incase you hadn’t heard…. Oral sex linked to mouth cancer…
and in completely unrelated news…
la la la. had a lovely night with the boys. brian came by around 9 and james followed later. hit the ghetto dennys, and decided we need a new place to eat. our waiter was sorta cool tho. he knew who lacuna coil is (he complimented my shirt) and invited us to his band’s cd release party in buffalo in march. i forget the name of his band…herod? something like that. *bad memory* he said they play like 80s metal, but not shitty metal. a combo of metallica and iron maiden so he said. too bad the party is on a saturday. came back here and watched death to smoochy. i still think that movie is funny. robin williams might be the funniest person on earth. lots of drugs hahah. gave brian his gift for his new job as BCT police. james was fascinated with my coasters. good times. and they liked my hair haha.
took a bunch of self portraits. maybe they turned out. i have 6 pics left to take on that roll, maybe i will finally remember to take a picture of the rose on the sign post near the abortion clinic tomorrow. take my film in to get processed when i go pick up my other 2 rolls.
tomorrow i have nothing to do. i thought about going out to the other mall to see if the other hot topic has my shoes in my size, but i dunno if i feel like doing that anymore. tony said he’d call me if him and dave are going to do something tomorrow. i guess tony’s girlfriend wants to go bond with dave’s cat. hahah. then i could finally meet her and she could see that i’m not a threat and no longer hate me. if she only knew tony was my secret valentines day admirer hahaha. but anyway, dave lives near the other mall, so it might work out that i am out that way anyway, and i can find my shoes.
tired but i know i wont sleep yet. i’m sorta hungry, but i don’t want to eat. oh well.
the site recontenting was going very slowly because i got to a point in my archives where i didn’t want to read them anymore. the point where i met nate. but i forced myself to read them, and then got to the point where he left.
nate leaving was the most painful thing that happened to me in my entire life. reading it still upsets me. i dont know if i’m upset at myself, or at what happened.
last night i told james that there are times when i hate nate. that i hate nate for making me have feelings when i did such a good job as a teenager to eradicate them.
i hate nate right now.
i need to stop crying so i can leave the apt and pick up my film.
fuck.
took in my “sara as a whore” self portraits to get done for tomorrow. my corset tank top that i ordered from victoria secret came today, but i don’t like it, so sending it back. so it’s a good thing i bought the sleezy shirt at tjmax. on my way to get film i stopped at frisbs and picked up 30 seconds to mars for 3 bucks. cool record.
now i’m here. and bored. i found a site where you can play match game and family feud and stuff online. fun stuff. uproar.com
ha ha heather is funny
Darknyss6: he looks cute, from what you can tell 🙂
Darknyss6: yes definately
Darknyss6: I went up close to the screen HAHA