Category Archives: Personal

got to the interview early, was back in my car at 9:07. and now i’m dead tired for the rest of this extremely muggy day. dunno what’s going on. dunno what the parents and friends have in store today. if it’s someplace with AC i’ll go with them lol.

anyway, hard rock. they’re gonna call tomorrow. it was good. i got to talk about trent, so :). she asked what kind of music i like, and i said everything but mostly harder stuff. and i’m like and THAT is my favourite piece in here (trent’s smashed keyboard signed by trent, chris vrenna and i think danny lohner). she’s like oooh trent reznor. hehe. so we talked about new orleans and finding trent’s house, and stuff.

 

went to the flea market, galleria, and frisbees with eric. it’s too hot out. we both bought packs of rockstar trading cards rofl. they were 4 for a buck. and i got 2 korn cds at frisbees. frisbees is the greatest cd store in the area. i got follow the leader and issues for 3 bucks each. we stopped at record theatre and blockbuster to see if high school people were working, but they weren’t. next time.

i don’t think i ever mentioned the greatest person ever. when i was at the mall with eric and adrienne last week sometime, this car drove by with this white kid inside, blasting rap music. his license plate said “getto joe” ROFLMAO. it was so great….brings to mind a certain offspring song *sings* pretty fly for a white guy.

i forgot that my dr appt tomorrow is at 8 freaking 45 in the morning. after having no sleep since thursday. this blows. so coming home to nap.

 

i forgot to mention what i did in my free time today. there was an article in the buffalo news about the # of sex offenders in niagara county. so i decided to go look them up on line. i got a big kick out of it. not too sure why, or if that’s a good thing. 1 lives on oliver, another 18 year old one lives in the avenues. and one guy, not in NT, but in the area… his name is Harry Dicks. NO LIE! man, you gotta be a sex offender with a name like that lol.

maybe i should delete this post lol.

forgive my typing i’m a bit drunk.

the continental is so great!!!!! great great!!!!! melinda and this kid mark ended up going with me and nate. the upstairs club wasn’t open when we got there so we ended up watching the first part of Harlow’s set. Harlow was on that vh1 show bands on the run. then the club opened and we went upstairs.

talk about good first impressions. we get upstairs and get a drink, and what song comes on….”into the void”…..yeah. what a way to impress me, playing NIN….lol so i was happy. it was super. after a while melinda and mark went to walk around outside and me and nate stayed at the continental. we ended up going out back, which is like a VIP thing…so that was kinda cool. hung around with some people who were out back, talking about polygamy hahaha. then me and nate went back inside, and talked to someone who worked there. then this other guy who worked there came up and he was trying to sing NIN’s “reptile” but he had the lyrics all wrong, and he was so drunk he didn’t really know what he was singing. it was hilarious.

ended up seeing danielle and katie from mcds there. so that was nice. i hadn’t seen danielle in a while. talked to them for a bit, but then they left.

and now i’m home. yay. bedtime. i’m gonna have to pee soon lol.

 

i hate my neighbor – the vampire/norman bates – so much. actually, he’s not my neighbor anymore. he moved out, his mom still lives in the house. so every weekend he comes over and is a dick, and annoying, screwing around with lawn things and digging random holes on the side of the house and what not. today….cut the grass at….8 fucking 30 am….on a saturday. forget that i actually was out for once, 8:30 on a saturday ALOT of people are still asleep. so that fucking sucked. managed to kinda go back to sleep off and on until 11.

now i’m waiting for my parents friends to come over. my parents aren’t here, so i have to stay here to let them in. my parents are out to lunch with other friends. i need to take a shower cuz i smell like smoke. but no. i have to wait and let them in. at least i like these friends. but they’re gonna see me scummy lol.

i had wack dream about nuclear war.

car inspection took an hour. they were backed up. the guy had them put me in front of someone else tho, so that was nice. they left me jolly ranchers on my dashboard lol. and it was only 10$. they didn’t replace any rubber rings for 30$ or anything, so that was nice. the dealer is really nice. of course, it’s the only dealer i’ve ever been to (other than geneseo and the radio replacment fiasco), but they have this service area cafe for you to wait in. free coffee, and water, and then other food to buy. it was real nice in there, and air conditioned lol. and they didn’t think “ooooh a girl, she doesn’t know shit about cars, let’s replace a bunch of crap to make some money” so i’m happy.

i had this wacko dream about Akasha from the vampire chronicals. like, i was lestat and i had the power to wake her and stuff. and then there was this whole part about moving out of geneseo again, but i lived with my research group. which reminds me i should send beth her money. she never got back to me if a check is ok, and now i forget how much i have to send her. if only people would use my real email address and not my school one anymore i wouldn’t have this problem.

trying to find out tool information still. i just sent tickets.com mean feedback about how much their site sucks, and how i’m so tired of them. and that i thought ticketmaster was bad. hahah. no info about the hamilton show still. i forgot to go to tops yesterday to see if they know anything, and i’m real happy that the 2 DJs at 103.3 that i emailed got back to me too 😛 cuz they’re so busy.

for those who care and didn’t hear. the NHL took over the Sabres. they’re talking to groups from buffalo who would keep the team in buffalo, to buy it. so that’s good. i think. hahah

 

there are some giantic crows across the street. i think they’re the biggest crows i’ve ever seen. they haven’t been a real big nussiance to me in the morning yet. i don’t think i’ve heard them at all. at least i haven’t wanted to buy a blow gun yet. but all the little birds have been waking me up every morning at 4. just like today. i can’t fall asleep til 2 ish, cuz i sleep in so long (cuz i can’t fall asleep til 2ish), and then get woken up at 4. i have this problem where i fall asleep but don’t know i’m asleep, so i don’t feel rested. the pretentious phd i interviewed with at the sleep lab told me about it. it’s the main problem with insomnia, he’s found. the people really are sleeping, but their brain waves don’t let them know they’ve fallen asleep. so they report having not slept. well that happened last night. 4:15 the birds woke me up and i thought i had still been up since i got into bed at midnight. but i knew it couldn’t really be possible that i was still awake 4 hours later. whatever.

i’m so friggen bored. and hot. and in a bad mood. sorta. i dunno. i don’t know what to wear to the show tomorrow, cuz it’s gonna be hot and possibly rain. i don’t want to be uncomfortable, but i’m going to end up that way. arg. i hate arizona’s.

 

i guess i’m going to the continental with nate tonight. he gets out of work at 10:30. this will be interesting. i wish i had better clothes.

 

i’m wearing a skirt.

 

 

*looks at time* WHY THE HELL AM I AWAKE!?!?!?!?!? grrrrrr what the hell am i gonna do all day now that i’m awake this early? i actually was up at 6. why? DONT REALLY KNOW! I woke up, saw the clock. was like grrrrrrr. tried to fall back asleep, but my head hurt. never got any better from the horrid pain i was in as a tried to fall asleep last night. so i fell asleep a bit more, dreamed a bit about getting hired at hard rock, woke up at 6:30 grrrrrrrr. got up, took excedrine, tried to go back to sleep – no luck. now the garbage men went by. i think they take extreme pleasure in causing as much noise as possible and waking the entire neighborhood up. if i was still working at mcds, i’d ask them if that’s true. but since i don’t, i guess it’ll remain a mystery.

i must go back to sleep!! must!

 

project 1: call hard rock
status: completed
results: interview tomorrow at 3

project 2: clean the car
status: completed
results: clean car, but i did a bad job. can’t get the bugs off. and i vaccuumed the inside, but didn’t do the windows or clean the spilled pop out of my cigarette lighter lol.

project 3: buy sequins
status: completed
results: went to ames. no sequins. went to joanne fabric, no sequins BUT…someone finally got a clue, and they now make iron on jewel transfers that are letters!!! I’ve only been looking for them for 3 years now. they had gold, silver, red jewels and silver jewels. so i got the silver ones, and used the 50% off coupon. so now i can make my rough cutt shirt, and if it works out good, i think i might get the red jewels to do a kiss the future one. yes cuz i’m still stuck in 1999 hahah. so then i had to go to michael’s, like i was intending to the entier time, to find the sequins. they finally had them. this smelly woman asked if she could cut me in line, so i let her, and then kept my distance. the boy at the cashout was so cute. there are alot of semi-goth kids working at that store. last time when i was getting the photo album this girl who was younger than me, from high school, worked there…still all sorta goth and stuff. but this boy was so cute, and he had cool hair and was really nice. his name was chuck haha. of course i didnt do my hair, or anything. figures.

so i’ve done everything on my list to do today. super. lol

 

i thought of other things to buy myself after my birthday – steering wheel cover…ok so i thought of 1 thing to buy myself haha. aunt darleen came over and gave me my bday gift – the 2 vampire chronical books i didn’t have yet. so now the last one i need is the most recent, blood and gold, which was at the discount book store in hard cover for 8 bucks. and she said she’s got everyone eye out at barnes and nobles for the new chucky p book.

i think it’s kinda funny that bonton offered me a 2000$ credit limit on the store credit card when i told them i was unemployed. i wonder how much they give to people who are employed hahah. i almost EVER shop at bonton. but hey it got me 5$ off my purchase today. once i pay it i’ll cancel the card.

i forgot how much i hate driving in niagara falls. tourists. blah. apparently when you’re on vacation normal traffic rules don’t apply. i went to the duty free shop in canada. when you’re approaching the bridge to canada, there is a sign with a big arrow that says DUTY FREE…so i tried to go that way, to the US duty free. and no there isn’t one. so wtf. i had to pay to cross the bridge to spend 2 minutes in the duty free store. whatever. then i went and applied for a job at hard rock. i was filling out the application at the bar, and the bartender was like, why doesn’t anyone want to bartend (cuz he looked at what i put down for position). i was like, i would but i don’t know how. he’s like that’d be a problem, but we need 1 more female bartender. he was cute. *signs up for bartending lessons* haha jk. but yeah. at least it’s a job for now. it’d be cool if they just gave me a job in the retail store instead of waitressing. but then i wouldn’t get tips. whatever. any job would be fine with me for now, as long as it wasn’t cooking. cuz i don’t know how to cook real food, and if i’m going to spend my time in a hot kitchen i’ll go back to mcdonalds, instead of driving all the way to the falls to do it.

so next up in my busy schedule…lol. i made an appointment for my inspection, it’s on friday. they better not try to sell me crap for my car. that’s all i know.

 

tonights adventures: eric and i headed out to canada to get tea party tickets. so that took us to arizona’s in thorold. with nothing better to do, we went to get lost in st catherines, with the intent of finding a walmart. and indeed we did, only after finding a Giant Tiger discount/department store (a really small version of kmart) where i almost bought a pair of green dickies for about 15$ US, and a closed thrift store. from there we attempted to find a mall, which is how we ended up finding the sought after walmart. went in, looked for cheap cds that would be imports on this side of the border (but what i wanted was still too much $). eric found some cd for 5$. then we decided to head home on the QEW, which we didn’t end up taking because the onramp was closed and the detour took us back to the 406, which was where we had started after we left arizona’s. and instead of just going back to niagara falls, we decided to go to Fort Erie to find a walmart there, which we didn’t find. Took the peace bridge back to the states, went to mcds for some food, and then home. we went exactly 100 miles. isn’t that interesting. lol. while we were in canada we saw some great signs.
1. The Canadian Martyr School – first off, who was the canadian martyr? and only in canada can you go to school to become a martyr hehe
2. “pedestrians: beware of cars exiting driveways” – duh
3. no left turn on red – duh

so tomorrows projects are, go buy sequins, get gas since my tank is on E, and clean the inside and outside of my car. think i can accomplish that?!

oh and my mom just informed me hard rock cafe called. that was fast. i have to call them tomorrow too.

it’s storming. it was hailing so bad i couldn’t hear anything, cuz i’m on the 2nd floor and i have the roof outside my window. so it was hail surrounding me and making me deaf. but then it stopped and now it’s barely raining. still thundering tho. crazy weather. my poor car. at least if the hail hurt it it’s not my fault hehe. not that any of the others were my fault either but whatever. these were even less my fault. mother nature’s fault. too bad Fishy isn’t online so i could make her do the tornado dance. i mean, we got one of the warning signs she gave me – the hail.

i got my stuff together to apply to the eating disorders job, but then it was raining so i can’t go put it in the mailbox yet. oh it’s pouring again. oh it stopped again. yes that quickly. screwed up weather. everything is flooding.

i should call about the civil service exam stuff. i was going to drive around today, maybe to the falls to hard rock, so i could listen to further down the spiral. i decided i needed to listen to it since i have no idea what’s on it. and i had an urge to listen to APC too. i figured i’d apply at hard rock for at least some money for a while, even if it was only part time or something. maybe when it stops raining. i hate driving in the rain.

anyone want to hire me? i can make you a really nice website. oh yeah that’s the other thing i was going to do. market myself for webdesign. i need a to do list.

 

never fails.

it was hailing really badly again. so i moved my car into the garage. in the whole 3 seconds (seriously) it took for me to get from the garage into my car, i got soaking wet. and pelted with hail. inside the car, the windows were so fogged from the temperature change i couldn’t see anything. got into the garage, came back upstairs, and it stopped raining. more or less. just sprinkling now. still thundering though, so i’m contemplating turning the computer off again. there was a major brown out for a few seconds as windows was loading, not good….whatever.

and dave navarro played guitar on the piggy remix from further down the spiral. who knew.

 

never fails. again.

it stopped raining for the most part, so i decided i’d go to the blvd mall to find my mom a birthday gift. i get in the car and start driving, it starts pouring. i get to the mall, the pavement isn’t even wet. no rain. no hail. no storm. so i run in, see that the thing is cheaper online, get back in the car and decide to go to the outlet mall. so i’m driving down the blvd. it’s lightning, but no rain. not until you get to north tonawanda. of course. so i keep driving down the blvd, and then it starts to hail, again. big ass hail. lots of it. no one is driving over 20 mph because you can’t see, and you can’t hear a thing because of the hail pelting the car. it was so bad. i wanted to turn off on nash and go home, before i had an anxiety attack, but was in the wrong lane. so i figured if it’s still like this, i’ll turn at ward and go home. so it was still hailing horribly, and i managed to get to ward. by this time the ground is completely white, covered in hail. i drive down ward, stops raining again!! grrrr….driving back into NT, pouring again. get to my house, stopped again.

this cloud has been sitting over NT the entire day. as i was driving to the mall, every side of me was sunny except for NT. it was weird to see how drastic the cut off of the storm was. but yeah, it’s not raining hard at the moment, but still thundering, and the big black cloud is still sitting over my neighborhood. according to the national weather service a new severe thunderstorm should be over my city in approximately 4 minutes….that’s why the sky just got another 5 shades darker. super.

wonder how badly damaged my car is now that i was driving in it. depending on the weather, might attempt to get to the outlet mall after dinner.

 

it’s sunny out.

tool is coming to buffalo. playing the arena, 40$….end of august. tix go onsale saturday so i have time to decide if i’m going to go or not. eric already declined cuz of the $ factor, and that leaves no one else to go with. pretty sure danielle will be in indiana by then. tool’s also playing hamilton 2 days later, which might be cheaper, but i can’t find any ticket info grrr.

i should call eric about going to the mall, but i hate the telephone so….haha

 

i gave in and called eric about going to the mall. amanda came with us too. of course the perfume stores didn’t have what i needed. i might go to the duty free shop tomorrow. we’ll see. and i have to make an appointment to get my car inspected. dad said to take it to the dealer, maybe they won’t charge me alot. lol.

so my birthday is next friday. i figured i’d make a list of what i want, so that when no one gets me any of them, i can remember what i wanted lol
– cd burner
– lemon lamp from target
– depeche mode dvd
– se7en on dvd – special edition
– the shirts from hot topic – the tinkerbell one, the fairy flying school one, alice in wonderland… i think there were others. i forget now.
– um i can’t think of anything else now…

what did we (me and eric) do last night. drove to batavia. why? *shrug* lol. started out going to Premier to get beer for my dad, then didn’t know what to do, so just drove down sheridan and didn’t stop. we saw a sign for Miss Batavia restaurant, so we were like ROFL MUST FIND! found it 5 min before it closed. so from batavia we drove north, and then back west to get home. got adrienne and went to dennys. eric fell asleep in my car for a while, with korn blasting…not sure how that happens lol. but i’ve fallen asleep to weird things too (metallica, prodigy, drowning pool…).

so today….dunno. gotta go get the beer out of my car since i didn’t want to bring it inside last night.

i had a trent dream last night. it’s making me feel strange. just like the first time i dreamed about him, even tho this one was far less meaningful…dunno.

 

i think i might do something so drastic that everyone would shit bricks… and join the peace corps. seriously. i’m considering it.

the secret shopper crap didn’t work out. you have to pay 40$ to access a merchant database where you find companies and contact them about hiring you to secret shop. sooo….yeah. not doing that. and i found a position in the paper today for community educator, full time, at the eating disorder association of WNY…which i could do. so i’m going to try that. and next week call about civil service exam, and all that crap. need a job.

i forgot that i told nate that i’d go on a picnic with him and melinda today. melinda called, and i was like oh yeah. but since today is father’s day and all, going to dinner with my parents. plus it’s raining, so they’re probably just going to the mall anyway.

i remembered i had another dream, that Sturges (the social science building in geneseo) was blown up by a nuclear bomb and we all got to watch. like, the used it to demolish the building, not like someone intentionally bombed geneseo haha.

adrienne found a job for me to apply to. as a secret shopper. and she said it’s some crazy pay like 25$ an hour or something. but i’m figuring u don’t work that many hours…but hey it’s something.

so yesterday, kurt and carolyn didn’t get too lost finding my house. once everyone got home from work 7 of us headed out to jack astors for dinner, then walked around the mall. kurt and carolyn left, and the last 5 of us went to the river, then my house, then buffalo wild wings. big beers. lol. i had to drive adrienne home because she had some drinks and forgot her car was at my house lol.

today eric, adr and i did the cd/thrift run. adrienne said she wanted to buy NIN cds so i wasn’t going to let that urge pass. lol she didn’t end up buying any, because they were too expensive (come on now, 8.99 for broken used? u can get it new for 7), but she did end up getting Achtung Baby so i was happy. I ended up getting Godhead – 2000 years of human error, 3t-brotherhood (LOL IT WAS A DOLLAR ALRIGHT!?!) and U2’s Rattle and Hum…i never see it used, so i figured 8$ was a good price. we hit the blvd mall after that, fun wow.

now i’m starving and my parents aren’t home. grrr. i dunno what they’re doing and if i should eat something or wait for a while. i dreamed of kiefer sutherland last night. twice. lol.

 

more new orleans pictures added. carolyn still has half a roll to finish, and then there will be even more of trent’s house…cuz my 3 and her first 6 weren’t enough 🙂 haha. which one of us is the nin fan?!?! lol

mom took ziggy to the vet today, because danielle was working. ziggy was only a year and a half overdue on her shots. oh well. then i had to go to the postoffice to send leah her nintendo game that was left in my machine when i took it home. exciting stuff, eh?

i should look for a job. i should make a website advertising my web design skills. i should send beth money for new orleans since the school is only paying 35$ a night for the hotel. i think the school needs to revise that a bit cuz i’m not sure of any where that has hotels that charge 35$ a night. especially no where that would be picked to hold the APS conference. they tend to pick big cities. whatever. at least they’re paying SOMETHING.

and i should pack my crap from my room into the crates my mom bought yesterday. by the time kurt finds my house i should be done.