @ darien lake august 11th. so totally going. ozzy, korn, manson…yeah. i’m so there. i was afraid it would only come as close as toronto (or worse, barrie) and i didn’t feel like traveling for it (especially not to barrie). but darien…yay! i’m so excited. if things keep going this way, it’ll be my first concert all year. how sad. hahah

omg i think i dreamed nate was dead. yeah. i did. i was dreaming about how i was always saying i got a letter from nate, which means he is alive…or at least was when he wrote it 3 weeks prior…and then it turned out he really was dead. ug.

went to the neurologist. i got new meds to try (one daily before bed to prevent them, one type of painkiller – the bedtime one apparently makes u sleepy, so hopefully i’ll be able to sleep good with it. i think it’s an anti depressant too…one of them is), and i am waiting for buffalo mri to call me back to schedule an apt there. they said i need permission from my insurance, so they were gonna call or…something. and call me back. that’s all i know, they’re supposed to call back. the new dr was nice…kinda didn’t like that she didn’t ask me to explain my headaches, and just went with whatever was written down in my old chart. she asked some clarification questions…but she thought i only had gotten headaches when i was a teenager. try like 2 years old i was getting headaches. so the old dr apparently didn’t write down correct things about what was wrong with me. and she still didn’t catch on to the fact that i have SHARP SHOOTING PAINS through my head. haha. but getting the mri to make sure nothing is really wrong.

work at 7 tonight. lucky me. talked to adr last night, filled her in on stuff. she might not be able to go to eric’s party cuz she works real late, but we’ll see. i’m going to try to get next friday off as well, so i can sleep for the interview at UB. i decided i really cannot do it, if i’m not getting home til real late, and having to get up 4 hours later. that would just be really really bad.

i have an interview at UB on march 1st. at 10 am…after working friday night. UG. maybe i can con someone into giving me friday off again.

so the reason work was so good on sunday night, was in again last night. but i was the breaker, and wasn’t near “the reason” at any point. i left work 2 hrs early cuz i couldn’t take being there anymore. today i have off and nothing to do. yippee.

had a rad dream i just remembered about u2…and then 2 about seeing phantom of the opera again. it’s playing in buffalo end of march/early april and one of my sups has been talking about wanting to go. so now i want to go again too, even tho that’d be um…4 times, and my parents would prolly be bitchy about it asking why don’t i ever want to go see something new, like mama mia.

AP is reporting APC stole Danny lohner from NIN…but the funny part is how they mention APC is in litagation with the Offspring over the new album title…when i was under the impression that (assuming it was) manyard’s post was a big joke. i totally didn’t take that part seriously, given the tone of the entire news report on the APC site LOL. just strikes me as funny.

bono was nominated for the nobel peace prize. i’d be hella surprised if he won it, but it’s super cool he was nominated. bono is great.

going to the neurologist tomorrow instead of march 3rd. 9am ug. but that’s ok.

had a fabulous night at work. seriously. ask me why.

not looking forward to tomorrow tho. there’s only one sup on, and it’s the really stupid one. and not only is she stupid but she’s scared, or perhaps incapable of making any decisions…which makes for a good supervisor, don’t you think? she told me her plan is to hide in the office all night, and to hide the portable phone in the file cabinet so we can call her all we want, but she won’t hear it. what a great supervisor. it’s gonna be a long night.

gotta run some errands tomorrow. i had a few, but i can only remember 1 now…office max, for 100 cdrs for free after rebates. even tho i don’t think i’ve ever gotten a rebate back my entire life, the price will still be about 17 bucks cuz there is one instant instore rebate on it. then 2 mail ins. 17 bucks seems like a good price to me.

nakita loved the 2 cds i made her. they were some of her requests, then filled up the rest with nin and tea party. gave her the whole still disc, then random highlights from the rest of the albums. yay. that makes me happy.

i wish i could have gone to see a tea show with nate. i don’t know why, but it seems like it would have been a good choice of shows to go to with him. hollowpoint doesn’t count. too bad it didn’t happen.

 

headed out on the town to do my errands, which i still only remembered office max. i only ever go to office max in a blizzard it seems. last time i was there, with adr a long time ago, it was a blizzard. again today, blizzard. roads were slow and slippery. and of course they were sold out of the 100 cdrs for free after rebates. great. so i went to best buy, who had 100 cdrs for 7.99$ after rebates. took me forever to find them, because nothing was labeled, and i didn’t know what was on sale. i had seen the flyer on line cuz mom had thrown it out. managed to find a flyer laying around in the store, but then of course the shelf was empty. wandered around waiting for someone to notice that i was standing there jaw dropped in a daze, and ask if they could help me. no one did, but i managed to find another stash of them on my own. so picked those up. i should be good for a while now.

from there i ventured to frisbees, cuz it had been awhile since i stopped in. they had tons of stuff. not stuff i’d buy, but more than usual. i got eric a bunch of bday gifts he’ll be excited about. they’re all things he would have for sure bought on his own if he were there lol. yay for gifts that are sure to be enjoyed. that’s why alcohol is always such a good gift.

i’ve taken to trying to listen to the radio, because i’m so beyond tired of all the cds i own. it was middle school flashback on the radio today. collective soul’s “shine”, goo goo dolls “name”…all i needed was some gin blossoms and i’d feel 12 again (you know, except for the fact i was driving haha). weird thing, i’d been trying to remember the name of that collective soul song so i could dl it, and then it was on the radio today. i’ve sorta come to terms with the music i didn’t really like back then, like collective soul, gin blossoms etc…and i realize it’s so much better than most of the shit playing today haha. yay for pre-Creed music! hooray for grunge! bring back the flannels! on another note, for a long time when “Shine” came out i thought it was by Adam Sandler…cuz the end adlib kinda part, where the speed of the song picks up, the guy sounds like Adam Sandler. haha. the “heey yeaah hey yeaah” part sounds like Sandler immitating Eddie Vedder LOL. *edit @5:30pm* i take it back, gin blossoms were still crap.

in conclusion, walking in snow (or sand) is an artform, and i think people from warm climates would have alot of trouble walking in snow at first. when you first do it, you end up hurting cuz you use muscles that you don’t normally use when you walk. it’s strange. haha. same with sand. and why is it always so quiet in the winter? you can go outside, and not hear any traffic. i don’t get it. it’s nice. i like it. but…i don’t get why.

*edit 2* google bought pyra/blogger…hmm. wonder what that means for us. at least it wasn’t yahoo.

working monday (my 6th day in a row) so i could get friday off. party at rit yay. i get to see friends!!!!!!! what a concept. geneseo peeps should be attending too, so i get to kill 2 birds with one stone. if anyone asks, my friend’s sister died and i have to go to a funeral in rochester.

met with my manager last night. took longer to walk down to her office than it did to meet with her. basically told me what i already know, that i’m on the list for dealer school, i can’t go now cuz the class is at night, but they’ll contact me when they start the day class. they look at attendance, which i have perfect attendance, and she knows i’d do great blahblahblah. still no word on WHEN the class is tho. i was hoping the meeting would be to give me the paperwork necessary to switch depts and go to class etc. she said it might not be til april, but i’ve been hearing beginning of march…so who knows. sooner the better.

yay. i was coming back from break early last night and ended up running into emily and fred. i hadn’t seen them in forever, so i talked to them for 5 min and had to go back to work. it was cool tho. then tonight leah and bill are supposed to be in, and leah vowed to look around until they find me haha. hopefully they don’t come look for me right at 8 cuz turns out i have to have a meeting with my manager (who doesn’t know who i am). it’s PROBABLY about dealer school cuz 2 others have been asked to go to her office and they were both on the dealer list too. at least i’m hoping that’s what it’s about, but since i haven’t done anything wrong, i can’t figure out what else it would be. i heard school is starting in the next week or 2 so it would make sense.

ended up spending my break with this dealer kid who i refer to as “carolyn’s male twin”…like, if carolyn was a boy, i think that’s what she’d look like. and i don’t know why i think this, since this kid is at least part asian. he has to be one of the most outgoing friendliest people i’ve ever met. so i was talking to him, then this other dealer lady came and sat down and totally took over the conversation so…didn’t get to finish the conversation we were having. but that’s ok. OH and then there’s the floor sup who gets disappointed that i don’t sit with him on break…apparently he refers to me as his stalker now…cuz what? i was in the same pit as him twice, and we happen to be sent on break at the same time a few times…i don’t even know his name! my sups husband tried to fake throw me off the balcony last night, and this other guy was there and was like “leave sara alone she’s my stalker” i was like ?!?!?! oooook.

things i want:
-velvet smoking jacket/blazer
-black with red pinstripe pants
-long red jacket that was in a picture on ebay but not for sale so i asked the person if they’ll sell it to me hah
-tickets to ozzfest if the line up actually what it has been rumored to be…and for ozzfest to play around here, that’d help

k need to go have some cake for breakfast, so bye.

i. hate. adelphia. internet broken AGAIN. it’s been off since sometime tuesday night/wed morning. ug.

i had really great dreams the past 2 nights. tues night, i was dating trent reznor. i don’t know what’s up with the trent dreams, haven’t been thinking about him all that much recently. last night, my friend bought the zootv stage on ebay, and me her, fishy and nate were exploring it. then nate was dressed like macphisto and yeah it was fabulous.

work was fine. i was breaker and didn’t know it, so i got to spend the first and last hour of my shift doing nothing. my one supervisor, the one i thought was really stupid but ended up being ok, left. and she didn’t tell any of us that she was leaving. so we didn’t get to say goodbye. it’s crappy. and they’re not replacing her position, so there is still not much hope i’d get promoted any time soon. i gotta go in early today to fix my health insurance crap, and try to get bigger pants AGAIN.

there was more i had to say…OH YEAH…just went to the post office to send nate the ugly kylie calendar. the stupid post office lady had to go and tell me they have alot of problems sending things to niger because the envelopes end up empty…alot of pilfering and stuff. so now i don’t know what to do, cuz if i send it the expensive really safe way, he’s gotta sign for it. and who knows where he’ll be at the end of this month. i dunno if i should still send him the cd player and stuff, even tho it didn’t cost me anything (adr gave me her old cd player to send to him) i still don’t want the stuff to get stolen. so now i’m all nervous. gotta figure out what i’m gonna do.

so before i got home (i’m at the library) one last thing. if anyone mentions valentines day to me i will shoot you. have a good day.