Author Archives: Elegant

i love eric. orgy, chicago, vapor transmission tour. best bootleg i’ve ever heard (quality wise). gah!! so great!!

well the miracle vegas headache cure worked for 5 days. got one last night cuz i was hungry and sat in front of my comp too long and didn’t go away last night. so i took 1 excedrin this morning (all i had left) and had breakfast so hopefully it’ll leave soon. i can’t do the miracle cure on myself real good. i can’t do it hard enough or long enough for it to work. i need to hire someone just to stab me in the back of my head every now and then lol.

gotta go to the postoffice to send danielle the orgy bootleg and dr allen stuff for the letter. he finally got back to me about it. he’s got 2 weeks to get it done now. then i gotta go to aldi for mom. super fun wow. i gotta call nate’s parents soon to see if they have anything they want to send along in my package. i was going to call this week but his sister might still be there, and home during the day, so i’d have to talk to her when all i really want to do is just leave a message on the machine haha. i’m so anti-social. actually i’d rather talk to nate’s sister and have her leave a message than his brothers. haha.

ren and stimpy is so ridiculously disgustingly great haha. and omg this steven lynch song “altar boy”…rofl holy shit it’s so bad hahah. it’s about exactly what you think it’s about lol…

i’ve been checking the weather where nate is…right now (er 11 pm their time) it’s 82 and widespread dust. that’s not a forcast you’d ever see here haha.

fred durst is dating britney spears hahahaha

i’m such a loser. started crying in eckerd. stupid valentines day cards. there was this one i miss you/valentines day card. stupid card. totally would have gotten that one to send to nate if we were actually trying to stay together while he was gone. but since we’re not, i got this other one. one that didn’t make me cry, but is still probably too mushy. it’s not mushy at all, but i’m paranoid about the message i’m sending to him by getting all this stuff to send him and everything. whatever. he can deal with it. he has no choice. got him those necco conversation hearts and nerds. the conversation hearts are so lame now that they have “email me” and “fax me” and crap on them. how romantic. and they taste disgusting, but that’s an entirely different story.

went and got 2 more uniform shirts and a vest. no pants still since they ordered them for me last week. too bad i couldnt scam bigger shirts tho. oh well.

to whoever keeps getting magazines sent to me. if you want to resubscribe to rolling stone for me, feel free. i wasn’t going to do it myself, now that it finally ran out, but i kinda miss getting it and not looking at it haha.

i’m getting a bit carried away with this music for nate thing. i just couldn’t resist the urge to put every song i like onto the cds LOL. now it’s definitely mostly songs i like ROFL. ug. first it was going to be just a few songs i like for filler, but now…haha. i’ve gotten songs off cds i haven’t listened to in over a year. and now i’m starting to get into the real subliminal message songs haha it’s gonna be the weirdest collection of shit ever. oddly, there is no u2 on these cds.

weird thing…i mentioned that they play “Everybody was kungfu fighting” at work…yesterday i was looking for it to download for nate’s cd – like i said, most bizzare collection of shit ever – and i didn’t know who originally sang it. then on the bus to work the driver had oldies 104 on, and they said up next was the song that made elvis want to learn kung fu by so and so…and it was the song…then at work, they played the song. it was a kung fu day apparently. i laugh every time i hear the song – cuz of the hamster, and cuz of waynes world. it’s great.

haha i have 5 hours worth of music for nate, not including the steven lynch stuff or o brother where art thou soundtrack.
odd stuff:
– vanilla ice – ninja rap
– kung fu fighting
– theme from mission impossible
– la tour – people are still having sex
– ymca – i had to haha
– tenacious d – tribute

haha he’s gonna be like w.t.f.

it hasn’t stopped snowing in the last 30 hours. we got at least another 6 inches while i was at work. and apparently niagara falls does not own snow plows. none of the streets in the falls were plowed even in the slightest. getting into wheatfield at least the main roads were plowed. lancelot and my street however, so not plowed.

work was nice and smooth and fantastic until we shut down pit 6 (where i was) and i got put in pit 5 to do the roll. i just totally don’t get it. and it’s really frustrating me because i am smart and i should be able to do it. i’m hoping that when i see tony tomorrow i can have him explain it to me, so i understand it. cuz i’m so confused about certain things i have to take into consideration when i’m doing it. i can watch anyone else do it, and follow what they’re doing, and it works. but when i do it, it doesn’t work and i end up with like 3000 extra dollars in the computer.  if i ask other dual rates who’ve been doing it since may (like tony) theyre like, oh it’s easy, blahblahblahblah. yeah it’s easy now, 7 months later. arg.

doing a photo shoot with brian tomorrow. as in like, i’m the focus. i hate having my picture taken, but this was really my idea. here’s hoping i look decent lol.

so brian came over around 1 and took a crap load of pictures of me. i will maintain that i hate pictures of me, and i hate my profile. but it was cool. we left to go to goat island only to see that it’s closed…so we drove back here the long way, though the factories, and played in the snow. made snowmen, and climbed the snow hill in the parkinglot next door. fun stuff. i love snow. yay

metropolis viewing party, january 28th, 8 pm.

ug boy at work wants me to go out with him monday night when he gets out of work at 2am….riiiiiight. i sleep at 2 am when i’m not at the casino thanks. and i don’t like you. i just sorta ignored him when he brought it up. it wasn’t an out right question that i had to say no to… it was a “what are you doing on monday?” me: “sleeping” him “cuz i’m looking for someone to go to the bar with me when i get out.” and i just avoided the whole thing. ug.

nothing else to say. anyone know of a good punk band? i know that’s an oxymoron or something but… lol

david bowie is god. seriously.
“I miss your kissin’ and I miss your head
And a letter in your writing doesn’t mean you’re not dead
Run outside in the desert heat
Make your dress all wet and send it to me”

haha. i remember him doing this song at the show. i wanna see him again. anyway…i went to the library cuz i was tired of trying to find all the songs from o brother where art thou to download. and brilliant me figured the library would have it and i could copy it!! i don’t know why i didn’t think of this before lol. so then david bowie’s heathen was staring at me on the racks so i got that too…since i never managed to find all the songs to that either back in august. ug i’m dreading having to listen to o brother to make sure it worked. it’s for nate. he mentioned when we first started dating that he liked hillbilly music LOL. it’s the only thing i could think of that i knew i could find to send him. it is hillbilly music right? i’m pretty sure it is haha.

god david bowie is so bizzare lol. and that should read God, David Bowie, is so bizzare haha. i wish the library would have had best of bowie for me to copy…haha

k so i need songs to send to nate. put suggestions in the comments. cyndi: try to control yourself :)…my intentions were to send him cds every few months to keep him updated on new music…but i have a feeling this is gonna turn into a bunch of songs sara likes and nate won’t haha. already, i keep thinking of more songs that i like to put on them.

we have yet another new vh1 channel…vh1 soul. every time i turn on the tv, that jennifer lopez video is on. and i’m not exaggerating…every.single.time.

ug why do i like that damn justin timberlake song so much.

hey guess what. winter is really here. cold AND snow. lots of it. well not LOTS in the buffalo sense of the word “lots”…like 4 inches in a few hours, plus lots of blowing and drifting. which is really nothing. 20mph on the robert moses was definitely overkill. so i had to pass them

i shadowed for 2 hours, then they opened the 2nd bacc game, sat there for a while, did an hour of pai gow and went home an hour early. got to see our new cafeteria, it’s super nice. they’re gonna have real, good food actually. rock!

tomorrow is my first floor day alone. we’ll see how things go. hopefully the weather and football makes a slow night.

i’m sorta confused about…things. but don’t ask haha

oh yeah. i forgot to mention. i have a new decoration for my apt, curtesy (how do you spell that?) of james and the battery warehouse factory place we were at today. this rad danger, sound horn sign. i gotta clean it up a bit. i think it’ll go in my room, cuz my room is a complete disaster hah.

i snagged myself the last u2 2004 calendar at media play. score! i don’t know why anyone buys calendars before the new year. cuz the calendar was 3.50 instead of 13$. i absolutely DESPISE how u2 sets their calendars up tho. it’s the most annoying thing ever. oh well. i have my very own little black book planner that i’ll use for dates and stuff, since i can’t read the u2 calendar.

and tho i may seem down at times, and not happy…i realized in the media play parking lot that i’m actually quite happy with my life right now, and quite happy with who i am at the moment. i have really cool friends (even if they piss me off), and a cool job, and am increasingly more involved with really cool things. so life is good.

i might be appearing in a magazine based in toronto. more details to follow.

holy crap. i cannot believe what i just saw on tv. there is an informercial on for an internet dating site for “married people seeking affairs”. NO LIE. their slogan is “when monogamy becomes monotony”. i seriously can’t believe this is on tv, and that there is a company that specializes in finding people other people to have affairs with.

and for the record. i’m still pissed off.

but i did remember that my dad got a dvd burner for xmas, and leighanne reminded me of the walking sex tape. so after my test i went over to the parents to encode the inxs rocks the rockies concert and burn onto dvd. it’s a super hugely long process cuz the software that came with it doesn’t work right, and we have to encode the files twice before the burn. so it’s still encoding, and my dad is going to burn it for me. unless i go over tomorrow afternoon and do it. we’ll see. it’s gonna be shit quality cuz the tape was watched so many times…plus right before i started recording it, the vcr ate the tape. i almost died, cuz i thought i had ruined it, but i managed to reel the tape back in and there were no errors…thank god haha

hmm michael hutchence

it’s 0 degrees out.

detox lasted 36 hours. i had to give in around midnight because i got the most unbelivably bad headache last night…from sitting here too long, staring at the screen while playing yahtzee, monopoly, sorry, and boggle on games.com. it was so bad. i went to sleep in hopes to just sleep it off but i wanted to cry and throw up. i tried accupressure, and guided meditation (imagine your pain as a white ball of healing light…you’re standing at the entrance to your cave…step into your cave…in your cave you find…your power animal…) so i took drugs. ug. i slept so oddly too. i woke up at 4:30 and then couldn’t fall back asleep for 3 or so hours. i thought the headache was gone, but i got up to go to the bathroom and there was still headache residue there…then when i went back to bed and didn’t sleep it began to reorganize and gain strength as if it was Hitler’s army…managed to fall back asleep sometime after my mom left, slept til she called and woke me up at 11:30. it seems to have retreated for now, but i’m sure if i’m not careful it’ll come back.

as i said, i slept really oddly. i had a weird out of body experience…well…it wasn’t really out of body. i wasn’t floating over myself or any of that…it was more like, my essence, or soul or whatever you want to call it shrank so that i was this flat thing in the shell of my body. it was really strange. it was probably just some odd dream, but still…it was weird.

so to do today:
– barnes and nobles
– bank to get money and pay credit card
– file cabinet
– grad school crap
– request geneseo transcripts
– get letters from schneider, allen and kallio
– resend GRE scores or find out how to transfer between departments
– career objectives
– essay
– mail nate’s postcard

finally was able to buy what i need at barnes and nobles. and an impulse purchase or 2…blah haha. got nate the grass and sushi kits, got myself a bonsai tree kit, blood and gold, and the biggest impulse purchase – this whole magazine about u2 by NME…it’s every interview they’ve done with NME, and pics from NME’s archives and crap. ug. stupid u2 making me spend money lol. there this one fab picture i might use for a layout. i’ve had such the urge to grow things recently…over the past few weeks i wanted a chia pet, sea monkeys and the bonsai tree. i can’t grow the tree until spring though blah. and i’m sure it’ll die. my ex friend andrea made a big deal out of getting a bonsai tree in middle school, it got spider mites and died lol.

i guess i’m the only person who finds the similarity between the niger and niagara falls picture interesting lol. LOOK AT IT…it’s like, the same picture, from the same perspective…same rock formations. one is just in the desert and one has water on it lol. which reminds me… i mailed nate’s postcard of grand island…70 freaking cents. isn’t postcard rate in the US like 20 cents? it’s so not worth it to send a crappy postcard that gives you no room to write on, cuz i think my 3 page letter i sent was 70 cents too.

if anyone still needs to get me a christmas gift, someone is selling “blood and glitter” history of glam rock book on ebay for about 8 bucks. i’d give you the link but i’m lazy. half.com’s got it for 25$

i fucking hate that 70s show. every episode makes me fucking cry. IT’S A STUPID SHOW. good thing i can only watch tv 2 nights a week

an aside: people in this gel commercial are having a 3some on my tv wtf…

0 jackson songs tonight. the crappy band with the girl singer played tonight, and they were hideously loud. they did a really bad cover of depeche mode’s “just can’t get enough”…yeah. sucks. now that i’m home at 2:30 i am wide awake and have nothing to do. and i’m freezing…the casino is so cold. i sit in the restaurant balcony during my break cuz it seems to be the only place with heat in the entire building. ug.

so finally 2 days off. dunno what i’m gonna do with myself. tomorrow (er today) is dedicated to detoxing myself…i’ve been taking way too many pain killers, need to stop. so hopefully i can get through tomorrow without taking anything.

the ground is covered in wonderful snowman making snow. it snowed about an inch and a half last night and hasn’t stopped all day. lovely lovely.

so i went to see the wardrobe people about a bigger uniform, but the guy lied and turns out they didn’t have any bigger pants for me to try. so he’s ordering 2 bigger pairs for me. i said my sleeves were too short on my shirt, but he said there’s nothing they can do except give me a bigger shirt, and i was like ok whatever. i’ll go bug them for bigger shirts at a later date. rumor has it that they’re going to install a gas pump in our parking lot so we can all get cheap indian rez gas without going to the rez. that’ll be nice. and it turns out, we got paid for christmas! i was wondering why i got paid so much for only working 9 hours lol.

since i was in the falls i went to buy postcards to send to nate, since we don’t have any of the casino yet. i got a grand island postcard. who the hell wants a postcard of grand island?!?! lol but i laughed when i saw it so i had to get it. it’s a picture of the bridge lol. sure it’s a nice picture…but still haha

visited mom at the store, and then went to the toy store next door. they have all kinds of old toys and i wanted to see if they had golden girls..they had one, for 25$!!! yeah right. but it’s a cool store. run by exactly the kind of person you’d expect to collect and resell old toys.

i took a risk and listened to The Fragile on my travels today. didn’t cry. yay. somewhat damaged is such a friggen great song. esp the end. i want to make nate a cd of songs i remember him liking, and shit from the radio to keep him in touch with the rest of the world. but i don’t know if i still have my old portable cd player that ate batteries like you wouldn’t believe to send along too. i know he didn’t take a cd player of his own. that’s the first step in this latest idea, cuz with no cd player, cds won’t be of much use to him. i should write down the songs i kept thinking of though, incase i do manage to get this project done.