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work sucked. boring, slow etc. i left around 9:30. ended up going to rumors with eric and danielle, and amanda and her friends. it was 80s night, no cover, good music. i close again tonight. hopefully get to leave early again. i have a feeling i’m going to have to stay tomorrow, which sucks.

nothing else to say.

 

home from work early again. i got out at 10:30 which was nice. and i’ll get first cut tomorrow too.

so today. i’ve gone beyond the giddiness stage and into the psycho-somatic, nervous stomach, over thinking, over analyzing, depressingly rational stage….i don’t feel good. make it stop. please. it’s been a long, long time since i’ve been this way. i don’t like it. *whine* i think i was close to blowing my car speakers out on the way to work today trying to calm myself….not talking about it anymore…incase…yeah. *zip* if you wanna know, ask me.

i have 4 friggen days off in a row. WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF FOR 4 DAYS?! as i said, sunday is danielle’s party. then monday – wednesday….what am i gonna do? i know i’m going to end up going to work to eat, cuz i miss the place so much 😛 lol. then i work swing on thurs…i close friday or saturday. a day shift one of those days, and day shift on sunday. leaving for toronto right after work on sunday.

anyway. i left for work an hour before i had to be there, because i had nothing better to do. ended up punching in and working for a half hour before preshift. extra money i guess. the night was ok, slightly busy. one of the servers actually gave us hosts each 2 bucks from her tips. she usually bitches at us for giving her the foreign customers who leave her 2$ tips for 70$ bills. not our fault that EVERYONE in the falls is foreign. lol anyway…

i started to watch the depeche mode dvd this afternoon. got 1 song into it and had to switch to popmart tour video…gah love bono. i only had watched it once before, and i didn’t realize how fantastic it was. hehe.

my day kept getting better and better. still in a fantastic mood from work, went out with eric for a while before heading to danielles. we went to the salvation army on the blvd towards military. what did i find? a hedwig and the angry inch shirt?!?!?!?! i was like DUDE HEDWIG! it was 2 bucks. black, big, but can be glitterized and spruced up. exciting!! after that headed to the outlet mall, eric got a cd for 2 bucks, and then target. then to danielles so eric could finish with the 1 computer. played pool, hung out, that’s it.

now of course, my comp is acting screwy. i think i have a virus. or at least netscape communicator is screwed up because i can’t delete any email. it just freezes the program up. i was getting a bunch of junk porn mail that i think was actually viruses….ug. so scanning for them now, we’ll see what happens.

today’s theme: one step closer 🙂

i had a FANTASTIC day. let’s just say i got a really nice surprise this morning at work :). i got over the annoyance of getting called in to open REAL fast when i saw who i got to work with. which was a complete surprise because i thought he worked the night shift tonight. 🙂 so it was just great. so so great. i’m almost giddy haha. 🙂

oh and guess who else desides to actually talk to me today? yeah, the pot head. haha. i laughed. kurt and his friend joe stopped in for lunch. they were actually there when i opened the doors haha. so kurt got to see some of the people i’ve been talking about recently – work-boy, new kid, ultra hot server…haha. he passed his judgement – in a completely heterosexual way lol. so that was nice. i got to work with other cool people too. i learned fraternity secrets haha. but shhhhh. 🙂

so there’ll be no raining on my parade tonight. i’m not sure i’ll make it the next 3 days tho. i’m sore as hell from the coughing still and my matress is not helping that much. i have 3 closing shifts in a row, and then sunday off to recover…danielle’s party, leah and bill visiting. amy might come up to. and i might invite my own personal guest to the party but we’ll see…lol

oh yeah. the kid who saw the dead body on the rocks on sunday, from when the guy jumped off the bridge. he came in today. and i was like, yo did that really happen? did you REALLY see the body? he’s like yeah. so i told him that there was nothing in the news about it, which was weird, i wanted to make sure he wasn’t lying LOL. he said no, it really happened. it happens 3 or 4 times a year apparently.

i’ve mentioned before how much i hate getting screwed over by friends right? just checking.

slightly annoyed…it really bugs me when i make semi-plans to do something, something i don’t even want to do, then people change them and neglect to tell me. so i’m still planning for something i don’t want to do, and they’re like oh no, something better came along, doing something else now sorry. oh and you’re not invited. bugs me. that’s all.

it’s real nice out so i think i’m going to wash the car. i won’t die of heat stroke probably. my window was shut all night cuz of the severe storms (haha right, it thundered like 3 times and rained for 5 minutes). when i got up, my room was 10 degrees warmer than the rest of the house, which was open all morning. ug. sucks. oh well.

 

ok so. i applied for a job with JetBlue Airlines. why? cuz i went to their site to see how much it costs to fly to NYC and they had a “work for us” link. haha.

carolyn and i might go to new york city in october. jetblue flights are 88$ round trip, and we could stay with danyell since she’ll be attending Purchase by then and wanted me to come visit anyway. we want to go to see a bunch of shows…ok well it started with going to see hedwig at midnight at some movie theatre in NYC if they are still doing it. turned into seeing other shows – into the woods (which either stars vanessa williams or john stamos…one of their shows was too expensive), and this vampire show…lol the dance of the vampires or something. which sounds sorta cheesy, except that Michael Crawford is in it….yeah he played the friggen Phantom of the Opera, so this CAN’T be bad. haha. we’ll see what happens.

i also finally filled out my application for m&t bank, which my neighbor got for me. it’s for an office job or something, not like, a bank teller. i dunno. whatever. haha.

 

got email from brooke…from high school. invitation to her housewarming party august 10th. strange. cool, but strange. i’ll have to check it out if i don’t work.

 

*proud member of the “someone to call me love” club*
2 members: me and fishy hahah

tonight was good. i finally feel like i’ve got a handle on things at work, and that i’m like, part of the crew. had to take charge a few times tonight, and it made me feel good.

so there’s this new host at work. SO CUTE!!!!! he’s really fantastic, really friendly, really nice. he has the nicest blue eyes. ended up going out to the bar with him after work, to the bar which is like, hard rock after hours lol. it was a really good time. i got kissed by a gay guy lol. he is so hot too, too bad he’s gay. talked to people from work that i haven’t really talked to before, and hung out with the new kid. i got hugs, and he bought me drinks, it was good 🙂

of course i come home at 3:30 and my mom is watching tv on the couch. she’s like, where have you been, i was about to call the police. well sorry that i didn’t know i was going to have a life tonight… 😛 whatever lol. i had fun. the new kid is going into the peace corps in the fall. i was like NO WAY, he’s like yah seriously. i’m like that’s so weird cuz i have an application for the peace corps sitting in my room. haha he was impressed lol.

 

from yahoo: “Homeland security chief Tom Ridge says the threat of terrorism may force government planners to consider using the military for domestic law enforcement, now largely prohibited by federal law”

ok yeah that’s not completely frightening and against everything america has been about since we became a country. i wonder if bush has ever heard of such a thing called the bill of rights….

and i think i didn’t stress enough in my last post how absolutely fabulous this new kid at work is lol. i am such a dork. lol. but yeah, this kid is just so great. he made a sorta random comment about how great of a movie fight club was. i freaked out lol. then when we were at the bar, he’s like, i think we should start a fight club haha. i can’t remember all the other things we talked about where we were totally in sync with eachother. but yeah….work-boy who?!?! 🙂

it is so friggen hot. i really think i’m going to melt. i don’t want to do a damn thing.

 

hot.

i decided to seek out AC afterall. i went to the bank cuz i had 3$ after last night (well last night only started with 5$ lol) and i needed gas. my mom had told me about a girl from high school who worked at my bank now and asked about me. i found that odd considering i was friends with her in 3rd grade, and then she didn’t speak to me all throughout high school. my mom had said she was married. she was there today when i went in. so i faked surprise, and happiness to see her. she asked me if i was done with school and i was like yeah, and you got married. she’s like yeah, i had a baby too. well her baby isn’t a baby, it looks about 3 years old from the picture she showed me. i’m like, sounds like you’re doing ok. she’s like, no i’m doing everything backwards. but i’m getting back on track. so i was like, oh, going back to school? she said yeah, she had 2 more years of teaching to finish, and she was going to do that. she was like, “i’m not in the gutter, but not far from it.” she seems REALLY unhappy haha. and she got fat. i swear, everyone i see from high school put on loads of weight. she was a TWIG in high school – smaller than me. and now she’s very chunky. not sure it’s all baby fat either….but anyway, i don’t know why she was telling me all that…not like i cared, not like we were friends catching up with eachother…

but speaking of people who got fat…my neighbor who is a year younger than me…saw her a few weeks ago, first time in over a year. we were like OMG she got fat. my mom found out that she gained 40 pounds!!!! that’s ALOT to gain in a short period of time, at least i think so.

so i went to the blvd mall. spent less than an hour, and i even went slow and looked in stores i wouldn’t usually go in. i must say modern fashion is hideous. since that took no time at all, i went to frisbees. no luck there either. so now i’m home, and i was gone for less than 2 hours. it’s still hot. getting cloudy though. severe weather watch for storms tonight. i’m tempted to go into work for food later, cuz yeah i’m a dork, and the new kid is working again tonight haha.

bill and leah are coming to visit sunday. sunday is danielle’s going away party too. so it works out pretty good.

 

OMG in my total happiness last night i forgot to blog the BIG DEAL that happened. and i’m talking BIG FRIGGEN DEAL! at preshift this kid walks in late with his food. he had been held up in canada for 2 hours, because they had closed the rainbow bridge…why, because some guy jumped off it!!! he actually SAW the body all twisted and dead on the rocks below (apparently the guy missed the water, dumbass), and authorities were trying to figure out how to recover the body. so after preshift i was telling the new kid about it, and he’s like woah. i’m like, i almost want to go look myself. he was like yeah so do i haha. we’re freaks. but yeah, gotta go find a news article about it now…..ok apparently this didn’t happen, because there is nothing in the buffalo news about it. i’m really not kidding.

 

 

i only worked for four and a half hours today. i left at 9:30 because i knew if i didn’t leave then when they offered i’d have to stay til 1. and i hate staying til 1, especially when i had to park far away. so i got home at 10 and the movie “keeping the faith” was just starting. ed norton is in it, and produced it, and directed it lol….so i had to watch it. it was cute. if ed norton was my priest i’d definitely go to church lol.

so next week i have mon and tues off, then work wed – saturday…ug. 4 days in a row. friday and sat i close. which totally SUCKS. i guess one good thing, even tho i’m not considering it a good thing, AND i only noticed on accident, is that i think my entire saturday shift is with work-boy. it’s pretty much guaranteed that i’ll go home early saturday, cuz i’ll be the first closer in at 3…and i’m totally not staying til 1 just to work with him. i really am past this whole crush business, even if it doesn’t seem like it. he actually sorta annoys me at the moment. he didn’t work today, so it’s not like he did something to annoy me, but he just does…

yeah, so bedtime.

 

oh christ, tomorrow is going to be 90 and i won’t be at work in AC all day. ug ug ug. i can’t even say i’ll go to the mall, cuz it takes me all of 15 min to go through the mall.

today is my dad’s company picnic. i originially was going to go, but then i have to work at 5 tonight. so i was going to go for a while, then leave for work. but dinner isn’t served until 4:30 (i’d have to be gone by then), and it doesn’t start til 2 (they’re not going until 2:30/3:00) so there really is no point in me going. plus i don’t have enough gas. i think tomorrow is cheap gas day at sunoco. if not tomorrow, tuesday. and either day, i can probably make it to on what i have left in my tank.

my back really hurts. stressed out from coughing. i think i’m getting better. let’s hope.

i got to be the “rocker” today at work. which meant i was in charge. i forgot how much i like telling people what to do 🙂 apparently some of us are getting trained to be bussers as well, we find out at the meeting that is in 8 hours. which means i should go to bed lol.

osama bin laden would be mortified at the family who came in today. it was a group of some kind of islamics, with their turbans and what not. well the teenage boy had on his turban and then over it he had a backwards visor on hehe. i laughed at the merging of cultures. then i felt bad, because i realized when i was driving home i gave them completely wrong directions to goat island. only good thing is, is that they came back in not too long after to use the bathroom again…so they probably didn’t go to goat island.

 

i’ve been coughing for the last half hour. my mom has come in my room twice. they’re gonna make me go to the doctor. arg. i cant stop coughing tho, especially if i lay down. so i am in front of my comp again….i just want to sleep.

 

i don’t know when i managed to stop coughing and fall asleep, but 8:20 was way too early to get up to go to work for the meeting. we were all half asleep lol. i got paid to sit there for an hour tho, which was nice. and i got my pay check. and i found out work-boy lives with the ultra hot server. they’re roommates. still don’t know the gay-factor, if there is one. but that’s ok cuz i decided when i left, work-boy really isn’t my type and even if something were to happen it really wouldn’t work out. so yeah. totally done with that.

i guess the eminem show last night was pretty blah…buffalo shows always suck haha

i am getting my haircut at 12, then i need to sleep cuz i feel like dying.

 

if anyone needs an example of how much magazine covers/ads/etc are air brushed, check out the new issue of cosmo girl. kelly osbourne is on the cover. everyone knows she is not tall OR skinny…it’s like, her head on someone elses body. and i think that’s really awful. i think alot of people look at kelly and see someone cool, and the fact that she doesn’t look like super model is a good thing IMO…give young girls someone to look up to who isn’t still living in the “heroin chic” look of the 90s…

dying, nap now.

 

i downloaded trent’s celebrity deathmatch and reptile mp3 from the dvd last night. so great. cuz the dvd version of reptile is the greatest live version of it i’ve ever heard – better than the one with bowie. the celeb death match is trent vs puff daddy. anyone know what year it was from? because mills lane puts the 2 men back together as hybrids, and they’re like “he’s created a new kind of musical style” and i was just wondering if that came before or after the rap rock craze….

 

slept all day. awake now, nothing to do. seems eric went to erie to see adrienne. i think danielle was going to go unless she had to do family shit…so either way, she’s either there, or doing family shit. and i have no other friends lol. i guess it doesn’t matter that i close the next 2 days.

 

i forgot to mention before…about the meeting. apparently my store has this policy that if you’re late for a meeting, you have to sing something in front of everyone. last meeting, work-boy and ultra-hot server were late, so they had to get up in front of the entire store (kitchen staff and everything) and sing “row row row your boat”. work-boy said he didn’t even know the words. so 2 people were late to our meeting today, so work-boy got to pick what songs they sang for us. the girl had to sing “i’m a little tea pot”, and the kid had to sing “itsy bitsy spider” hahaha.

i dreamed i was an m&m…haha

i’ve found a bunch of the depeche mode kroq mp3s, but none of them numbered in order or anything like the first time i found them when 1 person had them all. arg. i haven’t listened to any yet. they might be crap quality making it completely pointless to find them all.

well i was woken up at 8 today by my stupid throat and the need to cough for an entire half hour. went back to sleep after that til 11:30. i work at 5.

 

2 things.

1. martin gore is god…. home, sister of night, question of lust, one caress…need i say more?
2. i think i broke ribs coughing. cuz now i get stabbing sharp pains in my rib cage when i cough or move. ug this is not good. really hurts.

good thing: i’ve found a fault in work-boy!!!!!
bad thing: i’d probably overlook it if he expressed any interest in me, cuz he has the nicest smile ever. lol. and an eyebrow ring, and really great hair….
he came up to the host stand and was talking to us. he had a pain in his abdomen and he didn’t know what from. so i was like, maybe it’s your appendix. he said it really hurt. so then the day progressed and he came back up, we asked him if he felt any better and he was like, it really hurts, but i think i might have just pulled a muscle this morning *mutter mutter something or another*. no idea what he said, but it was something about smoking pot. lol. so that’s the fault, he’s apparently a giant pothead. he doesn’t ever look stoned though, so other than the hemp necklace i’d have never guessed. he disappeared long before his shift ended, and i dunno if maybe his appendix burst or he just got sent home lol. hope it was choice 2.

work was good. it wasn’t that busy, we never were waiting, and it was kinda fun. i worked with some cool people, and we had stuff to talk about. good times. one of the servers (who turns out to be 19 even tho she looks like 25) is going to the gambling tent at canal fest tonight, cuz she was there last night and has to win back her money lol. i might switch to a day shift on saturday instead of my close, but i dunno yet. this guy came in today because he had a meeting with a manager, his name was Tom Sawyer…lol.

canal fest never ceases to amaze me. the amount of disgusting people there was overwhelming. but yeah. it always amazes me. when you think it can’t get any worse(better) it does. we saw some fine specimines tonight. including 2 hashbrown guy who wouldn’t let us take his picture last year. haha. so eric, danielle and i spent the evening walking around, and sitting on the bridge. we played the “gum game” once, which was a mighty fine time.

canal fest is also quite depressing. we see the usual NTHS trash walking around. this year included 2 of the more trashy white trash folk from high school – both with brand new babies. ok, the one girl is the rat faced girl who shares my birthday. the other one is this really ugly fat girl, who no matter how much she weighed, she’d always be ugly. both had really young babies. HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN!? WHO FUCKS THAT?! AND HOW DO I NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND?! lol

but anyway, good time as always. after that we went to dennys on maple but it was closed til 2 am, so we went to IHOP instead. change is good lol.

 

sara’s amazing ab workout = get bronchitis

ok, since i have no memory i don’t know what my plans are for the next two months. if anyone remembers something i’m supposed to be doing, that isn’t on this list, let me know.
aug 4-6 = toronto for david bowie
aug 25 = tool in hamilton
that’s all i remember lol. i just need to know so i can request off more days if i need to. for some reason i think i was supposed to be doing something else…

i got called for another job from posting my resume online. this time from teletech (or something) who do customer service for verizon. i said no right away to the sales position, but the other position is straight out customer service. working the fones for people who have questions i guess. i told her i’d call back. it’s 9$ an hour, 40 hrs a week. i don’t really want to do that….grrr. hate this job crap. my neighbor down the street apparently got me an application for M&T banks offices, and i’d rather just work in an office than have to deal with customer service on the telephone. i hate the fone lol.

i was looking for cds to buy on half.com. i feel guilty that i haven’t bought untouchables yet, but no one has it cheap enough for me lol. looked for tea party too, but nothing cheap. and i don’t understand how people can charge so much for tool’s Opiate… it’s an EP for gods sake!!! it is not worth 12$!!!!!! it’s not worth 8!!!! 7.99 plus shipping was the lowest on half.com. insane. still no opiate for me.

 

i downloaded the pre-release of netscape 7. it’s hideous. it looks like i’m on a mac. and when will people realize, macs suck. it still doesn’t read my css right…it’s just awful. i tried it because i hoped that the mail program would be nice. it had what i’m looking for, multiple account setup, but it just looks hideous. so i’ll stick with netscape 4.7 for my email.

and i realized that jeff martin DOES sing different lyrics in heaven coming down than all the typed up lyrics ive found…and it’s the real lyrics, not the ones in the book, that really struck me at the show. i found this really great mp3 of temptation live, but it’s cut off, of course…arg. i found depeche mode live at kroq 1998, and of course, can’t download it. arg.

i told my mom about how my one manager at work reminds me of my cousin warren. she asks me how tall he is, and i was like he’s shorter than me. she’s like, you always like short guys. i was like ?!?!?! where’d that come from. did i say i liked him? no. she’s like, well you could date him. haha. first off he’s got a girlfriend, secondly, he’s like 30 (to which my mom replies, that’s not too old for you…?!?!?), and third, HE REMINDS ME OF MY COUSIN and that’d just be gross. lol. i forgot to mention that there’s this kid at work, who lives in NT also, who reminds me of Ed Norton.

 

canal fest day 2. i forgot alot of what i was going to say about it now. eric, danielle and i headed over for the parade. i think this year is the first year i’ve sat there through the entire parade. LOL. we were standing behind old people who ended up moving, so we got to sit on the railing of the bridge. we kept giving candy to the girls that were standing behind us. i only wanted the double bubble gum lol. the parade was the usual. of course everything has special meaning after sept 11th, so everytime a military, police, or fire company walked by everyone clapped. someone in the area bought a fire truck that responded to the WTC on sept 11th on ebay for $6,500 so that was in the parade. some fire company made a really nice float of an american flag with black WTC on it, and then had people posing like that famous “Raising the flag at WTC” picture. some politician was giving out mardi gras beads, but when they walked by they didn’t give any to anyone… so i screamed that i was a registered voter…still didn’t get any beads, so someone is not getting my vote.

speaking of politicians tho, i finally got to see the hot county coroner LOL. danielle’s been telling me about him for 4 years now, and i finally saw him. her dad was working at the republican tent today so we went to get free drinks, and the coroner was there. yeah, he’s hot. i was staring at him, and he looked at me then away, then back at me and i was still staring at him, and he looked away then back at me AGAIN and i was STILL staring at him LOL. then the 3 of us were standing with our drinks, and he comes over and just goes “Hi” and walks away LOL. it was great.

we saw more people from high school, people actually worth talking to. found out some gossip (which is the whole point of going to canal fest) and guess who else i saw…psycho ex boyfriend. and he has 2 kids now. a girl and a boy. he’s got long hair, goatee, but looks the same. seeing him made me want to throw up. just purely due to the fact that i dated that piece of shit.

hmm what else. i bought devil horns. hehe they light up. unfortunately, i was secretly hoping to run into a certain someone from work. grrrrr make it stop. lol we didn’t go to the beer tent cuz it was super jam packed. there were 2 marching bands in there playing, and tons of other people. and it’s just not that important to us lol. maybe tomorrow, i work til 6 again. which means i’ll probably leave at 4:30 lol.