today went as expected. went out to corpus christi. unfortunately, the weather was grey and gloomy, so i didn’t like the lighting inside the church. only took a few pics because of it. ran into brian and james on the way out – them just coming from the terminal, and us headed there. went over there, hung out with the board members and volunteers. they had a good turn out it seems. got myself a free hot dog for dinner. came back home to chill and go to work. went real early so i could sign the list to get out early. then things were way screwed up because there were lots of call ins, and they didn’t have enough dealers. we were working hour-twenties (hour twenty on, twenty min break) instead of the normal hour on, 20 min break. sucked, especially when the bosses don’t tell you, and you’re standing there in pain wondering when you’ll get to sit down….wasn’t expecting to get out early because of it, but i got tapped out at quarter after two. i was like holy shit, i’m outtie! i’m gonna try to catch a few hours of sleep now, then it’s off to chicago
open doors today. heading out to corpus christi with film this time, then the terminal to “drop off” adr. not going to stay long, i’m really tired. not looking forward to the lack of sleep i’m going to get this weekend. dreading it actually. thinking i might try to sleep tonight afterall, but we’ll see. i don’t think it’s going to work if i go to bed when i get home from work.
so today was my day to pretend i’m important, and went to the ctrc board meeting. good things are to come in the next year for the building. the 75th anniversary is going to be really cool, with possible connections to a very high profile group of people. think music. think local. i don’t want to jinx anything, but…they contacted ctrc, not the other way around. so things will get exciting from here. went out for a drink with russell after to discuss some other things, and catch up on little details…like me tagging along if they have to change the clocks manually (he doesn’t even know hah) for day light savings. he is hilarious. good times.
i’m up too late downloading stuff to make myself some 80s cds. i’m trying to get things other than new wave synth pop stuff. trying to get those forgotten 80s songs, forgotten cuz they’re not kitchy.
i decided i’ve been very unhappy with my personal webdesigning of late…last layout, this current layout…i just know i can do better. i decided what i’d done for the new domain i hated. so i’m starting over. from the beginning. and while the layout i’m doing now is basically simple as hell, it’s better than what i had. so…i have to go through and make 9723897234 thumbnails again. *shoots self*
work at 9 tonight. i’m tired. stupid painkillers. i have an appt next wed with the lady to see studio rooms. there are none available at the moment, but things change all the time. there’s a dark room there that someone…rents or whatever, but may be willing to share. so..we’ll see how things go.
last night my 3rd blackjack table was dead the entire time i was relieving it, so i was watching stephanie deal next to me. today we were talking, she asked me if i knew the russian guy in the middle who she was dealing to last night. i said i remembered who he was. well apparently the whole time she was dealing to him, he was telling her how he can’t play at my table because he’s too in love with me. ROFLMAO. omg. hahaha. she told him if he tipped me i would give him my number, that i wasn’t married, he replied “but i am” HAHAH. good times.
prolly gonna go to the casino with tony tomorrow night
came home last night to no where to park again. super. one more time, then i call the landlord.
the plan is to meet andy at the hard rock cafe in chicago at 7pm on sunday. gonna be weird. gonna be cool.
so i went out to look at renting studio space in the old niagara falls high school. this guy at work rents a room there and had been telling me about it. i managed to find it, but there apparently is no parking lot associated with the school. weird, but ok. figured i should go in the main door. there were people in there. it was locked, they let me in, and i found myself in the middle of a city of niagara falls urban planning meeting. haha. go me. so when the lady (possibly the idiot mayor) finished talking, the guy who let me in, took me to the office. of course the person i needed to talk to wasn’t there. but they have my number and i have theirs. took some pamphlets. looks like a really legit, really cool operation. dance studios, music studios, theatres, and all the individual artists studios. you can take all sorts of classes…two art galleries. definitely seems like a cool place. we really need to get space in there i think. the atmosphere could work wonders on me i think. hopefully there is still space available, or a waiting list i can get us on.
and when i went into the office, a kid i went to high school with was standing there. weird.
ok, so today, i promise…new layout. it’s half done. but i have to scan my flintkote pics first. they are exciting. well…i got excited seeing the negatives. so many nice machines
my flintkote pictures are my absolute, hands down, no contest, favourite set of pics ever. in particular, the asbestos machine room photos. the asbestos machine room is my all time favourite urbex site…no question. gah. machines. *joygasm*
uploading them currently, net is slow as shit, then i’ll post some. probably. or just go to the site later tonight.
ok, net is totally dead, not just slow. they’ll be up eventually.
BCT got a mention in a Utah artvoice type weekly newspaper. called it one of the best abandoned buildings in the world. pretty damn cool eh? quoted ninj too hehe. famous ninj.
I JUST SAW SEX TOY GIRL. haha
i have a bone to pick with mr stephen king… mr king, schizophrenia is not the same as multiple personality disorder. and multiple personality disorder is not schizophrenia. schizophrenics do not have more than one personality that sometimes comes out, while the other personality goes into “hiding”. they don’t have one personality that is dominant, with another that only comes out sometimes. they do not have more than one personality that don’t know the other personalities exist. simply. schizophrenics don’t have multiple personalities. they’re just schizophrenics. schizophrenia is a thought disorder, not a personality disorder. there are 4 kinds of schizophrenia, and none of the 4 types involve personality problems of any kind.
so writing a character in the dark tower series that has multiple personalities, but saying she has schizophrenia is totally and completely incorrect. comparing her behavior as a “schizophrenic” to the movie “The Three Faces of Eve” is correct, but Eve had multiple personality disorder, and was not schizophrenic. i would think as a writer of popular fiction, you would do at least a little bit of research before you give your characters psychological disorders. reading the symptoms in the DSM alone would give you enough information to properly diagnose your characters. chuck palahniuk obviously has extensive knowledge of the DSM since he uses it in practically every book he writes haha.
it annoys me.
that is all.
the photos are up on institutional green, take a look. they’re fabulous
i’m getting excited about chicago. i keep dreaming about it. and it turns out, my long time internet friend andy…who lives in virginia…is going to be in chicago this weekend too. and wouldn’t it be so weird if the first time we meet in person is in a city that neither of us live in?! lol. i’d really like to meet him if possible tho, so hopefully i can talk to him and find out what his schedule is like. he proposes to me on a monthly basis…all in jest of course. it’s kinda funny, cuz we bitch about the opposite sex to eachother, and joke around about us getting married cuz we can never find good people to date. we had a fake internet dating thing back in the irc days. and i mean fake as in, we pretended we were dating…to create drama in the channel and what not. we never actually did “cyber date”. at one point he told me he’d never have sex with me ROFL. long story.
i decided that if/when i get offered the dual rate promotion i’m going to take it. i had considered turning it down, so i could get dealer time in to get real good so i can go west…but my body is just disintegrating from these games…my shoulder is just beyond help at the moment. i can’t imagine how some people have dealt for 25 years…i’ve dealt for 5 months and i feel like my arms and hands are gonna fall off. there are 3 chiropracters that offer casino employees discounts so i’m going to look into that. another concern is that once you start going you can’t stop. ug. but yeah…i think it’s a safe bet i’ll get offered the promotion in the next round. alot of people have told me i’m going to get it, or that they’re going to nominate me for it. so…we’ll see.
my neighbors freaky ass girlfriend needs to take herself and her sex toys home with her before 4am, because i need a place to park when i get home. serious parking issues since people took the empty apartment. the landlord keeps one space open every day for him to access the garage if he wants to take one of his other 0823408 cars out. that leaves me no where to park. fan-fucking-tastic. couldn’t park behind adr and have her wake me up when she needs to leave, cuz then i’d be blocking the 4 cars on the side of the lot. fan-fucking-tastic. so i’m parked in front of the grill/garbage in front of my window. and everyone will have a bitch of a time pulling out tomorrow. well fuck all of them.
i need to be in a relationship with a gay man. that way i’ll know he’s not using me to get off on. no particular event spurred on this constant observation…i just got myself into a funk at work today for no particular reason. been thinking about shit. blahblahblah sameoldsameoldsameold. why couldn’t i have just been interested in tony back in feb when he used to hit on me. he’s a nice guy, it would have all been good. or why can’t i be interested in tom, when i know he’d do anything for me. why couldn’t i have been interested in eric all those years in elementary school and high school lol. we could be married by now hahah. wouldn’t my mom just love that.
whatever.
new design tomorrow. after i go grocery shopping because i have no food. is garbage day delayed cuz of the “holiday”? i wonder if i actually got the newspaper today….gotta remember to call buff news tomorrow and get my money refunded, since in the last 6 weeks that i’ve been paying for the sunday news, i’ve gotten it once…on a monday.
i am not allowed at the mall unsupervised
my sandals finally broke. considering they cost me 4$ in 1999 i think i got money’s worth out of them haha. they broke at the grocery store. thankfully, when i was going back out to my car, so at least i didn’t have to limp through the store, dragging my shoe along so that i didn’t step on the floor barefooted. had to drive home without one shoe. that was fun. i hate driving barefoot. it just doesn’t work in a standard shift car.
so i decided to go to the adidas store to buy an over priced pair of plastic sandals. i figured they’d be the only people who had them, you know, since it’s winter, and it’s buffalo. i was just going to go into the adidas store, and leave. but that didn’t happen. i had to go into the guess outlet cuz they were having a sale. then i had to go into the wilson leather outlet cuz they were having a sale. and i bought yet another coat. IT WAS ONLY 50 DOLLARS AND ITS SUEDE AND PRETTY. it’s a knee length brown suede coat. BROWN!!!!!!! lol. it’s not all that heavy, it’ll be a good fall coat. AND IT WAS ONLY 50 DOLLARS. i almost bought 2 coats. i almost bought a short jacket of the same style. but i stuck with the long one. they also had black leather “motorcycle” jackets, with red lining, for 100. i wanted it just for the red lining LOL. but i resisted.
did go to the adidas store, who had a very small selection of sandals. first i only found the mens ones, and they just didn’t fit right. the womens were only weird colored, so that was a bust. stopped in the sketchers outlet, no sandals, and factory brand shoes, no sandals. what, do people not where sandals in buffalo in the winter?! come on now. i might just have to crazy glue my sandals til i can find a pair. maybe look on ebay or something haha. that’s kinda gross tho…buying shoes on ebay.
and i decided to go and try the lime pineapple juice bars instead of getting two boxes of coconut bars again…bad idea. they’re so gross. i’m gonna have to throw them out if adr doesn’t want them.
holy crap. apparently the rest of the crew almost got arrested after they left me at walmart. that’s bad bad stuff man.
my arm is gonna fall off. left arm to be exact. shoulder hurts SO bad. the entire area under my shoulder blade is killing me. i can feel it cracking and poping everytime i move it. the pain is radiating up my neck and to the front of my shoulder. all the tendons/whatever pull all the way down my side when i move my arm. bad bad news. then doug had to go and hit me in the shoulder. that felt nice. he tried to massage it better for me tho hahah. but yeah. where is my live in doctor to tell me what i need to do to make it stop. seriously considering a chiropractor, and for me, that’s blasphemy, since i think they’re quacks. i tried stretches and all that, not helping.
kevin says tom is infatuated with me. yeah. i know. i’m trying to ignore that. tom’s been very cool to me lately, dealing with me crying at work and all that. he sent me an email today asking how the non-date went. when i said it didn’t, he said not to worry that i’ll find someone to treat me the way i deserve to be treated and all this. he continuously makes me offers. it’s just…not right…so i try to ignore it. kevin says you can tell just by looking at the way tom looks at me. super. he gives amazing massages tho hahah.
bedtime since i have to find my way to lockport in the morning.
and oh yeah. i got my 2nd vacation week assigned…the week ending on halloween, 2004.
today’s outing was good. today’s crew was me brian james and jasen WHO IS JUST SO COOL and i’m so glad he came with us today. went to flinkote, in lockport, an old asbestos factory. yeah that was super safe and healthy. beautiful place though. definitely near the top of my list – primarily because we found the asbestos machine, and gah *drool* machines….lots of things to see, places to go. good stuff. then went to a chemical factory that only james went in. right next to it was an old very ruinous building, that we’re assuming was some kind of railroad building (since it was next to railroad tracks). very cool. very much in the process of being reclaimed by nature. drove out to a radiation factory, so we could get cancer and permanent birth control all in one day, but there was no time left to try that since i had to get home to get ready for work. i think they were going back after they left me at walmart.
good times. i’ll have 4 rolls to process in class on tuesday. half a roll is from last weekend’s bct tour. and some of my experimental macro filter shots.
i’m so tired tho. i think i’m gonna lay down for a bit.
it’s done. the central terminal official website is done. well…almost done. done enough to be launched officially. still waiting on russell for 2 parts, otherwise it’s done and up for viewing. please check it out, let me know if you notice anything wrong.
now that that’s pretty much complete, i can finish the new site, and get a new layout for this one. cuz i hate this layout. haha.
going out tomorrow with brian. i’m home alone for the weekend again, adr’s going to detroit. i think mom is gonna come over and rearrange the living room with me on sunday. fix the curtains so we can turn the heat on etc. we’ll see.
i have a sickness. it’s called coat fetish. bought another coat. green army style jacket, will be good for urbexing. it was only 17$, and it seems to be warm and all that. good times. also bought a real light zip up sweater thing on sale at express. they’re still having their gigundous fall sale, so it was only 15$.
went to class early today so i could develop my film before everyone got there. well i waited outside the dark room cuz the door was locked, for about a half hour. then someone came out. i was like…you were in there this whole time?!? so yeah i waited outside for nothing. turns out only 2 of us were there anyway, so i developed my film that was half forest lawn, half bct, and then printed a bunch of 5x7s. i hate being in a dark room with tons of people. even like…4 ppl is too many. was there by myself most of the time. i was having one of my annoyed at everything, super sonic hearing days, so it was really really really good i was there by myself.
snagged pizza at the mall cuz i didn’t feel like cooking, but that made me go into express and spend money, so…might not have been good after all. i think i’ll do webwork tonight while the game is on. YAY HOCKEY! about time the season started. all i know is we better have the games on at work, since all that’s ever on is espn etc…
and i realized that if the cubs win this series, we’ll be in chicago during the world series. that could be insane.
i think i’m going to enter this photo contest that my teacher told me about. u can win money, and get published and stuff. and it’s cheap to enter. why the hell not. i still retain rights to my photos, unlike some other contests so…i need suggestions on what to submit. it’s 3$ each photo to submit, and no limit as to how many.