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1. watched the “new” jewel video for “intuition” (i think)….and it’s really funny. cuz it’s obviously poking fun at all the britney clones, and current music/music videos. but i still don’t get what’s going on with her. it’d be great and funny if the video was the end of her looking like a whore…but she’s continued the look, as if to extend the joke…but it’s not working. she just looks like a sell out, while the whole time she’s singing about selling out and shit. eh i don’t even know what i’m saying. the video is hella funny tho.

2. “st anger” is just a terrible terrible song. and it’s about 4 minutes too long.

3. i try not to like linkin park, but they are ok…but i realized i’m growing out of that whole “scene”…cuz any time i hear one of their new songs, or staind or whoever…it’s so cliched it makes me laugh. but wtf am i supposed to listen to now if i don’t identify with all that…. adult contemporary?!?!  trent needs to come and save music (again).

4. had an emergency doctor appt this morning, because i woke up to allergic reactions to my new meds. webmd.com said SEEK EMERGENCY MEDICAL HELP IF…*lists my symptoms*…so called the dr, they said to come in so they could give me stuff to counteract it. they didn’t, since it was only my lips that were swollen, not my throat, and i could still breathe lol. she gave me steroids to reduce the swelling, but it’s already gone down so i don’t think i’m going to start taking them tomorrow. and then she gave me new meds, sulfa (?) drugs, to try instead of what she put me on, on monday…watch me get bad reactions to that, since it’s pretty common to be allergic to that too. ug. at least i didn’t have to pay for her services today.

5. getting dark, so it’s off to the terminal with my nite film again.

 

i don’t understand myself. i don’t understand how i can go someplace a bunch of times yet not know how to get there and/or get lost getting there every time. i’ve finally established the correct, efficient way to get to central terminal once i’m on the east side. but apparently i can’t get to the east side anymore lol. went down there with adr to photo the terminal…went the wrong way on the 33…how, i dont know, cuz thats the only way i know how to get there. ended up at the airport, having to turn around, went through a redlight cuz i couldn’t stop, almost got in an accident. back on the 33 in the correct direction, and got to the terminal. o.m.g so lovely. love you terminal haha. took half a roll, hopefully a few will turn out. gonna have to waste the rest of the roll at the falls or something.

my dad’s pics on the cable access show are on at 11. gotta tune in.

 

or my dad’s show wasn’t on…*confused*…it IS wednesday right? and it is 11 pm right…then it should be on channel 20, but it’s not. some church show is on. gonna check back at 11:30…if i miss it, russell said he’d have a copy of it. i just wanna see my dad’s pictures on tv. haha

*update*….turned the show on at 11:30 and it came on, but it was the end. oddly enough, i know the other guests who were on the show along with russell. it was this kid that i used to talk to on AOL and his friends. this kid contacted me cuz he found my site with my dad’s terminal pics on it, and we had talked for a month or so about how to scam the construction guys to get inside. since the show wasn’t really on, i dunno why they were on it…but the one kid plugged their website novim.us and i was like, that sounds super familiar. yep. it’s that kid and his friend’s site/blog. strange.

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got out early tonight…signed the early out list, because i was in pit 1 again. every monday it seems. however i was on carribbean stud tonight, which is 9283498234 times better than let it ride, so i would have been ok with not being sent home early. they closed my table though, and i got to leave at 1:30. they’re making me work thursday night, of course, after i made plans for thursday. they think it’s gonna be super busy cuz of the holiday friday, so they’re making everyone who’s off come in anyway. so i’ll have 5 hours over time at least. gonna have to do the terminal night shots on wed night now, my nite film better arrive by then.

saturday is a huge ass fireworks show at the casino. biggest in the northeast apparently, could draw 50,000 ppl to the falls, according to the city. so that’ll be fun. hopefully it’ll be busy inside the casino as well, cuz i need some money lol. fone bill came today, 95 fucking dollars, and apparently grand island is long distance. gotta call them about that tomorrow. might end up cancelling the phone, and going with a cell phone only after all, but we’ll see. what a hassel tho, after telling everyone the apt phone, going and changing it all again.

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5 min before i left work yesterday, the cops showed up…i was like um, why are there cops at my door? they were asking for someone named james, a previous resident. what the hell kind of criminal used to live in my apt?!?!?

work was work…blackjack for the 3rd day in a row, then roulette to close out my night. nothing spectacular. had to get up this morning and go to the skin dr, way too early, so came back and went to sleep again til 3 ish. eric dropped by for a bit, and now it’s time to start eating and getting ready for work again.

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well…birthday came and went, half of it spent at work. and it didn’t get me any good tips, blah. last weeks check sucked major ass.

soo…friday i went to dinner at the parents house, but my dad had to stay at work to fix major problems at the power plant. they also got me a vaccuum, and tools, and other random stuff. worked that night, 9 – 5 sucked…i was so tired and i was the only 9-5er who didn’t get to leave early. i totally wanted to leave too, lose the hour, cuz i was so tired and didn’t feel good. so i slept most of today. got up when the grandparents called, went back to sleep, got up when aunt carol called, went back to sleep. finally forced myself to get up and cook at 5, so i could get ready for work. was talked into going to this preview night at a new private club that is opening in niagara falls. it’s being run by 2 casino people. i’m not sure if it’s only open to casino people or not, but it’s 30$ a month for membership, they have gym equipment, rooms, lounge, bars, etc…might be worth it if i worked out ever, or was extremely social, but i’m not. one drink ended up as 1 beer and 2 shots, so i stayed longer than i was going to. ended up being told the life story of this kid nate who i went to high school with (younger than me though), post high school…how he met and fell in love with his fiancee, and how him and his twin bro are nothing alike blahblahblah. which is fine, but like…ug it just reminded me of my nate. have i mentioned i’ve been extremely emotional about him again? i can’t talk about him at all or think about him at all without crying/almost crying. it sucks.

but wtf is with old men wanting to take me out? and i’m talking like, twice my age men, and not 12 years older than me men *ahem*…lol this one dealer at work was asking how it’s possible that i don’t have a boyfriend, and how he’d take me out if he wasn’t old enough to be my father lol.

whatever. i should try to go to sleep now, so i don’t sleep the day away again. i can’t see out my windshield, i’m out of squirts, and i need gas so i need to be awake for at least part of the afternoon before work.

oh yeah, APC is doing european tour dates with the deftones…i wonder if that means a “passenger” guest appearance, cuz that would fucking rock, and besides having to go see APC by themselves, i’d def have to go see them with deftones incase they did that song. i’d die. haha

and oh yeah, i talked to russell yesterday. he’s using my dad’s photos of the terminal on some cable access show. he’s going to let me know the details, but i thought that was way cool. maybe my dad will get famous from all this haha.

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so last night was the outing for my birthday…in the afternoon i did laundry, eric came by the house and waited, then we headed back to my apt to get adr. she had a girl from work with her, who went to the finger eleven show with us. got there after they had started, eric and the girl (also named sarah) ventured into the crowd, and adr and i stayed back on the sidewalk cuz it was way too friggen hot. after their set, we headed to spot for cold coffee and stuff. drove the girl home, and went to go photography. well…the lights weren’t on the terminal when we got there around 10ish, took some pics anyway, then headed to bob – who is lit every day. that was way cool. i had only really driven by it at night lit up, so it was neat seeing it up close. walked around the fence again, quickly passed the nurses quarters lol. and adr and eric were impressed so that was cool. went and got amanda, and back to the apt to chill and drink and yeah. danielle came over around midnight, so did tony. drank more, walked to dennys at like 3 am, everyone left except tony, he left around 5, when i was about to pass out standing up hahaha. yeah, sooo wasted. haven’t drank that much in a while. tony got educated on the major childhood moments of me and eric…commander tom and the clowns play. we didn’t watch all of clowns, just mine and eric’s song. hahah. i think he got a kick out of it.

but i’m still up fairly early, wish i wasn’t. gotta clean up the mess now hehe

and oh yeah, since it was my bday and all..eric and amanda gave us wine glasses, wine charms and….a bottle of wine lol. adr found me a big picture frame that fits 4 4×5 pics, so i can finally frame my dad’s terminal pics when i get them back from russell. yay. i guess i’m going to my parents place tonight for dinner, and gifts, before work. oh and i got a dvd in the mail and was like…i’ve bought alot of crap from ebay lately, but i know i didn’t buy a dvd. it was bill and ted’s excellent adventure, from ty. very nice surprise. thx everyone.

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work was whatever…i got to play “angel of death” today…lol. can’t talk about it.

but i was thinking, isn’t that agulera/justin concert in buffalo soon? what if justin came into the casino and like, played at my table. i don’t even LIKE him/nsync but i’d so freak out lol. i’d try to all play it cool, and then i’d go on break and flip out. that’d rock so hard hahaha.

so yeah…it’s light out…i dont even feel like going to bed. plus its like, so fucking hot in here, all the windows were closed when i got home. and there is 0 breeze whatsoever.

so tomorrow/today…need to go to bank and deposit money, do laundry, maybe get groceries, even tho i don’t know what i’d buy…see if my dad has any negative sheets he never used so i can steal them…a binder for the negative sheets…organizing negatives and photos (which i really just want to do now)…and then the birthday crap. once again, everyone invited. oh, i gotta go to the liquor store then too. i forgot we have a blender, so i need ice cream, baileys and kaluha…and lime juice.

 

i’m wearing a skirt for the 3rd day in a row  i know, i know. today is the one i bought at the outlet mall in april with the netting in front. it doesn’t stretch, so it’s hard to walk in. i dunno how i’m gonna get in the car lol.

off to do my crap today.

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i hate hot weather.

a perfect circle album out sept 30th…good thing i’ve been saving my personal days, cuz when all my bands go on tour i’m gonna need them.

working tomorrow night now, which is good. after only 20 min yesterday, i’ll be back up to 40 again. went home an hour early tonight cuz they had no place to send me. oh well.

official invitation to anyone locally who reads this: my birthday outing, thursday in the square, followed by suffering through me taking night pictures of the psych center and terminal, followed by alcohol at the apartment. rsvp or something. lol. it’s not a party. it’s not even a non party…just…i have off, so yeah.

so friggen stuffy in here. need fans desperately.

 

got my pictures back from first ward and the psych center, they are up on the site, but please don’t go look at them til july 1st …i’m almost out of bandwidth for this month, again, and i don’t have ty to blame this time. i don’t know why i’ve used so much again this month…but i’ll post my favs after july 1st, and if you wanna see the rest go ahead. i’ll prolly go over bandwidth anyway, but at least this time there is only 5 days left of the month

 

 

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*pissed*  in the 5 min i spent in wegmans buying corn, some asshole parked all crooked next to me, so i almost couldn’t get out of the space, and pushed a cart into my front bumper. now it has a nice giant scratch on it. fuck off asshole .

but yay to fishy. finally was here for the ups man to arrive, and got the package from her. juice glasses with fruit on them, one being a lemon…and rad vintage poster coasters..hah that sorta rhymes.

last night eric came over around midnight, and we ended up sitting around and watching the nin dvd on my new tv. holy crap that tv is amazing. dvd looks so much better on it, if that’s even possible. such a nice picture. i was captivated lol.

did my running around today. had to go to tonawanda to the eckerd and walgreens cuz the niagara falls ones are all downtown near portage. too far. ghetto. went to tonawanda instead. yep.

have to go full grocery shopping, maybe tomorrow. and get my pics tomorrow. yay.

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wow…sometimes my life…is just…wow.

ok, i’ve felt incredibly rushed since saturday. getting home from the silos and rushing to work, then work sucking, then sleeping in sunday, going to work, work sucking again, and then the lunch meeting today. i need to do errands but i forget what time i work tonight so i’m gonna show up for a 7pm start just incase…so i have no time to do the errands either. i want to look at a lamp/chandelier at home depot to maybe buy for the future…and corn from wegmans.

but ok. went to lunch at the vietnamese place with the terminal president. he is wonderful. he’s totally hooking me up. basically any time i want access to the terminal all i have to do is call him. he brought me some things from the fund raiser they had last year, like the original menu from the opening ceremonies of the terminal in 1929. he’s going to mail me a bunch of other stuff. he’s going to let me know about the board meeting in the fall and stuff. going to get access to the tower soon, and like i said…access pretty much any time i want. i showed him my pictures from last weekend, and he’s like…wow you really got around..you weren’t supposed to go there LOL. i’m not sure he noticed that some pics were from the basement hehe. he’s comping the other 2 summer tours. he said to call and cancel my reservations, but i’m just gonna pay anyway…they need the money, and what’s 20 bucks to me? especially if he’s going to let me in on my own. he thinks i’m interesting… lol. i always laugh at that, cuz i find myself to be so boring. my good stories are only cuz i know lots of colorful people.

so yeah, that went really really well. i had mentioned expanding our book project to the terminal as well and he was all for it, said he’d help with whatever we needed. yay!!

since i was already near the psych center, i paid a visit. cased the building, our hole in the fence has been fixed…but it’s absurd how easily i could crawl underneath the fence in some areas. brIAn had said he went into the nurses quarters the other day, so…so did i LOL. the fence is cut and sorta peeled back, easy enough for me to get in. the building is wide open. i got a bit creeped out so i didn’t spend much time there, plus i was unprepared since i wasn’t expecting to do any exploring – no flashlight, semi decent clothes on. went into a few rooms, went up to the 2nd floor. left after that. i really didn’t want to be confronted by…1. security, or 2. any psychos hiding out inside, since i was by myself. left there, continued my walk along the perimeter and this guy comes up to me and is like “you know you’re not allowed to be walking around here with a camera.” i’m like..ooookaaay. he’s like, seriously, you’re breaking like 15 federal laws. i’m like…ooookaaaay…he’s like, security will tell you if they see you, if you have any pictures of anyone on your film you’ll be in huge trouble. i’m like…”i appologize?!?!?!” i dunno what that was about. i guess it would sorta make sense, that i should be photographing any of the patients at the complex…but i wasn’t. and i think it was pretty obvious that i wasn’t. so whatever. i finished up my roll of film and headed out. haha right around when the guy confronted me about the camera, i noticed an open door in one of the cages. looked inside…it’s institutional green LOL. i only had black and white film but i had to photo it anyway heheh.

so 4 rolls of film taken in to get developed again. *is going broke* *wishes everyone would pay her the money they owe her*…bought a roll of 3200 speed black and white, cuz the lights get turned on the terminal on thurs. want night pics of the hospital too. so guess what my friends…after thursday in the square, we going photographing  it’s MY birthday, I say so!! hehe but the film was 7 fucking dollars. there is no way i paid 7 dollars a roll when i was in photog class. definitely need to find another film source.

and i’ve decided the only reason i have a cell phone is to call leighanne lol.

 

why i need to win the lotto…aka why i’m not allowed to go to home depot —-

home depot has the best deco 4 bulb “chandelier”. i saw it in the paper, with no price listed, so i figured i’d go check it out. it was so awesome omg i want it. it’s 159$ tho, and since i don’t have a house of my own i dunno what i’d do with it til then lol. but it’s so great.

then they have THE BEST area rug..of course it’s the most expensive one they sell. 500$ i think, for the 8’x10′ BUT ITS SO FRIGGEN COOL omgomgomg haha. NEED THAT CARPET!

oh yeah, i only worked for 20 min today. went in at 630 incase i worked at 7…didn’t…worked at 8. then i was in pit 1 on relief, so i signed the early out list when i saw that. started at 8, relief gets the first break, came back down and was sent home. haha so i got paid to sit up stairs for 20 min. of course my check will only be 32 hours again…unless i pick up wednesday, a few ppl were interested in taking my day off, but we’ll see.

a perfect circle album, august!! yaaaaaaaaaay

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work was blah. was on kill me now, aka let it ride. and it’s funny cuz i don’t even have to asked to be switched out, james just always does it for me. so after a few hours i got sent to assist on roulette, bounced around a bit, ended on blackjack for the last hour. i feel like i didn’t do anything at work this week tho, cuz i never had a game and if i did i had no players. oh well.

got home at 4, went to dennys with adr who had just gotten home. that’s our first denny’s trip since we moved in hehe. someone was trying to play cds or something over the dennys music, and had the bass turned up real high…but either they blew out the speakers at some point, or they really just don’t have a good system because the bass sounded like…i can’t even explain it, but it was like someone kept dropping something haha. it was awful, let’s put it that way.

 

yay got an early birthday gift from my parents. a nice big tv… now all we need is cable.

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