a complete stranger came and sat at my table tonight. he proceeded to tell me he was watching tv, a cartoon show. i gave him a look. he asked if i’d heard it before. i said yes, but continue. he said he was watching a cartoon show, and that i looked like the cartoon.
ENOUGH ALREADY. I GET IT. I LOOK LIKE A CARTOON. FUCK OFF.
i took all his money.
i forgot to mention the big deal costume someone had at the casino. not an employee, but a customer i guess. they were dressed as a priest with a little kid blow up doll tied around their waist ROFLMAO apparently they got kicked out too hahahah. fantastic.
so yeah. somehow b&h photo got my address and sent me a huge, phone book sized, catalog of their photo, video, audio, lighting products. spectacular. i’ll have to see what i need to buy still for my dark room and take a look at what they have to offer. i have to go out to my studio and get the keys this week for sure, so my dad can come take a look and we can start cleaning and whatever.
i had way messed up dreams about a “columbine” event happening at NTHS… walking by as the NT trench coat mafia was about to infiltrate the school, i followed them in and they were just preaching anarchy instead of shooting the place up. then i found afshani, who had lots of grey hair and most likely a toupee..talked to him, then i was with casino people and afshani was falling in love with someone who i apparently work with (but don’t in real life). and it was weird.
there’s a big party tonight. post halloween disco party. i should go and be social, but it’s out in tonawanda and that means going over grand island at 4 am, and i dunno if i wanna risk that. we’ll see how i feel at 4 am. i’m super tired now tho i’ve been dozing off and on since i got up at 12:30. my head is weird too. oh well.
something funny. there was this girl at work who came here around…april. when the john stuff was going on. i never liked her, because i think she was too much like me. independent, strange (lol)…didn’t give a fuck about what ppl thought of her. and i can’t hang out with ppl too much like me, i get all weird. so she always sort of rubbed me the wrong way. this whole time i thought i was the only one who didn’t like her. well she left on friday to go to a new casino, and it turns out, NO ONE liked her LOL. everyone’s like “let’s toast to the bitch being gone”….and “her going away party was cancelled due to lack of interest”, etc. but now she gave jenn (the only person who liked her) a shirt for me because it doesn’t fit her. which was nice of her, esp considered we hardly ever talked – if we did, it’s cuz we were both sitting with jenn in the caf.
halloween at the casino. for the record, officially, i was anime HAHA. but for those not inside of the joke, i was just a cute lil school girl. got lots of compliments. i wonder if it occurs to the men who find grown women in school girl outfits attractive that it’s just a tad bit pedophilic. but i digress. one comment really just made my night. was talking to jenn who was in pit 1. she said, “oh you were definitely noticed when you came in.” there was another comment that was funny. a floor at the other end of my pit said “hi. i never talk to you and i don’t know why.” when he saw my outfit LOL.
there were alot of football and hockey players…sal was my floor, he was tim connolly. with gloves and a helmet even hahah. james was his relief, and he had a black wool hat, and this blue shiny shirt and blue tinted glasses on. apparently he was justin timberlake ROFL. a few people were roy of sigfield, with tigers attached to them. so awful. awfully hilarious hahaha.
no sign of alice cooper, but apparently he had been out walking around during the day. booo.
THEY WORKED! my northern lights photos worked! gaaaaaaaaah. i could probably done fine with a shorter exposure, but THEY STILL WORKED. omg if they’re out again tonight before work, totally taking some more.
in other news. it’s cloudy and supposed to rain tonight. so my guess is i won’t be able to take anymore northern lights photos tonight before work. that’s ok. i still can’t believe they turned out at all.
i used up the rest of that roll of film on cows. cows love me. they went from all sitting/sleeping to all getting up and staring at me, to all coming over to me and trying to lick my camera. hahah.
i bought this loreal eye makeup remover stuff. the bottle says it’s refreshing. if by “refreshing” they mean burns your corneas, well goddamn does it work well. ug. and it does a crappy job removing eye makeup.
and oh yeah HAPPY HALLOWEEN.
now the question is, what the hell am i gonna have for dinner.
leighanne said, no one buy the chrystler building poster, cuz she called xmas dibs on it. i already got some xmas gifts for my mom, dad, carolyn, and leighanne. anyone else, tell me what you want for xmas.
today’s events were temporarily overshadowed by the fact YOU CAN SEE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS! go outside, right now. omg. soooo beautiful. i had read a cnn article about them from carrie’s blog and that there was a chance we’d be able to see them this far south. on my way home from my parents, i pulled onto the side street here and the sky was all red. there was a big red streak, then green starting next to it. they ended up getting “pulled” to the top of the sky and formed a sort of white “x”. ran to wilson farms for some color film, and drove out to the farm land in sanborn where it’s dark. attempted some long exposure pics, it would be nice if some turned out but i doubt they will. the lights seem to come and go every 20 min or so. they had disappeared when we left the house, but right after we stopped on a dark road they came back better than before. once again began to fade so we left.
i find it really hard to comprehend the phenomenon. i can’t imagine living way up north where this is a common occurence, and so much more beautiful and vivid – to the point where it creates shadows. amazing.
as adrienne put it “i love having an atmosphere” ROFL
so in other news.
indeed posted, but not patrolled.
made it out to dansville to check out the sanitarium. there are 3 very obvious gated access roads to the complex. posted no trespassing, and gates on the road…but not attached to fences. made it real easy to walk right up to the place. the challenge came in finding a place to leave my car, that wasn’t right in front of the gate. the building seems alot bigger in pictures than it actually is. all lower level doors and windows are boarded up. all higher windows are not surprisingly glass-less. there was one inside access point, but no way in hell was i prepared to go through a half window into the basement by myself.
to say the building is falling apart is a bit of an understatement. you’ll see when i get my film developed. but holy crap. the whole back left side has fallen off. not sure when it happened, because the bricks that were piled up in places have lots of moss on them. but there seems to have been a wooden structure added on to the back, and the whole area has fallen down. there were also 3 or 4 out buildings. one was a normal looking wooden house, boarded up but probably more than accessible (i didn’t try, cuz at that point i was still parked right infront of the no trespassing gate), one was a power building which was perfectly wide open. really cool in there, really muddy haha.
as long as you park somewhere other than infront of the 3 gates, i don’t think there’d be a real big issue with someone catching you. the gate i parked in front of briefly was on a road where people live, so that’d probably not be the best way to go. the gate i actually used is along a numbered highway, so walking up the slope i was visible to passing cars, but once up, no one can see you. maybe some day i’ll get back with some guests haha. i’m sure it’s a goldmine of wonderful stuff inside.
i wish really bad things upon people who fuck with me. it’s a good thing everything i think doesn’t come true, even tho i’d really really LOVE to see some of it happen. i think bad things about people i consider my friends even, and then that would be bad. but certain people really just deserve to get what’s coming to them.
it’s a good thing i don’t have the vibes that fishy possesses. if you don’t remember, pam slapped me, the next day pam got into a car accident cuz fishy sent the vibes.
everyone at work has suddenly taken up chewing tobacco instead of smoking. i can’t think of anything more disgusting to watch than people chewing tobacco. everyone sits there and spits into cups. i’d rather see someone pick their ass and eat it than chew tobacco. seriously. i had no idea people still chewed…go fucking light one up, it’s less disgusting, and at least you’ll die of lung cancer before you have to have your lips/tongue/jaw cut off from cancer. what the fuck.
wrote a nice little complaint letter with my rent to the landlord about the parking situation. 2 extra cars in the lot tonight. and i’m pissed, so the letter is probably rude. esp the part “considering i pay to live here, and it’s obvious not all cars in the lot do, i deserve to have someplace to park” oh well. evict me. it’ll save me a bunch of cash.
apocalypse now apocalypse now. the world is ending. the sun is exploding. 2 solar events reaching earth in the same week. where are all the doomsday cults? why aren’t they commiting mass suicides?
got my fillings. my teeth don’t touch anymore. gonna have to call next week if it doesn’t fix itself. they’re not even real fillings. they’re like, sealant fillings, since i hardly had any cavities. one he couldn’t even find. i only got novacaine on one side. ug. hate novacaine. had full mouth xrays too. hate xrays.
i have an urge to drive out to the sanitarium tomorrow. we’ll see.
1. did you know breakfast cereal was invented at the dansville santiarium. it was. interesting.
2. this is hilarious: According to Ellen G. White’s warnings from 1862, phrenology was one of Satan’s most effective methods to destroy souls. “Her flirtation with phrenology seems to have begun during that first, critical visit to Dansville in 1864 when she took her two sons to Dr. Jackson for head readings and physical examinations. Only two years earlier she had denounced phrenology, along with psychology and mesmerism, as a tool of Satan. Although ‘good in their place,’ these sciences became in Satan’s hands ‘his most powerful agents to deceive and destroy souls.’ In the years following her contacts with Dansville, however, phrenological allusions began appearing frequently in her writings. During her husband’s extended illness, for instance, she complained that his ‘large and active’ bumps of ‘cautiousness, conscientiousness, and benevolence,’ all assets in time of health, were in sickness ‘painfully excitable, and a hindrance to his recovery.’ And in an 1869 testimony regarding a brother’s inordinate love of money, she attributed his problem to satanic excitation of ‘his organ of acquisitiveness.’
don’t know who ellen g. white is, but she was some sort of uber christian in the 1800s. but anything involving satan and phrenology is funny. oh, she was involved with the seventh day advent church.
i got off topic. back to finding the address of the sanitarium.
NOTE: The property known as Castle on the Hill is currently privately owned. The building has been secured, and the property is posted and patrolled. Trespassers will be prosecuted.
i wonder how true that is. i guess we’ll find out, cuz i’m 95% sure i’m gonna drive down there tomorrow.
i went to the really far target just so i could go to starbucks. *shame* what would tyler say?
there’s a new vampire chronicals book out. features lestat again finally. that’ll take presidence over charles dickens once i finish “the wastelands”.
new layout in the works. was never happy with this one to begin with. but dunno if it’ll get up tonight, i sorta lost steam. i don’t feel like screwing with the css.
every day i think of a new decorating theme…in addition to the carnival artifacts, i’d like lots of vintage carnival photos…not just traveling carnivals, but amusement parks in general. like coney island and stuff.
and i want this great big poster of the chrysler building
nate is cursed with everyone telling him he looks like Doogie Howser. I never watched the show, so when i met nate, i never made the connection. He mentioned people say he looks like tim robbins, and i agreed with that.
i was watching vh1’s i love the 80s strikes back, and they started talking about Doogie Howser. GODDAMN nate is his twin. i dated doogie howser. (but nate’s a tiny bit cuter…but doogie now is what nate is gonna look like in 10 years haha)
the end.
i’ve had it with the parking situation. not only is there no where for me to park tonight, but sex toy girl had no where to park either, so she is in front of the garbage cans, and i’m next to her. good luck to the rest of the residents who need to get out of the lot in the morning. i forgot to put a note in my newspaper box to tell whoever to quit stealing my newspaper. it’s raining out. and it’s dark. not going outside to do it now, cuz there are giant puddles in front of the mailboxes.
i need to find out what song i just heard on the radio was. at first i thought it was new tea party. sounded like jeff martin, sounded like tea party type guitars. but toward the end it sounded more like everlast and i thought maybe it was that band eric mentioned on his blog. the only lyrics i recall are “hey you” alot, and “something’s hiding/living under my bed, it talks/speaks to me”. of course, i have no idea what DJ is on air right now, cuz they don’t list the weekend jocks on the edge’s site, so i can’t email them and ask either. ug.
tony got contacts. he looks so cute haha. older, finally. he said he needs to come over some night this week, dunno why.
we get to dress up for halloween at work. so now i need to go see if i can make my macphisto outfit in one weeks time…ug. could have given us a little more notice. we can’t wear masks or tons of face paint that makes us unrecognizable. not a problem. i’ll probably go thrifting tomorrow, see if there’s a cheap suit that fits me that i can spray paint and glitterize…and party city..might just settle for some cheap ass costume. i never did find myself a flapper dress on ebay, blah.
i forgot daylight savings is tomorrow…i had asked russell if i could go with whoever when they change the clocks in the tower, but i think…other things…distracted him. that’s ok. but it sucks…i get to work 9 hours tomorrow, cuz of the time change. swing shift only had to work 7 in the spring, and grave had to work 9…now it switches and we get screwed this time. i think i’ll sign the list to go home early, so i don’t have to work 9 hours hahah. we had a kickass tip rate last week, but this week is gonna go down again. blah.
sunday morning when i left work, i told a woman i was going to chicago in 7 hours, she’s like where? darien lake? i’m like um….like…illinois. she thought i was talking about seeing the band LOL
screw macphisto, i have the best costume ever!
went out to party city to take a look at the prefab costumes. i tried on some generic vampiress costume. turned out it was a teen costume, but supposed to fit up to size 9. it was this short black skirt with black netting around it and long in the back, and this rocking red velvet laceup shirt. except it didn’t fit. um..hello..i have no boobs and there was no way this shirt was gonna fit me. it was so kickass tho, i’d totally wear it for concerts and stuff. ug.
from there, went to the mall. when did parents start taking their kids trick or treating in the mall? how sad. the mall was full of kids dressed up in costumes going from store to store trick or treating. never, EVER, ever will i take my kids trick or treating at a mall. went to spencers hoping they’d have that costume in the adult size, nope, just teen still. i almost bought a white vinyl nurses dress at hot topic, but it was a bit too short, esp if i was on roulette for the night…bending over in an ass skirt, not a good idea. might get me more tips tho.
but i have THE best costume now. it’s a secret. but it’s great, and hilarious, and just fantastic. and it cost my mom all of 5 dollars at goodwill haha.
yes i will post about chicago but i can’t until some time after 1pm tomorrow.
but until then, this is what i bought in chicago
1 sigmund freud action figure
1 pack of cyndi lauper trading cards
1 pack of duran duran trading cards
1 pack of true crime trading cards
1 pack of 21 jump street trading cards to give to john
1 duran duran 1984 calendar poster
1 Ditka t-shirt
1 little bowie pin
2 cubs shot glasses for jenn and tom as requested
1 on sale photography instruction book
1 $40,000 clock
until tomorrow…