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you know who i don’t miss hearing about… evanescence…

the weekend was…uneventful. spent the day sat at my parents while my dad changed my coolant and oil. went to work. today was spent getting new wipers, since yes, it’s not even winter yet but i already broke my wipers. went to work.

big time stuff is going down at work right now. the teamsters are trying to unionize the dealers, and apparently got enough signatures for it to go to a vote. there is a hearing on the 10th to see if they will be allowed to come in for a vote, with that probably happening after christmas. bad bad bad stuff. so the casino is panicing as they should be, and people are being stupid and thinking a union is a good idea. so we’re getting bombarded with propaganda from both sides now. and i, in my current dual rate position, get screwed. the union will not allow me to vote for whether or not they can organize at the casino, but they more than likely will make me pay dues if they do get voted in. or they will eliminate my position and i’ll be forced to return to dealing full time, or forced to move up and floor full time. and i. do. not. want. to. work. under. a. union. i really don’t want to work under it either way, but i most definitely do not want to be IN the union and forced to pay them when i’ll get nothing, and most likely less than i get now, in return. so ug. people are so blinded by the union saying they will get us a raise…and it’s complete crap. time and time again unions have tried to organize in casinos and it fails. it has ruined the detroit casinos, and idiots at work apparently don’t care that detroit dealers had vacation time taken away, charged more for insurance, got a raise that didn’t cover union dues so they’re actually making less, and ultimately ended up being laid off, because HELLO casinos make their money from slot machines, not tables. they could fire all of us tomorrow and go to a straight machine casino and be just fine. i just wish people would open their eyes to all this. hopefully this anti-union paperwork we’re getting thrown at us will get through to people. depending on what happens with the union, it could have a very strong influence on if i decide to stay here longer or move elsewhere….

done with shop talk now. i’ve got no one to tell it to.

this week is shaping up as, flooring mon, tues haircut and flooring, movie night hopefully wed, ctrc xmas party thurs, dealing fri.

maybe i’ll do my u2 post tomorrow…i’ve been telling myself that all weekend

and oh yeah, tony named the cat on the way home from work tonight… chairman meow LOL

there is this guy at work, erik, who is relatively new to our casino. there is this girl colleen who i’ve talked to before about why the 2 of us are so intimidating to men, and why we don’t get asked out blahblahblah. so we asked erik why we are so intimidating. he said he didn’t find us intimidating at all, and couldn’t figure out why guys are afraid of us. he said “i don’t know how anyone could look at you in that red fur coat and not think ‘wow that girl must have an incredible personality and i definitely need to get to know her better'”…and i think that is one of the nicest things anyone has said to me in a long time…

nate left 2 years ago today. at the time i didn’t think those 2 years would ever end, but i was wrong – they flew. it’s hard for me to believe it has been that long. oh how things have changed yet stayed the same…how many cool things i’ve done since he left, how great my life has been (for the most part). makes me wonder if any of it would have happened had he stayed…

honestly can’t say what would happen if we were to make contact again. no one can really know. but before my mom fell so in love with him, she said he’d be a different person when he came back. and she’s right. i’m not sure we’d have anything in common, but i hope his experience made him a better person. i really do. because despite how much he broke my heart, he is a good, intelligent, funny person and deserves to have a good life.

no regrets

so this week…leigh and i rearranged the furniture and put up christmas decorations on sunday. it looks pretty good. the different arrangement of the furniture makes the place look so much bigger now. we have 3 of 4 (or now possibly 5) trees up and decorated.

oh yeah, saturday i had to meet with the mortgage lady at the bank to get all my info done and stuff. i got everything back yesterday, and apparently i can’t get enough for the house we looked at unless i want to put up a whole bunch of cash out of my investments. and i’m not sure i do that, so we’ll see.

ran errands yesterday, then james and adrienne came over. brian was sick and doped up on drugs hehe. did nothing really, watched tv, showed james macphisto, james fell asleep, i watched clueless on bravo and went to bed.

an aside: i find it really amusing that American Movie Classics and Turner Classic Movies plays movies from my life on them…breakfast club, ferris beuler (i forget the others i’ve seen listed as airing lately).

today mom came over with missy to see the decorations and show missy the apt in general. ran to the ups store and target to get frames for my 4 russian posters i ordered from red avant garde, but they didn’t have the right size. ordered some online and got my black patent leather mary janes in the mail today. yay.

i am so antisocial LOL i do all my shopping online and i never leave the house. yay me. i don’t even want to set foot anywhere near anything that resembles a shopping mall until february LOL. if i could only think of things to get my friends without doing any window shopping, life would be just that much better.

holiday non party is currently being rescheduled, might end up being after the holidays LOL but those in the area should be receiving invitations when details are final (hopefully soon).

apparently a tall cute boy who looked like nate stopped by my parents house when they weren’t home over the weekend. as reported by neighbor joanne. my mom thinks nate is home for the holidays and that i should call his parents house and find out. my response was 1. why come home from africa for the holidays right before coming home for good in approx 3 months (unless he is home for good now, 7 days before his 2 year anniversary)? 2. why would nate go to my parents house to see me when he couldn’t be bothered to take 5 minutes to write to me once in a while. 3. do i even WANT to see him again? a question i still haven’t answered really.

my mom thinks it would be really nice for us to see eachother again. i told her not to hold her breath.

i’m not sure what i would have done if i had been at home and opened the door to see him standing there.

it would be really easy for him to track me down, if he was interested in seeing me enough to go to my parents house, he could just as easily call them and find out where i live now.

and i’m shaking and on the verge of tears and i won’t be able to think of anything else now for the rest of the day.

it wasn’t nate. it was paul – darleen’s son.

thanksgiving…grandma, aunt carol, and eric were in town. normal turkey dinner, no big deal. even with grandpa dead i can only take my family in short amounts so eventually i just had to leave. but we did get in some home movie watching. my dad recently transferred all the 8mm tapes onto dvd, so it’s all handy now. we watched stuff from the late 80s. oh.my.lord. 80s fashion is so horrible. my aunt was decked out in THE most stereotypical bad 80s fashion since she worked for the Merry Go Round company (i know you remember them, i know you had your IOU sweatshirts too haha). in one of the movies she looked like boy george….long hair, the hat, the long trenchish coat. the other one she was wearing this lame 80s vest cuz it had been “vest day” at work. LOL and my cousin becky and the mall hair!!! crazy. and i was 9ish, and irritating. and i talked weird. and i realize i still talk that way, it’s almost like a lisp. but (i think) i only talk that way when i’m with people who make me very uncomfortable, or in situations where i don’t want to make people feel stupid by showing off my intelligence (so i did it alot in college working in groups). and i sound so horrible, i wish my parents would have broken me of the habit. i definitely talk differently when being “intelligent” and trying to dumb myself down…but anyway…movies of late 80s christmases. home movies are only funny to the people who are in them, mainly because we all laugh at ourselves, and at the comedy that is our family gatherings since they are exactly the same, year after year after year. there was one nice christmas story about my uncle apparently flashing his wife’s friend because the towel he had on didn’t wrap all the way around – so the friend told his wife, that she knew why she married him LOL. didn’t need to know….

so anyway…i worked 10-6 friday, didn’t go to bed because i had to go to the bank to meet with the mortgage agent at 10 am. so did all the stuff for preapproval and she should get back to me monday with a general figure of how much i could get if i found a house. came home and went to bed, then to work at 8. ran into someone that i haven’t seen in at least 14 years (but most likely longer), and someone who i totally did not remember in the slightest bit. a son of a friend of my mom’s. he acted as if i was some long lost best friend, so it was sorta weird. but gave me something to do since i was in let it ride and did nothing all night. it was just strange because he remembers me, and playing with me as a kid (tho he’s 6 years older) and i really don’t remember any of it. but i think i faked that i did pretty well hehe.

tomorrow is cleaning and rearranging furniture in preparation for 4 christmas tress….

holiday non party is looking to be the 15th or 16th or something. not certain yet, but leave that week’s wed/thurs open please. thanks

i’m preparing a massive u2 post in my head, but don’t know when it’ll get down on paper. i got a new comp game to try out: casino empire…it’s a tycoon/sims type game where you run a casino. jc said it’s hilarious.

i think it’s interesting that SNL redid their musical stage to look like a train station…

i also think it’s a pity that the myth and controversy of michael jackson overshadows his music so much. his good songs are so phenomenal it’s a shame we take them for granted so much. *my mind was just re-blown by how great “billie jean” is* he truely is a musical genius.

i started the night dealing, switched with tom so i didn’t have to do roulette in hopes that i’d get stuck in china town. ended up on let it ride…it’s been close to a year and a half since i dealt that game LOL. only did it for 3 hours, and it wasn’t horrible like i remember it to be. but then i got suited up at 11 to go floor in the high limit room. i’m not allowed to floor in there, but there i was. i had 1 midi-bacc table to watch. and it didn’t blow up, 2 bad shoes, so it was ok and fairly non stressful. but i don’t want to get stuck back there all the time now.

not sure when the holiday non-party is going to be yet, but there will be a nice surprise for everyone

to do tomorrow
1. stop the vitamins and see if that’s what’s making me feel so crappy
2…..

i think something is wrong with my ears. my right ear keeps popping really badly, like…the way it got after i got kicked in the head at my first orgy show…when i thought i broke my ear drum. maybe i have an ear infection or something, and that’s what’s making me feel so lightheaded and dizzy and blah. i gotta find a new doctor tho, cuz my primary care dr is way too far away now. they’ve moved so many times i’m not quite sure where they are anymore…the last time i went to that dr they were working out of a basement of a church….

ug this place is a disaster area

i’m not feeling very well. but not like i’m coming down with a cold or something…just blah. if i had noticed i wasn’t feeling well on time i would have called in. blah. was semi-sick yesterday…didn’t eat all day, and by the time i thought to cook something i just felt so ick and weak that i couldn’t stand up long enough to make fake mashed potatos. had lei get me a salad from wendys cuz i didn’t think i could leave the house. stomach got icky later. felt ok today til dinner time again, now feel weak and headache and blah again. maybe i’ll pass out at work and get to go home hah. something to look forward to.