this was my night. got to work at 7, on roulette. no problem. it’s deader than dead in the casino. ok, no problem. i considered signing the list to go home early, but i didn’t. i’d stick it out, and put in my 8 hours, and be fine. after spending 5 hours on a dead game, i asked jason to put me on the list. he says i’m #40 to go home. plus i was a 7pm start, so i get to go home before 8pm starts even tho i’m further down the list. more standing at a dead game. i get some players around midnight. the other tables around me, with 8pm dealers, close…but i’m still not getting sent home early. i see 8pm dealers going home, but i’m still on my game. jason leaves and goes home. by this point i’m really fucking frustrated. brendan had been upstairs, and had already gotten out, but i was still on my game. 2am rolls around, and i’m still on my game, and only 2 roulette tables are still open. all the 7pm dealers are gone, plus half the 8pm roulette dealers. but i’m still on my game. the replacement pit boss asks me who my relief was, and i said it was JC but that i was a 7pm start AND on the list to get out. he freaks, because i’m a 7pm start and still on my game, and the 8pm roulette dealers had already left too. ok by this point i’m on the verge of tears on my game. seriously. i’m trying really hard not to cry at this point, cuz i was just so fucking frustrated. he gets someone to get me off my game. my players wanted me to spin again, and i was just like no. and left.

i think i’m missing something. being stupid on ebay, i search for altoids. and i find multiple auctions for Ginger Altoids, that are going for way too much money. one auction is for a set of 6 tins of ginger altoids, selling for 24$. another is a floor display with 60 tins of ginger altoids, for 139$. what??!?!! do i need to invest in some altoids to sell on ebay? is that the new money making scheme on the site? wtf.

 

my day keeps getting better and better. i’m not getting the guess coat cuz it’s out of stock, and they can’t accept back orders. great. thanks. i guess that’s 22$ i have back now. my credit card bill was 900$

the one highlight of my day…or well 2. the first one. i had called the number russell gave me to talk to the person who would know all the technical aspects of the website. so i call, and leave a message. someone calls back. turns out i called someone’s house, i dialed wrong. it was some lady. we figured out i called the wrong number, ok, sorry, end of conversation. a minute later she calls back. she asks me if on my message i said that i worked for some terminal restoration board. she wanted to know what terminal was being restored. so i told her i was with the CTRC and they’re working on restoring central terminal on the east side. she asked me if they/we take volunteers to do work on it. i was like oh yeah definitely all the time. she said she couldn’t do it now, cuz she was working full time, but that she’ll be retired next year. she was worried the restoration would be done by then HA! i told them the major problem is money, and that there was going to be the fundraiser, and that she should come by cuz she could talk to people on the board and what not. she said she was going to keep my number to call me if she had any other questions. how rad is that? lol. all russell and the CTRC is me and leighanne to do PR. the more people we talk to about this, the more people are way excited about it. i’m going to try to get the name of the googoo dolls lawyer from doug at work. i figure he’s the only contact i can find to get in touch with the band. they expressed interest in the terminal at one point, and it would be really great if they got on board with stuff now. it can’t hurt. i don’t know of any other way of contacting them, that wouldn’t go to some PO box that collects fan mail. i figure the lawyer is probably a decent bet. at least i can write to him, and maybe he can pass it along.

the 2nd highlight is i got the 2nd round of chucky p street team stuff. stickers, postcards, and pins like the lullabye street team stuff. they need to give out more pins, cuz once i’m done giving them to my friends i have none left. lol. i figure it was good timing with the postcards tho, cuz i can hand them out to people at the concert tomorrow. i never know what to do with the stickers. it’s the same kind of contest, most creative advertising location wins a box of goodies from chucky p. i have no imagination so…i’m kinda screwed as far as that goes. whatever.

but on the “my day is shitty” scale…turns out the people upstairs are not the ones who moved out. the people in apt 4, the other half of the upstairs, are the ones who left. the windows are open so you can see into the emptiness, and our landlord was up there yesterday cleaning or something. so we have another 10 months of living with the stompers upstairs.

i think i need to sink myself into something other than sitting here doing nothing all night. going to the parents made me forget about the shit for a while, but now i’m here by myself with the temptations of alcohol around, and i don’t want to wallow in my own self-pity all night. maybe i’ll work on the sites i’m supposed to be working on haha.

i’ve been ebay-ing all day, mainly looking for things i can sell, but bidding on more than i’ve found to sell (which is nothing)…

 

well i just lost my entire funny entry i was writing, cuz i pressed the back button on the wrong window. fuck. well. as i was saying, i’m doing research on the whole vegas thing, hotels to stay at, things to see, etc. cheapovegas.com is hilarious. here are some of the highlights i already typed out once…

Main Street Station – downtown – Berlin Wall: The men’s room has a chunk of the Berlin Wall on display, and you can urinate on it. It’s fun, trust us.

New York New York – strip – Coyote Ugly: Nothing attracts crowds like a bar based on a bad movie, and boy oh boy what a bad movie Coyote Ugly was

Circus Circus – strip – Scary Clown Show: A clown show that will unintentionally scare those of us afraid of clowns is performed every afternoon in the Grand Slam Adventuredome. Just walk in the opposite direction of the line of kids fleeing with tears in their eyes and you’ll find it.

Western – downtown – Crazy People: Sit down at a blackjack table or slot machine and strike up a conversation with the person next to you. Chances are about one in three that you will come away with a few gems from the conversation. After all, these people are crazy.

Fiesta Henderson – off strip – Lava Lounge: Free acts fill the lava lounge on weekend evenings with the sad sounds of once-hopeful musicians who have sunk to the level of Off-strip cover band.

Key Largo – off strip – The Awful Mural in the Lounge: It’s good for a few minutes of wonderment while you drink your happy hour booze. Otherwise, there is no entertainment unless we happen to be out front putting on a puppet show for some change so we can get that nacho platter.

“There are jugglers, dancers and a wide range of other “talented” people that would be unemployed in any town other than Las Vegas.”

and my list of things we must do in vegas
1. drink martinis in a swanky old vegas lounge
2. molest bono in the venetian
3. watch scary talking statue show at caesars
4. have a drink in every casino on the strip
5. one night down town on fremont street
5a. walk around fremont reenacting u2’s “i still haven’t found what i’m looking for” video
6. possibly walk around in macphisto gold lame suits
7. the female impersonators show at the riviera
8. play a slot, or table game in every casino on the strip (possibly getting free drinks that way)
9. leighanne wants a set of dice from every casino we get a drink in.
10. go back to paris to get one of the fabulous frozen coconut vodka drink things i had last time, and remember not to lose the list of ingredients this time.

to be added to…

definitely still want to stay at the sahara. but there are a few other possibilities. definitely not staying in any hotel built past 1980  it’s all about the kitch factor here. and the cheap factor.

i wasted my money and bought a 3 pack of those listerine strips. well i lost the one pack already. i figured i could take them to work cuz we can’t chew gum. but somewhere i lost it. hopefully it’s in the car…

but whoever thought of them? who thought, let’s make this stuff that is super concentrated mouthwash and put it on a strip that dissolves on your tongue? my first encounter with them was at the 103.3 christmas party when orgy played. orgy was handing out promo orgy packs of them. gay nate offered me one, and i was like wtf is it, is it drugs? he was a known druggie, so it wouldn’t have surprised me. it was the weirdest thing. then there’s the whole ozzy incident “it’s not gum!!”

anyway. i was on roulette relief last night. i was going to leave early, til i saw my schedule and i had a good placement, and it was holiday pay. but by midnight i was so tired, i signed the list to get out. i didn’t think i would cuz i was the last one on the list, but i got out at quarter to 2. not bad. i’m so tired again. maybe class will be short today. we’ll see.

 

i got my 100 box of crayons with the 4 new shades, and the “Vote for the shade to keep”….4 of 5 old shades have to say good bye to make room for the 4 new shades (which are ugly). the 5 shades you can get rid of are…blizzard blue, which is considered one of the flourescent colors, never colored very well anyway…magic mint, again, a flourescent…i’m ambivalent to it. teal blue…mulberry, which i like, and…BURNT SIENNA!!!!! how could they?! how could they even dare to get rid of burnt sienna. without burnt sienna my entire crayon essay is destroyed!! to add insult to injury, the online voting for the colors ended on the 31st!!! i can’t even try to help out poor burnt sienna…….besides that, the 4 new colors…one looks just like mulberry, one is another light blue color, one is this hideous semi-flourscent green, and a kind of bright orange. i might have to update my crayola essay, because what the hell is cerise?!? it’s a red crayon of some sort…

so i got my crayons, but i forgot coloring books. so i had to stop at d&k on the way home and got myself some 19 cent coloring books for little kids. haha. they rock.

first day of school. off to a good start. i got there, and a kid comes over and says, it looks like you would like one of these, and gives me a flyer…for a piercing parlor LOL. i thought that was amusing. i get in the building, and look for room 147…146….148…wtf is 147. IT DOESN’T EXIST. i hear my name, turns out my old neighbor jenny sidoni is in the class, and all the people are standing outside since room 147 doesn’t exist. it’s a small class, only 16 people. my geneseo class was probably 25. seems like it’ll be a decent class. but i can tell it’s going to be at a somewhat lower level than my first class. he’s requiring 4-8 rolls of film for the semester…um…yeah i take like 8 a weekend. hahah. i didn’t look into the hand outs yet, he said he’s going to give us an assignment sheet at some point anyway.

the bad thing is that i don’t think we’re gonna get in the dark room before the fundraiser, or with enough time for me to print my own fundraiser photos. i think i might go through my negatives and get 4×6 reprints of the ones that are going to go in the album, then wait and see how things in class are going, so i can maybe do the 8x10s myself. but we’ll see.

work tonight at 7. i’ve got a massive headache. i think flourscent lights give me headaches. i have to sort my crayons now. i think tony and i are gonna go up to casino niagara tomorrow night after my oil gets changed.

and no one understands the whole vacation thing at work…no one knows what to do, when to do it, blahblahblah. someone is calling HR today to find out details, like if we can switch vacations. cuz kevin doesn’t even want vacation, but he’s at the front of the list and said he’d ask for the weeks i want, so that if i don’t get them we could trade. that’d be great if we could do that. i’ll just have to wait and see i guess.

 

it’s decided. when leighanne and i take our urbex trip down to philly for eastern state pen, and asbury park, for all the asbury goodness, we have to stop at the crayola factory. the end.

and i realized when we take this trip, we’re gonna need like 40 rolls of film. all that asbury goodness.

and hands down, i found my all time favourite crayon name…”woodstock mud brown”

there is a new 100 box of crayola crayons, with the whole “name the new shades” contest and a “save the shade” contest…of course i have to go buy them. i’ll need to get some coloring books too while i’m at it….

pai gow 2 days in a row. 2 pai gow, and 1 black jack game relief tonight. that’s possibly one of the best relief strings you can have, outside of roulette. was a good time, despite my stupid mistakes.

everytime brian and i go exploring it rains. never fails.

stop #1. buffalo malting. james came along too. neat building, lots of graffiti. not all too sketchy, at least i didn’t think so. we were in plain view of lots of people when we were on the roof, but i wasn’t worried about it.

stop #2. buffalo soap company. how fight club. that was a bust however. it’s still being used by various companies. went down a one way street the wrong way, and of course a cop drives by. gave us a hard time, even tho brian played lost.

stop #3. concerete central. attempted brian’s new path to the building, which required walking acrosss a railroad bridge. no problem. except for my slight fear of walking over sewer grates, which the entire bridge was made of. first trip over was very anxiety provoking haha. that was a bust also tho, paintballers had staked out the territory for the day. back over the bridge, ug, but it wasn’t as bad the 2nd time. seemed to go on forever the first trip over haha.

stop #4. the ship. still can’t get on it, but i had never seen it. totally want to get on. i can’t imagine what it’s like on deck.

and there we have it. didn’t take all that many pictures, cuz the light wasn’t all that great inside buffalo malting. half a roll left over from last week, then a full roll. the ship pictures are on a 3rd still in the cam. dunno when i’ll get them developed. maybe i should save them incase we need to develop something for a class assignment soon.

now i don’t know if this is common casino practice or not, but…we have to decide when we want to take our 2 weeks vacation when we all qualify for it in december. all of july and august are blacked out, along with all major holidays. that leaves basically, spring and fall. ok, no problem. i wanted to go to vegas in the spring anyway. i’m #344 on the seniority list. that means 343 other dealers get to choose their vacation time before me. we must take 1 full week at a time. we have the first session, where we pick 10 choices soon, then in a few weeks, we have to pick when we want our 2nd vacation. to me, this makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. why should we have to be planning vacations 6 to 10 months from when we’re going to actually take them? it’s irritating. i could see a month, even 2 months advance notice…but march is 7 months from now. who knows what will be going on by then, i can’t plan a vacation now for 7 months from now. that’s insane. and it sucks. blah. and i get screwed even tho i was a day one employee, because i switched to deal in may, i don’t get counted along with all the other day one employees. seniority is determined from when you started in the department.

there is this kid at work, zhang, who i think is so adorable. not like, i wanna jump your bones adorable, but…just so funny and cute. he’s chinese, so he’s got a heavy accent. we’re all sitting on break, and everyone starts talking in ebonics. including him. he says how he had to “jack some food” to eat on break. and then someone was asking him where his bling bling was and he says “i have no bling bling”. so it went on with more of him talking about jacking some bling bling, and getting pulled over by the five-oh, and going back to the crib to drink some 40s. LOL it was hysterical.

and i was on pai gow tonight. and i didn’t fuck up this time.

 

so i went to the mall today. it was PACKED. the holiday and no tax and everything. i had this idea in my head i’d do alot of shopping, and well that didn’t happen. i went in 3 stores…maybe a few more, but i only went to look in 3 stores…delias, hot topic, and guess. delias didn’t have the black satin jacket they have online, so that was crappy. hot topic was too hot and too packed with little kids to look at anything. funny conversation overheard tho:
a mom: *holds up a marilyn manson shirt* are they gonna let you wear this crap at school?
a daughter: of course, this crap is the hottest shit out there.
mhmm…

found another coat i loved at wet seal. black almost ankle length leather, with fur collar. looked awesome on me. 119$ and not warm…so didn’t get it. i looked at guess to see if they maybe had the dress that was on the guess outlet site, but no luck. lots of really nice really expensive clothing tho. i wish i could wear short skirts, cuz i saw alot of cute ones today. ended up buying myself new underwear and stuff. for whatever reason i seem to get alot of holes in mine.

stopped home to pick up diary, my speakers (which do work…), and some other stuff. dad checked my oil and almost went off on me again, like before i moved out. have to go over there wednesday for him to change it. i’m like 3 months and 10,000 miles overdue. oh well.

i have a massive headache now. ug. i hate the mall.

going out to scope out 2 new locations with brian tomorrow. gotta go defrost some film hehe.

and my smilies still don’t animate on my screen.  maybe some setting somewhere got changed on me. i installed a firewall so…i dunno. oh hey, it was zone alarm. there’s a block animation thing in the “ad blocking” section. that’s why it wasn’t doing anything. great. fixed hehe.

they played new kids on the block at work today.

i already know my pay check next week is going to be screwed up. they have me in for 7 hours overtime when i clocked out today, and it should be 8 because of the extra hour on monday. not looking forward to having to have that fixed. oh well.

i almost got 2 speeding tickets today…on the way to work and on the way home. going to work, i was going 65 when i saw the cop, and i was passing someone. he pulled out behind me, followed a bit down robert moses, but never pulled me over. then just now coming home, a state trooper was sitting on the lasalle expy. he was probably asleep tho, and i was only going 60. but it would have sucked either way.

on tap for tomorrow, laundry i think…maybe some website stuff. we’ll see.

 

gah i had a dream i cut myself… like…purposely. like a cutter. cut down my forearm twice with a plastic knife. my left arm. but it healed real quickly, as if i was a vampire. haha. but still… i’m not a cutter, and i’ve never ever had so much of a thought of cutting myself.

i got a bill from geico for 8$ on my car insurance. i was like wtf, my ticket was reduced to non-moving violation, i shouldn’t have an increase. so i called…stupid NY state increased the mandatory “new york law enforcement fee” from 1$ to 5$ and called for back pay for anyone who got insurance in june, aka me. the other 4$ was a “premium installment change” from geico. good thing i called, and didn’t just blindly pay it, cuz he guy said he can take off the 2nd charge, so i only owe $4 now haha.

i can’t figure out why my smilies don’t animate anymore. even if i go to the url of the image directly, they’re not animated anymore. i asked around on the MT support boards, and to the guy who’s code i used to hack my MT pages…just have to wait for a response now. oh well.

i think it’s time for a new layout. so…soon.

and i’m having a hard time restraining myself from listening to the new APC songs that are on the NYC bootleg. i’m limiting myself to just the songs from the first album. but gah…the temptation is unbareable.

my mom is funny. she sent me postal mail of an ad from vogue mag, of some model in a coat. she thinks the coat would look good on me. AS IF I NEED MORE COATS. but cuz of that, i went out in search to find it…i went to the guess website, and bought this coat:
it was only 22.99, onsale. yay. if it doesn’t fit i can take it back to the store too. there was a rad dress i liked on the guess outlet site, but no returns on that, and if it doesn’t fit i’m screwed. only 25$ tho, 82% off the original price. i feel like i should buy it anyway LOL. but the jacket will be a good photo jacket, as leighanne said, lots of pockets for film and whatnot.

my stomach hurts…which just further contributes to my recent theory that humans really should have evolved by now to not have stomachs anymore, and should be able to take all nutrients through an IV.

i bought an LC shirt and their Unleashed Memories cd, cuz it has the Halflife EP as bonus material (and it was only 12$) at the show last night. realized the shirt has a hole in it. it’s not ripped, it’s as if the 5 year old little girl in the malaysian sweat shop missed both pieces of fabric when sewing it. it’s along the seam on the side. maybe adr or her mom can fix it for me. hopefully, cuz i like it.

the new pictures from monday are up on institutional green…i don’t feel like posting highlights, but they are two very good rolls IMO. one’s the rea terminal, the other is bct. i have a handful of leftover images on the roll in my cam still.

washed the bathtub, but it’s far from clean. it’s gross but i couldn’t get it any cleaner. gah. need a scrubby or something.

my arm is going to fall off of my body. i swear. my right arm is completely dead, hurts like hell. i’ve been dealing blackjack too good and too fast lately (seriously…i’m amazing myself at how good i’ve been). my shoulder hurts something fierce, under my shoulder blade, down my arm. ug. it feels unattached, like i can’t control it properly. and i gave up my 2nd day off to work 6-2. crap. 49 hours or so, but my arm…it’s gonna die.

i’m now the proud recipient of a 75$ gift certificate to Sinatra’s restaurant on kenmore ave. because i’m great.

i got screwed tonight, and not in a good way. started off in pit hell, on let it ride, so i signed the list to get out early. that lasted 20 minutes, before they pulled me off to go in high limit. so i took my name off the list. la la la 4am comes around, and i’m still on my last game i was relieving, and there’s no one from grave shift to relieve me…greaaaaaat. in the meantime i’m dealing to one of the more notorious players in the casino, which was super. 5am rolls around and i’m finally home. a nice 9 hour shift, great. there is one good thing tho. i’m getting a nice gift from the player tomorrow though. a really nice gift.

and i almost met cyndi lauper.

now i’m exhausted, and stuff. i got shit to do tomorrow, like call russell about this website nonsence and blah blah blah.

 

i just can’t read “crash”. read the 3rd chapter last night. i almost threw it across the room, but it was 5:30 am. it’s just so…stupidly fucked up. every paragraph has some kind of sexual reference in it. and for no reason. i don’t see the point of it all, much like i didn’t see the need for all the excessive detailed sex in “choke” either. i can’t possibly imagine what the plot of “crash” is, and it’s not interesting enough to make me want to find out. if i have to read the words “pubis” or “mucosa” one more time i’m going to break something.

onto the next book…one more week til Diary, so maybe i’ll just wait. er wait, it’s this week i think…today even haha. definitely waiting. aunt darleen pre-ordered it for my bday so i should get it some time this week.

 

i decided i might want to get some other lenses for my camera… first off, i have no idea how to figure out if a lens can be used with my camera. secondly, they are way too friggen expensive. so i guess i’ll have to deal with what i have. i’ll have to look into what kind of things my dad has that i could use, since he has tons of cameras and what not. maybe i’ll even tackle trying to learn to use the large format camera. but that requires tripod-ing it and, ug..tripods. haha maybe i should have looked at this site about my camera before i looked for lenses hahah. that’d have been smart.

went out to see bct today. ended up seeing rea and bct’s other half too. twas good. somewhat sketchy at times, lots of people around for whatever reason. no falling out windows or going through fences though, so that was good.

work semi-sucked. roulette for 2 hours, then yanked off my game to check rack incase they needed to open more tables in high limits, i’d be free right away. that’s bull shit. it was sunday, and it was 10pm. there was no way they were going to open any more tables in high limit. i got my game back around 1am i think. cuz i complained so much lol.

so anyway. i gotta finish getting ready for work. i feel like it should be tuesday, and i should get my 2 days off after tonight, but alas it’s not. blah.

and i’m not sure if i should be ashamed or not…but…saw the new limp bizkit video, and it’s actually not horrible. definitely better than what they were planning for their first single a few months back. sounds more like sig. other album, than the stupid hot dog one. angry not so whiny fred durst. but again, i dunno if i should be proud of this or not. sig other has some really great songs, “don’t go off wandering” for one…

another super saturday night in high limit blackjack. myyyy favourite.

today was highly uneventful. i sat home til work since i got up so late. i think i need to actually leave the house tomorrow and do some shopping. and get gas. cuz i have zero.

i finished “geek love” the other day. definitely a twisted story. very cool though. i liked it. it’s not really like anything i’ve ever read before. just, the story, plot, characters…very different and creative. i liked it. and it was about circus freaks…!!! there are some weird coincidences…like chucky p talks about the book and author in “fugitives and refugees”…there is a character in the book called the bag man. he wears veils and things around his face cuz he shot it off with a rifel…much like…er exactly like, the main character of “invisible monsters”…i wonder if that was delibrate on chucky p’s part.

now i think i’ll try the other book of the chucky p-esque author that carolyn gave me for whatever holiday. it’s called “crash”. i think it’s actually a novel, and not a collection of short stories like the other one i wasn’t terribly fond of or impressed by. i’ve got so many books to read.

i was talking to the guy who told me i looked like anime, the same day brian sent me the link to that cartoon site cuz the character looked like me. he said i should seriously look into a lawsuit LOL. i’m like um…it’s not like on seinfeld when the mannequins looked exactly like elaine. he says he knows a really good laywer, this guy who represents the googoo dolls and other artists in the area, and charges 500$ an hour if you win the case, who would sue the cartoon ppl for me LOL. maybe if i need some cash i’ll look into it hahah. i could pay off all my school loans haha.

 

it’s official. i’ve gotten the summer cold. my throat hurts like a mofo.

i’ve read 15 pages of “crash” and it’s already the most fucked up thing i’ve ever read. so far, the main premise is getting sexually aroused from car crashes. great. i’m so biased towards this author cuz of the “war fever” book, that i have a feeling i’m not going to like this book. and i don’t think i’d ever like to know the author in real life. i’m getting the impression he’s a bit of a wack job. oh well.

off to walmart and stuff

 

both heather and carolyn complained to me that they’re not getting emails. it seems i’ve now been afflicted too. i don’t think i’m getting everything i should be getting, so if someone wrote to me and i haven’t answered…that’s why. i haven’t gotten it. i also can’t seem to send any email today, through adelphia’s mail servers…i can through icenine webmail.

and speaking of icenine, my business cards finally arrived. yay. i’m a professional now.

i can’t go to walmart without spending tons of money. i went to buy some face meds, a barbie doll, and a congrats card for latitia’s new baby. i ended up buying a comforter set, and speakers for my comp. and FUCK i forgot to use my coupon on the face meds. the comforter is black and white with chinese symbols and dragons on it. i liked the red chinese red one my mom tried to order for me, but was discontinued, so this will do for now. it was only 40$ and it comes with pillow shams and dust ruffle. i didn’t buy the sheets, cuz i am just gonna use the red sheets. step one in trying to have a completely black and white (and red) bedroom. i also got a cheap 3 ring binder, and some velveteen fabric (to use with all our pleather fabric we bought for pillow making), to make a nice cool album to show my photos at the fundraiser. hooray for me.

i wonder if my new speakers will work with my sub…same company. since i dunno what part of my current speaker system is broken, maybe i can still use the sub with these new speakers…ah the return of sound. looking at my sub maybe the fuse went…then i wasted 15 bux on these new speakers lol.