ug. i am in so much pain right now it’s not funny. i can barely move my arms. fucking sitdown blackjack game. i almost cried on my game. it hurt so bad i couldn’t speak. i’d do anything for a massage right now.

 

somehow i managed to sleep until 3!!! i couldn’t get to sleep from being in pain, and the dull ache in my shoulder. i’m gonna have to dry my hair after my shower now blah.

oh and i got my new dresser yesterday. they woke me up at 9 and 10 when the movers called. then the came at 11, and brought the dresser inside in a box…when i cut the box off, it was facing the wrong direction. so i had to call my parents to help me move it, which was a good idea. cuz i realized i’d never be able to attach the mirror on my own anyway. i like it. but my comforter doesn’t match, so i need a new one. haha. i bought a new alarm clock on ebay too, it’s this rad little chrome clock attached to a big spring LOL. but trust me, it looks neat.

i was trying to figure out why my phone’s caller ID doesn’t display the names of who is calling me, just their number – even if they’re number is in my phone book. so i played around with it, maybe it’ll work now. someone just needs to call me now lol

i am really amazed at my current utter contentment. i haven’t really felt this way since october 2001 – the post sept 11th, u2 induced delirium. i keep listening to songs, and no matter what song by what artist, i keep finding lines that feel so applicable for some reason. i’m resisting the urge to post tons of lyrics here haha. we’ll see how that works. the way i felt when nate was around was always laced with anxiety and insecurity over what was to happen with us. this is nothing like that. i get it, but at the same time, i don’t. and i don’t know what to do about the part that i get. but i’m not thinking/worrying about it. because i am enjoying how i feel.

if i wasn’t so tired lol.

i kept zoning out at work, day dreaming, and almost falling over cuz i’m so tired. but work was slow and boring, and when it was getting exciting i got moved hahah. was able to leave an hour early, which was nice. not like i’m going to get to bed any earlier however.

my dresser did not arrive on friday due to the weather, so they are bringing it today. which means they will call me 5 times this morning, like they did yesterday. and they better not do that, and not show up til 7pm like i’m expecting. oh well.

i want to say that i love all the friends i have right now. thank you for making my life wonderful as of late.

jenn comes home tomorrow finally. it’ll be good to see her again, and i need to talk to her about stuff. haha

 

orgy’s new website is finally up. they have all the lyrics from the new album posted. these are by far their best songs lyrically. and i just HAVE to post this hah

You couldn’t make me
Anymore crazy
Than I could stand to be

So won’t you just sympathize with me
And all the things I do to make you angry with me
What’s wrong with me today
You say, I leave you all alone
Every time you call me
As if you needed reason to fall down
I know this must be hard for you to understand
And all this waiting takes too long for me
Make up your mind

You don’t even know, what’s good for you
You better keep your eyes on me
Maybe you’re oblivious inside
And it’s scary that you don’t know
Your chances fade away
Fade away sometimes
Maybe you’re oblivious inside

No you can’t deny me
And I don’t want to see you go away

**

i can’t wait to see them live again. apparently bobby rejoined after leaving snake river conspiracy. all the new pictures include him, which is really rad. yay exciting.

i am currently in love with my life. i got an email from one of my parents friends, in response to my “change of phone number” email. she said my mom told her that i enjoy my job and am happy with my life. which i thought was wonderful. cuz i’m used to hearing my mom talk about how they’re dissapointed about grad school and that i’m not using my degree and blahblahblah. it’s nice for my mom to notice i am (for the most part) happy.

and i had a lovely day.

and leighanne and i are now in charge of a pretty large important project with the ctrc, which is exciting.

chilled here tonight with adrienne after getting dinner (which i will add, my stomach is being wacky and i can’t eat), did interesting makeup, watched zootv and drooled over macphisto, etc etc etc.

stuff is going on my head right now that i don’t know how to make sense of, but i am completely happy with that.

 

stupid internet is so messed up. but i loaded alot of stuff back onto the comp. i figure when i go to look for something and cant find it, i’ll go through all the disks to locate whatever i’ve forgotten. rad.

i’ve gotten 12thousand virus emails today. yay

i’m baaaaaaaaaaack!!! special loud thanks to brian for fixing khruschev for me. i’m not worthy.

so in the past 2 days i….

haven’t done much. worked tuesday night, most boring night ever. wednesday leighanne arrived, and we got dinner at the mafia restaurant. came back here to wait for the guests. i had a really nice time with everyone here. except for the fact that the metropolis dvd was corrupted, so after chapter 23 we had to finish the movie on the shit ass version dvd i have. and o.m.g the quality between the two!!!! it’s like the restored version is a completely different movie. such a good movie, so brilliant visually. esp now that i can actually SEE stuff in the restored version. i’d love to have a set of prints from it.

sat around after the movie, and then headed to denny’s. went to the one near delta sonic since mine is closed. it’s so ghetto. totally going to have to go to maple from now on. ug. it’s so far. ran into danyell from mcds, hadn’t seen her in a long time. we played cards LOL. came back here and adr and brian left. i throughly kicked james ass in dr mario. just chilled here talking and fell asleep for 5 hours.

so thank you everyone for making it such a cool night. at least i thought it was cool haha.

the plan for today is to pay my studio rent, head out down town probably, look at places for sale/rent, and the ctrc meeting. tonight is up in the air.

i killed it. officially killed it. no thanks in part to a certain xp cd from a certain someone that certainly didn’t work

so khruschev is now in the hands of the good dr. brian. to be returned from the computer hospital on wednesday.

and now, and ode to khruschev:
ba ba ba another one bites the dust…ba ba ba another one bites the dust
i cant liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive with or withouuuuuuuuuut youuuuuuuuu

so if you want to talk to me, call me. 4712177 . leighanne, call me tonight or something, finalize tomorrow’s plans. 3:15 at the airport right?

work 8-4 last night. only worked an hour yesterday LOL.

ug my computer is so broken. it’s so unstable it’s not even funny. i defaged, and scan disked both drives, and it’s still fucked. virus scanned on friday, but doing it again right now. poor sick computer. i think it might be my screensaver, so i’m gonna switch to something else for the time being, we’ll see how that goes. blah. my comp cant die. what would i do with out it *shoots self*

 

i think the time has come for me to completely wipe my drives and re install windows, go with xp and blahblahblah. which means i need someone to help me do it. since i dunno how to reformat and all that shit. *ahem*brian*ahem* i’ll pay you. i’ll start burning stuff off (again) now

 

my computer isn’t going to last through the night. if i don’t return, you’ll have to call to get a hold of me.

for wednesday’s metropolis viewing party, 8pm, park at the drs office across the street.

the lighthouse baptist church on wheatfield rd loves me. they gave me chick tracks!!!!!!!! yaaaaaay. of course, it’s the same one i got last time. “the long trip”. i was hoping for the one about how rock music is evil.

and it’s that time of year again. so let me just say for the record, i hate valentines day. i’ve never had a good valentines day. someone surprise me this year . all i do know is, at least this year it’s unlikely i’ll start crying in the drug store looking at valentines day stuff.

work was work. i did the roll. and i did it perfectly!!!!!!!!!! finally!

something is severely wrong with my computer. so now i’m going to try to defag it again. when i tried earlier it just froze. SUPER.

brian and james came over to hang for a few hours. played nintendo, talked about blow jobs, you know – the usual. good times.

work again 9-5 tonight, hopefully i’ll get to leave at 4 like last night. floored roulette for the first time. it was crazy busy until midnight, then it sorta died, so it was all good. and i was on break during the roll. tony and i had a funny moment putting our coats away, but i’m not sure if i’m allowed to talk about it. that whole casino confidentiality thing. whatever.

so i’m watching elimidate, cuz if you couldn’t tell from the last post, I’M REALLY BORED….omg it’s hilarious. there is this girl on the show…omg so funny. she’s got a really unique look, and is one of those people who are just right on top of a conversation. always has a comeback, always has something funny to say. she’s great. a complete individual. i want to be her. but anyway. she had the guy bench press her ROFL. they do that whole “confessional” thing where they talk to the camera. she’s saying how boring the date is, and when she spanked the other girl (don’t ask) she hurt her hand and it was the highlight of the date. she’s like “please, cut me, cut me right now. i beg you” ROFL and now she got cut and she’s like “if i was even remotely attracted to you i’d kiss you right now, thank you so much” ROFL.

 

i’m wearing a pink shirt. i don’t think i can pull this off LOL. we’ll see how many ppl comment on the fact i’m wearing pink.

i forgot to get my new badge again. set an alarm on my phone tomorrow to remember to go.

i hate orange juice. on our trip leighanne kept getting me orange juice. and it was good. and i’ve been drinking orange juice every day at work. so i bought myself 2 cartons (buy one get one free) today. and it tastes gross. it doesn’t taste right. it tastes more like sunny d blah crap drinks than good orange juice. i think i need to buy some vodka.

and aside from 2 cartons of oj, i also have 20 bottles of pop, 10 bottles of water, half a jug of cran juice, and 2 bottles of brown pop. i don’t think i’ll be thirsty for a long time. i don’t think i actually bought any food today. hah jk, i bought lots of meat. and i will assert, once again, that raw meat is completely revolting.  and 2 cartons of ice cream. and 3 cans of pringles. everything was buy one get one, or 3 for 5 and crap. so i HAD to buy all 3. at least i didn’t buy 5 bags of goldfish crackers haha. i almost did. but i resisted.

 

i blame jay gordon for my coat fetish. it all started with him. where did my jay coat go, i think i need to retrieve it from the parents house. for sure.

 

i went on a makeup buying spree. haha. then i wondered what would happen if i drew on my eyes with metallic crayola markers. it’s fabulous!!!!!!!!!