Category Archives: Personal

i forgot to mention something that really amused me when we were at the buff ave site on sunday, since i didn’t really write up a trip account. we went up to a higher floor, one brian and jasen hadn’t been on before. we walk in and there are barrels of…whatever, all over the place. a few cracked open and what not. brian laughs and goes “that is sooo niagara falls” rofl it was great. amused the hell out of me.

blackjack in pit 4 last night. i haven’t done blackjack outside of pit 3 in weeks, i forgot what it was like to be on a 15$ game . work has been playing all 80s music lately. i hear “state of shock” every day. then the night bus driver was playing the thriller album on the bus again haha.

i gotta do something with my civil defense can before the neighbors wonder what it is, and why it’s in our parking lot.

off to class.

ug. this is bad. my headaches have really annoyingly returned for some reason lately. i’m back to popping pills every day. the prescription ones, and excedrin. i can’t get through a day without them. i wonder why. maybe the antibiotics are reducing the effects of my drugs? the dr said it wouldn’t. maybe it’s a phase, they’ll re-go away.

supposed to have bad hail producing storms all afternoon. good thing my car will be in a nice covered parking ramp for most of the day. but that nixes any plan of photo-ing the farm.

 

i decided for these 7 rolls of film i need to get processed, i’m not having them printed. just developed. i’ll scan all the negatives on my dad’s scanner, then print ones i like. i have a feeling that alot from yesterday didn’t turn out. i can’t afford to take crappy pictures lol. so wednesday after class, taking them to get processed, should get them back thurs. i’ll use my day off to scan them all and get them on the web. good times.

i’m obsessed with this song by my favourite 80s lunatic, adam ant. desperate but not serious. saw the vid a few times on vh1 classic. it’s so great. haha.

we have a pai gow test tomorrow. i should study my house ways. eh. whatever. don’t want to work tonight. of course last night i was supposed to be on roulette, and i missed it. tonight i’m sure it’ll be blackjack. or better yet, one of the carnival games.

i love my new pants. the fake army ones. they’re my new “wear every single day” pants, since my old “wear every single day” pants have become my urbex pants. which reminds me i have to pull them out of my laundry basket. oh well, they’re still unwashed, they’re just gonna get more dirty. i should by 2 of everything i like so that when one wears out, i still have another. haha.

oh shit i just realized there was a psych center tour today. crap. i keep not going cuz i don’t want to get up so early, esp when we don’t get to go inside. but i gotta go to one of them, since we probably can use the info for the book. now that leighanne isn’t coming up, i gotta motivate myself to go haha.

hung up more of my own pictures. mom said it’s not pretentious. haha. gotta find a place for my metropolis poster tho, dunno if i should put it in my room or in the kitchen. and since adr thought the pics of silent movie stars idea was cool…gotta look in to that more. the way the apt is arranged, we don’t have all that much good wall space, so i dunno how to arrange the pics if i ended up getting them. bah. then there’s all the vintage posters, and deco ones i wanted before. but dunno where to put them. i’ll figure something out.

so. gonna do…something now. dunno haha. i’m defrosting 5 rolls of film for tomorrows excursion, hopefully that’s enough. if we get into the missile base i might go nuts tho, and wish i had brought 10. damn my stupid fascination with all things cold war.

 

i took pics of the terminal model at the mall. it’s in the store front dedicated to the Niagara Orleans Model Railroad Engineers…club, or something. the guy was thrilled i wanted to take pictures of the model. i wasn’t trying to be all artistic or anything, they’re in black and white cuz that’s the mode adr’s camera was set on. the one pic turned out really friggen cool tho haha….so incase you care…

talked to john for like, a half hour… of not really talking. he’s so weird on the phone haha. but how friggen bizzare, i have all these dreams about him, and then he calls. i never know it’s him when he calls either, cuz he doesn’t say hi or anything. this time he said “why are you home?” i thought it was tony, tho it didn’t quite sound like him. and i don’t detect john’s accent til he says a few more things. i realized it was him and i was like OOOH just like last time he called. i asked why he called if he didn’t think i’d be home. he said he was going to leave a harassing message on the machine lol. i was going to mention the dreams but i decided not to. grrr stupid john.

 

so the plans for today are
1. shower.
2. go to marshalls/target/walmart to look for 3 nice 4×6 frames to frame some of my own terminal pics. we hung up the frame adr got me for my birthday, with 4 of my dads pics in it. need the other frames to hang next to the big frame. best bet is target probably, cuz they most likely will have frames to match my bday frame, since that’s where adr got it. if i’m lucky, they might have some kind of 4×5 frame that i can use for my dad’s “sign” pic, and a frame to use for my “sign” pic – thanks to brian for that idea.
3. stop home to get all my chucky p books for brian, and drop off some shit i’m not selling anymore.
4. defrost some film for sunday’s urbex outing
5. hopefully eat something that resembles dinner for the first time this week.
6. go to work.
7. oh yeah i gotta go to wegmans and pick up my drugs.

the phone call extinguished any kind of trend in the john dreams. i guess i’m good to go for another few weeks.

 

well. i bought a kitchen table. and we got a new couch. for whatever reason, when out on my errands, i decided to stop by the big lots furniture store. turns out they are having a 40% off moving sale. score! they had the table i liked for 200$, with 40% off (129$). bought it. went home to wait for my mom to get back, so we could take the wagon over there and pick it up. mom bought me a couch there, like she said she wanted to 2 months ago, since it was 40% off too.

bought 12 frames at target for 23$. one was a 10 pack box of frames that match the one adr got me. it was on the discount rack for 9 bux. then i bought 2 other ones, for the “sign” pictures until i find something better. the 4×5 one had no price, so she gave it to me for 8$ (it was supposed to be 13). score.

so i’m decorating my apartment with my own photographs. is that pretentious? haha

i put my carnival fish in adr’s fish tank. she said it would be ok. tinted blue water and all. she said it would be ok. it’s not ok. the entire fish tank is now green. bright green. don’t know why.

more weird dreams about john this morning. i don’t get it. i definitely think tony secretly has caught on to the john thing. at least that i was ever interested in john, not that anything actually ever went on. whatever.

off to class now

 

just so everyone knows, the cops are still sitting at the sunoco at millitary and porter, getting everyone who goes through the red arrow. and since i sat in that intersection today for 10 minutes (again) i timed the light…it’s 10 seconds long, 3 cars get through. it took 4 cycles for me to make it through the intersection. what i thought was funny was the state cop sitting in the lane next to me, talking on a cell phone – with no ear piece. maybe he didn’t hear about the no driving and talking on cell phone law.

class…we showed up, teacher didn’t. she was sick. waited around for the head of the school to show up. we all signed an attendance form and taped it on the door, and we were ready to leave, but someone thought they should call the casino and find out where she was. so they did. and the casino called her at home, and she came in. she’s like, you guys are nuts, i would have totally been out of here. but no, we had to sit in class all day. it was super.

i decided i need a pair of shoes to use soley for urbex. so i bought a duplicate pair of my fav shoes from dots. they’re a half size smaller than i bought the first time but still fit. i bought a pair of fake army pants there too. i was going to buy this pair of sorta silver pants, cuz they were rad, but the size i tried on didn’t fit, and i was too lazy to go get the next size up. maybe i’ll go back.

i stopped by scummit mall too to check out the model of the terminal adr saw. it’s in the old limited store front (next to what used to be claires). it’s home to some local train club, and someone from the club made an N scale model of the terminal. it’s pretty rad. gonna try to get pics some time when the place is open.

so now, spending tonight putting the terminal pics up. i showed tony the cool connection between my fathers photo and mine. he thought it was great. cuz it is great.

oh, and the fish tank is green cuz adr put fish medicine in it. it’s not cuz of the blue tinted water that the carnival fish came in. *phew*…but the one fish that was acting funny (my ugly carnival fish) died despite the fish medicine. oh well.

 

i’m on a new decorating kick now. now i want to decorate with pictures of silent film stars. haha. i wish i had money.

 

ok holy weird, but i’m on the phone with john. he called 15 min ago.

home early again. out at quarter to 1 tonight, even tho i was further down on the list than yesterday. and while i should have gone to bed, since that was my excuse for leaving early, i scanned in the last roll of pics. if anyone wants to see them THAT badly, you can do like brian did, and manually change the photo number in the link in the post below haha. or, you can wait til tomorrow or thursday for them to all be posted on institutional green, and the “favs” linked on here. which is what i’m figuring everyone else will do haha.

work was blah. i was on let it ride, oh the joy, the rapture. brendan was my floor and he’s funny. i think he halfass asked me out on a date, but i’m not sure. saw GI-Eric (GI as in grand island, not GI joe) walk by, so when i got out, i took a quick look around for him. him and his friends were leaving cuz they lost all their money haha. sucks. so talked to him for a few minutes and came home. i think i’ll read a bit of the chucky p book before actually sleeping.

 

took and passed my mini bac audition today, and now we’re moving to pai gow, thank god. pai gow is fun. haha.

off tonight. i want to get my pics up but i want to change the url, and i can’t, cuz IE lost the saved password info, and i can’t remember what the password for the host is. fishy i think, had her surgery today, so dunno when she’ll be on to retreive the info for me. but we’ll see.

maybe canal fest at some point. tony said he’d give a call tonight, if the weather doesn’t look shitty, might head to the canal. if not tonight, than tomorrow.

i’m hungry. i haven’t had any dinner all week. and i don’t feel like starting to cook tonight either. blah.

oh yeah. i had like 4 or 5 dreams about john this morning. weird, cuz i haven’t though much about him in a while. they were about him and stupid minnie mouse, and shit. very strange. maybe i should call him.

 

ooh cAnal fest…how we love thee. headed out for a bit with eric. saw some real winners, as always. ran into carrie miller (again) and kim stiles…who we hadn’t seen for 3 or more years. so that was kinda cool. actually it was really cool, cuz carrie is in video production so i asked her about the video reels from the terminal. she said just to call around to video production companies in the phone book and ask them if they have any machines to play 1/2 inch video tape. she said it’s probably real easy to transfer them to vhs as well. when i hear back from russell about the reels, i’ll have to check it out…but anyway. i won 2 fish. lol. eric ditched me on food afterwards so i’m back home now. tony’s on his way over with his famous tv appearance tape. going to denny’s first tho cuz i still haven’t had anything to eat all day.

still can’t get the password for the other domain. i emailed support but they need the last 4 digits of fishy’s creditcard for security reasons, to reset the password. and of course, since i’m not fishy, i don’t have them. ug. gonna be a while til the pics go up on the site now. blah

i really really really want to call in tonight, but i don’t want to ruin my perfect attendence, cuz then i lose my extra personal days. work dragged and dragged again last night, again in pit 3 on black jack, again was really sucking cuz i just couldn’t pay attention. i almost gave a guy 500$ when he only was cashing in 200. i don’t know what my problem is. i signed the list to get out early, but didn’t get out til 2 anyway, which was worthless. I wanted to get home to at least catalogue my photos before scanning them, and that didn’t happen. I want to sign again tonight, cuz i’m so tired, but…blah. we’ll see. maybe if i start sucking bad i can get banned from pit 3. it sucks so bad in there. everyone’s a big giant asshole to you, cuz i take all their money.

fishy’s not coming to visit anymore, cuz she has to have surgery …it’s bad, but it’s also good, cuz that means she’ll be healed to come up in the fall and we can really explore, where as if she was still coming up in august, we’d be limited to where we could go.

i got my letter about traffic court. “the people of the state of new york versus Sara S *lastnamehere*”…that’s not me. i guess i don’t have to go to court

i feel like crap.

wow last night dragged and dragged and sucked. tapped onto my table and got to deal to my most hated player who comes to the casino. i’ve hated him since day one, because he’s an asshole. there was another one like him on my table as well. i took some verbal abuse right away, not a good way to start the shift. then the night took forever to end. i kept fucking up, really stupid things too. i just was tired and not paying attention.

then today feels like slow motion too. i keep looking at the time, and only a few minutes have gone by, but it feels like forever. and my hands are all shaking and i don’t know why. ug.

adr is picking my film up for me tonight. she should be home soon with it. yay. i might try to get out early and come home to scan them, but we’ll see.

 

got my photos. i’m actually rather unhappy with them. i dunno. not all of them are getting scanned this time. guess that means we just gotta go back. for whatever reason, alot of them were blurry. of course i don’t know which ones were on manual focus and which weren’t, but a few i know were auto focus for sure and blurry. blah. some were auto focus in the dark, and i know the cam has issues with focusing in the dark…it’s lil test light isn’t enough often times. manual focus in the dark is no better, cuz you can’t see, and you don’t even get the test light. and a bunch i don’t know what orientation they’re supposed to have lol. ah well.

from the buffalo news

Man stabbed behind store in critical condition 7/11/2003

LEWISTON – A Wheatfield man was seriously injured early Thursday when several men stabbed him multiple times and stole his mother’s car behind the Ms. Thank You Convenience Store, 5075 Merrywood Drive, Niagara County sheriff’s deputies said.

James Giannini, 27, of Sy Road, was listed in critical condition in the intensive care unit of Mount St. Mary’s Hospital, a hospital official said.

The attack took place at about 4:17 a.m. when Giannini drove behind the shop and got out of the car while an unknown male who was in the car with him took his keys. Once outside, he was jumped by several men, including the man he was with, and stabbed a number of times before they fled in a 2001 Oldsmobile that is registered to his mother, deputies said.

Giannini walked to a nearby Upper Mountain Road home, where he got help and was taken to the hospital. The car was later found burning off Walmore Road.

 

 

I work with James. Apparently he’s “ok” though… in ICU but going to live. so i guess that’s good…

 

i am so friggen sore again from the terminal. it’s like…walking on snow uses different leg muscles so the first snow falls you feel all sore. walking on debris and trying to keep your balance and avoid big sheets of asbestos etc uses different muscles, cuz i can barely walk i’m so sore LOL.

i’m craving donuts. off to dunkin.

 

ok…i don’t know if this is a dream or not.

adr and i just went to dunkin to get my donuts, and we realized there was a gigantic thundercloud above us…moving north. lightning, started to rain, but then stopped as it moved over. driving down past target, and there’s a funnel cloud….!!!!!!!!  ….not touching down, but definitely there, definitely a funnel. i asked adr if i was dreaming, she said no. but that’s how it always goes in my dreams. so i figure if i come to my blog tomorrow and this post is really here I wasn’t dreaming. but of course i dream about blogging too…

BUT I SAW A FUNNEL CLOUD!!!!!!! that’s like, the last thing on my list to accomplish in my life… i was in an earthquake last year and this year saw a funnel cloud. i’d like to see it as a real tornado but, it’ll do for now