*sings* movin on up…to the…high limit room. GAH i was in the high limit room all night. it was funny, cuz frank was like, you can handle it? are you sure you can handle it? are you SURE you can handle it? YES I’M FUCKING SURE. stood at a dead table for 2 hours, after that dealt maybe 15 hands, got moved around ended up back in there at a table with players… handled it just fine thanks.

they’re starting a pai gow and mini bacarrat class july 7th, so i’m going to take that. it’s 3 weeks long, it’ll give me another .50 in my paycheck. go me. bringing in the bux now  hahah

off to the silos. it’s funny the looks i get when i say that. jenn’s like… um. WHY?

 

gaaaaaah!!! the grain silos were soooooo coool. we went around doing outside shots for a while, then went inside cargill-s. *dies* it was so friggen great. took 3 rolls of film, camera being a bitch again though. *kills it* gotta figure out what’s wrong with it. prolly won’t get pics developed/back/online til wed/thurs ish again. definitely going to have to go back. it was drizzly and stuff, i wanna get back on a nice day when the lighting is different. so brian, thank you thank you!!

now gotta bust my ass to finish getting ready for work and head out.

the most difficult and time consuming process for me in webdesign is finding the right font for the site. i’m such a dork. i agonize over what font to use. lol.

i have a lunch meeting on monday with the terminal pres. vietnamese food. should be interesting. got a bunch of info on publishers in the area, or who have published books about buffalo. spent 4$ on a friggen starbucks mocha malt frappuchino…frappuchino’s are just icee’s for grownups. it was damn good, but 4 bucks…not happy. bought more black and white film. emailed photog proff from geneseo about buying film in bulk. got my car inspected. la la la…

going to the grain silos with brian (the website guy hehe) on saturday. i haven’t been down there, so it should be interesting. anyone know why tripods are so friggen expensive? saw one today for 129…good thing my dad has 9283497 camera things, and i won’t need to buy one ever.

my eye really needs to stop twitching. i thought we solved this problem a few months ago. gr. and OH YEAH…besides the fact that i decided my skin dr doesn’t ever work…mom finally called and got through for me, got new prescriptions. BUT i only get one of each, then i have to go see her. so made an appt for that, went to get my meds today…yeah. my insurance doesn’t cover it and it was 40$…so i didn’t buy it. sorry, not spending 40$ on clearasil, cuz that’s all it is. AND besides that, the stuff i get from the dr is only 4% benzol peroxide, and clearasil is 10%..so i just went and bought clearasil. i hate drs/insurance/etc…

well i didn’t win the 140 million…not sure if anyone has. but woo boy if i had…the terminal would be mine…

gonna try to get up early and go get my pictures. they’ll be up sometime tomorrow, but maybe not til late depending on my date and stuff. gotta figure out where i’m going to put them too.

have i mentioned i hate my computer?

 

*drum roll*……. i’ve got pictures  !!!!!!!!! gahhh. some turned out really really well. i have a few favs, mostly of the glass walkway. as i expected half my first roll of color film didn’t turn out cuz the camera was being a bitch, and i was fucking with the manual settings. but after it recovered…that camera takes some damn good quality pictures. but next time i’m not bringing any color film. urbex doesn’t do well with color i don’t think. so i grayscaled all the pics after i scanned them and they are much better. putting together a new site to house them, so it’ll be a while before they go live…maybe tomorrow. i can’t stay up all night doing it tonight cuz i gotta get up early to get my car inspected, and run some errands. maybe go to the lasalle square library…but maybe not hehe.

i had my date tonight. we went to dinner and to see bruce almighty. had a good time. the movie is good, but they did indeed cut my scene out. bastards!! haha. i love jim carrey. he’s so funny. i think that’s the first jim carrey movie ive seen since man on the moon… i don’t count the majestic cuz it was on the plane to vegas and i didn’t watch/listen to it.

off to start my new site

there was a raccoon stealing garbage in our parking lot.

i am in so much pain from running around the terminal. my legs hurt so bad i can hardly go up and down stairs haha. i’m such an invalid.

i can’t get my pictures til tomorrow cuz they wont be done til five today, and i go in at seven…no way i can get out there and back in time, unless i really push it, and wear my uniform to get the pics haha. i guess i can wait til tomorrow when i get up. pics will be up tomorrow before i go on my date, if it’s still on. dunno… gotta call him.

learning 3 card poker again, and definitely learning pai gow so i can get an extra 25 cents in my pay check in july…for each extra major game we know we get 25 more cents…so knowing blackjack and roulette i’ll get the first 25…then if you know pai gow, let it ride, carribbean stud, 3 card, and the money wheel you get another 25…so i’ll be making 4.50 an hour baserate starting july 5th. that’s an extra 20$ a week.

i’m really tired and have a headache again, gonna try to nap (while listening to tool)…

fishy and i need a title for our book…so i can start on the website

 

i’ve been meaning to post this for ages…but…

what the hell happened to jewel. i never liked her, but at least she had some integrity…and now…?? she’s dressing like britney spears, looking whorish, and from what i was able to hear from the NBA halftime show, singing stupid pop copycat songs a la britney and the rest. everyone at work was like “who’s that singing?”….”jewel”…”THAT’S JEWEL!?! WHAT HAPPENED TO HER?”…and she still needs to get her teeth fixed.

my first scheduled night in pit 3. i think i proved my worth. got to talk to john for a few minutes before my shift, so that was cool. and got out an hour early. if i hadn’t gotten out early i was gonna go to the other casino with some other dealers and just not go to bed before the terminal. but i have about 4 hrs i can sleep now.

just gotta get directions to the terminal from here…i just don’t know what way is fastest.

 

sooooooooooo tired. soooooooooo excited i’m gonna pee my pants hehheheheheh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

i love buffalo. buffalo is such a beautiful city – you just need to know where to look.

i don’t even know where to begin. i had just a fabulous time at the terminal. i’m glad i left early because i went brain dead on how to get there once i got off the 33 and drove through the ghetto a bit (a lot) lol. so hanging out outside before they started the tour, i ended up talking to the president of the terminal restoration commission (or whatever it’s really called). I have to call him this week because he wants my dad’s pictures of the inside from the 70s. Since this was the first real tour in 15 years, he was there to sorta give the tour – he won’t be at the other 2 dates – so I was glad I went to this one. He had alot of information about the terminal, since he owns it, the history, what’s going on with it etc. I got tons more respect for the fences, and sealing it up so people “can’t get in”…met the kid who runs buffaloexploration.com as well and talked to him lots about the terminal and the psych center. definitely going to be a good contact for the book.

So inside…I was just like…omg. I could barely contain myself lol. There were about 60 people there, and the president guy kept saying he was overwhelmed at the response. He had a few slides someone gave to him from Germany of the terminal when it was being built, which was really cool. We can only hope to stumble across some stuff like that for our book.

I kinda wandered off on my own when the tour moved into the main concourse. There was a staircase to the offices in the tower that was fully illuminated, so I was like hey, I’m gonna go up there. The first floor ended up giving access to the tops of the ticket counters, and since I didn’t know if I was supposed to be up there or not, I tried to stay hidden from the main group down below. The kid from the website saw me up there though, so he came up and we walked around a bit through the offices up there. He found the infamous walkway between the windows, which was just like…omg. Was not going to attempt to go through it, way too much broken glass…and the whole owner being there thing. We thought we heard people coming up so we took off back downstairs. Then of course the tour goes upstairs HAHA…

So I took that opportunity to stay on the main concourse and go behind the caution tape…again trying to stay hidden incase I wasn’t supposed to be there. Found a room that used to have stores in it – a book store, candy store, and novelties…mens bathroom with broken urinals…ladies bathroom…which apparently had a large lounge before the actual bathroom part of it. Some of the old wall hangings (cloth wallpaper) and wall paper borders were still on the walls. It must have been really luxurious at the time. Went back into the main concourse, joined the tour upstairs but decided to continue up the stairs to the other floors to see how far I could go. 2nd floor door was stuck shut, 3rd floor was unlocked…went in there…I think that’s the floor that had all the fallen ceiling tiles that I walked over, some random furniture, etc. 4th floor had…the roof. I about died. Big open window that I went through to get onto the roof of the main concourse. I was just like…oh…my…god. 5th floor is the end of the line. It’s fenced off because the above floors have the machinery for the clocks, security, and cell phone towers on the top of the building. (however, making arrangements with the president to go back with a UB group, gonna see if he’ll let me up farther). Another guy found me up on the higher floors and mentioned the kitchen, which I hadn’t seen because I had been upstairs when the group was down on the concourse. So he took me down there, and the website kid was there – he found the basement. Soooo…the 3 of us went down to the first basement, which was pretty um…dirty and dangerous and dark. He was prepared with a flashlight, me not so smart. But I was able to use the flash on my camera to light up the steps enough that I could find a semi-flat-non caked with mounds of dirt steps that I could step on to get downstairs. There was a hall full of lockers, I guess for the workers, and another kitchen. We made our way down the hall, which was again..dark and piles of dirt everywhere, so you had to becareful with your footing. The end of the hall was more of a kitchen with an old stove and stuff. We didn’t even try to go to the next further down basement, because it was even more dark (cuz by then it was actually underground – the first basement still had windows that you could see the parking lot railings from), and the stairs were covered in even more debris. Would definitely need to be more prepared to venuture further down.

The tour was basically over, people were leaving, but we were still wandering around. Then a bunch of people went back up stairs – to the roof. HAHA so we went back to the roof, and we actually climbed up the domed roof of the main concourse. It was incredible. I went back to the 2nd floor to just try the door again. I pulled real hard and got it open lol, so it apparently wasn’t welded shut like I thought…just stuck. Stepped in their breifly.

After that, everyone really was leaving cuz the president guy had to lock up. Hung out in front for the last people to get out of the building, and talked about some of the going ons and possible future plans. Apparently (and this got me excited to all hell), the group gave a presentation to the Seneca Nation about putting the Buffalo casino in the terminal…!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t think of a more fabulous idea for the building. There are concerns that the guy talked about, and the Seneca’s decided this week to put the casino in the Buffalo Convention Center – but the rumor is if the negotiations fall through for that, they have a secret 2nd location picked out – possibly the terminal. There is so much potential for it there (other than the neighborhood it’s in…)…you have the train tracks…people from New York to Chicago could take a train right into the casino. The tower would be a fabulous place for a restaurant overlooking the city. Apparently on a clear day you can even see the falls from the top. The building is just so beautiful, such a work of art, that if the Seneca’s put the money into restoring it, it would be amazing. The tower could even be restored into a hotel. gah…lol.

It’s totally gutted, don’t get me wrong. But it’s incredible. And with money, it would be amazing again. In talking about the history, the building was in private ownership for 25 years or something, and that is the main reason it went into ruins. As a historical landmark, that only applies to the outside of the building, not the inside…and the asshole previous owners stripped and sold all of the fixtures, and everything inside – even ripped the pipes out of the walls to sell as scrap metal. The clock that was in the main concourse was on ebay a few years ago for 28,000$…the buffalo that was inside was destroyed and removed. UB apparently found the molds for the original buffalo, and re-made it and they have it on the south campus somewhere. The president said he gets letters and emails all the time from all over the country – people telling him that light fixtures, or railings, or mailboxes from the building are on display at such and such a museum, or for sale at antique shops…and they don’t have the money to regain them – which is why they didn’t buy the clock off ebay. It’s sad really.

I took 4 rolls of film, tried to recreate my dad’s pictures…we’ll see how it turns out. Hopefully I have some decent pictures, but neither camera wanted to work properly and ug…But yeah…omg.

After the tour, I ended up going to Corpus Christi church which is a few blocks away with some people from Canada. The church is in danger of being closed by the diocese (sp?), so they wanted to see it before it’s closed. It’s a Franciscan/Catholic/Polish church…I walked in and started to cry. No idea why, but I was just like omg. It is so beautiful inside. There was the fathers day mass going on, and they announced that they got a 6 month repreive on the closure of the church. It was just…I don’t even know. The mass was…interesting…cuz it’s polish, so they had like…polka hymns lol. I tried to concentrate on the amusement of that, so I’d stop crying lol. So after the mass, we walked around to look more closely at the alter and the artwork. Really amazing place.

Gah!!!! The photo place that does b&w was closed, so I have to take them tomorrow, get them tuesday – they’ll be scanned asap.

Got to get in contact with the website kid cuz he’s gonna be a great contact for the book, and I’m gonna see if I can tag along on some future outings.

ug.

was pissed when i got to work yesterday cuz the retarded bus from the parking lot almost making us all late. not getting into it tho. frustrating tho. then i’m on my game and i get tapped off to open the table next to me. was supposed to be a private table for…some ppl….who ended up not showing up. but the potential was there for me to have this really exciting night haha. apparently the ppl requested me. it was weird. i told the ppl to come play with me again, next time, when the others actually show haha…

cable guy came this morning. apparently it is the router. cuz it’s so not working anymore. laptop plugged into the modem works, plugged into the router, no worky…my comp…not a chance in hell of working. trying to downgrade the upgrade i did which prompted all the screwyness…and eric is gonna come by monday again to look at shit.

went to allentown art festival. didn’t buy anything, but made some contacts for the book. yay.

got my bowie show in the mail today. irritated that the radio broadcast didn’t play all the songs, but it’s so good. hehe. good quality from radio of course, and i forgot how good bowie sounded. still…my fav songs aren’t included. bah.

one other irritation…the way the schedule is done at work it doesn’t follow the pay period…so the way our week ends, i technically only had 1 day off this week, and got 7 hrs of overtime yesterday. but that means i have 3 days off on the next pay period…i was gonna try to give away one of my days off to get overtime, and now i’ll only be giving it away to get myself back up to 40 hrs…ug. dunno which day tho yet…i gotta get my car inspected the one day, and i need a photo inspection for my insurance and crap…

headache. cute bowie. haha

 

ok do you know what is really annoying? these pop up ads that come through XP…and i don’t know why. i thought they were coming through the newest version of AIM but i went back to 4.8 on adrs laptop and they still keep coming? wtf…how do i stop them? they weren’t doing it til today…

ok so whatever the problem is seems to have pretty much worked itself out. i changed some settings with the router that eric had disabled, but i don’t think that made any difference. used adr’s laptop to see if a wire-full (haha) connection worked, she had less problems then i was having on wireless. but she was still getting disconnected. just not every minute (literally)…seems to have fixed itself at the moment, i guess it was an adelphia problem.

tony came over tonight, the 3 of us went to perkins to eat…so high class now. it’s weird. if it’s 24 hrs (i didn’t notice) it’s just not the same anymore. but a blast from the past – an old dennys waiter (the hot one) – works at perkins now lol. ended up hanging out there for a while, then went to deedees for desert then back here for the last 7 hours lol. it was a good time. lots of shop talk haha, lots of good conversation. fun times.

however in showing tony my website i realized MT has left every post since i switched to MT on the main blog page…so since mid/end april, with all the password posts and talk of “the situation”…gotta see how to fix that. i’m sure it’s just a setting i missed somewhere. *update* ok i don’t know what the problem is, cuz the setting says “show 7 days worth of posts”…and yeah i see tons…wtf…

so now when i wake up i gotta go get more b&w film and do laundry before work at 9. allentown art festival sat with eric tiff and adr…terminal tour sunday. as i put it at dinner “if i could physically have a wet dream the terminal tour would be it”…tony and adr got a kick out of that hahah.

omg me and tony are such dorks. we had an extended conversation and got excited about my graphing calculator hahahah.

and oh yeah. this may not be news to anyone but…marilyn manson is not playing the buffalo ozzfest. i had wondered about it because various sites didn’t list him on the list for buffalo…but i didn’t know why. then adr said she heard ppl protested about him playing here (grow up, that was so 3 years ago), but thought it might have been resolved. i emailed bull @ 103.3 and asked if he knew anything. he said manson’s not playing, it’s an off day for him and he’s using it for whatever reason. so whatever…very disappointed. i’m never gonna fucking see that band.

and oh yeah. bono is a friggen lyrical genius. i’m gonna be macphisto for halloween. gotta start preparing now haha.

 

there is no point on me being online, because again, can’t stay connected to the net for longer than a minute at a time.

someone needs to fix this.

 

called adelphia for help with my connection. seems like it may be a modem problem. the guy had me hook the lap top right to the modem, he ran tests, he had me reset it, things weren’t working right. so they’re sending someone tomorrow morning. yay…cuz i dont work til 5 tonight. whatever. that hinders the allentown plans tho…but whatever. my comp is hopeless to get a connection now, so atm the laptop is connected right to the modem.

i had weird dreams about john again.

i really really fucking hate adelphia.

ok so…with the wireless network there had been a problem where if my comp was idle for long periods of time (eg at work, overnight) i’d lose connection to the net. so in an attempt to fix that, the entire network broke and i had no connection til eric came over today to fix it.

so it’s fixed…and i don’t lose the wireless connection, but i seem to lose connection about every minute…but i’m thinking it’s an adelphia problem and not a problem on my end.

anyway…ok wow this is so incredibly annoying it’s not even funny.

work was fine. off today. tony’s supposed to call at some point so we can hang out tonight. the grand island kid called today, wanted to do something but i said i had plans so he’s gonna call next week some time. i was going to do laundry today but i guess i’ll just do it tomorrow. i need to go to blvd mall to buy b&w film from the camera shop there. i don’t know if theres a place i can get it out this way.

this is REALLY REALLY fucking annoying. now i can’t even keep a connection for more than a minute before it goes out again. all the lights are working on the modem so WTF. you know, everything was fucking peachy with my computer til i had to go and get new shit to make everquest work. i currently can’t sign on to my primary screenname cuz i get the “you’re attempting to sign on too quickly” message even when i wait, and the net goes out and comes back.

and i fucking have a headache now.

work was pretty good. i was on roulette. score! 2 days in a row…well for most of the night. i was sent to send a girl on blackjack home, 2 minutes after that i was tapped off to go to pit 3…….did blackjack in pit 3 for an hour. terry added me to “the list”…the exclusive list of dealers who are good enough, and therefore allowed to deal in pit 3. so that was pretty rad. then they closed my table so it was back to assist in roulette, where i got hit on by a boy from grand island who knows nate. he wants to take me out. don’t tell my mom  lol. he goes to NU and works at olive garden LOL i was like, “i was there last week”…he’s like, “do you like it?” i’m like no HAHA. he’s like me neither, people are 50/50 on it, i get both – but i’d never take a date there” lol

it’s really fucking hot in here. tomorrow i’m gonna try to go to menes with amanda to buy some plants. yep. then work 7-3 again.

 

k don’t know if i mentioned this, but…this girl i know who i call “chief wiggum” cuz she looks like chief wiggum on the simpsons…got married… …i knew she WAS getting married, to a man she met on the internet who lives in nigeria…but i didn’t know that this trip she took to see him was the trip to actually get married. roflmao. this is hilarious. and completely repulsive  …cuz those of you who know who i’m talking about already wonder WHO FUCKS THAT?!!!!?!?!!!!?!?!?!?!?!??????!!!!!!!!!? i guess it puts the faith back into me and all my friends that we will find partners in the future if SHE can get married (albeit to a nigerian she met on the internet)…

my brain feels detached from the things that hold it in place in my skull. blah. don’t like it.

adr is here now. came home and her car was here, and furniture was moved lol.

eric came over and set up the wireless network today, so i’m all spiffified now. seems to work just fine. my comp is another story tho. couldnt get on everquest last night, just went black and never loaded the game…gotta figure that out sometime.

toilet is broken again…back to running every 2 minutes. called the land lord and left a message for him.

trying to do the car insurance thing, going with geico cuz its the cheapest. i don’t get the big differences between companies…cuz geico was 500 for 6 months, progressive was 600 for 6 months, then aig which i have now was 1400 for 6 months…?!?! don’t get it.