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first the jim carrey movie, now mtv. i’m gonna be a star!

had a good night. went out with nate and all his guy friends to mr goodbar again. thursdays are college nite so there were people there this time. his friends are cool. went outside on the sidewalk patio for awhile, and a camera crew shows up….mtv….taping “fraternity life”…lol. so of course they got attacked with “mtv sucks” “I hate carson daly” etc…and people (including nate’s friends) trying to get taped…haha. the mtv guy did end up “filming us” (who knows if it was actually taping or not tho, since we didn’t have to sign wavers for them to use our image on tv). the 2 kids they were actually filming for the show…the frat pledges…the one is this super italian looking kid, perfect mtv image…the other kid was sorta dorky. we didn’t really know what was going on, cuz they were filming when they showed up. then they just stood there in front of the bar until we left not really doing anything. then a 2nd camera crew showed up, and they were all just chillin not doing anything.

one of nate’s friends looked super familiar but i didn’t know why. then he said to me that i looked familar to him but we couldn’t figureout why…the kid is from grand island as well and i didn’t know anyone from the island until now…but it was weird. it wasn’t just me thinking i met him sometime before.

anyway, left his friends at the bar and came back here for a while. dunno what’s going on tomorrow. but i’m tired now and need sleep.

 

on rainy days, we go swimming out, on rainy days swimming in the sound…. – u2

so the hurricane leftovers are here. it’s supposed to rain all day. i guess that means my suggestion to go break and enter today isn’t going to happen. oh well. actually, it might produce some really nice pictures, but i don’t feel like getting rained on. it’s too cold.

woke up at 10, and it was still dark so i thought it was 7 or something. decided to get up and do laundry. i don’t know why it is, that i feel the need to do laundry alot when i just wake up. lol. this isn’t the first time that i’ve done that. so i washed my sheets, and the sheet that is on the futon in the basement. they’re in the dryer now. exciting.

the plan for today: eric is on his way home, so i guess we’re gonna do the normal store thing this afternoon. get rained on. a normal eric and sara excursion. it seems to rain alot when we do this sort of thing. then tonight, i figure get my crew together, and see if nate’s friends had anything planned. i’m going to predict we end up all at a bar again. fine by me.

rofl my computer just scared me. i forgot i put an alert on amanda’s screenname for when she comes un away. and it’s ozzy saying “we did a great job with that gravy” lol. love ozzy.

 

has anyone else (eric) noticed that the music in the commercial for ABC’s new show “hack” sounds like a soft rock version of white zombie’s “more human than human”?

is it an insult to be compared to a praying mantis? lol.

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so…still trying not to cry. i was doing pretty good this morning, and i thought today would end up ok. but for no reason, i want to cry again. almost cried at the job place, almost cried in the car, almost crying now. MAKE IT GO AWAY! heh i should listen to korn.

anyway. the job thing. had to take tests and stuff…like excel test, word test, and then data entry tests…i havent used excel in years. actually, i’ve never used excel. i used the spreadsheet program that came with microsoft works, when i needed to use one (which was never, but i did know how to use it)…i had to skip all the questions that were about creating formulas to do stuff with the data lol. and i still got an above average score. LOL how does that work?! i thought i basically failed that test. then the word test, they had me attempt do to all kinds of weird stuff that 1. i don’t know how to do 2. don’t know why you’d ever want to do them. and the way the tests were set up, you only got 2 chances to do something…the monitor was blurry and the mouse sucked, so if u accidentally clicked on something, that was a wrong answer. so i thought i did really poorly on that too even tho i use word all the time… hello, i was just in college for 4 years, i know how to use word. but i did REALLY good on that test somehow lol. and then for the data entry they look for a speed of 5000 or something, and i got 9500 LOL. so…they said that i’ll probably get placed in a bank in amherst doing computer stuff – fixing problems with ppls accounts and stuff, calling people about mistakes or whatever. it’s temp to full time, but even if they don’t hire me, it’s long time temp so i’d still be there at least a few months once i get a position. too bad i’m not doing teller work in amherst…since we all know the sabres live out there 🙂 but whatever. we’ll see. i guess the hours are 10-7. whatever.

while i keep saying that all i want is to sit in a cubicle in front of a computer (yes, how sad is that), i’m going to miss the social atmosphere of working in my past jobs with people my age. i love hard rock. i love talking to the ppl who work there, and seeing the tourists, and all that. i loved mcds, and the relationships i had with the morning girls there. so now i’m not sure if sitting in a cubicle is going to be good for me. but oh well. maybe something will work out so that i can keep 1 day a week at hard rock or something…i’m looking too far in advance, need to stay in the present. live for the now. fuck the future.

oh yeah, on my way home i passed 2 electronic pianos on the curb waiting to be taken to the dump…2…electric…pianos. in different parts of town. isn’t that weird?

 

crying again. can’t help it.

bluephisto: it’s limbo, not hell that kills you

that only makes sense to me, but it made me feel better.

 

i was organizing my archives again, categorizing them and stuff. a few things..
– i think some posts are missing. cuz sometimes, things make no sense. like i reference an earlier post, that doesn’t exist. but i don’t know for sure, or how to fix it
– i met nate on july 22nd. sometimes i think i’m too attached to him, too quickly, for my own good. but i knew this would happen. it happened the moment i shook his hand at work his first day. i mean, go look at that day’s posts…it’s talking about how fantastic he is. hey, at least that continues to prove i’m a good judge of character. carolyn is proud of me for doing this whole relationship thing, risking my own personal pain, even tho i know there is no future, since he’s leaving…
– i still laugh about eric telling me that i WILL wait a week to go out with nate the first time, and that i will NOT get impatient and lose interest. thank you dear, i appreciate your help!

 

the onion smell has been replaced with a pancake smell which has been replaced with a something is burning smell. but at least the onion smell is gone.

i started reading the godfather last night, and i’m impressed with how good a job the movie did sticking to the book so far. and it makes me even more impressed with the actors who were in it.

i feel sorta better. not 100%. not even 50 probably, but better. almost cried at dinner, but was laughing too so that’s good. now i’m trying to look forward to tomorrow.

i dunno if i’m going to do more flash lessons tonight or not. my head sorta hurts, so i might skip my lesson tonight. lol

and why are there no sites filled with osbournes waves?

 

ok now my room just smells. went downstairs and watched part of the west wing, cuz my parents had it on. then nate called, talked to him for a bit. had some ice cream, came back up here, and it smells. i don’t even know of what, but i don’t like it and it needs to go away. have to find febreeze and just cover everything.

i’m in a better mood. it was slowly getting better since dinner, and now i’m feeling like 75% better now. tomorrow should be good. nate said he has no money, so tomorrow we have to do something lame. i told him i didn’t care what we did, we could sit here all day for all i cared…so he mentioned having a nose picking contest or something lol. he said he’d hose me, and i told him that’s an honor he could feel free to enjoy, and i’ll just lose with grace. haha. my mom reminded me that the corn maze is open down the street, so if that’s not 7$ like the geneseo one was, maybe we’ll tackle that beast tomorrow. i don’t really care what we do.

current mood: better

ok when i typed better, i totally heard it in my head as lestat says it in queen of the damned. me and carolyn mention all the time about how we can’t read or say certain words without associating them with hedwig… like “optimistic” and “basically”…for example. and now i have a qotd one haha.

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mood was ok, went not ok again. on the verge of tears again. go away.

so the job fair. as i expected, a complete and utter waste of time. it was a waste of gas to drive there, a waste of 5.25 to park, and a waste of time. i walked in and who was standing there? nate. and his friend. so that was a nice surprise, even tho i was hoping to run into him there. not going to go into any more details about how depressing and awful it was, but it was the general consensus that it sucked.

is it weird that i hope to run into my boyfriend places? i’m sorry. not gonna start.

anyway. nothing to do the rest of today, or tomorrow. work thurs, going out with nate thurs night. need something to keep myself occupied with. i’m going to go cry now.

ty’s giving me a job doing web design. i guess that’ll keep me occupied for tonight.

 

i have an appointment at a job agency tomorrow. that was fast. they ask me how much i want to make…well, enough to pay the bills. i don’t feel right saying like 10$ an hour, which i think is the least i deserve as a college grad. but whatever. i said i make 7 now and want more than that.

 

the mood is gone slightly. i’m not crying anymore. i made ty’s company’s site demo, and he wants me to do flash – so i occupied myself by teaching it to…myself. i got through the guided lessons, and tomorrow i’ll tackle the tutorials. the tutorial to make a movie said it takes 3 hours lol. so when i get back from my job appt thing, that’s what i’ll be doing the rest of the day and night.

adrienne came by for a bit to give me the money for the sabres tix. ended up talking a bit, and watching the osbournes. the canadian airings on CTV are unbleeped! so now it gives me a reason to watch them on tv again haha. except i missed the first 2 eps now.

starving, and trying not to think too much so that tomorrow will be better than today. don’t want to spend another day crying with no reason.

forgot to mention in my upset-ness before but…people should not be allowed to drive chevy suburbans without a permit. u should have to present all kinds of documents saying why you need to drive a tank. took me 10 minutes to get out of the parking garage after nate dropped me off in front because i had to drive the entire way through the ramp behind one going about 1 mph. standard shift cars don’t go 1 mph, they stall. and who on earth needs a suburban?!?!? this was some soccer mom. she doesn’t need a suburban. ug. pissed me off. something else on the way home pissed me off too but i forgot what it was. i made the mistake of going down elmwood to get home, cuz i was gonna stop at frisbees…took me almost an hour to get home that way, and by the time i got to frisbees i was so pissed off i didn’t stop.

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a case of the mondays…what is this the 3rd week i’ve gotten myself into a funk on a monday? this time it’s about jobs, or lack of. 169 matches came up for my search, none that i was qualified for, or wanted to lower myself to do (like be a secretary…) i applied at INS for immigration inspector. right, like i’ll get that. once they look at me and see there’s no way i could restrain some illegal alien running across the border, they’ll dismiss me. but whatever. they get to carry guns. lol. the buffalo job fair thing is tomorrow, parents making me go. just looking at the list of employers in the newspaper, who are going to be there, i can tell it’ll be less than fruitful.

anyway i’m being haunted by “paradise by the dashboard light” again. it won’t get out of my head. they’ve been playing it alot at work lately, it was in my head all night as i was trying to fall asleep, and then just now when i got out of the shower it popped back in. make it stop. yeah it’s a funny song, but come on. anytime it wants to leave my head, that’d be great.

 

such a fucking bad mood. i just want to curl up in my bed and cry and sleep. for no reason. been on the verge of tears for the past hour, for no reason – i was playing free cell and solitare as my resume printed. at least work will be a somewhat pleasant distraction from whatever is making me feel this way. since this time, i have no clue what it is. last week i knew, week before, same thing… this time, dunno. arg.

there’s an article on sabres.com about the new nets and glass around the ice to prevent injury etc. says something about how with the new partitioned glass gives more, so players won’t get hurt and how it’s noiser, making the game more exciting for ppl sitting along the boards. i must say i noticed this. we were 2nd row, end ice on the bench side. we had quite a few people checked into the glass right in front of us, and wow does the glass move lol. and it was exciting lol. so the article is correct.

that reminds me. i did get the sabres tix today. for me and adr for the leafs game in november, and for adr and her brother the islanders game in october. this might be the only game i can afford to go to. fucking 8$ service fee per ticket…

 

work was a typical monday it seemed. really slow at first, got hit around 7:30, cleared up again the rest of the night. spent lots of time talking to retail girl and helping her box glasses and wrap candy filled shot glasses in green netting. as for improving my mood, i was ok. almost started to cry during, of all songs, marc antony’s “you sang to me” for no reason…it was bad. but overall i was ok. not as ok now that i’m back home but whatever. i’m going to hope this is all due to hormones (hoping for more than one reason lol)…

it reeks like onions in my entire house, which means i’m going to smell like onions even after i shower tomorrow morning. despite the fact that i hate mexican food, i can’t stand don pablos cuz you leave smelling like onions – and it just won’t go away. last time i was there (sophomore year) i had to febreeze my clothes 5 times even after washing them, to get the smell out.

i have nothing else to say. i think i’m going to go to bed and cry for a while so that i feel better. yeah. sounds like a plan.

 

a better post. i love this weather. it’s so delightfully cool outside. i just wish i had new clothes…well i could if i only liked anything for sale :-/

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hockey yaaaaay!! sabres won 6-3. i forgot we had gotten 2nd row tickets, nate was impressed lol. never found a 4th person so we had extra food hehe. the game was good, there were 2 fights – same guy on our team…mcmarrow or something. and he beat the shit out of both of them, it was great. the 2nd guy had to be helped off the ice heheh. so yeah, pretty good.

the movie thing was interesting too. they filmed the crowd during the national anthems, made everyone put their hand over their heart. then during intermission they had the crowd (or mainly just one section that they filled up with ppl and gave signs to) do stuff…at one point they had everyone doing the wave (even tho ppl don’t do the wave at hockey, whatever) and we didn’t stop. the announcer guy telling us what to do kept saying ok, good, you can stop – and it kept going. haha it was funny. they filmed stuff with sabretooth running in the aisles and stuff, so i’m figuring jim carrey is going to be playing on the sabres in the movie lol.

but the highlight of the night came when adrienne spotted a guy wearing an old school blue and gold jersey, blue and gold zoobas, with a mullet. so the 3 of us keep making fun of this guy, and then the people in front of us start pointing at him… CUZ THEY KNEW HIM! ROFL they got up to go talk to him and i’m like OMG WE WERE JUST MAKING FUN OF THEIR FRIEND!!!!! LOL it was fantastic. the little girl looked just like jake bonus – no lie. they could be twins, just different genders lol.

after the game we went to mr goodbar to meet up with nate’s friend…jay gordon. no lie, that’s his name LOL. didn’t find this out til halfway through the night, and i’m like DUDE WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME YOU KNEW JAY GORDON! lol…cuz i mean really, i’ve talked about orgy before with nate, and how i met jay gordon, and he doesn’t mention that’s his friends name?!?! well nate apparently forgot his last name, so that explains it LOL. but it was funny. so hung out at goodbar for a while, and came home. early night.

oh and i AM working tomorrow now. michelle called right as i was leaving for me to work swing tomorrow. yay…even tho i’ll prolly still only get 4 more hours, there’s the potential that i could be there for 10. lol

 

picked up an extra 9 hours of work today. so now my pay check won’t be quite as pitiful on friday. good for me.

i have a story. a 2nd hand story.
place: hard rock cafe
time: friday morning
friday morning someone noticed a big white limo outside of the restaurant, and a black man sitting on the steps waiting for us to open. someone realized…that’s ll cool j. ll cool j, sitting on the steps, waiting for us to open LOL. needless to say, we opened right away for him, his body guard and manager. apparently, ll was way cool, took pictures with everyone, signed tons of autographs and stuff. all 3 got side salads with a chicken breast on the side. and of course, i wasn’t there. not like i’m an ll fan, but come on… i watched in the house, i owned the “hey lover” single… i used to think he was hot…and apparently he is really good looking in person.

i better be there if jim carrey comes in.

nothing much else to say. close tomorrow, off til thursday day shift, close saturday. i want to thank the mgr that makes our schedules for giving me and nate complete opposite ones…he’s off when i work, i’m off when he works. thanks. i appreciate it. and i appreciate that he has all night shifts, so it’s not like he’d work in the day and we could go out at night…she thinks she is doing us a favor by giving us both friday and sunday off, but the way i’ve been lately if i don’t see him until friday, i’m going to go crazy. i realize how bad, and unlike me that is, but it’s the truth. gonna have to work something out for midweek.

which reminds me. i got into a conversation today with the girl in retail about telling people that you love them. she asked me what my longest relationship was and if he told me he loved me…so i told her, and whatever. she asked me if nate has said it, and i was like no it’s only been like a month. to which she replied, so then it’s coming soon….ok i guess i’m clueless as far as this is concerned, but 1 month is enough time to love someone?! it’s expected that people tell eachother they love the other one after a month? i thought it was more like, you say it when you actually DO love them lol. not, oh we’ve been together a month, i love you. i know i’m dysfunctional in this department, but still…didn’t know there were rules. she was stressing cuz she’s been with her boyfriend for a year, and he’s never said it. a year – that might be pushing it. i’d think if you were together for a year, you must like the other person an awful lot lol.

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last night was uneventful. dyed my hair, it’s very red now. adr came over and we chilled here all night. didn’t feel like going to band night at work, cuz i would have had to do my hair and get dressed lol. me=lazy.

sabres game today. prolly leaving here around 4, to pick everyone up and get downtown early. cuz of the movie thing. 🙂 still don’t know the deal on the 4th ticket…

i just got called into work. haha. why couldn’t they have called me in for tomorrow? i’d go tomorrow, can’t go tonight. grr…

anyway, did the site updates finally. added about 15 pictures from the past 9 months, that i’ve been too lazy to add before. i pick and chose from more pics…figured i didn’t need 8 of the basically same picture of me and heather from january lol. i’m still waiting for leah’s black and white whore pics from the end of the year, and her pics of me and nate from last weekend.

 

i have these neighbors…2 girls 2 boys. they were my childhood playmates, but we all grew up and drifted. it’s only normal. the oldest girl had a sorta different circle of friends than i did (besides being in different grades)…she was miss popularity (but not a bitchy cheerleader thank god), and i was normal. as the oldest she led the way for her sister to be in that kind of social circle as well. now the oldest boy (about 14 ish now) has gone on to football, and popularity i’m sure. he was a cute kid, not so much anymore (fat neck lol)…the youngest one, i have no idea how old he is, i’m gonna guess 11 or 12…i don’t know his social status, but i almost want him to turn out to be sorta skater/punk-rock/goth…i think it would be so funny, and throw a big wrench into their way of thinking. i dunno why i wish this, it just occured to me the other day that i’d like to see it happen. for him to be like, the black sheep of the family. i’m weird, i know. he’s such a cute little boy, it’d just be fantastic lol. ignore me lol.

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one hour photo – thumbs up. it was pretty good. robin williams plays such a good creepy psycho guy lol. it was interesting, and the very end was somewhat unexpected, and made it even better. turns out it was written and directed by mark romanek – the famous video guy (including nin’s “closer” which he refused to put his name on cuz it had to be edited so much to be aired on MTV and he thought editing it was wrong, mj and jj’s “scream”, madonna’s “bedtime stories”…) i kept noticing some interesting shots and camera stuff, and it all made sense when i saw it was by him. one thing i don’t get, like why it was there, and it was one of robin’s dream sequences towards the end. very mark romanek, but i don’t understand the symbolism behind it. but that’s ok lol. went to dennys after and to the island for a while. i decided taking the north bridge is way shorter than taking the south bridge to get to nate’s house. so that’s my new route.

tomorrow i have nothing to do. i think it’s supposed to rain and storm all day or something. it’s really windy out now. i need to dye my hair again, cuz my 1 grey hair is super noticable LOL. so i might do that…dunno what else. it’s band night at work, so might head there to chill for a while since nate will be there, and i figure it’s something for me, or me and adr to do. but we’ll see.

 

bought hair dye, bought hairspray, put batteries in camera…my day had been productive 😛

heard the new 3 doors down song with adr the other day. does. not. sound. like. brad. at. all. but we both recognized the song from them doing it live in the 4029495 shows that we saw lol. it’s decent.

it’s really friggen hot again. and what happened to the storms? it rained at 7 this morning (woke me up, thanks). now it’s super sunny and hotter than hell.

bono’s on oprah today. is it still on at 4pm?

 

i think i’ve neglected to mention how much i love bono. i. love. bono. he is brilliant. obviously, i watched oprah. it was fantastic. love him. the mtv special about bono and chris tucker’s trip to africa is on oct 9th apparently. seeing what was on oprah and stuff, about africa, and the problems there and stuff, i really admire nate for going over there to try to help. i wish i could leave my comfort zone and do something like that, but i know i wouldn’t survive it.

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something that annoys me. i hate watching shows and how for the last 15 minutes, they do like a 1 minute segment, and then 5 minutes of commercials, back for another minute, more commercials. it’s pointless. i mean, i know the point, but it’s dumb and annoying. and oprah should get her facts straight about certain things…like that bono and ali did not JUST have their 4th kid, it’s way over a year old now…

it’s so friggen hot. we’re going to wendy’s for dinner hehe

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home from work already. managed to stay an hour longer tho, cuz mgr forgot to send me home at 1:30 lol. i have nothing to do now, so i think i’m going to take a nap. going to see “one hour photo” tonight.

work was cool tho. me and the bartender bonded today, cuz it turns out he was in MPP too (he graduated high school in 93). so that turned into talking about dead teachers, which led into talking about the high school, and good teachers there and stuff. so it was kinda cool. it was dead, so i didn’t do too much. no over exertion today. this winter might not be as slow as the past, because of the casino construction. over 1000 construction workers will be a block away the entire winter, so we’re hoping that business will pick up. the casino is supposed to open new years eve. there might be plans in the works to renovate our restaurant too, build a 2nd floor and stuff. it wouldn’t start now, but probably in the spring. it’s always safe to wait and see if something actually ever gets finished in the falls before doing something like that – since the falls is notorious for starting things and never finishing them (like “the big fucking hole” aka aqua falls, across the street from us)

i finally got my diploma! and my computer art grade was changed! i don’t know why it doesn’t show up changed on knightweb though. so i did indeed graduate magna cum laude. go me.

 

my parents are going away for 6 days… six whole days!! lol i’m having a party.

looked up some info on niger, where nate will be going…wow it’s mighty bleak LOL. it’s not funny, it’s really interesting, and really scary. they have lions. LOL that’s not that important, but yeah…they grow onions. nate’s gonna be farming onions hah jk, he’s doing something with agriculture i guess tho…cia fact book…they have a whole 10sq miles of water…that’s like a pond (except it’s a river)…insane. scary. not thinking about it.

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*kicks adelphia* stupid internet went down sometime in the early afternoon yesterday, and then i went to work so i just shut the comp off – which is why i wasn’t around, if you were at all worried about me.

yesterday. work was INSANE. when i got there it was dead, and i hung out up front talking to nate before pre-shift. it continued to be dead enough that they sent 1 server home (leaving 2). then at 7:30 ish we got SLAMMED. insanely slammed, and the 1 server was new, so he wasn’t handling it too well. so i spent an hour bussing tables, and then immediately seating people, running around like a chicken with no head. then i had to spend a half an hour cleaning up the flood in the bathroom because people don’t know how to use modern plumbing. THEN, it was dead again, no new customers, but no one was leaving either. so at 11 i locked the doors and i had called nate to meet me at the bar, and then manager wouldn’t let me leave. he said i had to stay there and say goodbye to people as they left. ok all summer it was super busy and i never once had to stay longer than 10 min or so after i locked the door. I stayed 40 extra minutes last night, doing NOTHING, cuz no one was leaving so i had no one to say goodbye to. i’m like fuck, nate is gonna think i stood him up and leave, and arg. so i finally asked if i could go and he still almost didn’t let me go. fucker. practically ran to the bar so that i wouldn’t just miss him leaving or something, but i saw his car so it was good. kristen and mike were there (i figured they would be) so nate wasn’t by himself waiting for me lol. had a few drinks and then the 4 of us went to dennys for food. i didn’t really want to go home but nate had to sleep so he’d be good for his substitute teaching interview thing today.

so i slept good last night, 2 nights in a row, it’s been nice. then rushed around to get ready to go to the sabres practice at the arena with adr. it was from 11:30 til 2, but they were still practicing after 2 and no one was leaving so we stayed til quarter to 3 ish. the little flyer they gave out had a thing about the preseason game on saturday….which we are now going to, because they’re using the arena in Jim Carrey’s movie!! so everyone has to be there and in their seats by 5:30 so the movie people can film, and stuff. there was also this 4 ticket deal including food and stuff for 60$ so me adr nate and ? are gonna go. need to find a 4th person i guess. we have no other friends lol. so that’ll be good. fun times fun times. the practice today was cool…someone still needs to sign their contract.

now i have nothing to do tonight. i forgot i need to go get batteries for my camera, and i want to dye my hair so i might go see if anyone’s got it on sale. i’m really friggen tired. oh yeah i’m supposed to get the chucky p book today, but darleen hasn’t brought it over yet. i dunno when she gets out of work and if she’s gonna bring it by, but i’d hope so…cuz i could have gone yesterday to get it myself and been done with it by now. lol.

oh yeah, my dad comes up and says my dentist bill came from a few weeks ago…75$…they’re going to pay 65$ of it for me. so of course i’m like wtf doesn’t my insurance cover it, i’m paying fucking 210$ a month. nooo i don’t have dental insurance. so i’m just not gonna go to the dentist anymore, and i told him, and he’s all like “that’s not a good idea.” well i don’t fucking want to spend 75$ to go to the dentist…he’s like, well skip the sabres game. there’s a difference between spending 20$ for something i WANT to do and 75$ for something i DONT want to do…besides the fact that i can afford the 75$ i just don’t want to have to. arg. unless they’re gonna pay for the dentist for me in the future i’m not fucking going. screw that, i can brush my own teeth thanks.

 

the rock and roll hall of fame museum in cleveland is doing a U2 exhibit when the john lennon one closes in december!!! must go!!! the article said they won’t be displaying the giant lemon cuz it’s too big hehe.

i can’t be home without my parents annoying me for no particular reason. i ask my dad a simple question about my loans – why are they due by october 28 when that’s not 6 months after graduation. and he’s like i dunno, u’ll get it paid off 1 month sooner now 😛 gee thanks. the rules are 6 months, not 5, and i don’t want to pay in october if that’s not the way it’s supposed to go. then i ask my mom if she talked to darleen, and maybe knew if she was going to bring the book over. and she’s all snotty, saying that i’m supposed to go pick it up. well gee it was nice if i knew this. and if i knew whether or not i’m supposed to pick it up from darleen or the bookstore. mom is like, she made it sound like you knew what to do. no she told me she was getting me the book, and that was it. great. can we go back to the last few weeks when i was getting along with my parents? thanks. maybe i should have nate come over and remind them how much they like him, so that they’ll keep being nice to me.

 

do you know what amuses me? the use of motors as sexual metaphors in 80s hair band songs….lol. they’re all over the place…
AC/DC “you shook me” – “she was a fast machine, she kept her motor clean”
Skid Row “18 and life” – “he kept his motor running but didn’t keep it clean”
Motley Crue “looks that kill” – “Now she’s bullet proof, Keeps her motor clean”
and those are only the ones i’ve noticed recently. eric, any to add?

off to read lullaby!!!!

 

my favourite lines from “lullaby” so far
page 143.
looking out the car window, oyster says, “you ever wonder if adam and eve were just the puppies God dumped because they wouldn’t house train?”
he rolls down the window and the smell blows inside, the stinking warm wind of dead fish, and shouting against the wind, he says, “maybe humans are just the pet alligators that God flushed down the toilet.”

chucky p has a thing for describing colors. and for ivy taking over cities.

done. took me 4 hours. liked it better than choke, by far. it was damn good.

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i worked more than 3 hours today!!!!!! stayed til i normally would get sent home! exciting! maybe i’ll get 20 hours this week!! not likely…lol nope, even if i never got sent home early i’d still only have 18 i think lol.

anyway…this is mean, but…these people came in with a baby today..probably close to a year old. the baby had this hideously disgusting tumor on it’s forehead. it was giant sized…a bit more than the size of a quarter, and then close to an inch deep. bright red, middle of the kid’s forehead. it’s sad really, because it was revolting. i saw it and almost gagged. now when your baby is born with this giant tumor on it’s head, get it removed. maybe the kids brains are growing on the outside of its head….

besides that things were pretty uneventful…it actually was sorta busy. i’m really tired now, for no real reason. i gotta run a few errands tonight and see what’s up with nate. fun wow.

oh yeah, apparently the buffalo terrorists were planning on attacking the niagara falls area…that makes me feel so good since i just spent the past 3 months in the falls. i guess it really really REALLY was a good idea to put my dad and the plant on alert recently lol.

 

i had to go wait around in cvs for 20 min or so just now so i occupied myself with the magazines. they make me laugh. every single one of the “woman” magazines (see also: cosmo, glamour etc) had “10 things men want in bed” on their cover as a lead story…every. single. magazine. lol. and of course that’s what is on the cover of every issue, so that makes 120 things men want in bed per year…lol seems they have alot of wants 😛 *shakes head* boys…

 

i’m thinking myself into a less and less good mood, so to avoid going any further into it i think i’m going to go to sleep in hopes that it’ll go away, and i’ll wake up in a better one. gah stupid head. i keep falling asleep reading anyway, so yeah. blah. so it’s only 9pm, so what. i’ll be up at like 4.

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