Category Archives: Personal

ran some errands today, but still forgot to mail my rebates. oh well. parents should be here any minute to finally bring my file cabinet and take back their vaccuum and crap.

made reservations for my central terminal tour on sunday (and the 2 other dates). i didn’t realize it’s a 2 hour long tour…gives me lots of time to explore…legally …i’m taking my dad’s pictures with me cuz i want to try to “retake” them…to see the destruction and everything. gah i’m so excited. there is the psych center tour on saturday, but i’m not sure if i’m going to go. since it’s not an internal tour…i can go walk around any time by myself. and there are another 8 dates for that tour that i can go to. i wonder if they fixed the hole in the fence hehe…

they demolished the pondarosa on meadow…wonder what’s gonna go in there. there were rumors 2 years ago when ppl randomly put curbs into the ames parkinglot, that it was going to be a dennys. not like it matters now, since i’m within walking distance of dennys

tony is coming over thursday. gonna help me move furniture and crap. prolly get dinner or something.

i had to buy a daily planner thing cuz i need to keep track of the hours i work. but of course all of them are 2004. just cuz it’s june doesn’t mean that people don’t still need daily planners for 2003. and who the hell buys a 2004 one when it’s 6 months away? i ended up finding a 03/04 one, ugly, but it works.

parents here bye.

that whole “sleeping the whole day away thing”…yeah. didn’t happen. i submitted a request on some site, to look for car insurance. you enter info, they send it to a bunch of diff companies. some insurance lady called at 9 fucking 30 am. then she had to call back after she checked my credit rating. thanks. then landlord called at 1:30 to ask about the toilet running, cuz apparently the people upstairs told him it was constantly running LOL. so he had parts to put in, came by to do that…so yeah no sleep. tried to take a nap after he left, for about an hour, but that was unsatisfactory. then the toilet was leaking…had to get him back in to fix it again. he thought he fixed it, but before i left for work it was leaking again. will have to check it out when he calls about it tomorrow….it didn’t leak too much while i was gone, so maybe it sealed itself or whatever.

i don’t think anyone expected the ducks to hang on in the finals, but they’ve certainly made the series interesting. it would be wonderful if they won game 7. new jersey doesn’t need another stanley cup. share a bit, will ya?

i owe james so much at work. twice he’s gotten me off my let it ride table. although i was stuck on it for 6 hours today, he got me off and onto roulette for a bit, then some blackjack and i went home early. let it ride just sucks. period. you take everyones money, and they complain that the cards are crap..it’s like…when do you realize YOU DON’T WIN IN THIS GAME!! lol. someone asked me if it sucks to have to deal it, cuz it’s so monotenous (sp? i know)… and i’m like yep. i hate it. lol.

i have a few 7pm starts next week, which should, hopefully, be roulette. then i have thursday and sunday off…?? maybe sunday will be ikea day or something  i need to find a reason to buy the cool modular mirror there. i’m not seeing a spot to hang it though…oh well.

twin peaks update…18 of (i think) 32 episodes downloaded so far. can’t start watching them til i finish getting the pilot episode. but not like it matters i guess, since i’m expecting the usual lynch-ness of nothing making sense. lol.

 

DEF LEPPARD IS PLAYING THE ERIE COUNTY FAIR!

 

i’m a retard. this whole past month ive been waiting for danielle’s birthday gift to arrive and i’m like wtf is it?!?! well i never placed the friggen order. bah lol so now i ordered it and it should come relatively soon…only over a month late. whatever.

making progress on the lynch downloads. got the toronto lacuna coil show. totally different setlist than the buffalo show. wish i could have gone. oh well.

bought my wireless stuff, someones gotta come set it up tho i’m not touchin it hehe.

i dunno what i’m gonna eat for dinner. blah. i hate cooking.

1. since my comp was upgraded a few weeks ago, it pauses everytime something on it has to make a noise…even just clicking a link, and it makes that click sound, it pauses. and it’s really friggen irritating.

2. i’m trying to download all the episodes of twin peaks. this will only take me about 2 years.

3. getting bowie’s area 2 toronto show from last summer. yay.

4. this article on yahoo: “Ex-Official: Evidence Distorted for War”

The Bush administration distorted intelligence and presented conjecture as evidence to justify a U.S. invasion of Iraq (news – web sites), according to a retired intelligence official who served during the months before the war.

i have one word for that….DUH!

The administration’s prewar portrayal of Iraq’s weapons capabilities has not been validated despite weeks of searching by military experts. Alleged stockpiles of chemical and biological weapons have not turned up, nor has significant evidence of a nuclear weapons program or links to the al-Qaida network.

that amuses me, and justifies my anti-war position even more.

Bush has said administration assertions on Iraq will be verified in time.

wouldn’t put it past him to plant “evidence”…i hate bush.

4. eat and bed. it’s 6:30am

work was interesting. got bounced around a bit. finally got to see the nonsmoking room. it’s pretty nice in there. i wasn’t prepared for the brightness of the table lights tho, and i kept getting a nasty glare off the peek window, and the stack markers.

got amanda and i tix to the dave gahan show in toronto in july. they are a bit more expensive than i was figuring on (more than seeing depeche mode at molson amp) but whatever. tried to download his album, but man…when you get 30 copies of the same song looped, it gets frustrating. i’ve found about half of the album in real songs. everything else, no matter the name of the file, is his first single looped. ah well.

i work at 10 tomorrow. ug. that is such a sucky shift, cuz it’s very light out when you leave. gotta find something to do with myself tomorrow. maybe i’ll try to arrange the living room or something. and i must, MUST, get car insurance tomorrow. and maybe go to the dmv if i can find it.

 

hfs!!! fishy and i are one giant step closer to our book. she contacted a PR person for the hospital, and found out there are boxes of pictures we can have access to!!! still working on getting inside ourselves, but we are one huge step closer. sooooooooo excited

and fucking adelphia. i turn my comp on today, and it is completely fucked up. when the menu bar is loading, it suddenly disappears and recreates the top half of my screen in the bottom half. tiny little mouse cursor, totally fucked. so i freak out, try to run a virus scan, but it keeps freezing. then i realized, maybe its something in my start menu screwing up… yep. deleted adelphia’s stupid esupport program, and voila, it works again. fucking adelphia.

*sings* i’m back. back in the saddle again. */sings*

hello hello. i am now online once again, thanks to 50 feet of coaxial cable wire. or whatever it’s called. definitely going to have to go wireless at some point, because wires stretched from the far wall, through the living room, through the hall, and into my room is not gonna cut it once we get organized and everything. the closer of the 2 cable jacks isn’t hooked up to anything…had to use the far one. spectacular. but i’m on, and i’m happy, so…it’ll do for now. i looked at wireless equipment last night, gonna be a big chunk of change, but whatever. probably the way to go in the long run.

so yeah…had the last 2 days off so nothing much to report. had my date last night. we went to the olive garden…haha yeah, go ahead and laugh. i did. it wasn’t awful, but it’s just the principle of me going to the olive garden. it was a decent time. he said *i* have to call him for next time. i’m like, i seriously never use the phone lol. we’ll see.

got bored enough here with no internet that i set up my tv/vcr/dvd and dug out popmart concert to watch the past 2 nights. i bought a photo album at walmart and organized all my pictures since summer 1999. i’m missing some, but no clue where they’d be since i have everything from my room here now. oh well.

i spent 70$ on groceries and i still have no food. i don’t get it. and if i defrost my 2lbs of hamburger do i have to cook it all at once? or can i refreeze it? i probably should cook it all. adr needs to get her ass moved in so she can cook for me

so i guess i’m gonna get my ass moving and shower etc, cuz i work at 7 tonight. either roulette or in the non smoking room…

well all my shit (everything i can think of) is in the apartment and i’ve been staying there. home to use the comp since i won’t have net til thursday. and that’s questionable cuz i don’t know how all that works, and we only have one cable outlet atm…so eric is gonna look at it tonight when he comes to hook up my scanner.

but yeah…the big move is over. jenn and jeff helped out on sunday, got all my furnture over. just need my file cabinet, and some random crap here and there that i keep remembering. went grocery shopping today, so now i have more than yogurt and vodka in the fridge. went to walmart…haha niagara falls…gotta love NF residents. they amuse the hell out of me. i always get kleptomaniacal impulses at walmart, particularly in the makeup section…i can’t justify the prices of makeup, and it’s just so easy to steal it. but i don’t steal it cuz i’m a good girl. bought a 4 pack of eyeshadow for 5 bucks cuz i wasn’t going to be happy unless i left the makeup section with something lol.

to sexyneck: i can still gaze at you all day… i do HAVE a comp, just not internet. and i think 100+ pictures can tide me over

there was other shit i was gonna say, but don’t remember. i got my radass zooropa tour pins that i impulse bought on ebay…and my vintage terminal postcard should arrive soon.

fab four on the prowl again. first time in a long while that everyone’s been home. danielle was at work when we left, waitressing, so we went to that bar and ended up having perfect timing – she was leaving in 5 more minutes. so we headed to wild wings to catch the end of the hockey finals game 2…nj won again, shutout again…blah. drank stuff, and went to dennys. we realized that with our apartment, we’ll be able to get drunk and walk to dennys LOL. that’s gonna be bad. but it was rad fun. wild wings had kareoke, so eric sang pearl jam’s “black” (i managed not to cry thanks)…and he rocked. that’s prolly the best eric kareoke i’ve gotten to hear. we caught up on everything…it was good. i think that after things get settled and people know where they’re going to be, it should be a weekly thing. thursday nights out.

yeah. got a bunch of stuff together to take to the apartment tomorrow when i go to get the keys. the futon, kitchen stuff, bathroom stuff, microwave. i took all my posters down, and all my pictures from the cork boards, bagged up all my picture frames. i have a feeling i’m just gonna be throwing shit in boxes/bags to take over. gonna just throw my clothes into my car. gonna take enough stuff to be able to live there til i’m able to take all my furniture over. hopefully the place has power still, but even if it doesn’t, i’m staying there this weekend. it has water, i can get candles, i have my cell phone…that’s enough.

i think its funny how my days and nights are so screwed up cuz of the shift i work. its 1:30 am and i’m like, wow its so early, what can i do for another 4 hours. hahah

 

so here’s the scoop…

phone is being turned on monday. internet being set up thursday. my online time until then will be sporadic this weekend, if at all. don’t know the status on how much i’ll get to move over there, etc etc etc. best way to contact me until i’m back online is through my cell phone. if you rate at all, and if i have your email address, i sent you my new contact info and mailing address. if for whatever reason i didn’t send it to you and you think you deserve to know, drop me an email.

gotta call the landlord now and see whats going on with the key exchange thing, so i can take my crap there.

 

ug i totally cannot deal with my parents. my mom just fucking takes over everything…we go to get the apartment keys, she goes on and on about how filthy it was, cleaned everything, telling us what we need, what we need to do, all this shit. it’s like i didn’t fucking ask for your help. so don’t get bitchy with me. then shes telling me not to get snotty. well drop the fucking attitude. then shes on the phone with darleen talking about how “horrible” the apartment is, and how filthy it was, and how we’re going to get robbed cuz we’re on the first floor, and how we shouldn’t have rushed into things, and all this fucking bullshit. i really fucking hate my parents. people don’t understand it but i do. i fucking hate them.

needless to say there’s pretty much no way i can stay there atm, didn’t get enough moved in, blahblahblah. so i will be back here for the weekend. i really need to get out by sunday tho. gotta see if jenn and jeff will help with the furniture cuz they have a truck, on sunday…need out now.

postponed my date again, it just wasn’t going to happen today. parents have the apartment keys, i guess they’re gonna go back or whatever. fuck it i don’t care.

i’m tired. blah.

so i’m gonna see if adr and eric can come on my date with me LOL. when he calls to finalize plans, gonna blame it on adr’s birthday, and stuff. i just really don’t feel like going alone. i really don’t feel like dealing with my mom being bitchy about it.

john called this morning. don’t know why. he left a message, no phone number. jerk. lol.

i want to go back to bed. i got up at 2, but mom went in the shower. so i just wasted 40 min when i could have been doing stuff, cuz i can’t do anything til i’m clean. i want to do laundry and go through my clothes and crap, to move, but i’m still waiting for her to get out of the friggen bathroom. ug, so need to leave. i wish i could teleport everything to the apartment tomorrow all at once. this move is gonna take like 2 weeks, i can see it now…

adr freaked me out with her email. it said that New Orleans was great, and she met trent… of course i just stop reading there and i’m like  …then she says “but not trent reznor” lol. of course. *heart calms down* called her, but no ones home…

 

oh my mom….john calls again, she answers. i go downstairs after….
mom: who’s this guy calling you now
me: a guy from work
mom: he sounds older than you
me: he is
mom: how much older
me: alot
mom: *something i forget*
me: you’re surprised people actually like me
mom: i hope they don’t like you for the wrong reasons
me: i’m a whore
mom: i don’t know what you do when you leave the house
me: i charge
mom: *laughs*
me: i’m just trying to point out how ridiculous you sound
mom: *something else i forget, but still insinuating i’m a slut*
me: calm down he has a girlfriend
mom: that doesn’t matter. she might be fat and ugly
me: oh she’s not, shes about 5 foot tall, super small, cute as a friggen button
mom: that doesn’t matter. there are guys who will go after other girls anyway, cuz they’re dogs.

ROFL. omg. haha personally i like the part where i said i was a whore. i’m real happy my mom thinks i’m a whore too.

 

omg my mom. my date is postponed til tomorrow, yay. but my mom…
mom: who was that now
me: someone else for me
mom: omg in 2 days you get all these calls from men
me: oh my god, it’s the same people
mom: men aren’t people, men are animals. men who gamble are animals.

holy fucking shit. i need to get out of my house lol. wait til john calls back…

 

cleaning out my closet and getting rid of old clothes….
1. i found a bathing suit i last wore in pool class in middle school…that’s 10 years ago.
2. a lace tie so now i can be like avril lavigne
3. the black velvet dress i wore to the 8th grade christmas dance….and it still fits….and it’s nice and tight and i look hot in it.
4. blue gap sweater that EVERYONE had to have in middle school…that is still too big for me.
5. lots of ugly clothes, tshirts etc, from middle school era…how the hell did we like this stuff?
6. a blossom hat…like…the tv show, with joey lawrence…

and i still have a full closet…with another half a closets worth of clothes in the basement – more summery stuff – cuz i haven’t brought my laundry up in about a month haha….(i get dressed in the basement)

 

i need out of my house right fucking now. i’m totally moving tomorrow. taking as much shit as i can to get me through til i can get everything. i am not coming back to this house.

 

1. phone at the apartment is getting turned on on monday. fucking activation fee is 40$.
2. ordered cable internet from adelphia, but apparently they have to call me or something.
3. i’m assuming the electricity is still on from when we looked at the apt, will find out tomorrow. staying the night there anyway, even with no electricity.
4. need to go take apart the futon so i can take it over tomorrow, since there’s a very small chance i’ll get to take my bed yet.

going out with eric and adr, maybe danielle if i can get a hold of her. of course, the guy who’s taking me out called back again to say he finished his crap early if i still wanted to go out tonight.

i actually didn’t have an awful time on blackjack today. i got my confidence back, didn’t make any mistakes, had a decent time. so that’s good. jason wanted me to go to the bar tonight too, but that wasn’t happening. john is still on night shift til who knows when, he said he’d help me move. i should start doing some packing and stuff lol. gonna go through my clothes and see what i dont want anymore…yeah. sounds good.

 

went out with eric for a while. hadn’t seen him since february i think. hit the galleria and borders cuz he had a gift certificate, target then home. it was cool catching up.

home now to relax before work. i should really start this packing stuff haha.