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this beligerant drunken asshole went off on me last night because i touched his drink. i picked it up to put it in a cup holder and he started saying that he couldn’t drink it anymore cuz he didn’t know where my hands have been. i thought he was kidding until he didn’t let it go, and bad mouthed me for the next half hour. i stood there smiling. he asked me if i was happy with myself because he was so absolutely disgusted now. it was actually sort of funny. i was hoping he’d spill the drink so i could make some sarcastic remark about having it in a cup holder, and having to kick him off the table cuz of the spill. but no such luck. i guess he continued bad mouthing me for the rest of the night. gotta love my job.

so it looks like, if we can’t take the nevada test site tour we are going to rent a car and drive out to Rhyolite Nevada, a ghost town on the edge of death valley. it’s about 2 hours from las vegas it seems. should be cool. JC gave me a handy dandy little map of las vegas to take on the vacation. the front of the map says “blahblahblah las vegas map for urban explorers”…i think they’re misusing that term hahah

we considered driving to joshua tree national park but…haha apparently the REAL joshua tree fell down 2 years ago, so it’s not the same….it’s also 5 hours from vegas. no thanks.

in honor of tonight’s final presidential debate, my first exposure to bush’s stupidity….

“and so, in my State of the – my State of the Union – or State – my speech to the nation, whatever you want to call it, speech to the nation”

the good news: even tho the tapeworm project is dead, a perfect circle is resurrecting the song we know as “vacant” for their political album that is being released on election day. renamed as “passive” it appears to be the same song. yay! exciting.

the bad news: wynn las vegas is not accepting applications until november 1st. so i guess auditioning there is out…haven’t checked the casino job site yet, will do that tomorrow. i just really wanted to try to get in at wynn…not opening until next year, would give me time to quit here and move out there etc….

mr kitty needs to stop pawing my face.

and i still don’t think our furnace works. i tried to turn it on again today and it didn’t do anything except click…freezing in here. i wonder what happened to my little fleece blanket…

it’s hard to type with a cat laying on my arm and shoulder.. oh good he moved.

today…was up way too early to go to griffiss sculpture park. it was interesting. though all i wanted to do was sleep. the sun came out as soon as we left.

work sucked. the end.

since i began dealing, and since it turns out i was good at it, i’ve been talking about taking some auditions when i’m out in vegas. i had sort of let that thought fade into the background, because i began thinking that maybe i don’t want to go out there yet. maybe i don’t want to leave this area yet. that i was/am (unfortunately) becoming established here and that i can’t/don’t want to leave yet. and then i realized today that i have absolutely no reason to stay in this area. i have nothing to stay here for. the only thing that i sorta have to stay for is a decomposing empty train station that won’t miss me when i’m gone. so i’m going to look up who’s hiring out in vegas so maybe i can put some applications in afterall. i have to remember to go see frank at new york new york because when he left here he told me to find him and he’d get me a job.

it hasn’t really been a good day mentally. just sorting things out in my head the last few weeks and trying to come to terms with certain things and stop kidding myself about others. same old same old no big deal. but vacation seems perfectly planned once again. i need to get away.

king of the hill. hank hill goes to las vegas to try to find his father who ran away. hank goes up to a dealer.

hank: have you seen an old man about yay high possibly shouting obsenities
dealer: welcome to my world

HAHA!

i just made a dumb impulse purchase from hot topic…i went to the site to see if they had my shoes on there (they do, will have to go to a store and try them on). ended up buying this black and red velvet corset top…eek! it’s so fabulous. i figure if it doesn’t fit i can just send it back. i 3 day shipped it so it’ll get here in time for vegas. i totally didn’t realize vegas was only a week away! yay.

i think everyone has seen sunbeams coming out of clouds, where it looks like fingers of light coming out from the sun and traveling down to the earth. the other night when i was driving home from work, the way the clouds or fog was, the same effect happened to the moon. i had never seen that before. there was a single moonbeam coming down from the moon like a spotlight and shining right on orion. so beautiful.

last night i dreamed about stars. in the sky. i think i/we were just outside the apartment but we could see billions of stars lighting up the sky. many more than i have ever seen out in the mountains looking at the milky way…

recap: i dealt 3 days in a row, which was awesome, except i remembered why i hate dealing blackjack. tuesday night i just wandered around taking people’s games so they could go re-train on blackjack. easy night.

last night the 4 of us went to the corn maze in nt. not the most spectacular corn maze ever since the corn didn’t grow well and most of the time, we were taller than it. but we still made it fun. we had gotten a combo deal thing, which got us free kettle corn and pop and activity tickets. so we cashed it all in. the blow up thing featured in the pictures in the previous entry is called the sticky stampede. you get in the velcro overalls, and run through the blow up obstacle course which is also covered in velcro. it was a blast. absolute hilarity. and definitely more difficult than it seems at some parts haha. topped that off with edible sugar/sand art and teds hotdogs. came back here to remove the arcade games off the deck and into the basement (THANKS BOYS) so that we didn’t get evicted, and then watched 28 days later. not as scary as all the commercials said it was. it wasn’t scary at all really. moral of the story: don’t rescue test animals from research labs because they’ll kill you. paid for by friends of animal testing. take that PETA!

i think it’s really great that we can make fun out of really stupid or not the most fun things ever. had a fabulous time despite the lameness of the maze.

patrick loaned me the last book in the dark tower series. started it tuesday, on page 150 now. if you haven’t read it yet, this is not a spoiler, but you might not want to read it anyway. i really can’t stand that stephen king has written sept 11th into the book. or any “dark date” in history really (i believe there is a jfk assassination reference). it’s just cheesey and lame and distasteful i think. it bugs me.

tonight: pr committee meeting and then……*fill in the blank*

for those who care… so like, 3 of you…. this new “the downward spiral” release…actually 2 things are being released. an SACD version, remastered in surround 5.1 and blahblahblah technical stuff that i don’t know anything about. it also comes with a 2nd disc which is a compilation of b-sides, remixes, rareities…which are only somewhat new. the 2 things that jumped out as being new or that i’ve never heard are reptile and heresy demos…the rest just seems to be remixes that were on “further…” or the tds singles…BUT…there is a 2nd tds being released the same day… a dvd audio version, that contains a dvd video part featuring surround sound closer video, hurt, and march of the pigs, and image gallery…

so on november 23rd i will be buying 4 “cds”…one of which i technically already have 2 copies of (stupid car cd playing being broken and scratching up my first tds cd) and will then have 4…I KNOW I’M INSANE YOU DON’T HAVE TO TELL ME. i am a fan to the core.

and in other news….yeah. this uniform. i walk to my table and tony is my floor. tony looks at me and says “you look….nice” and starts laughing. mustard just isn’t my color. and it had that jean fly thing going on…where the fabric is thick and sticks out so you look like you have an erection. yeah. looked like i had an erection coming out of my stomach. way flattering.

mr kitty won’t stop sneezing. but apparently is getting used to molly (the dog btw) enough that she took a nap with her today.

it’s 38 degrees out! i love fall! i forgot, once again, my october welcome message. so here we are:

October
And the trees are stripped bare
Of all they wear
What do I care
October
And Kingdoms rise
And Kingdoms fall
But you go on…

… and on…
welcome to jacket country!

anyway. after a long long time without buying any new cds, november is looking to be an exciting month. 2 new a perfect circle records, new u2 record, remastered version of the downward spiral (hey i’ll take any semi new nin i can get), and i do believe i’m forgetting something else as well…

aunt carol is in town for a few days. after 6 or so years of her saying she was coming to visit haha. they stopped into work for a bit but i was no where near break time so they left at some point without saying goodbye. i think they’re going to the finger lakes tomorrow, and i have to take the cat to the vet on monday so dunno when i’m going to see her at all.

speaking of the cat, apparently it somehow got into the heating ducts in the basement this morning hahah.

oh wow these uniforms are so completely unflattering on me. and they couldn’t have picked a worse color – this horible dijon mustard color. no wait, they could have. some of the food and beverage people get to wear bright pumpkin…that’s the worse color they could have picked. i guess i should be thankful then. still. so unflattering….

all sorts of changes going on at work…new uniforms debuted today, no big deal. but all sorts of procedural changes that are stupid and confusing. we’re supposed to be cracking down on dealers for game pace, and correct procedures and stuff. it’s tough. i don’t say much and i don’t want the little i say to be full of negative things. so i’m struggling a bit to find that medium ground. ah well. tonight was annoying because it was quite busy, and i was in a horrible section with very weak dealers. makes for an incredibly long night.

i forgot that the rock, rap and register voting…thing…was happening at the terminal on saturday…i thought it was sunday, so i was counting on my long saturday afternoon so i could do laundry and get caught up on stuff i haven’t done all week cuz of being distracted by the cat. but nope. going to the terminal in the afternoon (after getting tix to the tea show of course) until who knows when. definitely not staying the entire time though. just can’t do it captain…

and i’m all sorts of sore with many invisible bruises that hurt and have no origin…that i can remember at least haha

today was spent doing errands for the nameless cat (we tried a few today including deiter hehe it just doesn’t work). mom called and heard the cat meowing (cuz it doesn’t stop if no one is paying attention to him) and was like “did you get a cat?!” lol. went to parents for dinner, then back home. adr came over and corrected assignments, boys came over and watched the 101 best snl moment countdown for awhile before watching american history x (finally). a brutal but good movie. who knew eddie furlong did anything besides terminator and pet sematery. how did we ever think he was cute? i thought he was a girl in the opening scene of amhisx. a girl with a shaved head. reminded me of that italian movie brian brought one week with kate blanchet with a shaved head. but i digress

i have a massive migraine complete with half my face feeling weird, taking way too many drugs that didn’t do anything, and resorted to icing myself down (which didn’t really work either). i want to throw up but am not close enough to doing so…i’d have to go all bulemic and i’m not about to do that…..

gah ed norton is hot in amhisx…just photoshop out the swastika tattoo and we’ll be aallll good. 999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999

the cat says hi LOL bri took some pics that hopefully are better than the ones i took, cuz the cat actually was sitting still for a while.

tomorrow…board meeting…maybe work on the arcade liquor cabinet…we’ll see. i bought blade cuz it was a possible movie to watch tonight, maybe tomorrow instead….who knows. i get to take lei’s car to the meeting tho, cuz james needs to stash his arcade game. another addition to our deck haha

tea party is playing in the falls in october, luckily during my vacation so i don’t have to request a saturday off!!! yaaaay. good thing i didn’t go ahead and buy tickets to their toronto show this morning, as the falls show is 20$ cheaper.

kitty without a name has a vet appointment on monday. on grand island. the one close to use won’t take new pets…stupid heads. whatev.

something is very very VERY wrong with my computer. so no pictures of the cat til it’s fixed i guess. i don’t know what’s wrong with it, it just keeps going black, and “going to sleep” and then it stopped recognizing the ethernet crap, and i have no internet……FIX IT.

so call me or text message me if you need to get a hold of me tomorrow

comp magically fixed itself overnight….left norton running when i went to bed, woke up and it was turned off….turned it back on and everything works and i have internet again and….dunno wtf happened.

kitty keeps wanting to stand on my head and lick my ears…..lol