Author Archives: Elegant

a black man came up to me today and said “miss, miss”. so i go over and say “what”. he says “you’re beautiful”…..guess what. HE WAS OLD.

i talked to the band that played tonight. got their card to email them about the bct party. they play fun r&b, motown, 70s funk, etc…like lance diamond. but not lance diamond. and possibly cheaper than lance diamond. hahaha. we’ll see what happens. got to leave early. talked to tom on the phone as he drove home cuz he was giving me advice lol. his advice is more doable than ty’s

 

“Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw. I’m scared of what I did, of who I am. And most of all… I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I’m with you.”

everyone should be relieved that i watched dirty dancing today, or else i’d be making everyone watch it on wednesday

best. movie. ever….or at least from my childhood. gah i love that movie. it is just so friggen great!!!!!!!! i smile throughout the whole thing. it’s the only movie i think patrick swayze is hot in. tho i hate his lips. he’s got a phenomenal back lol. it’s such a cute love story. i want that hahah.

“it’s not a great room. you probably have a great room.”
“no it’s great room.”

ROFL gah

so.

it’s easter time. and that means chicks ducks and bunnies sweettarts…except that when the crew was at tops on wednesday night, they didn’t have any !!!!!!!!! wtf is that?!? so disapointed. i haven’t had sweettarts in forever, esp after i joined sweettartaholics anonymous… haha someone find them for meee

i dunno if i mentioned this or not…i called my grandpa in the hospital yesterday. he didn’t sound good at all. could barely understand what he was saying he was slurring so bad for whatever reason. he thinks he’s getting out tomorrow but i don’t know how true that is. he claimed they’re screwing with his medicine to get it right…i’m waiting for the call.

as i expected i already want to do a redesign for this site…hah

movie night at jasens was fabulous. we watched snatch and the ring. both were good. the ring was indeed very creepy. the first 5 minutes creeped me out more than the rest. i thought i actually wasn’t going to be able to go home alone, but i made it. LOL. of course, when the movie ended, my phone rang. (ive you’ve seen it, you’ll understand). it would have made more of an impact if they had waited til i left to do it LOL. it’s the thought that counts right? blair witch still fucked me up more though.

on the way home i thought i drove into a horror movie. a girl was walking in the rain on the side of the highway with a flashlight…i could just see myself hitting her and then being haunted because she just wouldn’t die…no matter how many times i ran her over or smashed her against a tree…a la creepshow 2 lol

so with the syndication/xml/atom stuff worked out, the following people need to syndicate their site: carolyn, amanda, adrienne…eric can take care of amanda if it’s not already syndicated, carolyn and adrienne…go into blogger, go into settings, click site feed, pick yes, and full…the end. no big deal. fyi i’m using bloglines.com for the reader atm. not sure if i like it yet, but we’ll see. that way i can check one site instead of 10

 

since i picked the wrong vacation week, and picked the week after the toronto apc show, i figured…why not go to the rochester apc show that’s on the 26th. so i am. alone again. fucking 10 dollar service charge, fucking ticketmaster. section 109, towards the back, no big deal.

i should shower its already 2:30

 

ok ok ok jasen dethroned the reigning queen of dr mario. but in my defense, i had a few alcoholic drinks…i am a lightweight…i challenge you to a rematch.

i now own a digital camera. my dad is going to buy a new one, so i get the old hand me down. it’s just a point and shoot. its the one i’ve used to take pics of my weird makeup and marker on my eyes. yay. it’ll be good for crap pics. i can get rid of my film point and shoot which hardly works.

gonna play with hair and makeup tonight since my extensions arrived. but i figure i should wait til i go to dairy queen. esp since my real hair is not the same color as the fake hair, so it would be very obvious it’s fake…hah.

i found this and it made me LOL

adrienne: when some one was taking the exam today.. they had male exam…. and the penis FELL OFF when they were palpating ROFLMAO
sara: hahahahahahahahah
adrienne: she was like “i dont think thats normal”
adrienne: hahahhahahhahah
sara: its like, a pretend dummy or something?
adrienne: yeah… we call it totum pole man… its just a square with an atachable penis and scrotums (you can pick different scrotums with different problems) LMAO you;d laff sooo hard at this thing
sara: ROFLMAO OMG
adrienne: we also have a “dial a prostate”
adrienne: LMAO
sara: OMG ROFL

 

you know what is good about live journal. the friends page. i want a friends page for blogs. and you know what, you can do that now (sorta)…everyone’s blog needs an rss (xml) feed. then you use news subscription programs and “subscribe” to blogs. that way i don’t have to check every single blog i read 2983497 times a day. i just check one spot, and it shows you the new posts.

so now everyone needs to syndicate their website. blogger does it now too, so no excuses. on blogger, you go into settings, site feed, choose yes, and full…the rest you shouldn’t need to touch. on movable type, it publishes xml automatically. or is supposed to.

but i’m having issues…i can subscribe to my blog’s xml feed, but not eric’s. i assume eric has one since he’s using MT. leighanne has one, and i can subscribe to hers, and she’s MT illiterate. i tried to give danielle a feed, but the atom reader i used says no feed found…so i don’t know what the problem is…

but yes. everyone go change your settings so that you publish a feed which i can subscribe to and then have all my blogs readable in one location

i got all the makeup i ordered last week, and my photo chemicals i ordered over the weekend. but i think i ordered wrong stuff. i thought i had ordered fixer, but i just got hardener that i have to mix in with fixer…which i don’t have. and i don’t know what “a part” is…ex…mix 1 part solution with 2 parts water. so is that like, 1 cup of solution with 2 cups of water…or 1 liter of solution with 2 liters of water? is a part whatever i want it to be? i’ll have to figure it out tomorrow, and maybe go buy fixer from the camera lounge on military. i don’t have developing tanks yet so i can’t do anything right now anyway.

tonight’s wednedsay soiree is being held at jasen’s house. i don’t know what we are doing, but it doesn’t much matter to me.

got some work done on build 2 today…got the bio page done…short bio, 100 things about me (tho i think i need to change #91), and assorted photos from the past 6 years. alot fewer photos than are there now. i also created the lyric blog, which will be part of the music section, whenever i get my lazy ass in gear and do it…it’s really sorta the only part i have left.

i ended up going to the casino tonight after work. it was this one girls birthday so a few of us went up when we got out early at 12. won some, then lost it. whatever.

my grandpa is really about to die. apparently he’s in the hospital with some sort of skin infection. he’s on antibiotics but in his weakened state this could kill him.

ug my face is all breaking out horribly. blaaaaaaaaaaah. and my legs are so sore from exploring. it killed me to walk back and forth between “the island” and the dining room at work.

so tired now. and hungry. and annoyed at my neighbors who use my garbage can outside but then don’t take it to the curb for garbage day. so i left them a note in front of their door. hah. i can’t wait to move out of here.

 

metrosexual (met.roh.SEK.shoo.ul) n. An urban male with a strong aesthetic
sense who is a heterosexual, but is not afraid to show his feministic side.
Also often used to describe a heterosexual man with mannerisms or
affectations commonly associated with homosexual men.
-metrosexuality n.

Example Citation:

At dinner the other night, my date listed the calorie count of the main
entrees, raising an eyebrow at my chicken Alfredo selection after he had
ordered a salad. I saw him check his reflection in the silver water pitcher
three times. During dessert, he looked deeply into my eyes and told me he
thought what we have together is very special. It was our third date.

It was then that I realized why my dating life has been as mysterious as the
Bermuda Triangle since I arrived in Washington DC. This city, unlike any
other place I’ve lived, is a haven for the metrosexual. A metrosexual, in
case you didn’t catch any of several newspaper articles about this
developing phenomenon (or the recent “South Park” episode on Comedy
Central), is a straight man who styles his hair using three different
products (and actually calls them “products”), loves clothes and the very
act of shopping for them, and describes himself as sensitive and romantic.
In other words, he is a man who seems stereotypically gay except when it
comes to sexual orientation.
-Alexa Hackbarth, “Vanity, Thy Name Is Metrosexual,” The Washington Post,
November 17, 2003

Example Metrosexuals: David Beckham, Brad Pitt, George Clooney, Robbie
Williams, Ian Thorpe, David Bowie and all members of the band Orgy.

I LOVE METROSEXUALS….gah. hahah

yeah…dealing…didn’t happen. called me at 20 to 7 to suit up. 6-2 tomorrow dealing, pretty sure i’ll stay dealing. and get out at 12. that’d be super nice.

my legs/feet hurt from walking through snow today. i’ll say it again, walking through the snow is a skill and it uses muscles you don’t normally use when walking. so i’m a bit sore. from that and from falling out the window at concrete central even though james was there to catch me if i was about to face plant. odd how i wouldn’t slide down the remnants of a staircase with no stairs, but i’d fall out a 7 or 8 foot window drop. i just could see myself getting more hurt sliding down the stair remains…

so anyway. really tired, gotta get up for the stupid doctor at 11. blah. maybe i’ll nap the rest of the day since i’m an early start. do some more work on delirious build 2. i’m almost done, i swear…well i lie. i’m done with the archives. i haven’t started the music section yet…gah…and i need to do a cool bio still…and re-picturize the gallery…

oh the big news of the day is…no matter what, leighanne will be living here may 1st. hopefully sooner IF SOMEONE WOULD JUST HIRE HER. hah

and i changed my vacation from march 22nd, to april 26th…i wanted off for the APC concert so when i dye my hair black i can give it a few days to heal before stripping it again…except that APC is the 22nd…hah i’ll just have to work with black hair for 3 days.

*sings* it’s a beautiful day….

headed out to the first ward with brian and james. finally got to see concrete central. lovely place. i think i got sunburned…

i don’t really feel myself today tho for whatever reason. i’m sorta spaced out. so i apologize if i was acting weird today.

now the question is, do i take a nap, or a shower…dealing tonight at 8.

work was long but it was ok. floored mini bacc last night. wasn’t a big deal. tho the other floor tried to get me in trouble. whatever. when the grave dealers came in one of my dealers was a girl who used to be on my shift. so i got to talk to her, it was fun. got to talk about…stuff  and yeah. it was good. didn’t get stuck doing overtime thankfully.

my paycheck was wrong this week. they paid me approx 115$ too much. since i’m such a nice, moral, honest person i actually told them about it when most people would have taken it and ran. what do you think the chances are that they’ll think “what a wonderful girl, so honest to tell us about our mistake, we should award her for her honesty by giving her the 115$ as a bonus.”……slim to none. ah well.

slept til 3 today, blah. now i have to dry my hair, eat, and go back to work in an hour 20…

made some changes. i got rid of my dark room that i never used. i realized that the only thing i want to be able to do atm is develop my own film. which i can do in the bathtub. so my lease runs out at the end of march. went to the parents to see my dad for his bday and got some jugs he used to hold his chemicals. he’s still looking for the developing canisters but i might go ahead and get some on ebay. and then find out what chemicals to buy. he gave me a bottle of stop bath from 1975 LOL. yeah.

incase you hadn’t heard…. Oral sex linked to mouth cancer…

and in completely unrelated news…

la la la. had a lovely night with the boys. brian came by around 9 and james followed later. hit the ghetto dennys, and decided we need a new place to eat. our waiter was sorta cool tho. he knew who lacuna coil is (he complimented my shirt) and invited us to his band’s cd release party in buffalo in march. i forget the name of his band…herod? something like that. *bad memory* he said they play like 80s metal, but not shitty metal. a combo of metallica and iron maiden so he said. too bad the party is on a saturday. came back here and watched death to smoochy. i still think that movie is funny. robin williams might be the funniest person on earth. lots of drugs hahah. gave brian his gift for his new job as BCT police. james was fascinated with my coasters. good times. and they liked my hair haha.

took a bunch of self portraits. maybe they turned out. i have 6 pics left to take on that roll, maybe i will finally remember to take a picture of the rose on the sign post near the abortion clinic tomorrow. take my film in to get processed when i go pick up my other 2 rolls.

tomorrow i have nothing to do. i thought about going out to the other mall to see if the other hot topic has my shoes in my size, but i dunno if i feel like doing that anymore. tony said he’d call me if him and dave are going to do something tomorrow. i guess tony’s girlfriend wants to go bond with dave’s cat. hahah. then i could finally meet her and she could see that i’m not a threat and no longer hate me. if she only knew tony was my secret valentines day admirer hahaha. but anyway, dave lives near the other mall, so it might work out that i am out that way anyway, and i can find my shoes.

tired but i know i wont sleep yet. i’m sorta hungry, but i don’t want to eat. oh well.

 

the site recontenting was going very slowly because i got to a point in my archives where i didn’t want to read them anymore. the point where i met nate. but i forced myself to read them, and then got to the point where he left.

nate leaving was the most painful thing that happened to me in my entire life. reading it still upsets me. i dont know if i’m upset at myself, or at what happened.

last night i told james that there are times when i hate nate. that i hate nate for making me have feelings when i did such a good job as a teenager to eradicate them.

i hate nate right now.

i need to stop crying so i can leave the apt and pick up my film.

fuck.

 

took in my “sara as a whore” self portraits to get done for tomorrow. my corset tank top that i ordered from victoria secret came today, but i don’t like it, so sending it back. so it’s a good thing i bought the sleezy shirt at tjmax. on my way to get film i stopped at frisbs and picked up 30 seconds to mars for 3 bucks. cool record.

now i’m here. and bored. i found a site where you can play match game and family feud and stuff online. fun stuff. uproar.com

 

ha ha heather is funny

Darknyss6: he looks cute, from what you can tell 🙂
Darknyss6: yes definately
Darknyss6: I went up close to the screen HAHA

“Trent Reznor recently spoke with Rolling Stone, who today published bits of that talk.

NIN plan to hit the road in the next few months to preview the new material.”

well trent needs to figure that shit out NOW so i can change my vacation week. apparently i could, at this very moment, change my vacation to next week if i needed to. a bunch of people want me to go to vegas with them next week. doug volunteered to go ask scheduling to switch my vacation. and he actually did, and they actually said yes. i’m like noooo i can’t go, i have responsibilities. but if trent is going to be touring soon….that’s an entirely different story. gaaaaaaaaah

all i gotta say is it’s PERFECT timing for an orgy/nin tour. i’d quit my job for that ROFL. holy fuck what if trent played a preview show at the casino. i’d sleep with everyone in the place in order to get a chance to meet him. gaaaaaaah. if i had to deal to him, i totally wouldn’t be able to. hahahah.

 

if you are buying shitty t-shirts from g&g that say “goth girl” on them, you’re not goth. and if you are buying shitty things from claires that say “punk royalty” you are not punk.

went shopping today. wasn’t completely annoyed either. i bought a pair of “whore boots” that i’m not sure if i’ll ever wear but they were onsale. and a pair of sketchers sneakers that were on clearance. almost found patent leather mary janes, but they were kids…and the patent leather shoes i did find for me, they didn’t have my size. and of course, the ideal pair of shoes at hot topic only came in size 6…WHO HAS SIZE SIX FEET?! whatever. i also bought a really sleezy shirt at tjmax.

i’m in total goth mode thanks to orgy. spent too much money on concert accessories…fake hair, lots of makeup, the boots, etc.

orgy is so great though. everyone who thinks they’re just mainstream eletronic metal, you suck. and you’re wrong. cuz they fucking rock. they are so snotty, it’s fabulous. jay can’t sing without sounding snotty. “dizzy” is the perfect fuck off song.

anyway. i’ve got a wicked headache, so i stopped at starbucks to get my mocha coconut frap (which they only sell at barnes and noble) to give me a caffeine rush before i could get home to drugs. the store does carry the bagel digest, so when i make my publishing debut, you can all go buy it.

i wore my red coat to the mall and everyone stared at me. fuck off, yes i have a bright red coat, and i can rock it like no body’s business

i think it’s funny that sanrio has produced a goth hello kitty. hahah.

at b&n i randomly picked up this magazine called b&w. it’s a photo magazine, and the page it opened to was about a photographer named Bruce Haley who does…surprise…urbex photography. i was like..surprised to see it. he had good shots, but it was nothing all that special, nothing particularly better than stuff brian and i have taken…i don’t know what my point is in all this but…whatever. the pics on his site are the ones that were in the magazine. me and brian could have totally taken them… it’s just we don’t go to eastern europe frequently. haha

and bad things…lacuna coil are in hot topic now…they had the cds in the listening booth. DONT DESTROY MY BAND AND MAKE THEM SHITTY AND MAINSTREAM PLEASE. they already re-recorded the heavens a lie video and made it mtv worthy crap…THEY’RE MINE DAMNIT!

ok i’m done.

orgy got me snobby.

brian’s coming over later to do something. dunno what. my mom said not to let him take pictures of me with no clothes, so now we have to figureout something else to do

 

HA. i don’t remember when i filed my complaint, but i just got a check in the mail for 13.86$…my portion of the settlement from the Compact Disc Minimum Advertised Price Antitrust Litigation. WOO HOO! that justifies me buying fake hair.

and i really wish i had my dad’s digi cam here still, cuz i was playing around with my “look” and i think i look hot. i’m wearing my whore boots around the apartment since i may never wear them out anyplace LOL.

brian will have to forgive my retarded appearance when he gets here.