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it’s starting again…the u2ness…i’m fighting the urge to post a bunch of lines from u2’s spin magazine article. no guarantees tho…

carrie said last week my aunt darleen had a dream about her aunt who died last year. in the dream the aunt came over and kept asking her if she was ready to go with her, that she was supposed to go with her. darleen told the aunt fine, but she wanted to shower first. so the aunt waited while darleen showered, but darleen was taking too long so the aunt came back in the room to ask if she was ready to go yet, because she had to go with her…

i had a dream about dubya getting drunk with dick cheyney in target while jeb bush sang showtunes.

and a dream about doing urbex on the set of the price is right.

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too.much.death.

darleen’s funeral was horrible. more horrible than my grandfathers. it’s always sad to see someone die young. she was around 50. my grandpa was almost 80. there’s a huge difference. tons and tons of people there because she was involved in a lot of book clubs, had started a program through working at barnes and nobles to donate books to people who don’t have money to spend on them, and had a big native american family. her son (my mom’s godson) paul is devastated. her daughter carrie just seemed numb. when we were leaving paul said that darleen was so proud of me for getting published in that magazine. she called me pretty polly for years after playing a character by that name in the 5th grade clowns play. she was more family to me than my family is, since they’re all so far away. it was horrible. just really really bad. they played that arms of the angle song by sarah maglaclan (sp?) and the entire room seemed to start sobbing.

that whole reevaluating life in the face of death thing…yeah…

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i’m looking at a house tomorrow. it’s in NT on 14th street, being sold by friends of my parents. we drove by it today and it’s super cute, and apparently in perfect condition cuz the owners were anal about everything. it’s got a 2nd kitchen in the basement, an organ, stained glass windows, 2 car garage, 1.5 baths, 3 bedrooms, shed, small back yard so less upkeep blah blah blah. i went to the bank about getting a mortgage, and they are going to call on friday to finish my pre-approval. my mom is all gung ho for it, my dad is not. he doesn’t think i should buy a house if i don’t plan on staying in the area for at least 10 more years. i could be here another year (most likely) or maybe even 5 years and i absolutely DO NOT want to keep spending 800$ a month on rent for another 5 years. or maybe i will end up meeting the love of my life and getting married and having a family based in NT and i will be here for the rest of my life…never know. i just do not want to keep throwing away all this money on nothing. so whatever. looking at it before the funeral for darleen tomorrow.

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i get to go to another funeral. my mom’s friend, “aunt” darleen, died last night. of the flesh eating bacteria. internally, not on the skin. seriously. carrie called my mom friday night to tell her they were taking darleen to the hospital in hamilton because she felt really really ill. they operated on her immediately and tried to get out the mass of flesh eating bacteria. they thought they got it all out, but 3 hours later a new mass of bacteria had grown even larger, and she didn’t make it. the funeral is tues or wed, not sure yet. more shocking than grandparents being ill and dying, she was younger than my mom, and one of my mom’s best friends.

i was thinking the other day about this VHS game called nightmares, that the carlo’s had…came with a video tape of this scary guy who would pop on screen at certain times and scare the crap out of you and tell you something to do. at the beginning of the game you had to write your biggest fear on a card and put it into a velvet bag (i don’t remember why though). and i always put down i was scared of the flesh eating bacteria.

and ol dirty bastard died…

and my grandma probably has lung cancer. mom is going back to detroit to go to more doctor appointments with her after darleen’s funeral.

*sigh*

everyone had a jolly good drunken time last night while i was at work. came home to an orgy in leighanne’s bed. mr kitty is traumatized. slept all day, then took james home at 530, then went right to work. dealing tomorrow at 8.

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we always seem to have pr meetings on days when my head is messed up. was driving poorly because the movement of other cars was making me sort of dizzy and disoriented. got lost. got to the meeting. got irritated. etc. i can’t handle all the talking at once when my head is messed up. and then changing things around, or suggesting to change things that were already discussed at length last month and decided upon. irritates me. but part of working in a group, just have to deal with it.

went to dennys after with lei adr and james. came home and watched tv. real exciting isn’t it?

lei’s ex roommate jerameeeeeeee is coming to visit tomorrow and they’re all going out but nooooooooooo i have to go to work. fabulous.

what else can i complain about? oh yeah, everything. still haven’t been able to get my painkillers refilled because the pharmacy can’t ever get ahold of my doctor. my face is breaking out massively and the stuff my other doctor gave me doesn’t work (surprise). so i don’t really want to fill that prescription because it’ll cost me 40$ for a miniscule amount of stuff that doesn’t work. WHY CANT SHE FIX MY FACE ALREADY?!?! no one else i know has as bad of skin as i do. i’m really really tired of it. i’m not a teenager anymore, hello.

can i just sleep the rest of my life away? please?

depressing…

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dream: everyone in america had to go to iraq to see what it was like to actually live there and be in a war. it was beyond scary. i guess i was in the army (assuming so just cuz i was wearing camo) and we had to shoot at airplanes with these big machine guns, but we weren’t suppose to hit the planes. just shoot at them and purposely miss, just to scare them i guess. all around us was getting hit by shells and all you could hear was the rat tat tating of machine guns. scary scary scary.

 

if i had the opportunity to get to know the members of u2, mr the edge would be my soul mate. i think we’d get along marvelous.

“Edge was just up all night, as he usually is anyway, on the Internet, pulling down some weird shit. The book follows the record, in that it starts out with fear and ends with faith. So in the fear half, Edge has got all kinds of information on how to tie up a prisoner in your own home, the art of the samurai sword, how to build your own bomb shelter. He’s researched all kinds of phobias. Then when we get into the faithful half, he’s found other things on trust.”

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slept til 430 cuz i didnt get home til 730. went to fallsview with tony and some other people from work. lost some money, then tony and i got comped for breakfast. always nice to get a chance to talk to him outside of work. i say that every time we go out hahah. and we say that we’ll hang out more outside of work and we don’t. hopefully when carnivale returns to hbo we’ll start up carnival thursdays with dave again.

i just want to say that i don’t care what anyone else thinks about my hair, i absolutely love it black, and i think it looks totally natural on me. everyone is used to me having red hair so they think the black is too shockingly dark. but i’m SUPPOSED to have dark hair. so get over it. and besides, it’s already fading and it has brown tint in good light.

so, finally, WBEN started their campaign to raise the money for the CTRC to buy back the concourse clock. i’m not sure of the time table, but i think we have to do it in about a month, and then the clock will be returning back home  i’m happy that it worked out. if you hop over to WBEN’s site they used one of my pictures on their little blurb thing. thanks for the credit guys…thanks for giving me my pictures back too, thanks.

i don’t know if anyone is coming over tonight.

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ok so the u2 album isn’t as bad as i thought it was. i like it more today. “city of blinding lights” is really good and fun. the lyrics are getting under my skin, and i think the overall cryability of this album is around a 9 a 10. need to find out if lyrics for all the songs are up anywhere yet. it’s tending to remind me more of zooropa now. a few of the songs, especially the slower ones, or ones with slow parts, remind me of “the first time”. “one step closer” really reminds me of “the first time”. just that it’s quiet and slow. but i still don’t like “one step closer”. it’ll always be the “grace” of this album lol. i like “all because of you” but it bugs me because it sounds out of tune, or bono sounds off key or something. yeah. so it’s getting better. and haha yeah, in the background of “crumbs from your table” there is some kind of sound effect that sounds siren-air-raid-like…and i keep thinking it’s the “accident horn” from durez…the whistle that would go off when the plant had some kind of accident. haha

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i had requested tonight off so that lei and i could go see Elevation – a u2 tribute band – recreate the zoo tv tour at the opera house in toronto. i put in my request too late and so i was on the schedule…that is until i went in for my 10pm shift and i wasn’t on the road map (tells you what section you’re in). so i left…and we went to toronto. got there late, but saw half of the zoo tv show, and saw the band do the few other songs after. they were really good…sound wise…some things left a bit to be desired, like macphisto, but maybe i just expect alot from someone trying to be macphisto

How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb

Have They Done Another Actung Baby?

no.

so…i also came into ownership of an advance copy of u2’s new cd “how to dismantle an atomic bomb” *cough* so here is my song by song review. keep in mind i suffer a disease. this disease manifests itself by making me not like any u2 record the first (or 2nd or 3rd…) time listening to it. u2 albums need to be listened to then put on the shelf to age for a few months before i listen to them again and actually like them. so i have a feeling this review is going to be quite a bit negative…and that doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s bad.

Vertigo (3:13) – as we know from a few weeks ago, i love this song. however it is absolutely not representative of any of the rest of the album. it’s a shame really…

Miracle Drug (3:54) – i like the lyrics. alot. but…that’s about it. it’s slowish and boringish. and very “electrical storm” ish…

Sometimes You Can’t Make it On Your Own (5:05) – this is bono’s song about his father who died a few years ago. again i like the lyrics but…i don’t like slow songs!!! by anyone really!!! it’s pretty but slow songs bore me.

Love and Peace or Else (4:48) – now this song is very very cool. dirty edge guitar, bluesy feel sorta…groovy. i feel like i should have more to say about it LOL. really really like it.

City of Blinding Lights (5:46) – old u2 sounding…the song that recycles lyrics from “last night on earth”. bono thought “hmm…when was the last time i wrote good lyrics, oh yes, pop, let’s see what’s on there that i can reuse, but change a little bit…” and he didn’t even pick good ones. but i like this song. honestly lol. i told you this was going to be negative…

All Because of You (3:33) – more upbeat and fun. reminds me of a “rattle and hum” era song…the guitar i think…not the rest of it really lol. “i like the sound of my own voice” hehehe “people got squashed crossing the tracks”…not exactly the most stellar lyric ever, but it’s amusing at least.

A Man and A Woman (4:27) – *I* like this song. lei doesn’t. it does NOT sound like a u2 song in the slightest… seriously, it’s like..what band is this. it’s on the verge of sounding spanish. i expect carlos santana to make a guest appearance. or like bono singing a sade song…it’s like spanish jazz. i probably would never have imagined u2 making a song like this. but i really do like it lol. it’s smooth. bono says ‘Sister” alot in it, makes me think he’s trying to be jeff martin haha

Crumbs from Your Table (4:59) – not sure i have anything to say about this song. it’s not bad. sounds like “electrical storm”. oh yeah, this is the song that practically STEALS the same riff from the end of “electrical storm” for the end of this song.

One Step Closer (3:47) – the ultimate song to fast forward. it’s on the level of “grace” and “peace on earth”. absolute crap. if i never hear it again i’d be happy.  (aarrrrrrrrrrrrg the basement door was shut again so the cat shit on my bed again arrrrrrrrrrrrrrg)

Original of the Species (4:34) – weird…synth/strings…i like the lyrics again. slow again….

Yahweh (4:22) – so u2 is a christian band. this is the song the band did so they’d win back the people they pissed off when they came out with “achtung baby” instead of “joshua tree part 2”. and i don’t like it. i really wanted to, really wanted to, but i just don’t. i think it’s silly. it’s not deep or thoughtful or anything. i feel like it’s part “zooropa”, reminds me of bono singing the advertising ads, combined with “somedays are better than others” just the rhythm of the lyrics i think… but badly combined. i don’t know.

it’s a very chill album…slow and not at all like vertigo, which for ME, is a disappointment. i wanted up beat real rock music. this isn’t it.
lyrics – B…better than “all that you can’t leave behind”
music – B…well..it’s still u2 sounding. i think the reason i like “achtung baby” so much was because it didn’t at all sound like what u2 was supposed to sound like at the time. and i like (half of) “pop” so much because “pop” didn’t sound like u2 either…this sounds like u2. and while that’s obviously not a BAD thing, it’s not exactly thrilling anymore either….
live ability – i’m not sure i’d want to see any of these songs other than vertigo live…
bono – bono is being bono. self depreciating a bit. the abuse he has put on his voice is very apparent. it’s not horrid, but it’s definitely not what it used to be.
edge – edge is shouting “hello, i’m still in the band, i’m right here”. sounds like “i will follow” edge met up with “electrical storm” edge and they had a baby.
adam – very “pop’ adam bass lines
larry – is larry…it’s drums…they sound the same to me. haha.

right now, upon…3rd listen or so… i don’t like it. now that i’ve heard it, i don’t want to listen to it anymore. back on the shelf for a while i guess.

and my comp is broken. just stopped working before i went to work. sounded like it turned off, but it didn’t. just the hard drive seemed to stop running. screen froze. turned it off and back on, cant boot up. fabulous. dad is coming tomorrow to take a look at it. it better not be completely messed up. i better not have to wipe the drive, because i don’t have anything burned….grrrrr i cant live without my comp.

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a recap
1. cleaned the kitchen twice – counters, sink, dishes, washed the floor, febreezed everything etc
2. reorganized the food cupboard
3. halloween…my non costume that was just an excuse to wear the corset shirt.
4. james jenn and adr came over tues night for election coverage
5. painted the legs of one of the unfinished decorated tables. we never finish anything.
6. board meeting
7. put together the ctrc newsletter
8. wed night at jasen’s. watched…um…searching for bobby fischer.
9. spent quality time at the laundromat because kitty was bad saturday night, basement door was shut, so he picked the best possible place to take a crap – my bed. washed the comforter in the big industrial washer ha. take that!
10. dyed my hair black
11. accomplished nothing of note obviously
12. got a copy of the tea party show from a few weeks ago – rock!
13. finished the last dark tower book – SK is right, no one believes in the “it’s in the journey not the destination” thing…kept reading to his coda because i didn’t like “the ending”. i won’t say anymore incase someone hasn’t finished yet *ahemjames* or doesn’t want anything ruined for them.
14. u2 album in 18 days

such the exciting life i lead

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