Author Archives: Elegant

so today was my day to pretend i’m important, and went to the ctrc board meeting. good things are to come in the next year for the building. the 75th anniversary is going to be really cool, with possible connections to a very high profile group of people. think music. think local. i don’t want to jinx anything, but…they contacted ctrc, not the other way around. so things will get exciting from here. went out for a drink with russell after to discuss some other things, and catch up on little details…like me tagging along if they have to change the clocks manually (he doesn’t even know hah) for day light savings. he is hilarious. good times.

i’m up too late downloading stuff to make myself some 80s cds. i’m trying to get things other than new wave synth pop stuff. trying to get those forgotten 80s songs, forgotten cuz they’re not kitchy.

 

i decided i’ve been very unhappy with my personal webdesigning of late…last layout, this current layout…i just know i can do better. i decided what i’d done for the new domain i hated. so i’m starting over. from the beginning. and while the layout i’m doing now is basically simple as hell, it’s better than what i had. so…i have to go through and make 9723897234 thumbnails again. *shoots self*

work at 9 tonight. i’m tired. stupid painkillers. i have an appt next wed with the lady to see studio rooms. there are none available at the moment, but things change all the time. there’s a dark room there that someone…rents or whatever, but may be willing to share. so..we’ll see how things go.

last night my 3rd blackjack table was dead the entire time i was relieving it, so i was watching stephanie deal next to me. today we were talking, she asked me if i knew the russian guy in the middle who she was dealing to last night. i said i remembered who he was. well apparently the whole time she was dealing to him, he was telling her how he can’t play at my table because he’s too in love with me. ROFLMAO. omg. hahaha. she told him if he tipped me i would give him my number, that i wasn’t married, he replied “but i am” HAHAH. good times.

prolly gonna go to the casino with tony tomorrow night

 

came home last night to no where to park again. super. one more time, then i call the landlord.

the plan is to meet andy at the hard rock cafe in chicago at 7pm on sunday. gonna be weird. gonna be cool.

so i went out to look at renting studio space in the old niagara falls high school. this guy at work rents a room there and had been telling me about it. i managed to find it, but there apparently is no parking lot associated with the school. weird, but ok. figured i should go in the main door. there were people in there. it was locked, they let me in, and i found myself in the middle of a city of niagara falls urban planning meeting. haha. go me. so when the lady (possibly the idiot mayor) finished talking, the guy who let me in, took me to the office. of course the person i needed to talk to wasn’t there. but they have my number and i have theirs. took some pamphlets. looks like a really legit, really cool operation. dance studios, music studios, theatres, and all the individual artists studios. you can take all sorts of classes…two art galleries. definitely seems like a cool place. we really need to get space in there i think. the atmosphere could work wonders on me i think. hopefully there is still space available, or a waiting list i can get us on.

and when i went into the office, a kid i went to high school with was standing there. weird.

ok, so today, i promise…new layout. it’s half done. but i have to scan my flintkote pics first. they are exciting. well…i got excited seeing the negatives. so many nice machines

 

my flintkote pictures are my absolute, hands down, no contest, favourite set of pics ever. in particular, the asbestos machine room photos. the asbestos machine room is my all time favourite urbex site…no question. gah. machines. *joygasm*

uploading them currently, net is slow as shit, then i’ll post some. probably. or just go to the site later tonight.

ok, net is totally dead, not just slow. they’ll be up eventually.

BCT got a mention in a Utah artvoice type weekly newspaper. called it one of the best abandoned buildings in the world. pretty damn cool eh? quoted ninj too hehe. famous ninj.

 

I JUST SAW SEX TOY GIRL. haha

i have a bone to pick with mr stephen king… mr king, schizophrenia is not the same as multiple personality disorder. and multiple personality disorder is not schizophrenia. schizophrenics do not have more than one personality that sometimes comes out, while the other personality goes into “hiding”. they don’t have one personality that is dominant, with another that only comes out sometimes. they do not have more than one personality that don’t know the other personalities exist. simply. schizophrenics don’t have multiple personalities. they’re just schizophrenics. schizophrenia is a thought disorder, not a personality disorder. there are 4 kinds of schizophrenia, and none of the 4 types involve personality problems of any kind.

so writing a character in the dark tower series that has multiple personalities, but saying she has schizophrenia is totally and completely incorrect. comparing her behavior as a “schizophrenic” to the movie “The Three Faces of Eve” is correct, but Eve had multiple personality disorder, and was not schizophrenic. i would think as a writer of popular fiction, you would do at least a little bit of research before you give your characters psychological disorders. reading the symptoms in the DSM alone would give you enough information to properly diagnose your characters. chuck palahniuk obviously has extensive knowledge of the DSM since he uses it in practically every book he writes haha.

it annoys me.

that is all.

the photos are up on institutional green, take a look. they’re fabulous

i’m getting excited about chicago. i keep dreaming about it. and it turns out, my long time internet friend andy…who lives in virginia…is going to be in chicago this weekend too. and wouldn’t it be so weird if the first time we meet in person is in a city that neither of us live in?! lol. i’d really like to meet him if possible tho, so hopefully i can talk to him and find out what his schedule is like. he proposes to me on a monthly basis…all in jest of course. it’s kinda funny, cuz we bitch about the opposite sex to eachother, and joke around about us getting married cuz we can never find good people to date. we had a fake internet dating thing back in the irc days. and i mean fake as in, we pretended we were dating…to create drama in the channel and what not. we never actually did “cyber date”. at one point he told me he’d never have sex with me ROFL. long story.

i decided that if/when i get offered the dual rate promotion i’m going to take it. i had considered turning it down, so i could get dealer time in to get real good so i can go west…but my body is just disintegrating from these games…my shoulder is just beyond help at the moment. i can’t imagine how some people have dealt for 25 years…i’ve dealt for 5 months and i feel like my arms and hands are gonna fall off. there are 3 chiropracters that offer casino employees discounts so i’m going to look into that. another concern is that once you start going you can’t stop. ug. but yeah…i think it’s a safe bet i’ll get offered the promotion in the next round. alot of people have told me i’m going to get it, or that they’re going to nominate me for it. so…we’ll see.

my neighbors freaky ass girlfriend needs to take herself and her sex toys home with her before 4am, because i need a place to park when i get home. serious parking issues since people took the empty apartment. the landlord keeps one space open every day for him to access the garage if he wants to take one of his other 0823408 cars out. that leaves me no where to park. fan-fucking-tastic. couldn’t park behind adr and have her wake me up when she needs to leave, cuz then i’d be blocking the 4 cars on the side of the lot. fan-fucking-tastic. so i’m parked in front of the grill/garbage in front of my window. and everyone will have a bitch of a time pulling out tomorrow. well fuck all of them.

i need to be in a relationship with a gay man. that way i’ll know he’s not using me to get off on. no particular event spurred on this constant observation…i just got myself into a funk at work today for no particular reason. been thinking about shit. blahblahblah sameoldsameoldsameold. why couldn’t i have just been interested in tony back in feb when he used to hit on me. he’s a nice guy, it would have all been good. or why can’t i be interested in tom, when i know he’d do anything for me. why couldn’t i have been interested in eric all those years in elementary school and high school lol. we could be married by now hahah. wouldn’t my mom just love that.

whatever.

new design tomorrow. after i go grocery shopping because i have no food. is garbage day delayed cuz of the “holiday”? i wonder if i actually got the newspaper today….gotta remember to call buff news tomorrow and get my money refunded, since in the last 6 weeks that i’ve been paying for the sunday news, i’ve gotten it once…on a monday.

 

i am not allowed at the mall unsupervised

my sandals finally broke. considering they cost me 4$ in 1999 i think i got money’s worth out of them haha. they broke at the grocery store. thankfully, when i was going back out to my car, so at least i didn’t have to limp through the store, dragging my shoe along so that i didn’t step on the floor barefooted. had to drive home without one shoe. that was fun. i hate driving barefoot. it just doesn’t work in a standard shift car.

so i decided to go to the adidas store to buy an over priced pair of plastic sandals. i figured they’d be the only people who had them, you know, since it’s winter, and it’s buffalo. i was just going to go into the adidas store, and leave. but that didn’t happen. i had to go into the guess outlet cuz they were having a sale. then i had to go into the wilson leather outlet cuz they were having a sale. and i bought yet another coat. IT WAS ONLY 50 DOLLARS AND ITS SUEDE AND PRETTY. it’s a knee length brown suede coat. BROWN!!!!!!! lol. it’s not all that heavy, it’ll be a good fall coat. AND IT WAS ONLY 50 DOLLARS. i almost bought 2 coats. i almost bought a short jacket of the same style. but i stuck with the long one. they also had black leather “motorcycle” jackets, with red lining, for 100. i wanted it just for the red lining LOL. but i resisted.

did go to the adidas store, who had a very small selection of sandals. first i only found the mens ones, and they just didn’t fit right. the womens were only weird colored, so that was a bust. stopped in the sketchers outlet, no sandals, and factory brand shoes, no sandals. what, do people not where sandals in buffalo in the winter?! come on now. i might just have to crazy glue my sandals til i can find a pair. maybe look on ebay or something haha. that’s kinda gross tho…buying shoes on ebay.

and i decided to go and try the lime pineapple juice bars instead of getting two boxes of coconut bars again…bad idea. they’re so gross. i’m gonna have to throw them out if adr doesn’t want them.

holy crap. apparently the rest of the crew almost got arrested after they left me at walmart. that’s bad bad stuff man.

my arm is gonna fall off. left arm to be exact. shoulder hurts SO bad. the entire area under my shoulder blade is killing me. i can feel it cracking and poping everytime i move it. the pain is radiating up my neck and to the front of my shoulder. all the tendons/whatever pull all the way down my side when i move my arm. bad bad news. then doug had to go and hit me in the shoulder. that felt nice. he tried to massage it better for me tho hahah. but yeah. where is my live in doctor to tell me what i need to do to make it stop. seriously considering a chiropractor, and for me, that’s blasphemy, since i think they’re quacks. i tried stretches and all that, not helping.

i have a sickness. it’s called coat fetish. bought another coat. green army style jacket, will be good for urbexing. it was only 17$, and it seems to be warm and all that. good times. also bought a real light zip up sweater thing on sale at express. they’re still having their gigundous fall sale, so it was only 15$.

went to class early today so i could develop my film before everyone got there. well i waited outside the dark room cuz the door was locked, for about a half hour. then someone came out. i was like…you were in there this whole time?!? so yeah i waited outside for nothing. turns out only 2 of us were there anyway, so i developed my film that was half forest lawn, half bct, and then printed a bunch of 5x7s. i hate being in a dark room with tons of people. even like…4 ppl is too many. was there by myself most of the time. i was having one of my annoyed at everything, super sonic hearing days, so it was really really really good i was there by myself.

snagged pizza at the mall cuz i didn’t feel like cooking, but that made me go into express and spend money, so…might not have been good after all. i think i’ll do webwork tonight while the game is on. YAY HOCKEY! about time the season started. all i know is we better have the games on at work, since all that’s ever on is espn etc…

and i realized that if the cubs win this series, we’ll be in chicago during the world series. that could be insane.

i think i’m going to enter this photo contest that my teacher told me about. u can win money, and get published and stuff. and it’s cheap to enter. why the hell not. i still retain rights to my photos, unlike some other contests so…i need suggestions on what to submit. it’s 3$ each photo to submit, and no limit as to how many.

wednesday’s horrorscope: Turn up your mojo and bat your baby blues, greens or browns. As of Thursday, Venus will be swimming through your fellow water sign of Scorpio, affecting your amours, creativity and self-expression. Bottom line: If you can’t get the world to sing in perfect harmony – or loved ones to peel you grapes – well, you just can’t be trying.

maybe i shouldn’t be worried about, or doubting the occurance of, my non date.

jerry sent me a review of the new movie “lost in translation” from the buffalo news. and one of the lines kind of…reminded me of me. “Both are lonely, alienated people; both suspect they’re too good for the lives they’re living but both know that if they were truly better they wouldn’t be living them.” and after it reminded me of me, it reminded me of kevin. and kevin needs to stop going around work telling everyone how i’m the most brilliant person he’s ever met, and how i was given all this imagination and creativity and brilliance, and he got none. then i get the “if you’re so smart why the hell are you here?” from everyone. just like tony. first time tony and i socialized outside of work, and he told me he went to cornell, i apologized for doing it, but asked him the same thing. haha he told me the other day he’s stopped telling people he went to cornell cuz he’s tired of being asked what he’s doing at a casino.

anyway. that was a tangent. not that i had anything to say to begin with, i just came to post my horrorscope.

and i’m going to be 190 dollars richer tomorrow, because someone made me a very nice offer for all of my mj cds. i definitely think i’ll take them up on that offer hehe. that’ll pay for chicago. actually. it won’t. but that’s ok LOL.

 

i watched the 4 episodes of Carnivale that tony’s been taping for me. this show was designed for me…midgets, freaks, crazy religion, and revivals. as adr put it, someone read my blog and thought, this girl would watch this hahah. definitely interesting, definitely confusing, definitely want to see more.

makes me want to finally watch my twin peaks episodes too.

got myself another gift certificate for sinatra’s today. haha. someone loves me. maybe i’ll suggest it for the non-date depending on what time i hear from him about what we’re gonna do. kinda funny, cuz when i got to work, this guy asks where he’s seen me lately. he’s like, i saw you at sinatra’s a week and a half ago. lol he was at the restaurant when leighanne and i were there. but he’s not the billy rubens guy ….inside joke…and then the one who loves me ends up giving me another gift certificate later. all good. he gave me one of the biggest insults of my life however. he said i remind him of celine dion. my response “oh god please not her”. he says, “what’s wrong with celine?!” ROFL EVERYTHING. hahah

home early, cuz i was supposed to be on let it ride. that lasted…5 seconds when they got a call to send me to high limit. all good. i felt like shit toward the end so i left my name on the list to leave early. now i gotta wait for tony to stop by tho, cuz he’s bringing me the tape of Carnivale he’s been recording off hbo for me.

and oh yeah. finally got up the 2nd tower trip photos, and rea terminal photos on institutional green.

and i have exactly 700 comments since i moved my blog to moveable type.

and an old friend from the mj days got in touch with me through the webdesign site (again)…apparently that’s the best way to find me on the net, through that site. it’s too bad the emails go to an address i don’t check so i get them way late, and they lose hope of hearing back from me. but it was good to hear from him. life has certainly changed for all of us who were friends back then. well for all of us but one *ahem*sandy*ahem* haha.

 

i want to go see duran duran. toronto, november 14th. it’s a friday. i’d have to request off. i think i have personal days still to use. what are the chances they’ll play buffalo or rochester on a wed and thurs? prolly slim. gah. gonna have to go to toronto i guess. DURAN DURAN!!! lol.

 

this is possibly one of the best things i’ve ever seen.