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i’m wondering if there is anyone with MTV who hasn’t seen the christina agulera special, considering that every time i turn the channel on, that show is on. i missed bono’s africa special, and has that been rerun? not that i’ve seen. but christina gets played every day.

i have a massive headache which is cutting into my mall plans. i dunno if i can handle it or not, so i’m gonna wait a bit for the drugs to hopefully kick in.

talked to danielle on the phone last night for an hour. that’s gonna be one massive phone bill – but at least it was a sunday night, aren’t rates supposed to be cheaper then? she keeps saying there is nothing to do out there, so we’re trying to think of things. we might go to indianpolis on saturday, but she found out Shannon Hoon from blind melon is buryed not too far from her, so we’re going to go find his grave LOL like we’re even blind melon fans, it’s just something to do. and she’s going to try to find axl rose’s house so we can do that too.

 

and i hate girls. we’re such bitches. some more than others. like…something that’s gone on for a few months now, i just don’t get how someone can do what this person is doing. it really pisses me off. i totally couldn’t do that to someone else. obviously, i can’t really talk about this in anymore words haha. so i’ll just leave it at that. girls are bitches. i hate them.

 

why i love frisbees
see: 1$ u2 “last night on earth” single
see also: 1$ u2 “discotheque” single
see also: free u2 best of album flat

haha. so yeah, went to the mall and frisbees. got new shoes for 10 bucks, they’re ugly, but better than those horrible 70s retro shoes that everyone has. almost bought 2 more jackets LOL. well really only 1…red fur LOL it was so rad, but then realistically i’d never wear it, so i didn’t buy it. then leather limited has the red leather coat i want, 119$…guess had a really nice one too for 199$…everyone has the exact coat i want, just not in red, and it annoys me. no halloween stuff either. there was no halloween store at the galleria, so i could only look at costumes at spencers and they were picked over. i found cat stuff, but it doesn’t come with the outfit, just the ears and tail…and i’d have nothing to wear them with (of course nate wouldn’t mind :P). well, i lie. hot topic had a black vinyl cat suit but… not really diggin that LOL. the other things they had were too much money for me to spend to wear for like 2 hours. like, red leather skirt and stuff…can’t afford it.

update on the bed thing: i guess we’re gonna take my bed apart now, and i get to sleep in the spare room til the mattress switch goes down. whatever. i just want it to happen soon.

 

i’ve been in total depeche mode…mode LOL (god i amuse myself) so i watched half the dvd.. only half cuz i got bored in the middle. few things. anton corbijn should stick to taking pictures and not directing films/concerts. there was some wack ass camera work, that was just…dumb. and it seemed like the sound mix wasn’t right – the vocals were too loud, sometimes you couldn’t hear the background music. but maybe i’m just spoiled with how good the nin dvd was in capturing the actual experience – making it feel like you are there, even on my 13″ tv lol.

nate came over around 8 last night. hung out here for a while, watched half the sabres game *sucked*, talked to my parents who came home and invaded the family room with us haha. went to dennys, and took up joe’s midnight bowling invitation. it was us, joe, mary and some of joe’s friends. had a good time. someone (nate) learned how to bowl. i mean he really did suck when we went with mike and kristen, and last night it was like… where are these strikes coming from?!?! he beat me and joe every game. i had a 120, 61, 120, 107, 80something…lol. i think nate’s last game was a 147…lol. someone doesn’t suck anymore. i beat joe the first game, by alot hahahaha. first time ever. i won 50 cents when i picked up some kind of split, but forgot to get my money. nate won a couple bucks but forgot too.

so today i’m going to spend the day at nate’s house watching football haha. i told him, u have to hang out with me tomorrow even if that means i have to watch football. i’m still trying to get him to carve pumpkins with me, but dunno if that’s gonna happen anymore. sunday’s is their big even longer than normal dinner, and his grandpa is visiting, then he’s gotta go to bed early to leave on the work trip again so who knows if the pumpkin thing is gonna happen. we were trying to think of halloween costumes yesterday. i guess he decided on being a scots man and wearing his kilt LOL. i still don’t really have one – mom suggested my chinese prom dress, but i’m thinking that’s a little bit un-politically correct especially when most of our customers at work are asian LOL. ok when i reread that last sentence i totally thought it said chinese porn dress and i was like WHAT DID I TYPE! haha. anyway. so yeah. i’m probably going to end up wearing the morticia dress…maybe i can find my vampire teeth and fix them so that they fit (i could never make them the right way).

 

home again. spent the day on nate’s couch watching the bills game. watched him and his brother play catch during half time, and for a bit after the game. since i was there nate got out of changing the tire on the van, and doing chores haha. we went for a little walk, but it was freezing. i ended up eating dinner over there. it’s definitely different being in a big family. the whole passing of the food, and they say grace which made me feel so out of place but that’s ok. it’s just weird. even holidays in michigan isn’t the same as dinner was tonight, but of course that’s cuz my family is insane lol. nate’s family’s dinner was definitely the typical tv family dinner. and it did take a long time LOL. but anyway.

indiana is final and ready to go. here are the plans for the next few weeks. nate’s gone til thursday night this week, then doing something for halloween (and for some reason nate really wants me to be a cat…?). don’t know if i’ll see him friday or not, then saturday he’s leaving to go visit his grandma in NJ and aunt in Mass, coming home thursday so we can up and leave on friday for indiana. spend the weekend at danielle’s, leave sunday night, go halfway get a hotel, go the rest of the way home on monday. and then no more trips for nate, so i’ll actually get to see him for 2 weeks before he leaves. he keeps doing something that bugs me. he keeps talking about things we should do, that there is no way we’ll ever do. things that we don’t have time to do because he’s leaving for 2 years. he said something today about how we should have a bbq…he mentioned going to paris…and it’s like, i want to tell him just to stop saying things like that. it seems like everytime i see him he’s mentioning something that we should do, and it’s getting to me. blah. i dunno. whatever.

i work tuesday, thursday, saturday day, sunday night. mike and kristen are moving over the weekend, and i told them i’d help, but i don’t think they remember haha. tomorrow i think i’m gonna go shopping. maybe find a halloween costume for relatively cheap – spencers had some cool ones – and i need new shoes really badly. i know if i mention this to my mom, and she goes to the mall with me she’ll buy them. but i don’t know if that’s worth the hassle of going to the mall with my mom. she takes way too long, and is way too annoying. so we’ll see. maybe she just won’t be home when i get up hahah.

 

oh yeah. before i went to nate’s i stopped at kelly’s country store so i wouldn’t be too early, since it’s right by his house. it was childhood tradition to go to kelly’s every year to see santa, because they had the most amazing christmas display in the back of the store. like, i can’t even explain it (especially not from 14 year old memories), but it was always dazzling. it’s been years since i’ve been in there. i can’t remember when mom stopped taking me…i guess when i stopped believing in santa claus…but anyway…i walked in and couldn’t not grin. i probably looked like an idiot, but it’s exactly the same as the last time i was there. the whole big candy counter, and the rooms with gifts, the mug wall. the old projector machine thing…of course the xmas room isn’t open til after thanksgiving. but it was great. so i bought some chocolate suckers to take to nate’s house, couldn’t leave empty handed. hehe. nostalgia.

thank god i didn’t have to work a full shift today. it just seemed to go by soooooo slowly, and it was only 4 hours. it was slower than expected so mgr called off the swing shift, so there were only 2 of us at the door. mgr is making us open the doors for guests now. sorry, i’m not a door woman. and it’s fricken freezing outside, i don’t want to go anywhere near the door. so that’s gonna end real quickly once it starts getting even colder – today it’s actually like 50 out. i got my paystub, and it’s way more than i expected, which is nice.

doing something with nate after dinner. he didn’t get home til late last night and was exhausted – there’s a shock. turns out i don’t need to pick him up thursday, he’s gonna somehow work it out to take his car down for the week, and come home thursday night. probably won’t get home til 10 or after so we might be able to catch some kind of halloween thing. i am working on halloween day, so now i need to find a stupid costume :P.

i think the parents went out to buy me a mattress today. before i left they asked me if i had a soft/hard preference – like i know. i’ve had the same mattress for 22 years. and the school mattresses don’t count since they were sex broken crap. lol. so mom was going to pass judgement on the comfort level of the mattress. i was walking out the door, and was like I WANT A NEW BED! lol. i’m assuming i’m not getting one.

i wonder who won the T-NT game last night. like i care. hahaha

woopoprit: one of tiff’s friends in the math lab was like, “I went to family values, why was everyone booing orgy? They’re like Depeche Mode, only angrier!”

 

hahah

so now that blogger works…

i’m convicing my mom to buy me a whole new bed – queen size. using the rationale of i’m 22 years old, when i move out, i’m not going to want a twin bed, so we might as well buy me a whole new bed i can take with me, instead of just a new mattress. we went to these two wholesale cheap stuff places to look at mattresses. the one place had a twin mattress/box spring for 249$…the 2nd place had a queen size bed, box spring, and mattress set for 279$ lol. it’s a black iron bed frame, not high quality, but i don’t care. i want it. the guy sold me on it LOL but that’s cuz i’m such a sucker. then he was saying something about how guys like tall girls haha i’m like ok yeah i have a boyfriend. anyway, so we got measurements for full and queensize beds to see how it would fit in my room, and how much furniture we’d have to get rid of to make a new bed fit. but i want a new bed so bad now LOL. i guess she’s going to take my dad out to look at them or something. whatever. i want a new bed now, or well before dec 3rd haha.

speaking of dec 3rd, mom was talking to me about buying nate a going away gift and stuff, and i’m just like, yeah i don’t want to talk about that. it’s getting me all sad again today. somedays i’m ok with it, other days not as much. but i’m to the point where i honestly don’t think him leaving is going to be as big of a deal as i thought it was going to be. because when he’s been away for his job, or to dc, i’ve been fine. it’s knowing i can’t see him when he is still around that makes me all wacko. knowing it’s impossible to see him, it’s not so bad. mom’s idea for the gift was really good tho, so i might do that. and deoderant. gotta buy him the deoderant lol.

what else did i have to say while blogger was broken? i hate my body. yep.

 

i don’t know why getting me a new bed is such a big issue. my dad seems totally against it. he’s like, you don’t need a new bed. i guess he doesn’t realize i’m an adult, and that at some point i’m going to meet someone i’m going to marry, and need a double bed 😛 lol. my parents are “arguing” about it right now, i walked into it haha. i’m like *whisper* buy me a new bed. haha. my mom has no problem with it, dad seems offended…cuz he bought my bed for me when i was like 3. 20 years with the same mattress. they haven’t had their mattress 20 years and they want a new one. so wtf. i want a new bed.

anyway. adr came over tonight to watch the sabres game. no sign of nate, so he couldn’t even give me the “i’m tired” excuse lol. his brothers birthday is tomorrow and i’m workign 11-3 now, so i’ll have to call him when i get home i guess. i want to do something halloween-ish since we probably won’t end up doing anything on thursday – like the haunted catacombs, and carving pumpkins.

blah. still hate my screwed up body.

massive headache. post will be short.

did not want to get out of bed today. no reason really, just didn’t want to. i was uncomfortable, and in pain as usual, but i didn’t want to get up and go to work. but i did. of course. work was boring. a middle school field trip came in, it was sorta crazy. it was funny because at first we left the music on normal, and ACDC and Guns n Roses came on and i realized – these kids have no idea who they are. when i was in middle school gnr was popular, and now these kids prolly never heard of them before. lol. then we switched to pop music, and it was ricky martin, followed by bsb, then britney, jessica simpson and otown..it was…excruciating. haha.

i managed to get mgr to guarantee me halloween night off so i can pick up nate. she agreed since i actually have a legit excuse why i can’t work, not just cuz its halloween like everyone else. she might have to put me on during the day though, which i said was fine, but that means i need to find a costume. if all else fails, i have my MJ thriller jacket, i can wear with my black leather pants or something. at least it’s not my uniform and would sorta count as a costume lol

omg i’m going to puke and/or die.

i MIGHT have a job. key word: MIGHT. temp agency called this morning with a data entry position BUT…BUT…it’s only a few months long, not temp to permanent but i said fine. AND it’s already filled, but if one of the people doesn’t work out they’ll call me. probably by the end of today. starts monday, so it would be enough time for me to tell hard rock i can’t work next week. i might call them and tell them i can’t work on halloween anyway, cuz it’ll be easier that way incase i have to pick up nate. and then i wouldn’t have to find a costume to wear to work haha.

speaking of nate going to dunkirk he made a comment as he was leaving about sneaking me into his hotel room while he’s down there. i was like, don’t tempt me, cuz i was so totally drive down there tomorrow night since i have friday off lol.

my parents went to some of the buildings that were actually OPEN over the weekend (Grrrr) and they went to the budda palace in NF canada. they brought me back a free gift. this little transistor thing that plays a buddhist chant over and over. haha it’s so great.

i thought of another best guitar riff of all time: aerosmith’s “sweet emotions”…and as a reminder, the first best ever was ozzy’s “crazy train”

 

i dreamed about jurassic park last night. now i want to watch it, but don’t own it, and no one has the first one to download…

yesterday: work was so friggen slow. there were no customers, i was bored to death. i left at 10, was supposed to leave at 9:30 but mgr never came and told me to leave so i didn’t haha.

today: for some reason i set my alarm for a half hour later than i normally get up for work when i work at 10:30…i looked at the clock while i was finishing doing my hair, and it said 10:07…and it takes me 20 min to get to work… yeah. flew out the door, grabbed breakfast to take with me, went 75 mph, but was stuck in construction traffic otherwise i would have been ontime. i was only like 3 minutes late, so i didn’t bother to call or anything. but then i felt all weird, cuz the restaurant opened early for the MDA “Lock up” fund raiser, so when i walked in we were already open, and the bar tender was like “nice of you to show up”….so i was like um was i supposed to be here early? i wasn’t, but if i had been i wouldn’t have known since i was supposed to work tonight but switched.

anyway, there were still no customers today. lots of the MDA fundraiser people, but only a handful of customers. so allstar and i worked on the Jumble in the news paper for over an hour. it was so frustrating, neither one of us could get them. finally i got the last 3 in a matter of minutes. haha. the whole change in music thing is already good and bad…bad=lots more elvis, good=puddle of mudd’s “she fucking hates me” and the Larry-getting-it-on-with-a-mermaid-video aka U2’s “electrical storm”… it came on and i didn’t think anything of it, then i was like WAIT! THIS NEVER WAS PLAYED HERE BEFORE! i was all excited. oh yeah, another bad=avril lavigne lol.

nate stopped by my house today while i was at work. wasn’t that nice of him. figures i wasn’t here. my mom called me at work to tell me LOL. apparently he was going from the falls back to the office in amherst, so my house is sorta on the way. but wow, he was thoughtful. SHOCK a boy was thoughtful. we’re going out tonight, dunno what we’re doing though. should be hearing from him soon (well in the next 2 hours).

looks like i didn’t get a casino job. or at least a dealer job. i keep hearing about people who’ve already started training…i’m still gonna call friday if i don’t hear anything by then. and i hate how all these people my mom knows keep telling her they’ll get me a job (mostly at banks) and they send me the applications to fill out, i send them back, and don’t get a job…don’t tell her you’ll hire me and then don’t. it sucks. thanks.

 

ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGG nate’s fucking going away AGAIN. leaving tomorrow til friday for dunkirk with work, home for the weekend, then back to dunkirk for the ENTIRE FUCKING WEEK. jesus fucking christ. it’s bad enough this time is going WAY TOO FUCKING FAST, he has to be GONE all the fucking time. next week is his last week at the job, so he’s trying to get out of it so he can at least come home thursday night for halloween. if he can get out of it, i have to drive down on thursday and pick him up cuz he’ll have no other way to come home. he’ll have all of november off, he’s taking a chunk of days to say good bye to his grandma down in NJ, and swing up to see other family in NYC and Mass….and then going to indiana with me to see danielle, and then he’s fucking leaving. arg. this is so not cool. all i know is he is spending every single day this weekend with me. no fucking football on sunday for him, tough shit. not unless he’s watching it with me 😛

anyway. he came over around 6:30, chilled here for a bit, went to the mall to find his brother a birthday gift. he found a gift but wanted to get it somewhere cheaper – like comp usa, or toys r us, or best buy. no one had it til best buy, and it ended up being the same price lol. then we came back here and watched the rest of the sabres game, then he left to go pack and go to bed for his trip.

there, new layout. shirley manson. yeah. obviously, the floating frames didn’t frustrate me totally. i might have finally figured them out. hahaha.

i have to work tomorrow night now, 4 to close. more hours for me. michelle called me, cuz they told her i wanted hours so i guess my note worked. something about how her and her boyfriend were going to go out tonight for sweetest (or is it sweetess) day, but he got called in so now they need to go out tomorrow night blah blah blah. yeah…sweetest/ess day…whatever. everyone is making a really big deal out of it. i had no idea it really existed. LOL. the retail girls kept telling me about it, and how they bought their boyfriends such and such gift, and how they better at least get a card. i was like um…yeah…i’m sure nate’s never heard of the “holiday”. hahah now he’s just in DC so he’s got an excuse – not like i was expecting anything to begin with.

ok bed time i guess.

 

new orgy material leaked onto the net. at LEAST 3 songs…i have names for 3 songs, but i think there are more. can i find any? nope. they’re called “beautiful disgrace”, “oblivious” and “the one”…there are no good orgy sites anymore. the only confirmation i got that songs actually were leaked is from d1music, who scheduled a chat with jay last night to talk about it. gah. need.new.orgy.material.!

freezing. need to write an mps post today (i got roped in again). need to go to work. need to eat.

OMG found the orgy songs! gah love the internet. found “the one” OMG it rocks so hard. SO EXCITING!!!!!! it’s sorta different, like they said, not as much electronics, harder…gah this is great!

 

mom was telling me about this Doors Open Niagara free tour of buildings thing that’s going on this weekend. she said i could go with nate or adrienne, and i’m like ok we’re young we don’t really give a shit about buildings…that was until she said the Buffalo Psych Center was one of the buildings. I screamed LOL. i was like AHHHHHH I’M SO GOING! lol. HOPEFULLY you go inside and it’s not a friggen tour of the grounds. i’ve walked around the grounds before. the point of this thing is to go INSIDE buildings… i’m so there. now i don’t have to break in.

 

*hides*i really like the new eminem song from 8 mile*unhides*

i think it’s funny most people in the country won’t get what “8 mile” means, but i do lol.

work was fine, sorta busy, but not too bad. there was 2 of us on tonight, had a good time. interesting conversations, mostly about sex LOL i reek of cigarette smoke worse than normal. there are good new changes coming to hard rock. eric won’t be able to bitch as much when he comes in about the music. they’re changing it and taking out most/all of the teenie bopper pop bands from rotation. no more backstreet boys, nsync, britney, christina etc…the only pop music they’ll play are things in the top 40, and as soon as they fall out of the top 40 they’re out of rotation. however shakira is still getting played 10 times a day…hopefully that’ll be gone soon. more classic rock is going to be added i guess. hopefully they’ll add some more korn and stuff. they play 4 linkin park videos but only 1 NIN and 1 Korn vid…?!?

that’s all for now. psych center tomorrow! the film is gonna cost me an arm and a leg to develop. oh christ they better let me take pictures.

while the probability of nate getting shot by the sniper in DC is still very very low, it’s really freaking me out. i talked to fishy in baltimore about it last night, to see if she was scared, and she is. i guess she’s like 20 min away from where some of the shootings were. and the whole thing to me makes no sense…why would anyone do this?!?! ug. fucking psycho people. something else that is really scary, is that the sniper is KILLING people with ONE SHOT. i mean, this person must be hella good with a gun. i shot a gun when i was probably 11ish…i couldn’t hit a paint can 50 feet away. and it was a small hand gun, not alot of kickback, but enough for me to not be able to hit a target. if i was aiming at a person i’d probably graze their arm lol. the good thing is my friend said the sniper takes the weekends off, and has yet to shoot anyone between friday and sunday since they started. but then ty pointed out he has to make up for lost time the last few days :P. ug. can i just go in a coma until sunday night? so then i don’t have to worry or find anything to do with my time LOL. i’m going to be compulsively checking the news until sunday night.

right so yeah, talking to fishy i realized i have this weekend off too, and could have asked nate if i could tag along on their trip. they could have dropped me off to spend the weekend with her. but there was no way i was going to even ask if i could tag along. i’d feel too weird, and stuff. but then i was pissed i had even thought of the idea, cuz then i really wanted to do it. so now me and fishy are gonna plan a weekend to get together. probably early next year, cuz i had another brilliant idea hehe. we’re going to try to work it out so she can drive up here, get me, and then we can go to cleveland to see the U2 exhibit at the r&r hall of fame. of course there is no opening date, so we can’t plan anything yet…

i forgot to mention, there was another fire on my way home from work yesterday. big cloud of purple/black smoke. it looked like it was down on river road, but there was no way i was going to wait in the construction traffic in rush hour, so i took the long way home and never found where the fire was. plus, they put it out while i was still in the car, cuz the smoke stopped. since i stopped at the grocery store i missed the beginning of the local news to see if they mentioned it, so dunno what happened.

i work monday, tuesday, thursday again next week. i close monday, was supposed to close tuesday but switched for day, and day thursday. i wanted to switch monday so i could see nate monday night, but the day shift girl only can work days…plus i already know nate will be too tired to hang out monday, so it’s ok. but i switched tuesday so i can see him tuesday night. and next weekend off again…it’s really nice having weekends off…. IF I EVER HAD ANYTHING TO DO lol. it’s too bad we can’t go down to indiana this month…nate probably can’t take anymore days off work to go next weekend. oh well. something will get worked out. i should see how much a plane costs down there. maybe there are some deals that will be cheaper than the gas spent, and hotel for one night…

 

i’m addicted to a new computer game – bejeweled….it’s dangerous. it’s my new snood.

besides playing that, i’m working on a new design. no time table for when it’ll be up because it’s more complicated than my more recent ones. trying out floating frames again…once i get frustrated enough i’ll probably ditch this design lol. but we’ll see. i like how it’s going to turn out, if i can get the floating frames right.

we were watching the news during dinner, about the haunted harbor in wilson and mom asked me why nate isn’t involved in any local theatre groups. so i was like, “he was only involved in theatre for the girls – since he’d be one of the only straight guys there”…my mom is like, “he’s not promiscuous is he?” LOL…what do i say to that? i was like *shrug* lol she said something about how she hopes he’s not, since he’s going to africa or something. i finally thought of something to say, and was like “i didn’t say he GOT any of the theatre girls” lol. it was just sorta weird. i don’t really want to talk about my boyfriend’s past/present sex life with my parents, thanks.